#okay she would never say that LOL

[aldermos]

Surge started flirting with Amy in hopes to ruin Sonic, but there was a slight problem with this plan;

Amy flirted back.

And it all went from there.

anon, your brain rn.. i'm intrigued

I can't dialogue,, but I imagine something like this happens 💀 instantly flustered

HC)) i want to think surge is basically touch/love-starved and after amy's reciprocation, she slowly starts seeking her out to just hold hands, hug, etc. (arriving with confidence but ending as a flustered mess) until she just forgets about going through w/ her mission of ruining sonic 💀

// idk just something semi-cutesy; however, I WANT ANGST, so.. amy finds out about the sonic killing plans, feels betrayed, and confronts surge which ends in a short verbal/physical fight 👍👍 surge gets her ass kicked and they become enemies;

a couple more fights/interactions later (something like a lite-catradora?) and surge is just like, defeated.. she has a little rock-bottom awakening and works to reconstruct her relationship w/ sonic first before finally reconciling w/ amy (ending in a kinda ambiguous manner?)

Idk, a bit of a rough and barebone surge redemption idea; thx again and sorry for the tangent ;;

#idw sonic #surgamy #surge the tenrec #sth #amy rose #amy: i love how you really committed to pretending to be a jerk by ironically hating sonic's guts #surge: ... #okay she would never say that LOL #dialogue is so difficult for me haha #sonic just watching it all go down: 👁️👄👁️ #thank you for this #my mind is running wild #asks #surge redemption au

[inkskinned]

this is sort of pathetic, but when you were younger, you were sort of puzzled by the cartoon representations of fathers: how a kid would be outside with a mitt, waiting to play catch.

it's not that your father never played catch with you, but you also didn't like when he did. something about a hard ball coming quickly towards your face doesn't seem exciting. not that you'd ever say you don't trust him. you trust him, right?

it's not like he never tried to teach you anything. or never tried to parent. on rare days, a strange person would walk in your father's skin. bright, happy, magnificent. this version of your father was so cheerful and charismatic that you would do anything to keep him. and this is the version of your father that would laugh and gently coax you try again. this is the version of your father that would break down the small elements of a problem and point them out so you have an easier time with them.

as a kid, those days happened more often. but somewhere around 11, you started being too much of a person, and he was often cross about it. when he'd try to sit you down to learn something, you spent the whole time with your shoulders around your ears, nervous, uncertain. terrified because you didn't immediately understand how to navigate something. worried you will run out of his goodwill and then you will have the Other Father back, and you will have ruined a good day for your entire family. something about you being visibly afraid - it just made him angry. he would accuse you of not wanting to learn and storm away.

on tv, it's not like there's a lot of versions of men-who-are-mostly-fathers. they can be good dads, but usually their stories are not told in the household. so it's normal that your father is there, but he's never around. you know he was in the house, somewhere, it's just not that you guys ever... "hung out". he just seemed to get kind of bored of you, annoyed you weren't made in his perfect image. frustrated with how much energy it took to raise a kid. over time, you kind of adopt a bittersweet band around your throat - he knows nothing about me. he says at least i never abandoned my family.

and it's technically - technically - true. he was there for you. sometimes he even made an effort and made it to the big moments; the graduations and the dance recitals. he grins and tells everyone that he taught you. it almost erases the days in between, where he complains because you need a ride to school. the weeks that go by where he doesn't actually ever speak to you. the times you say i am struggling and he says figure it out on your own. i can't help you.

and that's fine! that's all fine. you can call him if you are having a problem with your car. or if you need a ride to the hospital. he loves playing hero, he just doesn't like the actual work that comes with being a father. and you've kind of made your peace with that; because you had to, because you don't want to live your life like he does; the whole world at a managed distance, a little rotating and controlled orb he can witness and take credit for but never truly love.

as an adult, you are rewatching some dumb cartoon - and again, the child standing in the rain, with a mitt, waiting for their father to come play catch. as an adult, there's this strange creeping dread - this little thing? this little thing, and their dad can't even show up for that? oh god, holyshit, it's not about the mitt, is it. oh god, holyshit, your father spent most of your life leaving you hanging.

