#i am literally talking about myself

[jaytohell]

“bro that’s my wife” my man that is literally a minecraft character from the minecraft role play series minecraft diaries that came out 9 years ago.

#minecraft diaries #laurance zvahl #garroth ro'meave #aphmau mcd #aphblr #i am literally talking about myself #callout post

[uncanny-tranny]

Anger is such a normal part of recovery, and I wish it were normalized. I think it is genuinely harmful to depict recovery as this era of your life that only sets you free and makes you euphoric, and there will never again be a cloud in the sky because you have Ultimately Healed.

It's the fucking opposite sometimes. Recovery can feel violent, because the things you are recovering from are often (though not always) violent. It is so common to feel white-hot rage, grief, catharsis, elation, numbness - in essence, a whole host of emotions that aren't pretty, or aren't simple little categories to be neatly boxed and sorted and understood by the "normals."

Those recovering: Your emotions are real, and they aren't bad. You aren't a bad person for how you are processing and healing. You, however, aren't alone. You are doing so fucking well, no matter what it is you are healing from or for. I genuinely hope you can be proud of that.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #recovery #the first time i actually *let* myself feel anger and rage was truly the point i felt free #because throughout my time trying to recover i was TERRIFIED and HORRIFIED that i could feel those Bad Emotions #and that rage hit me suddenly because i couldn't hold that anger in anymore #it's almost funny to me now though #me driving: 😀 || my brain: I Am So Fucking Irate About [recovery thing] I Never Deserved That || me: 🤬 #i know for a fact that i have talked about this but i quite literally still need to talk about this

[rosefires20]

My brainrot today is thinking about just how incredible for a character Eowyn is.

Genuinely. The series might not have many female characters but the ones we do get go so fucking hard.

To me, Eowyn is literally the definition of defining being a woman for oneself. She rejects the roles she is given despite acknlowdging the importance and its mostly because she knows part of the reason is that she is a woman.

The reason why she is obsessed with Aragorn isn't because she loves him but because she wants what he has. She wants the freedom and courage and bravery that Aragorn has at every turn. She literally has multiple conversations during the Two Towers about how what she fears most is a cage. All this girl wants is the freedom to be and not be forced into a role. The best thing is that she literally gets that.

The segment of Return of the King about Eowyn and Faramir is literally about her piecing together what she truly wants. She doesn't want Aragorn. She wants freedom and the ability to choose. Faramir does nothing but encourage that in her. Their love story is literally one of the healthiest love stories I've seen in a long time because at the heart of it, their love is a place to return home to for both parties. Both go off to lead and help their people for a considerable amount of time before returning to each other but that does not diminish their bond. Even Faramir, I believe, falls in love with her bravery and dedication to her loved ones. The reason she went to Pelenor Fields and Gondor with the troops of Rohan was because she had things she wanted to fight for. She wanted to fight for herself, her people, and her loved ones. She is the one who protects Theoden after he is killed so that his body gets the treatment it deserves. She encourages Merry and helps him go to the battle because she sees her struggle in Merry. They feel helpless standing around when there are things to be doing.

Let's also not forget the fact that she was around Grima Wormtounge just as much as the King was. She was exposed to the same poison and awful words that eroded the king. It's even implied that her care for him is part of the reason why Theoden was savable when Gandalf showed up. She had the same power and bravery as everyone else even if she didn't see it in herself.

Then at the end of the day, SHE decides where she wants to go and what path she wants to walk. She walked the path of a warrior. The path of a princess/ruler. The path of a caretaker. But in the end she decides which elements truly mean something to her outside of gender definitions. That is what makes her character so incredible to me. In this she literally kills one of the biggest enemies in that battle with such a badass line.

#i could talk for ages about how i see the struggle of defining being a woman for oneself in her #she rejects the feminine roles given to her but she also doesnt quite want the masculine ones #she just wants the freedom to choose and have the same respect that men are given #she doesnt want to be belitted because she is a woman #thats literally what Faramir gives her and why she stays with him #Faramir loves her for her not anything else #he respects her as she does him #i am someone who is a woman but rejects the definitons of being a woman because they are toxic and caging #all i want is the freedom and respect of being a HUMAN being #i lend more masculine because that is where that freedom is more often but i also see how toxic that relam is too #niether side is good which is why i choose my own path and defintiom #the fact that eowyn gets such a similar story in a series written by a man in the mid 1900s is incredible #i am someone who would love to have more female characters but i do not want them at the expense of them being proper characters and humans #ive read a lot of fantasy women do not always get the agency they deserve #i would rather take fewer well written women then a bunch of poorly written female characters #lotr has that #eowyn arwen and galadriel are all given agency and the space to be their own individuals which makes them incredible characters #thats what i want out of books and ficition #god im making myself insane about my own thoughts lol #i could talk for ages im not kidding #eowyn #eowyn of rohan #lotr #lotr rambling #lord of the rings #the two towers #the return of the king

