#except this is kind of sad anyway

[mareenavee]

WIP Whenever~

Hello my friends <3 Been tagged by @thequeenofthewinter to participate in WIP Wednesday Wife Worship Wednesday! I never get to play this because Nyenna and Athis have... so, so many problems. But today we do, because Nyenna is dreaming. Having brain nonsense, really. But first, tags.

Let's go! Tagging the most esteemed @paraparadigm, @changelingsandothernonsense, @thana-topsy, @rhiannon1199, @snippetsrus, @orfeoarte, @inquisition-dragonborn, @the-storytellers-seer, @archangelsunited and @polypolymorph!

Below the cut, part of Chapter 28 from The World on Our Shoulders.

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She heard the wind before she felt the morning mist on her skin. Things were slowly greying, like a light after she’d hidden under her covers. The sun, maybe, though she couldn’t recall when last she’d seen it. It hid behind clouds, mimicking her own hesitation. She opened her eyes, not having realized they’d been closed before. Whatever this was, with how quickly the image changed, she was thrown off balance at best. But the mist — yes. This felt familiar. Something like Whiterun, out by the river. Yes. The tundra cotton. She could see it now. She could feel her hands and feet where they’d only been vague concepts before, and liminal ones at that. She sighed and flexed her fingers. She’d never seen Skyrim in the height of summer, but she’d always imagined it like this — warm, plenty of flowers. Even bees buzzing, working as if all was exactly as it had always been and not this odd dream-version of things. Nyenna turned her face to the sun, let herself bask in its warmth as if she was one of the scraggly trees which dotted the landscape. She reached her arms toward it, and a dusty blanket fell from her shoulders with a strange, muffled, heavy sound. “What are you doing?” came a voice. Familiar, but distant. Something ached in her chest at the sound. Athis. Gods, she missed him. Her heart hurt trying to decide if he was really here or if this was some cruel madness. Likely the latter. She turned anyway, her grey mage robes billowing in a warm breeze that cut across the plains. He was as beautiful as she remembered — all the stress gone from his eyes, none of the weariness held in his shoulders or jaw. The weariness she’d caused. “Waiting for you,” she felt herself saying, though this seemed like a lie. He accepted it easily. He ran a hand through his ginger hair, ebony mail gleaming in the summer sunlight. She closed the distance between them and crushed into his embrace, heedless of heavy layers of metal between them. He didn’t say anything, only shifted to hold her against his chest. He smelled of mead and snowberries, like he always did. The memory struck her like steel against steel. Like she’d only dreamt of leaving, and she would wake up any moment now, wrapped in his arms, skin against skin. “I waited so long,” Athis said, voice quiet and somber, incongruous with the life that thrummed through this place, like the cry of Nirnroot at the river’s edge. “I’m sorry. I was on my way back to you,” Nyenna said, and somehow, that too was a lie. She tried again, forcing the words from her throat, which still hurt. “I miss you.” “Do you?” Athis asked. Not sarcastic, nor accusatory. A question, which needed an answer. A real one. “Of course.” He accepted that, too, and kneaded the muscle of her shoulder blade as he held her. He’d looked off into the distance, eyes focused on the mountains or the clouds. Mist gathered on his beard, his armor; he seemed like a permanent fixture here, rooted deep into the soil, never to be cut down. And she loved him. The ache of it was tearing her apart. She’d do anything at all — anything — for this to be real. For this image to love her back. She looked at him and felt rootless. Unmoored. A scrap of parchment fluttering in an ethereal breeze, belonging nowhere and to no one. He took her face in his hands, expression still oddly distant, eyebrows knit in confusion. He kissed her and her eyes fluttered closed. This was was right. If she had to be lost in a dream, then she was glad it was one of Athis.

