#i am sad over him.

[crxxentum]

Riko Moriyama breaks my heart. He's so tragic and I can't bring myself to hate him. He's a terrible person, he believes he has the right (or at least the power) to exert over others - brutality and horrific abuse. He's the obsessed artist, he's the one that cannot be saved, he's the one that fractured to the point his glass fragments became sand. He was normal once! He liked playing in puddles after rain, liked having something sweet in the weekend. He liked sleeping in a warm bed.

But he's second. The second son and someone who didn't understand love. He felt so blatantly out of control that he leaned into the power that came with causing people pain and suffering. While Kevin, Neil, Mary, and really everyone else - including Jean, eventually. They all escape their abuse. Riko internalises it, accepts it and builds it into his being. He eventually beings to like and embrace it. Everyone had a choice and everyone managed to get out, to live and learn. Riko didn't get either.

He knows exactly what it's like to be second - unwanted - and yet instead of using those mistakes, he decended into this fractured monster of a person. He knew what it felt like, yet he still perpetrated it. Perpetrated the abuse he suffered, and pushed others down to bring himself up. And worst of all; it was all for nothing.

Because no matter what he did, no matter how well he preformed or how badly - he was still second. Still inferior. Still unwanted and unneeded. He tried so hard, did so much, hurt so many, and still didn't get what he wanted. I mean, fucking loser. But also that is just sad. He's so utterly tragic because you can't redeem him, you can see his reasoning but you can't give any excuse with it. He's utterly awful and I'm livid about it.

Jean - and Kevin - both deserve to hate him, and should. But I'm pretty sure they both have an understanding with him. Because ultimately, he was also trapped. Also shipped off to play Walmart lacrosse. He was trapped by his family, and then he trapped himself. It makes me ache when I think about that fucking scene with his uncle and older brother, the way he looked and felt so small and vulnerable. The way he uttered his brothers name, had his brothers hand on his face in something gentle. All before he was shot. The fact it was believable that he committed, that he was distraught over his loss and failure. Forget shipping him to Edgar Allen to play Walmart lacrosse, I ship him with therapy and a normal family.

I mean I reiterate - What he did was horrible and he should've suffered for that, but I can't hate him. I don't feel hate nor anger for him, I feel pity. Because he is pathetic. Everything he does has some stain of desperation. I fucking hate him, but I also sturggle to. Riko is Neil's narrative foil, he is Neil's mirror, he is someone Neil could of been. He is pathetic, despite, and unable to see that he could be better. I am mentally ill over this man. He is a mentally ill man. Is it too much to ask to have people be happy??? Like, please. I want the perfect court to be chaotic and happy together.

#riko moriyama #the foxhole court #neil josten #kevin day #jean moreau #the raven king #I have emotions over Riko #most of them are sadness #i am sad over him. #>etc #the kings men #Riko makes me sad but also. What the fuck #Why do i care so much about this stupid character in this terrible book #Someone please talk to me about this #I have...so many feelings about this

[egophiliac]

giving the people what they want (jokes about spreadsheets)

anyway, Twst continues to prove that it is aimed at me specifically by giving us not one, but now TWO extended scenes of characters being incredibly difficult about signing an NDA. you just don't get this anywhere else.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #tapis rouge #gif warning #gifs that tempted the gods and lost warning #azul specifically is making everyone's lives difficult by insisting on actually reading things before he signs him #like some kind of nerd who actually cares about his rights or whatever #no but i love that for him #(i have only a few more postcards left to unlock him...sigh...) #anyway vil just went full scarlett o'hara over here and made it WORK #i am sad we didn't get to see the infinity tiara though #in my mind it's three feet tall and looks like a bejeweled crown rack of lamb #this is why some things are better left to the imagination i guess

[love-letters-i-never-sent]