#spilled ink #writeblr #:) lol . anybody notice how i write about dads in second person exclusively #me: haha silly cartoon #also me: ): this child is not getting what they need #also btw this is about a father but it might apply to any parent or caregiver #there's a really weird space of like #''this person was technically around me but either ignored me or was actively harmful to me'' #and like u learn this very strange ritual of like... this person is my parent/caregiver on a technicality #that you almost spend all ur time with them like... tiptoeing and acting as THEIR parent so u don't upset them. #like you're 17 and ur mom is suddenly hit by a wave of wanting to talk to you so she's like :) lets make breakfast together :) and ur like #uhhhhhh okay?? bc you feel like this is absolutely going to go wrong and is why u usually make breakfast alone #and she starts being like: THIS is called a TEASPOON ... & u know all this stuff but you also know to just be very quiet #bc if you say like ''mom ive been making this breakfast every day since i was 13'' she would FREAK OUT and be like #DONT ACT LIKE I NEVER DO ANYTHING FOR YOU DONT ACT LIKE I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU. FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL . #so u have to smile like ur a preschool teacher and be like. OH COOL! i didn't know A CUP existed! tell me MORE! :)

[earlgodwin]

THE BORGIA BROTHERS + putting the family's interest above their sister's concerns

"Everything I do is for the family."

#okay but hear me out... #both of them are so obsessed with her and overprotective of her and have incestual feelings for her she's THEIR princess #but both brothers act differently towards her. ces chose to be selfless and made her meet up with paolo #while juan was mad at paolo bc he can't stand a man near lu and decided to kill him thinking he was protecting her honor #mind you juan Really does love lu but his impulsiveness and drunkinness never let him think through. never thought that she would Hate him #and for the ppl who act like ces is better than juan when it comes to that aspect. he was taking the same route but in a slow rate (see s3) #he became so petty and jealous and eventually planned to kill alfonso. those incestuous brothers are sooo unhinged about their sister lol #while we're at it...francois saying that ces makes excuses for himself to feel better about doing stuff for selfish reasons... #VS. david saying juan was good natured but was misguided. he thought he was doing the right thing. he was spiteful later bc lu resented him #juan borgia #cesare borgia #the borgias #theborgiasedit #david oakes #holliday grainger #lucrezia borgia #perioddramaedit #the borgia siblings #weloveperioddrama #by jen

[andstuffsketches]

[comic of Yor and Loid from Spy x Family.  Yor says, “we need to practice kissing to avoid future suspicion” and Loid agrees.  They both look at each other, blushing, with words behind them (cut off by the art and panel) showing their thoughts. Yor is thinking about kisses on TV and that Loid has experience she doesn’t because he was married.  Loid is thinking about his mission and that he hopes this time will be less boring since he actually enjoys Yor’s company.  Yor reaches in, blushing, and pulls Loid in for a kiss.  They awkwardly press their lips together, then break apart blankly.  Yor smiles and says in confusion, “That’s it? Oh, I mean... that was-- easy?” Loid beams at her and says, “In my experience, yes! Great job, Yor!” the bottom of the page says “Normalcy achieved”]

oblivious aspec twiyor 💚💜

#spy x family #sxf #twiyor #loid x yor #yor briar #yor forger #loid forger #twilight spy x family #okay so like. you can interpret this however you want but like in some ways its not meant to be shippy #this is a joke about how kissing is actually boring as hell #and its almost more qpr twiyor lol #the funny thing is twilight never feels anything when kissing but he would just assume thats bc hes a spy who threw everything like feelings #away etc. we stan an emotionally oblivious king #and yor's too polite to say what she's really really thinking which is wow that was so nothing what did i do wrong #but anyway in this way they reassure each other #bc twilight is like oh good she didnt make a big deal out of it like all those other women ive kissed ffor missions im happy about this #and yor is like oh okay thats normal im getting a good grade in wife then :) #comic #comics #2022 #theyre so normal (affectionate) #digital art #image described #aspec #aromantic #asexual #what if fake married but the feels we catch are not strictly romantic in nature <3 #pda #kissing

[beaulesbian]

Mariner & Boimler in Lower Decks 2x5 || 3x10

bonus:

#star trek lower decks #st lwd #lower decks #marinler #lwdedit #uff after rewatching the seasons so far heres some gifs :'D i have few more ideas for others #i can never say no to a character development and progress over seasons with awesome parallels showing the growth #boimler knew to bring up what he did wrong and apologized (and was okay with showing more remorse) #and mariner knew that in a way they were trying to protect her but they didnt have the whole picture #also since s3 she said she didnt want to leave cerritos and then had to and was genuinely sad about leaving them ;-; thats growth #stedit #stlwd #stlwdedit #beckett mariner #brad boimler #d'vana tendi #samanthan rutherford #mariner x boimler #tbh their ship name could have also been brackett lol as in.. bracket [ ] idk its just funny thought that these nerds would like #mine #gif:lwd #gif:star trek

[orcelito]

As for my post this morning. If anyone was worried. Me personally I'm okay (I guess) but my dad's in the hospital and things r still very up in the air. So.