#MareenaWrites #WIP Whenever #WIP Wednesday #Athis #Nyenna #LDB/Athis #The World on Our Shoulders #tes #tesblr #skyrim #elder scrolls #writblr #fanficblr #skyrim fic #writeblr #wife worship wednesday #except this is kind of sad anyway #that's just who I am as a writer sorry lol

[cuoredimuschio]

okay, but where's my steddie AU where steve wants to learn to play guitar to impress a girl he's infatuated with and he remembers that munson kid was always hanging up posters for his weird band at school, so he hikes out to eddie's usual dealing spot behind the track and asks (with far less groveling than he really should have) if eddie will teach him how to play, and obviously eddie says no because why would he want to help king steve, but of course, steve offers to pay him, $20 a week, and well, that's the kind of get-the-hell-out-of-this-shithole-town cash eddie really can't afford to refuse, so fine, he'll teach steve to play and they'll spend inordinate amounts of time together tucked away in eddie's room and they'll start to see that they have more in common than they thought and that they kind of had each other all wrong, and eddie will put his hand over steve's to help him get the placement for a tricky chord and it totally won't awaken anything in either of them?? where is it??

edit: i started writing it

#steve x eddie #steddie #stranger things #someone tell me this has already been written because i need it. please. #bonus points if steve shows up to the first practice session empty-handed #and eddie nearly calls the whole thing off when he has the Audacity to grab at eddie's sweetheart as if eddie'd ever let him play her #and he doesn't even teach steve anything that day because rule number one get your own fucking guitar and keep your mitts off mine #but by the end when eddie is deep deep deep in love and it's time to send steve off to woo this lucky girl of his #he offers to let steve take his sweetheart because she's guaranteed to make him look ten times hotter and cooler #and he'll have no trouble sweeping his girl off her feet and maybe eddie's breaking his own heart but it's fine—as long as steve's happy #except steve doesn't seem nearly as happy as eddie thought he would be #he seems sad actually and eddie kind of hates that so he starts to make some lame joke about how steve should be honored #because eddie wouldn't lend his baby out to just anyone and that gets steve to crack half a smile #but then he puts the guitar down on eddie's bed (with all due gentle reverence) walks over takes eddie's face in his hands and kisses him #kisses him like he's been dying to do it for weeks. because he has #because somewhere along the line it stopped being about wanting to impress a girl and started being about wanting to be with eddie #it started being screwing up on purpose so that eddie would grab his hands and show him how it's supposed to be done #and forgetting about lessons entirely and just sitting around and listening to eddie talk or just watching him play #because somewhere along the line steve fell out of infatuation and into love with the last person he ever expected.... #anyway idk where i'm going with this

[boilingrain]

Congrats to Ingo for having the lead role in the Pokémon version of Put That Thing Back Where It Came From Or So Help Me

#Put him BACK #Do Not Separate Them #Anyways if we ever get another Legends game I kind of hope that it turns out Emmet also got eeby deebied #Would be extra funny if Emmet got sent to like... an industrial revolution era Unova & he's just hanging out on a train #Both of them create sort of battle facilities except Emmet's is on a steam train as sort of a proto battle subway #That's my vision for Legends Kyurem #pokemon #pokemon black and white #pokemon bw #pokemon legends arceus #submas #subway boss ingo #warden ingo #ingo #(''Rain PLA has been out for a while now'' AND IT STILL MAKES ME SAD WHENEVER I REPLAY IT)

[misfits-den]

A group of friends playing Never Have I Ever, except it devolves into coming up with the most crazy ideas, because one of them keeps drinking on every turn.

#hag talks #story idea #Kitt #this is for Kitt #and he has receipts! #except he doesn't like drinking so he kind of hates this game #every once in a while he will ask for definition of something #and ends up drinking anyway #that's why he always refuses it #reference for Kitt #someone ask me about his Trigun version cause I made myself sad yesterday thinking about it

[starbuck]

so i might be getting… a BIG tv… :))

#i have never been able to watch films on anything except my laptop screen #it’s been so SAD and i could never have anyone over besides like. one person at a time #my old tv is LITERALLY older than me #and now… :)) #i feel kind of weird about making such a classic expensive purchase #but like 1) it’s my money and 2) this will allow me to have my friends over! #which will be soooooooo nice - i love to host #and i haven’t gotten to in ages #COME TO DELAWARE Y’ALL!!!!!!! #you can watch movies here too! #anyways - it’s coming on Tuesday :)) #and then we’ve just gotta get it hooked up and BOOM! #i am so so SO excited!!

