#didn't expect this post to blow up overnight

[cowgurrrl]

Ok maybe I love angst???? I know you wrote readers perspective during break up but what about Joel’s perspective seeing pap pics or posts from crew, knowing Sarah and Ellie still chat with reader?

Sick and FUCKING TWISSSTTTEEEDDDD

but yes 😈

Night Shift

Pairing: rockstar!joel miller x actress!reader

Summary: “Some days, I want to spit me out, the whole mess of me, but mostly I am good

and quiet.” - Camille Rankine, “Emergency Management” [1.3k]

Warnings: angst, Joel being the best dad, I think that’s it??

The first thing he said to the girls when he told them about the breakup was, "But if you still want to have a relationship with her, that's totally up to you. I know you guys both really liked her." And it was true. After years of being more or less a single dad, he wasn't about to pry the first woman he'd introduced to them from their hands. He reasoned that they were old enough to make their own decisions regarding their relationships. Who was he to take that away? He just wasn't expecting it to hurt as much as it did.

When Sarah got into UCLA, he took the girls to a fancy dinner downtown. He's always been one to shower his daughters in love and adoration, especially when one of them hits a huge milestone and especially now that he has the resources to do so. The night was filled with laughter, wistful ideas about the future, and a few tears on Joel's part. He put his own schooling on hold to raise Sarah, and now, to see her accomplish something he never did, it's warranted for him to be a little emotional. 

Those emotions are still fresh when he wakes up to Sarah sitting at the kitchen table, a beautiful flower vase on the counter. He walks over to where she's sitting and kisses her head before asking who the flowers are from. He expects them to be from his parents or even Tommy and Maria to celebrate the good news, but when Sarah says your name, everything in him freezes. 

"I texted her when I found out because she helped me with applications and stuff. I didn't know she was gonna send anything." She says sheepishly, but Joel composes himself and shakes his head.

"That's perfectly fine, baby. It was nice of her to send you something pretty." He recovers, and she smiles as she walks over to the vase and plucks a note between the petals. 

"She sent a nice note, too. D'you wanna read it?" She asks. He rocks back on his heels, glancing between the flowers and the soft smile on his daughter's face. She wouldn't offer if she didn't want him to read it. He nods weakly, and she hands him the tiny notecard, rereading it over his shoulder.

For SBM,

Congratulations on getting into UCLA! I'm proud of you every day but especially today. You're going to do amazing things, kid, and I can't wait to see what they are.

Love you

Then, under the heartfelt note are your initials. Joel stares at them like it's enough to fix the past and bring you back to California. Sarah notices and wraps her arms around him, squeezing him tightly. He takes a deep breath and kisses her temple.

"That was very nice, honey. D'you text her to say thank you?"

"Yeah, but she's ahead by a few hours, so she probably won't see it for a while," she mumbles. "Have you talked to her since she left?" He thinks about lying to soften the blow for her as all good parents do, but she'd see right through that.

"Don't think she'd wanna hear from me."

"That's not true." 

"She's workin'. I'm pretty sure the last thing she wants right now is to hear from her ex."

"How do you know?" She challenges, and he gives her a look.

"What?"

"How do you know the last thing she wants is to hear from you? What if she's waiting for you to make the first move?"

"Sarah." He says, shaking his head. 

"I'm just saying you never know until you try! You, obviously, cared about each other. That doesn't just go away overnight." She says, throwing her arms up in defeat.

"It's not that simple."

"Because you still love her."

"Because I fucked up," he says. He makes it a point not to curse in front of the girls very often, but they can always tell when he's upset because it slips out. Old habits die hard, right? Sarah stands there, staring at her dad, as he thinks. "I hurt her, and when you hurt someone, you don't get to decide when things are okay again. I hurt her, and she did what she had to, and I have to respect that."

"You could tell her Angela disappeared again. Maybe that'd make it better?" She suggests, and Joel's heart breaks all over again. Sarah put a lot of faith in Angela this time. They all did. He thought she had turned a corner, and she had, but that didn't mean she was ready to step up for his daughter. She said as much in her letter. I'm sorry. I can't do this. I'll only hurt Sarah. Tell her I love her, but I can't be the mother she needs. I don't know that I ever will be. Just like that, he was left to pick up the pieces again. 

He reaches for her and pulls her into a tight hug. She rests her head on his chest, and he rubs her back. They stay like that for a long time, tears falling from both. He tells her it's not her fault. Angela is sick, and she has been for a long time. It's not an excuse, but it's a reason. He tells her he wishes she could be better for her, that she deserves a mother whose presence doesn't bring pain. He tells her he loves her and he's always here for her. He wishes so deeply that he could take this pain away from her and erase any bad memories of her mother. In a perfect world, maybe they could co-parent or, at least, see each other at family events every couple of years. But this is not a perfect world, and they both know it. So, like always, Joel holds his baby girl and tries to make things okay for her. 

"I love you, Dad," Sarah whispers after a long silence. "Thank you."

"For what?"

"For always trying." She says. The words rattle in Joel's skull, and he immediately tears up again. He clears his throat and kisses her head again to hide the tears.

"I love you, kiddo. With everything I am." He says. When she looks up at him, he wipes his tears and claps his hands together.

"Alright, no more bein' sad. What does the college girl want for breakfast?" He asks, opening the pantry to search for something to make. He smiles as he reaches up on the top shelf and pulls down a box. "Pancakes?" Sarah's face doesn't change, and he raises his eyebrows at her. "C'mon, when you were a little girl, these were all you wanted to eat. Used to ask for 'em for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Pretty sure Abuela Lucy thought I didn't know how to make anythin' else." He teases, floating the box in front of her face mischievously. "You know you want 'em. I can see it in your eyes."

