#idk what to tag this i just hate how lonely it is being a lesbian

[gayforminatozaki]

my bi friend got offended at someone asking if she was a lesbian. I guess I forgot how disgusting people find it.

#she complained about it to me knowing fully well im a lesbian #i am so tired #lesbian #lesbophobia #idk what to tag this i just hate how lonely it is being a lesbian #omg i forgot to tag #lesbian loneliness

[donotpercieveme123]

Someone tagged me in a post about the founders as aro and hell it's about time I post my own headcannons! I think they're all some flavour of aro.

1. Mito (my beloved)

Aro (romance repulsed), and a lesbian. Her marriage to Hashirama was arranged (I like the reason behind why as it is in WASS, where whirlpools had to get rid of her because Princess wanted to lead and it upset their democratic political system basically). Girl boss lol! So yh I think she's a bit bitter, especially since she never wanted a husband or children. Tsunade mentions Hashirama but not her, I imagine she was a very emotionally distant figure in her children's life. But I think her and Hashi became friends, they were comfortable enough together at first, but with time she grew to resent him a little for all his empty promises and what happened to her home years after as a result. I think she's also best friends with Touka, and they have something of an affair, a fwb type situation. Everyone's cool with it.

2. Hashirama

Aro (but just indifferent, he'd be okay being with someone who is romantically interested in him as long as they accept that he won't be able to return those feelings). I actually think he's canonically aro. He never mentions his wife and the most important relationships to him are familial and friendships (the VotE scene yh, lovers are often top of the list of ppl who hold dearest and he doesn'tmention it, he never actually mentions his wife lol). Even into his adulthood he never really realises it though, especially since nobody's ever expected jt of him (Mito is literally a romance repulsed lesbian lol, and Madara is emotionally constipated). When he was younger, like early teens, he thought he was going to marry Madara just so he could have his best friend to himself, solidifying bonds and what not. He never even considered it as romantic though.

3. Madara

Demi romantic/ can't really tell the difference between romantic and platonic attraction. Spends his whole life thinking he's in love with Hashirama, playing out this tragic unrequited romeo and juliet story, when really he probably just wants to be prioritised. He'd marry him just to have him to himself lmao. He got so depressed and heartbroken over Hashirama marrying, thinking him and Mito were some love sick couple, completely taken with each other. Which not true at all. He resents her, but accepts it, especially since it's around the time he leaves the village. The whole time Mito is like, bitch I know ur eyeing up my husband, I DON'T WANT HIM, have him please, he's annoying. They'd actually really get along if they talked through it lol.

4. Tobirama

Yh just obviously he's aro (also romance repulsed, but in a more I literally don't care kind of way, get that shit away from me). He never marries, never has children, never wants to. He's devoted to his brother and the village and that's okay with him. He's secretly a little lonely though, I don't think the man had any friends. Maybe he knew Izuna well enough to think that if things had happened differently they might have been friends. They would have literally been platonic soulmates!

5. Izuna

I've already posted about this but yh he is REPULSED by romance, nothing turns him off or weirds him out faster. Having said that he is big on relationship anarchy. He likes to blur the lines with friends in terms of how he physically expresses his affection. Man has no boundaries lol. He also really wants a qpr (either completely platonic or fwb, and depending on if I characterise Tobirama as ace or not, he fills both of those). They're fucking intense lol. Like ur half of my soul and I hate and love u for that, I want to carve my mark into you, and rip our souls out and tie them together so we'll find each other in the next life. Fucking insane😂 They're both yandares about it though, they never really acknowledge it, and if anyone else points it out they'll gaslight the shit out of them. Like idk what ur talking about, all friends are like this. Unhinged.

#uchiha izuna #senju tobirama #uchiha madara #senju hashirama #mito uzumaki #izutobi #tobiizu #tobiizu but platonic #tobiizu is yandare4yandare #hashimada #mito x touka #touka senju #naruto founders #aro headcanons

[werenotacoupleyesyouare]

IT HAPPENED AGAIN I FINISHED ROYAL ASSASSIN BEFORE EVEN MAKING A POST

-I will get into chronological order in a second but first, a rant: FITZ WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK HOW DO YOU THINK THAT WAS A GOOD IDEA OH MY GOD FITZ WHAT IN THE EVERLOVING-

-okay more on that later

- Glad to see no one died between book one and two, everyone is back and sexier than before of course except for Regal who was already the sexiest bitch in Buck keep

- just kidding y’all know that is Burrich

- I love how Robin Hobb decided we had to know that Burrich Fucks, I appreciate that of her

-Fitz is, as always, a complete dumbass. I’m starting to think that this is not just a temporary situation anymore

-Kettricken is really incredible, I may need to jump on the Kettricken simp train (although I’m more of a Patience lady myself I gotta say)

- This isn’t really an update but I keep thinking abiut how Galend used to say “you shall not have any contact with the opposite sex” like he wasn’t the only straight person in BuckKeep (well the only cishet at least except maybe for Shrewd)

Allow me to elaborate: Fitz and Molly? Bi. Hands? Gay. Burrich? Bi and not over his breakup with Chivalry. Patience? Bi and dating Lacey (lesbian). Verity and Kettricken are both trans, there is no way you can convince me otherwise. August is gay and repressed, which is different from Regal who is gay and homophobic. The fool is gender queer. Chivalry was pan. Chade is gay. The two girl classmates of Fitz one who became leader of the skilled kidz and the other who dropped out are dating, they broke up bc Galend’s psychological abuse had messed them up terribly but now they’re back together. (Update now I know more names, selene and justin both raging homos, truly evil stupid wlw/mlm solidariety). Will is gay too.

- OH I DESPERATELY WANT TO SEE BURRICH AND THE FOOL INTERACT I THINK THEY’D GET GET ALONG;; Burrich is friends with most of the young folk in Buckkeep, he’s a mentor to all of them and idk how old the fool is but I know they didn’t have that and they’re lonely as shit. They’re both done with every single person in BuckKeep and they both have at least one braincell, which is apparently extremely rare around here

-I love Fitz’s constant theme of “no one in BuckKeep knew. I was so furtive and secretive. No one could ever guess what I was doing” when he’s visiting either Night Eyes or Molly because I know all the folk in BuckKeep are like “ah shit there he goes again going to see that fucking wolf”

- MOLLY AND FITZ ARE SERIOUSLY SO DRAMATIC HDHENDJDJHFHDHC they gave me my fav scene ever though, where Molly and Fitz are doing their Dramatic Breakup Speech outside of Burrich’s room, while the Fool and Burrich are inside listening w a glass on the door like “shit- shit he’s coming in get away get away- Hello Fitz!”

