#i look in the mirror and i know it's me

[the-cinnamon-snail]

I look too much like both of my parents and act too much like them as well.

#vent #like. i fucking hate it. #at least people mostly just say I look a lot like my siblings because they are so much older than me #but jeez. every time i bite the skin on my finger tips and my nails #i get reminded that dad does that all of the time and I picked up the habit from him #i fucking hate it. i hate it do much. #i mean #i look in the mirror and i know it's me #but thats not who I want to be. thats not what i want to look like. #I don't know what i want to look like but it's not like my parents and not like a girl and that gets rid of barely anything #i just. don't feel comfortable like this. but what the fuck am I supposed to do about it? #i mean. there's nothing objectivly wrong with how I look. 5'3 and about 145 pounds. green eyes blonde hair. it's fine. #but it's too much like them. and it just doesn't feel like me. I don't want that to be me. #every time i wonder if I'm not trans/agender at all. i get reminded that adding calling myself a boy into pep talks makes me so happy. #along with that. when my hair gets dark in the winter and my hair gets tied back. i look in the mirror and it's a bit better. #but not fully better. i still have my chest and every other bad thing about myself. #and after randomly venting into these tags out of nowhere I've come to the conclusion that this probably isn't normal #snd something else is likely wrong with me. but eh. just add it to the pile I guess.

[novakiart]

spideypool but it's a comedy of errors

#peter parker #wade wilson #spider-man #deadpool #spideypool #peter is going to have a long hard look at himself in the mirror about his spidey sense not triggering #(you know what else is long and hard—) #wade: see that metro bus over there? #peter: yeah.... #wade: i save. you film #peter: save it from wh— #wade pulling explosives out of his pockets: grab your camera babe we're on a time crunch here #who will write this for me #mine

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

No time to play. You are being sent away.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #yu ziyuan #jiang yanli #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #Do you know how hard it was to *not* do a 'Sold To One Direction' spoof comic? It took nearly all my will power. #Mostly because it misaligns a little too far off from the canon events and vibes. #But sit with me for a moment. Consider it: #“BEEP BEEP BEEP. I threw my pillow at my alarm clock. ”Wei Wuxian get your lazy ass downstairs!“ Yu Ziyuan yelled. #I ran to the bathroom and looked in the mirror to see my grey orbs staring back at me. #I put my long straight black hair in a ponytail with a red ribbon. #I went downstairs to see my adoptive mother holding a bottle of vodka and a cigarette. #'Listen up whore! I need money to pay the bills so I sold you. Your new owners will be here any minute so go pack!' #I stormed upstairs. There was no way I was going to let her sell me to a creepy old man! #I decided to run away. Since I'm not like other girls I don't have very many friends. #My gay friend Lan Zhan was mean but he lived like a block away. #As I opened the door I saw Wen Chao blocking the door. 'Ello Love. We're your new owners!' #I rolled my eyes and pushed him. 'Aren't you from that stupid Wen Sect? There's no way in hell I'm going with you!' #Hey again. It's me the OP of this blog taking a pause. I haven't actually read this story before aside from the memes #and I am honestly reeling from how this watpad fic chapter ends. What do you mean one of the one direction boys chloroforms her??? #Chapter 2 is so much worse #Why is there such a strong focus on the *eyes* of every boy!!! #This fanfic is a horror story actually. I came into it trying to make a funny parody but I got in over my head. Dear God. #It's me again. Several minutes have passed and I'm on chapter 4. What the FUCK is going on here? #I feel like I opened up pandora's box hoping for a fun little treat and got the plauge upon me. Dont read this fic.

[brother-emperors]

DO NOT BE AFRAID

this is combining Ovid's Heroides and the Excidium Troie because I can't stop thinking of Hermes telling him not to be afraid. what the fuck!! Ares is wearing the crown that Paris gave him.

I have. thoughts. about Paris. he's almost got this Troilos parallel in my mind, that the event that defines him in detail exists in a lost narrative that we don't have (the Cypria), but everyone else knew. the event that defines Troilos is his death (murdered, butchered by Achilles, the violence of which haunts everything after. Achilles, child killer, you can't escape that!), and the event that defines Paris is the Judgement. what's a lost text but a kind of grave!!

idk I don't think that Paris before the Judgement would recognize himself after bc when you become god touched, it rearranges your guts. you become transformed in the worst way possible! how could you recognize yourself! but I also think that all the Parises after the Judgement would recognize each other because that event is so locked into the trauma of war and the scar it leaves on the land, it's like a scar on the narrative too. it exists like this forever, over and over again, so you exist like that forever too. Troy collects grief and despairs.

