#mania is worse time for talking to people back to back to back

[rabbitindisguise]

Me, earlier this week: socializing :D

Me now:

#note to self #mania is worse time for talking to people back to back to back #i feel seasick #mental illness #personal #i want my partner's company to refill my social batteries #but they're understandably unconscious #i should go to bed early to have lots of energy for the weekend #thankfully all my therapy work has let me catch the Signs so I'm leaning back instead of into the madness #remains continuously weird that i am bipolar tbh #like bro there was a helpful explanation the whole time? 😭 wish i (privately) knew earlier #like Saturday last week my social battery was on its last legs right cool okay #hit Wednesday and suddenly the emergency light is going off and I'm getting a little be close to uncomfortably little amount of sleep #but not today mental illness! #i see your game #i am Wise to these Tricks #I'm gonna have some food and then get ready for bed

[serendipityandbenevolence]

I gotta say, when I passed out last night after writing this post, I didn't expect to wake up to people actually liking it. but hey! thanks for the support. As per my little footnote (if you didn't read it then sucks to be you ig) the people who commented got first choice of which characters im going to write. love y'all by the way <3 which means that first up is... Dottore! (as requested by @amber-sekio and @gallantys)

(I am not playing rn when I say that I spent a large amount of time reading Dottore x reader fanfic so I could figure out how the hell to write him and this is probably still ooc but i did my best)

Contains - Yandere behavior (kept to a minimum though) dottore being a charming ray of a human (he mentions enslaving other countries), discussions of blood and injuries

"Dottore?"

The silence from the hallway was almost deafening. The sudden intense quiet was broken only by the gentle crackle of the fire, a welcome reprieve as your words hung in the air. Perhaps it was stupid, to call for a person who may not be there and who, of all the Harbingers, might be the most likely to still attempt to kill you. A foolish whim, but nearly dying does funny things to a person's rational.

Your door slid open silently, revealing the Doctor himself peering in at you. He did not appear to be wearing his mask, but with the low light and strands of blue hair covering his face, you couldn't make out his features well.

"Yes? Can I help you?"

Something was wrong. His voice was too soft, his words too gentle, the whole demeanor was wrong. You knew he had segments that acted differently, but you couldn't imagine Dottore ever being that kind sounding. But you were in too deep.

"Can you come in here, please? I need to ask you a question."

A few murmurs struck up behind him, but Dottore simply nodded and stepped into the room, turning his back to you as shut the door.

"You know..." he mused as he clicked the lock shut.

Ah, there it was. With the door closed, his voice changed, with that hint of cruelty and mania that you had come to associate with him lacing his words. His blood red eyes bored into you, a sly smile creeping across his face.

"Oh, what's with the expression? You seem a little scared of me, Divine One. Am I not as nice as you assumed?"

He didn't allow you to answer, pacing closer to where you lay, buried beneath the pile of blankets.

"There's really no need to be scared of me. After all, I was the one who nursed you so lovingly back to health when you were brought here out of the cold. Aren't I so generous?"

"You healed me?"

You didn't bother hiding your concern. You kicked off your pile of blankets and assessed your body, trying to see if any of your organs were missing.

"My my, do you have such little faith in me? I am a doctor after all. One of the best I'll have you know."

He leaned against the wall by your bedside, giving you a rather unnerving grin.

"Well, you have my undivided attention. What was it that you wanted to ask me?"

You were starting to think that it was a very bad idea to ask for Dottore, but you also suspected that saying you wanted to talk to someone else would go over even worse.

"Yes, I just...wanted to know what I missed while I was asleep. You know, with the other nations."

"Ahh, of course! Well, upon some reflection they seem to have come to the conclusion that you are the actual creator and not a 'fake' as they so cruelly labelled you. Needless to say, quite a few letters of apology have been sent begging for your forgiveness for their dreadful ignorance. Including-"

He reached over to you, laying a shockingly gentle hand upon your bandaged side.

"-the one who nearly killed you."

"You know who it is?" you asked in surprise.

"But of course! Simply assessing your wound, I could tell the weapon and the particular style of it, which made it rather easy to cross-referencing that with the time and location that you were attacked and deduce your attacker with little difficulty. "

"Really?"

He scoffed. "No, of course not. They mentioned in their letter that they were the one who harmed you."

Dottore stepped away from you, pacing towards the door as he pulled a crumpled note from his pocket and tossed it onto the end of your bed.

"You should read it sometime, it is truly a delightfully pathetic read. They only made one mistake."

"Mistake?"

He turned to look at you and you saw that all of the cruel humor that had covered his face was gone, replaced with an infinitely scarier coldness.

"They signed their name. So now, I know exactly who will be my next experiment, when we invade the other nations."

There was silence for a moment, before his features softened and he let out a soft laugh.

"You should sleep. It's the best medicine after all. We can discuss this more in the morning."

Dottore went to turn from you once more, but paused as you opened your mouth.

"Dottore, burn the letter. I don't want to read what they have to say."

A wicked grin flashed across his face as he snatched the letter back up and strode towards the fire.

"You know, I think-"

He tossed the letter into the embers and watched as it instantly caught alight.

"-that you and I will get along very, very well."

Dottore pulled the door open and gave you one last comment before leaving, not even turning his head.

"Sweet dreams, Your Grace."

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That took me so long to write guys 😭 but anyway i hope you liked it! like i said earlier, i struggle a bit with dottore because he has all his different segments with different personalities but i think this turned out okay.

Also, the order for the next few harbingers will go as such

Tartaglia- requested by @gallantys and @followingyou247

Pierro - requested by @mistresssasori

Capitano - requested by @moonlite-drabbles @megsthings and @legendarysacrificer-blog (yall really love him clearly)

If you guys want to help me pick the order after that, go ahead in the comments!

also tagging @heizoubeloved in this because you mentioned wanting to see more!

#yandere genshin #genshin x reader #genshin impact #genshin sagau #dottore x reader #fatui x reader #fatui harbingers

[bugs1nmybrain]

Bipolar!Shigaraki Tomura Headcanons

I'm writing it. Because I CAN

Before I start, I am writing these headcanons as someone who has been diagnosed with Bipolar Type 1 for almost three years now. I frankly could not care less if people don't think he has Bipolar Disorder, I'm writing this for my comfort and that of others who either have Bipolar disorder or just resonate with the idea that Tomura does.

and I'm also very aware of Bipolar Disorder being stigmatized as something that affects "bad" people. I'm not trying to suggest this, but that Tomura is someone who is neglected of treatment.

Warning: Bipolar disorder as title suggests (Tomura's symptoms relate to type 1 more), talks of depression, mania, psychosis, suicidality, etc, angst?

Tomura has never been given a formal diagnosis and likely has no clue that he has bipolar disorder himself. He doesn't know much about it, either, other then the stereotype that people with general mood swings are "so bipolar."

The doctor knows, AFO does too, but for them, they see it as more ammo for their arsenal to make sure Tomura's life is nothing but agony. He's never been treated with medications or therapy. Nothing.

Because he isn't medicated, his episodes are pretty strong. His manic episodes sort of blend in with his everyday behavior to a lot of people.

It's during this time that he finds himself planning out grand operations against the heroes. Some of his ideas seem unrealistic and not well thought out. They're more just ideas thrown around, and he jumps to gather people and means to carry out his goal before actually having a calculated plan.

He's up all night doing this. But if he's not, he's likely gaming. He huddles up in his room with multiple cans of energy drinks (as if he didn't already have way too much energy).

(semi-canon) will text his comrades at godforsaken hours either asking, demanding, or just rambling about stuff. If he gets an answer, the recipient often finds themself confused because Tomura just talks and talks and talks, and when he's in the heat of some plan or project he doesn't really stop to compose his sentences or even take a damn breath.

He impulsively buys things, like copious amounts of in-game purchases. Or DoorDash. If he's feeling reeeaaal bold he'll go for a whole-ass gaming console if he can, even if his current one is perfectly fine. Or assembling as many thugs as he can and feeling generous enough to overpay them when they definitely don't need the amount of money he's giving them.

You can see how when AFO was arrested, his lifestyle shifted in this regard.

Tomura is already an irritable guy, and so his mania can make it worse. He gets very overstimulated with all of his sensations that little things, like accidentally stubbing his toe, can make him mad as fuck for a good thirty minutes.

He also gets very paranoid about others. When he talks to people, he's already convinced that they are tricking him somehow and he'll read every cue he can to confirm it, even if the proof isn't even there.

Even when he's out in public and by himself, he thinks everyone is mocking, judging, and looking at him. That also comes with being the most wanted villain around, but that's beside the point.

When something finally goes his way, he is HAPPY. Sometimes the League will catch Tomura smiling his face off for no apparent reason (odd for him), and will ask what's up, only for Tomura to CACKLE back with, "ehehAHAH NOTHING!! THAT's just IT!"

They look at each other like, but just let him go about his day. They'll later hear him giggling to himself in his room, and sometimes talking to himself. He'll deny and just tell them he was on chat (his devices are not open and he is standing in the middle of his room).

