#good ol threats

[musewrangler]

Mara bit on her bottom lip, aware that it was a terrible habit and she was giving herself chapped lips. But. It was one of the only silent coping mechanisms she possessed given the brutality of her training as Hand.

She watched from the shadows as their quarry took his sweet time speaking drunkenly to an attractive Zabrak woman who had clearly had enough of him judging by the curl of her lip.

“How many pubs can this guy hit in two days?” Luke asked and she was about to reprimand him for speaking when she recalled that he’d just communicated in her mind.

Right.

Working with other Force users was still not something she was used to.

“Fits his profile,” she informed him curtly. “He does a job and gets blasted after payment before moving on to the next thing. Oh, FINALLY.”

The would be assassin had at last departed, swaying a little as he walked toward his speeder. It had been her suggestion to wait for him to be mostly inebriated before they confronted him. It should make their job easier.

#star wars #star wars original trilogy #star wars au #firmus piett #admiral piett #general veers #maximilian veers #leia organa #luke skywalker #mara jade #han solo #Matthew Scraps #writing #friendship #angst #hurt/comfort #loyalty #intrigue #good ol threats #post Star Wars rotj

[teaveetamer]

How does Raxis's orientation, gender, and skin color matter? And why does yours matter?

Why does me being a queer woman matter when a cishet white man accuses me of being queerphobic and misogynist?

Assuming you're the anon Ezra keeps getting who is complaining about us pointing out his age (since I got this right after I reblogged one of those), you probably read his blog right? Considering Raxis claims to be such a great progressive ally and co-opts all that progressive language, I'd think people who follow him would understand why this is so important?

Okay, I'll be very clear, cut because this got long, I'm not repeating it ad nauseum after this post.

His gender, sexual orientation, and race wouldn't matter if he hadn't made it matter. Raxis is not only a bully, he's a bully who constantly appropriates the language of social justice. My very first direct interaction with him was literally me calling his ass out for using the murder of Roe v. Wade as a bludgeon to win a fandom argument. Which happened, like, right the fuck after that decision came down and most women in America were fucking traumatized from literally having our rights stripped from us. And I wish our relationship ended at that "apology" but he hasn't changed and he keeps doing it.

He is the one who consistently accuses me (and other women) of being misogynistic and having internalized misogyny. He is the one who consistently accuses me (and other queer folk) of being queerphobic. He is the one who accuses BWIIDT (who is mixed race) for being out of line for thinking Cap (another white man!) has written racist elements into his fic (unintentionally or not). He consistently uses our oppression as a justification for why it should be okay for him to bully us.

If you are going to use our identities as part of your justification for harassing us, then we have every right to point out that these are identities that we hold and you don't. We have every right to point out that the opinions of a cishet white man about misogyny, queerphobia, racism, etc. do not matter as much as ours because you have never fucking experienced it like we have.

The role of allies is to amplify voices in spaces where we are not respected (e.g. with other cishet white men), not to lecture marginalized people for being "bad queers" or "bad women" from your throne of privilege.

It's especially fucking slimy because he pretends to be super progressive live and in concert, but when he slinks back to his buddies he laughs at us for being upset about being misgendered:

(Yes because you repeatedly misgendered me for months and only started correcting yourself and your anons when I called your shit out. You are literally "the misgendering type" but it's cute how you tried to act like I was being unreasonable for wanting the basic human respect of being referred to by my proper pronouns)

Accuses us of trying to hide behind "identity politics" when we're talking about the fucking oppression we face:

(Always a great sign when a cishet white man accuses queer women of "trying to use identity politics as a shield" when they're talking about their own fucking oppression. An even better sign when a cishet white man brags about "out identity-politicking" queer women when they're telling you to stop fucking throwing their oppression back in their faces. Whining about "identity politics" whenever marginalized groups try to voice anything is frankly such an alt right dogwhistle in itself at this point and I genuinely hope he's just not aware of it.)