#speculation nation #bracing myself for the possibility of Major Grief.....2!!!! #well actualy more like 3 or 4 or 5 (lol lol lol) #but likely the worst one bc it's. my dad. that's my dad. #i left work early to visit him at the hospital. hes stable rn at least (he wasnt this morning) #he wasnt conscious though. and i really really hope he ends up okay #but. i still saw my dad unconscious in a hospital bed hooked up to like a million tubes and #thats my dad. Thats my Dad. #im really trying to not do my processing until after i know for sure how things are gonna go #dont wanna start grieving until after he's officially gone #so im trying not to think about it. but it's still... yeah. unpleasant. #and theres a part of me thats so so resentful. if i have to have a dead parent why would it be the Good one? #take my fucking mom instead. hell my life would even be BETTER without her. horrible as that is to say. #but it's my dad. he's not perfect. he has his flaws. but he's still tried in a way she never ever did. #seeing him like that makes me feel so... small. makes me remember being picked up by him. #makes me remember riding on the back of his harley as a tiny little 10 year old with a helmet that was giant on me #we'll hope for the best. we'll hope for a recovery. even if not a full recovery. i just want to have my dad. #sorry. this is probably too real for my tumblr dot com. it's just been... a lot today. #negative/ #death/ #hospitals ment/ #idfk. sorry

[non-un-topo]

Talking to my sister can be one of the most aggravating experiences

#just allowing myself a few moments of self-pity today #because i'm a little overstimulated/sick of people talking AT me #i have begun to notice that i'm never asked anything... not a single thing. no questions about my life or interests or how school is going #no questions about my partner or our anniversary and no acknowledgement of the big haircut i just got #no questions about my BIL's wedding. none about my health. #every day it's just people talking AT me. kind of tired at the moment... #and this is made worse by my sister's holier-than-thou attitude about literally the smallest and most insignificant things #like washing clothes? and cooking rice?? idk she talks like a housewife now. #and i get to listen to her complain about her 35 year old boyfriend and not say ONE kind thing for 2 hours straight #not a single question for me. not a single nice thing. and i'm talked over constantly #it's not like i don't raise my voice or speak my mind lol #it's just that. between my family and my partner's family. it feels like no one knows just how smart i am and how much fun i can be. #my partner is perfect in so many ways. my best friend and the kindest and most compassionate person i know. #but i really could brag and boast like my sister does over absolutely nothing. because i have actual achievements. but i don't #because who does that lol. fucking annoying and rude people. #maybe my family just thinks i'm okay and so they never ask me anything or call me. ever. #but see.... i don't talk to them because i want advice or help or money. i talk to them because they're my family #and i would very much like to feel cherished and loved by them #/ end angst and self-pity boo hoo

[padfootastic]

hey, so i've seen you lean into the cold arrogant black heir version of sirius lately, and i agree to an extent, because he was pretty intimidating and arrogant and didn't really care much about the public other than his people, but that doesn't really mean that he's this stoic, serious guy either right? he's pretty funny, definitely a troublemaker, and way too charming to stay in trouble for long. but at the same time, people know he's dangerous and should not be messed with because under all the charm, there absolutely was an element of 'fuck with me and i'll kill you'. and i know this sounds super contradictory but that's the whole point about sirius' character. he's a walking talking contradiction. he's so beautifully complex that turning him into this heir version is contradicting his entire character. what do you think? i would love to see you elaborate on this.

also, what do you think his humour is like? i've always thought of it as super sarcastic and dry. he def has a dark sense of humour, and he's so so sharp witted. anyway sorry if my ask was too long, i can talk for hours and hours about sirius.

no!!! anon no ask is too long when it’s about sirius. i can do the same (i have, in fact, done the same) it’s so valid.

i don’t think it’s such a contradiction at all, actually! i personally see sirius as this: a guy with a lot of masks, partially bc it’s been trained into him & partially bc he’s had to be. and i think he defaults to this cold, arrogant one because it’s the one he’s had longest—but around the right people, it fully melts away. the marauders and lily, yes but especially james and harry. that’s why i keep mentioning the outsider pov of it, people getting shocked when they see the difference in his behaviour. it’s why i wrote the patronus fic lolol.