- drunk fool was chaotic energy at its finest

- Patience and Kettricken keep being the absolute best I swear if Verity doesn’t come back I am marrying his wife myself

- on that note VERITY SIR I THOUGHT AT LEAST YOU HAD THE BRAINCELL,,, OH YES I’LL GO ALONE ON A MYTHICAL QUEST TO LOOK FOR FAIRIES SURELY MY EVIL BROTHER WON’T TRY ANYTHING WHILE I’M GONE ❤️

- ok everyone by now knows that I’m both a huge patience and burrich simp, but I will not believe for a second that they were in love, sorry Patience is in a happy relationship w Lacey and Burrich was always in love with Chivalry, I will not accept any other version of the story ❤️

- and now onto the sad part

- OKAY look I will tolerate any shit a character does, literally they could kill Fitz and I wouldn’t bat an eye but when Regal had the AUDACITY to order his men to hurt the Fool,,,, that was the irredeemable point of no return for me, Fuck regal all my homies hate regal

- I am growing extremely fond of the fool they’re the sweetest character so far I am honestly in love, also they’re smart thank god we needed someone with braincells near Fitz because that boy is a complete dumbass

- also the “Who did this to you.” scene after the fool got beaten up the first time,,,, I sense multishipping times nearing on the horizon

- when I tell you I cried my eyes out during Shrewd’s death,,,,,,,, not bc I care about the guy, pretty annoying as he was, but seeing the fool crying is not something I will ever recover from thanks

- everyone keeps saying that night eyes has the braincell out of him and Fitz but honestly!! That’s not true!! The wolf is a dumbass as well, it’s just that anyone put against Fitz would seem like a genius!!

- Fitz not realizing that Molly’s “the one I care most about” and Burrich’s “female friend who needs a hand” might,,, be related,,,,,,,,, lol

- idk if it’s actually like that but imagine how devastating it would be for Fitz to have his girlfriend stolen by his fucking DAD

or well father figure but still

- the way Fitz talks about Molly tho 💕💕

- The foreshadowing of Kettricken’s child actually being still born,,,,,,,,,,, I pretend I do not see

- The “let him go night eyes, he’s not yours” scene gave me chills tbh

- I’m manifesting some flashbacks of younger Chivalry, Verity, Patience and Burrich,,, I wanna see the dynamics,,,, don’t think I won’t write it myself if there aren’t any

- so yeah I have already started book three because I have no self control, every time Fitz skills out to Molly he gets a different picture of Burrich doing house work, if Fitz keeps this up he’ll be able to bless us all with the Hot Burrich Calendar we all deserve

Ending notes! I thought I would skip the liveship traders trilogy but everyone told me that it’s not a good idea so I’ll read everything in order :)

I am completely obsessed with these books please send help

Tagging some beautiful people @violetiris-ak @garnetrena @wolfofmars

#the farseer trilogy #farseer trilogy #greta reads #realm of the elderlings #rotE #fitzchivalry farseer #the royal assassin #fitz farseer

[thoradvice]

hi !!! i'm a 16 y/o aroace girl and i love my identity but sometimes it feels so lonely. my absolute best friend in the whole world has a girlfriend now and some part of me is so scared she'll forget me and that we won't be able to go to college together like we planned bc what if she and her girlfriend want to move in together i don't want to be a burden. she's my absolute favourite person and i love her so much i hate feeling insecure and lonely i just feel so detached n sad idk what to do

hello !! i’m not aroace and honestly i don’t know a whole lot about that identity, so i just researched some stuff to make sure i don’t say anything wrong, so please bare with me a lil bit and i’m very sorry if i do say something wrong.

i think you need to speak to your best friend. explain everything to her that you’ve told me here, and how you’re feeling. i’m sure she’ll be able to reassure you that this isn’t true, and that she’ll always love you. i’m a big believer in platonic love being just as important as romantic love. even if someone is dating someone, you still need friends too ! i’m sure your friend still values and loves you as much as she did before she started dating her girlfriend. you’re not a burden, to her or anyone else. i think talking to her is the best idea here, and will put your mind at rest.

i completely get feelings wrong and “othered” for your sexuality - i’m a lesbian and i’ve had a lot of internalised homophobia. it’s such an awful feeling, and i’m sorry you’re dealing with this. something that really helped me beyond belief was making friends with other lesbians. if you can, maybe look into some aroace tumblr blogs / instagram accounts ! or follow people who post in those tags. i know you said you’re happy with your identity - which is wonderful - but this could help with feeling so alone because of it. i know it really helped me. something else is finding famous people who identify the same way as you. i don’t know any that are aroace, but my favourite musical artist pretty much ever describes himself as being on the aro spectrum ! he’s called robin skinner / cavetown, and his music is wonderful :’) (i’m listening to him as i write this!). here’s a youtube video where he talks abt aromanticism ! 

i promise you that your friend still cares for you just as must, and i think that speaking to her will help you a lot. take care <3

#ask #anon #thor gives advice #sexuality #friendships #aroace

[thethirdwheel404]

Med Rewatch Series (#10)

S3 E10: Down By Law.

Episode Description: Dr. Manning sustains an injury while helping a drive-by victim and Dr. Rhodes finds himself in uncomfortable waters.

Connor being in ‘uncomfortable waters’? I can hear Ava bullying him already.

(also i wrote a little thing abt maggie giving ava a red bull so enjoy that little bit of content)

Let’s get into it.

-barry just yeeted natalie against a car holy shit that’s fucking hilarious

-will needs to chill the fuck out

-YESSSSS

-THIS WHERE CONNOR BRINGS THE WOMAN HE WENT OUT WITH UP FOR MEDICAL TREATMENT. AND THEN AVA HARASSES HIM FOR IT.

-this is one of the most iconic ava moments. (it’s first thing that pops up under the tumblr tag)

-ava overhearing connor not knowing his date’s last name. and ava walking over, already getting ready to make fun of him. barely concealing her smile

-the confidence with which she set down the file. she was too prepared and too excited

-this could just turn into a list of ava quotes

-”It must be hard, remembering all their names.”

“You know I read Derek Jeter used to send his conquests home with a gift basket. But a full cardio work up is... It’s much classier.”

-ava bekker secret baseball fan?

-Connor: “Jeter? You a baseball fan?”

Ava: “Oh, no. It’s much too boring. But I love gossip.”

-interesting. very, interesting... is it weird to anyone else to think about ava liking gossip?

-like the idea is fun and all but i hate the idea of ava being suuuper obsessed with gossip. it makes her seem way too shallow in my book. that being said, one of my hcs about women gossiping about all the shit men do to ava bc they know she’ll call them on it now has a lot more precedence

-i know she explicitly says that baseball is boring but i can’t get the idea of ava being a secret baseball fan out of my head. its just so novel

-HER SHIT EATING GRIN

- Connor: “Well, we will get you in and out of here as quickly as possible.”

