#like physically exhausted

[wu-does-art]

coming out as a "Will snores obnoxiously loud" and "Nico breaths so quietly you can barely tell hes alive" truther

#LISTEN OKAY. WILL WORKS CRAZY HOURS. EXHAUSTS HIMSELF PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY #hes going to snore. really loud. as soon as he hits the pillow. #its not uncommon for even people who dont snore! that i know anyways. #happened to family members of mine who dont usually snore #also additionally nico sleeps like a corpse so it works out for both of them #i think personally nico is usually like 3/4's awake but once his body actually lets him rest? out. gone. #sleep deprived x also sleep deprived for different reasons #also on a different note (slightly) i feel like will just grabs nico sometime in the middle of the night like hes his teddy bear #nico is lets himself get dragged into wills arms because he too. is completely and utterly asleep #solangelo #nico di angelo #will solace #the sun and the star #rrverse #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo

[steamclouds]

The menace of the South Downs, of course Crowley gets his own bike too :)

Aziraphales' scooter

#of course he cant pose like a normal person #you KNOW he made the exhaust louder than it physically can be #Crowley #anthony j crowley #good omens #good omens season 2 #good omens prime #david tennant #neil gaiman #my art #digital art #fanart

[the-cookie-of-doom]

"I don't want to talk about this." Kim doesn't have anyone he can talk to about this.

Porsche takes three shot glasses out from behinds the bar and lines them up. Fills each. "Drink," he orders.

Kim side-eyes the glasses. Looks around the bar; near-empty at this hour.

He drinks, one after the other. It burns going down.

"I'm still not talking about it," he says.

"I know." Porsche pulls a single shot for himself. Kim admires his restraint. Then again, only one of them can afford to get laid out, and Porsche has decided it's going to be Kim.

Kim taps one of the glasses, and Porsche obliges him with two more pours. By the time he sets the second face down on the bar top, he feels it. Warmth in his face and cotton in his head. He can convince himself he's barely tipsy, so long as he doesn't move his head, because then the earth tips out from under him. Tipsy.

"Ready to talk about it?"

"Ask me."

"Are you trying to sleep with my baby brother?"

Kim hums. Shakes his head. Regrets it. "Nope, not ready."

Porsche whistles, impressed, and pours another shot.

"You're going to be so fucked up tomorrow."

The six shots Kim sucked down slam him twenty minutes later. He should have expected it; Porsche probably did, and that's why he's laughing at Kim now, snapping pictures of him slumped over the bar and moaning in misery, offering no comfort. It was Porsche's idea to get him loose-lipped with truth serum in the form of alcohol, but Kim let him do it, so it was his fault, really.

Once Porsche has gotten enough blackmail material to last a lifetime, he closes up the bar, then drags Kim over to a booth so they can talk.

"So. Porchay."

"Porchay," Kim agrees, a lyrical slur into his arms.

"You wanna tell me what's going on there?"

"I like him s'much. He's so, so-mmm, good, he's good, and nice, and..." Kim trails off, mumbling something incoherent. "Kissed him."

"What?"

"I kissed him. On his face. I missed. He smells s'good. I wanna kiss 'im again."

Porsche laughs. "Are you trying to sleep with him?"

"Mmmno. Maybe?" Kim tries to push himself upright, and only manages to slump enough enough that he can side-eye Porsche as he says, "Dunno how."

"What?"

"Are you gonna be mad?"

"Probably not. What do you mean, you don't know how?" Kim makes a miserable sound. His eyes are fever-bright, and his cheeks are flushed, and Porsche is pretty sure it's not just from the alcohol. Kim buries his face back in his arms to hide. "Kim, are you-?"

"No." He waves a hand at Porsche. "Kinda."

"Kinda."

"You know."

Porsche does know, but he a mean part of him wants to make Kim say it, because he's an asshole, and bullying little brothers is what he does. He's definitely not going to bully Chay about this, his poor brother would die. So he can harass his own boyfriend's younger brother instead. He relents, though, because Kim looks all kinds of pitiful and sad when he next surfaces from the sanctuary of his arms. Scratch that, he looks distressed.

