#i genuinely can't tell you how upset

[wild-at-mind]

I crave validation so strongly. I wish I could help everyone in the world and yet I am unable to help myself.

#this website is constantly telling me that trying to help myself with mental health is some sort of bougie indulgance and insulting to gaza #and it's a quick jump from there to thinking the same about trying to access transition #and from there it's my life is meaningless and my suicide would be celebrated if i put the right post on twitter before #tw suicide #i feel like the obvious thing to do is quit tumblr and stop encountering these messages- but i have nowhere else i feel #i can talk about the ugliest parts of myself #and recently i put an artwork on instagram that i worked on for 15 months and it got 7 likes and i'm fucking destroyed by that #i genuinely can't tell you how upset #but i know that's not healthy- i should be able to like and feel proud of my work no matter how many people press a thing #or see it in the first place- we all know its algorithm that does it #i never want to become someone who moans about algorithms and guilts for likes and yet here we are #leaving instagram would seem the obvious solution but i need that validation so badly #i don't even want to make art my job ever! i'll be doing it no matter what i just want people to like it and like me #to think i am someone worthwhile #i don't understand why i'm like this i have no good reasons i have never lacked for love in my life #and yet i can't feel it #i hate myself

[sergle]

(re: sssniperwolf and jacksfilms) It's laughable that she escalated it that hard. Don't get me wrong, I'm pretty sure stalking him like that is illegal and it's terrifying regardless, but Jack said in a stream (can't remember which one) that he wasn't about bringing up past controversies of hers or cancelling. And now she shows up outside his house (wtf!!!). Like he was willing to only call her out for stealing and freebooting but she's gone and stalked him and Jack doesn't seem like the type of guy to take that shit. Actual WTF moment from her part. wild

omg long post below bc apparently I have opinions: YES!! THAT'S WHAT'S SO INCREDIBLE ABOUT THIS... Jack has been genuinely diligent about keeping things on-topic in his streams, and hasn't brought up any of her other Stuff, or anything Personal. Despite the fact that she kickstarted the whole thing by making it INCREDIBLY personal and attacking his physical appearance... His goal has been to call out and bring attention to content theft, and he's stuck with it. Dude's also cared about this for years, and she's not the first content thief he's criticized. He just hates the way that freebooting has become so accepted-- to the point where youtube praised her for "coming up with such creative video ideas"? Hey! Ew! Dude wasn't trying to get her cancelled though, there was no smear campaign of her character. He's been rallying to get her to CREDIT the creators that she relies on for all of her content. It would set a precedent for all other "react" channels on the platform for one of the biggest channels on youtube to actually give credit where credit is due. Or, god forbid, get permission first? It's not hard. It's already done the job of making some other people who do "react content" self-analyze whether or not their content is transformative, and to maybe care about crediting the creators they rely on for their genre to work. There is a way to make this kind of video that isn't so slimy. And making fun of her lackluster-at-best reactions is so far from even being a big deal. Bc she literally does just sit there and say nothing. Plus, his goal has a clear End built into it: if she started shouting out the creators she takes content from, and put links directly to their pages in her video descriptions, the job would be done! That's what he's asking her to do. Real bare minimum stuff. It legit would have been easy to steer away from the content theft and to also talk about her history of lying to her audience! her ghosting a dying kid with cancer who was a big fan of hers! the fact that she's been arrested for armed robbery! her history of transphobia! He would also get more clicks that way, which is what she claims is his sole goal- to get more clicks. I'll bring it up though! She's been a terrible person the whole time, and has kept a steady course of manipulating her audience of young children and/or, let's be completely honest, simps- into thinking that she's a Wholesome creator. (And now, into thinking she's an innocent victim.) All of the actual effort put in by her has gone toward optics, not the content she puts out. A carefully constructed online persona, for one, but also literal appearances. Jack totally can't say this, bc she already went off the handle and said the only reason he doesn't like her is bc he Hates To See A Woman Be Successful. But I can! That was a cheap shot for her to use that argument when, for once, it's not applicable! Much the opposite, even! Dudes online wouldn't go to bat for her if she didn't look the way she does. And it weakens any case she'd have against him by making baseless claims like that. She banks hugely on being an attractive woman to get her clicks/following. A massive amount of effort is put into her appearance. The makeup, the lip fillers, putting her hair in little pigtails, the chokers and tube tops, the big non-prescription Nerd Glasses, the thumbnails where she has her mouth open in That Expression?