Ava: “That’s what Dr. Rhodes is renowned for around here. Quick in and outs.”

Connor: *turns to her condescendingly*

Ava: *two finger salute* “I’m Dr. Bekker, by the way.”

-the lesbian icon jumped out

-also the fact that in the previous episode Ava’s mentor did the exact same salute. idk what it means but it’s not that important

-ava trying to hide her smile when asking the woman if she wanted them to contact her husband

-ava overhearing again when latham tells connor the woman he was with was doing cocaine

-ava smirking when connor says that he thinks the heart attack was from his sex and not the cocaine

-connor thinking he’s so good at sex he’s going to give this woman a heart attack

-he really drives All the ladies wild in EveryWay (sex, suicide. he’s the whole package)

-latham asking connor point blank “did you partake in the cocaine?”

-the ct team gives connor so. much. shit. it’s so funny

-also. ava just chillin at her desk looking at scans? that’s the kind of content i want to see. just her just being there. doing her own thing. that’s what i want

-THE GUY WITH A TEENAGE WIFE IS A REVEREND HOLY SHIT

-counting down the minutes til natalie drops dead (passes out but yk a girl can dream lol)

-sarah. back at it again with her rayon jacket and button up and backpack. the coffee cup only adds to the aesthetic

-connor being surprised that latham isn’t gonna let him do surgery on the women he fucked (twice, he might add)

- whatever you do, don’t think of a brown bear. are you thinking about it?

-maggie dealing red bull to people who need it. that’s a very soft idea

- ex:

Dr. Bekker is sitting at the desk in the ED. Well, sleeping, more like it. Her head is resting on her fist, her elbow precariously close to slipping off the the chair armrest, and her eyes open by just a hair.

“Dr. Bekker.”

Ava jolts awake.

“Maggie,” Ava says, strong accent cutting through, acknowledging the person standing over her. Hastily, she adjusts her jacket and scrubs, smoothing them back into place.

“I don’t think I’ve ever seen you this tired.”

Ava shrugs, seamlessly slipping back into easy confidence.

“Rough couple of cases. Nothing I can’t handle.”

“Uh huh,” Maggie says, unbelieving.

She sets a can of Red Bull on the desk with a knowing look.

“You need this more than anybody.”

Ava scoffs. “Those things? They are murder on your heart, come on.”

Maggie hums and walks away. Ava watches her leave, and when she’s out of sight, Ava darts forward, grabs the energy drink, immediately cracking it open and downing half of it.

- anyway.

- @punksarahreese that’s on you for making me believe ava loves energy drinks

- let’s continue

- sarah looking at charles telling her not to do something: I am not going to do a thing you said

- go off babe. it was the wrong decision but go off

- all the nurses watching this guy call nat a bitch:  👀 👀 👀 👀

- will being like: god that guy called you a bitch i fucking hate him

- and natalie being like: he is also refusing to let us treat the 14 yr olds cancer but you obviously have priorities

- sarah is so logical. she’s good at talking to people. can you FUCKING IMAGINE IF SHE HAD BETTER GUIDANCE (oh and less trauma)

- this is also the one with that hilarious screen cap of sarah holding a knife

- the way she is so calm about handing this patient a knife gives me anxiety

- THIS SCENE IS SO HARD TO WATCH IT SCARES ME SO MUCH

- sarah just in alone in a room with a man who keeps having visions of stabbing his wife. and her just handing him a fucking knife oh my god i have too much anxiety for this

- rewatching the series and getting completely confused bc norma is 5′7″ but she looks so short next to colin and the guy who plays latham

- AND RACHEL IS ALSO 5′ 7″ BUT THEY BOTH LOOK SO SHORT - WHY EVERYONE ON THIS SHOW SO TALL

- anyway. ignore that that’s not important

- I... the parallels btwn sarah offering this guy the ability to slit her throat (for therapy) and ava cutting her throat... i don’t know what to do with this information

- idk but sarah holding the knife got me feelin some type of way

- the way connor looks at ava with such contempt bc she... does her job (and his but yk) especially during the hug wtf dude honestly just stop looking at her

- this is also the episode where ava pawns off the patient’s hug onto connor. while yeah, it could ava just being annoying to connor by forcing him to hug his one night stand’s husband, but she did give connor due credit. (and something to be said about her being confused and a tad uncomfortable when the patient hugs her, which is why she pawns it off to rhodes)

- she also doesn’t hug the guy back, which is kind of funny, she never moves her arms and just shrugs out of it

- and like after the hug she takes a few steps away from the guy, really not wanting any more physical contact or attention

- there’s something interesting in ava’s expression when connor gets hugged by the guy, can’t quite explain it. i’m gonna go with it’s her trying to keep a straight face while connor hugs a man he just helped a woman cheat on, but that’s not all of it so

- or. okay, I think i got it. i think that that little expression when connor gets hugged is her rolling her eyes at him getting credit when ava did most of the heavy lifting. yes. final answer. i’m satisfied

- and her looking away from them is her stopping herself from laughing, bc connor is obviously not enjoying this

- and he’s so sad and angsty he can’t even play along with the jokes

- and ava smiling at him with pity as she walks in to talk to the patient, bc that’s really what it is. she feels bad for him bc connor is so obviously lonely

- and connor’s annoyed bc ‘dammit she does have a right to pity me i suck rn’

- med pushing the women are tough agenda LITERALLY SHUT THE FUCK UP

- you hate your women characters so much just fucking shut your mouth

- and will being like ‘ i have a lot to learn about women not being objects’

- and nat saying ‘you are way further along than most’ like no, he’s not. the bar is on the ground and he still can’t jump it

- i’m pretty sure this show doesn’t pass the bechdel test. holy fucking shit it doesn’t. you’ve gotta be kidding me. (at least this episode doesn’t)

I can’t believe this episode didn’t pass the bechdel test. The only convo btwn two women were like maggie and sharon and they talk about barry and oh my god this is infuriating god med the bar is so low. And I’m pretty sure most episodes don’t pass the test anyway. Will is literally the representation of med. He gets lots of credit for doing bare minimum things like giving women rights.

Anyway.

This was a good episode. We dissected a lot of unspoken Ava things, which is very good. Ava had a lot of moments where she was there, but didn’t say anything, and when your characters can do that, that’s when you know your characterization is very good.

The moments where Ava isn’t really doing anything to forward the plot of the episode but she’s still just there, doing her own thing, are hands down my favorite. Her sitting at the desk looking at a scan while connor tells latham he didn’t do cocaine could possibly my favorite ava moment in the series, just bc it shows how much of her own character should could’ve been.