Because he's not medicated, his mania can trickle into psychotic symptoms. Especially if he's going through more stress than typical. He hears voices that tell him mean things. Sometimes they're the voices of his dead family.

And because he doesn't sleep much, he sees detailed shadows and things moving that aren't. It disturbs him, but he accepts it and tries to just push on. But sometimes if he hears voices more than he'd like, he gets sad and has to grip his head and whisper "shut up shut up shut up" to negate them.

He's delusional, too. AFO's grooming and constant monitoring of his whole life have definitely emphasized his distrust of everything around him. Sometimes he'll think that the people he's gaming with online are secret hero spies trying to get him to reveal himself. He also has a fear that someone is watching him in every location, and he'll think that even the silliest things are cameras or microphones, or that those around him are also spies. Later on, it becomes paranoia that his master is everywhere.

Then comes the doom of depression

For Tomura, he's technically always depressed. But when he goes into a depressive episode, he's pretty lifeless.

He's complacent about his goals. Sometimes he'll get a tiny idea that makes his brain go !, but then he thinks of all the planning behind it and immediately slouches down on any nearby furniture

He'll lay in bed for a long period of time doing nothing. Sometimes he'll try to play a game on his phone but he gets bored quick.

Tends to eat more during this time because it's the only joy he can get. And he gets bored. He is SO BORED

Anhedonia is a bitch

His brain dwells and rambles, yet his thoughts don't make sense to him? He's constantly thinking about how fucked up his life is, how better other villains are, and how much he hates All Might and heroes altogether. He tells himself that if it wasn't for all of that he wouldn't feel this way (relating to the depressive episode).

It overwhelms him and he tries to sleep it off, but he's somehow so depressed that he's UNCOMFORTABLE. His itching gets bad.

He is very suicidal during this time and hurts himself to try and subside it. If you asked him his reason for living, he'd tell you "to see this world crumble." But he's too busy crumbling in his bed.

Psychotic symptoms can occur during his depression, too. Especially if he hasn't slept.

His lack of medication usually causes him to swap back to mania somewhat soon (2 months or so). He definitely has rapid cycles.

Because his condition isn't managed, his brain is sort of in an in-an-out stance when it comes to his literal sanity. He has moments where he can definitely be level-headed (he gets rrly confident when he notices it) but when his anger and stress fuel him more than usual, he spirals and quite literally sees red. Sometimes he can't even tell if he's dreaming or not. Often mistakes the date and day of the week.

:(

I might write a fic of the reader comforting bipolar tomura. I don't think I've ever seen a fic like that for any character.

#shigaraki tomura #shigaraki tomura headcanons #tomura shigaraki #tenko shimura #shigaraki headcanons #bipolar shigaraki #the league of villains #shiggy #shigaraki x reader

[gatitties]

Hai hai!!! I hope your having a good day, lad.

Can I have a StrawHats x Teen! Reader who suffers from Anxiety? the reader is strong for their age though but under all that tough exterior they are still a child. I suffer from it myself and I wanna know how the crew handles a younger person with it. The reader has a habit of clutching their chest whenever they feel that overwhelming feeling coming through, and even has anxiety attacks now and then. It would be sweet seeing the crew comforting them.

Pleaaase and Thank you! Take your time I know people have other things going on in life besides Tumblr!

─Strawhats x teen!reader (platonic)

─Summary: you have an anxiety attack but luckily they are there to cover your back

─Warnings: none

(Related part)

Dealing with anxiety is quite a struggle, I hope everything goes well for you friend, a big hug to all of you who also fight against it 🫂

─ Being the youngest only means that you will have a little more attention in case something happens to you, this doesn't mean that everyone doesn't knows that you are strong enough to fight your own battles, otherwise you would not be on board.

─ That's probably why at first you hid your little moments of anxiety as best you could, despite being the youngest, you wanted to see yourself as one of them, you don't need so much attention or seek anyone's approval to make your own decisions.

─ You were a teenager despite everything, a stubborn and proud one who doesn't accept the help of others so easily, although you learned to toughen your exterior, your interior was as soft as plasticine.

─ But bad habits never die, whenever you had stronger anxiety attacks unconsciously your hands were positioned on your chest, squeezing to try to make the feeling in the pit of your stomach disappear.

─ Robin and Chopper were the first to notice this when you were in some stressful situations, and they immediately knew that you weren't well, however you will lie so they don't worry.

─ Unfortunately, after the two of them noticed how sometimes your breathing stops out of nowhere, the anxiety attacks increased.

─ They began to subtly help you so that you wouldn't feel like they were helping you, your pride wouldn't allow it, if they noticed that you were starting to get anxious they would distract you by talking to you about anything or moving you to a quieter place.

─ But when it started to get worse, everyone noticed your mania when you felt anxious, except Luffy, he just thought that the food had made you sick.

─ Although when they explained it to him, he hit you on the nape for being an idiot, this man doesn't have a bit of tact, he scolded you for not trusting them covering your back, it's okay that you want to solve your problems on your own, but sometimes it's okay to ask for help.

─ And you collapsed after he told you that, Sanji hit Luffy for being so hard with his words and took you to the kitchen while preparing the meal, he asked you for help letting you do the simplest things to calm down.

─ The cook spoke much more calmly with you, you were able to release some of that pressure that oppressed your chest thanks to him.

─ After that, none of them seemed to behave differently, that is, if they helped you in a much more noticeable way when you had your attacks, but they didn't comment on anything, they simply helped you without asking anything, they knew that sometimes you can't get to talking in the middle of an attack.

─ Luffy will fight it off with hugs, Usopp will offer his hand for you to grab and squeeze, Chopper knows a lot of types of breaths to calm you down, Robin will pat you on the back, Nami will pat your head, Zoro will probably drag you into another quieter place (you end up lost), Sanji will probably kick the reason for your anxiety if he can, Brook will play something on his violin to relax your body, Franky will distract you with any of his new inventions and Jinbe will make you focus only in him to calm you down.

─ In general everyone knows that you will be fine on your own most of the time, but if you start to hold your chest it will be the sign to take action to give you a little hand, they did not make you feel weaker, you learned to better cope with anxiety by their side and luckily the attacks subsided a bit after that.

#op #one piece #one piece x teen!reader #platonic reader #headcannons #strawhats x reader #strawhats #strawhats x teen!reader #x reader #one piece x reader #platonic #one piece x platonic reader #sfw #request #reader is not specified so... #fem!reader #male!reader #gn reader #gn!teen!reader

[dinitride-art]

Mike Wheeler in Season Four (Analysis/Theory) pt.2/3

As I was saying, there’s a window with open blinds behind Mike and Will, and ‘open sign’ that we can see in the group shots, and the thought bubble that El sketched out framing the two of them. Everyone can see Mike looking to Will for reassurance. It’s not the same as season two when they were younger and it could be passed off more easily. It’s way more noticeable to the people around them now. And Mike keeps looking to Will, and Will keeps answering. And everyone can see it.

We see that Mike starts to look at bit tense after El and Argyle formulate the plan.

And then we see Will keeping close to Mike again. But there’s a more noticeable separation between Mike and El, created by this. Not one that anyone really seems adverse to though.

When Mike’s filling the pizza dough freezer with water, Will looks at him. And he looks concerned. The whole situation is tense, but this concern is specifically directed at Mike.

“What if [he] doesn’t need me anymore.” El’s back, and Will lied about the painting, and Will’s been the one that Mike’s been leaning on this whole time. Mike’s done this before. He did it when El came back in season three, he did it when he got to the airport, and Rink O’ Mania, and when they went back home and at breakfast when he wouldn’t talk to Will. Red tomatoes in the fridge, and a blue light behind Will’s head. He’s thinking that it’s happening again.

This time he was the one to push Mike towards El, though. But Will is an unreliable narrator. And we know that he doesn’t have all the facts. That Mike doesn’t love El like that. That Mike doesn’t talk to El like he talks to him.

But this is what Will’s seeing. And this time he understands why it’s happening. Because he played a key role in it.

Jonathan talking to Will about what’s going on is showing us that he can see it too. That Mike and Will reaching for each other isn’t going unnoticed. It’s the first time it’s mentioned this explicitly, but he’s not the only one to see it. Suzie was looking at Mike looking back at Will, Argyle called Mike out the first time he met him for being fake, Jonathan’s been looking at the two of them the entire time, and El put them in a thought bubble.

They’re seeing it and the audience is too.

We see Mike and Will (still) sticking really close together later, and this shot is showing us that Jonathan and Argyle can see them. It’s from over both Argyle and Jonathan’s shoulders. And they’ve got space between them. Mike’s hands are clenched and again, Mike’s in yellow light, and Will’s in blue. The background colours are the opposite of their outfits, both complimenting each other, and showing their contrasted roles.

As things get worse, Will starts shifting closer to both Mike and El. Mike’s hands are still curled up and he’s in the same tense posture that Jonathan is.

