#no... ground? WHO CARES YOU UNDERSTAND

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

If Frank gets annoyed hearing the different pronunciation of caramel

Than he's gonna love hearing how some folks will pronounce Worcestershire sauce

yeah...

#so imagine my surprise when researching for this ask #that ive been saying it wrong the whole time #WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS WUSS-TERR-SHERR HUH????? #i mean it tracks. im american and worchestershire is like... british i think?? #shits weird over there... if youre reading this and youre british dw im well aware we americans are fucking bonkers #and have no glass to stand on #wait fuck whats the phrase? no grass to stand on? no ice? uh #no... ground? WHO CARES YOU UNDERSTAND #anyhow i say it how it looks. wor-ches-ter-shire #which is Wrong. apparently. what the hell guys #rambles from the bog #scribble salad #welcome home

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[chronurgy]

In my feels about how Gortash abso-fucking-lutely ruined Durge's life. Just fucking destroyed it. But that's also the only reason they have any sort of chance to make something different for themself. He's the only reason they even have a chance at a happy ending (even though it's a happy ending that he can't be in)

#enver gortash #dark urge #dark urge x gortash #durgetash #bg3 #Thinking about how my durge had just resigned themself to being miserable and alone and hating the world for everything it #Couldn't or wouldn't give them. For being so fucking boring. They had their magic and that was everything they needed. But then #In sweeps this motherfucker who talks to them and understands them and is just as smart as they are and then suddenly #They have dreams again. All the wants they thought they'd ground into dust years ago come back with a vengeance #It ruined them! If they'd just been able to live in the same furious and miserable detachment as before Orin never would've gotten to them #If they had never started feeling alive again then they never would have begun to balk at the idea of dying on their father's altar #Because who cares about dying when you're already buried six feet under? But when you're alive? Maybe you don't want to die #Maybe you want to live. Maybe you have other things to think about besides Bhaal's bloody love and your siblings' resentments #And that's when they get you #Ughhhh I'm going to be fucking sick #Vesper

[finexbright]

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#as i said i'm only now catching up on what happened at red rocks and honestly i'm just so confused as to #why people are getting hate mail for being at a show???? like unless you were right there at the show you will NOT know what's going on #you can't just ''leave'' a venue because there's security measures ensuring that people don't run and cause a stampede #i get that the team there sucked and should've been much better equipped for an outdoor venue but why the fuck are we blaming the fans???? #and then being mad at louis??? yeah i get that his tweet wasn't the best but i'd imagine that he was trying to help out as much as he could #ensuring fans were safe and taken care of. pretty sure he is the one paying all hospital bills and stuff as well #yeah i know he's an artist and he has people doing things for him but also it's louis. he might not have been at ground zero #but i bet he was doing everything he could to help get fans to safety and he had to tweet something amidst all that #just to reassure fans a bit more and he did what he could #besides. i'm sorry but instead of being all ''louis/his team should've done more'' can we all just make sure that the fans #who were actually in that hail storm and who actually got horribly injured and who actually went through such a scary situation #are feeling okay? like why are we arguing about trivial things when what matters the most out of this situation is the fans and their safety #i honestly need people who were not at the venue and people who do not understand how traumatic things can be #to just shut up and log off #anyways to everyone present at red rocks i'm sending you so much love and i'm so sorry something so traumatic happened #i hope everyone is safe and is being treated for their injuries 💌

[oh-bunny-dearest]

Hello Mashle fandom, as we are quickly approaching the ~juiciest~ parts of the manga in the anime now, I’m gonna get a head start on indoctrinating you all. Come and eat my delicious rare pair bordering on crack ship cream puff!!!

Anyways I know from the bottom of my heart that komoto never let Renatus and Delisaster meet or interact is because the ensuing sexual tension between the two is heavy enough to even overpower Lance’s graviole.

#mashle #mashle magic and muscles #renatus revol #delisaster #listen those who see my vision understand #I don’t care what you say. if Renatus fought Delisaster instead of Doom they would’ve ended up having intense sloppy hate sex on the ground #ask me questions #I Will enlighten ye nonbelievers

[zedif-y]

i say this with my entire chest. hold hands with your friends!!