Bullies queer women on his side who disagree with him and try to say basically exactly what I'm saying right now. That straight men can't appropriate the language we use to describe our oppression:

(usernames censored for the privacy of those being harassed and those not participating in harassment. This conversation has so much fucking more btw holy shit.)

Accuses me, specifically, of being "desperate to be a victim". I'll remind you I quite literally tried to give him grace despite him consistently using my oppression as a bludgeon to win stupid fucking fandom arguments and harass people (see also, the link above about me calling him out for the Roe v. Wade thing):

(Yes, Raxis, I fucking loved pouring my heart out about how my dad would kick me out for being queer and how I've faced sexual harassment. Tee hee. I'm having soooooo much fun "being a victim". I don't 'argue', I tell you, because your horrible treatment of people and my feelings about it are not up for debate.)

And engages in racist behavior like calling being black a "multiplier" to deflect from criticism and mocking a WoC when she posts about how racism upsets her.

(Yes Raxis, WoC tend to get "big mad" and "suffer" when they encounter racism, you ghoul. Before you ask, the blacked out part just wasn't relevant to the conversation.)

And this is just the stuff I got out of a quick keyword search because I don't want to expend that much energy on this. God only knows what else is buried in there.

This tells me you aren't actually an ally. You're an "ally" when it's convenient for you or when you think it'll make you look good, but your allyship is conditional, and the second you're "crossed" by someone you claim to champion you throw their trauma back in their faces. Not even your supposed friends are safe from it, so what chance did we have of not getting harassed by you?

"But there's queer women in the Edelgard fandom who like him!" Okay? So he can't be engaging in harmful shit just because he has a queer friend? When has "I have a [blank] friend" EVER been an actual good faith defense against criticism? News flash, we're not a monolith, and just because some women and queer folk might like you or even agree with you doesn't mean you get to tell me how I should respond to my own fucking oppression. It is not your place to accuse me, a fucking queer woman, of having "internalized misogyny" or "internalized homophobia" every time I say something you don't personally like.

Frankly, from what I've seen of their server, it's less "queer women like him" and more like "queer women are too afraid to say anything against him" because whenever they try he cries to his pro-genocide mod buddy (THAT is a whole fucking story) who threatens to ban them.

And I'm not going to add these screenshots because I feel icky airing her personal business like that so explicitly, but I do have them. The woman involved in the censored screenshots above posted, in the server, about how unsafe she felt because she'd been threatened and silenced by cishet men for trying to talk about queerphobia. She left the server entirely after that.

And let's not forget what started this: he's thirty five years old and in many cases he's pulling this shit on people who are significantly younger than him. Exceeding a decade his junior in some cases. I point that out primarily for the power dynamic inherent to that. Not only is he privileged on the basis of race, gender, and orientation, he's fully developed and he knows what he's doing. He has the privilege of age and experience.

Fuck dude, he started going after some folks on Tumblr when they were still like? 18? 19? Not children, but fucking close.

I'll be very explicit because I know he's going to take this and try to accuse me of ageism, because that's what he always does when he gets called out for appropriating the language of social justice: you are a fucking adult. You have been an adult the entire time you have been in this fandom. As an adult, it's your job to be a fucking adult in these situations. Not to verbally abuse and harass inexperienced teens and early 20 somethings because they don't agree with your video game opinions. You are a grown ass 35 year old man man who thinks he's cool because he can "beat up", "cow", and "bitch slap" teenagers and early 20 somethings who are still developing, figuring themselves out, and learning how to express themselves in an articulate manner. Many of whom are already dealing with varying levels of actual trauma based on their upbringings (abusive, hateful, uncaring, or just generally unpleasant environments) or how they've been treated because of their identity (race, class, gender, sexual orientation, mental health, disability, sometimes multiple all at once) or both. That is why I keep bringing up your age.

