#im lowkey kinda proud of this

[kinardbegins]

HIIII 😁

I'm leaving a lil idea in here: how about one or both of them being covered in soot (like tommy was) and them having a lil intimate moment helping the other or eachother clean up?

HI HI HI THANK YOU FOR THE REQUEST <333

this one got soooo away from me lol it was supposed to be like 200ish words but omg yeah it got a lil deep

wc: 1.2k

no warnings but tommy's pretty sad in this (and buck's there for him <3)

also on ao3!

sense of belonging

Tommy can’t help it, he has to see Buck. He feels lost, as if nothing is ever going to be okay again, and he needs someone he knows he can count on. Someone he can trust. Which is how he finds himself outside the 118, grimacing at his old firehouse. He can’t deny that he misses it, but he also can’t deny that he never did belong there.

Eddie spots him from inside and makes his way over with a raised eyebrow and a smirk. “Hey, man! What are you doing here?”

Tommy tries to smile but it falls short. “Just finished work. Needed to see if… if he’s okay.”

There’s a shift, then, and Eddie just knows. Knows that something must have happened. Something must have set him off. “Yeah. Yeah, man, he said something about getting a shower just a few minutes ago. Got a bit dirty on the last call, which… seems like you did too.”

Tommy shrugs. He knows he looks like hell. Dirt sticks to his eyebrows and dried blood lines the straight-edge of his jawline and god knows what else is there. He couldn’t look at himself in the mirror long enough to clear it off. Not after the shift he had. Not after the civilian he lost. 

Moving swiftly to the shower room, giving forced smiles to anyone who looks his way, he finds Buck stepping out the shower with a towel around his waist. If it were any other day, Tommy wouldn’t be able to look away from the water clinging to his toned muscles and the short hairs trailing below the towel. But now, in this moment, he can’t look away from his face, from the way his eyebrows are furrowed and his lips are slightly parted and his birthmark seems pinker than usual, almost crimson. And then he gets to watch how his face completely changes when he spots him. How he brightens immediately. As if just seeing him makes him the happiest man alive. 

It hits him square in the chest. He’s not sure how someone like Buck can look at someone like him and have that type of reaction. He’s not used to it. Sometimes he still wonders if this is the universe playing some sort of sick and twisted game with him and that one day he’ll wake up to find this all gone. Ripped away. Just like everything and everyone else he’s ever known.

But seeing that Buck is okay–seeing him there and happy and alive–brings up all these emotions Tommy can’t quite figure out right now. There’s relief, that’s for sure, and there’s happiness, but there’s also a stronger feeling than the usual flutter in his stomach and the tightness in his chest and that should scare him but it doesn’t. Buck opens his mouth to talk but all he gets out is a hmmph as Tommy takes two large steps toward him and they collide in a tight embrace. He doesn’t care that Buck is soaking wet from the shower and drenching his clothes, he just needs to feel close.

Buck seems to understand though because he says nothing. Instead, he pulls Tommy in closer and gently scratches at the short hairs at the base of his neck. It calms him down enough to pull back and look at Buck properly, taking him in and memorising that look on his face. Just in case.

“Hey,” he whispers, voice hoarse. 

Buck’s eyes soften. “Hey, yourself. Bad shift?”

“You have no idea.”

Buck cups his face and runs the pad of his thumb over his cheek. Tommy doesn’t remember a time he’s ever been touched so gently before. “I think I have some idea,” he says, sliding his hand down Tommy’s jaw and furrowing his eyebrows at the blood. “Let’s get you cleaned up, yeah?”

“You should get dressed first,” Tommy mutters. He’s suddenly struck with the feeling that he’s being a burden. That he’s invading Buck’s space. His time. “Incase you need to run out.”

Buck seems like he’s about to protest when he realises that Tommy’s right. “I’ll be back in a second, I swear,” he sighs before ducking out of the room and leaving Tommy alone. It’s not until this moment he realises just how tired he really is. All he wants to do is go home and crawl into bed but he feels stuck. Like he can’t move. Risking a glance at the mirror, he’s grateful to find that he can’t see himself through the steam. He’s not quite ready to face himself yet.