I don't even have to say anything. But making a weird facial expression and putting your hair in pigtails aren't moral failings. Showing up at someone's real life home (whose address you shouldn't even have access to), filming the front of their house at night, doxxing them to your audience of millions of people? Because you were mad at them online? That is fully scary! Yeah girl I'm pretty sure that Jack can press charges! There is absolutely no way to take the moral highground now that she's literally stalked him, and doxxed his home. She tried to goad him and Erin (Jack's wife) out of the house, also, which creeps me out even more-- because what was she planning to do? The fact that she's been arrested for violent crime before does pop into my mind! lmao! Jack was streaming a game at the time that she was outside his home, and these clips of him, his friends, and Erin reacting in real time to what is genuinely a scary situation have been taken down in case he needs to use them in legal action. Shit is legitimately serious!

#sergle answers #long post #LONGEST POST ON EARTH I'M SO SORRY #saying all this out loud only takes a few minutes but typing it... girl this is a BOOK #clearly I have thoughts on this Online Drama but also this isn't online! #these are people who exist in real life. and compromising a person's safety bc he criticized you for stealing tiktoks #is a real life thing. this isn't confined to online spaces! you can turn off your computer to get away from An Argument #but someone going to your house?? that's absolutely terrifying #and all of this is just because he's been telling her to credit the creators. it could have been resolved so simply. #I hope he takes legal action against her bc he genuinely has grounds to do so. #and I can't imagine how terrified and upset I would be if someone was outside my door. filming my house for their audience. #also the 'what if the roles were reversed' argument is rarely made in good faith... but she's already brought up the topic. #this would be getting even more coverage and the optics would be Even Creepier if a strange man with millions of followers showed up #at the home of a woman- just bc she criticized his videos- filming her home address for all to see and trying to get her to come outside. #It's just as creepy that sssniperwolf did this as it would be coming from ANYONE else #it's been downplayed bc her being a little skinny woman means that A Man shouldn't be threatened by her #which. even if she wasn't going to Do anything. any one of her rabidly loyal online followers MIGHT. she's not the only one who could go to #his house now! anyone could show up. #sergle.txt #Jacksfilms #Sssniperwolf

[uncanny-tranny]

Having a complex, queer, in-good-faith identity that others might not immediately get is not the same thing as being a violent bigot, and frankly, I think people need to remember that just because you don't "get" an identity, that doesn't mean it is hurting you specifically. Being a bigot is harmful, being a human being with complex experiences is not. Don't equate the two.

#lesbian #gay #bi #bisexual #trans #transgender #queer #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #if you can't tell the difference between a queer person and a queerphobic bigot there are bigger issues for you than if a queer person... #...has a harmful identity #also before somebody says something no this isn't about super str*ight or people who are attracted to kids #(trying not to get this post in adjacent tags) #(i made a post about a similar topic and it was kind of upsetting how people equated it with super str*ight and being attracted to kids) #(and i really want to make sure people don't do it to this post because it's genuinely upsetting to see and i'd like to not have that) #i'm aware this probably isn't going to be read and might have tags that i was complaining about on my last post