Troy as trauma: Reflections on intergenerational transmission and the locus of trauma, Andromache Karanika

and Paris is like. a miserable little god/corpse-puppet or something, like a match for the gods to throw onto gasoline.

The Excidium Troie + Ovid's Heroides:

Excidium Troie, trans. Muhammad Syarif Fadhlurrahman

Ovid, Heroides 16 (trans. Harold Isbell)

a collection of things regarding Paris that made me go 😬 but under a cut bc this is getting. very long.

The Divine Twins in Early Greek Poetry, Corolla Torontonensis

Iliad 24 and the Judgement of Paris, C.J. Mackie

Elegy and Epic and the Recognition of Paris: Ovid "Heroides" 16, Elizabeth Forbis Mazurek

Ennian Influence in "Heroides" 16 and 17, Howard Jacobson

Paris/Alexandros in the "Iliad", I. J. F. de Jong

#long post #paris of troy #komiks tag #like. DISTANTLY. its #the iliad #drawing tag #listen i know it's fun to dunk on paris. but im a chronic killjoy. i know its cringe. mea culpa etc #i would love. I WOULD LOVE. to draw a comic and not have the commentary notes be longer than the comic itself #unfortunately i like to read and i cannot stop talking about things that i read. so this will not be changing. #ngl i keep hearing the last line 'my brother says you are a just judge' as 'and brutus says he is an honorable man' and that's smth for sur #god i wish this was shorter but then i remember it could've been longer bc i started drawing this while watching #some excellent korean horror but then i looked at myself in the mirror and said 'no. get your shit together.' #but that show is what sparked this. the themes. god i love shows. a round of applause for tv shows. #in a different world theres a version of me that didn't exercise self restraint and there's 30 screen caps from a horror show here too #it’s all greek to me

[mikashida]

you've been here before

#Ok I got emotional thinking about how vergil had to fight what was basically a mirror image of himself as nelo angelo w cavaliere #and I know obviously his dmc5 dlc is not canon and would make no sense but I can be sad as a treat. leave me alone #vergil #vergil sparda #vergil dmc #dmc #devil may cry #dmc5 #devil may cry 5 #dmc fanart #devil may cry fanart #illustration #illustrators on tumblr #artists on tumblr #artists of tumblr #art #mikart #first time drawing any of the dmc demons so it's a bit janky. apologies:V #tried to make the horns look like nelo's but kinda failed

[purble-gaymer]

simple thoughts on meta knight and gender euphoria

#kirby #meta knight #king dedede #bandana waddle dee #misc knights #rhyn's art #he’s so gender #i wanted to keep this concise but if i were to go into more depth with it #when i look in the mirror on any average day wearing any old outfit #i see myself. technically #i know that i'm there. i know it's me #but it feels so foreign and unfamiliar #and then other days i have the right sweater or the right combination of clothes #and i see myself. definitely #those moments make me so much happier #because sometimes i catch my reflection really quickly and have to do a double take when i realize i recognize the person staring back #in those moments i feel like everyone who looks at me sees the same person i do #regardless of whether or not they know anything about me #hope this is all comprehensive. i'm not very good at putting this into words

[navarice]

actually afraid for my life and mental state after the show comes out because nicola coughlan herself said that this season is incredibly romantic and sexy but if I'm breaking down walls and running up and down the street simply because polin TOUCHED HANDS???? i fear i may not survive to see the rest of the season dearest readers.

#bridgerton #polin #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #no one understands what i'm going through #no i understand colin has to beg #but hear me out #we have seen them for three seasons #we understand their full story #they actually have a running narrative #and this season will be the culmination of that #GOOD LAWRRDD #and luke and nicola have such a??? #intimate vibe??? #why are they steaming up the room they just LOOKED at each other through a MIRROR #am i crazy? #is this insane of me? #and i dont wanna hear ANYONE COMING FOR THEM i know all of yall found anthony hideous in s1 #bridgerton season 3

[thebrainrotsreal]

EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK!!! I want to be coherent about this season but please picture me foaming at the mouth and running on the walls. S2 being what if Mark's just like his Dad? Insanity. I love this show. Anyways, AU where an Evil!Mark tries to make Our!Mark worse, and Our!Mark tries to make the other better. Something something confronting your idea of the worst version of oneself. Plus, tweaked black and yellow costume because I saw it and immediately went murder hornet lookin' ass and knew I had to draw it. Evil ass Mark. Horrible. I think he should be dragged kicking and screaming into redemption.