[aromantic-diaries]

My favorite argument against literally anything like "it's not natural" or something along those lines is simply I Don't Care

#aro #aromantic #arospec #ace #asexual #acespec #lgbtq+ #lgbtq #queer #< additional tags bc while i'm talking about being aro and ace this pretty much goes for literally every queer identity under the sun #not even joking. let's say hypothetically being trans is unnatural and wrong. i actually don't care i think it's awesome #i don't consider myself the rebellious type but i also go against several societal norms just by existing so fuck it. anarchy it is then #i cannot stress this enough. i don't care if it's wRoNg. i can live with that. you can't even imagine how willing i am to live with that

[lokioftheloch]

RULES OF BEING OTHERKIN #1

Being authentic and true to yourself is the only way you are 'supposed to be/act like' (insert entity). If anyone else disagrees it only tells you about them.

#going to start a small 'series' where I document stuff I learn that is otherkin specific. This is for myself as well as anyone who might #be struggling with things I used to/am working on(otherkin specific). hopefully this will reduce any mental pitfalls other otherkin may #fall into as they explore their identity and help out someone. #this 'rule' took a LONG time to fully understand and grasp. for the longest time I would consciously or subconsciously #think I was less Loki if I did or was something 'Loki would never do. until i realized I do exactly and experience exactly what Loki does #and experiences because...Im literally Loki. (talking about incarnations here). I felt pressured to be a certain way because 'Loki would #never (insert). being aroace is on of them. i tried to convince myself I wasn't aroace #and when I finally ran out of reasons i felt i was 'less Loki' because mythologically hes like the opposite. but Loki IS aroace. because #Im Loki. and Im aroace. so loki is SUPPOSED to be aroace because Im loki and im being exactly how loki is being. because im loki. being #myself. therefore being exactly like Loki. again - incarnation. #anyway....if anyone else struggles with this I hope this helps someone. its a really sucky place to be in honestly. #godkin #deitykin #alterhuman #otherkin #divinekin #nonhuman #alterbeing #therian #I think I will be learning a LOT more as I keep exploring and I will note down any 'rules' I learn - more like lessons but rules personally #sound more right for me. rules i will live by (yknow unless i find out im wrong but...im going to trust myself more and right now i feel #like this rule is true. so im using it as such unless i find out im wrong in future.

[myokk]

Sebastian had a few days leave from duty so he visited Eloise😇😇

#im literally OBSESSED with Eloise😩 #and this AU😇🙏 #they are maybe late 20s/early 30s here I wanted to experiment a bit #anyways I was reading A Little Life at the beach today #and ngl I was tearing up literally ALL the time!!! 😤😤😤 #it’s just so beautifully written & I find myself relating so heavily and I get gut punches every few pages where I need to stop reading #and just process it #idk maybe I am sentimental today LOL #It’s just…it’s making me think about the fact that I’ve never really Belonged in any one place and neither have the characters #my mom is the product of Bulgarian/swedish immigrants to the US and my dad is a Spanish pueblo man 😂 #and their experiences/culture/languages etc etc have shaped my life soooooooo much🙏 #but like at the same time. too reserved to truly fit in with the Spanish but too open/blunt for the midwest #idk it is weird to explain #anyways I just keep moving forward & make my own way🙏🙏🙏 #thank you for coming to my free Therapy Session in the hashtags (bc nobody reads these😂😂😂😂) #also if you did & you also read a little life please🙏 or if you want to talk about books in general🙏🙏 #hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #hphl #sebastian sallow #hogwarts legacy mc #hogwarts legacy oc #eloise #oh also this is a recreation of a Porco Rosso scene😇😇🙏🙏 #but I changed the colors a LOT & also a bit more when I sketched it up

[minzbins]

the most beautiful man i ever saw 🫠

#svtcreations #seventeen #kiwitracks #forbelleseyes #userzaynab #svt #hoshi #kwon soonyoung #!melstuff #be the sun tour #THIS IS FINE.GIF #🫠 #if he was that close to me i would literally perish #like if he looked at me i would just turn into little pieces and get whisked away with the wind #and if he talked to me i would literally turn into a puddle on the fucking floor #HIS FUCKING LAUGH??? #god. #i literally– will go drwn myself in my tears shfjebrwe9wrjj1wefnojl #i am so normal about him can y'all tell

[howdoyousleep3]