I drew an interesting parallel btwn sarah offering the guy to slit her throat and ava’s death. i have nothing for that but go wild

This episode also showed us Ava pitying Connor, another new aspect. she gives him shit but she also pities him. very good ep for little ava moments

as always, thanks for sticking through it

-

read the rest here:

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6 / Part 7 / Part 8 / Part 9 / Part 11 / Part 12 / Extra

#chicago med #ava bekker #med rewatch series #down by law #mine

[nihilismdan]

creator tag meme 2019

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 favorite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2019. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

tagged by @feeisamarshmallow (on my b99 account @lesbianperaltas ty!!!!)

this year has been really hard. and i didn’t write as much as i would have liked. all of 2018 and the first four months of 2019 i was finishing my long, long fic ‘finding light in the dark places’. and then i hit a creative block which has been an on going thing. but there are fics that i have absolutely loved writing so here’s a list. 

1. finding light in the dark places (dnp)

this fic is truly my entire heart and soul and probably one of the only (few) things that i am proud of and the responses i’ve gotten from this story overwhelm me a little bit. i was so scared the entire year of 2018 writing this bc i was afraid that people wouldn’t like it, but mainly i was afraid of sharing a big part of myself in this fic because of what had happened to me. i was quite literally putting my heart on the line, and putting the people i love into these characters who went through it with me during a horrific year of healing. i didn’t expect this fic to be as long as it is but regardless i’m still really proud of it. it’s my baby. 

2. and before you leave (remember i was with you) (b99)

this is my first time writing for a fandom that wasn’t dnp (in a really long time! i used to write for television but then i stopped writing fanfic for a couple years) and oh my god. was it a blast to be able to write for something that wasn’t dnp related bc i love these characters so much man. it’s been a really long time since i’ve been able to really relate to a character in a tv show but jake has daddy issues and i got mommy issues so being able to vent these feelings about maybe turning out like your parents--or even the thought of having children someday and not wanting to fuck it up was so great. i’ve written two other fics for this fandom that i really like but this is the one that i feel the most proud of considering it was my first time writing for this fic and people really gave it a lot of love which surprised me lol. 

3. you’ll find me waiting here for you (dnp)

i’ve always wanted to write an apocalypse fic so being able to write this fic for mandy’s birthday was so great bc it got me to dive into a genre i’ve always wanted to write but was too afraid to write but idk why bc it was some of the most fun writing i’ve ever had. i really love the idea of dnp in this different kind of setting and trying to figure out how they would react to it. there’s a letter scene in here that i really love mainly bc i, too, often wonder of who will be here after us and hoping that they know that there were people that existed on this planet that wanted to get to know them, and hoping that they don’t feel alone. 

4. keep a safe place for me (dnp)

once upon a time i studied abroad in england with a flimsy sexuality that was finally able to be unleashed bc no one i knew was with me in england and i could be a chaotic lesbian. (i mean, it’s a little bit more sadder than that bc at the time i didnt really understand my sexuality or the fact that i was a lesbian but ya know) this fic was kind of a way for me to write about dating the same sex and how sometimes it can be lonely and complicated and sometimes you’ll fall for someone who isn’t ready and that being okay. in this case, phil found his person and that was just really nice to write about because it’s nice to know the people that you care for still are in love. so i wrote this a little for me and a little for phil too.

5. when you find you (come back to me) (dnp)

i feel like i need to start this out by saying i haven’t given up on this fic!!!! writers block just sucks and feeling detached from phandom sucks but this fic means so much to me and i already know how many chapters it’s gonna be and how i’m gonna end it and i have so many notes for this fic just give me some time ok. i really love this fic a lot because i’m able to do another genre that i’ve always wanted to write for which is time travel. and i get to do something ive always wanted to do in fics, have someone from the present go back to the past and understand why situations happen and learn from them in the present instead of trying to fix it in the past (bc we all know how that goes). i really love this fic so much because the whole reason why i’ve been writing it was so dan could learn to love himself—even the part that nobody claps for. even the parts that he hates. because once upon a time he was just a small boy he wanted someone to listen and that’s why i’m writing it. i said to my friends that this fic is a love story but a love story to his younger self and forgiveness. if you’ve been reading this fic then thank you and i’m sorry i suck but i haven’t given up on it bc i love it way too much lol.

i tag: @obsessivelymoody @det395 @capriciouscrab @tobieallison @intoapuddle @kay-okays (and whoever else wants to do it!)

#personal #long post

[briannafrostgirl]

1-25 cause i'm an asshole girlfriend XOX

Love you baby ❤️

1. what is your gender? Can I say Amazon?

2. what are your pronouns? she/her/hers

3. what is your gender presentation like? Hmm... IDK. I think I’m more of a femme, but my dress style is a little butch

4. what is your Gender Euphoria Outfit? Cute crop top and short shorts

5. what makes you feel validated? Being complimented on my hair, clothes, makeup, ect. Tbh, it doesn’t happen nearly enough and it really helps.

6. top five favorite parts of your body (n why you love them)? Hmm... my legs - I’ve always kind of liked the shape of them. My hair - it’s a mess a lot of the time, but it’s a beautiful mess. My lips - they’re probably my most feminine feature and I’m very fond of them. My eyes - don’t know why, just like em. Can I say my breasts? They’re really cute, lol

7. favorite trans meme/bit of trans humor? A few good options I can’t quite remember, but probably this:  https://samael.tumblr.com/post/146212141815/khatoblepas-there-they-are-the-two-genders

8. how did you pick your name? To be honest, i got it from a Lonely Hearts Club doll and then it became the name of my first Wizard101 character. Yes, I was that girl growing up. Then it was an account name/gamer tag. By the time it was time to pick a name, I kind of had always known what it should be.

9. what does your name mean? It’s celtic (like me lol) and it means strong. 

10. do you have any trans pride merch? A trans flag sports bra, a trans flag hat, and a trans flag shirt that I designed myself. I love them all very much

11. recent happy trans moment? This is pretty depressing, but I’m struggling to remember something very recent. I can remember a time a while ago where I was taking pictures of myself naked and I felt very feminine, so maybe that

12. favorite trans headcanon? Black Widow

13. favorite canon trans character? (alt: 2nd favorite trans headcanon?) Going with a 2nd headcannon because I keep not watching the few shows with good trans rep in favor of watching the same cis-centric shows and movies again and again, because I hate starting new shows.

I’ve been headcannoning Ryder from Mass Effect Andromeda as a trans woman for a while now, but lately I said fuck it and now Shepard’s trans too. Whoops ;)

14. favorite trans blog(s)/trans blogger(s)? Oh no! There’s so many!! Aaagh! I follow a lot of really amazing trans bloggers, so no shade at all to anyone not on this list. You’re all amazing and I value you all. 