#i mean this in the most platonic way possible and no i am not joking or being sarcastic #ive been having. a difficult couple of weeks #and im just. immensely grateful for my best friend because hes just. hes there. through all the bullshit hes There #and i love that we've gotten touchier because god knows we both fucking need it . i dont care if people think we're a couple. #they already think that when we breathe next to each other anyway #i love holding his hand it grounds me #and i dont want to kiss him or date him i just want to be close to him. he means the world to me #ive said it before but i will never understand people who see friends as second to their partner/s #because id do so much for my best friend's happiness. so so much to the best of my ability #hes seen me at my worst hes seen the bad parts of me hes seen me ugly and angry and petty and hes STILL here. he STILL cares about me #ejdjdkdj it makes me so emotional to think about #anyway. hug your friends. hold their hands. life's too short to hold back on affection if you both want it #ryan's screaming

[dottyistired]

i think ur allowed to have one (1) ace attorney weirdgirl you can dislike. for me it's trucy, for a friend of mine it's iris wilson. any more than that and i start side-eyeing.

#and if ur disliked one is maya susato or athena idk wtf is wrong w you (joke. i am v defensive of them) #explanations if y'all care: trucy's writing and the way she's held up as a genius squicks me out as someone who had to parent her parent #and iris annoys my friend bc of her immersion breaking macguffins in an otherwise fairly grounded setting (by aa standards anyway) #which i can understand but her rship w herlock redeems her to me personally #she is somewhat parentified but still able to be a kid and act out which i appreciate

[xzho-writes]

i have a presentation to deliver in around 12-14hrs and my anxiety is criminally high so i am going to ramble about my comfort character mr deezluc ragnvindr <3

#i just love him #sm #i love him a normal and healthy amount #he’d be the type to gently coax you into practicing for presentations with him #where he’s your audience #he’d be so understanding and encouraging :( #diluc just radiates warmth and comfort #so safe and caring #i NEED him omg #just him holding your hand #with his thumb drawing small circles :( #he’ll let you play with his fingers if you’re the type who fidgets when anxious #me #i fidget when anxious #i like to hold things because it grounds me #his warm hand would be very grounding #</3 #; — rambles #he actually keeps me sane #i’m gonna bring owluc in my bag for emotional support tomorrow

[gay-jewish-bucky]

A response to "Bucky being gay isn't canon" comments expressed wonderfully by @amarriageoftrueminds

#marvel #mcu #anti mcu #marvel critical #arnie roth #bucky #james buchanan barnes #james bucky barnes #bucky barnes #marvel comics #not gonna get into the homophobic erasure and misinfo these people spread #('these people' being the ones who fight tooth and nail to erase arnie's identity when it was absolutely ground breaking for the era) #bc it's so easily debunked if you actually care about '''actual'' lgbt+ characters' #and have a basic understanding of what creators were up against when it came to including queer rep in their stories #gay jews deserve representation

[devil-changmin]

No, for real, people who do not watch Thai BL are literally missing out on the full range of human emotion

#you do not need sex or drugs or rock and roll if you can sit down and watch 45 mins of a show #where the translation gives you less context than if you just watched it raw #uses pronouns as haphazardly as a suburban mom trying to understand their kid's gender #and will literally put a break in the middle of a sentence so you have to wait until someone else speaks for the rest of the line #and THEN has a whole plot about the bitcoin investor in the fashion dorm inventing a faggot detector and selecting a classmate AT RANDOM to #test it on #ALL THE WHILE IN FRONT OF A PANEL OF PROSPECTIVE INVESTORS who could make this product a REAL THING #and his entire pitch revolves around 'doesn't it suck that anyone could be gay and we dont get to know?!?!?!?!?!?!' #meanwhile he's somehow made a massive breakthrough in genetic science (using resources from an anti-homosexual lab in Russia) #and doesnt even care about the scientific ground he just cares about his cousin not coming out

[plexippusangel]

I either need to accept that I am just a way stronger person than this friend and can handle way more while still being able to engage with the world as a person, or recognize excuses as excuses, accept that I am not valued and be done or. Maybe both. Idk. It might be somewhere between the two. I am just sick of regular life stuff rendering him unable to spend any time with me, and of him being unable to bear any of the details of my life, when I would move mountains to rekindle our friendship. Though I'm starting to wonder if I still would.