[hecatesbroom]

every time I rewatch the Rusty Anchor bathroom scene, it becomes gayer and gayer

#the amount of weight and emotion blanche puts behind every single one of her words #that scene (and actually the entire episode) carries the weight of a genuine love confession #i'm serious. the way blanche gets a little upset with dorothy for ''taking her place'' first #the way dorothy almost walks away but blanche can't let her leave. so she stops her with a very very intimate confession (''i'm jealous'') #the way jealous seems to mean ''i love you'' the way she says it #like i'm sorry but i don't think too many people tear up while telling their friend they're jealous of them #especially not after telling your friend how beautiful she is and how she lights up a room when she sings #hello there?? #and that final question blanche asks dorothy #if she's jealous of *her* sometimes too #i have THOUGHTS about it #(yes i just rewatched that scene for the umpteenth time for research purposes. what of it) #the golden girls #blanche devereaux #dorothy zbornak #blanche x dorothy #...my whole post is in the tags again isn't it

[rotisseries]

😐 this is worse than I remember but definitely salvageable if we put our heads together

#I'm genuinely so confused cause he doesn't seem upset by her answer. like he's just asking for shits and giggles. just curious?? #it still doesn't actually really read romantic to me it's just that it's such an odd thing to say in this moment #I'd argue even that this whole thing could easily be familial #if not for annabeth specifying “you were like a brother to me but I didn't love you” #which tells you that obviously here love can't be used in the familial sense #but other than that it's not really romantic either?? she says no. luke seems unsurprised and not disappointed. #percy isn't even jealous about the topic coming up #which on that last point even if percy was jealous that still doesn't mean much to me teen boys will get jealous over anything #but he doesn’t #but like. why did luke even ask then??? he's not manipulating her cause there's nothing to get out of that #like. ok really I think he could easily just be trying to gage exactly how much he hurt her #this isn't even that bad y'all are dramatic🙄 #don't ask me about silena idk anything about that. kronos was probably in charge there anyway

[daz4i]

if someone else told me they have even one of my traumas I'd be like that's awful I'm so sorry you went through this and I'd genuinely mean it too. but when it's me it's not that serious I'm just being dramatic and whiny i gotta get over myself already. as one does

#mostly bc that's how it feels ppl in my life treat it. idk. not allowed to use it as a reason for why i can't do things etc #it's been so loooong since why am i still hung up on it. everyone has trauma and they just power through it. etc #can you tell i have a lot of unchecked rage inside me. #i *am* genuinely upset abt how hung up i am on this shit tho. it really has been so long. what's my excuse. yknow? #vent #i guess! idk!!! #sorry abt all the posts like that today!!!! i am not doing well!!!!!! rip!!!!!!

[ladyhavilliard]

Am I upset how much they changed Wesper in s&b? Yes. Is it bringing my Wesper obsession back anyway? Of fucking course.

#i can't read the handwriting #i'm doing something now and can't look at it #how do you pronounce this word #so far i love kanej!!! #i was upset with only 1 helnik scene last season and the rest was awesome #not much helnik this season so far. for obv reason #but with wesper... i don't necessarily like what they did and it upsets me how different it is. AND YET #THEY ARE MY TREASURES #AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING IN MY POWERS TO MAKE WYLAN HAPPY #i still love them very much <3 #there's only one thing i am genuinely disappointed in and that's wylan telling jes about him not being able to read #IDC THAT IT SHOWED HE TRUSTED HIM ENOUGH TO SHARE #it is still so out of character for him #and it also made the issue look as if it's just about him being embarrassed about it #like i know they still had that tension and it was obviously not just fine and chill #but wylan is traumatized and terrified of anything surrounding this #he lives not only in great shame because of it (which they addressed by words but it still.. idk felt somehow way lighter in the show) #but he also lives in fear because of it #goddamn it his own father tried to murder him for it #no matter how much he trusts jesper #this is not something he would do #IF he wanted to tell jesper he would at first maybe hint of it. try saying without making it obvious #you know #he trusts jes enough to ask him for help #like bla bla #but here is the thing #this is his deepest secret and the one thing he is absolutely terrified of is ppl knowing it #he would never just... say it #at least not now- before any of the growth he has to go through or before really getting to know jes

[emometalhead]

are you doing okay emotionally?