i actually think that he had a lot…issues with the ‘heir’ version of himself (and yes, that’s a fanon concept i’ve absorbed entirely bc i love) because of what it represents and he tries hard to break away from it at all times. he probably went through an entire phase of teenage rebellion where he was doing everything against his family’s teachings bc it felt good. but, i love it when people can’t run away from their nature as much as they want to, so i always end up giving him some traits that basically make him hate himself looking into the mirror lmao

as for his humor, oh for sure!! this one’s definitely canon—he has a dry, sarcastic humor. (funnily, this is where i see a lot of similarities b/w him and harry for some reason) i think it can tend towards self deprecating sometimes. he’s also—hm. u can see his class in his words, and i think that might be true of his humor as well tho idk how to explain that better lol i think he’s the kind of person who’s so good at passive aggressiveness that you’ll never realise he insulted u to ur face (we have a phrase for it here—kaat ke haath mein dedi; i think sirius would be ace at that). and going off that, i do think his humor was also based on…belittling? other people. or rather, at the expense of other people in that way popular kids do sometimes. like him w the rat in swm, i think. casually cruel. a little mean.

#sirius black #sometimes i feel like i’m mean to sirius #and then i remember he’s my comfort character actually so it’s all good #i can never be mean to james tbh he’s too…paavam #but sirius? such a good character to mess around with #but like—if you’ve read my dark sirius fic—it’s kind of based on this premise of sirius and the heir being two sides of the same coin #and how he struggles with it but end of the day if he NEEDS to it’s not hard for him to wear that mask #idk i wanna okay around w it more #bc i think that balance of like. ruthlessness and tenderness is so so based #and i think sirius would really mail that #nail* #but yes. massive agree that sirius is made up of so much nuance #it’s so funny bc he genuinely gets a good well rounded characterisation lol #it’s mostly coherent too i’d say #but then She had to go and ruin it all 😔😔 #ugh anyway #come talk to me about sirius anytime anon! he’s my fav boy <3 #pen’s asks

[shirkers2018dirsanditan]

nothing is more obnoxious when you see a conventionally attractive, super feminine lesbian couple and the comments are like “OMG I LOVE FEMME FOR FEMME OMG FEMMES TOGETHER OMG SO HOT OMG SO PRETTY OMG I NEED A PRETTY GORGEOUS FEMME GF SO BAD OMG FINALLY OTHER FEMME LESBIANS 😍😍” like girl shut the fuck up oh my God

#my friend is a super femme for femme like super conform to beauty norms type and it’s genuinely obnoxious lol #she once said she would never date a woman if her wig was bad lol…. #she said ‘and if she doesnt think its bad? that says something about her’ like okay #this is the same woman who bullied her cousin into wearing makeup and heels to prom 🥴

[caffeinatedopossum]

Ok so apparently it's not normal that whenever someone goes to a restaurant and I'm with them, I expect them to get just themselves food and then we leave. Like if you get me food or ask if I want anything I will in fact look at you like you're a stranger who just walked up and offered me a 100 dollar bill

#what can i say im just used to getting nothing #both my parents and my older sisters would go to get food and basically never get me anything #if i did get anything it also wasnt 'what do you want' it was 'heres what im getting you youre welcome' #lol and i was okay with that? guys. guys am i supposed to raise my standards #is this like. am i not respecting myself enough #like this is me having gottwn much better too. i used to be even worse #if i went to your house and you let me sleep on something that wasnt the floor i would stare at yoy in shock #i was mentally incapable of comprehending that i could get whatever i wanted off of a menu #one time my friends mom actually yelled at me because she took me to dunk8n donuts and asked what i wanted #and i froze up so bad that i just couldnt say anything because i didnt know what she meant #i was like 'oh you dont need to get me anything' 😭😭 and she INSISTED she had to get me something #for context i mustve been like 9 and i had NEVER had anyone ask my what i wanted before #i also was so prepared to just skip breakfast due to the anxiety of this situation #turns out having kids skip breakfast is also not super normal? me and my sisters usually wouldnt eat breakfast #especially on sunday mornings before church because there was snacks there

[snifekinner]

i have a friend who told me that when she played with her friends as a kid she would stage manage them, to the point of telling them exactly where to stand and what to say while they were playing that they were at her wedding or something. and im just saying, azula.