It is quite possibly the single most embarrassing thing I have seen someone in fandom brag about. Not even just because you did it, Raxis, but because you're proud of it and you genuinely think it makes you look cool. It's embarrassing. You're embarrassing yourself.

#inb4 he accuses me of ageism #or one of his other old standbys he does to try and deflect criticism #Like the suuuuuuuper helpful anon who tells him how great and progressive he is #Or the good ol' 'accuse the eDeLcRiTs of any random baseless shit in the hopes my followers will think theyre worse than me #Heck maybe his buddy will run in to defend his honor like the last few times and then ignore me when I call them out for sending me threats #try a new tactic im bored of doing this same song and dance every time #or better yet why dont you just leave people alone when they ask you to?

[mokeonn]

I'm playing bg3 again and trying out the honor mode (which as it turns out, might be a bad idea if you never beat the game in general, much less beat it in tactician mode) and I have been confronted with the fact that I absolutely have dnd race favoritism and it absolutely is contributing to my need for many many bg3 saves because I constantly think "hmmm I want to try playing as a deep gnome to see if I get special dialog with Barcus Wroot, the Iron hands, and the underdark" before picking Drow for the 4th time.

#simon says #to be fair!!! #for my honor mode run I picked half-elf drow heritage because I liked the male face shapes more #and also because picking a Lolth Sworn drow for the 4th time would be a sign of a problem #if you want to know what option number 2 is for character creation is when I think 'i should pick something other than drow' it's halfling #i love halfling characters I love halflings I love the adorably sweet dialog options you get and I love how the game is in a new camera #like it's so fun talking to small characters and having them just look at you normally but having every large character look down at you #it makes every threat 100 times more threatening #someome threatens you and you're a big ol dark urge dragonborn? yeah okay bud. I got acid breath we'll see who wins here #someone threatens you and you're a fucking tiny little wild mage halfling who just spent the last hour telling Lae'zel to be cordial? #yeah I believe that threat. they could absolutely just pick me up and run off with me right now and the most I could do is accidentally fog #if you wanna know default number 3 if I dont wanna be a drow and halfling is just no cutting it? #dragonborn #in actual dnd I have never played them because there's so many other races I default to (like tiefling which is 4 in this list) #but in bg3 they're just SO fun to make and look so cool #it goes in order of special favorite little cultists > special favorite little combat avoiders > the most fun thing to make and play #and finally tiefling. i don't have much of an explanation besides the fact that tieflings are fun and I love their plot relevance in bg3 #but yeah dragonborn is absolutely the most fun to create in character creation and very fun to play #but I gotta choose my special little guys with nothing in common #do I pick a dark elf choosing to leave the cult of lolth to be good? a dark elf who is still Lolth's special little baby girl? #a dark elf with nothing to do with the underdark since their parent left who has lived a surface life and doesn't like cultist association #or do I pick a halfling who's here to be as cordial as possible and find the funniest ways to avoid combat #I was considering having a halfling for my honor mode because I thought romancing Halsin would be fun #but I decided a drow because avoiding the goblin combats without using the tadpole is a HUGE plus #and also because I had used the best halfling hairstyle on my other halfling and I didn't want to just make the same guy twice #anyways I still need to do like every other race and class soon so I can get the fun dialog #but here's the tough truth that funnie pony artist number 32 really loves Drow and Halflings so so so much

[stellaeforged]

years after the trial, things had been quiet. but even then, talia was cautious; it was in her nature to be on the lookout, head turned over her shoulder constantly. it wasn’t as if she made a peaceful life for herself; she knew that choosing to testify against them was an invitation of their wrath. but even so ... even so, a part of her stupidly hoped that maybe, just maybe, she was wrong on this. that the org was torn apart from the inside out, that she would be able to look foward now. looking at it all, it was stupid of her to think it would die quietly, peacefully. it was still alive and well, thriving even, and it was sinking its claws into her. 