#heartbreak #i'm sad #i miss u #sadgirl #sad thinking #3 am thoughts #missing you quotes #i miss you #why do i do this to myself #the last of us #it's over #i miss him #ghost of you #moving on #sad thoughts #this hits different #3 am feelings #you broke my heart #excerpt from a book i'll never write

[royalarchivist]

Pac: Oh, Nenê... How cute... 🥺💕

After dying to an atomic creeper in a cave and stressing over potentially losing all his items, Pac returns home to set his spawn and receives a sweet surprise:

His cat falls asleep on top of him and purrs when he goes to bed :')

#QSMP #Pactw #Pac #March 28 2024 #I had the exact same reaction as Pac my heart frickin melted THIS IS SO CUTE.... AND THE PURRING.... MY HEART #I desperately wish Pac got to hang out with Madagio (in his cat-form) #because cats clearly adore Pac just as much as he loves them #Maybe in an alternate universe Madagio spent a day with Pac #And in that time he learned why Fit came to care for this man so much #I don't need more WIPs on my plate but I am Pondering the idea #If the cat-hybrid Cellbit thing was canon I could crack a joke about the ''cats clearly adore Pac just as much as he loves them'' thing #but alas #For real though lock Madagio in a room with Pac for 12 hours and he'll leave being grudgingly charmed by him #aghhhh #Anyways this is so cute #but also really sad #because how many times do you think Pac's been in his room depressed over his missing son / friends / roommate #only to have his cats burrow under his arm and nudge their way onto his lap? #Don't get me started I'm feeling Emotional about cubito Pac lately

[mayloony]

Canary Call

#limited life fanart #limited life spoilers #jimmy solidarity #solidarity fanart #solidaritygaming #trafficblr #limited life #i am so sad #I can even lie I’ve cried multiple times over him #my art

[dreadark]

maybe the real tragedy of alien stage round 6 isn’t that they’re in an idol death game or even the string of unrequited love here but rather that someone could believe the feelings he held for years and gave him the strength to go on were too shallow to ever express properly

so he dies thinking he wasn't cared for at all

#alien stage #alnst #ivantill #how am I supposed to get over that #what even is the level of self-loathing needed to get to this point #so what if till looked at him that was hardly all he wanted right #before 'confession' i was like. normal sad. i can appreciate a good tragedy ig #now i just HE DIED LIKE THAT?? NO???? #ivan needs to come back rn so someone can slap him for being an idiot #then he can die again i guess but not like thiiiis #it's too miserable...

[skipblebee]

I hate you but I love you but I hate you,,,,

#Winter king... I have so many mixed feelings about this guy.. #Like what about ice marcy...what happened in the past I need to KNOW #But also I am looking respectfully JANQBSSN #winter king #marceline abadeer #simon petrikov #adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna and cake fanart #So sad over the last sketch cuz I coloured in wk but since I used the blur effect on simon it wasn't letting me colour him :( sketch it is #Be nice to me the art was not arting but I TRIED okay and that's what matters #Skipsart

[love4hobi]

fluffy 💔

#bts #hoseok #jhope #hobi #btsgif #btsedit #bangtanarmynet #networkbangtan #dailybts #userbangtan #usersky #annietrack #* #some fluffy teddy bear jhope for u guys to hopefully distract from the sad feelings <33 #im trying to be lighthearted abt it but i am actually devastated over him having to shave his head

[an-american-crisis]

most realistic thing about dead boy detectives is edwin being super lame and everyone still wanting him carnally actually. we really will see the bitchiest and most pathetic wet paper bag of a man and lose our minds. art and life imitating each other or whatever

#new fixation alert 🚨 #it’s just really amusing to me that this sad little repressed edwardian gets copious amounts of gay bitches drooling over him #am I surprised? well no #what can I say #his swagless looks and autistic demeanor have captivated me #dead boy detectives

[existential-queeer]

Me when I don't see Lou's name in the opening credits

#its a sad day #but the episode aint over #maybe he'll show up #i am delusional #i just love him #911 #evan buckley #tommy kinard #oliver stark #lou ferrigno jr #buck x tommy #tommy x buck

[iizuumi]

#oikawa tooru #haikyuu #hq #mer au #my art #Don't let him seduce you it won't end well for u #I've been having a style crisis lately and he helped me work through it a little bit ;;; #art hard #also mermay almost over and i am already sad

[qpjianghu]

Li Lianhua + saying "I love you" without saying "I love you" (2/?)