No ♡

#lol anon this is one of the funniest asks I've received #I can't tell if you're being judgemental bc of my reaction to SN (TV) or like genuinely concerned for my well being #so short answer is like no I'm not emotionally stable but that's kind of an on-going issue. no need for additional concern rn. #the long answer is I'm without a doubt having the most stressful year of my life so yeah no I am not doing well #today had some particularly distressing news and now I'm super anxious about one of the few things I wasn't really worrying about before #so like yeah mental health is in the garbage #however at least for the night I am feeling soooooo much better because I am too excited about SN (TV) to be upset about anything right now #I can't put to words how much SN means to me and how excited I am both to hear the album and to know Taylor owns it #so yes I'm actually crying irl like I've said in my tags on several posts but I promise this isn't a breakdown I'm just insane about Taylor #long story short!! happy tears for Taylor!! not great mental health rn but that's not going to change for a while #lots of ups and downs #thank you for checking in #i think #asks #anon

[chieana]

I accidentally hit my hand against my old tv real hard and had a complete autistic breakdown because I was already overstimulated

so how's your night going?

#I fixed it by getting an anger attack #which was a reaction not a fix #but then I blasted music until the tears started and I just felt hurt and upset and sad #so then I listened to the light behind your eyes and into the cave we wander so I could cry it out #im still a bit of a mess now tho #and I realised I hadn't eaten basically the entire day #so that was a fun time for me while making dinne #and before I could eat I had to hang up the laundry I forgot about #so basically it was my adhd and autism both destroying me today #I genuinely don't understand how and why I am considered responsible and safe enough to live by myself working a 45h job #but I guess that's just because mental healthcare in the Netherlands is absolute fucking garbage and destroys more than it heals #so my mom avoided that whole bs system like the plague #they will deadass tell you you can't study or work if you have adhd/autism #like??? #I can't work an overstimulating job for 9h a day #I can't be held responsible for deadlines (even if I will somehow still make them I have a bachelor's degree come on) #because they stress me out into in-action #but I am intelligent #I have tons and tons of little tricks to make life easier #I have pretty bad dyslexia but I also write novels #and no one's commented on errors because there is no difference to any other author #which was also noticeable in school #I have dyscalculia but I love maths and am good at it #it's very simple: even if the letters and numbers float around and get mixed up I am capable of slowing myself down enough to fix errors #literally I taught myself to pay extra attention to everything I say and do #I am a perfectionist so it feels like the end of the world any time someone notes a mistake I made #rationally I know it's fine #but emotionally I feel like a freak if I ever make a mistake #anyway I went off on a rant #today sucked ass and I am already feeling the stress of having to go to work on Monday without being well-rested

[frostbite-the-bat]

i hgoupe I'm The roller guy to yall

#I'm srs I need recognition for things I like #I NEED TO BE Known That I like This thing #Not famous but #I'M!! THE ENJOYUER... #I can get like that with clash around friends in general but I keep it lows #But in Tghe fandom. I'm srs I may avoid ppl if I'm like #Man pplproly see them as the Roller guy hahaha they're popular and draw Tghe guy a lot and nobody likes me and #Help me #It's so dark here #What mental illness is causing this #ITS SO COLD.... #WHERE AM I... IM SHOEING NEGATIVE MENTAL ILLNESS.... #I will go crazy reaches to get recognized for a Thing usually by Overworking On Fanart #But also I'm just a perfectionist also so that doesn't help either #And then oops haha adhd make me NOT feel rewarded for ANYTHING and it's ALL MISERY #At least friends are nice and love me and I feel great Showing Stuff and Them Telling me stuff #But I generally feel disliked by people #I may just be over thinking but I can't shake off the feeling that people murmur about me negatively. Oh it's the annoying lame guy bitch #I think people also don't like me because I talk too much I get personal in art posts and I talk a lot #People tend to ignore that #And idk #I have friends who love me and I love them and that means more than anyrhing #But seeing anyone get recognized for Liking Thing makes me #Seriously want to do physical harm to myself sometimes and that's not a joke #I suffer Self Bite when Stressed. I don't know how to Regulate Sometimes. #Why do you think I block so many ppl and whine abt it #I get jealous upset at nothing feeling threatened. sometimes yea ppl post genuinely triggering stuff but half the time I'm just like #HIISS. HISSSS #HiiIIISSS #I need to have my brain cleaned and changed for a better one this isn't kt