But before he can dwell on it, or think about how it felt to watch someone die right in front of him (not for the first time, but certainly not for the last time either, and that makes his stomach twist uncomfortably), Buck is running back into the room and taking Tommy’s face in his hands. He tilts his head to one side and then the other before tutting and reaching out to turn on the tap, keeping one hand on Tommy at all times. Once he’s satisfied with the temperature of the water, he runs a cloth underneath it and rings it out before slowly reaching up to dab it over Tommy’s jawline. 

“Is this your blood?”

Tommy shrugs. “I’m not sure. I don’t think so.”

Buck pauses for a moment before moving to wipe at the dirt coating his eyebrow. “Do you wanna talk about what happened?”

Tommy shakes his head.

“Okay,” Buck says after a while, scrubbing away the last of the dirt. His touch is so gentle and so caring that Tommy fears he might cry. “Do you want to come eat with us? Bobby’s making his famous lasagne.” He pulls away the cloth and drops it in the sink, running some water over it for a moment before switching off the tap and putting all his attention back on Tommy. Both of his hands drop to Tommy’s shoulders and he smooths his palms across the broad expanse, offering a sweet smile. “You’ll love it.”

“I don’t know,” Tommy sighs, shaking his head. “I don’t want to intrude.”

“You wouldn’t be, I promise. Bobby will love to have you; we all will.”

And that’s how Tommy finds himself sitting where he used to sit all those years ago, only this time he knows that he doesn’t have to hide who he is. So when Chimney brings up something Tommy did once on a call so long ago it feels like a past life, something shifts inside of him, and when Bobby claps him over the shoulder with a proud smile, that something becomes a little lighter. Hen smiles at him and Eddie bumps his arm against his and Ravi listens intently as he retells the story from his point of view. And when Buck laughs at a joke he makes, his head tilting back to let out the loveliest sound Tommy’s ever heard, and then he looks at him to see if he’s laughing too, Tommy can’t help the genuine smile that graces his face. And he realises he feels like he finally belongs. And that maybe, just maybe, things will be okay after all.

#YAY I FINALLY WROTE FOR THEM #im lowkey kinda proud of this #i feel like tommy is so confident on the surface and in general but he just doesn't feel like he belongs anywhere #this is as new for him than it is for buck #bucktommy #evan buckley #tommy kinard #kinkley #tevan

[splookiee]

technoblade never dies. I miss him so much

#technoblade never dies #technoblade #techno #technoblade fanart #mcyt #mcytfanart #art #drawing #im lowkey kinda proud of this #i miss technoblade #starry sky

[passionpeachy]

Top 2023 moment for me was when I painted this mid-breakdown for my therapist so she could “emotionally understand me better” and she quit the entire field before I could show her. don’t know why

#text #body horror #horror art #im. not gonna put this in my art tag I think #I’m lowkey kinda proud of it though like #the eyes in the background??? idk what possessed me

[yuuugay]

all of em are pretty different since i didnt think it through jskbcdkjavcd but the 4 gods from @uroboros-if 👍👍👍👍👍

#uroboros if #all their hair is moving one way or another because my shaky ass hands could never straight line #also because im fruity #this will be the first and last time i draw salv's hair ornament because that itself took me a hot minute #it was fun lowkey #lineart kinda like that though #very one track minded #i dont notice anything else but this digital black line i control #it wsa therapeutic #and i was listening to butterfly by loona #im pretty sure i blacked out while drawing masc ciocana because it took me 15 minutes and i dont remember what happened kqshbjlsdv #once again debby ryan hair tucking gif at alessi because 🥺👉👈🥺👉👈 hand in marriage till death do us apart pls #i love uroboros man :((( ive been thinking of it 4 the past days #actually my thoughts are mostly just; #shepherds of haven and hero maker and uroboros and doing a sht ton line art #this is like probably my 8th lineart this weekened #plus 1 for acorn bell #so 9 technically #im pretty proud of myself