she had been walking home from her school once her last kid was picked up, a little later than normal. winter kept the sky dark, ominous, and she had been stubborn enough to take the same route home. she could have called thomas, even taken a cab. but for some reason, she didn’t think of it. her guard was down, and they had waited for that one in a million moment. she had noticed them when they first crossed the street onto her sidewalk, and soon enough they had caught up. there was a squeal of the car tires, and as one of them had lunged at her, she just remembered the car, the doors opening-- 

she wasn’t completely sure what had happened after that. 

they were young. young and with that same branding and probably in the same position she had been. eager to prove themselves, to keep their spot. she remembered that they had been nervous, that they were clumsy. that that was probably what kept her from getting shoved into the car. she can’t even think of how she thwarted it off. she just felt the aftermath of it all. the throbbing, the wetness, the -- shit. the wetness. her hand was red. no, no no no, that can’t be-- 

dark eyes snapped open, body immediately curling into itself and then recoiling in the agony. ‘-- where-- where am i--’ words spilled out of her as she fumbled to pull herself upright in the hospital bed, but the sight before her stopped her in her tracks. that sting at her eyes, her nose, the warmth in her face, the tears that began to dribble down her cheeks. she wasn’t sure whether it was relief or a different sort of horror clenching at her heart at that moment. ‘-- i’m so sorry, i’m -- i’m sorry, i didn’t -- i thought --’ but her voice gave out on her, her expression crumbling; she was too tired, too exhausted to hide her cries. ‘ i’m sorry ...’ // @heroexxs !! 

#natalia // thomas. #because i miss them but i also love the idea of the angst potential >:^)))) #her getting targetted YEARS after the trial #the one (1) time her guard is down they act on it; making an attempt to kidnap her but managing to beat her / wound her pretty badly #her being horrified with the fact that 1: they are still v much a threat to her and 2: that she'll never really escape that life #thomas getting a phone call bc she was found by some good samaritan and was rushed to the hospital :')) listen LISTEN THE ANGST #i just love some good ol' protective thomas over nat :'))

[edgepunk]

looks like I won't be playing Kingdom Come: Deliverance bc my pos antivirus keeps blocking it for some reason

#t #even after I added it to exceptions #when I launch the game it finds a new way to block it #man. #I really wanted to experience some good ol' czech eurojank #ig my antivirus detecting it as a threat is part of the experience

[smarterthantheaverageloser]

Reading up on the current Dream drama like a suburban mother listening to her kids explain the lore of the game they've been playing in the woods for a month

#'he's a dranti and I'm a mangoball so we're enemies and we're gonna fight to the death' 'oh that's nice dear' #I have the tags blocked because I genuinely cannot stand minecraft smp youtubers or whatever they call themselves nowadays #but god do I love peeling back the hermetic seal from time to time to watch some good old fashioned stupid discourse #sipping coffee. reading through the tags. reliving the days of being 13 and arguing over teenage mutant ninja turtles w internet strangers #knowing they will all pretend this didn't happen in five years #it has all the trappings of good ol' tumblr discourse tm #drama. bloodshed. doxxing threats. twitter hysteria. random slang terms for positions on the issue that I have no hope of keeping up with #from the outside #ah yes. a 13 year old calling another 13 year old a predator. exquisite. therapy for one million years #oho! a 27 year old defending some random internet man to the death! telling middle schoolers to kill themselves! #unmatched. what is wrong with them? the world may never know #'drantis dni' I like your funny words magic man #no idea what a dranti is #sounds like a low level dnd monster #johnsense #love minecraft. no idea why it drives people insane #watch me not tag this and still get death threats

[br-uwu-cewayne]

[Geordie LaForge Rejecting]: Batman's no kill rule is about his personal moral code and/or how killing a murderer makes you no different than the murderer

