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311ways · 7 months

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ive seen so many ppl misinterpreting feferi's reason for breaking up with eridan so fuck it we're dissecting this

1. a moirailegence is dependant on both parties being open and honest with eachother

2. eridan was very emotionally closed off, especially pre-sgrub. a lot of ppl forget this bc he has a reputation for being an overemotional mess but it is TRUE and i have PROOF

eridan seens to think that any quadrantmates he has will get bored of him if he isn't high maintenance, so he acts difficult with feferi. this behavior is also present in what we've seen of his kissmessitude with vriska in his constant nagging and conspiring with her

he also is just very uncomfortable with showing honest emotion in general, using emotional theatrics instead to avoid being vulnerable and showing his real feelings (there is something to say abt this behavior's relation to alternian society's "never show weakness, its kill or be killed" type attitute and hemospectrum expectations or wtv but i absolutely do not trust my knowledge on the subject to go in depth on that)

either way, we can see that eridan was very reluctant to talk to feferi about emotional matters, which is kind of the whole point of a moirailegence and feferi was very worn out by at the time of their introduction >>

id also bet that eridan wasn't doing much consoling for feferi either due to that which forces their diamond into a very lopsided position

now with all this in mind, her explanation makes much more sense - she was burnt out from constantly struggling to console him, and getting essentially nothing in return. Their diamond was not benefitting either of them at this point, and feferi was getting tired of trying to hold it together

Moirailegence is a two-way street!!! i see a lot of people get that wrong too thinking the roles of a pale relationship are permanently fixed when theyre really not

another note is that although feferi denounces eridan's attempts at aquiring a doomsday device as a ploy to scheme with vriska, she doubts that enough to actively worry about him actually going through with the plan. which is probably why she became his moirail in the first place and why she waited until the planet was already gone before breaking up with him

eridan however misundestands all this as her being bored of him as a partner, which is why he says this >>

its also worth noting that eridan didnt even want a moirail - he was only feferi's diamond because he was flushed for her and wanted to be her quadrantmate, even if it was the wrong one. he actively disliked her attempts at pale solicitation, thinking of them as coddling and obtrusive

(this is right before the confession im too lazy to sreenshot the full thing)

tl;dr - erifef was never going to work out neither of the even wanted to be pale

also this is not supposed to be like. a "why you shouldn't like eridan" or a dig at eridan likers, he is literally my fav character i just also love feferi and am tired of seeing her misrepresented to paint eridan in a better light!!!

#homestuck #text #eridan ampora #feferi peixes #not shiptagging bc this whole post is just tearing into it lmao #if any of this is wrong pls tell me my hs knowledge is abysmal #i suck at meta i have not read the comic in 5evr but this is like the One Thing i actually know about

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lizbethborden · 2 months

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from experience I would say if these women know you're a lesbian they sometimes like to toy with the line between romantic and friendly bc they like the attention but absolutely lack the guts and even the will to question their sexuality. I had an ex who was supposedly 'over men forever' and all that, but she still dropped me like a wet sock and ran straight back to a man when push came to shove.

I feel like when you're not explicit about pursuing them romantically, some women might (consciously or not) abuse of your fondness for them because it feels good to be desired and taken care of. All going unexamined under the pretense that it's friendship and couldn't possibly be ambiguous signalling from your perspective. Not saying it's your fault bc it's so hard to get out there and say what we mean, but it's something I definitely noticed - they like to be wooed and romanced bc God knows men are hardly giving them any of that except in an extremely toxic love-bombing way, but they never take us and our feelings seriously enough to think that we could genuinely want them in a romantic way and suffer from the rejection after being given false hopes. I'm sorry you're going through it though. Good luck

Thank you for this ask ❤️

What's made this particular circumstance bamboozling is that I was actually 100% explicit. Our second time seeing each other I told her very bluntly that I was interested in her and found her sexy and gorgeous and would like to date. She came back to me basically saying no because she... had very strong feelings that.... she didn't trust? I am still not 100% on what she meant by that.

and then I came back to her again and said "hey, you said that we are not romantic, but you did X, Y, and Z" (after my first bamboozlement) and she said she understood and apologized and respected that I was uncomfortable with it. But now she's doing A, B, and C things that read as very romantic. So. Bamboozlement.

I keep trying to figure out if it's the circumstance you describe, basically that I'm being took. I think it's possible. The fact that I have some alarm bells going at all has got to mean something. But I'm also worried about just totally misinterpreting bc I'm reading the situation from an emotional place. It feels like I'm poised to be unfair to her. I keep crowdsourcing opinions from different people but nothing gets better bc she's the only one who can give me clarity on it. Lol

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hella1975 · 10 months

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💌 HIIII👹

YOU AGAIN 🤨 okay nice to rori time NO ONE put this on record i'll deny all esp bc im gonna deep it a bit so hold on. okay so ive talked a lot either directly on tumblr or through my various wips about the fact ive always struggled with my own like. goodness? like i spent many years of my life not only believing i was an Awful Person but also... genuinely kinda acting like one lol, and that's a hard corner to turn but i like to think ive turned it pretty well and 99% of that shit is in the past now. but one thing i still struggle with is that i am just quite a rude person with a mean sense of humour. irl it's easier to navigate bc people can pick up on it better, but online im constantly aware that i probably come across as a bit of a bitch sometimes or that my jokes arent understood etc. but omg rori i love that we can just be horrible to each other. like it's such a dumb as fuck thing to point out but i never worry that you're going to misinterpret what im saying and because you can banter so well with me i genuinely view you as one of my funniest mutuals. like there were so many times on the roadtrip when you'd say some shit and id turn laughing to boom like 'guess what rori just said. what a bitch' in the fondest fucking tone. so yeah. you make me laugh a lot and i feel i can be very authentic with you, and that's something i maybe appreciate more than most. so yeah whatever. did you guys hear something

#i also love that you like. keep in touch? like you tell me about your interests or shit that happened to you during the day #idk i always love it when people do that bc im like 'haha they're Thinking About Me heheha'#ask #ask game

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cyber-celeste · 2 years

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HEARTSLABYUL X GYARU S/O

Summary: Gyaru is a fashion style but i believe it can also influence the way you talk and act

Warnings: fem outfits and makeup implied but nowhere does it say that reader is female, i may also misinterpret characters a little

A/N: I am not a veteran gyaru i just love the style so please excuse me if i get anything wrong its also very short bc i finished this at 12:50am

Riddle Rosehearts

Riddle is kinda confused with the style itself

He can’t really tell if it’s against the rules or even if he doesn’t like it personally