"Alright, fine, but we're coming back to your love life later." She finally smiles.

"Whatever you want, pumpkin."

Ellie wakes up to the smell of pancakes and the sound of their laughter, completely in the dark about their earlier conversation. With his girls, Joel makes pancakes and listens to them bicker and make plans for the day. Maybe, in another universe, you'd be there with him, enjoying the sunshine and flour-stained countertops. In another universe, Joel doesn't have to apologize to his daughter on behalf of a mother who doesn't care. In another universe, you're a weird, blended family who isn't perfect, but goddammit, do you try your best to be good for each other. The bittersweet thought rings in Joel's ears, and he has to shrug it away.

It's okay, he thinks. It's nice to still have dreams, right?

#Joel finally getting to make pancakes for Sarah #OH GOD IVE BEEN HIT #one for the money two for the show #one for the money two for the show request #rockstar!joel x actress!reader #rockstar!joel miller #tlou au #the last of us au #joel miller angst #the last of us angst

[if-confessions]

Author here: my confession is i'm lying. My demoless intro blew up and i kinda can't be asked to write it anymore. I keep posting screenshots of snippets but i'm never gonna release anything. I feel bad cause there are so many asks but i seriously don't have an ounce of care. I love my cast and my story but it’s so hard to write. I've seen a lot of accounts with a lot of hype and asks but no demos so i don't feel terrible and we authors don't owe anyone content anyway. I know it's bad but i love getting sent questions and notes cause people are so interested and it's so fun to post new ideas. Once my hype dies i'll probably just create a new one cause i'm already writing a synopsis for this new story and it's so good.

Hi Anon,

I'm going to get real with you, buddy. I had to write this message multiple times because I ended up being a bit too... angry. And as much as I absolutely don't vibe with this whole position, it would still not be fair to you to get the end of my frustration with it.

So I am trying again, (more) calmly.

I honestly have been wondering if you are maybe lying to yourself when you said you can't be asked to continue your project. You seem to be very enthusiastic about the story and the characters (or you wouldn't be sharing snippets or answer asks about it. What jumped at me was: my demoless intro blew up.

I've answered a lot of asks in the past about creators worried about not being enough because their project didn't get enough attention, but very little when it came to the ones blowing up overnight. But just because your intro blows up, doesn't mean you don't struggle with all of this.

So I have a few questions for you:

Are you having this blasé attitude about your project and giving up because of the heightened expectations of having blown up?

Then you might find getting a break from interaction/the social aspect to help. Or maybe interacting with other creators outside of Tumblr and discuss experiences and what to do when the motivation is gone or it becomes to overwhelming (hint: it's often a break).

Another option is to set expectations about the project. And I mean yours. Creating a grandiose story spanning books and dozens of chapters each and a cast as long as your arm can be incredibly fun, but it might not feasible, and often becomes overwhelming. Maybe take a look at your story and chop it down to manageable bites or remove parts that don't fit.

Do you worry if you actually post it, people will not vibe with it?

In this case, consider alpha/beta testing, where you share more about the story to a select few and request feedback. Joining a writer's group or a smaller IF server to discuss or brainstorm or get feedback on ideas is also a nice way of getting confidence about what you are doing. Some community have even some sort of writer's circle, where multiple people get together and write for an hour or two.

Are you afraid you will be found out as not being a good creator (a.k.a. the imposter syndrome)?

We all start somewhere, and that somewhere is very often bad. Don't sweat it. The good news tho, is that it can't get worse. The more you write, the better you get. (but you have to write first)

Do you want a point of reference? Try reading the first version of my first game. It is cringy as hell, there are a lot of grammar and syntax mistakes... I hate it so much, so I made it public to everyone. Go roast me about it, then go read the much better version (or the other way around.

Do you feel like you are lacking confidence in your ability to finish the project because your experience with the medium is minimal, making it overwhelming?

Pause the project for a bit, and write a tiny game (not more then 1k). Join game jams to test some stuff out. Mess around with the program and see what can be done.

Did your struggle with writing come from realising the amount of work required to make it happen?

Time to break it down in smaller pieces, until it feels doable. Then take one piece at a time. And there is no timeline you need to keep...

Do you feel like you can't do this by yourself and would feel more confident continuing the project if you had more direct support?

Try to reach out to other people and see if someone would be interested in helping you make this project a reality. I've seen many projects being done in duo or trio (Harcourt, Lady Thalia...). It will be a different dynamic, but can be very fulfilling.

Are the characteristics of the IF medium something you can't see working? Does the story not work when variation is added? Is there only one path that works for you?

Maybe, IF is not the medium for this project (or for you). That is also fine!

Not everything will work with IF (hell, even inside the IF sphere, some stories fits better the parser-type or the choice-based one, or the hyperlinks one). Maybe the project should become a novel, or a poem collection, or be turned into a comic/webtoon.

~~~

Before you go on to make another intro post with your new idea on the hope that it will blow up so you can just talk about it and bounce when it becomes too difficult, maybe ask yourself:

why you entered this community in the first place,

why you wanted to try your hand at making IF too,

why this story stuck to you so much you wanted to share it with everyone,

what made the story fun in the first place,

what was the point where the fun in writing actually stopped,

whether you want to abandon a story you seem so passionate about...

Interactive Fiction is an awesome medium, and it's a shame to take it for granted...

Or you can go ahead and post that new idea of yours, continuing to blatantly lie to people to get attention rather than enjoying the medium and the craft for what they are, and toy with people essentially...

I might have been reaching there about the lying to yourself, or the fact that blowing up affected your love for creation more than what you message conveyed...

... and you might actually not give a shit at all about doing anything but throwing ideas at the wall, ignoring the rich and incredible history of Interactive Fiction and its captivating evolution (still happening today), neglecting the vibrant community just to con people for notes and attention that are insignificant in real life, lying to everyone just for the lolz...

You do you boo...

