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[meatywriter]

Just Another Day

I said i wouldnt hurt you

I said i wouldnt cry

But with all this on my mind

My final thoughts are suicide

My mind feels likes its in a maze

Tryna get out this mental craze

Maybe it all just is a phase

But im slowly counting my days

I don't belong but where do i go?

Day by day i just go with the flow

The only thing i want to do is grow

Out of this prison that i call my home

You always say that you have faith in me

Im trapped in a box, but where is the key?

Ive been losing focus, i really cant see

Im lost in the ocean drowing in the sea

Sometimes i just wanna go and climb a tree

With a rope around my neck and just let it be

Look down at the ground and scream "lord please help me!"

Before i jump off and set myself free

Sometimes i dont know which way's right or left

One thing thats always on my mind is fucking death

When i see people i hold in my breath

Before i break and tell them im depressed

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[meatywriter]

Still Hurt After Losing You

I wanted to destroy everything that reminded me of you

But then i looked up at the sky and remembered i cant destroy the moon

I like the thought that we can look up at the sky and somehow be connected

Except Its sad you let me go, not something i expected

I guess im crazy maybe delusional for thinking it would last

Got no one else too blame but myself since i took things too fast

I wish i could just take back time and somehow keep us together

But then i see you're doing fine so without me you're better

Maybe it was the way i am or how i tend to act

Sorry if i ever let you down, its just love i lack

You're the first thing on my mind and the last thing i'd want to lose

You left a scar in my heart, it isnt just a bruise

Im not okay there's times i still even see you in my dreams

Guess you're just someone i cant forget cuz thats the way it seems

Why is it that im just so hung up, i wish i could move on

Maybe its just how bad im hurt, it feels like you did me wrong

And i guess you had every right never wanted to hold you down

But sucks i wanted to give you everything, even a fucking crown

What hurts the most is that i really loved your smile

And thats just one thing i havent seen in a while

And everytime i think of it i breakdown on the tile

I'd do anything for you, i'd even sail the nile

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