[boyfriaends]

what if you could date a ghost?

#𓆩 ♡ 𓆪 ⊹ ˚˖⋆｡ blossom is speaking. › ooc tag. #// OKAY SO HE WAS KILLED IN A SITUATION OF /if i cant have you all to myself then nobody else can/ #// like he went on ONE date with someone. got not good vibes. put that person on his block list and that person did NOT take that well. #// he wasn't on a date the night he was killed. he was just on the way home from running errands. #// he fell off the face of the earth. labeled missing then found out to be dead. taken off the roster except #// his name pops back into the boyfriend for hire booking app for certain people but the app never keeps record of it #// he's haunting the app. he's appearing before certain people. HE'S DEAD yet you can touch him. he's FREEZING to the touch #// only certain people can he appear before. #// there's no leads in his case by the way. IT'S ALMOST LIKE NOBODY CARES #// which is fucking sad if you think about it. #// his eyes were brown but after his death they've lost all the life. there's NO LIGHT in them #// i had to have one supernatural kind of oc here you need to understand #// i also blame rue for this idea because rue said ghost and I RAN WITH THE IDEA SO FAST #// anyways im rambling holy shit

[chibishortdeath]

Disgusting creature (begins sobbing)

#castlevania #castlevania games #akumajo dracula #akumajou dracula #isaac castlevania #castlevania isaac #isaac laforeze #castlevania curse of darkness #curse of darkness #art post #my art #castlevania artists #Castlevania fanart #fanart #uhhh idk tags #some of these are based on panels from the manga and other official art but yeah #he’s truly a character that’s for sure #one one hand yeah he did all that he did kill people and committ war crimes #but on the other hand oaughaughogh but but what if what if he could’ve gotten better— #the game and mangas do a very good job of showing you how he’s like the opposite of Hector but so so similar #like Hector was two steps away from being that too they both came from such similar situations #augh I could make a whole analysis rant of the whole game and have before but not in the tags lmao #bro had to be put down and was a horrible person in the end but it was still sad #he’s like the classic cursed Castlevania rival character except completely unsavable this time #like imagine if you couldn’t save Maxim or Richter or Hugh or whoever else like that’s how it feels #anyway yeah he’s also fun to draw :3 #his haircut is unreasonably cute #I wish I didn’t have curly hair that conflicts with that kind of hairstyle oof 😔 #unrelated but I’ve been sick again lately ugh #at least this time I’m getting treated for it tho but idk if it’s working or not yet tbh ughhhhhhhhh

[box-dwelling]

I know that how much Phoenix suspected Kristoph is very vague and I like the idea he had very little clue but honestly the thing that makes me think he did is Trucy. Because I think there is absolutely no way Kristoph didn't want her dead. He tried to kill vera, child murder isn't above him. And Trucy was a far far bigger weak chain in his scheme than she was but she escapes him basically unscathed other than minus one parent, who lets be real was canonically a POS who tried to kill a woman over a poker game. She saw him give her the diary page. She has psychic lie defecting abilities and he is constantly lying. She's absolutely the biggest direct threat to his scheme.

I feel like if Phoenix genuinely trusted Kristoph he would have absolutely had the opportunity to kill her and tie up that loose end. Trucy's savvy and able to protect herself but she's also a child. It is a miracle she's still alive by AA4 and I think that has to be because Phoenix was protecting her because he knew he couldn't trust Kristoph around her.