[the-eldritch-it-gay]

I scrutinize each photo Each letter, each tape, each story Digging further and further back through history Hoping to pinpoint Where the weight on my shoulders originated

Who carried it first How many generations of suffering do I hold How many ghosts are tearing at my flesh How many generations of knowledge have I been denied How much has been lost How much will be lost As my fingers slowly erode paper As obsession wears through the tapes As each memory slowly becomes unrecognizable

The film strips undulate like intestines The dust and ink sticking to my hands like flecks of gore When you cut into my gut Is it blood that spills out Or history?

Salamatullah Eldritch (2022), Archival Violence, Mnemonic Gore [digital collage]

[Image attribution & sources for images used]

#Eldritch IT Speaks #Digital Collage #blood tw #I'm planning on making an story based on this #anyways this is all just. musings on generational trauma. partially brought from my family finding photos #from the late 1800s to mid 1900s #along with my own struggles w/ generational trauma and memory #i usually don't make collages and the last time I did was while I was in a psychiatric treatment center and it was made of just words #im usually not good with like. making something like this. i struggle to abandon symmetry and weird rules in my head #so im kinda proud that I managed to let go of that to make this #ALSO. lowkey I am inspired to do this collage n using gore bcuz of Yah Yah Scholfield #eldritch it writes

[nohomie]

Heya, it's me. . . . again, sooooo in the prolog. Do we get to see how y/n and the other "monsters" (like wally and stuff) where introduced? Or will we see it as a flash back in later comics if that happens?

Oh if you're talking about the old comic I posted it's not part of the story anymore

I'm currently redrawing the prologue and it'll be a bit more chronological in terms of how the events so you'll get to see how Y/N meets the crew in the new one I'm drawing

#lowkey im kinda proud of how its going so far #i cant wait to show yall once I get part I done #asks

[weltato]

hey there legend writer, got any hatchetfield fic recs? :3

Legend writer?? Where? 👀

Haha, I'm kidding, that's so sweet, tysm Anon! 💜💜

Oh boy, uhh-

Well, there's a @lilacthebooklover fic called World's Okayest Uncle which is about Paul being the unofficial uncle to all the kids in Hatchetfield. So far there's Richie, Alice and Pete, but it's still a really good read.

I haven't read it myself yet but @marvelmaniac715 wrote Gotta Get Back To School which is about the Lords In Black going to...you guessed it: school. It's also funny that the title is a line from the first show Starkid ever did - A Very Potter Musical ("I gotta get back to Hogwarts, I gotta get back to schooool~")

There is the series "The Guy Who Didn't Like... Fanfiction" by mynameisapoet_iamaphilip which has some really nice little short ficlets about specifically Paulkins.

Mortarboards by man_down_in_hatchet_town made me fucking cryyyy, so I definitely recommend that one if you want emotions about the NPMD kids.

Those are my top Hatchetfield fic recs, Anon! Hope you enjoy these :)

#lowkey kinda wanted to ramble about mine and lilac's hm fics but i refrained #are you proud of me? #im proud of me :) #starkid #team starkid #starkid fanfic #hatchetfield #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #hatchetblr #hatchetfield fanfic #fanfic rec #fanfiction #fanfic #ao3 #ao3 fanfic #ao3 link #ao3 writer #not my works! #not my writings! #pls pls pls go read these they're really cool! #(pssst.) #traumatised paul matthews #sorry i had to put that in here. one of the fics is about hm and paul being hurt