~~~~~~~~

Little reminder for people reading this: Don't send hate to people posting an intro post without a demo assuming they are like this anon. It would really suck if we end up gatekeeping a fun hobby because of one bad apple.

[old comments in tags: I'm sorry but I really don't like liars that do it for the lolz it's not cute gosh i tried to tone done the judgement on this really hard I honestly hope anon is just overwhelmed because they got more attention than they thought they would in the first place /]

#confession time #if-confessions #demo or no demo #dark side of if

[smvkedd]

• • • bad reputation by joan jetts and the blackhearts : spotted! if it isn’t eigenia ' efi ' castro walking through the streets of nyc . people say she looks like camila mendes , but i really don’t see it . the twenty - nine year old **reality tv star ** is out here making mommy and daddy proud . while they have been known to be + headstrong , we’ve all seen their - ruthless nature come to light . sources tell me they remind people of the popping of the cork from freshly opened champagne , smeared red lipstick on the rim of a glass , dancing in a heart of burning fire . / ciswoman / she & her.

efigana had been born into a poorer family . her mother worked as a door to door makeup sales woman and her father was a janitor at her local high school . efi had never been embarrassed or ashamed of her life . far from it . but she also always had the feeling she was destined for more than that . would cut out pieces from magazines and scrapbook her dream home , dream husband , dream wedding , dream life . of course she had been young and hadn't quite known what her options could look like so her dream was to marry rich .

efi used to be a little girl with a kind heart . it wasn't until high school that she hardened up . she was proud her dad was working there , had been excited to see him in the halls . until she saw the way kids treated him , treated her just because he was her dad . she knew he didn't deserve that . there was one group of instigators particularly . one day they thought it'd be funny to pull a harmless little prank involving buckets of water and dish soap on the floor . that harmless little prank caused her dad to fall and damage his knee , enough that he couldn't work such a physically demanding job anymore . efi was resourceful and now angry and bitter , she exacted her revenge . an anonymous tip off and coke planted in the lockers later and the kids were expelled , parents called , everyone thought they were guilty . and in efi's mind they were . just of the wrong crime .

when she turned eighteen she downloaded instagram . she was vain enough to love taking photos of herself so thought why not , it was just a fun little app . at first it was innocent but then efi started to realise the inner workings of it . the more scantily clad wearing nothing type of pictures got girls a shit tonne more likes . so that's what she did . she wasn't expecting to blow up , but she'd gone from a nothing and nobody to an influencer overnight . she'd learned how to fake it pretty quickly . how to make it look like she was at an exclusive club right from her own bedroom . and soon she didn't have to fake it anymore . she went from having nothing to money rolling in . enough for her to take care of her family , buy them a house while still living a lavish life . only fans is what brought in her big bucks . she was on that app as soon as she found out about it and found it crazy what people were willing to pay to see her boobs . she wasn't ashamed of it either .

she's since gone on to do multiple reality shows and is in the talks of having her own one . she was a love / hate personality among many . mostly because she didn't shy away from drama and would do whatever she wanted to suit herself . she would talk shit on podcasts and post a picture with the same person she'd just talked shit about that night at a club . she'd learned long ago how to only look out for no . 1 , too scarred from a past of hurt to ever let anyone else get close .

[thedarkestgreys]

✨year end fic review✨

tagged by @muserepeats and @luuver3 💕 thanks friends!

whats your ao3 account?

thedarkestgrey

how many words did you write in total in 2022?

the very stupid number of 252,903

how many fics did you publish in 2022? how many were multichapter vs one shots?

eleven all together. three completed multi-chapters, three wip/on-going multi-chapters and five one-shots.

what was your longest fic? your shortest?

longest : your violent overnight rush (141,867 WIP) shortest: 'till our wide eyes burn blind (938 on-going)

what was your most popular fic? what was your least popular fic?

lol by the numbers we can just repeat the above answer in the same order. YVOR is very, very close to not only being my most popular of 2022 but my most popular of all time by the numbers, in like a fraction of the time? it blows me away tbh. with TOWEBB, like, I didn't expect much from it really, it's less than 1k and it's just a little bit extra from an existing fic. it was still fun to write out a backstory idea from the hades/persephone verse i created though!

what fic didn't perform as well as you thought it would?

i only have one chapter of it posted, but don't you dream impossible things? has under performed from kinda what i was expecting i guess? idk its hard to say these days, a year post the season coming out while in a hiatus until who knows when means that it's really only the diehards still around for the time being, so i'm lowering my expectations here folks.

what fic performed way better than you expected it would?

all of you, all of me (intertwined) Desert!Fexi for sure. It was just a chance for me to write about T-Town and y'all ate that shit up. i think they will make a comeback sometime in 2023 when i'm not so busy with a billion WIPS like rn?

what was your favorite fic you wrote from 2022?