Riddle will not judge them though because he is very much against it

He really isn’t into fashion but admires your makeup abilities and overall eye for fashion

It doesn’t matter what you look like to him he will not jump to conclusions

Once you two are dating he will actually get more curious about how you get ready everyday

With enough begging and pleading you could convince him to wear only the makeup (maybe the outfits if your lucky)

He thinks that your way of speech can be funny sometimes…

He really already doesn’t understand slang so gyaru slang (DO YOU CALL IT THAT???????) will be a real trouble for him

Riddle can be very caught off guard with how open you are

He if not very good with PDA and he doesn’t enjoy gossip (if you wanna call it that even)

He will often be very flustered and maybe even slightly annoyed if either of these keeps up

HE WILL ALWAYS GET OVER IT THOUGH DW

But in the end he loves you and no matter the way you dress or act it will never change how he feels about you

Trey Clover

He honestly doesn’t mind at all

Trey is very impressed in how you can stay in all the makeup, shoes and outfits all day

With some of the ways you act often reminds him of cater but not in like a bad way or anything he just makes the connection

He attempts to compliment you sometimes but like 40% he comes up with shitty ones like from the ghost bride event

He loves hearing you talk while he bakes for unbirthdays and don’t worry he always makes sure you know he’s listening with small questions and reactions

He would let you put makeup on him with little to no begging on your end but out right refuses to wear any gyaru outfit

Its not offense to the style he just doesn’t want to tear it or stretch it out (HE WILL SAY THIS IF YOU ARE BIGGER THAN HIM)

He really likes long acrylic nails its just the feeling of them he finds interesting

He honestly loves the way gyaru looks on you and he loves you so much

Cater Diamond

CATER DOES LITTLE OOTD VIDS OR PICS WITH YOU EVERYDAY ON HIS MAGICAM

He loves everything about gyaru and he will match with you everyday if you really wanted to

He actually enjoys the history of gyaru and really loves how it started

Cater will learn and do parapara with you any day of the week

He invites you over for sleepovers where you’ll do a bunch of gyaru makeup then do tons of skincare and watch movies

He actually enjoys a bunch of substyles and doesn’t just like kogal

Ace Trappola

Honestly he kinda didn’t like it at first just because he thought you were just straight up mean

HE ACTUALLY LEARNS THE YOU HAVE A PERSONALITY THOUGH SO DONT WORRY

He doesn’t really research it or go into that much but he will listen to you talk about it

He likes kogal and it kinda scared suprised by other substyles but gets used to it and maybe listens to why these styles were created

He refuses to wear any femmine gyaru but he’ll try gyaruo

Deuce Spade

He kinda thought you were a delinquent like him at first

Tried to help you until you understood what he mean’t and explained gyaru to him

He actually likes it a little but won’t try it out for himself because he tries to stay away from things that remind him of being a delinquent

He will try on the makeup once though

Deuce will defend you with his life from anyone who dares to be mean to you

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kennedysharper · 3 months

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going in the RE tags to look for content is so funny bc like I have a lot of blogs so I go look for stuff in a lot of tags but RE's or more specifically leon's is funny bc like 80% of the content is "x reader" fics which I do find very funny since he doesn't have one predominant pairing but instead many of his ships are popular which is also very funny so fans thrive with oc or self-insert stuff (which is all fine btw before someone misinterprets me) bc boy are people absolutely THIRSTY for that man lol (don't worry I am too but just more quietly lol) and then lots of hcs and meta(y) stuff and some art and a bit of gifs and it's all fine normal fandom behavior it's just the fact that most of them have leon completely ooc lmao I just glance at some stuff and I'm like hummmmmmm yeah that's not leon at all lmao and then you have people talking about his timeline and it's all nice and fine until you see that they're talking about remake and og leon as if they're the same which they're not people come on I lose 10 years of lifespan every time if you want to do meta analysis at least do the basic research???? that remake timeline is a different one???? re4 remake leon does not grow to become re6 leon ffs?????? and so many wrong interpretations of his character is just very sad actually people will be like "this is how I think he'd behave in X situation" and it's the most deranged ooc misinterpretation of his character you have ever seen in your life and like I've said before I know his looks are very distracting but is it really so hard to look a bit more at what's under it??

anyways sorry for the long-no-ponctuation rant this is not aimed at anyone in particular and like my opinion is meaningless you do you it's just that after so many years I get a bit tired of the leon content consisting mostly of oversexualization and ooc stuff (specially after r4make) you feel me? that this popular version of him that people see is not what he is in canon at all... but yeah... back to the trenches we go...

#anyways it's summer here heatwave is melting my brain #just needed to get some stuff out of my chest #Loser Leon™ squad where you at come let's hold hands and leon and feed him soup together #but to the people making that good chef's kiss content I'm kissing you on the mouth #jay talks

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yourlocaldisneyvillain · 1 year

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ask thing! 1, 2, 47 (although feel free to say bff or marry since these questions are weird LOL), 50, 60, annnnnnd 83? 👀👀👀

