#it’s just. the devotion. it gets to me ok—

[choccy-milky]

Hi Darling! First of all.. OMG I REALLYYY REALLYYYY LOVE YOUR FIC ♥️♥️♥️! I've been a silent reader for too long and this is the first time I came to the surface to thank you for this amazing fic and art that you've made.

I also have gathered my courage to ask you this. But headcanonically (if that's even a word but wtv 😭) in your fic world. Did Sebastian ever court or interested in someone before Clora? I had a wild thought that he was into someone and had courted them but wouldn't last long because he had to take care of Anne and this lass he courted was tired of his rambling about Anne this and Anne that. Sebastian decided that they should end things because not appreciating Anne means not appreciating him.

And when he dated Clora. He met her again. She desperately wants him back and apologises (She does have another intention though). He declines because he's already ill with her and is now crazy in love with our darling Clora. He chooses not to tell Clora about this. But I wonder what happened if Clora knows tho.

ANYWAY! THANK YOU FOR READING MY LONG ASS WILD THOUGHTS BUT I AM AN ANGST GIRL IN THIS ANGST LIFE. 😭😭😭💙💙💙

AW THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME💖💖IM GLAD TO HEAR IT💖💖 AND OK its funny you bring this up bc i actually planned for sebastian to have a bit of an internal monologue in my most recent chap about the girls he's had a crush on (before clora--omg... B.C), but i ended up cutting it out because it was part of a deleted scene. but no seb has never actually dated/courted anyone before clora, tho he defs did have crushes....but if he WAS with another girl before clora....🤔🤔hmm🤔🤔 i guess it would depend when in their relationship clora found out? if it was at the beginning when clora was still really shy/nervous/self conscious, it would obviously make her even moreso, and she would have compared herself and wondered if she was good enough and if she was doing things right. and i feel like that early in the relationship, if that other girl DID come back and try and get with seb, clora might actually be worried they'd get together again, esp if she ever saw them talking (kinda like the lawley situation, but in reverse BAHA) if it was NOW though and clora just suddenly found out....LMAOO oh boy. she'd obvs be like why did u never tell me, and itd go something like this: seb: "it was brief enough that i didn't see any point in mentioning it--we hadn't even snogged." clora: "well, it just so happens that i was with a boy before you, too. but we hadn't snogged either, so by your logic, i guess you don't care." seb: ".........." seb: "........alright, point proven." (and then seb would be all worried and confirm that she hadnt actually been with anyone before him/that she was just messing with him, and shed be like LMAO YES IT WAS JUST FOR ARGUMANTS SAKE OBVS) anyway clora might be sad for a bit but she'd get over it pretty quick, since she knows seb is so devoted to her/hed make it a point to be a huge simp for her to show her he has no leftover feelings for anyone else LOL (like how he was after the relic incident & during her period) honestly its just hard to make clora jealous in the first place, bc seb is such a mega simp for her LMFAO. and aS HE SHOULD BE!!!👇🧎‍♂️

#its too late in my fic for drama like this LMAO but maybe i can incorporate an ex gf into the modern AU #omg WAIT YES!!! THE MODERN AU RIVAL FOR CLORA CAN BE THE POPULAR CHEERLEADER #MY MODERN AU IS ALREADY TROPEY AS HELL BAHAHA SO WHY NOT!! and it works out since hes on the football team BAHAH omg #clora going as a friend to his game and then that cheerleader girl is all over him on the field and clora cant do anything about it BAHHA #im evil thank you for the inspo #ask

[multifairyus]

Yelling into the Void about my Punkflower Story Playlist progress

Like clockwork, I’ve begun curating a romantic arc playlist for a ship…and I’m once again realizing I think I need to split this in half 😭

The first one is looking like it’ll be going from Miles ‘How are you even cooler under your mask?’ huffiness and ‘I was this cool the whole time also I’m literally in your corner for all of this ok?” (Rock covers of Cooler Than Me and Umbrella) to a “sun rises again over 1610 as Miles accidentally confesses to an unconscious verge of death Hobie in his arms. He’s ok but he totes heard tho” (As the World Caves In, I Love You)

And the second one is sets the tone that they’re visiting each other post The Spot fight and are just guys being dudes (American Boy) and is just mutual pining…so much mutual pining (Color Theory, Swoon, FACE, Bad Habit…)…until Hobie, of course, has to be the one to set the record straight (From the Start). From there? Tooth rotting fluff. Need more masc artists to fill it out but…? I’m cookin, trust and believe.