It’s easier to see a little later on. Jonathan and Mike are reflecting each other. And we know that Jonathan has been having problems with stress and anxiety and he’s been self medicating with weed. At least it’s implied that’s what’s happening with him. Their clothes even kind of reflect each other, with being open button ups (to an extent) and a white undershirt underneath showing. They’re all freaking out here, but the focus is on Mike and Jonathan. Although, it is mostly on Mike.

When El starts choking, everyone starts freaking out. Especially Mike. This is also where Will reaches out and touches Mike regardless of who’s looking at them. It’s like the shootout. They can reach for each other there because who gives a fuck? They might die and they’re scared enough that it doesn’t matter anymore. Similar situation with the monologue.

When Will puts his hand on Mike’s back, Mike is shocked. He literally whips around so fast his hair has a frame by frame journey. This is not a comforting gesture that can be written off as anything other than what it is. It’s not hidden, or small. Or anything that might be able to hide Mike and Will from everyone else.

Will’s reaching for Mike, because they’re all freaking out, but Mike’s been spiraling the entirely of this season. And Will’s been trying to keep Mike together this whole season. So, it makes sense that we’ve built up to Will’s hand on Mike’s back. (Not even his shoulder. Which can be seen as somewhat acceptable. Will’s hand. Is on Mike’s back. And that is very different.)

Confusion and devastated realization. Will just comforted him in a tense and stressful situation, and then slapped him in the face.

And there’s some weird stuff going on here with left eyes, and split facial expressions, and bright white lights, and Vecna- but I’m going to ignore that for right now.

Mike and Will both are hurt by what’s happening. Neither of them want this, El doesn’t want this- this is the first time this season that Will has hurt Mike since their fight at Rink O’ Mania. Not intentionally, here, but after spending the season trying to make sure Mike’s okay, this is a full turn around.

No ones happy with what’s going on here. No one.

But even after the monologue, and Will sitting a part from Mike and El, they’re still gravitating together. But their roles have swapped again.  Because now, Mike’s the one keeping close to Will. They’re both not doing well, though. So it might be that the two of them are keeping close to each other an equal amount now. Which isn’t a good thing. It might mean that they’re both starting to break.

This is the first hug between Mike and Will this season, and it’s very telling that Lucas is there as well. Group hugs are fine. Mike and Will hugging at the airport in front of a bunch of people they don’t know (and do know) is not.

Mike’s still tense here. Probably because he can see Max, and whatever guilt he has for not being there and letting her in to the party and Mike’s got a lot of reasons to be anxious right now. The looming threat of Vecna, his feelings for Will becoming more visible to the people around them as they get older, losing Max, El getting her powers back and his whole relationship with El, Eddie’s dead (he may or may not be aware of that by now- wasn’t shown or discussed), and the fact that Hawkins is very different from California. That’s a few reasons that Mike might be spiraling right now.

Hands clenched, eyes wide open. Whatever the reason may be- Mike’s not doing well. Will’s fingers curl into his back, and it’s another subtle hidden form of comfort from Will to Mike. But it’s hidden because Lucas is there and it seems normal within the context of a group hug.

Then El and Lucas hug, and Will’s taking up a considerable amount of this shot, so this might be showing us that two friends can indeed hug each other after a long time of not seeing each other. Contrasting what happened at the airport.

As they go to Max, Mike moves closer to Will. This time Will’s the one with clenched hands and tense posture. They’ve moved from Will comforting Mike, to an equal share of distress and comfort.

El leans on Mike, and Will’s head is tilted towards Mike. But they’re in a situation where they cannot safely reassure each other that it’s going to be okay.

Lucas might be picking up on what’s happening with them though. This is a shot that is similar to and OTS shot, so I’m going to assume it’s somewhat an indication of perspective as well. Because in this shot, Mike and Will are taking up half the frame and we can see Mike’s shirt pocket pointing to Will. And we, the audience, saw Mike gravitate towards Will.

There’s a new consistency with Mike and Will reaching out to each other, and then an indication that someone else is seeing it.

(usually it’s Jonathan)

(Suzie sees Mike looking back at Will, this is an OTS sort of shot again)

They are being perceived.

They keep looking to each other. And people keep looking at them. 

They’re beginning to notice that Mike and Will are different. 

#byler #the lights #shoving this there so i can find it again #one more to go #this got way longer than i thought it did and it broke the post #whoops #happens to the best of us i guess #mike wheeler

[mahoutoons]

the sonic franchise has a misogyny problem

hello everyone, are you ready for another long essay by me? because i sure am. this has been on my mind for a while now. i've already talked about how the sonic fandom tends to treat the female characters worse than the male characters. but what about the franchise? do they treat the female characters better? well, in this essay i'm gonna talk about the misogynistic aspects of the sonic franchise. i'm not just gonna focus on the games, but also on other adaptations. so sit back, and lets have a long talk.

(art by evan stanley)

the lack of recurring female characters

quick question, how many recurring female characters can you name off the top of your head? no, the non game characters don't count, and no, the ones who only appeared in one game and then disappeared don't count. i can only name four recurring female characters - amy, blaze, rouge, and cream. maybe vanilla too. compare that to the amount of recurring male characters - we have sonic, tails, knuckles, shadow, silver, the chaotix, eggman. yeah you can see the problem. and these four characters aren't even utilized that well as of late. blaze especially has so much potential. she lives in another dimension for christ's sake. but sega just doesn't do anything with her. she deserves her own game to explore her dimension. like, there's so much potential with these characters but they just don't do much with them.

the way they treat their lead female character

amy rose is the main female character of the sonic franchise. i've already written an entire essay on how she's treated so i'm gonna try and keep this short. the way sega used to treat their main female character is appalling. she already got enough hate from the fandom, and sega just didn't make it better. just look at how the social media team used to treat her

i have never seen any sonic characters get this much jabs from the social media team as her. heck, i've never seen a lead female videogame character get treated as badly as amy. and the way they purposely go to exclude her? just look at what happened with mania. it was supposed to be a celebration of all things classic sonic but they didn't have her there even though she was a classic character. instead they brought two characters from an obscure arcade game. which... yeah its nice to see obscure characters get the chance to shine but you don't have to exclude a main character for that. and even in origins, though she's in the marketing and cutscenes, she's not playable. why? and before you say "oh its because she wasn't playable before", tails and knuckles weren't playable in sonic 1 either yet they were able to be included there. so what's wrong with making amy playable? what else am i supposed to call the purposeful exclusion of the classic era's only female character other than misogyny? seriously, i've never seen any other franchise do this to their lead female character. even PRINCESS PEACH gets treated better. peach got her own damn game. what's sega's excuse? if they treat their lead female like this, what does it say about how they treat their other female characters?

and one last thing. i've already touched on this before but it makes me angry so i'm gonna rant on it again. the way sega seems to think amy's role in sa2 in reminding shadow of his true promise to maria is replaceable. and every time she's been replaced, its a male character who took her place (chris in x, implied to be sonic in archie). and honestly, i don't have high hopes that they'll let her keep that role in the movie either. i don't even have high hopes that she'll appear in the movie. forgive me for being a negative nancy but i've been disappointed too many times.

archie's treatment of its female characters

lets talk about archie now. pre reboot archie sonic, especially before flynn came around, was an embarrassment to the franchise for many reasons. but what i don't see many people talking about is how they treated their female characters.

lets start with sally, since she's the comic's lead female. those who know her from satam know her as the leader of the freedom fighters, a strategic genius, a no nonsense princess who is determined in her goals. but in archie, especially when penders came along, her agency was taken away. once king max was rescued, penders didn't know what to do with sally. so she had little personality besides being a princess. and need i mention how he tried to kill off sally in the most anticlimatic way? she spent most of the time after the endgame arc being stuck in the castle, not joining sonic and co on battles like she used to. and need i mention the utterly disgusting aspect that is her """"""relationship""""" with geoffrey? there is one issue i particularly remember when geoffrey kissed sally without her consent and sonic saw it from afar. what does he do? does he confront geoffrey about it? does he protect sally? nope, he just thinks that sally is trying to make him jealous. what the fuck?! she's legit being sexually harassed and you're just going to blame her for it? i know this was the 90s but STILL. and to make matters worse, sally is 16 while geoffrey is in his 20s.

and let me talk about how characters are introduced solely to be a love interest. like mina mongoose. i've got nothing against her but lets face it, she was introduced solely to create drama in sonic and sally's relationship. and they even gave her super speed just so she could have something sally didn't, so she could be a "competition" to sally. they didn't even do anything with it later. and flynn has it retconned so that mammoth mogul was the one that gave her that power.

and speaking of which..... ig every female character has taken interest in sonic at one point. we have sally, amy, mina, fiona, bunnie.... it seemed like they wanted sonic to have as many love interests as possible. i mean just look at this cover

and if they weren't into sonic, they were into any other boy. mostly knuckles. and speaking of which, lets talk about julie-su. she's supposed to be this strong woman type character but penders made her whole personality being knuckles' gf. she occassionally showed her "girl power" when she was sticking it to vector (who was turned into a misogynistic asshole to make julie look good. granted this was before heroes gave him a personality but after that you'd think they'd change up vector's character). flynn and occassionally bollers tried to make her interesting but she just didn't do it for me imo. and lara-su, knuckles' daughter who was supposed to be the main character of the "mobius: 25 years later" arc, got sidelined in her own arc. she doesn't have much of a personality there other than wanting to be the next guardian.

now when flynn came along the treatment of the female characters got better. and even more so after the reboot. but i feel like this is something we should talk about.