Mysterious Lotus Casebook (2023)

#li lianhua #fang duobing #fanghua #mysterious lotus casebook #lhl #lian hua lou #llh's love language #more 'food as a love language' in this show because I think about Them and cannot rest #this scene is so layered it kills me #the 'recipes' are actually his yangzhouman instruction manual (tm) #which feels like a good one-to-one because food = life-sustaining as is yangzhouman #but in the context of the whole show and llh's whole character journey #we know that this is exactly the opposite: llh is essentially handing over his last will and testimony #but also in the context of the entire show and llh's character journey #we know that this is llh's way of telling fb he loves him #he loves fdb and will give him the thing he's always wanted... #...but only after his death #and it also shows that maybe he still thinks fdb's love is conditional #and only exists alongside lxy and not llh #anyway #I am Sad dot meme #my mlc gifs

[fisheito]

collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS

#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo. #says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking #my immediate thought was #i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him #bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent #but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally #it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched.... #so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti. #configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying #the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias #then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought #i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him #AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND #originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went #WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN #BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing. #plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS #but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it #i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding #so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown #i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said #yakuya #nu carnival yakumo #nu carnival kuya

[starshipoftheseus]

04.11.24 (SEA vs SJS): a very tired JOEY DACCORD accepts his three stars of the year & fan-favorite awards at the end of the last home game of the season

#kraken lb #joey daccord #seattle kraken #krakenblr #krakenedit #hockeyedit #hockeyblr #nhl #nhledit #ice hockey #my stuff #my gifs #my hockey gifs #i'm so so sad we lost this one. utterly painful to watch #i hate seeing joey sad #but i'm really proud of him #he absolutely has earned all of the recognition he's got 100 times over #my love for hockey started with seeing him play in cv & he means so so much to me. so much. #i just hope he knows how much ppl adore him both up there and down with the birds bc he is so so loved. he's done amazing #wow! if anyone irl read what i say in these tags they'd think i was a homeofseckshual! (i am) anyway goodnight #bwehhhhhhh. #wehhhhhh

[brookheimer]

looking at the 'midseason trailer' and seeing roman fighting his siblings, roman shitting on gerri, roman working for fascists, roman walking proudly through ATN like logan did just two days prior... it's not surprising, but it is fucking sad.

logan's death will not free roman. instead, it will reforge the chains he's worn all his life, casting them in iron -- that's what roman deserves for thinking, for the first time in his life, that maybe he wants the chains off. that's what roman deserves for killing his father by not loving him enough, by not loving him correctly or at the right times. logan's death will not free roman at all. if anything, it will imprison him.

(as always, this got very long, so keep reading under the cut!)

this was the worst case scenario for roman. not just logan dying, but the exact way everything played out. he betrayed his siblings, he fired gerri -- for nothing. he could have been on the plane with his father in his last moments -- he refused. his last interaction with his father was leaving logan a voice message that called him a cunt -- the first time roman has ever, ever, questioned or stood up to his father, and also the last. we don't know what killed logan. we probably never will. but god if it won't feel awfully coincidental to roman: the one time he fought back against his father or even showed the slightest hint of doing so, his father died. is it likely that logan heard roman's voice memo and keeled over because he called him a cunt? no. but is it just as possible as anything else? entirely. roman might have killed his dad. roman murdered logan when he could've been on the plane with him holding his hand, if he were a good son. he didn't even tell logan he loved him. not that he needed to, it fucking oozed from his every pore and the desperate nature of that love was one of the reasons logan could never quite stand him -- but that's not the point. roman's one attempt at agency, at setting boundaries, at standing up for himself killed his fucking father.