#punkflower #flowerpunk #suns and lions #I’m gonna find a way to get dandelions in the pining because I NEED it close to Sunflower in the playlist #and I will tweak the whole narrative to get what i want #unsurprisingly Hobie’s tracks are sappy as hell and I love that #same thing for Sure Thing #it’s just. the devotion. it gets to me ok— #also gay awakening Miles is SO fun #Miles is at “’Crush On You’ meanwhile Hobie’s at ‘Hold the Line’ oh this is RIDICULOUS #miles x hobie #hobie x miles

[moeblob]

Demyx (my beloved)

#kingdom hearts #demyx #honestly is there an organization member i dont like? not really tbh #ok i lied maybe one but even then i find him fascinating so even he gets a pass #demyx being such a good boy who doesnt actually care for fighting then having the whole kh3 thing #where he has the yellow eyes but still just helps the good team vaguely then dips out of the entire game #where did he go and why .... what secrets do you hold young man #i should replay kh3 cause there are things i think i remember but idk for sure #like wasnt there actually a scene where hes just... been benched for being bad at being bad or smth #i really remember a scene where either he says or someone else is like oh yeah he got benched lol #like why does he have to be so funny yet get so little screen time im dying squirtle #though for the record him just handing a mannequin to even and saying peace out for the rest of the game WAS hilarious #this is me living the best time line where not only does demyx just dip and never get mentioned from anyone #but also in an otome i played theres a route where my fave guy just also dips early on #and then in the very end some other LI asks another LI what happened to him btw like where did he go #and the another LI was like oh my god i forgot about him idk man #my favorites just making an appearance and leaving is really funny to me #these tags got super long bc im very stressed and now devoting brain power to vgs in order to not cry

[hajihiko]

every time I come across Content that isnt my own I get the thoughts and thinks. Too tired to do anything about it except this ig

#Coming to terms with the fact that I can share shitty dumb doodles and tag them even and it's not a crime #I'm not quite Ants In My Brain levels but the brains are scattered rn. #Anyway I love a relationship that is unlabeled and unknowable but gosh damn it is sincere and devoted #I was thinking of that 19 days bit. 'you're the strongest most badass little mo' or sth #ANYWAY! Not confident enough to tag this w my art tag so #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Kuzuhina #Attempting to go full ramble in the tags after the actual posting bc I just got shit to say I guess #Not valuable shit but shit nonetheless #They're good for each other they build each other up. Fuyuhiko was putting so much faith in Hajime from the get-go #Hajime is like dont give me too much credit no I dont wanna think about my talents. And Hiko is like nah man you're great (in his own way) #And Hajime encourages so much growth in Hiko which is WHY I think Hiko is so passionate in his loyalty #Hajime makes Fuyuhiko smile and laugh and reflect on his behaviour and talk about his experiences #They laugh TOGETHER in the middle of the killing game which is v sweet #Fuyuhiko is DESPERATE to prove that he's changed and that he wants to do good now and Hajime is just like 'okay you got it' #Like thassit. And then when they find out Hajime wasnt a talent student Fuyuhiko is like 'oh ok' #They accept each other very readily and they trust each other so much and idk maybe my brain is broken but #I FEEL like I feel a sincerity in their friendship #Like it's for life man they're already making plans for the future when they're friends (hiko especially) #Yeah I guess I'll save these tags. Idk I'm a little Ill of the Brain rn

[sanasanakun]

Since people are discussing Larian’s “people pleasing” updates with this latest hot fix, I’m gonna add my two (unnecessary) cents to this as well. I really love Baldurs Gate 3 for the choices and agency it affords me as a player. That’s its main draw to me. However, when comparing it to its main inspiration (i.e BioWare games), the writing in BG3 is far worse.

And I think this shines through the most with the companion content disparity. I do think Astarion is a very well written character, but I also think his popularity partially comes from the other characters being far too underwritten. This isn’t even touching on Karlach’s lack of depth and the shocking disparity that is Wyll’s entire storyline/character. But other companions like Shadowheart and Gale, while well written, lack the same attention and suffer for it.

And god, the villains. I think that’s another egregiously bad area of the writing. Kethric gets a whole act! Meanwhile, Orin is interesting but crammed into sharing space with Gortash. And Gortash is given an incredible backstory that ties to another villain, but nothing is done with it and it’s mostly hidden in notes. And the story overall is just ok. Act 2 is easily the most compelling. But compared to BioWare, the story is lackluster imo. The Dark Urge plot line is the most interesting part of the overall main storyline, but it’s not afforded enough detail or content (imo).