I think at this point we all know how I feel about YVOR. that fic is my child. BUT!!!! the stray lines that unwind you is probably what I go back and reread the most out of everything I've published in this last year. maybe ever actually? it was just a fun little slice of life to live in when i wrote it and has some of my favorite fexi interactions i've ever written.

what was your favorite fic that somebody else wrote in 2022?

oh so many. the talent in this fandom is beyond.

i will scream about And no drugs for Lexi Howard, bye. by @changeyourwholepitch to anyone who wants to listen to me. it's just perfectly smutty and delicious. i think about inspiration point by @actnatural-ly a fucking lot too. and Someone To Watch Over Me by @muserepeats never fails to fuck me up. i would be remiss to not point out that i love so many fics from @myztify. and also to remind @calculated2stagger that she makes me want to retire 😘 (yall its a joke okay?)

tag your friends to do this year end fic review as well!

@sarahcakes613 @takearisk-ao3 uhhhhhh idk who hasn't done this yet?

#okay i did it #year end fic review

[iloveyou-writers]

Hi,

Dunno if you’re still answering asks but I kinda want to put this out somewhere on how I’ve been feeling recently.

It’s not necessary about writing solely but whenever I see writers or even artists here, there are people in the fandom that fawn about characters in their asks box and I’d love to have mutuals to just talk about the same fandom or just have people talk about their favourite characters in my asks box

But my inbox is always dry 🥲 as a writer sometimes I feel like I’m being ignored or that I don’t fit in or I just don’t have enough ‘knowledge’ of those specific fandoms

I know it sounds silly and I shouldn’t ‘expect’ things from ppl but having that connection would be nice especially with other writers

i don’t want to sound too whiny…

You get me?

It absolutely is not silly. It's valid and not at all whiny. :)

It's human nature to want to be part of a community. I struggled for a long time to find my community, but I wouldn't trade them for the world. It took me several years to find mine. I joined tumblr is 2011 and didn't find my community until I'd say 2014 or 2015. Of course, it doesn't always take that long for you to find your community, especially if you know how to put yourself out there in an effective way to attract the right people to your blog.

I'd go more into detail on what this would be, but first of all, I'm exhausted after a full day of work and don't have the energy to go into that much detail and secondly, it really depends on the community. Different communities are attracted to different things.

One thing that helps with engagement is seeing what the popular bloggers share in common. Study which of their posts blow up vs which ones don't get the same number of notes. Try to emulate the popular ones in a way that is unique to you. Put out posts that are your own thoughts about this or that OTP, etc.

But also remember that it takes a long time to get to where the popular blogs are. You don't just blow up overnight. It takes time and effort. So be patient with yourself and with your fandom. They're not going to find you overnight. :)

Hope this helps and good luck.

🤍 H

#anonymous #asks #finding your community

[xythlia]

omg good morning I didn't expect my event to kinda blow up overnight, all 30 slots are full currently so I will be closing the event! ty to everyone who sent in a request & I'll be posting them in the next couple days 🖤

#I'll be closing my inbox too just so that way i can work on what i already have bc its a lot #im really really happy tho 🖤 #♡.kita

[topconfessions]

so can we all agree top got squid game because of connections and connections only

Dude, I deadass said this on a private Instagram that spills tea about him when I found out. He really is moving up through connects and networking. He got squid game cause of Jae and the moon project clout.

I'm happy he got the gig but also peeved cause he legit gave up on acting and hasn't seriously even did his due dieglience with acting for years now, so him getting squid game is a huge shocker to me cause just keeping it real here, why couldn't he have worked hard and consistently with subtle networking via staying active in the acting world. We were sort of pushed to believe through the fan base that top was so inconsolable emotionally from the weed incident w/ seo hee that he wasn't fit nor ready to ever return back to acting. He's done everything else but show passion towards acting or at least take small roles to get his feet wet again to earnestly work his way back up. This is a very Hollywood type of move that I usually expect here in America. Not saying politics don't exist in overseas, but this is really bold. Abruptly bold.

It's just annoying that other for that identifying himself for projects like the wine products and dear moon as an actor, he put no effort forth on it. These are opportunities that could have been given to an unknown who really needs it. That model who won everyone over in the first season, she became an international star and success overnight because of her striking looks and performance. The show had big names in korean in it but still some new blood and lesser names like the hot cop who is now a big star. Squid Game is very successful cause they picked the right people who star power didn't overshadow and water down the show. I think Lee Byunghyun was the villain that the cop had to deal with if I remember correctly?

Either way, this was handed to top and it feels very adverse and strange if not off putting to me that he is just jumping into a major project like this which is a 2nd globally renowned thing that many Korean actors seasoned, popular and new won't ever get the chance at. Something is off here.

Later on today or this weekend maybe Sunday, I know before 4th of July, I'm changing the name of this blog and working on it Finally! Cause I don't want my opinions conflicting the subject matter of the blog anymore. This will be a general celebrity and Asian confessions blog.

Maybe If you guys have discord, we can make a small group chat / server and talk further about this. I wish Tumblr had group option or something. I'll have to figure out something where we can do that or stay here but make selective hidden posts for discussion.

Anyways, I have a conspiracy theory about this but I'm not going to say it openly cause again, I'm not gonna listen to nor entertain people saying I'm an Anti when I point out the obvious. But I think aside from connections he got it a different way.

Take a minute to think about it and you'll know what I mean. You'll know exactly what I mean.

He better act his ass off and cool that bizarre behavior down cause this is it. He is chosen and his popularity depending on which role they give him and how long his character lasts, will make him BLOW UP in popularity. He may shoot up to 17-22 million followers (I don't follow him anymore so idk how many followers he has now).

I won't go back and bandwagon if he blows up cause I remember who he used to be in big bang then who he was when bigbang was aging out then who he was during his brief acting stint then who he was when he acted out after the weed seo hee scandal.

So I'm officially over it guys.

I'll think of a name tonight.