hellooooo friend thanks for sending the thingggg <3 1. What is your biggest turn off in a person? ooof a lot of things bc i am a Bitch ahahahaha. jk, i won't act like a bitch if i don't like you but i am veeery picky about who i actually choose as my friend. i really dislike cowardice in people, generally, but esp regarding personal relationships -- we are all little gremlins afraid of rejection, but i feel like that's no excuse not to at least Try ya feel me? it also makes my blood boil when ppl try to rationalise or explain their lack of empathy and human decency as some sort of natural selection like oh i am right to hate this person because they are WEAK like. pls chill :) you are allowed to hate who you want but pls don't be self righteous about it! this also applies to ppl rationalising bad things happening to ppl as something they deserved -- i am aware this is their defence mechanism so their brain wouldn't have to deal with the reality of a Bad Thing happening to them but it makes me so angry lol -- they apply this child-level analogy of like bad things happen to bad ppl and i am Good so therefore nothing Bad will Ever happen to me and usually those ppl have also read about law of attraction and heavily misinterpreted what that's actually about :) also -- selfishness is a biiig turn off! 2. What is your biggest turn on in a person? i will tolerate many things if i like your general vibe hahah! a really big thing for me is actually being able to have quality conversations during which i feel seen. i like people who are able to process and actually hear the things you say and then actually respond to them -- many times ppl will just wait for their turn to talk or not even try to understand where you're coming from, which is fine i guess, but pls miss me with that shit bc i have no patience for it! i guess that requires a high level of emotional intelligence and that's a trait i highly value in ppl! i will try my best to offer the same courtesy to them! i also love when ppl just... try, you know? i understand it can be hard but i really love it when ppl just show up in a relationship (of any kind), flawed and broken, i don't care, but they came and they put in the effort and i will also put in the effort and.... congratulations!! you are building a relationship haha. for real i just love when ppl care and then they show they care, and sometimes it's just as simple as showing up and getting coffee together even though you're busy. it's surprising how many ppl just act on their natural instinct to pull away or get scared of genuine connection (myself included but i am WORKING on it okay). 47. If you could choose one Disney princess to be your best friend who would you chose? i chose to read this as "wife" instead of "bff" and i will have to say megara from hercules, she's exactly the type of woman that i'd go crazy about irl hahaha 50. If you had to live in the world of the last T.V. show you watched where would you be living? thaaaat would actually have to be wednesday hahha! no complaints, any world that has larissa weems in it is a good world to me! as for murderous monsters, those exist in every world, i'm not too worried haha 60. What is a relationship deal breaker for you? my last relationship ended bc my ex had trouble showing me she cared about me in a way i could understand, which, now that i think about it, is a reason many of my relationships came to an end or fizzled out over time, i just wasn't feeling appreciated. so i guess if i'm not feeling wanted i will not waste my time being there, i no longer do that to myself (i used to tho!) 83. What was the last thing that made you laugh? i laugh a LOT ahahahah and i find the stupidest things very funny. i think the last thing that made me scream with laughter was a video of an escape room chase lol it was very scooby-doo-esque. i was watching it with my sibling and literally banging my fists on the table here's a link to it if anyone is interested but prepare to be disappointed bc my sense of humour is that of a 5 year old

#i got an ask!#allaganexarch

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khaleesiofalicante · 2 years

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"I have come to set the world on fire, and I wish it were already burning"

It was just a mistake. A misinterpretation. A misunderstanding.

Yeah.

David was going to kill him.

And I can't blame him!!!

He wondered if he should sit down and talk to bapak about it. Maybe he should check if bapak wasn’t having an immortality crisis while Max was growing up and Rafe was getting married You should bc I feel this man is freaking out internally...

Why. The. Fuck. Did. You. Go. To. Him??? Of all the people in the world?? You decided to consult this with the Prince of hell???

“I didn’t do anything!” Max said immediately. “It was a mistake.”

“It’s what they all say,” Leviathan hummed.

Why does it sound like he's been through a divorce?? 😂😂

“The aftermath,” Leviathan cocked his head. “Please tell me you ended things with the kiss. I would hate to see you break poor David’s heart.” stop it!! I can't hate you if I agree with you!!!

Max ignored that. “First…I think she has feelings for me.”

“Duh,” Leviathan said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

Even Leviathan sees it!! Babe, I know I can't speak bc I'm also shit at taking hints, but you are so fucking oblivious!!!

When Mallory kissed him, something inside him cracked.

First, he had thought, oh, I really do like kissing girls.

And then he thought, if anyone other than David kisses me ever again, I will set myself on fire.

It had been a little dramatic. But so very real.

David: *being so worried that Max likes Mallory better than him*

Max: if someone other than David kisses me, I will DIE

“I know your past has taught you differently. But when people die, they usually don’t come back.” HE SAID IT!!! HE SAID THE QUOTE!!! I can take a moment of relief bc I thought it was gonna be when someone died, uff, that was close!!!

“There is no fairness in death,” Leviathan shrugged. “Only pain.” *also added to my favorite quotes folder*

“If a solution doesn’t exist,” Max said. “Then I will create one myself.” I don't know what conclusion to draw from this other than, he is going to mess with bad things and this is going to backfire....

"Did you hear that, Abbycake?” Simon asked his daughter. “You should probably stick to breast milk. That’s the safest bet with your mama.” Abbycake🥺🥺🥺I am love Simon💙

Love me the Lightwood-Lovelace sisters eating about anything kdhdkdjdkdn

Izzy and Magnus are those relatives that plan your wedding when the slight prospect of it appears lmaoo

It was a whirlwind of new beginnings and Alec absolutely lived for it.

He could see it now.

It was about to happen with this generation too.

Rafael had taken the first step and the others would follow.

Yeah, but I feel some changes are not looking good😭

It was more like crossing the road – more frequent than you think and more dangerous than you realize. The way he is there for Magnus always and helps him cross that road everytime and-

But he knew Magnus wasn’t quite there yet.

Although he was pretty sure Rafael was and probably had a notebook with alphabetized baby names.

YESS!! I see this as a win win then. They take their time to have kids and Magnus can adapt better😎 but also, I love how everyone knows Rafael jdhdidbd

“We gave birth to them,” Alec said. “That’s a gift enough.”

“We didn’t actually do it though,” Diego noted with a chuckle.

They can't apply the 'I gave you birth" card lmaoo

Say what you will about Raziel, but the man was pretty chill about sex. The man is a little too chill about everything 🙂

He saw two girls running across Angel Square, holding hands and trading soft kisses.

Unafraid. Unbothered.

He smiled to himself.

A part of him, no matter how much time passed, will always feel proud of himself for contributing to that.

They have come a long way and I'm so proud of it😭😭 this makes me feel so soft inside!!!

“It’s called sexual tension, dad, jeez,” Max had scoffed when Alec had voiced his surprise. You are not in a position to talk!!!

Because despite the unforeseen consequences, Alec knew Rafael had made the right decision. PREACH TO THIS!!!

“And I will protect her as I protect the rest of them,” Alec promised.

“That’s all I needed to know,” Diego let out a deep exhale. “Oof. That was scary.”

Alec chuckled and squeezed the shadowhunter’s shoulder. “I got you.”

My fave in-laws😭😭

Magnus be like: yeah, I'm not good at warlock math... Yeah, I created the portal, but I'm not that good at it!!

“The shadow world can survive one night without Magnus Bane,” Now that is just a lie, babe...

“I mean,” Alec said. “I guess we could be a few minutes late.”

“He probably wouldn’t notice,” Magnus hummed and moved closer.

They are the only valid ones here and the reason I am still somewhat sane😎

The Herondale-Fairchild (and Beauchamp) family looks so fucking hot and stunning omfg😍 the mental image is just *chef kiss*

I had to google many words for this engagement party😭 Sorry, I am mexican, we have so many different names here😭😭

Clace are killing it!!!

“What about Chopin?” Selena asked.

“He is camera shy,” David informed.

Selena chuckled, realizing that this meant David had probably tried to take selfies with Chopin before.