#mark and the fact he is fighting for this fucking life to avoid the Many Bad Endings???? im pacing. getting out the red string. #when the season is about who you are and what you could become. when trying to be good is an active choice and a struggle. #RAHHHHHHHHHHH #chewing on the bars of my enclosure...when every mark is evil OUR mark is the outlier. the exception. the OTHER. RAHHHH #dog poetry being mark poetry because how often can you kick a dog before it starts snarling before you raise your hand? #how often can you beat it before it rips into you without mercy? when it bites not at your hand but at your neck? #when does violence for survival and violence for vengeance start and end? when your opponent is down and you keep drawing blood? #circling and pacing and losing my mind over this btw if you care #anyways self vs self gets me going crazy. did you know i loved the end of atsv? because it shows. #i think o!mark would lose his fucking mind at what evil wasp looking mark has done + this mf wasp would LOATHE mark's kindness #they both see the other as the WORST version of themselves and they can't stand it. They can't shatter the mirror but they think they can-- #--change the reflection. #evil mark seeing mark and seeing what he USED to be #mark seeing what he COULD be #CAN U SEE THE VISION?????? #digital art #invincible rotating in my mind #invincible fanart #fanart #mark my beloved #mark grayson fanart #mark grayson #invincible s2 #invincible show #mark like hello this is my secret twin and he is NOTHING like me hahahaha anyways wanna debate about having mORALS and LIFE #mark grayson vs the urge not to accept every responsibility as his own #he's batman coded that way #ok im done yapping #if this happened in the comics in any way shape or form dont tell me JACK SHIT or i will PUMMEL YOU with my SHOES

[fandom-trash-goblin]

IN DEFENSE OF ARIANNE MARTELL

My 1980s and Other Essays, Wayne Koestenbaum // Looking in the Mirror, George Tsui. // A Feast for Crows, Chapter 40, Princess In The Tower

for @alicentcole, my long lost twin

lyanna stark || elia martell || sansa stark || arya stark || alicent hightower || jaehaera targaryen || cersei lannister || myrcella baratheon || joanna lannister || aemma arryn || catelyn stark || sansa stark (2) || margaery tyrell || rhaena targaryen, daughter of aenys i || arianne martell || aerea targaryen

#arianne martell #house martell #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #web weave #webweaving #webweave #webweaves: asoiaf #game of thrones #got #i know i said targaryen girls were up next and i have the pictures ready! i do! but arianne martell man she caught me #and whispered in my ears house martell supremacy how could i deny her #@alicentcole i hope you like it! #listen. i know we love to talk about arianne and birthrights. but. way more talented people have done it before me. so #you get another flavour of arianne!! the way she doesn't see the betrayal coming! and how could she because she's always looking ahead! #(and how could she because she trusted them! she had them secured only to realise they were never hers!) #so the mirror potrait is delicious irony. she couldn't see the back in real life but she can in the mirror. #the past stares at her and never lets her forget!! #and i could have chose a better quote but again; mirror. also star in the qoute-> NYMERIA'S STAR! #that's it commentary end

[thelassoway]

Jason Sudeikis as Ted Lasso Seasons 1-3 » T-shirts

#Ted Lasso #Theodore Lasso #Jason Sudeikis #*mine: gif #tedlassoedit #ugh you idiot with that face #stop staring at me swan #I think I got all the T-shirt moments for Ted. Can you guess the two scenes I forgot and had to go back and add??? #I've also kept these in order of season/episode appearance and it feels kind of telling #not quite sure how I'm feeling about these and how they turned out #these are all from 2160p video files (I've only worked with 2160 one other time) and the timing of these frames looks off #I did my best to fix and readjust them #to the 5 to 8 people that read these tags let me know if I should keep trying/working with 2160p or just stick with 1080p #can we see a major difference in the image quality? I'm using all my same edit settings here #@chainofclovers I saw your tags about the black Joe Arthur shirt I was/have been thinking the same thing #I'm glad I got my o.g. laptop to power up to finish this gifset (definitely a power button issue) #will I ever make that mirror gifset idea??? probably not but I got a couple of mirror moments here #I almost used the other mirror moment from episode 7 but I wanted a different angle/view #this gifset could've been a lot more of Ted in bed wearing T-shirts tbh #¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[willowser]

getting to a point with nerd bakugou where you're not even playing games online together anymore, you're just — chatting, all day 🥺

and you've gotten close enough that you'll send him a mirror selfie and even if your phone is mostly covering your face, he's ZOOMING IN ON THAT BABY and over-analyzing the hell out of it 🥺 trying to figure out what you look like 🥺 and every single photo he sends in return is assessed for a minimum of 20 minutes, because he wants to make sure his reflection isn't showing anything or his body doesn't look weird, that his posture is right 🥺

and the first time you send something back like, "you look nice today 😊🩷", even though he's just showing off his shirt from a movie you both like — he's having to put his phone down on his desk and put his hands over his face because he feels so airbruqoabdka about you !!!!!