I know we can't control nor dictate how people bounce back as a comeback and all the blessings to him but to me, something about it isn't sitting right with me. I'm over it. I'm exhausted and this was too much of a wild Rollercoaster for me just to see him finally get back out there becoming who I'd like to see him be in such a random and disingenuous way.

He's the Pete Davison of Korea now minus not being ugly. I was going to watch squid game regardless but now I'll have to pretend like I know about thing about him so I can get through it unless his acting blows me away.

[arschemy]

BAKUGOU HEADCANON 57

bakugou as that one tiktok user that posts cooking videos

do you guys know newt? god i fucking i love him, i’m in the before 1M gang on his tiktok and twitter istg i project bakugou into him so hard (check his vids out!)

NOT AFFILIATED WITH ANY NAMES MENTIONED

Bakugou honestly didn't expect for him to blow up on Tiktok (or in any social media platform really) for he made the account to simply share his love for creating food in time-lapse one minute video. The next thing he did was block all his classmates and UA colleagues he could find online to continue posting. He does them every week now, right on time when it's his turn to cook for the class — locking them all out of the kitchen's vicinity and films with his phone, then adds the Tiktok voice over later in the confines of his room.

A milestone onto his hidden career — Bakugou started to get actual attention from more people and since he shows his face into the video (ones that holds a colorful vocabulary filled audio) Bakugou got requests do to normal Tiktok dances. At first he ignored them all, perplexed with the idea, and disregarding it for the fact that his channel was made for his !! cooking !! videos !!

That is until he decided to learn a dance, for fun he reasons, and posts it overnight to clench some of the spams of comments he gets daily. Morning after, he's woken up to Kirishima banging on his door, "Man how did you keep this a secret!"

"Fuck off!" Bakugou automatically responds out of reflex and turns to silence his phone alarm when he feels his device overheating from his touch alone. He sits up, confused with the amount of notifications from Tiktok he never learned to turn off, and find an array of likes and comments (mostly consisting of "thirst trap" and 🥵🤪😳" that he couldn't understand) on his newest video that he posted out of fatigue.

"Huh," he whispers out when he sees his follower count spike overnight alone, "Guess it isn't that bad."

help he's so soft i love him :( HAVE YALL SEEN HIS BICEPS???

#arschemy's hcs #bakugou katsuki #bakugou headcanon #katsuki bakugou #bakugou katsuki headcanons #mha #bnha

[sunnyjae]

OMYGODDD YOU FINALLY POSTED MY REQUEST IMGHSGSHDJHS I LITERALLY SCREAMED WHEN SUNOO APPEARED BC HE’S ALSO MY ULT 😩 I really love it thank youu!! It drove me nuts is2g 🥲 possessive but sweet jay >>>>>>

i’m really looking forward on your future works 😌 alsoo can i be your anon 🏃🏻 ? ❤️

Hiyaaaa i'm glad you liked itttt ♡♡♡ of course you can be an anon! - what would you like me to call you and what pronouns would you like me to use (if any)?

welcome to my blogggg

a note for everyone who reads my fics - I'm actually a full time student and i write as a hobby so it takes me a lot of free time to write as much as i do for my blog, especially with open requests! I've gotten a lot of requests just overnight (internally crying 😩 bc i didn't expect my jake fic to blow up) so it'll take me some time to post them - please be patient my dudes because some of them might take longer than others (im not gonna add a time frame lol).

- rowan (they/them)

#kpop smut asks #enhypen smut asks #enhypen anon #enhypen requests

[resinatingbeauty]

Witchcraft & Expectations

What do you really expect from the Craft?

I had considered writing this for a while before actually doing it just because I didn't want anyone to feel like they were being attacked or singled out. Offending you isn't the purpose of this post, so please do not be discouraged by anything you read here. There is no wrong way of practicing your Craft and to each their own. I was just curious about perspectives when it comes to your expectations regarding Witchcraft, magick, and spirituality as I have dealt with many different people following many different paths since focusing more on my Craft and art through my shop which began on Mercari and grew enough to become more established on Etsy.

I do sell many spiritual / witchy items from personalized spell kits to witchy mystery boxes compiled with Intuitively chosen and my own handmade, one of a kind items. Among the most popular spiritual offerings are my 'buy one get one miniature spell jars,' which allow my customers to select two general purposes or a personalized request from which I assemble and enchant a miniature glass spell jar containing herbs, crystals, essential oils, and other objects based on their needs and requests. I wanted to make these little portable vessel talismans more available to everyone price and purpose wise, compared to others that have been charged with a more specific intent or devoted to a specific deity.

I have a long history of using spell jars myself for various purposes whenever I feel compelled to create one or a special occasion arises. I'm picky about larger jars and bottles, however, so they are usually created in small corked jars or in larger jars that I will sometimes embellish or try new things to integrate that allow the spell jar to also be an appealing or intriguing piece of handmade everyday decor while serving its spiritual purpose, such as the one in the photo above.

For the most part, I have found a surprisingly amount of success with my spell jars. Not just myself, but others as well have reported events that they thought were directly related to their spell jar. I had created one for my neighbor a couple weeks ago who had been searching for a better job than the one she had at a preschool. The day after I gave her the jar, she received a text from an old coworker who notified her that a position at a bank she had applied at months ago that had nothing available at that time had just opened up.

This actually exceeded my expectations. In my experience, magick takes time. Others who have commented on the success of their spell jars or magick in general would contact me a few weeks or so after using their spell kit or receiving their spell jar. I created a spell jar back in January to help jumpstart my small business selling my crafts and Craft and didn't really start to see a huge change until mid-March-April where I was more successful than even I anticipated.