[skrunksthatwunk]

playing dmc1 with my earbuds in (but on low volume bc they're being weird) while my roommate and her shitty bf argue. i feel like i'm recreating the very specific experience of some child of divorce out there

#how do i tell her she needs to break up with him immediately. posthaste.fuck it funny post over rant incoming tw emotional abuse i think #nyarla dni #(<- roomie and nyarla have met and i don't wanna air roomie's drama to ppl who know her w/o her consent. anon internet ppl only) #listen i'm normally for gentle advising and that's probably what i'll do since i don't want to stress her out but oh my fucking god what is #his problem. he's constantly putting her in these weird no-win situations where the only right answer is to never be upset or disagree or b #wrong on accident or be misunderstood by him and to tell him everything she's feeling so she's not 'playing mind games' but if she says wha #she's feeling he'll interrogate her and badger her with the same questions over and over again insisting she's unreasonable until she gives #in and says she's sorry with an attitude he likes. i fucking don't like him. and a lot of this is observations from today. the day after sh #GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT AND BROKE HER NECK. WHAT THE FUCK. #it's like he expects to be treated like a king on one of the worst days of her life and when she's upset he's like OH. OH I GET IT. #and lectures her on having attitude and taking things out on others when she's literally not even doing that. not to an extent that matters #anyway. like. there's more productive ways of dealing with that. where you don't treat them like a bad kid for getting overwhelmed #he has made her cry multiple times today. i have been around multiple arguments and fights and he's just genuinely. awful i hate him #hell the first argument i overheard *i* was in tears by the end (luckily they left soon after bc i had to run to the basement laundry #dungeon to bawl my eyes out because 1. i can't handle confrontation 2. i've never seen roomie cry and 3. she just seemed so hurt and tired) #anyway he just left again after a fight because. god this is so dumb. she told him to move while they were sleeping in the same twin bed #(remember she's in a neck brace) and he fucking. left the room for an HOUR bc he thought the only thing that could POSSIBLY mean (as he #insisted) was for him to get out of here and then when she was like oh hey i'm sorry i didn't mean it like that he decided to spend the nex #half hour of his short time on this earth chewing her out for not giving him a lengthy explanation while half-asleep as to like. why he #needed to move (she wanted to grab smth) and apparently he sat in the chair by her bed for like 10 mins before leaving so he probably saw #her fall back asleep. and then he got pissy when after he left she didn't pick up her phone when he was calling her? even though he knew sh #was asleep?? she didn't even know he was gone. fucking. i need to get him away from my roomie YESTERDAY #look. miscommunication happens. i'm not saying he's an asshole for wanting things said clearly. i am pro-saying what you mean. #but if every time your gf tells you what she means you make it into a 30 minute lecture (no matter how small the slight and w/o examining i #you're actually right or not) she's not gonna wanna fucking tell you if she doesn't think it's worth the argument. especially if you never #let her rest until she concedes. apology isn't enough. clarification isn't enough. she has to say how wrong she was and beg and GOD. UGHHH #and he's always on about how she hurts his feelings. a gust of wind could hurt his feelings. he's constantly berating her manipulating her #and then he's like >:( see that hurt my feelings you can't hurt ppl's feelings. you're disrespectful. HE"S THE WORST I FUCKING HATE HIM #look sometimes adversity reveals the truth of a person and this just amplified his shittiness so much. mr OH i slept in a HOSPITAL and it #was so bad... you can't be in a bad mood bc i've been doing the bare minimum and you need to prioritize MY feelings rn. also i won't leave