"I think I want to, I do, I want it - but I haven't - and Chay - I don't want to - what if I'm not-"

"Take a deep breath, kiddo." Kim does. "What, you're afraid of disappointing him?" A small nod, and Kim looks so young, and nervous, that it pulls at Porsche's heart. "Aww. You couldn't."

"Yuh-huh," Kim mumbles.

"Nah. Trust me. That kid is so gone on you." This makes Kim smile. Bright and beautiful and bigger than Porsche has ever seen. In person, at least.

"I love him so much."

"Yeah?" Porsche knows for a fact that Kim has not told Chay as much. He already knows how smitten Kim is, and has for a while - it's why they're having this conversation at all, because Kim is over his head in love, and doesn't know what to do about it, and God forbid he talk about it sober - but the confirmation is nice to hear.

"I gotta - gotta tell him." Kim squirms around until he successfully gets his phone out of his pocket, pushing at the buttons on his lock screen in an unsuccessful attempt to open it. Porsche careful reaches across and take it from him.

"Hey, no, absolutely not. The first time Chay hears that from you is not going to be in the middle of your drunken ranting. He deserves better than that."

Doesn't mean he won't want to know about it later, though, which is why Porsche has had his phone on and recording this entire exchange. He'll save it for their wedding.

"I'll write him a song," Kim declares. "I'll write so many songs, a whole album. all about him, I'll-I'll-" He seemingly loses his train of thought, patting around the table like he's looking for something. Probably a pen. Porsche helpfully hands him one, and Kim latches onto it, scribbling lyrics into a napkin. Porsche can't wait to see what he comes up with later.

"Why haven't you talked to him?" Porsche gently prompts, interrupting his creative flow. He's pretty sure whatever lyrics Kim is coming up with right now are nonsensical anyway.

"Afraid."

"Oh what? Of him rejecting you? Because that's impossible."

Kim shakes his head, looks like he's about to throw up, manages not to. "The other thing."

"What other thing?"

"Him wanting me." Except Chay does want Kim, and Kim has to know it. He's not blind. Porsche tells him as much, and Kim shakes his head, says, "He thinks so, because he doesn't have me. But if he does, and he doesn't want me anymore, because I don't, I don't..."

Porsche thinks Kim might say, I don't know how to be loved, and it breaks his heart. He slides around the booth so he can pull Kim into his side, and tries not to react when Kim bursts into tears. He didn't know Kim knew how to cry.

"Chay's so good, he's everything, and I'm not, I'm not, I don't-"

"Hey, hey, stop that. Calm down, it's okay, you're okay. Come on, what's all this?" Porsche ruffles his hair and laughs. "You're Wik! You're Khimhan Theerapanyakul.

Kim wheezes, "Not good," and Porsche crushes him in a one-armed hug that Kim doesn't even try to fight.

"Good enough for my little brother. Kay? Trust me, I'm the expert, and I'm giving you my blessing. So pull yourself together."

"Nnng?"

"Yeah, idiot, I'm giving you my permission to defile Chay."

"I wanna hold his hand and kiss his cheek and take him on a date. A real date. Imma get him flowers. What kind of flowers does he like?"

"He's allergic."

"Oh."

"But you can still do the other stuff."

"Oh." Another brilliant smile. "Yay."

"But before that..." Porsche waits for Kim to put it together, but he doesn't, blinking up at Porsche with his big brown eyes and waiting for direction. Porsche finishes the thought. "You have to talk to him first."

"Oh. Not yay."

"Hey, at least you already know what the answer's gonna be." Porsche cuffs his shoulder. "Do it for Chay, so you can have all that filthy hand-holding and cheek kisses and dates."

-

The next day greets Kim with the worst hangover he's had in his life, his body violently rejecting every ounce of alcohol he forced into it. When he can stop throwing up long enough to string together a coherent thought, he texts Porsche to inform him he's the worst person alive, his ideas are horrible, Kim is never trusting him again, and he's going to kill him the next time he sees him, just for good measure. His body hurts in ways he didn't know were possible, and it's Porsche's fault, and vengeance will be had. Just as soon as he can walk again.

Drink plenty of fluids! Porsche cheerfully replies. And don't forget to talk to Chay. Or else I'm sending him the video of you last night.

Well.

Fuck.