And none of this is helped by Larian removing bits and pieces of their characters in these hotfixes. I really wish they’d just start adding content to flesh out these problem areas, especially Wyll and Minthara.

#also I feel like some fans are getting bitter about the Astarion content disparity #I know I’ve been bitter about it cause he never really hit off with me #so maybe it was more noticeable for me? but yeah I think people are like ok come on now #esp cause it’s taken Larian so long to devote that same attention to other characters #but that’s just meeeee so don’t get mad since it’s just all my opinion on that matter #anything I write here is honestly inconsequential #but Larian’s involvement within the fandom and their need to respond to it #has always made me side eye and question their writing ability #larian critical #I’m also just a really harsh person when it comes to consuming media #so I could be overly mean with this one but like… #if I like something I will criticize it more harshly idk why #baldurs gate 3 critical

[pinacoladamatata]

Here I am. The lone Gale x Minthara shipper.

#Hear me out ok #its about the soul crushing devotion #he would think he can change her/slowly realizing maybe she doesnt need to be changed #she just needs to calm down a little #while she's slowly getting over her reservations about not getting attached bc she's convinced hes gonna blow up #but god shes a VENGEANCE PALADIN #give me minthara absolutely hating and fucking spitful raging against Mystra #gale doesnt DO light-hearted romance #and also oh my god minthara's romance..... #'without lolth and the absolute i dont even know who i am. you do. i think.' #gales comments about how he's convinced she's got a heart of gold under her cold exterior #take me out #this is like half crack ship #half not

[spnintheyearofourlord]

Okay Dean “You know I am not much for prayin’ ‘cause in my book it’s the same as beggin’” and “I prayed to you, Cas, every night” Winchester, I see you.

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #supernatural #just thinking my little thoughts #don’t look at me I’m having a moment #something something no greater devotion than that to his brother who he’s praying for in the former yet this implies #the same love and desperation fueling that must apply to Cas too #do y'all see what I'm saying? does the connection make sense? #especially s8 going forward Dean often takes the cake for toxicity I’m sorry it’s just true. HOWEVER. we need to talk about the softness #that man shows to Cas in this season specifically. #for ex: after Cas sternly shuts him down in 8x08 he doesn't get defensive and snap back like Dean often does #he goes over and sits on the bed across from cas and softly says 'talk to me.' like i'm sorry? has dean ever said that?? #not that i recall. usually it's smthg like 'are you ok? no? that's rough buddy. shove it down.' bc that's what he was taught #and mid-end of the prior season though his ‘don’t tell Cas the truth’ plan was not great it was pretty clear imo how deeply happy he was #just to have cas back. broken or not he’d rather have him. . #I don't know exactly what I'm trying to say that's why we're in the tags but it's just something about how Cas deeply betrayed them and we #know how intensely Dean can hold a grudge yet when they get Cas back Dean's softer with him than he ever was before. #and then searches monster land high and low for him even after Cas abandons him #and connecting the former and latter quotes up there it's pretty clear how deep that devotion runs #(platonically or romantically. to each their own reading. and not always healthily.) #because he's as well as admitted he begged for Cas in purgatory. every. night. #Dean 'I don't pray bc i don't beg and I'm not weak' #Dean 'I would do anything for sam so i'll beg for help' #Dean 'I prayed to you. I killed my way to you. did you hear my prayers?' #it's just really somethin'. #I have to wonder if Cas knows how big that is. He must right? #(for my own tags) #dean #spn s8

[hazeism]

Hi!! Since pocketwei just recommended a bunch of your fics, I just wanted to tell you that I think you're the gold standard of dofuwani and mishanks on AO3. Actual inspiration. I need to sit down and devote a day to commenting on your fics because I've read most of them and your writing lives in my head rent free.

AOADFDUKIDUFLJ ??!!!! HOW DO I EVEN RESPOND TO THIS AAAHHA. "the gold standard" aahhadufdgu what the hell, dudedfkdufj. Thank you thank you!!

^^ Live Haze Reaction

Please don't feel like you have to leave any comments or anything, it already means the world to me that you took the time to read my writing, and be so fair and generous with it, (eyes glazing over, maniacal air) bringing it to life inside of you by considering it and letting yourself think about it (normal again), aaaahhaa it makes me so sentimental. We are alive !!!!

That said, of course, I'd be happy to hear anything you want to share in the form of a comment (getting the emaail is like a syringe to the spine for me), but don't overthink it or feel pressured to comment on everything or share in utter Platonic eloquence, blah blah. Just whatever you feel like saying, long or short, critical or flattering, observational or analytical or reactive, or even just an emoticon, it's all good!