logan dying would never have been good for roman, at least in his current state, no matter how the actual death came to pass. people often talk about abusive relationships as if the end-all-be-all fixer to abuse is independence, and it's not. independence isn't always enough to heal, especially not when it's forced upon you rather than something you choose. this is especially true for roman, i think. what roman needed was not just to gain his own independence, but to realize that independence and love are not mutually exclusive, that gaining one does not mean losing the other. logan's always hammered in roman's weakness, his wrongness; roman was never someone who deserved to be loved on his own terms. roman's never considered himself to be someone with agency and authority in his relationships -- he's been told over and over again that he isn't a real person, that there's something deeply wrong and unfixable in him, and he believes it. he's never set boundaries with his father or even his siblings because i don't think he really realizes he has the power to do that. he's simply there until people decide they no longer have use for him or want him around, and he'll always come crawling back after a kick because he doesn't realize he's not on a leash -- that he doesn't need to be on a leash. independence has been unreachable all his life, he isn't normal or real enough to be a real normal independent capable person, but if he grovels and shows his use enough, then maybe he can be loved. but his dependence and loyalty is all he's good for. independence means no love, no family, no relationships. and roman desperately wants, needs, those relationships in a way that none of the other characters do (or at least can admit to) -- he wants his father in his life, no matter what; he wants his siblings in his life, no matter what. but independence, being his own person, separating himself from logan's side means he'd lose everything else, everyone else. he's not good for anything anyways. it's not like he has other options.

...until the start of season four. that's why this is all so tragic -- more than anyone else, it seemed like roman was on the road to healing. it seemed like he was finally realizing that independence and love might not be as mutually exclusive as he's been made to think: maybe he could be independent while still having a relationship with his siblings and even his father. maybe he could have his cake and eat it too. he's realized that he's capable, that he has his own worth, and that he can be successful without living under logan's thumb -- and, more importantly, could still text him on his birthday and try to rebuild a relationship, this time outside of business. outside of "that room" in waystar royco. an actual fucking family relationship. that's what escaping the cycle would look like for roman — not complete separation, not a metaphorical killing of his father, but the ability to live alongside him, to have a life outside of him, to love his father without living for him. so simply removing logan from the equation wouldn’t help roman, not when what he needs most is to realize that self-respect is not mutually exclusive with love, that being your own person isn’t a betrayal, that family and love aren’t dependent on how low you can kneel and won’t be whisked away the moment you stand up. and for the first time in his life, it seemed like he was on track to discovering this. maybe he and the siblings could have the hundred, logan could keep going with atn, and in a few years down the line they'd all get together to talk shop and joke around and coexist -- for the first time, he had started to think of himself as enough of a real, okay person to be allowed to coexist with his family, rather than naturally subordinating himself in every interaction.

roman could’ve been his own person, could’ve escaped the cycle, could’ve started a business with his siblings and tried to heal, but now he won’t. he can’t. roman can’t become his own person now, not when his first attempt to do so is exactly what killed logan. it’s his fault. he fucked up and now there’s no dad. he gained his independence, but at what cost? love. that’s the cost. it always has been and always will be. nothing could be more detrimental to roman roy than the exact series of events that occurred in this episode, because just as he started to see a world beyond his father, logan dies -- proving once and for all that the only world beyond logan is one without him in it at all. that’s been roman’s fear all along and why he’s stuck so close to his side: roman loves and loves and loves and is terrified, terrified, of death. of loss. but in a moment of 'weakness,' roman wobbled (he tried to stand up to logan rather than just taking the kicks as he's supposed to, as he always has), and his father paid the ultimate price. there’s no more dad. there’s no reviving him.