[7-oh-ta1]

Y'all I won't lie I be sad asl all the time

#lindsay speaks #// vent #this is the only way i know how to talk about my feelings to get them out of my chest so kindly ignore #i have a bad complicated relationship with my mom. i had an issue that's really be bothering me and can't talk to anyone about #because everyone just thinks I'm weird and brushes me off. so despite knowing better i try to talk to my mom about. #she brushes me off and acts like I'm weird and is like well I'm tired lol goodnight #like I'm sobbing on the phone to you and your my mom....... even if you don't feel like it's a big deal #it's something that's really bothering me. and i feel like you genuinely can't be arsed to say anything but stock #''that's just life'' quotes. like i know that that's why I'm in distres #and the stupid thing is she does this everytime i or my siblings are distressed but fuck i just really needed to talk to somebody #about how I'm feeling and just like every weak person i turned to my mom #i just wish i never said anything. #i know she's going to tell everyone i just i hate all of this and i hate i can't trust anybody to just let me be upset #sorry i didn't want to talk about fucking oatmeal and actually have issues i really need someone maybe MY MOM to just pat my back #being alive sucks so much how tf am i supposed to stay alive for the good things when i have nothing good of my own #i have nothing #not even parents and those come free with your fucking existence #btw I'm fucking stupid because she tells my aunt who thinks I'm a burden by being born every fucking thing because everytime i open up to #her i ''stress her out and she deserves to vent too'' #i hate this existence

[mosspapi]

I feel like I can't even express myself anymore without my parents fucking jumping down my throat with the whole nine yards of guilt tripping gaslighting lovebombing etc. And I was Just getting confident enough to do that in the first place.

#they've gotten exponentially worse since my sister cut off contact and it's like. u guys do realize doubling down on the Bad Thing. is Bad. #I would like to tell them that the way they spoke to me earlier was super upsetting and inappropriate. but I feel like if I even so much as #hint at being upset they'll go all 'woe is me we're the worst parents even how will you ever forgive us' #or 'listen we're ur parents u need to learn some rsespect or else' #like. it was genuinely unacceptable the way they were speaking to me but I can't even say that without somehow being the big bad evil meani #idk. I'm not wording this properly I feel like absolute garbage and just wanna pet our dog #but I can't even do that bcuz they won't let me wear a mask and I don't feel comfy without one #I'm fucking losing it dude I need to get out of here immediately. I'm fucking losing it #I was supposed to go back up to uni last week but I was fucking isolating so. I'm absolutely beyond my limits with their bullshit holy fuck #armchair speaks #tw implied abuse

[jytan2018]

I read the comic in one sitting less than an hour after finishing the movie, and wow I have many Thoughts™.

- It's very obvious the two versions were meant to cater to different audiences AND tell different messages. I don't get why people are going "But the comic was better! It had more nuance!" just because Nimona was easier to root for in the movie.

- The comic was written back when ND Stevenson was still trying to process a lot of stuff, so all the characters are morally grey/straight up evil and the climactic battle is between a Ballister who regrets turning against Nimona, even if it was to save others vs. a Nimona who's too hurt to care if her lashing out was going to hurt innocent people.

- By the time Nimona got a movie adaptation, ND was a lot more secure in his sexuality, so the climactic battle was Nimona vs. the Director, the symbol of religious oppression and bigotry. It's not just about your friends turning on you because you're "too much" for them anymore, it's also about a society that would rather bring itself to the brink of ruin than coexist with you.

- (I totally get why people were upset about Ballister's surname change, though. Like come on, the media dubbing him Blackheart just to be mean was RIGHT THERE).