#ace attorney #phoenix wright #kristoph gavin #trucy wright #aa4 #Apollo Justice ace attorney #7yg #also i do just kind of prefer the idea of that this was a battle Phoenix knew he was fighting every day and knew he would probably lose #thats a more enjoyable angst for me #and it kind of makes a bit more sense for why he cut everyone off and isolated himself #like he knew that he was in the lions den and didn't want anyone else in there with him woth the exception of trucy who was inndanger anyway #and he knew he was the only one who understood this battle enough to protect her #but alternative explanations can include a krisnix one where kristoph genuinely didn't want to hurt Phoenix's daughter #but honestly my krisnix take is that he would because that man is possessive as fuck and wouldn't want Phoenix giving his attention to her #or it could be that Phoenix is clueless and trucy isnt and shes the one actually fighting the battle and protecting him #but thats also very very sad and i don't want to do that to her #maybe theyre both protecting the other but refusing to tell each other because they dont want to put the other in danger #that would be in character as fuck for the wrights #trucy fully in a ya adventure we cant tell our parents about the unspeakable horrors because then they'll get hurt #while Phoenix is trying desperately to just keep them both alive but doesn't want to put that burden on a literal child #idk i do genuinely just think its way way sadder if Kristoph is a known threat through most of the 7yg #but they know they cants pull away from him even as he poses a direct threat to them because that makes him even more dangerous #beanix

[amrv-5]

survived Badly (argh) but going to work on fic for as long as I continue to enjoy doing so then switch over -- see if I can find somewhere to watch The 400 Blows and probably cry forever and dehydrate and feel soooo sad and then feel better after. Thank you French New Wave

#boooo whatever saying nonsense nothing matters delete later #somebody should invent a proximity to your parents that doesn't immediately make you so emotionally weird forever #overdramatic. Im feeling fine im eating some crackers and lying around chilling. Just. Weird. Off Balance.. #Mild Disturbance in my Year of Exceptional Emotional/Mental Chill #not gonna let it break my 2024 streak of feeling generally Pretty Freakin Good and mostly Recovered From The Lost Year #Which btw. can I say... have i said...? Genuinely having one of the nicest years of my life so far... feeling really pretty good #mfw having more control over your life + surroundings + choices + living circumstances means you can genuinely #meaningfully improve ur day-to-day lived experiences and find what works for u to keep u happy + healthy + excited about life... magic #anyway. brief Huh I Feel Kind Of Bad And Sad In A Deeper Way Kicked Off By But Unrelated To Events Of The Day moment earlier #really made me realize how exceptionally good I've had it so far this year... i think... it's possible... things Do Get Better #anyway. ok done Tag Blogging now. just hope everyone enjoys a nice treat or something. get good sleep enjoy ur time change if it applies #watch a movie or something. idk have fun guys have a good night

[hua-fei-hua]

god i'm so tired of this shit. let's go back to the internet in the mid 2000s. set me free on pbskids.org and adventurequest.com the way they returned the wolves to yellowstone

#i know these websites still exist and i do actually have a paid adventurequest acct now bc i'm an adult with money #but i also haven't touched it since i paid for it like two years ago bc i was sad they got rid of my basic staff lol #but the fucking dialogue in their game was so insanely fucking funny i Wish i could write like that #花話 #anyway. in case you guys were ever wondering what the fuck my childhood on the internet looked like. it was flash games LMAO #i wasn't on forums or chatrooms (with one exception) i was playing those goddamn flash games #and making animated cursors with pokemon gifs stolen via google images. god those were simpler days #that was like legitimately my entire online life until late 2014 i think #aside from occasionally watching youtube from like... 2012 onwards anyway #i wonder if this was also partly bc i was the kind of kid where those 'you must be this age or older to enter' notices fucking worked lmao

[elegyofthemoon]

the cat showed up again at the cafe

#i was so excited actually rdjdjdjdjsjs #todays been ok at work though just. very slow lmao #tbh i do kinda like this ward and im sad to leave #ik i tend to feel pretty stupid so far and honestly its whatever im kinda used to it at this point #but like at least this ward im like '!oh yeah this is what i like to do! i forgot bc i was depressed!' #its bittersweet lmao #anyways it was kind of a good morning #and a great lunch bc i got to see a cat :) #its not good quality im aware im sorry i didnt wanna wake up the cat :( and just let it snooze #i wonder if its just a stray... would it be bad if i tried to feed it next time i see it idk i dont have anything good on me at home #except for chicken curry 😭 #work logs #snow speaks

[distort-opia]

Did Bruce abandon Joker believing he would die at the end of Joker’s War, or did he know Joker would escape somehow? I find the ending kinda vague and it upsets me greatly that Bruce would walk out like that. What is your take on this? I need to be believe their dance is not over!!