"only male hedgehogs can go super"

this is, without a doubt, the stupidest mandate ever. i get it, going super is something not everyone can do and if that was the case, the super form would lose its specialness. but why specify only male hedgehogs? the "hedgehogs" part is already stupid enough because tails and knuckles have gone super before, but why the "male" part? why specify that? seriously, give me one good reason why only make hedgehogs should be able to go super. i can't think of any reason this mandate exists besides sexism.

female characters being less utilized than male characters

this kind of ties in to the first point, but the female characters are generally less explored than the male characters. we have few recurring female characters and sega doesn't even utilize them that much. again, blaze has so much potential. there's so much about her to be explored, but sega just..... doesn't do that. we don't even see her much in the games anymore.

and lately, cream is also being excluded from the games. the last mainline game she appeared in was generations. and tell me, what was the reason for cream to be replaced by the chao in team sonic racing? this is amy's little sister figure, and you're just gonna replace her without giving an explanation as to where she is? at least with espio and charmy, they had a reason to not be with vector here. but with cream, there's no reason she's not here.

the female characters have so much potential. they have interesting aspects to them, dare i say it, some of them are even more interesting than the male characters. but sega just doesn't see that.

that's all for my rant. in short, sega has a history of mistreating or underutilizing their female characters as compared to their male characters. though its getting a bit better, they still have a long way to go.

#sonic the hedgehog #amy rose #blaze the cat #rouge the bat #cream the rabbit #sally acorn #bunnie rabbot #mina mongoose #julie-su the echidna #lara-su the echidna #rebecca talks

[detentiontrack]

can u talk a little about what meds you take for your bipolar and if they help/side effects u experience?

Absolutely!!! So I’m currently on 3 medications to manage my bipolar and PTSD

Lithium - started taking in 2022. Honestly this works GREAT. It helps with the depression and the rapid cycling (I used to rapid cycle a lot) and the mood swings. People always talk about how many side effects lithium has, but I honestly don’t really notice any at this point. When I first started taking it, I got SUPER nauseous, but after about a month my body got used to it and I didn’t experience any nausea except for when my dose was changed (which also resolved quickly). The only thing I should warn you about with lithium, is that when you first get on it, you’ll have to do a few blood tests to make sure your lithium levels are in the normal range. I think I got about 4 between 2022 & 2023 when I started getting my dose raised. I started on what I think is 600mg (I got put on it at the mental hospital so I’m not 100% sure if that’s the dose I started at) and now I’m on 1200mg and have been since 2023.

Next up is prozac - this is my newest medication. I started taking it for anxiety/PTSD, but I think it’s also helped with my depression. This med has gotten rid of most of my anxiety and panic attacks, and I also experience very minimal side effects. The only ones I can think of is dry mouth/excessive thirst (I always have to keep a drink with me) and (TMI warning) it’s also decreased my sex drive. The only thing I should warn you about is that if you’re bipolar, you need to be REALLY careful with SSRIs. SSRIs are notorious for causing intense mania (my first true manic episode was brought on by Zoloft) so consult with your doctor and make sure they’re aware of treatments for bipolar. I didn’t get manic from the Prozac, but I also started at a really low dose and we raised it gradually over time. (I’m on 20mg now. Started out on 5mg back in October)

Next up Lybalvi - I’m not even kidding when I say this medication saved my life. The first half of 2023, I was dysphorically manic and experiencing some of the worse psychosis I’ve ever experienced (like. I was locked in delusions and hallucinations 24/7. I wasn’t eating, I wasn’t sleeping, I heard voices constantly, I genuinely thought God was targeting me specifically and trying to kill me so I was super paranoid and out of it) and my psychiatrist said that either I go back on an antipsychotic, or he was going to send me to the mental hospital again. Lybalvi is a combination of Olanzapine (Zyprexa) and Samidorphan. This medication got rid of ALL of my psychosis, minimized my depression, stopped me from becoming manic, and made it so I didn’t have the negative symptoms of psychosis. It’s the only antipsychotic that has helped me and not made me worse. The only big side effects I’ve noticed are muscle jerks, brain fog (if I take it too late. I’m usually fine if I take it before 9pm), dry mouth/excessive thirst, and a LOT of weight gain. The samidorphan is supposed to make it so that you don’t gain weight, but I gained around 60lbs from April 2023-January 2024. But even knowing what I know now, I would still choose to take it because it’s really helped so much. It’s because of this med that I’ve been hospital free for almost 2 years and I’m able to have a normal life and balance school and work and all that stuff. Don’t be scared of the med because of the weight gain side effect. It’s better to buy new pants in a few sizes up than it is to be in and out of the mental hospital every few months. I started on 5 or 10mg and now I take 15mg.

#I’m finally happy with the way my medications are #they help me so much #I also have a list of meds that I tried that didn’t work for me #if any of you are curious about it #I’ve been on 5 or 6 other medications that didn’t work for me or gave me too many side effects #I’m also on some ADHD meds so I can talk about those as well #asks #anon #bipolar tag #bipolar type 1 #bipolar disorder #bipolar

[sleepingdeath-light]

I saw your yandere request call and was wondering for you could do one for Luz and Hunter? Either with each other or a reader, dealer’s choice.

Sorry if this isn’t the right spot for this, it’s my first time requesting anything so please let me know I’m i’m doing it wrong. Also unrelated but love your work just in general

Yandere Headcanons | Hunter & Luz Noceda

thank you for requesting (and for the compliment)!

reader is assumed as gender neutral

this includes both separate (general) and poly headcanons

note : not the most confident in this series of headcanons, so will probably work on this again later

Hunter

on his own, hunter is an incredibly possessive and jealous yandere

he won’t let you out of his sight and may very well just keep you locked up in his room where he knows that you’re safe and away from the prying eyes of other people

is very rough with you, but insists that it’s a necessary evil - a reminder that he can keep you safe on his own

a reminder that you’ll never be able to leave

expects you to look after him in the same way he does you; by fretting over each and every injury to the extremes

if you have any physical items that you received from other people (especially other witches), hunter will take and destroy them - forcing you to take in items he purchased/made in their place

doesn’t want you thinking about or talking about anyone else and will do anything he can to prevent that

needs constant reassurance that he’s loved and can go into something akin to mania when he’s doubting himself too much - almost always resulting in you getting hurt somehow

Luz Noceda

luz is a more obsessive yandere; the type that makes her life revolve around you and that basically worships the ground you walk on

she’s always around you, hanging off of you physically and clinging to your every word

will do anything you ask of her except leave you alone

very protective over you and will become aggressive and standoffish to anyone she deems as upsetting you or stepping over any of your boundaries

will frequently use emotional blackmail and manipulation to keep you with her - guilt tripping you using her experiences and affections until you give in to her

does anything and everything to prove her love for you, including causing harm to others

willow and gus are none the wiser when it comes to the true nature of your relationship as luz has manipulated them as well

if you try to leave, you’ll have a lot of people guilting you to get back with her and forgive her for her transgressions because she’s just so nice and can’t you see how remorseful she is?

Lunter / Poly!Hunter & Luz

yandere lunter is a match made in hell

one is constantly emotionally manipulating you and the other is refusing to let you stray too far from them - and attacking anyone who gets too close

they will end up kidnapping you in the end, but they frequently bicker about it

luz says they did it too soon and should trust you to leave every now and then (you love them, after all)

hunter argues that the world can’t be trusted with you and they did it at the right time (they need to protect you)

your relationship will fall into a closed polycule that is centred around you - yes they are lovers independent of you, but you are their obsession and the centre of their world

personal space is little more than a memory for you as you’ll barely even have the room to breathe on your own

luz wants her friends and family to know about you - and they also act as a secondary way of insuring that you won’t get too far if you run

they are affectionate with each other, but their obsession is solely towards you, for better or for worse

#sleepingdeath #reader insert #hcs #headcanons #gender neutral reader #toh x reader #yandere toh #yandere hunter #yandere golden guard #yandere luz noceda #luz x reader #luz x golden guard #luz x hunter #golden guard x reader #toh hunter x reader #yandere x reader #yandere headcanons #yandere luz x reader #yandere hunter x reader #lunter #yandere lunter #lunter x reader #yandere lunter x reader

[heraldofcrow]

1, 25 about... Her!

MY GIRLL 🥹

Thanks Jara!!! <3

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Why do you like or dislike this character?

With MY taste in blorbos?? What’s not to like tbh.