Now, onto the list. I mean, obviously @sagaofsarahrose  ❤️ She’s incredible and if you’re not following her, you should be. @skylightsofmylife @latex-tiddettes @thefiresontheheight @casey-is-a-jazzpunk and @themaddahlia are all super cool folx who do lots of funny/inspiring/really fucking neat stuff. And like, a million other cool trans people I follow here and on Instagram (less than subtle instagram plug)

15. favorite trans celebrity? I have a soft spot for Teddy Geiger, cause a) my girlfriend loves her and b) I feel like I don’t see enough trans wlw rep in the little mainstream rep we do have, so it warms my heart to see her and her fiance so happy together. Also I just found out she co-wrote one of my favorite One Direction songs, so...

16. song that gives you Big Trans Feels? Can’t Trust the News and Lived a Life by Enter The Haggis 

17. something you wish you could tell your younger self? That being a girl is something you can just do. You don’t have to keep living like this just cause no one ever told you there’s another way. Like hell, that fucked me up so bad growing up. Cause I wanted to be a girl, but I didn’t think there was any way I could. Fuck...

18. what would your Ideal Fashion Look be? Somewhere between lesbian Irish farmhand and lesbian cowgirl. Lesbian

19. (how) does your gender relate to your sexuality? Hmm... kind of a hard one to answer TBH. I think I knew (subconsciously) that I was a lesbian before I knew that I was a woman. But, because at the time I thought I was a straight man, I didn’t feel great about how much I was interested in lesbians. Even now, as a lesbian myself, I still grapple with some guilt and shame when seeking out wlw content (something terfs do not help with in the slightest)

So I guess, I would say they’re intertwined. I don’t know what it would be like to have one without the other and I’m glad I don’t have to (no disrespect to cis lesbians or straight trans people, y’all are valid as fuck. I just personally am very happy with how my gender and sexuality intersect) 

20. do you have a comfort item? I have an emotional support mermaid. Does that count? Her name is Helena

21. what makes you feel euphoric? When my girlfriend says I’m beautiful ❤️/ any time I’m out w/ my mom or sister and some one says “you ladies”

22. what genre of media would you love to see more trans characters in? Superhero movies, video games, Disney princess movies, and Star Trek. Specifically as protagonists and love interests in all of those. Basically just all the things I enjoy (which are all coincidentally absurdly slow with any kind of LGBTQ rep)

23. claim something as trans culture. Someone else has probably done this, but D&D. D&D was one of my favorite things to do growing up, but I’ve only allowed myself to come back to it as a woman and sorta... reclaim it, I guess. So yeah, D&D is now a trans thing (tm) and everyone else has to ask our permission to play (but like, just don’t be a transphobic, queerphobic, homophbic, racist, ableist, sexist, exclusionist dick and we’ll probably let you in)

24. give some love to your trans friends/mutuals (alt: give some love to the trans community in general) Hmm.. I’m not entirely sure what this one means. But if you’re trans (offer not valid for transmeds cause why you gate-keeping? The cis (tm) don’t need our help babe) I love you  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

25. what's your favorite part of being trans? Getting to be me

[vincent-mango]

Tag Game

Tagged by @fatal-blow

1. What songs have inspired your WIP?

aaaaaa many! Mainly I listen to /alot/ of 80′s music though so thats the main inspiration for my art

2. What trope(s) are you dying to use, but just haven’t found a place for it?  (Alternatively, what’s your favourite trope)

- I just....... I love enemies to reluctant allies to friends to crush to lovers.... give me slowburn.

-I also am a big big fan of unrequited love/they havnt realised they are in love yet. in case u cant tell i love love :’ )

3. If your OCs were animals, what would they be?

HMMM Ill use my main 3 atm Simmard, Ana Sophia, and Soleil

Simmard= a seal or maybe a polar bear, something that swims alot but has a strong connection to land

Ana Sophia= Labrador dog!

Soleil= a horse :0

4. Greatest writing accomplishment?

I passed a college level exam with an 87% when my highschool AP class was practicing for their exam ( highest grade in class, though i ended up not taking the exam as u had to pay for it)

I have also written one(1) fanfiction in my entire life. Other writing stuff uhhhhhh I write dnd campaigns, specifically horror games and I had a group of about 6 people so scared and worked up over a scene they attempted to barricade my front door with my couch.

5. Favourite settings to describe?

any sort of summer setting i suppose

6. Fight scenes: do you love ‘em or hate ‘em?  Why?

Love em! I get so amped up seeing them/reading about them! I have not tried to write any before so idk how ill feel i f i do :P

7. What always shows up in your WIPs without fail?

lesbians

8. What are your greatest strengths in your writing?

Im a really good worldbuilder, I love creating new societies, cultures, religions etc

9. Five facts about your favourite OC that you’ve never mentioned before?

Simmard 1. He comes from a quite wealthy and large family but you wouldnt know it based on how he lives 2.  because ive used him in so many dnd gamse/other projects they have all become canon through reincarnation each version of him is still him 3. he has a dog! named duchess, she is a great dane 4. his flirty nature is over compensation for how lonely he is, he has lived and will live a very long life due to being an elf and he has had many a friend and lover die infront of him 5. he wants kids!

10. Opinion on romantic subplots in fiction?

absolutely, as long as they are thought out and well written dont give me that bruce banner x natasha romanov bs. give me chemistry! give me passion! give me good romance!

11. If your main character was a pokemon, what would their type be?

water fighting

im gross and am not gonna add more questions or tag people TvT

#Simmard #tag game #long post #text

[04loved]

To A Happy 2018

This isn’t a follow forever or mutual list, I just wanted to give a little personal shoutout to some of you who make tumblr a place i want to keep coming back to.

There are many more wonderful people I didn’t mention, but I hope in the coming year to step out of my comfort zone a little and try to talk to you all more, even if it is only over anon.  To everyone who has sent me an encouraging message or anon in recent days, I was truly touched and I thank you so much.  To all of my followers, i love you and you’re doing great and i hope you have a soft 2018 filled with love and good things!!