[Geordie LaForge Acknowledging]: Batman's no kill rule is about how he already has a concerning amount of power and influence over the criminal justice system just by virtue of his nature, and the concept of one individual/group being judge, jury, AND executioner (particularly when the actual roles they DO fill, detective/investigator/immediate protector, are none of those) would be a gross abuse of that power bordering on the tyrannical, even for objectively ethically correct decisions. A tyrant is still a tyrant, even if he's good to his people. THAT is Batman's concern, not the moral implications of directly causing another person's death. It would be one thing for Bruce to kill, (though still a little shakey ground, considering the amount of power and influence he carries just via his wealth,) but a completely different issue for Batman, with his position over the city and later semi-vigilante status particularly working as an unofficial arm of the law to do so in the course of his work.

#i dont care what any particulat writer has said #[pointed glare] #this is MY truth #the SAME reason mcu steve shouldve signed those FUCCKING ACCORDS #or just gone unofficial as nomad #because running around other countries interfering with a big ol american flag on your chest and IN YOUR NAME is not a good fucking look #tossing the power and influence of a country notorious for deciding what 'approperiate justice and freedom' is for other cultures they #should have nothing to do with - even if its a good thing its still massively overstepping their bounds comsidering the constant looming #threat of just how MUCH power they have if they should decided to turn it against. and then. you know. real fucking WAR would happen.

[apollo-cackling]

sometimes I go into western fandom spaces for chinese webnovels and I feel like I'm going insane is chinese racism/ableism really that different from western racism that western fans don't notice them the way I do it can't be can it it feels so blatantly obvious to me but no one talks about it??????

not to say that folks can't enjoy them still I just start feeling like the person in horror movies that's the only person that sees ghosts

#my rambles #like this arc with desert dwelling people who are Inherently Brutish and Murderous and 10147x stronger than Normal people #and we Had to genocide them 'cause else they'd've suicide bombed hundreds of our cities #(which is confirmed true by one of those quote unquote savages' generals and the narratives just accepted was necessary) #like ????? #also seeing a book rec'd on its political intrigue and turns out there's a whole Thing about killing and subjugating the Savages #idk if 蛮人 is more or less yikes than 'barbarians' on a cultural context level but #yk #even in the ones I've started to read that are less bad about it #the barbarians/'we actually gave them a name this time but you know what we're talking about' #still essentially serve the narrative utility of tolkien's orcs #also the liao kingdom in y/wu even setting aside that I just find 'Ontologically Evil Kingdom' extremely boring as an archetype #(esp given the narrative utility of it was just 'well the stuffy nobles* Bicker and all that but when faced with an existential threat #they pull together #*read: deeply bigoted dogmatic hateful selfish exploitative rotten to the core groups people #which is boring and lazy and I hate it) #also just. good ol' chinese racism I can't remember if it's Actual Racist (w/ its descriptions mirroring descriptions of irl folks) but. yk #I need to stop picking structural holes in yuwu I'm done reading it I'm done #also this other one I found's base concept involves a mentally ill protag whose mental illness literally involves him sometimes becoming #an uncontrollable murderer or wtv #so #fun

[radioactivebeggars]

Silver foxes

#kazumaji #yakuza #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #my art #rgg fanart #fanart #i do be keeping hope that majima'll appear in lad8/y8 #for MORE that 5 minutes #i they start a game with something like damn my good ol' friend majima he was such a reliable guy such a shame that he died #OR damn majima got in a jail again #i WILL beat the shit out of everyone in rgg studio #this is not a threat this is a promise #it's not mainly about kazumaji or majima himself #it's more about the fact that i want kiryu to spend time with his friends #my man looked so lonely in y7/gaiden trailer #i simply want him to do stuff with his friends like go to karaoke or cafe or cinema or play some games like darts or just talk about random #is it too much to ask 🥺👉👈

[oldmidori]

(maybe ppl wouldnt idolize t/m/a so much if other podcasts were acted, written, or paced nearly as well as it ha ha haaaa) (i love small creator projects but sometimes it means weighing pros and cons of quality/listenability) (the fact that t/m/a is acted well (mostly), written well AND has good audio quality/engineering is very impressive)

#i think ma/lev/ol/ent is also a triple threat #and all by one guy!!! he doesnt even need a team to make it good!