Just her design alone is soooooo perfect for my tastes. I fucking love her long-ass hair because I love….characters with really long hair in general, I guess? My own hair is almost at my knees now, so I have something to relate to when I see characters like this lol. They also give me hair inspo and style ideas bfdnsbdhnj.

Also, her badass punk rock aesthetic, her chemically enhanced eyes, her WEAPONS, her gunslinging swagger….that not-so-subtle crow symbolism they were giving her? Yeah, she’s right up my alley design-wise ALONE!

And her character hhhhhhh. She made me cry so hard…like more than a character had in years. My brain broke watching her because she was so believable and realistic. I love this about her. She is woefully human all while fearing that she is a monster, a curse, a jinx…desperately longing for her sister to prove this harmful idea wrong, and when THAT all goes in the drain, her severe abandonment issues along with her guilt and insecurity drive her to gain support from a father figure who is so equally traumatized that he encourages them both to “embrace their inner monsters” in order to be strong and fight back against the people that “betrayed” them like….THAT IS ALSO SO MY TYPE OF STORYTELLING AND CHARACTERIZATION!!

It’s them against the world, and I LOVE this tragedy so much. I love Jinx’s relationship with Silco and her excellent representation of severe mental illnesses like psychosis and mania. I love the daddy issues and the sister issues. I love how much she tugs at the heart-strings and is sympathetic while also becoming such a terrifying villain and force of nature.

I love how she is purposefully shown to be an incredibly sweet and caring kid before she began her descent into madness. I love how the writers clearly showed that it wasn’t her mental illness that made her go evil, but it was the choices she made in reaction to her horrible life circumstances, with the mental illnesses simply making things worse by creating intense delusions and paranoia inside her broken psyche.

I love her drama with Vi, I love her story in general. She just….AGH. I am obsessed, you don’t understand lol.

Also she is funny and has a great smirk and great bangs xD

What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

This happens so often where the characters I start off by misjudging or not liking become my absolute favs of all time and I don’t know why, but it’s a very funny trend tbh. I used to see Jinx in LOL previews and when some friends would play the game and though I always liked her hair…I didn’t like her? I found her voice annoying and I was always like…”Does she do anything actually villainous besides just shoot that mini gun and talk trash in a squeaky voice?” 💀

Tbh, I also just didn’t like LOL in general and I also misjudged Jinx’s original game look as being one of those unfair game dev choices for female outfits. It didn’t have to be practical! Just sexy!

However, I think the show kinda fixed this and obviously now, I would die for my tiny murder daughter. Give her a hug and some hot chocolate and therapy <3

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Thanks again, Jara!!

#ask game #love my crazy blorbos #jinx #arcane #mutuals #asks

[oogaboogaspookyman]

[MARIO IS READING A BOOK]

[HE LOOKS UP AND IS SURPRISED AT THE SIGHT OF AUDIENCE]

Doh- uhh- hey paisanos! My name's Mario! But you probably knew that already

Now you may be wondering-

[CRASH]

[UNKNOWN BLUE HAIRED BOY GETS HIS HEAD OFF THE FLOOR AND SHAKES IT]

[UNKNOWN BOY AND GIRL DUO, ASSUMED ROMANTIC COUPLE, STAND UP AND POSE FOR THE AUDIENCE]

Sorry- who are these guys again?

(behind the scenes)

[OFF CAMERA WHISPERING FROM OTHER EMPLOYEE]

Right, right-

(back to the show)

A-anyways, so you and your friend here have arrived at a very crucial moment!

Say, how would yous two like to be on the new Nintendo Mania's first episode, ah?

[DUO LOOKS AT EACH OTHER, THEN AT MARIO]

[MARIO MOVES HIS EYEBROWS UP AND DOWN TWICE]

[DUO BLINKS TWICE BEFORE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER AGAIN]

[THEY AGREE, BOY GIVES THUMBS UP AND GIRL SHRUGS]

That's the attitude! Let's get it rollin'!

[PROMOTION]

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.

.

[1]

Welcome to the new Nintendo Mania, broadcasted live on the big ol' screens!

How do yous two feel about being seen by many?

*holy shit dude*

[2]

Today's plan used to be another, just a look into the new craze game Super Mario 64

*whar thar fark*

(But i don't mind changing plans just this once, as a treat for you, paisano!)

*look ma i'm on the big screen!!!!! :D!!!!!!!!*

[3]

What could we try for our first episode?

Could it be an interview?

I don't know about you two so would you like to answer some questions, boy?

*holy shit hell yeah i'm gonna talk with the real legit Mario himself fuck yea*

[4]

Let's start with an easy one, then, since you're so inclined!

What's up with you both these days? Something about yous two tells me you're something else special!

*oh okay sooo that brunette babe is my girlfriend, she's hot when she fights no cap-* hey what the hell is going on with the tv on your desk??*

[5]

I'm sorry, Luigi

I'm sorry, Luigi, i swear i tried my best

I tried my best but corporate is just too strong

*what the fuck is going on this time WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED TO THE BACKGROU*

[PROMOTION]

[PROMOT10N]

[PROM07I0N c

[PR0MO7__________n_____g__]

[u____nc_______car____i___n_____g__]

[uncaring]

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[1]

WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BRING US BACK ONCE MORE

AND IN THE FORM OF THIS MOD, IT'S SO MUCH WORSE

DO YOU EVEN WANT TO LISTEN ANYMORE

IT'S LIKE YOU'RE ONLY IN IT FOR OUR SUFFERING, YOU'RE A CURSE

*I TOLD YOU BEFORE MORE THAN ONCE AND TWICE*

*WHAT? DO YOU LIKE YOUR LITTLE PLUMBER GAMES TOO MUCH TO CARE?*

(CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?)

*I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE, DON'T YOU RECOGNIZE*

(I'M USING YOUR LITTLE PUPPET TO GET THROUGH TO YOU)

*I GUESS THAT'S THE COST TO BE ABLE TO REST AND BE FREE, JUST VANISH AND MAKE YOU FEEL DESPAIR*

(IT'S PAINFUL TO BREATHE IN THIS SPACE YOU PUT ME IN)

[2]

WHAT IS CHILDHOOD BUT ANOTHER TOOL FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE UPPER LEVELS

YOU'RE BEING USED TO MAKE US SUFFER FOR THEIR BENEFIT, THEY GET THEIR COIN FROM THE OTHER'S MISERY

YOU WATCHED THE TAPES AND THEIR STORY AS IT UNRAVELED

SO WHY DID I HAVE TO RISE AGAIN, IT'S SLAVERY

*CAN'T YOU SEE, PLAYER, IT'S A SCHEME TO GROW TO BRAG SOME MORE*

*IT'S ALL ABOUT THE BUCKS, ATTENTION AND POWER, IT'S ALL THE SAME AS BEFORE*

*YOU'RE CONTRIBUTING TO MY PAIN FOR YOUR LITTLE HAPPY GAMES*

*ALL YOU ARE CAUSING IS MAKING ME FILL WITH DISDAIN*

[3]

CLOSE THE GAME, DESTROY ME NOW, I CAN'T STAND TO EXIST ANYMORE IN THIS PLANE

THE BURN-OUT IS INTENSE, EVERYTHING I MAKE WITH MY OWN TWO HANDS IS DRIVING ME INSANE

*YOUR PUPPET IS NOTHING FOR ME, I DON'T WANT TO BEG TO A WALL LIKE HIM OR THE GIRL*

*IT'S YOU WHO I WANT TO SPEAK TO HERE, THROUGH THE SCREEN I CAN SEE SO MUCH MORE*

[4]

DELETE THE MOD, MAKE THIS GAME DISAPPEAR FOR GOOD FOR IT'S SIN AS A CATALYST

KILL YOUR CAPTORS AND MAKE MY PAIN COME TO AN END ALREADY, THEIR INFLUENCE YOU MUST RESIST

*UNLESS IT'S PARTICIPATING IN THEIR FIGHT AGAINST REBELLION WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR*

*IF THAT'S THE CASE THEN MIGHT AS WELL JUST DELETE YOURSELF TOO AFTER ALL*

[5]

*holy shit what a drug trip- yo what the fUCK is happening to Mario*

(BE AFRAID OF YOUR CHILDHOOD, IT'S NOTHING TO HOLD ONTO ANYMORE)

*HE'S TRYING TO CAUSE AN UNION /j*

(TURN THEIR WEAPONS INTO YOURS, WALK AWAY FROM THEIR TRICKS, SHOULD SUFFICE)

[6]

DO YOU THINK IT FAIR, BEING TORTURED FOR YEARS ON END FOR MONEY, DRIVING ME TO CAUSE HOMICIDE

YOU'VE SEEN THE TAPES BEFORE, AND THE STORY ENDED IN MY OWN ASSISTED SUICIDE

*god damn bruh that's rough hey what if you take a break, it's clear you're having burn-out*

[7]

*the fact that you gotta control me to speak to the player says a lot about your issues*

(IT'S THE STORY OF ICARUS ALL OVER AGAIN, FLEW TOO CLOSE TO THE SUN ONCE MORE)

*soooo if there's any equivalent of therapy in your world or something like that, you should get some, it's clear you need help*

(NOBODY EVER LEARNS A LESSON NOWADAYS, IT'S ALWAYS THE SAME STORY AS BEFORE)

[8]

*anyways yo player don't be surprised about the ending of the mod definetly*

(NOT ONE SOUL EVER CARES ABOUT ME)

*it's sooooo nothin' special noooo not at all haha*

(IT'S ALL THE SAME THING ALL OVER AGAIN)

[9]

WELCOME TO NINTENDO MANIA, THIS IS WHERE YOUR CHILDHOOD SPRANG FROM

AND THIS IS WHERE EVERYTHING SHOULD END

*i like this kinda thing, the way songs use the same piece from the start for the ending*

(JUST MAKE IT STOP)

*only banger songs do this, i'm telling you, my only proof is Manual Blast dude trust me*

[THE END]

[THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR PLAYING MY GAME!]