This was about on par with what I expected in terms of time, as most spells I've ever done have taken days, weeks, or even months to start manifesting results that couldn't be passed off or ignored. To be sure, I include a scroll with each of my kits and jars explaining how they are best utilized, to have patience, how to set a purpose and intentions, the power of thinking positively, and that magick rewards those who are willing to work and make sacrifices for what they desire. To me, all of these things are virtues that this path teaches us and are part of what makes the Craft so empowering overall. Whether it was the spell or your hard work, you are the catalyst for change. You made things happen. I mean, what is more empowering than that?

This is part of the reason why I personally chose to over spell kits and magickal tools rather than offering to cast spells or perform rituals on one's behalf. It was my desire to make YOU feel empowered and you are the one ultimately responsible for your own success or failure, whether spiritually or otherwise. I'll gladly steer you down the road of success and provide you with my knowledge, experience, and guidance, but I am always clear about what to expect.

Unfortunately, we live in a time where instant gratification is anticipated and expected, which I never considered in terms of Witchcraft. I knew that no matter how many times I write 'set realistic expectations, focus on your purpose, be patient, and keep doing what your doing' that some people would just blow through all that hoping that they just bought a quick fix for all their problems for $6.99 + a buy one get one deal.

Two weeks or so ago, I had received an order for said jars from a young man who simply said he wanted a personalized spell jar for lucid dreaming and dream work and selected his second 'free' one for self empowerment. I reached out to clarify and answered some of his questions. My immediate impression from him was one of discord. He expressed a lot of turmoil in his life over the past few months and claimed to have taken on a lot of responsibility. He seemed young and eager, with a ton of questions regarding magick in general. I answered his questions the best I could, but reiterated the same values I expressed in the previous paragraph when asked why such and such spell wasn't working, 'should I not have done this,' etc. Magick takes time to manifest, especially when it comes to financial purposes like he explained which are inherently unlikely to resolve themselves overnight.

He seemed happy enough with his purchase and said as much when he received his package. A couple days later, I received a notification about a review he had left which was negative, saying one of his spell jars didn't work with a message delivered in tandem asking what purpose I had set for his spell jar.

Let me say this: I am not upset with him or complaining about his review. He is entitled to his own opinion, although I was annoyed with how quickly he had come to the conclusion when in the instructions I provided him I specifically said that these things take time to work. Anyone who receives results instantly or within the next day or so are exceeding my own expectations. Which is great! Hooray!

But this is definitely not the standard I've come to expect in all the years I've been practicing the Craft.

I continued chatting with and answering this young man's questions and ultimately uncovered that he was upset about a variety of things that had been going on in his life. In his mind, he felt entitled to have these things work for him sooner rather than later and was frustrated and angry that nothing he tried had been working out the way he expected.

In the time that I have opened my little shop, I have (thankfully) only run into one other person like this- where their understanding of Witchcraft seems to have been compiled from television and movies. After the first, I learned to tread lightly around these individuals because, whether it's their fault or not, they have been mislead.

Television shows like old school Charmed and the newer Salem and Witches of East End are really entertaining. I enjoyed watching them, but they are the absolute enemy of those who practice magick / witchcraft as a form of religion or spirituality. Sure, some of these shows actually do their research. Even Buffy the Vampire Slayer was ahead of its time introducing Wiccans, Technopagans, and New Age practices to pop culture and in many ways helped to show people an obscured version of the truth during the 'Satanic Panic' period when even witches hated being called witches and the pentagram / pentacle difference became an actual difference that wasn't just a choice of words.

Newer generations growing up with Harry Potter, which is hardly a great introduction into magickal traditions, were at least more open minded than the previous generation to the actuality of witchcraft and magick as a spiritual practice.

I mean, who doesn't want to snap their fingers and make the house tidy in one fell swoop?

I sure do. But even when I first started practicing at 11 I understood that that just isn't how it is.

This young man who was saying he lead a coven sounded more like he was LARPing than legitimately asking for spiritual guidance. I realized real quick that I couldn't do anything for him. What he wanted and expected, no matter how many times I referenced the instructions I provided (he evidently hadn't acknowledged) and relayed to him my own experience and expectations, he was looking for that 'quick fix' and someone or something to blame for when it didn't work the way he thought it would. The main reason for his complaint? The night after he received his spell jar, he said he just dreamnt about the moon.

My understanding of lucid dreaming was having direct control over ones dreams. The more I talked to this person the more it became clear that this wasn't his understanding of lucid dreaming. I tried to ask what he had tried to gain that control, as many of you know that I suffered from sleep paralysis for years and taught myself how to realize and 'break out' of it over time. He referenced making offerings to a goddess. I had to stop.

I'm sure that another business minded witch would have sold him something else or offered an exchange. I (stupidly) tried to make him understand that he has the power to manifest his desires. All I did was provide him with a tool to help things along.

This was the same for the woman I had dealt with months ago who said that she had been told by this coven owned business that she was a vampire reincarnated to be with her lover. That was the ultimate end of our conversation because she didn't seem very open to anything I suggested. Whether the things she bought were 'effective' for her or not we will never know. When she started messaging me to the point of harassment I deleted her messages and flagged them as spam. All this time and effort spent consoling someone who really isn't in the right frame of mind for magick or witchcraft.

The main point in writing this ranty post is to get the perspective of the community. What are your expectations for your own spells? What do you tell others when they ask? If you are also a 'witch shop' owner or own your own spiritual practice how do you deal with clients that have set unrealistic expectations for you and your Craft?