[sea-jello]

what not being able to sleep will get you. new designs in a new style and all drawn traditionally for some reason

also me n my brother i did on the bus a while ago because i like them

#i’ve never drawn black people before and i didn’t use a reference so i apologise if i made them look weird #but yeah first time actually drawing bway jake and jenna #wpc jeremy is really fun to draw but i should draw will roland jeremy one day it’s not very fair to him #my favorites rich lowkey i really like it #I FINALLY DREW MICHAEL RIGHT FOR ONCE #THE MICHAEL CURSE WAS TEMPORARILY LIFTED #IM ACTUALLY REALLY PROUD OF HOW I DREW HIM IN THE FIRST ONE #giraffe ahh neck brother it looks funky and it’s FUN #all the stagedorks posting on the dash lately got me into the vibe and i’ve had the idea in mind for a couple days #i like traditional so much more actually i feel like i do better #i havent fucking drawn girls in so long but I LOWKEY THINK I MADE THEM KINDA PRETTY #one day i’ll look back at that sentence and say no you didn’t #i forgot to color in michaels hair in the second one but we ball #bmc #be more chill #bmc musical #be more chill musical #jeremy heere #michael mell #christine canigula #jenna rolan #brooke lohst #chloe valentine #rich goranski #jake dillinger #boyf riends #stagedorks #my son egg and his brother cheese #jellos scribbles

[cyberstvr]

MY FAV MOON LESB (I added the other ver lol)

#pj masks #the silly #luna girl #digital art #pj masks luna girl #shes so pretty #im kinda dumb #im lowkey proud of myself

[crimsonkenjii-writes]

I’m down bad for Giyuu 😭 I spent ten hours drawing a short comic with him :,)

I cant post the other two panels cuz they’re very nsfw and the whole page would be censored 🫣

#each panel took 1-3 hours to make so it all added up to ten #MY BELOVED AAAAHHHHH #such a loser but i dont care at this point #just love Giyuu so much #lowkey kinda embarrassed to share this #BUT I SPENT SO LONG ON IT #and im proud of it #so im sharing #crimsonkenjii rambles #crimsonkenjii art #selfship

[cottageivy]

🎃 for ava please!!

🎃 OC in a costume they’d wear for Halloween

blood tw!

shes Ruby Lane from Fear Street! i feel like theyd get decently into halloween but do specific costumes yknow?

also! bonus if youre curious, this was ava's costume one year! so obvi they get creative

#mia responds #buttertrait #blood tw #ts4 #ts4edit #stuarts #ava* #ava likes fear street this is canon #mainly bc i love fear street and i feel like she would too it feels up her alley #the fear street trilogy literally is so good tho #ruby lane...id let her kill me #also im lowkey kinda proud of this costume #also theyre wearing a wig bc their hair isnt that long #i was gonna use the black bg for this but her hair was too dark and the green was too

[elegyofthemoon]

IS ANYONE UP I NEED HELP WITH SOMETHING (NOT SERIOUS I JUST NEED SOMEONE ELSE'S PERSPECTIVE FOR WRITING)

#caps #snow speaks #PLEAAAASE i just want to write this thing perfectly but my problem is that idk if a description would fit better early or Later #so i just want someone else's perspective on what would be more impactful as a description? #sorry to be annoying about this its just that its a piece im lowkey kinda proud of so im like *shakes* pLEASE i have to get it done rn #in the meantime i go study adslkjfal

[martyrbat]

know this isnt the content or whatever youre here for so ill be rly brief but todays the 7th day (and first full week!), where i didnt track what i ate for the first time since i was? 9 or so?

i been eating more consistently for awhile in this recovery (almost a year!!!) but still tracking obsessively. new year's i decided to try and get better with it because might as well. haven't logged anything and i try to stop myself when mentally doing it too. which is scary but yeah :)

#also to stop feeling guilty anytime i eat which is difficult around my mother but like #i want to move as soon as i financially can. and i dont want to be wasting more of my life with just starting this recovery and bullshit so #been waiting nearly 20 years so why will i sabotage and make myself more miserable in the future. shit sucks now so might as well do this #and get it out of the way >:3 #e/d recovery is kinda funny from an outside perspective #why am i about to cry over toast. i love toast. toast is my friend. i need to treat her better. #‘im fighting demons’ (demons is a scoop of rice or spoonful of hazelnut spread purely because it tastes nice) #im trying to dismiss it but actually do feel proud of myself for it. just a bit. lowkey. #but anyways back to batman ballsack posting #crypt callings

[beyond-the-kitchen]

looking through my fic ideas doc and why the fuck was i writing “but they are two suns burning too close. And suns are made to implode, it’s always just a matter of time.”