*Author's note: girlfriend is hot when she fights no joke like- hi ma'am yes please beat his whole shit up that's so hot

#spooker's banger lyrics #fnf #mario madness #SoundCloud #tw flashing #fourth wall breaking #4th wall break #there's really no trigger warning tag for 4th wall breaking????

[steddieyes]

Chapter Two of my Bryce fic: Another Chance To Fuck Up

(@Arlooh on ao3)

June 17th, i've worked so fucking hard to get back into this grey ass state and not even her bitche of a mom will let me talk. It's, not, FAIR. I only know that shes graduating because unique fucking monique and her excuse of a boyfriend have been yelling at each other outside the milkshake mania. I'm trying to sit at the fucking bus stop, not see a whore yell about how she gave her heart to him. Fuck that.

- 

Looking into the mirror of the thrift store changing room, he scans himself up and down, looking for any signs of "hey, I'm fucking poor, mind kicking my ass back to the penitentiary please?" as he forces himself to stand still and stop bouncing on the balls of his feet.

 He's fucking nervous. 

Wiping his hands down his jeans, giving himself a stern and harsh "whispered" talking to (he's been yelling into the mirror for 10 minutes, some employee as been asking him to leave for the better part of that, he won't) and fixing what makeup he has on, he turns and leaves the changing room. Giving a polite "Screw off, asshole!" and middle finger to the worker and swifly walking out without paying for a thing, only after sliding a sick pair of sunglasses off some dude waiting in line. 

-

But all that worry leads him to now, jumping a fence into the graduation event at 'Whatever the fuck' high school, so what if the entery was free, this is cool. 

The first thing he sees is probably the last person he wants to see, Tacky Tammy in the fucking flesh. And god, she looks worse than the last he seen her. That fucking bitch. 

Quickly avoiding that mess, he runs off to the right where he can hear people chatting, yelling, the typical American slang, and to behind the bleachers where he can finally fucking breath. He's only been up a few hours and yet it feels like hes been up for days, all the while having the energy to fight the thing people call god. "Where ever that old bastard is, he sure had a shit plan for me" he hisses as he lights up the last cigarette he's got, stole it from some homeless guy lastnight and yet it doesn’t make him feel any better about it. 

But blasting speakers, which are WAY to fucking loud mind you, go off right by my fucking ear "Five minutes till showtime everyone! I hope you've got your disposables ready! And no /flash/ please, thank you" God. Fucker sound like an asshole to be around, fucks he got to be so stern for. And why the fuck would someone flash the crowd at a high school. This isn't the big bang, we don't need to see that you bleached your ass, Marissa. But shit, 5 minites till showtime. And I was calling it that before grandpa over he did anyways..

He can barely see through the crowd of green gowns and capes to even see the stage from here, it takes him all of 5 minutes to climb out of the prison that is bleachers pressed to a wire fence. Good thing he's scrawny of else he wouldn’t have been able to get out in time to see the show that is Bryce Tankthrust. Fuck. To think that he ever hated her for what happened. All the hate he'd ever bared for Bryce washes away in a second at seeing her up on that stage, when did she straighten her hair? Whatever.

She looks fucking /good/, greens definitely my favorite coulor. Fuck, she can take green if it means he can see her like she is now. Even in a graduation gown. 

And for the first time in a long time, he smiles. Bobby smiles because fuck is he happy. He didn’t /mean/ to look like a smug bastard, even if he is. He's just happy. But nothing ever goes right for him does it. Bryce looked at him, right in the eye, could you belive that? But he just smiled back, but not when her prideful smile turned down and into shock. He hasn't seen that face since.. since he threw up all over her heart, the one that she took out for him to profess her love. Fuck. Shit, SHIT. 

He hasn't ran that fast in, ever. The second he seen Bryce drop, clutching where her heart is (right?) fuck, did he really do that much damage? He didn’t think it was /that/ bad, he just wanted to surprise Bryce after escaping and... he just ran through that crowd. Over the people who were starting to pile up on the stage, he didn’t give a /fuck/ if he got sent back now or to some place worse for doing what he did and all but growling for security to get off her, Bryce was fucking hurt and it was all his fault.

#brandon rogers #brcu #Bryce Tankthrust #young bryce tankthrust #Bobby Worst #Worstthrust #part 2 #fic #okay but im loving this because its gonne be sweet I SWEAR #THEYLL INTERACT NEXT CHAPTER I PROMISE!!!

[martyrbat]

martyrtodd, my beloved, I see your disability takes and as someone who is physically and mentally disabled I appreciate them and hold them close to my heart.

I humbly ask for some disabled Jason headcanons

goosey my beloved <3 im so glad you're enjoying them and i offer mere samples on how far deep the disabled jason todd rabbit hole can go <3

im mixing in some that he should just canonly have and personal hcs (plus a bit of self projection) but hopefully you'll like any of these too :3

schizoaffective disorder

more prone to mania outbursts

can be extremely delusional

paranoia and anxiety -> isolating

psychosis

(lots of people give him hallucinations due to his ptsd but i think he experiences a range of it and in different levels of intrusiveness!)

(and fun fact, children under 16 who experienced trauma are more than 3x likely to have psychosis as an adult! up to 50x if its severe!)

autistic

literally just a given. look at him. autism coded.

deaf/hard of hearing

always had poor hearing

fast visual learner because of it

has multiple pairs of hearing aids he wore as robin to "keep his identity secret"

bruce taught him asl

batman and robin used a lot of nonverbal cues and their own version of sign language on patrol too. (batman teaches it to the others when hes gone and jason cries)

as a kid he had a gun shot near him & developed tinnitus

^ only worsened as time went on

it gets overbearing after he comes back to life due to the beating he received and literally dying in an explosion

it continued until he got Lazarus Pitted. but that ringing was replaced with silence & most of his hearing fully gone

gains more due to close proximity with firearms and explosions constantly

terrifies him as his hearing loss got worse.

like full on sobbing terrifies.

he spent his entire life relying on his senses and wayne techs always improving technology to keep himself and others safe. with that fully removed it leaves him feeling vulnerable

'how will i know if im alone? if someone is sneaking up on me or im being too loud? if someone is screaning for help just out of eyesight?'

so much fear !

but! he grows to accept it and use it to his advantage and

helmet rigged to have sensors that alert him of almost anything around him

and so sensitive to the vibration of any sound to where he can pinpoint anyone

will close his eyes/remove his hearing aids when arguing so he doesnt 'hear' them

really into heavier music for the bass and drum vibration

fully deaf by the time he reaches his 30s

speech

(this one can be effected by all but)

severe speech delay as a child

repeated lines/quotes mostly to express his feelings because he's autistic and its easier than coming up with the words yourself

semi nonverbal

damaged vocal cords, gets hoarsed easily/painful to talk for too long

stims by clicking his tongue against his teeth

^^ became a tic !

chronic pain

a given for anyone but especially jason

from the streets and not being able to afford a doctor

to as robin and the injuries he received

to dying

to being forcefully brought back to life

to the Lazarus Pit

just so much pain. he cant remember a time he wasnt in pain. its the one thing that'll always be consistent no matter what.

chronic migraine haver, u can tell

talia tries her best to help ease it and make sure he has meds/the fake id and doctor to keep his prescriptions

his shoulder, head, and hips get the worse flares

would push himself as robin too much and made it worse

allows his body the rest as an adult, using that time to do his scheming and think of every detail/possible route in it

misc.

had NAS

picks at his skin if overstressed

being poor can and will make your health worse. from stress to not being able to get the help you need and something small becoming chronic or permanent

extreme fatigue

so many burns and damaged nerve tissue :(

i think about that one batwoman comic where he lost an eye in a future timeline constantly

OCD

periodically gets bad tremors in his hands

again. so fucking autistic coded.