@bbhsavocado i feel like i learned so much about u pricilla that night of the bbh in panties talk aldkjsgljk how validating to see my kinks shared n sub bbh appreciated like that, but it was also awful n i hated it. i love all ur bisexual bbh-loving content n ur friendship with some mutuals is so adorable i hope u all find great gfs this year <3 i have no idea y i took so long to follow u bc ur everything i want in a blog

@bbhsthighs nicole, u want to be a person who gives happiness like the boy who inspired ur url, and u do, u really really do. ur hilarious and adorable in ur tags and ur interactions with ur other friends on here. i can tell how much you love them and how much they love you back <3 maybe some ppl first liked u for ur humor and light, but love means accepting u when ur hurting and when u dont feel like u can shine anymore. pls dont be afraid to share that side of you with those who deserve ur trust, bc thats what a true friendship is. pls treat urself with the same kindness u give to everyone else. asking for help isnt being selfish and it isnt letting anyone down. u do not have to shine for everyone else while being blind urself. following u has been a wild ride from the day i first found ur blog and ive enjoyed every day since. this year i hope the world becomes a bright and beautiful place for you.

@bobohu elaine, im not sure who you want following you since u changed ur blog...i think u left while i was taking a break from tumblr, but i found you again from a post about the kinds of love you feel for exo, i knew there was only one person who writes like that, so beautifully and so full of love. you were one of the first exo blogs i followed and you have always been someone who radiates good vibes and sunshine. i want u to know i appreciate every one of ur positivity posts, and even in your selfies, your smile, you look exactly how i would expect from the kind of cute content you have. i want to genuinely thank you for being a fan for so long and doing what u can to make others happy. i love seeing your posts and im very happy i found you again

@boxianb ive been following u for so long and like idk how u do it but u reblog every single baekhyun post i have on my blog without fail. always. u r just all baekhyun all the time and u know what i admire that i respect that so much that is dedication and i see u and appreciate that, its exactly what i want and need in my life, thank you !!

@byunchen mel, ive seen your posts lately and how you are lonely and missing friends on here, and ive been following you for like...two years now..and we don’t really talk, im shy and you say ur shy and bad at talking.... but here’s me saying that i see you and i appreciate the time you spend on here blogging and talking. im not really active enough anymore to promise to interact a lot but this year i will try to talk more and i wish you many adorable anons and people to call friends !! thank u for coming this far and being an important part of my dash

@exolgbt around when i first followed u i was questioning a lot if i was actually a lesbian and somehow ur blog just like...comforted me ? made me feel good ? helped me try to understand myself ? seeing someone so proudly a lesbian and also so in love with exo... ive come to terms with being bisexual but i admire you and really love your content and all the exo mlm appreciation !! ur doing good work <3

@imagine-baekhyun i dont know who is running this account but ur literally ruining my life thanks i hate it !!!!!!

@kjonginswife i have to admit ive wanted to talk to u for a while alkjgslkjg its nice to see someone my own age on here, i did see ur universe reaction and i think youre adorable haha i dont follow a lot of non-bbh stans and honestly i think i followed you at first by mistake but i have never regretted it !! idk how to put it into eloquent words but basically u give me such good friendly vibes and i love seeing your posts and your tags and your personality and just know someone on here really appreciates you and would miss you if u left

@kkaeb-my-song one of the holy first baekhyun blogs i followed <3 from the beginning you struck me as a very sweet person so cutely in love with baekhyun and that hasn’t changed, ive only come to appreciate you even more. you’re a constant on here and being in this fandom wouldn’t be the same without you !!

@mochibaeks I LOVE YOU i know youre not as active lately jelly but I LOVE YOU youre like the sweetest cutest squishiest most adorable person ive seen on this site i just...love...everything you say and make!! im p sure i first followed u bc u did like the bias audio challenge a while ago...u sounded so friendly and adorable, ur voice is very fitting for you haha you are so warm i hope you stick around for a long time because i love you soooo much

@rosybbh ive been following u sophia for a while and we’re mutuals but we havent talked a lot and im still honestly intimidated by you lol idk how u feel about this view but i see you as a very strong person, just the way u talk seems confident in some way to me, whether u feel like that or not. i dont really have the right words, but i admire that. i LOVE everything u say about bbh...all ur posts for bbh n about u n bbh...damn u always got me daydreaming about him too :( except ok there was this one pic of chanyeol and u said smth like ‘imagine him manspreading’ and id like u to know that that actually ruined my life and i havent forgotten it so thanks. for u especially i hope u have a very bright and healing year

@r-velvets vivian i know u have been gone recently but still lurk, and u have one of my fave blogs content wise and gifs and personality. u r still like THAT way too cool mutual i get so excited to see...especially bc you’re also so kind and during that really hard night after the news of Jonghyun, idk how or why but just those few words u said made me feel a lot better. i miss you online but i hope youre doing well in your real life and finding happiness

@sefuns i dont have a lot to say bc im really shy but u were the FIRST exo blog i ever followed and you have given nothing but great content since i found you two years ago, and when u followed me more recently i could not believe the notification aglksjgljk i have no idea how u found me but knowing we’re mutuals made me very happy and gave me a little blush and i just wanted to let u know that

@thundaelights fey, i dont think this will mean much to you coming from a stranger, but after following you for two years, i feel like i know you some, and i want to say that i hope this year you see many beautiful sights, and your heart feels light, and you are surrounded by things that give happiness. i hope something happens soon that makes the whole world look different, look brighter. its funny how life can change so fast and without warning. i wish you not just strength but also a safe place to fall apart and hope to put yourself back together. may you find countless reasons to smile

@wangeun we talked a lot for a while and then i just kind of disappeared i think as i often do rip but i still love following you and i just want to say real quick that i see you and i notice you and i would miss you if you left and i hope youre finding a lot of success in your life

to new mutuals @cuddlyjd @okaybaekhyun @baekhyuns i still get so shy and happy when anyone follows me back but thank you !! you are all three cute and adorable and funny n kenzie i hadnt followed a great jongdae stan in a while since the old dae-biased blogs i followed became inactive thank u for loving jongdae so well alkgjs

@sebyun @winterbyuns @etherealbbh @progamerbyun @dearbyun @baeksee @byunvoyage @solobaek @queenbyun @baekhyy @baehkhun @ethereal-baek i love all of u bbh stans giving baekhyun the love and adoration he deserves n giving me the positive baekhyun content my heart needs. esp solobaek (kiki, right?) u have the cutest most wonderful tags i love reading them all and seeing so many heart emojis

im sorry i dont have the most to say but im thinking of you all and wishing you the best!!!!