🥺🥺🥺🥺now I need a pic with David and Chopin

“Okay. Now a normal picture!” her father ordered. “Someone take a picture of my beautiful family!” I love how Jace is the kind of dad who takes a million photos of his family😂

Gabriel 😍😍 I'm in love with them!!

So, it makes sense they don't know who the warlock is if they are young

She never let herself forget.

No one can make you hurt more than your own kind.

Too many fave quotes😭 but she is right, fuck all of them!!!

Gabriel smiled. “What does it feel like to be the most beautiful girl in the world?” AHHHH CAN THEY GET ANY MORE PERFECT??

No signal is not giving me good vibes.... This is bad, really bad

It was the device. It was glowing in blue. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK-

It was their lives. It was their bodies. No one needed to know. YESS!!! It's their decision and they should all respect that ❤️

Everything they did was a political statement.

Every decision had an impact.

So, they decided to make this sacrifice.

I also wanted Max and Jaime to be their suggenes😭😭 but I get it... But please I do want to see Max walking Rafael down the aisle!!!🥺

I already fear this bachelor party😂😂

When he had been small, he used to look at her and wish he wanted to get married to someone so beautiful.

He wished he could tell that little boy his wish came true.

He wished he could tell him that he will get be soon married to a queen.

I am already crying and the party hasn't even started 😭😭

What’s with all the gorgeous women today? I ask the same thing everyday😍😍

Max 🤝 Rafel

Wanting to pass out seeing their significant other

THAT DID THEIR BEST TO SHINE BRIGHTER THAN THE GIRL WHO WAS WEARING THEM OMFG😭😭😭

He wanted to worship.

Anjali.

His divine offering.

This reminded me a lot of the quote "In the crooks of your body, I find my religion"

Her laughter brought him back to reality.

Just as her love had brought him back to life.

stoooop🥺🥺🥺

“And you’re marrying into a family with two eldest curses,” Rafael noted. "And Alec Lightwood."

“Hot,” Anjali said.

Hot indeed 😍

He was a planner. She was an executioner.

She knew how to take his dreams and make them come true.

I am convinced fiancée will be his most used word now

There was only stunned silence.

Anjali.

NO NO NO NO PLEASE TELL ME THIS ISN'T REAL NOOO😭😭

Unmoving.

Quiet.

Gone

Her hands were covered in their blood.

Anjali’s hands were red.

HOLY FUCK NO NO THIS CANT BE HAPPENING!!! PLEASE TELL ME SHE'S GOING TO BE OK😭😭😭😭

I DONT NEED SLEEP, NEED ANSWERS, LIKE, YESTERDAY!!

I hope you are happy to know that I will be thinking about this till next week, bc I'm sure as hell not

Ngl, I missed this cliffhangers and this ripping my heart out in the last sentence. I love to suffer:))

I do hope you are having a nice weekend!!! Being evil with my favorite characters is exhausting, so take a break and drink some tea💙💙

Pleases have this cuteee video as an apology. (This kiddo reminds me of Arthur)

#lbaf

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moregraceful · 2 years

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you know when you see An image and an au just comes out of your brain fully formed like athena from zeus’s forehead?? well i just saw this face swap and while i will never write rule!63 or always a girl, i am now deeply invested in matthew and brady tkachuk, sisters who attend a small liberal arts school in the mid/south atlantic, maybe in virginia or north carolina.

matthew is heavily involved in the psychology department and uses her friends for case studies. she wildly misinterprets all her data and observations but is still super popular and everyone likes her bc she is friendly but kind of a shit-stirrer. she is a very messy drunk though. the summer before her senior year, she admits that she is an alcoholic and will going into rehab for a month. when she graduates rehab, she has renewed purpose and spends her senior year working hard to get into a good master’s program to become a licensed therapist so she can work with people suffering from alcohol and drug addiction. after several years working in a rehab clinic, she opens her own women-centered practice and also becomes an adjunct at her old college, whose psychology department welcomes her back home as a success story. yes this is completely based on a girl i went to school with but in my defense, they look exactly the same. matthew also does emdr lol. and she’s a closeted lesbian

BRADY meanwhile has a good career on the field hockey team though their school is like d2 in the south atlantic conference. they meet a nice girl (quinn) in one of their poetry seminars senior year and fall in love and it’s very sweet. they are hard-partying but not in a destructive way like matthew and they’re always willing to take a homie back to their dorm if their friend blacks out. they are absolutely the person who will take your phone away when you start texting your ex at 1am and replace it with a beer or a karaoke mic. when they graduate (cum laude, with a creative writing degree), they settle down in the midatlantic (maybe baltimore) and work with at risk lgbtq youth. they are also a child advocate for lgbtq youth in the foster system. they marry quinn in a huge wedding on a farm in maryland and the reception is in a barn and it’s lit

(matthew meets a sweet german grad student friend of brady’s, tim, at the wedding and they drunkenly make out in the cow pasture during the reception because why not. then tim introduces matthew to leon, tim’s best girl friend in whatever grad program, and matthew has a long fling with leon when leon shows matthew how have a good orgasm and matthew is like ah! the meaning of life! and she is grateful to leon for the rest of her life even tho they eventually go their separate ways. also johnny hockey is a short queen from jersey and matthew’s roommate in college and she’s like super worried about matthew throughout college and then super proud of her senior year and they’re roommates for a bit after college too while johnny gets her early childhood education master’s or w/e before johnny goes back to new jersey to work in a montessori preschool. john norris is still josh norris.)

#‘’choose your fighter’’ brady and its not even a question #matthew looks like she would call me a slur when she’s drunk bc she’s a self-hating lesbian who can’t handle #and i see some of you ask why i am writing a college au at 33?#well that’s because my college experience was unrelenting misery whose only saving grace was my friends and the start of my career #/i/ can’t go back and time and fix that #but maybe someone in FIC can have a good time #hockey for ts #unfortunate birdcage fanfictions

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berrymeter · 2 years

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Tell me about the pope??? I am intrigued

looks off into the distance ... the pope... okay let me switch my music maybe there's better fitting music for this. freak music works better. oh btw this is exceedingly long sorry it took me like a year to respond i had to fact check every other word bc imagine understanding this & retaining it

ok so .