#azula #atla #this is exactly what she would have done as a kid #she would also change rules all the time so that everything had to happen how she wanted it #zuko was more the type to push over the table if he lost #lol i just imagined him doing it with iroh multiple times and every time iroh just waits very calmly and peacefully #while zuko picks up everything in silence #and then one day zuko loses and looks at iroh who just sips his tea placidly #and zuko never turns over another game board in his life #maybe one or two okay #azula would also cheat like she didnt need to cheat against zuko but she would do it just to piss him off #and then if he complained she would just be like well you never win why would i even need to cheat? #i didnt do anything and you cant prove i did #so the choice is either quit the game bc she cheated and she'll just say it was bc you were losing #or stick it out knowing she cheated #can you tell i have siblings #they are masters of psychological torture and they know you too well at that age

[piplupod]

epic win at old lady group today: the group leader was struggling with a tangled up loose skein of yarn, so i scampered over to the other end of the table where was sitting and offered to untangle it and wind it into a centre-pull yarn bal for her since I remembered how to do it from just the other day fjdkdl and she was very confused why i would WANT to do that but she let me :3

so i got to untangle yarn AND wind a yarn ball AND help someone i appreciate, three things i love doing - YIPPEE !!!

#also one of the ladies had never seen the way i do it before and she was so fascinated and impressed fjdkdl #every couple mins she'd be like ''wow! would ya look that!'' SBDJDKL it was so fun #also i finished as much of the hat i could work on while i was there a bit early #so i pulled out my sketchbook for the last half hour and doodled a little #and the remaining women all wanted to see fhfkdl so i got to show them a page of my art #and they were so impressed HDJFDKL #its so strange sharing my art w ppl bc like... i pretty much never do it irl #so im always like super nervous and unsure and ppl pretty much always go ''WOW !! you're an artist!!!'' #and then i get MORE nervous and unsure bc idk how to react to compliments other than saying thank you gjfkdl #and its just a very silly mess of a time LOL #ANYWAYS !! good time there today as always fjfkl i almost had a panic attack at the grocery store after but i survived #idk why that happens sometimes fjdkdl my brain just decides its time to freak out #and i have to be like hey man. we're almost done here and then we'll be home soon. and we can have a breakdown once we get home okay? #and my brain kicks a rock and mutters a pouty ''okay'' and i push through the rest of the time fnfmdjdkl #anyhowdy that was A Lot and im very tired but it was good overall and I've got food again so HURRAY !! #and also i have a drawing im excited abt working on >:3 #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[whoviandoodler]

grandma's real bad for my 'don't anger yourself into further digestive disorders' goal

#was on a call and basically said she thinks that they should bring back 6 months military training #'some men just need to get more serious/disciplined... I mean they need to be prepared to defend their country #am i supposed to? I mean women?' #I would rather for the rest of eternity have unserious and even borderline immature men than #Make a single person go through the abusive brainwashing that is military training #That they might come outof with even an inkling of thinking it's okay to kill someone #They're apparently conscripting again??? If that's what they call it #Coming to your house and asking about sons and whatever #First time saying it but thank fuck brother is abroad in america #And uncle and cousin live in germany #Uncle did that bcs it was obligatory then and he came back so... Out of it ig is the word #that he married the first woman he found that's like p cruel just to get tf away from my grandparents #And he moved like 16 hours away and never came back except on holidays #Also they're fucking 50+??? Leave them the fuck alone lol #Just. So mad so mad so mad how brainwashed is this country they think this is ok #And more likely than not what the army the president is arming 'but doesn't threaten anyone!' is planning for #Is further ethnically cleansing ppl who rightfully hate our guts #Just horrified and furious all around

[invisiblyvisiblejay]

ive decided that generally on principle im not even going to think abt whether im in love w girl im dating bc like. she's not even my girlfriend it doesn't matter if we're "in love" or whatever but also i just.... think it all the time and someday im gonna just fucking say it fully accidentally like she said something last night and my like. first instinct was to be like "haha yeah but i love u anyways" and i didn't say it (thank god) but it took me like. a full minute to be like oh glad i didn't go w that response 😭😭