[astrangergivingthestrangewelcome]

I think with Dracula I've reached the saturation point of loving it so much that I've ruined my ability to watch any adaptation like I simply have too many strong opinions about all aspects of the story no one who isn't me could come up with a version that hits all my adaptational preferences. I've flown too close to the sun.

#listened to a good chunk of Murray Mysteries again whilst I was cooking my course of a medieval feast #and while I am always grateful for 'it was Jonathan who was bitten' truthers it doesn't make any more sense to exclude Jonathan than Mina #'he's got trauma' fellas you treat trauma differently when the threat is ongoing vs. past and away #*anyway #i could get behind maybe lets keep Jonathan out of like. the dangerous legwork where we might meet the count #but why can't he make phonecalls for the group like??? #besties you're literally just recommending the good ole Victorian rest cure like yeah sit home alone and feel excluded #while you know we're risking our lives :) this will help you heal #like all of these characters should know that this is a bad idea #also murray mysteries you know I think you guys are simply the best dracula adaptation #but where the fuck was Jonathan's visceral despair at realizing his abuser was back and had his claws in him again #like I know you guys were talented enougn to get him there why didn't you

[theskoomacat]

most night scenes in tlou are too fucking dark, but when they say "it's dark, the sniper won't see us clearly" the scene is lit so bright only a full supermoon would explain it....

#i told myself i would resist bitching too much but. motherfucker #tlou spoilers #they didn't even check them both for bites after That??????????????? #also the good ol' technique of running away from a threat running at you in a straight line by.... #running directly from it instead of to the side #my commentary #you really don't have to care/

[bobthebobking]

I wanna draw more gorkle but I have no ideas..

edit: the tags of this post have nothing to do with art idk how I went on such an invested gorkle tangent HAHSJDMDB some things can only be ranted about in tags

#i was rereading some of the gorkle chapters (as you do) n i was getting all emotional about gorko telling pipit #'dont let the threat of the world ending make you rush things' #and now gorko is like.. 'if one of us doesnt make it out of this i think theres some things we both want to say' LIKEEEEEE #you can't wait for the Right Moment at the end of the world #sometimes its the Only moment you get #n its when your partner is caught up in bad memories and half of human civilization is drinking themselves silly before the final fight #and all your kids are off gathering the unimaginable power of the goddess and preparing for some sort of civil war #and you just gotta take these few minutes where you find yourselves alone for the first time in weeks #to make sure this person who's become so important to you like. understands why you are the way you are #to make sure at least one person in this world Gets you and Accepts you despite the mistakes youve made #AUGHHHHHH weeping bawling sobbing shitting crying throwing up #sorry for reading so deep into gorkle HAHAJSKSB #happy fun time with good ol bob #gorkle #just saturday morning thoughts <3

[danwhobrowses]

If anyone's curious after I finally watched all the main PPVs this weekend. MotN (Supercard of Honor): Eddie Kingston vs Mark Briscoe MotN (Stand and Deliver): Oba Femi vs Dijak vs Josh Briggs MotN (Wrestlemania XL Day 1): GUNTHER vs Sami Zayn MotN (Wrestlemania XL Day 2): Logan Paul vs Randy Orton vs Kevin Owens Best Entrance: The Rock (Wrestlemania XL Day 1) Best Attire: Athena as Karlach (Supercard of Honor) - But shout out to New Day for the Rocky and Apollo gear honoring Carl Weathers. Best Performance: Kyle Fletcher (Supercard of Honor) Best Spot: Billie Starkz fakes a Neck Injury just to jump Queen Amanita to win her first major title at 19 years old (Supercard of Honor)