she! um. ok there is a lot going on here but the way i can simplify it is that she was a human who got merged with the univ.ersal will (an entity from the source code of the universe created by some guy to try & aid humanity to thrive but it misinterpreted shit & wants to erase humanity now), & then the some guy i just mentioned ended up Also ended up being absorbed by her except at this point he was fucked up & sick & twisted not necessarily evil but he causes problems on purpose for funsies. btw he's not just "some guy" he's one of the... three? smartest humans ever recorded but like that doesn't matter rn we're talking abt ar.iels. ummm anyway she fucking hates humanity & wants to destroy it ofc thanks unive.rsal will very cool. it's also fun bc she's the pope so she does evil shit & everyone's kinda like "oh yeah let's go along i mean she's the pope we can't argue". well until she gets her ass fucking kicked i guess. she's currently in jail & we don't know what's up w the unive.rsal will BUT the "some guy" is not with her anymore as of rn maybe he took it with him? who knows. hold up where even is cha.os *goes to check* oh right he was just sitting on a beach last we know ok cool. feel free to ask about cha.os as well ........ if i can explain

anyway so now that u haven't understood any of this bc believe me i'm barely keeping up with this myself at any point in time ari.els manipulates a lot of ppl into doing awful shit making them believe she's doing it ~for humanity~ or for their personal goals. like

contacting bedm.an to enlist his services as a hitman bc "oh don't worry we're gonna create an ideal world where you can bring your sister back to life & also every person you kill too! i just need you to kill these ppl & follow my orders first teehee!" then, as he's about to die, tells him she's been using him the entire time & he almost killed her in response but died right before he could do so. ask me about bed.man for more detail . he's one of the most ...... characters ...

getting the conclave to revive jus.tice because uhghgghh shaping the world however they want. idk i don't think wanting to ahve the power to reshape the world is like Good so yea the con.clave were kept in the dark on some things but also like... they were not good ...

she started replacing the vaccines the japanese colony were getting with placebo vaccines. um. the whole deal with this is certainly something too but basically japan is gone from the surface of the earth & the survivors were put in colonies "for their protection" a century ago (it was really a quarantine bc genetic modification was being observed so the UN were like ohhhh that's kinda fucked up stay away). japan vanished due to a mutation a bunch of them were afflicted with that turned them into living bombs & also they were in a lot of pain & as a result That Man (that's what they called him) just fucking. blew up japan. a.. ask me about... detail........

uhhh the val.entines. basically she's creating ppl based on like... Another Girl Who Is Also The Mc's Dead But Not Anymore Girlfriend. they're created to run her errands basically but also even if they're created as emotionless they always end up developing them anyway? ram.lethal is a valentine! her & her sister el.phelt! though they're technically all sisters kinda, ram & el were created at the same time & both given emotions but kinda went in opposite directions w them. anyway they're also to be used in the plan to reshape the world bc ar.iels wants to merge either el or ram with ju.stice to 'create the first True Real Perfect Human' & go from there with the whole reshaping the world thing. uhhh btw jus.tice is? a gear... um... ask me about her too if u want ....... there is a lot going on here but i swear it all makes sense somehow ......

i can't think of anything else to add except that she cosplayed gam.zee when she revealed that she's actually trying to fuck everyone up lmao um. dont miss it! juggalo pope!

#asks #elle🐱#cant wait for someone to find this post & go 'well actually thats wrong'#if there are ppl who think gg lore is easy to understand . well ok #sorry for not having a brain it's rough out there #guilted gears lore

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lunicho · 2 months

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hehe that isn’t too rush u at all!! i don’t mind if u don’t get to my asks i will just keep sending more as long as that’s okay haha! i’m glad you’re doing okay.. things go up and down, if it could be better then i hope it gets better for u soon 💕💕 <333 glad it’s not the worst though, that’s always good to hear!

i won’t bombard u too much but i was thinking about himbo!seongbin and how i think i misinterpreted it as fuckboy!seongbin but himbo!seongbin whiny,, needy, slightly manipulative almost yandere esque seongbin that only wants and needs u all to himself <333333 that’s all.

also i got into xikers recently! and i had this thought i need to share i think my bias is jinsik and he really reminds of a bit of heeseung and a bit of seongbin his eyes/nose remind me of hee and his mouth/jaw remind me of seongbin so no wonder i am drawn to him<3333

i’m also really looking forward to the 82major comeback i’m so excited to see what they come out with i neeeed more of their soundcloud rapper sound immediately!!! i really want the best for them and they so deserve it i need them to blow up as artists and as a group!!!

i hope this isn’t too much in one message i said i would try not to bombard lol and then i remembered a few things but yes thank yuuu!

- 🍑 anon

omgg ur so sweet, it actually means so so much that u still wanna send asks even though i haven't gotten to ur other ones bc im someone that puts a lot of pressure on myself feels rlly rlly bad about not getting to people's asks and then it makes me feel even more like paralyzed idk i just make it super hard for myself so thank u :( i definitely don't mind u sending as many asks as u want <3 also so true! im sure things will get better very very soon so im doing alright!

ur sooo right, himbo seongbin is selfish when it comes to u, he wants ur eyes on him and only on him and he gets even more needy if ur attention sways a bit. it's not realistic for you to be able to give him all of your attention constantly but it's what he craves. especially if you're out in public tgt or at a party he makes u feel bad for not focusing on him when you're literally doing what u can!! he's soo whiny when he feels a bit neglected (always) and he's almost like a puppy with the way he'll physically snuggle into u to try and get you to focus on him more.

that's so true! i could definitely see the resemblance of jinsik with the other boys! especially with u saying him and seongbin have similar eyes, i think they both have such pretty sparkly eyes yk! he's soo cute and such a sweetheart! i think my xikers bias is minjae but im still not 110% sure quite yet!

yes! i hope we get more rap with this comeback because illegal 😖😖 i love love love their music smm,, im assuming we will get more rap tho just bc of the current concept they're doing but we shall see!

no worries baby! i like when ppl send long messages cuz i talk a lot a lot a lot like even irl so it makes me feel less bad when other ppl send long messages. i send long messages and also back to back messages and i feel rlly rlly annoying sometimes LMAOSHS

#⋆ ˚｡⋆౨ৎ˚ bunny chats <3 #🍑 anon

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willowser · 2 years

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So I saw and ask way before asking ab if u had any megumi works and u said u had two I think? I was just curious if u could maybe possibly tell us what they’re ab?😅 I heard u give in easily when asked so this is me trying to exploit it (jkjk) u don’t have to if u don’t want obv. But If u do I won’t mind a long winded response 🤩

oh, hello !! let's see, megumi works, megumi works 🤔

so i may be misinterpreting your question, but ! i have two works for him out, technically ? it's all the same "fic", and something really funny about that story is that it's based on a real event in my lifetime LOL only the first part, really, and i was megumi in the situation, but it's been overdramatised for fic sake 🤗 idk if that's what you wanted more info about ! or —

i do have — i guess you could say — two open megumi works in my drafts ?? one i plan to post...eventually LOL after i iron out how to continue and finish it. i started out very strong, but the more i wrote, the more i realized i could not simply finish it off in 5k lol which was the original word count i set for that piece. it's going to take me longer bc i introduced a lot of concepts that i want to explore, and i have to figure out how to wrangle all those together without making it a longer piece i won't finish anytime soon — which i guess is already where i'm at LOL

megumi is a teacher at jujutsu tech, and our gran is more involved with these religious weirdos than we ever realized.