(I suppose, too, it doesn't really matter whether you'd like to share them with me in particular--sometimes it's nice to give fixed form to your thoughts, and know they're worth that effort, so there's your explicit permission to simply use my comment sections as a medium to prove you exist, haha.)

but um. tldr. thank you! one million kisses.

#usually I think of akataka as like.. or it least I did (I've been out for a bit) think of it as My Tag because it was so empty ahaha before #I got in there. so haha to hear other people r like haze the akataka guy makes me sooo cheesed. they're so real to me #dfwn is like my bitch wife who I am hopelessly and magnetically devoted to I can't escape them ever so it's nice to know it's true in your #mind also. that we r fucking shackled together. i think i will be writing dfwn until the sun goes out #STOP TALKING HAZE HAAAZE STOP TALKING AAHH #ask #kookoofufu #since this was inspired by mei's fic recs also if u like my stuff i think you should see her beautiful mind scroll through her blog and #get brainblasted. she's so smart and her art is so good and expressive and eloquent and rich it has so many things to say and is so worth #listening to #man i always get embarrassed after I respond to an ask and i just leave the tab open with the reply typed and don't hit post. ok i'll hit #post now my bad. #mine

[terzomega]

coming out as a copia hater due to recent tags by @waspspirits it's real

#the thing is terzo. he's just like me fr and he's the love of my life. if you couldn't tell. fave #he's 1. italian 2. the shortest 3. purple is his favorite color 4. omega is his favorite ghoul 5. monsterfucker 6. long nails enjoyer #as you can see he's Just Like Me FR #so ofc anyone who replaces him would be my enemy. but not only THAT #not ONLY you replace him which like ok not necessarely your fault I Guess but you Get Your Picture Taken While Holding His #Beautiful Little Severed Head. AND you talk shit abt him on ceremony & devotion iirc. enemy of the nove immediately and forever #fuckin rat bastard i will NEVER forgive you and i AM praying for your downfall everyday of my life i cannot WAIT for him to GO #so i can buy impera without him feelin slay abt and i can go see a ritual without having to lay eyes on him and support him financially. #i am insane #i'm the only girlie on here who will rejoyce w her whole chest & pussy & dick & balls when he kicks the bucket #feel free to unfollow & block & shoot me on sight. idc. enemy #mine #i used to include pro memoria in the list of crimes against me & terzo but i've come to the conclusion that song is as much about and for #him as it was about and for the others. but we won't get into that bc we're going to the beach

[theinfinitedivides]

unrelated to the Pasoori remake for SKK, i decided to listen to the Adipurush OST out of curiosity and the only song that makes sense musically to me on there is Huppa Huiyya. then again if Sukhwinder sings anything i am bound to listen to it so there's that

#film: adipurush #adipurush #sukhwinder singh #bollywood #local gay watches Bollywood.txt #like what is going on in Shivoham. what's with the voices in the middle of the song #we have Rahman's Shivoham for PS:2 it's shorter but it sounds better. i don't think that arrangement for Adipurush was necessary #Jai Shri Ram is ok but again. i've heard better when it comes to that genre of devotional songs #not going to talk about the others bc i played 30 seconds of each and decided they weren't for me #but Huppa Huiyya tho. that's the one #newsflash: he sounds good in all five versions!!! especially good in Malayalam for some reason i'd say it's tied #with every other version for second place just slightly above them tho. Hindi is the original and therefore what the song was written for #never watching the movie but you'll get me to put Huppa Huiyya on loop. Ajay-Atul ty for attempting to salvage that trainwreck #of a film with your music i appreciate the effort

[moeblob]

Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle

#my characters #i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah? #and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind #and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge #if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally #think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me #also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far #she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple #so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot #however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt #for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely #deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c #but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj #so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way #nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all #he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in #like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately #he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have #long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person #and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her #so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock #(fulj agrees)

[llondonfog]

the reblog tags @suntails & @eriange IVE BEEN SLAIN

like i just. refuse to believe that we have not set up this whole diasomnia 3d 4k immersive angst experience to not watch something Terribly Awful go down between the ONLY HUMAN and his fae family like????

find me screaming at the top of my lungs that silver's not obsessed with training because that's a funny personality trait, HE'S OBSSESSED WITH IT BECAUSE THAT'S HOW HE PROVES HIS WORTH TO HIS FAMILY AND HE WANTS TO DO RIGHT BY HIS FATHER SO BADLY!! HE'S A GOOD KID, HE'S SO GENUINE AND KIND PLS SHOW HIM MORE LOVE LILIA AND MAL!!!!