#wwe #roh #ring of honor #nxt #wwe nxt #nxt stand and deliver #supercard of honor #wrestlemania 40 #I'd probably have liked Stand and Deliver more if it weren't for Booker T on commentary #Punk on commentary was so bitter and redundant as well #and Snoop Dogg was fucking baked #also I'd like to point out that I hate the 'pull the ref out the ring' spot - it doesn't stop them from being able to count! #Trips and Steph opening each Mania was a bit narcissistic if TK did it the internet would've ripped him apart even if it were Wembley #nobody wants to admit how big a mark Trips and Steph are for themselves and it shows - literally just jerking themselves off on tv #love Rey but felt Dom and Santos probably should've won though #like ol' Stingray but he kinda lingered too long for Johnny/Dalton #liked Drew's entrance but the Rock took it easily - also that kinda setup should've been for a world title match #Sami and Owens being there for each other backstage before their entrances was nice though #but still a lot of good wrestling out this weekend #Pretty Deadly skit was funny too on Night 1 #not the biggest Corbin fan but his tag match was a close second to the NA triple threat #and credit where it's due also to Logan Paul as much as I hate him actually did some wrestling this time #Athena/Shida was a close second against Eddie/Mark too - same with Lee/Fletcher #Kyle just beats out Sami and Dijak imo but they all wrestled their butts off #should've put money on Drew winning then Punk attacking leading to a Priest cash in though #I'd be down for a R-KO tag run though - also a Mina vs Toni match to put Mariah in the middle #but congrats Cody for winning the world title that didn't exist when Dusty was robbed of winning the world title against Flair by count out #get yourself someone who loves you as much as WWE loves a spear through the barricade

[soft-spooks]

who is your fav f/o? i want to give you a doodle!!!!

OHHHH HI HI HELLO. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO DRAW ME ANYTHING I PROMISE <3 although i will in fact be using this ask to gush so prepare yourself.

SO. THIS IS KIND OF A LOADED QUESTION FOR ME i have had a less than stellar experience with both fandom and self shipping so im still very very very shy and afraid 2 talk about my f/os too much so please be niceys thank u <3 putting this under a cut just in case it gets really long LMAO

so. i have multiple f/os that i consider my mains, but my longest term one is actually antisepticeye !!!! i cannot help it i was so deep in youtuber fandom in 2016 and my brain latched onto him like a baby duckling and now he lives here forever . however i do not associate myself with that fandom at all anymore so he has basically become like an oc to me LMAO. i had a reallt specific fanon version of him that i used to draw all the time and a backstory that i had basically written out entirely and then when my bad fandom stuff happened i decided "nvm you guys cant have him anymore hes mine now" i have been shipping with him sinceeee i believe late 2016/early 2017 ?? yea!!! hes my fucked up little guy forever i love him so much. hardcore comfort character do not mind the fact that he is covered in blood ans has probably murdered people. hes silly <3 my tag for him on this blog is the knife emoji (🔪) and i dont really have an s/i i just ship him with. Myself.

HOWEVER I AM SELF AWARE and i understand that youtuber characters are on a lot of peoples dnis and theyre not everyone's cup of tea exactly. so i will give you options here :] my OTHER mains are !!!! sun and moon from fnaf (☀️ and 🌙 respectively) who i started shipping with early last year !

AND SPEAKING OF SELF AWARE some of my other beloveds are gordon and benrey from hlvrai (☢️ and 🎮) WHO I HAVE CREATED A SELF INSERT FOR AND THEY ARE ONE OF MY FAVORITE OCS EVER. oh my god. their name is mickey and i have managed to fit them so very seamlessly into hlvrai's story im so proud of how well they fit into canon and ive given them the chef kiss perfect amount of angst and silliness !!! a lot of my lore for them was on my old blog which got deleted in late 2021 and i havent been on a huge hlvrai kick since then so they dont have a whole lot of content on the current iteration of mac softspooks dot com but their tag is "🧟 mickey" i believe. (ill add all the character tags to this ask in case u wanna look at them :])