#cookie writes #kimchay #this is so stupid #but I love the idea that Kim really DOES want to talk but he CANT #physically CAN NOT #so Porsche is like hey what if we get you drunk #and Kim is like bet #anyway #Kim goes to see Chay the next day and he looks like a wet cat #Porsche is like are you really going to confess to him like this? #Kim is like you don't get to judge when this is literally your fault #it's a good thing Chay likes cats #i'm exhausted I'm going to bed now lmao

[trick-of-the-troubles]

this world that has promised so much has delivered so little

because the people who made this world did not make it with us in mind

and the people who had the power to change the flawed system have instead chosen again and again to do what's easy rather than what's right

and it's hard living in a world that didn't think of you in the first place

and you deserve better than to be an afterthought

and i love you

and i'm sorry

#i wrote this when i was upset and exhausted at like 2am #was thinking about editing it to flow better but i think that the more direct emotion/original version is better #this could apply to many things i think but i wrote it with physical disability in mind #dont worry about derailing - this post can be about whatever you need it to be about /gen #disability #disabled #physical disability #cpunk #physically disabled #cripple punk #chronic illness #chronic pain #writing #creative writing #disability poetry

[lazarus---rising]

Just saw a "buy tumblr crabs day" post and like . I thought we agreed to stop buying stuff as part of the replacement for the blackout . Yk maybe staff is making shit updates cause we complain about it in posts which they arent very likely to see instead of like actually doing shit [like anything at ALL] about it like using the support box to tell staff that they need to start thinking [https://www.tumblr.com/tf2heritageposts/722663168237764608/alright-they-are-not-going-to-do-an-algorithm <- this explains how to] . Like we need to start doing things maybe

#slash light hearted im fucking exhausted [like physically and mentally . Eepy] and a bit mad just like at everything

[imwritesometimes]

"would you consider living for me?"

#shogun spoilers #bro. I straight up SOBBED. UGLY STYLE. SNOTTY STYLE. EVERY SECOND AFTER THAT. SLOPPY SNOTTY. SOBBING. #BODY WRACKING SOBS. I AM PHYSICALLY EXHAUSTED. FROM CRYING. I HAVE BEEN GUTTED. LIKE THERE'S ANOTHER EP #AND I SAID IT WASN'T A DEAL BREAKER BUT ALSO #THEY WERE POST-COITAL SPOONING. AND THEY WERE BATTLE COUPLE. #AND HE WAS GONNA SECOND HER RATHER THAN LET HER THINK SHE WAS GOING TO DIE AND BURN IN HELL FOR ALL ETERNITY #I AM GOING TO VOMIT FOR 6 DAYS #erin watches shogun #fx shogun #spoilers

[revvethasmythh]

not to be dramatic, but why are they like this

#the way this has been circulating in their discussions for like TEN episodes-- #are they not tired. because I'm EXHAUSTED #this is like what if Ashton's ''I've known a loneliness you don't'' debacle lasted over ten fucking weeks #like you'd think orym had physically himself fed bor'dor soul to delilah like giving feed to a horse the way they talk about it #anyway dropping this and leaving because I need to go workout bye <3 #if you are weird I will turn reblogs off okay bye <3

[whumpacabra]

Have your character toss and turn all night because they forgot a dose of their pain medication, so they get up the next morning on the verge of tears because they’re so tired and in so much pain.

#whump #whump prompt #exhaustion #pain #pain medication #personal silly stuff: #it’s me I’m the character. <- brushed my teeth and didn’t want to have to eat something to take my pain meds last night #and ohhhhh boy was that a mistake 🙃 ough my bones #also guess who has to get the funnel traps from the field site today by himself <3 that’s right this girl. they’re gonna kill someone. #o7 my physical therapist told me I was in a horrible career for my condition and it’s like boy I know. trying to get the last few years of #my legs I got left before I can’t hike and snowshoe and climb trees #I will simply afflict my fictional blorbos to cope

[askthebadkidz]

Hot take I Think if Sklonda heard Pok tell Riz that work is his version of love she would have decked him so fast.