- Nimona's metaphor for not shifting is such a neurodivergent thing. Even in the comic, Nimona's parents insisting she's a monster who replaced their daughter is reminiscent of the changeling myth, which is what many parents thought their neurodivergent kids were—changelings who replaced their "real" children.

- Ambrosius being trained to cut off HIS BOYFRIEND'S WHOLE FUCKING ARM instead of merely disarming him is a very cop thing to do. As much as cops claim they're trained to de-escalate situations, their training still teaches them to treat everyone as a potential threat, and that level of constant vigilance can turn anyone into a trigger-happy/arm-choppy bastard. Even the Director, who can use a sword but probably hasn't actually fought someone in ages, STILL can't see Ballister reaching for the squire's phone without assuming he has a weapon.

- And on that note, the Queen getting killed simply because she was trying to reform the Institution and allow commoners to become knights? That's the best "no such thing as a good cop" metaphor I've seen. Because even if there ARE good cops and they ARE in leadership positions, the system will crush them before they make any meaningful change. It's not a good institution that turned rotten, it's an institution that only exists to spread its rot and refuses to be good.

- That's why Ballister's characterisation is so different in the movie vs. the comic. Comic Ballister had 15 years to come to terms with his trauma and the Institution's evildoing, while Movie Ballister is still freshly traumatised and hasn't found a way to define himself beyond the role he was assigned by the Institution.

- Not to mention Comic Ambrosius was not very noble to begin with and genuinely believed Ballister was better suited to villainy than heroism, while Movie Ambrosius never wanted the glory that came with his lineage in the first place and only antagonised Ballister because of indoctrination he needed to unlearn (which he did, all by himself, after witnessing the lengths the Director will go to just to kill Nimona).

- It really shows how important it is to surround yourself with loved ones who are open to change. Comic Ambrosius can love Ballister all he wants, but he'll still blast his arm off because he thinks Ballister deserved it anyway. Movie Ambrosius will stop to question what "the right thing" even means, even if he didn't love Ballister enough to defend him unconditionally.

I have so many more thoughts bubbling beneath the surface, but I'll probably address them some other day. In conclusion:

[ID: A pink-haired Nimona grinning evilly while holding up a knife.]

Watch Nimona. This is not a request.

Edit: Added more thoughts!

#nimona #nimona meta #nimona comic #ballister blackheart #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin

[thecatspasta]

Inspired by @arrgh-whatever's post on helping ppl with BPD

Edit bc I forgot to add this: Being vulnerable means smth different for different ppl, something that could read as being vulnerable to you can read as just another Tuesday for someone else

[ID: a simply-drawn comic, narrated by a person coloured-in in pink.

Panel 1: The pink person narrates: "So there's a lot of "signs your ex is a narcissist and how to deal with them" and it's not very accurate. So here's how to actually "deal" with a narcissist from someone with narcissistic personality disorder."

Panel 2: This panel has the heading: "1. Supply." The pink person narrates: "People with NPD have very fragile self-esteem, and supply is what keeps us from having a mental breakdown. Supply can be many things, but often attention and praise are effective. Stuff like "Wow! That's super cool!!" can go a long way." A person is shown saying this to another person, who smiles.

Panel 3: This panel has the heading: "2. Criticism." The pink person narrates: "Oh boy. So narcissists take things as personal very easily. It's because if anyone contradicts our delusions that we have built our entire self-image on, it feels like you are attacking us as a person." There is an example shown, where one person says "hey, you were a bit too rude back there," but the other person hears "You're an awful dick no-one likes." The alternative manner of phrasing is suggested as "Hey, you were a bit too rude. You're cool, but some people took it poorly." The second person in this example thinks "I'm still a cool person. It's not my fault, but I can do things to be better." The narrator continues, "We don't really understand the concept of a harmless mistake."