#sry if u dont even know me lol i mostly lurk rather than actually talk #happy new year!!!! #p

[fourteenacross]

2016 in writing

2016 in fic! This looks SO empty compared to past years, even if it's roughly the same amount of words! Hamilton: i saw the whole story unwind (132,888) Opening Break (3,531) Remote Capture (3,483) Not Your Average Bear! (1,835) Ghost Included (we hope) (2,941) but i won't go far away (12,577) the constellations aligned (10,004) the air grows cold around me and you (27,268) a way to hang the sun up in the sky (9,510) we'll have to muddle through somehow (8,513) Ficlets: Lazy Day (924) Cryptids (1,904) John's Instagram (1,443) Skeptic Refuted Fan Speculation (???)* Apocrypha (aka shit I wrote that takes place after the stuff in the main stories that may be disregarded/discarded as the next three stories develop): For Hire: Ghost Hunter (551) Three Wishes (2,446) Ouija Boards are NOT ALLOWED (1,139) Reality Show (1,538) Star Wars (2,441) X-Men Alternate Timeline Movies: Who Needs Sleep? (2,535) Fifty Dollars and First Impressions (3,574) Ficlets: Alex/Darwin Bookstore AU (343) Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries: Phryne/Jack Fake Married (588) Grand Total Fandoms: 3 Grand Total Stories: 23 Grand Total Word Count: 231,976* * I haven't written the transcription of this ficlet yet and I'm too lazy to do it right now, so it's not included in the total. Overall Thoughts: Well, this is a very different list than it's been for the past five years or so. The fandom switch aside, I didn't post any full stories until September, just a handful of tumblr ficlets. I also posted two things chapter-by-chapter, one as a WiP, which--wow, reminder that I NEVER WANT TO DO THAT AGAIN, it's far too stressful! The bulk of the words are all in the same verse, and I'm not even counting the words that I wrote and haven't posted yet, jeez. This stupid universe. I simultaneously hate and love it. Writing an epic WiP in a new fandom was really rough. I'm ultimately thrilled with the finished product--waiting until it was all finished made me redraft over and over again until things fit together the way I wanted. It left me space to go back and seed things that I wanted to develop as I went...I really think the finished product is way better than it would have been if I'd rushed and posted it before it was done. That all being said, gosh, it was lonely. It was so, so lonely, when writing epics usually involves a lot of bouncing ideas off of people and letting them read and suggest as I draft and really digging into the process, etc. There were a couple of people who popped in and out, but life and other interests got in the way (which makes sense considering this went on for NINE MONTHS), and, man, I missed being able to text and IM people will story ideas at all hours and feel confident that they'd be interested in what I had to say. (For all the texting I do, I am actually super shy about it? I'm super nervous about initiating unless I'm 100% positive I won't be bothering the other person, which limits my texting confidence to like, my back-up bunnies and Erica.) Anyway, that's all to say that this year was a very different experience, fandom writing-wise, but I think I learned a lot in the process so...hooray?

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted? This year I think my main goal was "FINISH PART ONE OF THE GHOSTHUNTERS" without a specific word count attached, so I succeeded in that part? Knowing me, I probably wanted to crack 300k at least, and while I'm sure I WROTE over 300k this year, what I actually published is about on par with the last couple years, so. NUMBER wise, I think I imagined I'd have a greater output vis-a-vis completed stories, but a lot of the shit I wrote was on the longer side, so. What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January? Hm. Well, there's a lot more porn in the ghosthunters than is in most of the fic I've written, traditionally, but nothing really shocking. Most of it was ghosthunters words, so...yeah. I guess the Angel/Raven was sliiiightly a surprise because I figured if I had to step in and write some SM pinch-hits it would be all Charles/Erik stuff, but I really liked that story and I have shipped that pairing for many years so....not super a surprise. What's your own favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest? I loved a lot of the stories I wrote this year, because I'm super obsessed with myself. [[< -- I think I've kept that sentence in for the past few years because it remains true]] I really love most of the ghosthunters shit, but if I had to pick a favorite....idk, I'm torn between i saw the whole story unwind because it's so epic and took so long and I put so much into it and the constellations aligned, because it came so easily and I'm a total sap and it's a totally sappy story. Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them? Sitting on the ghosthunters until the first part was complete was new. Like I said above, that kind of patience and planning was difficult, but I think the end product was much better for it. So what I learned is probably "sit on a story for a couple days after you finish." I've always tried to employ at least cursory beta readers and done read-throughs after finishing, but the slower approach does actually lead to a better product. IMAGINE THAT. My best story of this year: Best? Hm. It's hard to compare i saw the whole story unwind to anything else, given it's length and the breadth of subjects it covers, so I'd say probably that or but i won't go far away, which deals with a lot of intricate emotions and explanations. My most popular story of this year: Okay, see, I wrote two chaptered stories this year and chaptered stories totally throw off your stats. Hit counts, kudos count, comment count...all of that is inflated by repeatedly pushing those fics to the top of the tags and having people come back for each chapter and all of that. Still, I'm p sure that i saw the whole story unwind was the most popular story? And I think a lot of that can be attributed to the above facts and also to the fact that it's the oldest and the longest and the first in the series, but...I'm gonna go with it anyway. Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: I don't know that any of them are! Again, probably because most of them are in the same series, but...yeah, I'm pretty happy with the response to everything. I remember thinking at the time that there was something weird going on with the hit count for but i won't go far away because the hits-to-kudos ratio was WAY off. There were way too many hits accumulating in the first couple days it was up, like, way more than usual, even though kudos were accumulating at the correct rate? It was strange. And I did feel like that one got slightly less attention than some of the others, but that might be a mind trick based on that weirdly inflated hit count. Most fun story to write: Hm, I got a kick out of doing the twitter ficlet, and I wrote the constellations aligned in basically one sitting, so. Story with the single sexiest moment: This is one of the few years I have a lot to choose from. I think John's slow, intoxicated seduction in the constellations aligned probably wins that award. Definitely sexier than the sweet and kind of goofy sex scene in i saw the whole story unwind or the contemplative one in but i won't go far away. Story with the single sweetest moment: Hmmmmmmmm. "Sweet" is kind of my whole deal, and I like to think there's a lot of sweetness in my stories overall. I'm going to choose i saw the whole story unwind for this one and pin the sweetest moment in question as either Alex and John driving up to Peekskill or the two of them talking after Alex's nightmare. Most "Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story: Nothing really. Nothing cracky for me this year. Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: I mean, this whole series has been a lesson in picking apart these characters and seeing how they tick. So. Hardest story to write: i saw the whole story unwind, for sure. Jesus, it took me forever to finish and I was entirely despairing during parts of it. Biggest Disappointment: Just that I didn't finish more, I think. Biggest Surprise: People actually getting so into the ghosthunters. I honestly didn't expect anyone to read any of these stories and to have a tiny group of people who seem to eagerly await each new part...it really warms my heart and makes me so happy. I can't overstate who wonderfully surprising that has been. Most Unintentionally Telling Story: I think there are a lot of places where I project pretty hard on John, or maybe it's that I use a lot of my own experiences to color some of his? We don't actually have much in common besides being gay and being depressed, and I'm older and (I hope) wiser, but, you know, mental illness is a deep well to mine for content. I'd also say I mine a lot of my Jersey shit for Herc and that Molly is the closest thing this series has to a Mary Sue. I'm not into science or math, but I am a cheerfully sarcastic fat brunette lesbian who spends a lot of time whining "why don't girls like me?" and as Opinions about pizza. Plans for the next year: I'm gonna say 300k published words next year. I'd like to post at least the next three ghosthunters anchor stories, maybe venture outside ghosthunters for Hamilton related shit? Pick up my MG novel again. Set a writing schedule and try to stick to it. Leave more comments. Try to put some more good in the world, because it's gonna be a shitty, shitty year.