i could say i have a second one in the works too, i suppose; a long time ago — may of '21 to be exact LOL — i started a college au that i was really excited about !! and i bring it up, bc i go back and read it and am really happy with what i have so far. the only thing holding me back with it currently is —

the next thing i will release — southern charm, for bakugou — is a story within a story fic, where our reader-chan is a writer and, as her story progresses, so does the one she's crafting.

this fic for megumi is a story within a story also, and i guess i'm worried about repeating the story structure and, idk, turning people off i guess ? they're two very different stories, and the stories within those stories are also not similar at all, but i guess i'm just nervous to be pushing tales about character's other than the ones we know. i could get away with it once, maybe, but not twice LOL

but as i said, i really enjoy what i had for that story and i don't want to let it go just yet, so maybe i will just finish it and post it anyway !

college au, where you and megumi are both nerdy space nerds.

i want to get back into reading jjk ! so i'm hoping that in doing so, i reignite my love for writing him ! thank you so much for asking though — i forgot how much i enjoyed both of these stories, so i really appreciate you giving me the chance to slow down and consider them again 🥺✨️💐🎉

#neither of these are edited i am so sorry #terribly embarrassed lmao #so weird to look at my writing from a year ago and see how it's changed !#i'm really proud of the second story — named 'i will find him sitting on my doorstep' — and i would love to finish it #just littlr worries i guess !!!#you said long winded response and so i went off sorry LOL #i can and will talk and that is a threat #[ ☆ willow wippet ]#✿ ask willow

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areolae · 2 years

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I feel very grateful that my friends don’t pressure me to date or actively be on all the vapid apps or expect me to hook up with someone every time I go out lol like they are actually so sweet especially my best friend who is so supportive of my hobbies as they become more well rounded and doesn’t push me at all in any direction. I don’t feel so clumsy when I talk these days and I actually have more than one or two interests/hobbies to talk about when I’m talking to someone new and it’s so great to allow myself to unfold without any pressures from my friends or even any invisible pressure that I usually place on myself. I love when new people invite me in to learn about them. That’s so nourishing to me. I don’t want to hear about the psyche of a person I just met an hour ago but I love learning delicate little nuggets of information that are unique to each person. Putting pressure on each interaction with someone new might cause me to miss out on the small details that makes a person, you know, a *person* and not reducing them down to a prospect or a potential fling and all of those kinds of things. And I’m just so grateful the first questions I get asked after my excursions aren’t “did you meet anyone? Did you hook up with anyone? Are you and so and so still texting?” It’s more like them being curious about my happiness and my identity which is honestly mind-blowing to me because they are pretty standard straight girls lol bless their hearts. But I feel very grateful for them. I was worried ~finding myself~ or whatever would be very pressured and would cause me to drift away from the people I love now, as if I have to shed everything to be reborn but you really don’t have to shed anything for it to become completely new, I just had to change my own perspectives and make sure people weren’t misinterpreting my current goals or assigning their own narratives to how I should be acting and what I should be doing. My group chat has become such a fun and supportive little place to be lol and watching the way I communicate with them soften and become more gentle instead of me kind of just being like “ughhhhh these are people I’ve known since high school ugh ugh ugh sooo lame” has been nice. I have a nice balance with my pals from my hometown and now have built (am still building) a nice little community around me for when I’m in the city! I’m amazed when people ask me questions and want to get to know me lol. Even basic questions like asking about my day blows my mind but I’m trying to get used to the fact that people actually do want to talk and ask me questions and strike up conversation with me! I’ve never really felt so seen and heard. I’m amazed I’ve typed all of this. I’m really nauseous today because I didn’t eat a single thing yesterday and then went out and drank and I’ve been p***ing all day which hasn’t happened in years so I feel like a rookie but I’m still finding graciousness or whatever lol. I went to write in my journal but my hands (and body) are so weak and depleted not even bc of the drinking but because I haven’t eaten and still can’t eat a single thing and can barely keep down water lol! Living alone is scary sometimes I was convinced I was going to faint in my bathroom just an hour ago and bang my head or something lmao. Anyway what a pivot from what I was just saying. This dumbass website is my journal. I love my friends old and new and I appreciate not feeling pressured to do anything or occupy space where I don’t feel ready to yet. Easyyyyy does it that’s what I say….

#im a dumbass lmao this counts as my journal entry for today #cant believe i frew up :-( smh rookie move #anyway cheers to hobbies and community and love and gratitude! time to smoke so maybe my belly can calm tf down #remember

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wigglebox · 2 years

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How do you, as a lesbian, deal with the feeling of... I don't know, conformance? To heteronormativity when engaging with stuff like the Jensen thirst traps? I ask because I feel like I'm kinda your opposite at the moment and I'm wondering if you had any thoughts on the matter.

I'm not an “out and proud” kinda guy but also don't go out of my way to live dishonestly (lying by omission basically because coming out is scary). I've been into spn forever and have pics of Cas as my wallpaper, posters etc hanging in my house so it was always kind of a “well if you don't know I'm gay that's on you”. Which works if your favourite media thing has a really bad track record with women.

But recently I've also been getting into a K-pop girl group and would love to put up some of their posters as well. Except, I can't help but think that everyone is just going to go “lol first celebrity crush huh?” I know it doesn't matter and I shouldn't be so bent out of shape about assumptions I'm too afraid to correct anyway but... Ugh. I just don't like people misinterpreting the love I have for something as something else? I'm really secure in my identity and I know that my feelings for women are just not the same as my feelings for men but short of writing “I love these women like my besties because I am a raging homosexual” on top of every mention of them it feels inevitable that people just ... Don't pick up on that.