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[happysadyoyo]

how did cockdealer go from chill to ableist overnight and then attacked u for no reason. he used 2 b so chill but now hes kinda a dick. lol. sorry u lost followers over it tho

bleh I'm not super here for the followers anyway. They're just a nice side perk you know?

And idk, as long as I'd followed him, he has always been very very strongly opinioned as well as having an extremely difficult time with his own mental health. I have to admit, I didn't expect any of my mental health posts to blow up, and I hope I've not hurt his own more because despite what people seem to think, I can understand a little of the physical and mental pain he's in.

A little, not a lot. But some of his physical health problems I grew up surrounded by, and my parents were very worried I'd have as well. Luckily? it skipped a kid, just like the ability to understand sarcasm did. And my sister's isn't nearly as severe as my mom's.

[satorugojjo]

hey i didn't really know where to go ab this but i made a post ab the whole rr situation and it got big overnight but there are equal number of people who agree and disagree w me (i have the same stance as u) but now people are calling me racist bc i'm "invalidating" the ppl who think sam is good rep and i? logically know they're wrong but i need someone elses opinion and it's kind of freaking me out bc i don't have a big following so i didn't expect the post the blow up

hi im not sure you are and what post you have that blew up, and which parts of my stance you agree with. i just want to clarify that the stance that is correct is that of Muslim people, and specifically the muslim Iraqi community. This post by @charlesbeckendorf breaks down everything.

To those who are reverse racism-ing this situation and say that Samirah was good representation?? Please use your eyeballs and see that the existence of a person in fiction is representation, but if that person fundamentally reinforces negative stereotypes and with deeper critical thinking falls apart and reveals the inherent racial ignorance of the author, that is NOT GOOD REPRESENTATION. 

#anon #answered #Anonymous

[necrossist-moved]

I didn't expect that post of my Jon drawings to blow up overnight, I'm very fresh into tma and it really made my morning to see my art get so noticed. Also hi new followers tysm for following :)

#I've been in a very bitchy and odd mood lately and really stressed but this thawed me out #tma #demeanor #thank you

[qqueenofhades]

Just so you know, if you ever write a one-shot about Chloe and Lucifer as president and first gentleman, I would read the shit out if it. I didn't even know I need it but now I think that would be the most hilarious thing

pure crack based on my tags from this post, Lucifer’s feelings about Trump, and the fact that I think we could all really use this.

“Wow,” says Chloe Decker, President-elect of the UnitedStates of America, as she stares at her new office. A windowless cornercubicle, it is not. She laughs a little unsteadily, as the gravity of itfinally, finally seems to be hitting. “So, uh, that’s it, I guess. Not bad. Andbefore you ask, no. We absolutely may not have sex on the desk.”

Her devoted spouse pouts. “Bloody hell, you already stoppedme from jumping on the bed in the Lincoln Bedroom and now this. It’s like you’redetermined not to let me have any fun at all. Besides, I can’t do anything anymore degrading to it than he did.”

Despite herself, Chloe snorts. “Answer’s still no.”

“Oh, come on, Senator. Just once?”

“No, I said. And you’re going to have to get used to callingme Madam President, remember?” Chloe turns to grin up at her husband. Inexactly six days, America’s First Gentleman is going to be one Lucifer Morningstar,and America is going to have absolutely no idea what hit it. The WestboroBaptist Church has already announced plans to picket the inauguration,delighting Lucifer inordinately, and the right wing nut job online hysteriafactory has been double-overtime blowing gaskets on theories about how theseare the biblical End Times and Satan has taken over America (“oh bless them,look how hard they’re working to prove I’m the Devil, it’s adorable”), but therest of the country is too relieved at getting rid of Chloe’s predecessor tocare. There is still a distinct whiff of orangeabout the whole place, and of course he’s been a massive sore loser and hasmade the transition as purposefully unhelpful as possible. But Chloe is armedand ready to go. She wasn’t intending on running for president so early in hercareer, though she did have it in mind after quitting acting and following herdad, a greatly respected U.S. Senator from California who was shot at are-election event in 2000, into politics. Like him, she’s one of the criticallyendangered species who thinks she can really make a positive difference inpeople’s lives, and after a stint in the state legislature, two terms in theHouse, getting elected to the Senate and her dad’s old seat soon after sheturned thirty, and being tipped as a rising star in the Democratic Party totake down FührerCheeto Voldemort in 2020, here she is. It’s a surreal and emotional moment, tosay the least. But they made it.

“Well,” Lucifer says, as they continue to stare at the OvalOffice and Chloe tries to imagine herself sitting there, reading briefings,making decisions, fielding calls from foreign leaders. The work part, at least,is not going to be a problem for her. “As the presidential spouse, do I atleast get to plan the entertainment? Play piano at state dinners, order thestrippers?”

“Lucifer, we have gone over this. Absolutely no strippers atstate dinners.”

“Right, right. We are running a classy White House again.” He snaps his fingers. “And I suppose themedia will have a fit if I spend a lot of money decorating the place to make itlook less like your dead grandmother’s sitting room. All that china and stripedwallpaper, really. It’s already bad enough that we have to have those SecretService gits in sunglasses following us everywhere. Do they think I can’tprotect you?”