Hey! Short answer is no, Bruce explicitly makes sure Joker can escape:

-- Batman (2016) #100

Bruce knew Joker had the tools to disarm the bomb. Him walking away was not leaving Joker to die, but rather something else. It's Bruce asserting a change in their dynamic, a refusal to play by Joker's rules. To put it bluntly... Batman and Joker are currently going through a bit of a divorce arc in the comics. I've talked about it in another meta, linked here. That answer goes into more detail, hope it helps with clearing it up!

#I do get being sad over Bruce walking away at the end of Joker War #but with the history of these two... it's nothing. they'll inevitably bounce back #Bruce genuinely allowed for Joker's potential death in the past. this is nothing compared to DitF #anyway. to me the very appeal of this ship is how impossibly conflicted and painful it is. except it has no choice but to go on #in our Universe it's because DC will never stop writing them together unless it stops giving them money #and in their Universe it's the most bonkers kind of soulmates possible. they can't let each other die and they can't stop fighting #throwing a divorce in there has me rubbing my hands actually :)) #asks #batman #joker #batjokes #batman: joker war

[july-19th-club]

how to make a character who sucks so bad and nobody likes him but he is genuinely a good protagonist (good as in interesting, maybe on a rare day good as in decent but also, just like, an incredible jackass) . i need to make him worse i need to make him MEANER!

#i think the key to getting this kind of character right is that he can't try to be anybody's boss #that's not the fun and engaging kind of jackass that's just reminding the reader of all the bosses they've hated in their time #the engaging and likeable Guy Who Sucks So Bad is a loner who might CLAIM that he will take over the group or whatever and lead #but never actually has any intentions of doing so because part of the things he sucks re: is responsibility of any kind #he does however know that leaders dont like other people horning in on their territory so he will say things like #i'm gonna wreck your shit and then all your lackeys will follow ME! ouahahahahaha . despite having zero plans to follow up with that #the ideal engaging asshole protagonist is a rebel without a good cause: maybe he has a sad backstory; maybe he's just a dick #but if there's one thing about him you can count on it's that he is Opposed To Shit. doesnt matter what it is his primary entertainment #is picking a fight with it for no reason and then saying what the fuck ever i didn't care about it anyway (he didn't) #ideally this is all done in such a way that he is SEXY . but you'd never want to hang with him because he is deeply obnoxious #he is not bossy. he is not controlling. he is maybe even a bit of a wife guy except he hates everyone else and wants to make their day wors #because making someone else's day worse makes HIS day better . the ideal wife for him is the one from ordinary day with peanuts #by shirley jackson #and i have GOT to figure out a way to engineer this guy without copying examples of my favorite versions of him wholesale #i have the scaffolding. but because of my own confrontation-averse tendencies #im terribly concerned that i will never be able to actually make him the asshole he was born to be #q

[pepprs]

i wish i wasn’t depressed lol

#or whatever it is i am. it’s really making things hard. i feel like i suck except i don’t actually suck it’s just that i feel like i do and #feeling like i do actually makes me suck legitimately. so whatever #purrs #i don’t even know how to put it into words. im stuck in my life and if im not stuck im falling behind. i kinda got in trouble at work a #little bit for not staying on top of these 2 things and i feel so horrible abt it bc it was my idea to do it in the first place but i bit #off more than i can chew which is what i always seem to do. im falling behind or stuck in every possible aspect of my life rn it’s sooooo um #not great. and i feel insignificant and small constantly and anyway i have to worry about grad school LOL. pain #i don’t even know how to say it right like that’s how sad i am. i can’t even articulate it. im exhausted especially with myself. #i wish i could just snap my fingers and stop being miserable bc it makes everyone else around me miserable but i don’t know how to stop #like if you think about it i am kind of bad at my job. the worst possible thing for me to be. ermmmmmm 🤭