-Mod Fig

#fantasy high #d20 #dimension 20 #This is probably 100% incorrect but #I do not trust the man that went to workaholic heaven to give his son advice like that ya know #Riz’s ‘work as a form of love’ is unhealthy and physically exhausts him and he has not reason to work that hard as a form of love #He is not providing his is working because he perceives himself to not be good enough for natural friendship #And I think Sklonda knows that

[uncanny-tranny]

Some tips I've found which actually help me, as somebody with periodic elbow, shoulder, and finger pain when crocheting:

Choosing smaller projects, or projects that recommend hooks that are 5.00mm, as larger hooks trigger pain

Wearing compression gloves when my hands get too cold to function (stylish! Mine have copper infused in them, but I don't think it's necessary at all)

Figuring out which material in yarn helps with pain and how tiring your craft is

Unfortunately, take breaks

Try being realistic about what you are willing to sacrifice and risk in terms of pain. There will be times where you cannot do something without risk, and being able to weigh out your willingness for risk can be crucial.

(From what I have heard) use pillows to prop up yourself if you're sitting for a project may help reduce some pain

Your enjoyment > anything else

Hand and wrist stretches that are accessible to you

If anybody has things that help them, share it! I limited it to my perspective as somebody who has aches and pains in the arm I crochet with, but this is not limited to either pain nor crochet. Accessibility in crafts is imperative, and we can all help in making resources for people to learn from <3

#art #fiber art #crochet #disability #i dont think my own pain in this is disabling /but/ i think it could be useful to compile this list for anybody who is disabled by pains/ect #unfortunately crochet is very physically demanding and i think even abled people can find it exhausting #I don't think people realize how demanding chrochet can be even IF you're completely able to do it wothout struggle #also i don't buy into the idea that copper helps with pain - like maybe it seems too good to be true but it FEELS like pseudoscience to me #i could be wrong - i only got my gloves because they were fingerless and they were the only hand compression garments i could find in person #the funniest thing about my first project is that i'm using an 8.00mm hook and. OW. exhausting...

[lgbtlunaverse]

Payment for surrogacy gets really complicated because on one hand paying for it means most surrogates will end up being lower class women who need the money and will be easier to exploit, something which is rife in the current implementation of surrogacy, but on the other hand being pregnant is genuinely like body horror to me and I think that if you go through that for someone else you should get a billion dollars.

#surrogacy #this is a joke post but also like... no i'm being serious #i understand why paying for something potentially dangerous is immoral #on the other hand... this undermining of consent is the basis our entire capitalistic system lives on #to force people into exhausting cruel undepraying and yes dangerous jobs #so why is it that only for something like childbirth are we like noooo they cant be financially compensated for this incredibly hard thing #like why is ONLY this thing bad why isn't it just as bad if that same woman who would've become a surrogate has to work in a sweatshop #i think it's also got to do with our mythologizing around pregnancy as this wonderful beauty of nature thing #we are capable of recognizing the body horror when it's unwanted (well. some of us.) #but pregnancy doesn't stop being incredibly physically and mentally taxing just because the baby is wanted #so we see being paid for it as this corruption of the 'natural' 'good' pregnancy and therefore obviously worse. which. i am not a fan of

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

honestly wally is stronger than atlas. if i had to constantly calibrate to the nature of my reality w/ full consciousness i would simply lose my fucking mind

#like babies dont Think while they learn how to exist #imagine straight up spawning fully aware and then everyone else is up to speed but youre standing there like #🧍‍♂️uh. hello. what is everything. what is this. huh???? #LIKE???? i feel so bad for him. dude got dropped right into the middle of the ocean and was told 'learn to swim' #and hes trying. but he doesnt know what drowning is so he cant sink either #i mean i get it at least a little bit! its the Autism Experience but w/ him the dial is cranked up to a thousand #you dont know what you dont know but life goes on like you should. fuck #wally i am mentally beaming you a thousand apples grown in the shape of hearts #i believe in you dude you'll figure it out #well. im probably beaming apples into the past if the time discrepancy is real but yk yk #cause if it is then Current Wally probably has a solid handle on things. from a basic standpoint #in a wider lens i am led to believe that he is Scrabbling #is this speculation??? #i think it counts. #wh speculation #homebogging #whenever i think about the tidbits we know - ex: wally learning about differences in size #internally i start howling. wally is just constantly dealing with things that would drive a person insane if they had to live it #how is he not Exhausted... it's all so much for someone who knows whats going on let alone someone scrambling to catch up #at least the other neighbors dont have to deal with memorizing physics and skills and behavior #and just Literally Everything That Comes With Being Alive #wally is a blank slate left to write itself. #ough. damn. fuck. i think i need to go stare into the woods for a bit...