#this wasnt am or milex related #it was for a tennis thing… #but im lowkey proud of it #like its kinda poetic #charlie talks #charlie writes

[cheemken]

Bro? You just use ibispaint, on a phone, to draw?? And they always come out amazing???

Also Hau and Iris look so CNCHXKSN. They look so cool and you can just tell how much influence Lance and Diantha had on them

But I wanted to say, I thought of how the Unova Region would find out about Iris, or at least how cold and violent she’s gotten. Because if she can’t hide her anger then she’ll definitely be seen as a tyrant sooner or later like Lance and Leon

Now most of the people know that The Champion and The Hero of Unova have been good friends for years. Lots of times the two trainers and their friends would be seen together, hanging out, laughing, being happy, and just all in all great friends. So imagine the regions surprise when Champion Iris greatly injures The Hero of Truth, Hilbert

It was one of those times when Hilbert challenged Iris for her title, confident that him and his Pokémon trained enough to overthrow his friend. But of course she defeated all six of his Pokémon and kept her title. After some small talk Hilbert joking mentions how her luck will run out soon and he’ll be the new champion. And her anger slightly flares for a moment, her friend doesn’t think she’s strong enough to be champion and that she has relied on luck to get this far. She gives short replies to his questions and starts preparing to leave, making sure her Pokémon are fine and healed up

Getting annoyed with her lack of answers and just general attitude over the past few months, Hilbert himself gets angry and starts an argument with her. After some back and forth yelling he says some words he’ll regret. He says how if she’s only using her skills and strength to terrorize the people of Unova, that if she’s going so far that she would’ve killed someone had they not stopped her, then she isn’t fit to be a champion. Because a champions job is to protect, not kill the innocent

Iris really though her friend was better. That he knew his place in the world and trusted her decisions to protect Unova, to protect their friends, to protect him, but it seems he’s just like the rest of them. Looking down on her like she’s nothing

Only when Iris grows quiet does he realize how suffocating the room felt. How the room got colder, and how Iris’ eyes, that once reminded him of shining rubies, were now a frightening eerie red that stared straight at him from across the room. Finally realizing his terrible mistake when Iris reveals a seventh Pokéball and releases the legendary Dragon/Ice type Pokémon, who stares directly at him, with it ready to fire the move Glaciate whenever it’s trainer commands it to

NO BUT CHDMCBDMBCMDBCMDBX

No but my last post, it was supposed to be abt Iris being so pissed abt the people of Unova she did a team Plasma and froze a few of the towns as a threat

And now you send me this and I'm so not fucking normal abt it that is so dope😭

GOD BUT VJXMBCMCNF

Can you imagine the colour on Hilbert's face fading, staring wide eyes up at Kyurem. He never got to face Kyurem back then, Nate never told him, or any of them, of his experience w Kyurem, w Ghetsis. N never told them as well, in respect of Nate's wishes, but what N only told them it was freezing, it felt like a worse version of hell, it felt terrifying, and had he not came in with Reshiram... Hilbert almost didn't wanna know. And now, standing before him was none other than Kyurem itself, under the command of their Champion, glaring at him with the same intensity he once received from Ghetsis.

He should've known. Nate left Kyurem with Drayden. But Drayden's gone now. And the one left with Kyurem is none other than the strongest trainer in Unova.