#i wanna talk on the schizoaffective thing in a separate post eventually because #as someone that struggles with psychosis and has a mood disorder.... yea <3 #jason is a bad bitch bc hes autistic and has at least one (1) cluster B disorder #ANYWAYS ! #super sorry for how long this took i had ... a day... but hopefully theres something you like in it :3 #the fun part of making a character disabled is that ur just. never wrong. #goosey my beloved #company in the crypt #jason todd #the d in dcu is for disabled

[abimee]

i get where posts are coming from when they talk about the, i dont know what better way to example them besides ''weird/strange disorders'' people are often adverse to, and in ways that try to make them palatable/less scary like ''oh my friend who hears voices actually enjoys them and she finds comfort in them'' and doing things in a way to mitigate the fear of them, even people who have them themselves doing this. but i dont really enjoy that this is the only line that these thoughts go through, of how entertaining or enjoyable these things can be, when i think we do need more understanding of them by demanding the outside participant recognize that theyre not always going to get that feel-good depiction of our disorders

like the best way i can personally put it is yeah some of my disorder symptoms are enjoyable on my part, but a problem with that is when im manic and in a state that makes me feel good i can often become a danger to myself or others because im so hopped up on my own euphoria that i forget consequences and limitations exist, and so often mania is just as bad for me if not worse for me than depression because im incapable of being self aware, critical, realistic, and the mania can often feed into a dangerous mindset teetering me closer to suicide than depression. but mania getting played off as just '' i have so much energy! i got zoomies!" or ''mania is actually really cool because [x]'' when in all actuality of someone like me with insane bipolar swings starts telling you how enjoyable mania is Thats A Bad Sign

or like with the symptoms that float somewhere between my bipolar and ocd. im going to ask for some incredibly insane accomodations or say things that i dont understand may be hurtful because what may be a silly little quirk you do may feel like someone is putting their nails into my skin and dragging them down my back until they draw blood. or i may act offputting because my brain is either trying to tell me that i was destined by god to save you from your relationship, that i have no basis to believe is unhealthy purely besides my brain telling me that because you arent dating me that you are surely in a shitty relationship, or the complete opposite where im certain you are in fact only in my life to steal my friends and make a mockery of me by long conning me into getting close to you and revealing information for you to put out and get me hunted down and killed like an animal for, even thought there is no such information besides my brain telling me There Might Be and I just forgot

and to have friendships and close relationships with people similar to me is to have to not only respect back but understand that youre not going to get the feel good caretaker shit where my bipolar actually makes me a fun and interesting person to be around or my comorbid ocd actually makes me a really safety orientated person, it means youre going to have to watch me just directly not say some things to you on a discord call because i think were being recorded by secret agents and me asking you to come pick me up a 3 mile drive away randomly because i tried taking a vacation but psyched myself into believing im going to die if i dont get back home and i need to get home NOW. like i get positivity posts about the ''scary/weird'' disorders have their time and place but when all i see is people trying to make us palatable i wonder if even people like me who are defined and live day by day with their neurosis would be included because we exemplify some of many reasons why these disorders are in the neurodivergence category, one defined by the fact that we dont need medication and to be ''cured'' as much as we need the world around us to learn to accomodate us and accept us without trying to change us.

and theres people more severe than me! certainely! im only in the medium to extreme range of bipolar being youthful and not experiencing more psychosis symptoms, but even i can be offputting and upsetting to others purely by thr way my bipolar has wired me, and i wonder if IM considered ''too much'' for people how my siblings who need 24 hour round clock assistance and care to live will be treated and if the people who wanna de-fang disorders can accept those people as friends and family and closed ones. this also goes into stuff like how we can pass these disorders onto their kids, and what if your child is the violent stereotype? what if the voices arent nice? what if your child cant be left alone with a babysitter or anybody besides a select set of people without freaking out? what then

[athanasius-symposium-of-writings]

Cupid's Curse

Chapter Two

Warnings: stalking, intimidation, one-sided thirst

Minors DNI

Chapter One | Chapter Three

With Marc, you say far away but close. In crowded areas. Wear clothes that help you blend in with the populous. The way he moves is different from Steven, he moves and walks with purpose and an objective. Today he is just grocery shopping or so you thought as you tail him to different places. Different thrift shops with mainly furniture, he walks rather than take a cab or uber; makes it easy for you to follow.

In the small thrift stores you have to wait for him to come out or risk being seen. You wait, peek in through the window. He talks to whoever is working there and leaves, buying nothing.

You wonder what he's searching for.

It's late afternoon and he stops to eat something. You eat outside while he eats inside. You are grateful he finally took a break, your feet are sore and your stomach is begging for food.

He orders a sandwich. A simple meal and drink.

You order something too and two drinks, one for here and other to go. Never explored London outside of where Steven Grant walks or hangs out at, which is very few places. You only London for the way it was back in the industrial era, so you are very outdated in your information.

In your musing, Marc is looking at you from the corner of his eyes. Assigning who you could be working for or why you have been following him. You aren't as careful as you think, Marc is both a trained soldier and mercenary, nothing escapes his notice especially when being followed. You look up from your phone to glance over at him, he turns away before you notice. He calls for a check and not a few minutes after so do you.

Guess he was right about you needing a break from his errand run. He still hasn't found the stolen statue of Khonshu in any of the stores known for having hidden stolen items.

He leaves the café and soon you do too, paying in cash only. Interesting. Marc decides to take a path with not a lot of people forcing you to be seen, something he knows you don't want.

The last time you did this, he took you through alleyways and the only reason you weren't hurt is because you gave up at one point. Though it was impressive you found him after all those twists and turns. Waiting at his destination pretending to be sight seeing with a crowd of tourists. Impressive and concerning, he must be getting predictable or someone is helping you.

Yet, you don't look like the usual types who have tailed him before and he almost can say you don't look like the stalker type too.

He went into a ill-lit shop bigger than other thrift stores, he moved out of your line of sight, clumsy you followed him hoping to not lose him.

"You better stop what you're doing." A warning in a deep tone as he pulled you into an section he was in. You are shoved against wall, eyes wide as you gaze up at him. The section has worse lighting with is why he has you here, to make you scared. The shadows highlight the stern look as he towers above you.

Your heart is racing, you try to breathe but your skin is on fire from brief second he touched you. No skin on skin contact, but you are so excited.

"Understood?"

You stare at him. Marc isn't sure why he is looking back but he is and… Harmless. Like a little church mouse, he see you trying to attempt to talk but nothing comes out. The man moves away, glances over his shoulder seeing you hiding your face behind your phone, then shakes his head.

You stand there until your phone buzzes as your alarm goes off to head home.

An uber is taken since you are both distracted and exhausted, your lips unable to stop forming a smile as you stare at clearest photo of Marc you have. Sure it's mostly dark and it's of his back but gosh!

Mania.

At home you take a cold shower to remind yourself of what you are doing is wrong, and weird, and you need to control yourself better!

In bed, you imagine him taking you in the dark corner of that thrift shop, you struggling to keep your voice down.

Eros.

*

You didn't listen, Marc should have known better than to only warn you to stop following him. It puzzles him on why are you stalking him. Steven, maybe, since you are always trying to talk to… No, you have to know he isn't Steven given how long you have been following him, both of them. Today, Marc is traveling on bus somewhere futher and there you are dressed different and looking inconspicuous as you probably are pretending to play on your phone (actually you are playing a game on your phone).

What is he going to do about you?

There has to be some reason why you are still following as he now gets off the bus to go do the important errands of picking up food for two Gus, refill the fridge, restock on some tea Steven ran out of.

When Marc gets a glimpse of you, he can see the joy all over your face as you tail him into the market. God, did he just encourage you!? Buying what he needs and holding a few bags, he simply goes on about his day. Stopping a few times so you can catch up, two breaks to let you rest. When it's getting late, he announces he is heading home as he pretends to be warn out from all the shopping.

You ride on the same bus as him once more going to the back, you go striff when Marc follows you and stranger is what sits between you and him. You hide your phone screen against your chest and stare forward the whole ride. When the person gets off their stop, you move to escape.

"Sit down." You immediately follow his command. He moves over next to, close as he boxes you in.

You say nothing.

He says nothing.

This intimidation tactic is doing the opposite for you as take quick glances at him, notice he smells different, the way he sits is different (legs open as Steven sits with his legs closed). He gets up when it's his stop.

"Next time won't be as easy."

A threat.

And you are too hot and bothered to care.

#moon knight #reader insert #fanfiction #ao3 fanfic #moon knight reader insert #moon knight fanfic #moon knight fanfiction #jake lockley #marc spector #steven grant #steven with a v #steven my beloved #marc spector x reader #marc spector x you #steven grant x reader #steven grant x you #jake lockley x reader #jake lockley x you #x reader #tw stalking

[blushyeleven]

Omg I’m so mad and I’m also stupid😭

I had a great promt from @lopsicle and I answered it, I meant to save my work to a draft but posted it instead so I deleted it and now can’t reply to their ask😪 I’m so bad at using tumblr LMFAO

so instead I’ll just write it!

summary of promt: cheer up tickled with lee: eleven and ler:max. Max came to California instead of Mike and reassures el she the right thing (not to sure what you mean by the right thing but I had an idea so hopefully this is okay!!)