I just wish I could say stuff like “she's so pretty” and “he's so pretty” and not have societal expectations autofill the intent the wrong way around.

hiii~~

so whenever there's a cute or hot thing that comes out about jackles, i say things like 'oh man, i forgot I'm a lesbian' facetiously and indeed I'm not crossing my legs and clenching when i see a photo of him because i am not sexually attracted to men. his thirst traps actually do nothing for me xD but he's very attractive and i like how he talks and walks and his public persona.

has this happened before to you?

i think anxiety can sometimes throw the 'what if' situations out in our head and it can freeze us and make us not want to act but

it's hard because i think that women may have it a little easier. i had posters up all around my room especially in college of these shows that i liked with all these male protagonists and no one dinged my sexuality over it. though i guess, at the time, i considered myself bisexual bc i was afraid to call myself a lesbian [that's just a loaded story wkejfawklj]

regardless -- i feel you on this one, i too wish people would just accept that you can be a fan of someone or something without wanting to bone the person.

what you laid out sounds more like your anxiety and worry throwing out 'what if' scenarios you just don't want to deal with but those can make us freeze and start to spiral so

i'd hang up the poster. other gay men hang up posters or pictures of Cher or Dolly Parton or some other iconic woman or woman performer like actors and singers, some go so far as to impersonate them in drag performances, and no one thinks they want to fuck those women. And it's not even always older performers too. I don't think people think gay men wanna fuck Lady Gaga or have a crush on her.

shouldn't be any different here. and if someone thinks otherwise, you'll know what to do in the moment. trust your brain to know what to do. sadly it's something that's always a possibility but it's not a guarantee someone will make disparaging comments. but if you have to white-knuckle your way through it, it's shitty but it happens.

but hang up the poster

don't let that heteronormative what if situation freeze you from living a life you wanna live and supporting the celebs and performers you wanna support!

#idk if this helped #i'm at work on a sunday morning and trying to get my brain to work

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mrsfrecklesmarauders · 2 years

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hey. I saw your sirius and peter post. what do you think about james and remus friendship? bc i think they're underrated too

Moony and Prongs:

At first, James didn't like Remus. Remus didn't like James. Remus laughed at his hair because it looked ridiculously messy the first day of school. James didn't like that and found it disrespectful.

Remus was something from another planet and James misinterpreted him all together.

Remus tried to stay away from The Marauders. And James said mean things to Remus to keep him away. But somehow, Sirius was always interested in him.

"Oi Lupin! Come and sit with us"

"Why did you call him?" James whispered annoyed

"He is cool James, the way he helped us with pranking Slughorn was brilliant"

Sirius insisted that Remus should become part of the gang. And neither Remus or James were happy about it. But James accepted.

It turned out that Remus was actually brilliant. Remus had been shy and awkward at first. But the more James got to know him, the more he liked Remus. Remus was funny, sarcastic, intelligent and he had brilliant ideas for pranks.

When James found out about his lycanthropy, he felt an ache in his heart. He had been treating his mate very badly, and when Remus told them how it happened, and how much it hurt, James almost cried. He felt guilty for being a little git. And obviously he apologized.

James devoted his life to take care of Remus. He decided to call him Moony, because he now was friend. And James was that kind of person to die for his friends.

Sometimes James was Remus' big brother. Sometimes Remus was James' big brother.

James rubbed Remus' hair all the time. Like all the time. Remus seemed annoyed but secretly loved it.

James asked Remus to find information about Lily. Everything about her so that James could impress her. Remus asked so many questions that for a while Lily believed he was the one interested.

Remus loved to tease James. When Remus and Lily were prefects, James got jealous that they were close.

"Oh James, you know my type" Remus said "Ginger... Green eyes... Strong temper... Muggleborn" he giggled

"Moony! Don't you dare!" James protested while Sirius and Peter cracked up laughing.

Remus smirked "Don't worry James. I'm not into her"

James took Remus side after the prank. James protected Remus when he found out about Wolfstar.

"I know you Pads, I am not going to let use Moony just because you are pissed or something"

"You really think I would be capable of that?"

"The other girls...."

"Not with Moony, Moony is different than all the girls"

Remus talked very well of James to Lily. All the time. At first Lily thought it was because James told him to say all those things. But then she found out that it were all Remus' thoughts. And that he really admired and adored James.

James never. Ever. Doubted Remus during the war. He even got angry with Sirius for doubting Moony.

"Moony would never do that. I know him pretty well"

After James died, Remus missed him so much. A world without James was a world without joy. His big brother. Eventhough James was younger. He had protected and taken care of him like a big brother would do. And Remus missed him so much.

#marauders #maraudersera #marauders headcanon #sirius black #remus lupin #James Potter #Moony and Prongs #wolfstar #jily

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peralta-guaranteed · 3 years

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Would u write something about Mac first words being "dad" o "daddy" and Jake GOING INSANE about that? I think it would be really special to him bc all his story with his dad and all his fear on becoming

He'd taken his eyes off of him for five seconds - the card machine at the bodega was giving him some prompt he'd never seen before - so of course something had to happen. Jake still mostly banked on Mac being unable to walk freely for more than a few steps from him, but he should've really factored in all the perfect toddler-height shelving that he could use as railings to get a whole aisle over before he and the cashier flinched from the sound of a crash.

And then the crying started.

The cashier was actually faster than him, given a headstart from not having to drop an entire basket of shopping to run over, but Jake was directly behind her to see his kid sitting on the ground, a puddle of something slopping around him and half over him. Pasta sauce, he realised as he saw the wobbly carton display that had obviously not been as steady as the metal shelves Mac had been holding onto before.

"Da...!" Mac sobbed with outstretched arms towards him. "Da-heee..." He wailed again with tears streaming down his face while Jake lifted him up, covering himself in sauce too as Mac clung to him and sobbed into his shoulder.

"Daddy's here, bud. It's okay. It's okay." He bounced him up and down as the crying slowed, cursing himself out in his head all the while. How did he let him wander away like that? Why did he not notice sooner? He'd been careless and stupid and irrespsonsible and a horrible fath-

"Is he okay?" The cashier still looked far more worried at them than at the mess she'll have to clean up now, and it gladly brought him back to centre as the only real adult in the room right now (she can't be more than 17, he thinks).

"Yeah, just spooked. I'm so sorry, I'll pay for the sauce of course-" Jake stopped as Mac lifted his head off his shoulder again, eyes red-rimmed but not crying anymore, at least, only to see that his forehead was less covered in pasta sauce and more smeared with blood from a cut over his eyebrow, and his heart dropped even deeper than when he heard the crash. "Actually, do you sell bandaids?"

-*-

"It's okay, peanut. Daddy's fixing it." He forces his voice to be soft and calm while Mac sniffles, sitting on the counter, the cashier picking up Jake's dropped shopping bags while he cleans the little cut with the alcohol wipes she'd handed him without even ringing them up. It's not that bad, he tries to comfort himself fruitlessly, just a little nick that bled a bit more than usual, but should be fine with a bandaid and some lotion. It's fine. He didn't- he didn't let Mac get actually injured. He didn't. Even though his subconscious was screaming nothing else at him.