#me: not gonna think abt if im in love with her #also me in my head like every time we kiss and also say goodbye and also hug and also: i love u #if i said it accidentally like that she'd be like What and id be like 🧍🧍lol oops #she said it once really early on and i think she meant it in a like. not necessarily a romantic way but i was like 😀 haha #and kind of ignored it and she was like oh okay then and i was like what :) and she never said it again lol #it wasn't that weird we had a conversation before that where i was like yeah that's fine i say it to my friends or whatever #and then she said it and i was just immediately like oh actually it's different i can't respond to that 😭😭 #but yeah anyways if she ever brought it up or said it or anything i think i would kind of be like #sorry can't be in love with someone who's not my girlfriend 😭😭😭😭 lol #can't get my heart broken if im not in love w her 🤷 #thinking like this is how i forgot i was gay btw #bc i was like yeah i am definitely but like just not going to think abt it and then i had to go thru the whole thing again #kind of funny #this is an example of one of those posts i would NOT show her or want her to see btw if that's not super fucking obvious

[lunarrampage]

I'm a big advocate of just blocking and moving on when seeing bad takes about your interests but that's mostly because I rarely travel outside the small circle of artists and mutuals I follow and ohhhh boy after having seen the worst take about a beloved blorbo I suddenly understand everything, it was like a redditer overtook my body and I almost went into a rage as I resisted the urge to "um actually" and type up an entire essay in ops comment section but I persevered. Are you all proud of me.

#im mostly being hyperbolic but gosh #it's still eating me up inside so i will continue to complain about it here in the tags lol #so just scroll away if you don't wanna see me complain about things that don't matter<3 #anyway i just saw someone say how karlach worked dorna slaver and would still be working for him if he hadn't betrayed her #implying she was only against gortash because his actions directly affected her #when FIRST IF ALL SHE WAS AN ORPHANED CHILD WHO WAS MANIPULATED BY HIM #AND SHE EVEN SAID IN HER OWN WORDS THAT SHE NEVER WOULD HAVE WORKED FOR GORTASG IS SHE HAD KNOWN WHO HE TRULY WAS #SHE WAS A KID AND WORKED FOR AN AWFUL MAN AND MOST LIKELY DID SOME PRETTY MESSED UP THINGS FOR HIM THIS IS TRUE #BUT SHE WAS A CHILD AND SHE LOOKED UP TO HIM WHILE HE MANIPULATED HER SO SHE WOULD ALWAYS PROTECT HIM AND DO WHAT HE SAID WITHOUT QUESTION #then he sold her to zariel and it wasn't until it was too late did she realize how evil gortash was #im unsure if she new he was a slaver when working for him but since she was a kid with nothing it's not like she's going to fully commit to #being a morally upstanding citizen when she literally couldn't afford it #saying karlach was only against gortash because his action affected her is BLATANTLY WRONG #she has flaws and is a deeply written characters and she cares so much about other people thats on of the reasons she worked with gortash #she cared about him and he used that to his advantage #okay rant over i love u karlach im sorry people refuse to look into your charcter beyond surface level assumptions </3 #babbles #dear god there are so many typos. i aint retyping all that shit tho good luck deciphering that #i say as if anyone is gonna read it sjkdkf

[aromacaque]

what do you need a service dog for? i'm sure your parents would understand

I'm not going into the long-winded explanation of WHY I'd like one, but autism and agoraphobia mainly. Circling, blocking, deep pressure therapy, carrying items (more as a bonus, my coordination sucks), helping with anxiety attacks/panic attacks/meltdowns/shutdowns, and probably other things I'm not even thinking about right now.

And yeah no, while each person in my family would have a different reaction and opinion on it, they wouldn't really understand. Definitely not at a level for them to help me in any way. My dad is my dad (if you know you know). My mom already doesn't see the point in me getting psychological help and has tried to convince me multiple times that I'm not actually autistic, just "special," because she doesn't want to acknowledge that I struggled growing up (because then she ALSO has to confront that she didn't do anything despite the very obvious signs that I needed help). I have no idea how my sisters would react, but then again they're not the ones that I'd need to convince soooo

#ask #my mom would be okay with me having a service dog. but she wouldn't understand it. she'd just be happy i'm happy or whatever #seems like a good start! until you note that my dad is the one that makes most of the money my mom's money is basically for emergencies #my dad is so weird to guess for though cause to my face he'd be fine #emphasis on the to my face #i'm at the point where i don't even need them to understand i just need their lack of understanding to not get in my way lol #i accepted the fact that they'd never really know what's going on with me when i was 15 BAHSJAK if i spent time caring about it i'd go craz #btw i don't want anyone to make assumptions about my parents because of this. especially my mom #say anything mean about my mom and it's on sight