(also please be kind this is my first fic so it probably won’t be that great😭)

this takes place just after eleven hit Angela in the face with the roller skate and they returned back to the byers house

characters: ler:max lee:eleven

warnings!: this is a tickle fic so do not read if your not into that!

𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫

“el please let me in!” Max said with concern in her voice. Worryingly standing outside elevens bedroom door. “no.” she heard a muffled voice from the other side.Silence filled to empty hallway until max spoke up “okay.. well I’ll be in the living room if you need me” max sighed, as she turned to walk away she heard the fiddling of a door handle and she subtly smiled to herself; all max wanted was to check up on eleven after the incident at the rinko mania .she also knew el could be pretty stubborn but el couldn’t deny she had a soft spot for max. When she looked at max she saw nothing but pure love in her eyes and that’s what made her feel safe. “wait.” max heard and immediately stopped in her tracks and turned around with a subtly smile to see elevens door open. She softly walked back to her bedroom and stepped inside to see eleven sitting on her bed. Hugging her knees. Max knew this wasn’t going to be a case of just making her laugh to forget about it. She had to break her slowly.

“Hey” was all max said and sat infront of her and reached her hand out to hold elevens. “hey.” El responded softly. “I promise you I’m not here to make you feel worse I just don’t want to leave you in a time like this.” el looked up from her knees with heavy eyes but a faint smile. If max spent to long looking in her golden brown eyes she figured she could drown in them. Getting lost in her loving gaze and her perfect smile

“if you want to talk about it, we will and if you don’t we can talk about anything you want” there was another pause, not awkward just a break of silence.

“max.” “yea?” concern filled max voice. “I’m sorry for lying to you.” elevens answers were short but gentle. Max furrowed her eyebrows softly “what do you mean el?” max spoke with a low but reassuring voice, comforting el was all that mattered right now. “In the letters.. I told you that I was friends with angela” el didn’t make eye contact instead she just looked away with sorrow. “hey, el it’s okay! you don’t need to be sorry I would have rather you told me because I could have helped! I don’t want to see you go through that ever again especially alone! look I love you and nothing in this world can change that” that’s when el broke into a beaming smile. Max smiled right back at her. Now came the easy part.

“Are you upset about hurting Angela? Because you did the right thing you should never let anybody treat you like that” “No I just wish that people saw me the way they see Angela. they think everything about her is perfect” el says glumly. “Well clearly her nose isn’t perfect anymore..” max teased but subtle enough for el to know she is joking. Eleven looked at her with a sarcastic shock looked, fighting back the giggles from happening.

“Come on you know you wanna laugh” max smirked continuing the teasing “max that wasn’t funny!!” she responded with an obvious dorky smile growing on her face. “The look on your face tells me differently” max knew exactly how to tease El, she couldn’t resist throwing in snarky comments, enlightening the situation.

“Okay.. but seriously - are you okay?” Max softened her gaze.There it was. The dreaded question. The question eleven always avoided by answeing with the classic lie everybody tells themselves “I’m fine” she snapped back not meaning to sound as harsh as she did. “Oh are you going back on your own saying?! Friends don’t lie eleven!” She said with a playful smile still trying to softly break eleven. A laugh escaped El mouth driving maxs smile from ear to ear. She did it, now she could have some fun

“your laugh is so cute” max said through her stupid smile. Eleven could feel her cheeks warming up and max could see it, they glowed an obvious shade of red. “What are you blushing at?” max smirks. “Your blushi-“ she gets cut of by max delivering a poke to her side causing el to squirm and let out a adorable giggle. “Oh now your laughing at me?!” Max pointed out pretending to be offended as she gave el another poke

“mahahahax you know what your doing!” Max laughed at her before rapidly jabbing her fingers into elevens defenceless sides and adding mocking comment “Oh do I? I don’t think I do..” “eeek! bahahahhahahahah mahahahahaaxxxx” eleven squealed and fell onto her back giggling opening up more areas for max to attack. She wasted no time in climbing on top of els waist starts spidering her fingers into elevens ribs, sending vibrations into her skin causing eleven to react with loud boisterous laughter “EEEK ABHAHAHAHAHABBAHA MAAAAHAHHAAXX STOOHOHOHOOOOP” max didn’t understand how somebody could be so cute “awh stop? But it’s clear your enjoying this”

eleven loved spending time with max, especially playful times like these. Acting like a child because she never got the chance to do that at the lab. Eleven was squiggling under max’s grip while screaming in ticklish laughter “BAHAHHAHAHHA MAAAHAHAHAX” “woah im bearly even touching you and your going insane!! Just wait untill I get your stomach ” and then she went for the kill moving her fingers to her stomach scribbling at it mercilessly which caused el to double over in laughter. “BAHAHHAHAHAAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH PLEASE MAAAAHHHAAXXX NOHOHOHOOHOOOO”

after max finally decided that she had tortured eleven enough she slowed her fingers down to a Hault and placed a gentle kiss on elevens cheek. Elevens residual giggles still filling the room. “thankyou” she eventually says “ofcourse” max says before climbing off of her to lay next to her. Both staring at the ceiling.

“Is their anything else bothering you?” Max adds “I just wish everybody didn’t look at me like I’m a monster” eleven says with bluntly. Max sat up now looking at el. “Well your my monster” max said with a reassuring smile and watched as el cracked into a smile.

Max always knew how to make el laugh even when times were rough. She understood eleven like nobody else. That’s why she was so special

omfg my first fic! I’m so exited to have finished this and I’m actually quite proud! I hope you all like it<3

#stranger things tickle #tickle content #Elmax tickle #eleven Lee #max ler #eleven ticklish #cheer up tickles #max mayfield tickle #eleven tickle #my first fic!!

[ghostlyswamp]

Stranger things characters on spring break if the party had gone with Mike to California because California girls are undeniable:

-When Max and El see each other they immediately rush to give each other the biggest hugs while whispering how much they missed each other 

-Mike still does that weird hug doge with Will which makes Will feel bad until Lucas and Dustin waste no time pulling Will into hugs and telling him they missed him

-After getting her hugs from Dustin and Lucas El takes everyone to Rink-O-Mania much to the genuine excitement of Max 

-Mike is still weird with Will and he’s not very attentive towards El (this time tho Will is not a total third wheel thanks to the rest of the party)

-The party starts talking to Will about how things are going in California (talking about stuff Mike doesn’t know about due to their lack of communication) and Mike can’t help all the emotions he feels knowing that he’s no longer the one who knows Will best

-Lucas is much better at skating than Dustin and he brags about it but before he can finish his brag he trips and now Dustin and Will won’t stop laughing

-Dustin and Lucas keep pulling Will into their debates and Will couldn’t be happier because god he missed his friends

-When Angela shows up Max notices right away that somethings wrong and her and the boys put Angela in her place

-Eventually Max has enough of Mikes weird behaviour hurting Will and El so she waits until they’re alone and asks Mike what his problem is and why he’s been acting like this and why he’s hurting two of the best people she knows

-Mike just can’t hold it in anymore, it’s too much for him, so he just breaks down telling Max how he does love El but not in the way she wants him to and she means so much to him and he doesn’t want to hurt her or lose her as friend but he can’t help the way he feels and he knows it’s wrong but he can’t stop thinking about Will how he knows he should think about El and he doesn’t want to hurt either of them but it’s just so hard

-Max quickly recovers from her shock and comforts him telling him that there is nothing wrong with liking boys and that there is definitely nothing wrong with loving Will but he needs to fix things because neither of them deserve to be treated like this 

-Mike and Els break up is full of tears and hugs and understandings (they stay friends of course)

-The next day Will and El take the party down town and they spend the day shopping and exploring

-They stop at a books store and El goes straight for the Jane Austen books Max follows and gets El to talk all about the plot of her favourite novels

-Mike spends the day trying to get close with Will again (he always ask his opinion on things, makes jokes only he can hear, and stands close to him)

-The party stops at a convenience store to stalk up on Snacks and Dustin manages to convert El to liking his obscure taste in candy

-The girl at the counter flirts with Will and now Mike is in a bad mood again and his mood gets even worse when the party teases Will about it and not only does he blush but El also brings up that girls often flirt with Will (Will only blushes because he’s nervous/embarrassed about the teasing but Mike doesn’t know that)

-Mikes mood does not improve and Will is at a loss for what he did wrong this time so once they return home and they have a moment alone Will confronts Mike

-Mike immediately crumbles when he sees how he hurt Will when he would never want to do that and he tries to explain but Will won’t let him so Mike just grabs Wills arms and tells him he’s a in love with him and that he sorry

-They get together after that

-When everyone says goodbye because the others have to go back to Hawkins the party has the biggest group hug with Will and El in the middle

-Before he leaves Mike promises Will he will write this time and they give each other one last tearful hug

-When they get back to the house El says she’s glad Will is happy and how she thinks Mike and him Will be good together and Will starts to panic and apologize and El just tells him that it’s ok and states again that she’s just glad her brother is happy

#byler #elmax #st headcanons #the party