[ganondoodle]

as cool as their design is im really starting to dislike the sonau in general, aside from their stuff suddendly being everywhere and everything being about them and how cool(tm) they are now with the mystery stone turning people into dragons and the similarities between the sonau and the three dragons (naydra, eldra, farodra) its actually not an impossibility that they used to be sonaus as alot of people have been theorizing about ..but ...... idk that would very much ruin their otherwordly yet ethereal mystery to me

i probably sound like some hater whos trying to find something more to dislike about totk all the time but i promise im not!!

the three dragons being some unexplained mystery, beings that are there yet few can see them, timeless, nigh untouchable, they dont act on anything, they dont talk, something about them has always made me look at them in awe; if it turned out they were just yet another cool(tm) sonau guy that ate a stone ... :/

not a fan of that one lads, but dont worry, i will keep my thoughts to myself from now on, i dont want to ruin other peoples fun nor seem like i just hate everything ... the three dragons are just really important to me so i had to say something

#ganondoodles talks #tloz #totk #totk spoilers #totk spoiler #besides i have leanred that i tend to have the unpopular opinions and frankly im tired of the hate directed at me #if you disagree thats fine but please dont spam me with why you think its cool actually #bc it just feels like yet another argument starting as to why im wrong and need to be talked down to and also suck actually #sorry its been all over my timeline on twitter so i just had to throw my dumbass opinion out there again #and it was a few times more than id like in a row where my random thought posts where torn apart by arguing people needing to prove im wron #the dragons where something i just absolutely loved in botw #they hold a special place in my heart and i dont like the thought of them too being just yet another sonau thing #i feel more secure posting my thoughts here than on twitter #but still i dont want to sound overly negative so i will hold back from now on #unless im exhausted and overly tired and not feeling that great physically like right now i guess lol #ill just have to grit my teeth and try to ignore everything i dont like but everyone else loves like always #anyway i need some sleep #ill be fine after that i think #and then try to resume work on destiny and a commission i havent had the energy to get to

[darubyprincx]

ok give me like two hours to write a oneshot about lag-induced chronic pain and its effects on players (specifically in minecraft)

#ray's tag #'ray how do you have such a good idea of what lag feels like' you see. In our headspace when our brain is going a billion miles an hour #i have to focus up here to move around and talk and things #so when our brain is going haywire i am sometimes physically unable to focus #and it affects my physical state pretty heavily. it manifests as me basically glitching the fuck out #it is NOT fun it is EXTREMELY exhausting and VERY painful. and also from what my headmates have told me pretty scary to watch. #so yeah lets just say that i have experience with this sort of thing #also i played mcpe on a kindle fire for almost ten years and my internet connection was TERRIBLE #rip my ping when i tried to play mineplex

[skunkes]

finally labelled the sketchbook ive been working in which ive had since late college years and only ever drew in during class since we're reaching da end, and even though theres only like 10 pages left im nervous that by doing this ive cursed myself to suddenly lose interest in drawing on paper and never touch it again LOL

#talkys #id be a sign painter if it werent so part time and likely to physically exhaust me from drawing once i finished work

[alwaysneedyforsir]

is a hug too much to ask for

#seriously #i’m jus #so so goddamn touch starved #like i would do insane things to just get a hug rn #a proper hug that lasts like two seconds #so so tired #physically but also #emotionally n mentally drained rn #tired n exhausted n straight up numb #i get myself out of this shitty place n then fall right back into it again #just #a proper night’s sleep where i don’t wake up exhausted and dreading the day ahead #n a fucking hug #seriously when did a hug become too much to ask for #i’ll probably wake up n be horrified n delete this so enjoy my rambles for the next like #3.5-4ish hours before i’m awake again? #fml! #it’s fine i’m fine everything’s fine #i just need someone to hug me while i sleep a full night #and the chances of me finding that anytime soon are #too low to even try n pretend to calculate #goodnight y’all #wishing y’all the hugs that i can’t seem to get #me #my thoughts