OH YEAH ALSO. BECAUSE IVE BEEN SHIPPING WITH ANTI FOR SO LONG i have naturally made. so many aus for him. i have like 20 different aus for my ship w him (as i said. basically an oc. mine now) my favorite of which is called hunting haunting which is a buzzfeed unsolved inspired au where we hunt ghosts together but with a dramatic twist ofc because im weak for human/monster love stories. so u will see me talk about hunting haunting a lot here thats what it is hehe

#IM NOT GOOD AT GUSHING IM SORRY. I AM SO SCARED ALL THE TIME <3 #long story short i used to get. good ol death threats in the inbox specifically for my ship with anti so. ough scary. #unfortunately i love him though so ppl cannot get rid of me that easily . #i never reblog art of him or put anything in the main tags just in case though #HOWEVER. ENOUGH OF SAD THINGS. i highly recommend looking thru my tags i post a lot of stuff here lmao #i have a lot of other ships too !! but these 3 are the ones i think about the most :] #NOW FOR TAGS bc tumblrs search system is so busted #🔪 #☀️ #🌙 #☢️ #🎮 #asks #anon #THANK U FOR THIS U DO NOT HAVE TO DRAW ME THINGS PLS DONT FEEL OBLIGATED TO <333 i will love u forever if u do though thank u aaaaaaa #🧟‍♂️ mickey #🐟 mac #<< the mac tag is . me. like the selfship version of me LMAO #i dont think theres many posts in that tag i mainly just use it for art sorting purposes

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While I’m ranting about people taking things wrong in the mcu fandom. Nat’s conversation with Bruce about kids.

SHE IS NOT CALLING HERSELF A MONSTER BECAUSE SHE CANT HAVE KIDS. YALL NEED TO REWATCH THE SCENE UNTIL YOU UNDERSTAND IT. You guys really are misunderstanding a scene and making me defend Joss Wheaton against my will. Stop it.

Bruce says something like “I can’t give you this. The apple pie life. Do the math I can’t have kids.” And Nat responds with “neither can I”. Then she explains what the red room did to her AND THEN she says “the only thing that might be more important than a mission, it makes everything easier. Even killing.” Then she pauses and then she say that line everyone takes wrong “still think you’re the only monster on the team?” She’s not saying she’s a monster because she was sterilized, she’s saying she’s a monster because killing is easier. YES BEING STERILIZED MAKES THAT EASIER BUT THAT IS NOT WHY SHES CALLING HERSELF A MONSTER. The wording is weird and awkward, it’s stupid and could have been written better but she is not calling herself a monster for not being able to have kids.

I’ve had some brain dead folks try to tell me she wouldn’t bring it up if it wasn’t why she was calling herself a monster but literally the only reason she brings up the fact she’s sterilized is because Bruce tells her he can’t have kids. She’s reassuring him she doesn’t care if he can or can’t have kids. He’s about to run and she’s trying to get him to stay with her. And as much as I hate Bruce Nat (my poor boy Bruce has no good love interests. They all do some kind of messed up shit to him.) she is trying to reassure him that no matter how many people he’s hurt or killed as hulk she’s hurt or killed more so he’s not alone in being a monster.

I’ve had even more brain dead people tell me that if she thought she was a monster for killing then she’d think all the avengers were monsters but that’s not how self hate works. When you hate yourself like that You could be in a room full of people who have done the exact same stuff as you and you’d still think you were the bad apple in the bunch. In both Nat and Bruce’s minds the other avengers did what was necessary while they just hurt or killed people so they are bad for that.

#i got desth threats for this take and the civil war take on tiktok. #wonder how interesting it’ll be on good ‘ol Tumblr #certain MCU fans learn how to engage the brain while watching the movies challenge. #level impossible #at least that’s what it’s starting to seem like