"Iris... Let's not cross that line." He carefully said, raising both his arms in surrender, "I take it back. I take everything back." His breathing quickened, puffs of cold air leaving his lips with each bated breath, "just.. Arc, Iris, please, don't do this." He pleaded, falling to his knees. He knew what happened to Unova while he, Hilda, and N were away. He knew the damages Kyurem had done because of Plasma. But Plasma wasn't around anymore, and Plasma didn't know the full potential of a Dragon, not like Iris. She knows how to tap into it, knows what to do to unleash their hidden power within, she understands them more than any other could. And she knows that one Glaciate Kyurem will summon will be enough to freeze the entire league over.

But Iris still glared at him. Told him he had a plan with the others, don't you? She can sense them, can sense Zekrom and Reshiram on their way.

"I didn't know about that!"

LIAR!

As she commanded Kyurem to use Glaciate, N and Hilda came just in time to block the attack, commanding both Reshiram and Zekrom to attack Kyurem.

N had warned Hilda to not let Zekrom close, as Iris would probably have the DNA Splicers w her too, so the two became more wary while battling. But Iris was erratic, it's so unlike her now, yelling out her commands, so desperate to beat them.

But also I have this lil concept too, that when N and Hilda came in, Hilda and Hilbert did fight Iris, like legit fought her hand to hand, all while N was trying to calm down Kyurem. And just cjmdd imagine Hilda and Hilbert actually knocking her out and got Kyurem's pokeball, calling him back. And they brought Iris to Plasma's castle under the league, tied her up in a chair maybe, in N's throne most likely, and then the Nuvema gang and N are there before her.

Imagine her glaring at them, almost growling at them, telling them to let her go. But ofc, they're not letting her go that easily. God imagine them finally getting to really talk to her, asking her why she's suddenly acting like that, after Drayden's death she wasn't the same.

And like, imagine her looking down, tears rolling down her cheeks, and she starts sobbing. Telling them that she really just missed her grandpa, that she just wanted to prove herself to be a good Champion, a strong trainer that their region could rely on, but the pressure was getting to her, especially since everyone still looked down on her, how no matter what she does, she will never be enough for the people of Unova, and she hates it. It haunts her every night, haunts her until she couldn't sleep, and it didn't help how she could still hear the hushed whispers of the people in Opelucid telling her that she will never be able to fill in Drayden's role as the mayor of that city too.

Bianca ofc caved in, she tried to approach Iris, Cheren and even Hilda stopped her, but she gave them a look that they knew they couldn't argue w her on this one. Bianca knelt before Iris, wiping her tears, telling her that she doesn't have to fight her battles alone anymore, they're her friends, "we'll always be here for you." And Iris smiled at that, melting in her touch, shifting slightly almost kissing the palm of her hand, thanking her for her patience. Bianca then looked at the others, and they finally relented, they untied Iris and they half expected her to double cross them, instead she fell straight into Bianca's arms, pulling her close as she cried on her shoulder.

And the others, well, perhaps Iris really was misguided, but not anymore, they'll make sure of it. So they went in and joined in on the group hug, telling Iris that they'll always be there for her.

Iris smiled at that, hidden as she buried herself deeper in Bianca's embrace, guess Diantha's acting lessons really did pay off.

#god the unova kids make me so ill they mean so much to me cjmdnd #also yeah i just draw on my phone hahaha #theyre decent at best but hey im glad you think its cool ^^ #and god yeah im lowkey proud of my lil drawing of em fr cbmdbxnd #theyre just so cndmndnd #ough™ #anyways to this concept #OUGHHHH CJDNCBDMNDDM #no but... i do kinda lowkey ship iris and bianca.... #and imagine how obsessive she'll be w her tho cbmdnf #and not like bianca can talk her out of things bc iris is in too deep na #but more like shed kill a man for her #ough your honour the unova kids will be the absolute death of me i swear cbmdbfmd #an ask and an answer #jerseyk112 #villain champions au #long post #unova kids

[olliecoded]

sometimes i write a poem and im like holy shit is this good? am i a good writer? is it possible for me to be successful? & then i receive absolutely no positive feedback on it and i reread it a few too many times and i decide the answer is no absolutely not

#it's kinda sad bcs im sometimes lowkey proud of myself and then. well. #hello world