Husband just had me fighting for my life during sex it was incredible

#personal #my husband tag #i was feeling self-conscious about how i looked in this new shirt #i literally wept during this fuck #i am beside myself #i crawled across the bed and he chased me #talking all about how i need to let this dick make me cry?? like??? #does anyone else cry immediately with intense g-spot attention? because 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 #mans just had me crying immediately from it #anyway…

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the picnic table scene

#this isnt going to make sense to literally any of you for a long time and im sorry about that #but FUCK was i writing this morning #man. man man man man Man the motivation Hit #this fic might get done after all... #i need. to go sleep. OUASGAHSAKJSNCADCLSKDVMS; #THEY MAKE ME INSANE THEY MAKE ME INSANE #YALL ALREADY KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT #THEY MAKE ME CRAZY AGH AGH AGH #ok. ok. ill sleep. and we'll see if the scene holds up when my brain is Refreshed #absolutely unprompted #throwing myself to the ground and howling #who do i need to BITE #oh 7 am me we're really in it now #literally getting myself too worked up. im. Emotional. i almost feel like tearing up #if that was something i could do lmao #fortunately crying does not come easily to me but in my heart im like. idk. Sobbing #anyway in order to calm down im gonna go think about something that makes me equally insane #which is the OG reason i designed a butterfly look for howdy. yass!howdy's origins <3 #slamming my face through drywall ok bye im off to crazyville where i can catch a layover to sleepytown

[hauntedhowling]

I really really wanna talk about my personal lycanthropy but I've been sitting on it like an egg bc I don't know what to talk about and I'm to anxious to talk to anyone else about it

I really really really wanna socialize with other 'thropes but Jesus God Fuck everytime I try to I feel like im going I to cardiac arrest or like my heart is gonna explode and bruh it is killing me

#whats he yappin on about #clinical lycanthropy #alterhuman #lycanthropy #werewolf #nonhuman #otherkin #therian #ive been nervous calling myself a clinical lycanthrope but it literally is exactly what i am. i feel like im somehow doing harm but its #literally my experince. ive only ever mentioned it a couple times bc i would rather just tag lycanthropy but i may start tagging with it #idk #i wanna talk to others like me so bad but i havent met anyone like me #werewolf kin #i wish i could afford therapy

[pigswithwings]

wouldn't you want to be a human? (0000, xhe/xher and xey/xem)

#behold an oc #<- yeah thats my lame ass oc tag. everyone say hi to 0000 #pig does art #gore #tw gore #cw gore #i KNOW i don't talk much about my ocs on here. or really anywhere else they just live inside my brain #the reason is because I Don't Know Much About Them Yet. but i am figuring it out... please understand #anyways! simple drawings for now nothing huge as i would not like to tire myself out too much at the moment #should i make a tag for 0000. uh ill figure it out this is literally the first post ive made with xem in it

[murdleandmarot]

The gang’s all here!! They’re on the case!! And there’s no ghost that they wouldn’t chase!!!!!

@mysticalcats’s Foxglove, @toki-toro’s Chaumet, @emimii’s Clownaire, and my own Bluebelle :)

#this was indeed the project I was working on lmao #WHY DID THIS TAKE 17 BILLION YEARSSSSSS #I actually rly like how the actual paint turned out #ESPECIALLY FOR FOXGLOVE SQUEEEEE #he looks so cute….and I got all the colors mixed for Chaumet #watercolor oc painting: 1 #back paint neck pain headache pain: 0 #no but sketching this took such! a long! time! #I just straight up could not get foxglove and bluebelle right it was maddening #but I persisted and I beat the odds‼️‼️ Yipee‼️‼️ #I love all of these guys so so so much I’ll prolly never stop thinking about them #please never stop talking about your ocs ever #and I am working on being coherent about Bluebelle as we speak!!!! #I got an idea and now I’m trying to make my brain not be mean about it #literally just chanting to myself ‘YOU! CAN MAKE! IT AS WEIRD!! AS! YOU WANT!!!’ #shoutout to my fairytales throughout that ages book for inspiring me #100 points and a drawing of your choice if you can figure out the story Bluebelle’s backstory is based on lmao #ANYHOW #I just be rambling in these tags I perhaps need to calm down lol #I LOVE YALLS OCS FOREVER AND EVER!!!! #clownaire was literally perfect from the start I NAILED his pose first try and then he was very supportive the rest of the way through #live laugh love 🫶🫶🫶💐💐💐🩰🩰🩰 #next up: Jemima painting!! with two special guests!!! #oh shit those are a lot of tags uhhhh I’m done now i promise 🫶🫶 #cats the musical #cats musical #cats oc #jellicle oc #sorah’s silly scribbles #(also the text right under the drawing are a Scooby doo song LMAO it’s called Dig It Scooby Doo it’s insanely catchy)

[artsywitchling]

I wish I could feel the magic of living again. I just feel so ordinary these days and I don't know if it's just simply my fault for allowing myself to fall into this dark pit of living in my comfort bubble. The problem is, I want to feel something again, that I miss. So I try to recreate the moment I felt it, and it never works, because moments never hit as hard as the first time you experience them. I guess I need to go out of my shell and allow myself to experience new moments. Which is scary. It opens up the possibility to get hurt. To feel worse than before. And I really don't know how to overcome that fear inside of me.