#WAAAHHH HE MAKES ME NUTS I SAY #sorry yeah no i'm gonna keep talking about this yeah definitely #just !!!! liking someone and wanting them and you !!! just know them online !!!! 🥺 #pls he's spending FOREVER in the mirror making sure there's nothing on his face and that his hair looks alright and that his glasses — #— are straight #just to hids majority of it with where he's holding his phone LMAOOO #a dork i'm wrangling him i'm chomping him #and kaminari gets all 'who's your friend ?? 😏😏😏' #and bakugou is like 'WE JUST PLAY STUFF TOGETHER SOMETIMES GET OUT OF IT' #and you two actually havent played anything in weeks bc you've both been busy but you're still messaging all day every day LOL #WAAAHHHHH #blast from the past: q #* just to hide #✿ willow writes #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: nerd bakugou

[watercubebee]

Why haven´t you read my letters Hob Gadling?

Used Falling leaves + Unopened letter!!!

#And it´s everywhere #no matter where I look #it is in my house- in my walks to the park or when I´m giving classes #shadowy figures that are not careful to not be seen #and the feeling of knowing exactly #that they are just in the other side of the wall watching #waiting #no matter where I go #they always go with me and I feel the weight of their presence #in the rear view mirror #in the streets #when I go to sleep #And I lie to myself by saying “It is all in your head” #Is it?- Is it really like that? #He is getting closer #my walls would not hold him any longer #dnhouseofhorrors #dreamling #awua

[drawthething]

"Get your waterballoons ready, we're going to war" 👊🍔

I know I said I was gonna draw them muppets for this one but I got bored so I tried something else (with precious lil bean mouths 🥳)

#waited my whole life to draw Louise making the L sign just to realize that I let her use the wrong hand so we get an mirrored L 😐 #I used like 30 layers to get this done you better appreciate it and not say anything about me not knowing how to draw a bra #one last coloured art before I jump to the boblin week bandwagon 🥳🥳🥳 #bobs burgers #bobs burgers fanart #bob's burgers #bob belcher #linda belcher #tina belcher #gene belcher #louise belcher #calvin fischoeder #jimmy pesto jr #zeke bobs burgers #andy and ollie #jimmy pesto sr #teddy bobs burgers #edith bobs burgers #harold bobs burgers #oh look at that I actually tagged everyone

[3-aem]

im bored of animal crossing will be drawing gj again will be mental illness-ing once more.

#women make less than men because we dont know how to ask for more!!!!! #and thats so fucking true my ex manager had to coach me how to ask for more #and then i entered the call and went oh u want to give me less than what i asked for great okay sure love you bye #!!!!!!!!! *looking at myself in the mirror* i hate u #the noise my cat makes when hes frustrated #or really really excited i cant tell which is which anymore #my ex manager is also like lawyer core #ie not a lawyer but loves reading contracts for some uknown reason #and he was pointing out all the stupid phrasing #and i was sitting there like sir to be completely candid i do not even comprehend what the line is saying #let alone what it is suggesting and its implications #apparently when you get those emails like this is confidential dont share it!!! #u can u can like totally share it its not enforceable #the sender even knows its not enforceable they just put it there anyway #what are you gonna do with that info heck if i know!

[kayleerowena]

my big website revamp is now live!! poke around, discover all the new pages i've added, and perhaps leave a note in my guestbook if you feel so inclined!

#kaylee.txt #website #neocities #looking sternly into a mirror and telling myself i will NOT get sick of this and redo the entire thing in 6 months. i WON'T #let me know if you find anything broken as well!! i think i caught most of the big things but there might be some bugs still

[skunkes]

#im STILL trying to figure out how to draw the self #we're reaching critical ''if u see me drawing myself looking nothing like me DONT DM ME!!! i already know'' #on one hand i dontttt personally want to be one of those ppl that draws themself way hotter than they are. #(even though thats already what im doing but ykwim...we're not going full Anime Boy or anything) #id get embarrassed. its an indicator of the low self worth. on the other hand trying to get my likeness depresses me so badly #i took a pic of my face in profile today for hair ref and im going to be avoiding mirrors for another month i think #a doodley