Mac's eyes are still swimming while he stares up at Jake, unblinking, clinging to his fake-soft smile as probably the only thing to convince him there was no need to cry at the moment. You and me both, Jake thinks for a second.

"Daddeh." He squeaks softly as Jake sticks on a puppy-themed bandaid (also not rung up), and grabs his hand with his little grubby fingers, and time kind of stops for a moment as they look at each other. Mac's eyes are big and still slightly red-rimmed, but trained on him like there's nothing else in the world but them, and for Jake, there might as well not be.

"See, Daddy fixed it." The cashier breaks through, smiling at him too as she hands Jake his shopping with the bandaid box dropped in, and time loops back into normal. She gets a soft Thanks and a nod after she hands him his card from the blasted machine that started it all, too, and doesn't even mention the several jars broken an aisle over. She waves goodbye to Mac instead as they leave, and Jake is definitely leaving the largest bills he has in her tip jar next time they come in.

-*-

Mac's splashing water and bubbles around in his small tub, because the sauce had leaked through his dungarees straight over his legs, and Jake is busy scrubbing him down with the soft loofah that'll probably have to go into the trash after all this. There's too much swirling through his head while he carefully showers Mac off. A whole barrage of emotion he'd love to just aimlessly ramble out, but there's no one to listen to him in their little apartment right now, the only person who'd maybe understand him still stuck at work. He looks at the puppy bandaid on Mac's forehead that he'll have to change after the bath, at his happy face playing with the little ducky that makes such fun squeaky noises when it's filled with water, no sign of tears or pain left at all.

"Hey, Mac-a-roni." Jake whispers while Mac giggles and splashes some more water out of the baby-tub into the big one it was sitting in. "You... said something at the bodega, didn't you?"

Mac had been babbling and making noises for months now, lots of Goos and Gaas, the occasional Bleh and Duh thrown in, but Jake and Amy had agreed that none of those had been discernible as words yet, especially as they were never directed at anything in particular. Not like on the counter back there, staring straight at him with his big, chocolate eyes after that little parenting disaster he still wanted to scold himself for. Not like right now, soap bubbles clinging to his curls, smiling up at him in the comforting moment of their usual night routine.

"Daddeh!" Mac squeaks again, holding his arms out to be picked up into a towel like always, but held against Jake's chest much tighter than usual. He's trying not to cry, very hard, but he's sure his eyes are swimming and shiny as much as Mac's were while he was being bandaged up.

"Daddeh." He repeats as Jake laughs, breathlessly, kisses up and down his perfect chubby cheeks for some more squeals and laughter from them both, hugs him close again and again even as he dries him off and gets him dressed.

There's something warm glowing in his chest, Jake feels as he dances Mac to sleep to abuela's Spanish lullaby tape, something that feels both familiar and foreign at once. It reminds him of the feeling that shook all through him when that firefighter placed a screaming, goo-covered baby onto Amy's chest as she cried and carefully touched the dark whisps of hair already matted to his head. That feeling that settled around his heart for forever as Rosa handed him a cleaned up, swaddled baby that wasn't screaming anymore, his eyes closed but his teensy tiny hand wrapping tight around Jake's finger. It's a little different - but it's not, it's more of the same, but grown. Added on, like a new bud on an already flowering tree.

Jake is sure there'll be lots of new blooms on that feeling in the years to come, but this one, the one that opens up even more as Mac sighs one more little "Daddeh" as he falls asleep against his shoulder, will surely be remembered for forever.

-*-

He has enough wherewithal to warn Amy about the bandaid when she gets home and immediately moves to check on sleeping Mac, and she only rolls her eyes when she drops down onto the couch next to him after softly closing the nursery door.

"Do I even want to hear the story of the bandaid?"

"It wasn't anything. Just a little accident at the bodega. He's fine." Jake's actually convinced himself of that now, too, so it sounds believable enough.

"Alright." Amy nods, he swallows back down the worries he thought about sharing if she asked him to still explain instead. "Aside from that, how was your day with him? Did you have fun?"

"Oh yeah." Jake tries to grin and pulls her in to lean against his side as she rests her head on his shoulder, seeming almost as sleepy as Mac was when he did it earlier. "We went to the park and the post office and the bank and the bodega, obviously. A whole Brooklyn adventure."

"That's nice." Amy says in a quiet voice, and he wonders if he'll have to carry her to bed in a second.

"And, well." He hesitates, and that is enough to make her lift her head. Maybe he shouldn't say it. Maybe he should wait until the morning, let her discover it on her own, and pretend like it's the first time he's hearing it too. Forget about how it all came about today.

"Well what?"

"He said something."

"What?! Why didn't you lead with that? Why didn't you text me?!?" She sits up, staring at him with wide eyes, and he looks - apologetic, almost worried.

"I didn't want you to feel bad because you missed it." And didn't want to explain how I fucked up to make it happen.

"Oh." She visibly deflates, but then smiles at him. "But you heard it, right? He said it in front of you?"

"Yeah. He, uh. Actually. He said daddy. To me."

Jake completely misinterprets Amy's face, her scrunched together eyebrows, her shining eyes, her mouth softly opening and closing, and immediately leans forward with a hand on her arm to console her.

"I'm sure he's going to say Mama next, Ames - he's already going 'Mah' all the time, so-"

"He called you daddy?" Her voice is so soft, almost breaking, as he feels her hands on his cheek. "Jake, that's wonderful!"

"Yeah." He nods with a shy smile, but Amy's face only softens more.

"You're his first word." She says with so much reverance, and he can't feel bad about it anymore. Can't think he doesn't really deserve it, not when she looks at him with that much love in her eyes. "You're Mac's first word."

"I'm daddeh." His smile isn't so shy anymore, not when he says it out loud like that, not when it feels 100% right.

"You're really daddy, babe. You're daddy."

He huffs and smiles even wider with another nod, and that feeling is back, that little warm glow blooming in his chest, and Amy is quick to wipe away the few tears that make their way down his cheeks all of a sudden before bending forward for a kiss.

"DADDEH!" echoes through the room from behind a closed door where someone is clearly not interested in sleeping anymore, and Amy laughs against his lips.

"See?"

"I'm gonna go and get him." Jake sighs happily.

"Oh please." She nods as he gets up. "I want to see him say it to you."

#B99 #Brooklyn 99 #Peraltiago #Jake Peralta #Amy Santiago #my writing #ficlet #fic #mac peralta

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