But I'm desperate to feel the magic again.

#I guess now that I have my pc I'm going to save up my money to go on vacation #Maybe with my friends. #Maybe even alone #Everything that used to be magical feels so ordinary these days and I don't know what to draw and I don't know what to write about #and I think it's because I don't allow myself to experience new things #I am literally bored of what I call my life #I just need to be brave #artsy talks

[nishihii]

rennala marika toxic yuri i cant get you out of my head

#long rant incoming #it is very much implied that marika and radagom are their own people/personalities. theyre just stuck in the same body #i am of the belief that radagon was created or manifested after marika ascended to godhood #as his presence is mysterious and miriel was actively confused as to why just. some guy. some champion would have so much control over an- #-army (referring to the caria/erdtree war) #i think its fascinating to think radagon and marika are the same person. not just in the literal inhabitance of the body. like two- #-different sides of a person #but the lore very much leans towards them having their own conscience #as much as i like the former idea #BUT the description of the preceptors hat/mask has implications that rennala possibly knew of this secret #because what other secret does radagon have to hide? #and like. she stayed with him despite this. #(sorry for the amount of this i said imply/implication) #there is not much material to go off of for marika/renalla but its not like there isnt ANY #toxic yuri...... #i once talked about an interesting parallel between them but i literally have to fresh myself up on that #as i dont think about them very often #edit: oh fuck me dead i forgot to tag spoiler #elden ring spoilers

[saitamastamaticsoup]

Not to be dramatic but since hiori is blasian in canon I need black x readers asap🗣️ like we are DEF not getting any cultural background on this kid (because they just slid it in there like we weren’t gonna recognize in the first place)not that we have any background on any of these children’s parents but I think he should explain how he feels being mixed in Japan because it’s just really funny having these two in the exact same anime, and they are both black 

This is ABSOLUTELY hilarious 😭

Edit: so I’ve noticed a pattern of EVERY character looking like their mother and barely sharing any resemblance to their fathers so ig he gets a pass for being pale BUT there’s even more melaninated characters so let’s give him some sun too!!🥺

Respectfully; come the fuck on

#blue lock #hiori yo #blue lock hiori #bllk hiori #hiori x reader #blue lock x reader #like I’m most likely gonna do some thing myself #but like the fact that I found out from Twitter #I am once again asking if it is a nod to like being white passing #like is he not supposed to look black because of that #he don’t look like his parents where did his dad come from? Did he immigrate to Japan? Is he Afro American ? Is he Nigerian? #like they’re doing so good on representation so far please. #IT HAS TO BE ON PURPOSE #BC LEO OR WHAYEVER HIS NAME IS IS THERE AND SHIDOU AND TYE OTHER BLACK GUY #I’m literally choosing to believe that it’s on purpose #I am reaching for Atoms I’m not grasping at straws!! #he says he feels like he doesn’t belong so does he mean displaced from two cultures or just one? #what about his extended family is he allowed to talk to them since they’re so suffocating? #I feel like this is a very real thing black kids relate to you can’t just give me him and not tell me shit about him. #if I catch up in the manga and I don’t get any more details I’m going to start chewing lava #Filling in the blanks on his backstory on God #does he just know English and Japanese? #He has a very specific dialect of speaking so is it from knowing a different type of language?? #aave mixed in??? #French is a very prevalent language in Africa. Does he know a little French? #CREOLE?? #like please sad backstory aside who the fuck is he!! #does he get to interact with any of the other black characters?? #HIM SHIDOU AND LOKI CAN HE BESTIES LIKE COME ON!! #im in so much pain I’m reading ahead of where I am

[callixton]

funniest thing abt my whole deal w the west wing was watching it with my family while they had no idea i was undergoing one of the most intense media experiences of my life

#even now when it gets brought up casually rarely like. i have a regular conversation about it #but in my head i am just going you have no idea how i feel about this show #literally closed myself in a bathroom to sob after 7x05 and it was not subtle but i still doubt they really knew/noticed the extent #ted talks #the west wing