[aroacettorney]

perhaps the reason why aup ended like *that* is because it was not supposed to have a happy ending in the first place, but sayren didnt have the guts to deal with readers' backlash for when they finally kill off the main character so a half baked happy ending is what we get 😔

#for a happy ending of a story to be narratively satisfying the characters gotta actively work hard for it #this happy ending feels empty because quite frankly speaking ludger did nothing to deserve it #he has zero character developments from the beginning to the end and has always been the same #well except for his emotional state getting worse over time #bc instead of making any attempt at all to healthily address it like a mentally mature 40yo adult he let it swallow him whole #(not that im necessarily blaming him but its quite frustrating to see him remain unchanged if aup is meant to be a redemption story) #his OPness is inherent #his genius is inherent #(this is not to say he isnt hardworking / only relying on his inborn talents but the author repeatively failed the 'show dont tell' checks) #(bc it was only implied in the past and we've never truly seen it in the canon present timeline either) #his kindness is inherent #ngl dad!ludger content doesnt appeal to me as much as dad!edgeworth cuz the latter is the fruit of the character's growth and hard labor #while the former is well... its just who he is #usually i love found family content but in aup it bores my mind out bc his interactions w the students + owens are so static & predictable #it was heartwarming at the moment of adoption but later on i find it as tedious as reading generic established romantic relationships #was it because of the lack of tensions and conflicts i wonder #they all became his yes men and no one ever actively challenged his unhealthy mindset or behaviors #anyway id have been more interested if he recognized his biases/favoritism/prejudices towards some certain characters & worked to change it #but welp. that would require character growth which is too much to expect from him ig #he has learnt quite nothing from his journey and tbh aup would ironically feel more meaningful if it ended on a tragic note #ofco i got noblesse'd again 😔 #would i kill for aup to have a happy ending? yes #would i rather have a sad ending over the half baked and empty good ending we get? also yes #if it must burn then let the whole world burn. cuz at least it would be more much memorable and impactful that way #and i wouldnt have to feel this disappointed and lose all of my interests in one of my only two beloved aroace MCs in aup </2 #rant

[memorys-skyscraper]

yknow going through the whole yakuza/LAD series as quickly as i did made it really interesting to see how the series as a whole and some characters in specific evolved over time in response to changing audience interests, specifically a growing desire for pathos in their video games

if you'd told someone who'd just played 1 & 2 on the ps2 back in 2006 that by 2024, several of the most recent entries in the series would end with the protagonist having an absolute sobbing meltdown and/or begging the main antagonist to give up in lieu of just punching them into complete submission, there's a 0% chance they would've believed you

#rambles #yakuza #like a dragon #yakuza liveblogging #like it was fine for majima to just be a ~crazy guy~ in 2006 but by 0's release in 2016 that wasnt enough anymore #so he gets a tragic backstory with a love interest #nishiki gets fleshed out a ton in 0/kiwami 1 for the same reason #kiryu is sad about yumi's death in 1 but not so sad it stops him from starting a fling with sayama in 2 #but later games retroactively cast yumi as the one and only love of kiryu's life #and her death as probably the singular most traumatic event he's ever experienced #(though her/nishiki's/kazama's deaths all kind of get lumped together since they happened in such quick succession) #6 is the misadventures of grandpa kiryu bc dad kiryu is a much more compelling character vs. plain ol 'dude who punch real good' kiryu #hell kasuga in his entirety would not have worked in this series in the 00s except as a joke/side character #a dude who relentlessly believes in the inherent good of mankind and their ability to start over and change their ways no matter what? #in *yakuza*? nah take that shit back to kingdom hearts #anyway. its good! probably a necessary evolution for the series to stay relevant but good nonetheless #'dude who punch real good and cries sometimes' >>>>> 'dude who punch real good'