…unless, of course, there is. unless roman can undo his error by choosing his father again, and again, and again. becoming logan is the closest roman can get to resurrecting him, after all. and besides, doesn’t he owe it to dad after killing him? after calling him a cunt, choosing not to be with him on that plane he ended up dying on? after forgetting to even say “i love you dad” before the end? roman needs to fix things. needs to make it like dad's still here. needs to make it like he didn't kill his own father by refusing him for the first time in his life. so roman will be the firebreather logan wanted -- he'll do ATN, he'll push for mencken, he'll do whatever it fucking takes to try and make things right. if it's his fault logan's no longer here, then he needs to do everything he possibly can to fulfill his dying wishes, to do what logan would've done, were he alive.

"dad can't die, he's dad." he can't ever die. he's immortal, and his immortality was solidified by the circumstances of his death -- logan will not die. he’ll live on in roman, as roman.

roman will make sure of it.

#to clarify -- i do not think this is roman's endgame. i Hope it is not his endgame. i just think based on the previews and everything we #know about both him and the upcoming episodes... i think this is where his arc is heading for now. and it will be UNBEARABLE to watch #i'm hoping things get better by the end. that there's reconciliation and an ending open enough to allow for a slim possibility of future #healing. but as of right now... i think things are going to get a lot - a LOT - fucking worse before they get better (if they get better..) #k it's 1:30 am i haven't read over this at all so fair warning there. but yeah. told yall i had a lot of thoughts re: what this might do to #roman. hats off to jesse armstrong for creating the literal worst situation imaginable for him. fucking ingenious. i too love putting this #sad little man in situations! but yeah. gonna be watching thru my hands but eating it up while weeping etc etc etc #succession #succession spoilers #roman roy #succession meta #succession s4 #connor's wedding #logan roy #casey shut the fuck up about roman roy #100 #500 #succession speculation

[kingkatsuki]

Specifically thinking about long distance relationships today.

So tell me how you and your f/o would first meet online?

#I feel like Bakugou and I would meet in one of those online games he’s downloaded to mindlessly waste time between shifts #and he’s so foul at first because he thinks I’m weak but we play and he realises that I’m #actually whooping everyone and he’s like well damn okay #and now he’s messaging in the alliance chat and like getting excited when I’m online even tho he tries to hide it #and gets annoyed when other creeps in his alliance try to flirt with me #and then he’s asking for my discord #me and Sanemi get into a fight on discord the first time we interact #in some stupid big server I only joined for the emojis #but he’s a jerk so I tell him to shut up and a message later I find a msg notification and it’s him trying to continue the conversation😭 #enjin slides into my dms on Instagram #he finds my post at a concert and hates the fuckboys that are commenting below #ends up messaging me to see if I’m okay but then immediately worries he’s one of those guys #Tamsy I feel like is that mutual I’ve had forever on twt and we like each others posts but we’ve NEVER talked to each other?? #it’s not until I’m feeling sad at 2am and I post something self-deprecating that he drops me a msg🥺 #and we end up staying up until 5am just talking to each other #Kirishima is ALWAYS the guy that responds to my ‘morning’ with a morning back! every day without fail #and I slide into his DMs one day and ask how he’s ALWAYS awake when I am??? like to say it back so quick #and he admits he’s kinda learned my schedule and he tries to be online for it because it’s one of the best parts of his day #and he likes saying it back😭😭😭 even if he’s off from a night shift and needs sleep he can’t without seeing me msg #Shindou blatantly flirts with me in a gaming discord and I think he’s an incel so I block him #he gets a friend to ping me to beg me to unblock him and I refuse #the friend then sends another message with a screenshot of Shindou basically begging me to unblock him😭 #Dot and I meet in one of those AITA Reddit threads #and we end up borderline arguing over whether op is TA #so much that we get told to take it elsewhere😭😭😭 #enjo #bakujo #eijo #but also catch me sending Dynamight sassy banter on his official socials😭😂