#faer personal files #i just. really didn't want officiating his wedding to be our last hurrah of friendship even though i did kind of feel it coming #also i'm really sick of being infantilized for my chronic fatigue i am a grown adult and i know what i'm capable of #ugh. maybe i'm just being awful and not understanding in which case i'm too much of a rancid person to be his friend i guess #but i don't think that's the case #idk i'll never forget when i couldn't see this dude for a year even masked up outside for covid but when another of our old friends came up #from her job doing COVID RELATED CROWD CONTROL FOR THE FUCKING ARMY he went on a hike with her mask off #and i think that says a lot about what our friendship's been for years honestly. if he can't bear my company idk why i try #if i'm just an interesting prop for conversations and occasions but not a friend. i can't accept that #i am an interesting prop for conversations. the disabled genderfluid bisexual genius who lost everything bc of said disability #but i didn't lose everything i just have to fucking rebuild on new ground. and i am doing that. i whine on occasion but i am so strong #and i do know how to interact with people without traumadumping i haven't on him in YEARS but his concept of me crystalized at age 21 #or something like that i guess. idk it just breaks my heart #bc for a long time he was my person. he was the only person who knew the authentic me. more even than my sisters at times. #and yeah that was a little unhealthy but at the time he craved that!!! #and then i grew up and stopped needing him like that around the same time he stopped wanting that and it should have been fucking fine #but like. even senior year of college when i was sick it was already starting to fall apart #like i remember being on a small hike once being exhausted and jokingly being like you gotta carry me back and then being like #no really i might actually need an arm to lean on by the end of this walk if i'm gonna make it back to the car i really don't know if i can #and he said no bc he didn't want to look straight. who the fuck CARES??? i could barely walk i was stumbling my way back annoying him going #too slow. fuck. and that really has been what our friendship has been for years. the minute my house wasn't the most convenient place it wa #more or less dead idk why i keep dragging this horse around #idk why i keep letting him break my heart like this it's so stupid he's never gonna care about me like he did when i was quick and brillian #but never quite as smart as him in his view. fuck him. i'm smarter. just bc i was a little gullible or paranoid at times bc of the #FUCKING CPTSD doesn't mean i was dumber than him. the fuck??? there's something wrong with me i swear idk why i hang on #anyway i'm irritated. but i'm also reluctant to throw away somebody who's seen me through key points in my life. so.

[theophagie-remade]

We need to start gatekeeping Deku from average sj readers this shit is getting ridiculous

#''why did he get angry. he just saw the person he's closest to lay motionless on the ground covered in blood 😡'' #saw someone say that it's inconsistent with his desire to save shigaraki... man. #you mean to tell me people will react badly to seeing someone they care about being badly hurt #despite Wanting to help the same person who hurt them. fucked up it true #and this isn't even about bakudeku or anything it's just. CARING ABOUT PEOPLE HE GOT ANGRY BECAUSE HE CARES #how is it so hard to understand...... hello... #mytext #animanga #bnha #char tag #midoriya izuku #salty

[arthur-r]

same content warnings for not speaking well im not feeling well and i can’t speak well and im stressed out so in vent content warning but for same as im just continuing talking

and iodnt know anything abkut how people are supposed to work but i think when you’re and somebody is sitting on a bed together you’re supposed to be not talking about the freaking Peter mark roget talking about the thesaurus is not right and for being distracting. and nobody wants to be he wasn’t gonna be when i wasn’t feeling well but i feel bad for having ruined of where im as if i isn’t even don’t like him likenim not but im just not good for i do like him and i think he likes me and i just don’t want to be make everything weird make complicated im not good at being just being normal and somebody that anybody is able to like. i just want to be normal and be ATTRACTIVE but i am busy being sick and weird unloveable. i want for hanging out to be a good thing not where i feel sorry or where somebody had to be had been helping everything and i think i swear he likes me i swear and we were close together and i don’t think im just pretending but i think im gonna ruin it cause im not feeling well didnt being considerate i can’t when i can’t i get stuck distracted can’t think about anything im nkt feeling well but i just make everything turns into about me and it isn’t fair and I just want to be just have normal do anything right feel right have a conversation where i did it right and it didn’t turn around didn’t make all of it opposite where i just i don’t know how to do it im too much autistic and too much sick i can’t do it

came back from the end again im out of tags again im not going to keep doing this im sorry i just im not feeling well and im so frustrated from it’s not being sicks fault i don’t want to be sick because i don’t feel good being i don’t want to be ill because it hurts me. but it’s not sick’s fault for nobody can see me past it, it’s not somebody can still be important valuable im not trying to say i just i don’t want to live inside of nobody can see me anymore i want anybody to know for looking at me and seeing a real person