#2016 #stuff about me #writing is hard

[bobbywatson]

I was tagged by @redsideofthe--moon!!

Rules: tag followers you want to get know better

Name: rebecca

Gender: female

Star sign: aquarius

Height: 5′3, maybe 5’4 if I’m feeling like lying to myself

Sexuality: lesbian

House: ravenclaw

What image do you use as your wallpaper? On my iPad, my wallpapers are nice pictures of flowers I’ve taken, and on my phone my lock screen is a subtle Carmilla wallpaper, where it’s this blue and black sky and my regular screen is a dark and starry night with a Carmilla quote that is indiscernible since my phone is small because I wanted dark backgrounds so they wouldn’t burn my eyes if I opened my phone in the dark lmao

Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? I had a small crush on my grade 10 science teacher and recently I had a crush on my politics TA if that counts?

Where do you see yourself In ten years?  I see myself in a small Toronto apartment, hopefully in a job as either a teacher or an administrator, financially stable, able to pay rent and still going to concerts and chilling with my friends

If you could be anywhere right now where would you be? I’d be in the Austrian countryside in my family’s cottage, close by our farm, sleeping in and then making myself a small Viennese breakfast and think about still being able to visit family in  Italy and France after a week or two of relaxation in this little cottage

What was your coolest Halloween costume? One year I went as Sgt. Pepper from The Lonely Hearts Club Band! And last Halloween I used the jacket from that costume to be Minerva from The Wicked + Divine

Favourite 90s tv show? The Nanny!!! I love Friends, Fresh Prince, Living Single, Daria, and Buffy too tho

Last kiss: Tragically, that would have to be my very out there conspiracy theorist/uber-conservative grandma giving me a kiss on the cheek after I fixed her computer yesterday

Have you ever been stood up?: Haven’t really been on a formalized date, but I did once get lost and went to the wrong place and thought I was being stood up by someone haha

Have you ever been to Las Vegas: When I was in California visiting family, I never got the chance to go to Vegas, so no! Plus I wasn’t old enough to do anything legally there, although maybe it’s for the best that I didn’t pull a Degrassi and gamble my tuition savings

Favourite pair of shoes: I have this pair of Nikes that I’ve had for years that I’ve kept clean and in good condition because they look sleek and they’re so comfortable (and they’re also water proof!). I also have a pair of these brown tweed-ish shoes that I think look really cool

Favourite fruit: apples. they’re super accessible, taste great in pie, and they’re super versatile and you can make them in a whole bunch of flavour combinations when cooking! a close second is the apricot, because I love my apricot tree and the jam and syrup I can make with it

Favourite book: Anne of Green Gables. I also LOVE The Tales of Beedle the Bard, Scrappy Little Nobody, Ash, Beauty Queens, the Love is Love anthology from DC, and Sex Criminals and Strangers in Paradise (the comic series’ - not sure if they count as books or not?)

The stupidest thing you’ve ever done: I lied to my mom about being in the elementary school choir for almost a year and a half (i used to be a member but the group leader/music teacher was really mean so I stopped going) and was really sneaky about it until i made a dumb mistake by forgetting about this music competition and when my mom asked why she didn’t get a form from me to sign i spilled everything lmaoooo

also kinda gross but one time I decided to blow my nose right after jaw surgery even though i was told not to and i ended up having a blood clot in my nose and a whole bunch of pressure that didn’t go away for like 2 months so medically speaking that would probably be the dumbest thing I’ve ever done

All-time favourite tv shows: The Fosters, Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman, The Nanny, Golden Girls, The Mary Tyler Moore Show, Brooklyn Nine Nine, Living Single, Drag Race, Masterchef, Friends, Bob’s Burgers, and Galavant (it ended before it’s time!!!) - and with time I think I’ll add Crazy Ex Girlfriend and The Good Place

All-time favourite songs: i... Hate this question because my favourite songs are constantly changing and idk how to prioritize songs by artists i like but i will try. here are my all time faves at the moment, however long the list is.

- all that, sweetie, i didn’t just come here to dance, and cut to the feeling by carly rae jepsen (lets be real Carly’s entire discography could be here)

- beck + call and guns+ammunition by july talk

- i wish you would and state of grace by taylor swift

- swooner by the zolas

- hush hush, hush hush by the pussycat dolls (the dance version that interpolates I Will Survive!)

- laura by the scissor sisters

- juliette by hollerado

- happy together and Little Red Corvette by the nylons

- sunday morning by k-os

- shampain, starring role, radioactive, and sex yeah by marina and the diamonds

- summer in the city by joe cocker

- she’s so high by tal bachman

- sloop john b by the beach boys

- married to the music and colourful by shinee

- the knowing, the hills, and DD by the weeknd

- like a prayer, express yourself, papa don’t preach, ray of light, and vogue by madonna

- jericho and galileo by naturally 7

- make me feel and Dorothy dandridge eyes by janelle monae

- freakum dress, end of time, schoolin life, daddy lessons w/ dixie chicks by beyonce

- sweet surrender and into the fire by sarah mclachlan

- lonely weekend by Kacey musgraves

- in between by the feelies

- she makes me laugh by the monkees

- moonlight by ariana grande

- 11:11 and leather jacket by the arkells

- change of seasons by sweet thing

- our lady of the underground by anais mitchell/ani difranco

- knowing me knowing you, waterloo, gimme gimme gimme (a man after midnight), and chiquitita by abba

- talk to me by peaches

- sledgehammer and big time by peter gabriel

- soldier of love by donny osmond 

- big blue wave and jolene by hey ocean

- a good name and stylin by shad

- dead disco, gimme sympathy, help I’m alive, combat baby, sick muse, youth without youth, and monster hospital by metric

- conmigo and andalouse by kendji girac

- laissez passer by maitre gims

Last movie you saw: I saw Life of the Party with a friend for his birthday in an actual theatre, but in general I watched Murder on the Orient Express last night at home to prepare for a murder mystery dinner I’m going to this weekend!

I’m gonna tag @svelazquez1220 @nothing-to-that-light and @miriammtthis in this so if you wanna do this tag thing then go for it and if not that is also chill fam!

thanks for following me aaaaayyyyyyy

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