“Considering what happens to you when I’m around, and thatwe have a lot of crazy people with guns very angry at us, I’m perfectly finewith them.” Of all of this, Chloe has worried most about the effecton Trixie, transplanting a thirteen-year-old girl across the country from LosAngeles to Washington D.C., transformed overnight from an ordinary tween worryingabout starting high school and boys and pimples to the single most scrutinizedchild in the world, who will never have an entirely normal life again. Maliaand Sasha are going to be by later for a chat, and Chloe has invited Barack andMichelle as her special guests to the inauguration, after all the campaigningthey did for her – along with her ex-husband, former California AttorneyGeneral Dan Espinoza, and U.S. Representative Ella Lopez, from Detroit. Her newvice president, Dr. Linda Martin, has already been dubbed “America’s Mom,” andthe internet loves her. (They also love Chloe and Lucifer.) Amenadiel hadkittens about an angel interfering in human politics and didn’t do any events,while Maze, to prove a point, did about twenty a day. They, however, had tostrictly forbid her from starting them off by running on stage dressed in blackleather, cracking a whip, and yelling, “VOTE FOR CHLOE AND LINDA, PUNY MORTALS!”

As for Lucifer himself, it turns out that if you give himone of his favorite subjects (Chloe) and clear instructions (talk about howawesome she is), he is an absolute lethal weapon, stone-cold closer, on thecampaign trail. Easily drew the biggest crowds, and was, of course, more thanhappy to take a million selfies with everyone afterward. What’s noticeable ishow that feeling seems to have finally permeated the air around here again, howrelieved and hopeful everyone is. They’re expecting a record crowd, and HillaryClinton sent a personal note of thanks and congratulations. Yes,He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named did a lot of shit in four years. A lot. But Chloe is going to fix it, atleast as much as she can. And for all his requests to jump on Abraham Lincoln’sbed and have sex on a desk built with wood from the U.S.S. Constitution, she wouldn’t have anyone else as her partner onthis.

“Anyway,” she says, as they step back and start to walk.There are a thousand events to finalize, a draft of her inaugural address tolook over, a few interviews to do, a press conference where she is very muchlooking forward to answering questions about how much the Cheeto is hatinghaving a woman kick him out in total humiliating one-term disgrace (the ElectoralCollege split was close to 400-138 and the popular vote was 55%-33%-12%  – yes, Gary Johnson and Jill Stein are stillrunning, and even more bewilderingly, yes, people are still voting for them) as officially America’s least popular president ever. Chloe’s first meetings in the White House are allslotted for women’s groups and minorities and everyone else who needs theirseat at the table back. “I have something else I want you to do.”

“Oh?” Lucifer looks intrigued. “And what is that?”

“Anyone I’m appointing to any post anywhere, I want you tomeet them. They’re all going through the usual vetting process, of course, butyou’re a lot faster than any bureaucracy – and frankly, a lot more efficient. Whateverthey tell you about whatever they want or what they’re planning to do, I canuse it to decide if they’re right for the job. Sussing out the scandaloussecrets of the American government sounds like exactly the sort of thing you’d be good at. After all, you’vealready said plenty that this place is basically exactly like hell.”

“Ooh, Madam President.”Lucifer stops, stares at her, and grins wickedly. “You are playing a little dirty after all, aren’t you?”

“If Satan is takingover America, I intend to put him to work.” Chloe links her arm through his. “Which reminds me, on that note – ”

“Yes, I was just getting to that, thank you. Did you knowthat the presidential spouse usually holds the Bible on which the president istaking the oath of office? It’s terrible, I won’t do it.”

“Really?” Chloe’s eyebrows nearly arch off her head. “Really? After all this, holding theBible on Capitol Hill for literally one minute is where you’re going to drawthe line?”

“But my dear – ”

“Fine, you giant whining baby. I’ll ask Trixie to do it. Ithink that says something more important, anyway.”

Chloe is just trying to remember what she was actually aboutto say before he hijacked her train of thought, when an aide hurries up. “MadamPresident-elect? We need to go over a few things, if you could possibly –”

“Yes, yes, I’m coming.” She does have to get used to beingat everyone’s permanent beck and call, so Chloe stands on her tiptoes to kiss Lucifer onthe cheek, sternly admonishes him not to get into any trouble, and follows theaide. There are a few wrinkles to iron out with the order of events, she isscheduled to host Justin Trudeau in three weeks and Canada has sent a polite welcomedossier (being Canada) that she needs to read before their talks, and PenelopeDecker has called about five times to make sure the dress she’s picked out forthe inauguration ball is the right one. By the time Chloe is let go, it’salmost the end of the afternoon, and Lucifer has gone walkabout. Oh dear.

She is just about to ask the Secret Service if he’s takenhis Corvette out for one final spin (no more tooling around in two-seater openconvertibles for the president’s husband, it’ll be armored limos from thispoint on) when she hears a funny noise from behind one of the doors. She frowns, tiltsher head, and then it comes again – which she then recognizes, breaks into arun down the expensive carpet to the door in question, and yanks it open.

Inside, Lucifer Morningstar has Donald J. Trump around theneck and hoisted into the air with one hand. Trump is wheezing and kicking,while Chloe stops dead, stares, and then bellows, “LUCIFER!”

Lucifer glances at her in innocent surprise, looks betweenhis wife and the man whose job she is taking, shrugs, and finally drops Trumpwith a thump. His hairpiece falls off and slides over one eye, as he isgibbering even more incoherently than usual – seems Lucifer might have givenhim a taste of the full Devil Face. While she of course absolutely does notendorse this extremely illegal treatment of a sitting (alas) U.S. President, Chloe to bite her cheek hard. “Lucifer,” sheorders. “Do not ever do that again.”

Lucifer looks at Trump meaningfully.

Trump whimpers.

Lucifer shrugs again, steps over him, and offers his arm to Chloe.“Come on, Madam President,” he says. “Time to go run this bloody country.”

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