#don't get me STARTED on the upcoming halloween en chapters #im biding my time to unleash how i feel about lilia ok #jUST #HOW???? #THIS BOY IS HOPELESSLY DEVOTED TO YOU #YOU ARE HIS EVERYTHING HIS NORTH STAR HIS REASON FOR EXISTENCE #AND YOU THOUGHT HE'D HANDLE YOUR KIDNAPPING PRANK WELL???? #AHHHHHH

[nulltune]

#&&. isms #i Have to post this i'm sorry but this is simply #h. a k u n o #SCREAMS #sHE'S BY NO MEANS AN EVIL PERSON OK BUT LIKE #it's that extreme devotion....... #me thinking abt that one quote: #'if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks; i will follow you into the dark' #(sTARTS BANGING MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL) #she said it herself pretty blatantly too like- #'i was just empty in the beginning; so if you say that you're bad; then i will just dye myself in your colors' #<- SUCH A KILLER LINE BTW I LOSE MY SHIT EVERYTIME I THINK ABT IT SGDKDGFKSHFKEGWHDGWJDB #tho i must say; h.akuno's devotion does lean to dependency and i mean....... it makes sense for her to do so but #it's never healthy to place all of your self worth to someone (cough CODEPENDENCY cough) #which i wish canon would explore a little!!! we do get some crumbs on how extreme it can be so i'm like 👁👁 #I LOVE IT THOOO her feelings for that person is what gives her strength to keep moving forward #and yet it could also turn so terrible and become to her biggest flaw #GOOD FOOD it could've been so neat to explore 😩😩 (I GRIP CANON BY THE SHOULDERS AND SHAKE IT) #-cracks my knuckles- oh well i'll just have to do it in canon's stead VDMCAHFKDHDH #/HJ .....👀

[callilouv]

eugjghg........

#ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ idle chit chat #i love(?) belial sm #his whole character is so complex and i just!! wow..... #he blurs the lines of love and hate for me so so much #like.. i hate him so much that i kinda love him but at the same time its just not that simple? #hes just so fascinating to me hngjfng #no matter what i try to type out i cant seem to find the words to describe how i feel abt him😭 #i want to love him and i CAN but hes just so........ unloveable...... #the things id do to make him feel reciprocated love/devotion but at the same time hes just too deep into it that he'd self sabotage #and its not that simple either. there r so so so so many unsaid feelings and emotions when it comes to him #he is the literal emobdmiment of chaos #HE is a MESS #his mind is a mess. the way he thinks is a mess. his whole situation is a mess. quite literally everything about him is chaotic!! #craving chaos so much that chaos itself becomes a part of your very soul.... #'Look into the abyss of his heart and what does one find? A feeling of insecure narcissism or is it altruistic benevolence?' THIS11)(!@* #you literally dont know what ur getting into when it comes to him . hes a surprise #hes just so untrustworthy and unpredictable that it messes with my mind #but its ok.... i still love him in a very complicate and complex way #sory i read a bunch of rlly good fics abt him and just wanted to ramble hngnfnjg #its 1am sobs and my mind is filled with him #i want to say SO SO SO SO SOOOO many more things but . but im at a loss for words tbh #i hate and love him so much at the same time

[johnmeowston]

the cod writers physically have to hold me back from just killing everyone all the time btw 

#txt #WHYYY DID THEY MAKE ALEJANDRO HAVE LIKE THIS (IMPLIED) ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP W #VALERIA!!! LIKE !! RUDY IS LITERALLY RIGHT THERE IDKK #its just like. Ok. why as a man do you devote your life to another man (both ways) and always talking abt him wheneve ryou have the chance #and upon them reuniting they just star cradling each other. LIKE IDK THATS KINVE!! THATS KINDVE LGBT #dont even get me STARTED on bell. furioiusrn

[ariveth]

constantly torn between wanting ariveth to eventually open up and find true love, and also not wanting anybody to be put through the sort of hell that would entail 🤔🤔🤔

#if you wanted to ship with me no u didnt ♡ #✗ — OOC ｡ #this is why every romantic plotting session ends with me saying 'ok and then shes gonna leave at the end' lmfao #it'd just be an annoying process from start to finish #where the other muse gets put through the emotional grinder and. for what sjhksfdj #ok im not being totally fair to her. i think she'd be wonderfully loving and devoted to whoever she'd finally commit to #but it'd be such an undertaking to try get to that point with her. and not very fair or pleasant for the other person #also im sorry why are my headcanons always 10% in the actual post and 90% in the tags. wtf #and yes kokomo is still on the brain. help me