#im just im not i want to somebody think for who i am i dont want to be hiding but i want for who i am being different not so much hard #nobody can understand for too much complicated. j do t want to anybody doesn’t care all the way of all of it don’t want to know them but i #for me it’s harder to find somebody who does it’s harder for somebody cares about all of me cause all of me is too it’s not the right way #im just a cute little kid or a poor tragic im not a normal person im not i can’t just be an adult #i just want to be an adult make sense have people like me like a grownup not like im some little broken #i want to feel like i have autonomy!!!!! i want to show i do i want to show im a real person #and i can be more than just im not just #i feel like i take it away i take a way the special moment cause of being me #like i can only be a little kid or a martyr i can’t be special or beautiful i just have to be broken and oh poor baby #i just want to be a real person i just want to be a real person !!!!!! #and i just want to say sorry speak to somebody say hey i promise im a fucking i promise im a person i swear #and i feel so stupid saying any of it im right here sounding like for as if i don’t know anything like nothing is #i cant even grow up for complaining of growing up. i feel like i cant be a real person don’t count nobody is gonna think of me for #i dont know i need to call somebody but nobody my roommate is here i can’t #and i can’t i don’t want for somebody has to be has to help me has to save me for in order to love me #i dont want to be so broken anybody who wants to love me has to save me. it isn’t fair i don’t want to be sick iedint want to need help #i cant have help from somebody who doesn’t love me but i ruin the love if i made somebody help me it ruins it so i can’t have i have to pick #i cant have them both at the same time i have to pick and my body is picking for me im ruining everything i have because i can’t even walk #i cant even walk home i need help to walk me home how do you look at me and think im pretty when you’re helping me stay off the ground #i dont want to be fragile pretty either so pretty special needs saving i don’t want that #i want to be me i can’t be the perfect broken dainty it’s not like that. i just want to be me #i want somebody to care about me not be have to help me i just want to be me not a special i don’t want somebody to have to accommodate me #and it’s not i don’t think anybody should change their self i don’t think with other people i don’t think it’s i just i don’t believe #i don’t think somebody is going to look past it somebody who can walk easy talk easy verythjng is so easy and i just #if somebody doesn’t have it they don’t know they can’t look at me past anything else it’s k #im just the different parts i can’t be a person from i just it gets broken it’s not on purpose but i just i can’t i get broken into the same #i get turned into the same person i can’t be me and be sick everyone sees me and sees that im just sick and i wish that i hadn’t told #i wish that i didn’t say anything i just and i just i want to be normal i don’t want to be seen that way #and it’s okay to be sick it’s normal it doesn’t feel good but it doesn’t make me broken it doesn’t make me not be special valuable be myself #but nobody can see me anymore it takes away the rest of me because nobody cares to look i just want people to look

[strixhaven]

ai art is a tool that exists on a spectrum from ‘nightmarishly awful’ to ‘fairly innocuous’ to ‘genuinely really cool’ with most of its usage being close to that middle ground. it has its problems and can definitely be used in terrible ways. it is not, however, the literal death of art and it is completely deranged for that to be one of the common stances against it. like. do you hear yourself.

#like it’s perfectly reasonable and fine to not like it especially wrt things like permission. payment of artists whose work is being #used to train it. who profits off of it and why. etc etc #but to say that no one will ever care about artists again never pay them that they should never upload anything because it’ll be devalued #and turned into soulless jpegs and everybody hates them. how is that in any way a helpful thing to say to artists #it’s just reactionary scare-mongering that fuels incredibly dumb and easily debunkable bad faith arguments against it #like again it’s fine to not like it just keep it grounded in reality and make sure you understand what you’re talking about #before immediately going 0 to 1000 and start sending death threats to people who don’t violently hate it as much as you do or find even a #tiny degree of nuance in its existence #jfc man. and before you get on my case i am an ‘actual’ artist and i don’t even use ai and honestly i don’t really like it either #i just find the discourse surrounding it to be completely deranged and not helpful to anybody

[queerlyglittering]

some of y'all never had parents who aggressively shamed you for making even a little mess or even just mere evidence of your existence and it shows

#personal #ignore me #directed at people off of tumblr #who lack literally any degree of consciousness of their own mess #never mind basic conscientiousness toward others around them #it's one thing to make a mess in your own room - your personal space where only you live and no one else usually goes #it's another thing entirely to just. drop food and trash and toys and other belongings anywhere they happen to fall out of your hands #treating the floor of communal areas like it is one massive dumpster that you live and play in #and not caring at all about the fact that such mess stresses literally everyone else in the house out #including the pets!!!! #mama cat has to wade through an ocean of toys and garbage just to get to the ONE SPOT *I* cleaned up for her to keep her new babies in!! #i am not a maid!!!!!!!! #i should not have to clean up after you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I'm gonna start charging for it i swear to motherfucking zeus #like i understand there is a gulf of difference between 'not caring about cleaning bc your parents don't care and so you were never taught' #and 'raised by an abusive parent who was a hoarder herself but god forbid her kids' rooms don't look like magazine spreads' #but there's GOT to be some fucking middle ground to be found here. meet me in the fucking middle.