Panel 4: This panel has the heading: "3. Boundaries." The pink person narrates: "With narcissists, setting down strict boundaries is very important. 1. Knowing we have hurt you because you didn't set down boundaries can really upset and annoy us because the delusions that we can do no wrong and know you best get broken. 2. If you let us break boundaries, it can lead us to see you as "weak" and devalue you. Communication is key."

Panel 5: This panel has the heading: "4. Anger." The pink person narrates: "So people with NPD tend to be prone to anger. This is a defense mechanism, because to us, it's either facing the inaccuracies of our delusions and having a mental breakdown, or blaming something else. We do not mean to lash out; we just don't have the skills to cope properly. You can help by: 1. Letting us express out emotions without judgement; 2. giving us praise or attention; and 3. Distracting us from what angered us." Each example of how to help is accompanied by a small cartoon.

Panel 6: This panel has the heading: "5. Other NPD things!" The pink person narrates: "'Love bomb, devalue, discard' is actually: we are genuinely obsessed with you and want you to recognize us as cool, we lose that obsession and move on, we feel threatened in some way and lash out. We can't really handle being seen as vulnerable. We take sympathy and empathy as pity and pity as you telling us we're weak. Not acknowledging we're being vulnerable and acting as if nothing is wrong can be helpful in these situations. People with NPD have a very warped view of reality. We do not mean to hurt you and often do not realise we have. Remember, this won't work for everyone, and talking is very important."

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Ty to @aromanticsky for the id

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ArrangedHusband!Sukuna headcanons!

Heian era ‼️‼️🗣️

Content: Angst . Fluff . suggestive themes . MNDI

A/N: I have zero writing skills and it's also short💥💥🔥

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who at first hated your presence, why should he bother loving you if he only married you to have a Hier? Just because you're his arranged wife doesn't necessarily mean he has to like you.

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who saw you as nothing but a lesser being whose only use is to grant him an heir.

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who never cared about your feelings, let alone cared for you in general and only saw you as a tool for his own wellbeing,

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who hated the fact you avoid him let alone bare eye contact with him.

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who grew tired of your avoidant behavior towards him. He can't tolerate your presence no matter how hard he tries. And how you keep fighting each time he tries fucking you, why should you fight? You're just making it harder for him to do his work.

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who decided to constantly Convince you to let him have his way with you if you're not gonna be easy about it.

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who noticed how more distant and avoidant you got after 'that' night, and even noticed how scared and freighted you look each time he tried approaching you. Freighted why? Hm don't know maybe because he really didn't care about how you felt during the duration of it?

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who had enough of your behavior and decided he should at least try to act like a how a husband would act towards their pregnant wife..

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who tried being loving and caring to you..

Keyword: "tried.."

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who would attend to your every need at the start of your pregnancy, have a craving? It's already there in a matter of seconds

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who would get irritated at your mood swings, your happy then suddenly your mad at him then your suddenly all sad and pouting??

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who would try to comfort you whenever you felt sad during your mood swings, but he doesn't know how to comfort people causing you to just feel more upset

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who slowly grew fond of you and gained genuine feelings for you

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who tells himself he doesn't love you repeatedly

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who would get easily possessive and jealous whenever he sees you interact with another male that's not him

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who makes it known to everyone that your his, and his alone.

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna whose eyes soften once he saw how his heir looked, it looked exactly like a carbon copy of him, minus the marks and the red eyes, seeing that the child inherited your eyes

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who finally came into terms of him actually loving you, of course he'll never tell you that though,

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who would dedicate all his paintings and poetry to you and occasionally his child

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna who hated the fact of leaving you and his child.

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Bonus:

. ArrangedHusband!Sukuna whose eyes lit up when he saw you again after thousands of years when you and him made eye contact while he was in control of yujis body.

#i forgot i have a series to update #jjk sukuna #jujutsu kaisen ryomen sukuna #jujutsu kaisen sukuna #jjk ryomen sukuna #sukuna x reader #ryomen sukuna x reader #sukuna x you #ryomen sukuna x you