#so here you are…like 5 months later

[kaidiaries]

Chapters: 3/3 Fandom: Spider-Man (Video Games 2018-2020), Spider-Man - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Peter Parker/Reader Characters: Peter Parker, Spider-Man Additional Tags: based heavily on ps4/ps5 peter but works for any iteration, Peter Parker Whump, the sinister six push spider-man to the brink, he ends the night in a concerned civilian’s studio apartment, and smut because hello. PS4/5 Peter., Sex, Oral Sex, Smut, Submissive Peter Parker, Nipple Play, Face-Sitting, Cunnilingus, slight mask kink, Web Bondage

He began to turn around. “Sorry about that. Thanks for coming to help out tonight. I’m P–“ Hazel eyes, the ones that melted your heart when he had finally let you pull his mask off, fixed on you, then widened like saucers. His grip fumbled on the box and he caught it swiftly before it could crash into the floor.

Miles eyed him strangely. “You, uh…good there, Pete?” He looked at you quickly, as if to assess whether his mentor’s sudden malfunctioning would send you running for the hills. But you weren't faring much better. You weren't sure if you'd breathed in the last few minutes.

Spider-Man, in civilian clothing, was blinking at you rapidly like there was a chance you might be one of Mysterio’s illusions. You thought you saw his ears turning pink.

#this fic was supposed to be 2 chapters but insomniac has been feeding us so good with sm2 teasers that i needed an outlet for my Thoughts #so here you are…like 5 months later #with a chapter that exceeded its intended word count by a lot bc my brain knows no bounds with insomniac peter #now imagine how insufferable i’ll be when i settle on a rough idea for a symbiote!spider-man fic #peter parker #peter parker x reader #spiderman #spiderman x reader #insomniac spiderman x reader #marvel’s spider man #peter parker smut #ao3 #my fics

[chitinleg]

"Mister Bashir, what a pleasure it is to finally meet you."

Julian, why in god's name would you invite him to play the villain?

#my art #ds9 #julian bashir #elim garak #star trek deep space nine #garashir #image desc in alt text #pencil #ok so on the outset it may look to some viewers as though julian invited garak to play the villain to get dommed by the scary lizard #this is not the case. not in my heart #in my heart julian felt a burst of something funny when Garak asked him ''what if you'd killed me'' #and he responded ''what makes you think i wasn't trying'' and garaks face blooms into a sudden understanding and respect. ooh. #That's that heady shit. catching garak off guard. ooooh. that's that High Quality Endorphins Happening. but. gotta pack that up for later #(he will not unpack that later) because garak also just threatened to kill 5 of his friends who are STILL IN DANGER. NO TIME FOR THIS. #so after everything. and MONTHS after OMB. he invites garak to something like a playful rematch. sort of. #after all theres only so long that garak can stomach being a sidekick u know? he needs to be able to do his own machinations. #so they make a character for him thats a villain. a little more cerebral than falcon. a little more ambiguous in his motivations. #now there's also. a secret game at play here (there are always games. doctor) and its actually between garak and his own self #you see garak Also wants bashir to defeat his character. he also wants to be shocked. challenged. a little dismantled even (state forbid!) #and because garak wants that for himself? hes going to fight tooth and fucking nail to make sure it doesn't happen. #that Gayle clip from ''COMPANY IS COMING'' but its garak yelling ''WE CAN'T LET THEM KNOW WE [WANT]!!!'' #and its a horrible idea for both of them but. oh so so exciting #you understand. #these rituals arent intricate so much as they are transparent but all encompassing. a fish doesnt know its swimming in water until its out #you understand? you understand. #thank you to anyone who found the time to read these tags i hope you enjoyed yourself and/or found what you were looking for #also garak is dressed so boring bc hes hiding himself u know how it is

[beesinspades]

happy pride month from vash the stampede!!!! 💜 seeing all the ace vash art makes me so happy I wanted to contribute!

#trigun #trigun maximum #trigun fanart #asexual #vash the stampede #trimax #re: charms if it happens shipping will be from belgium jsyk!! #he makes me so happy!!! #AND WHAT IF I TEAR UP?? WHAT THEN???? #you guys i didn't know something i made could make me feel this way #i spent an embarrassing amount of time on it sdfjbkln #i'm posting it now because if I don't i'm gonna spend another 5 hours on it #granted i could still end up tweaking it and just editing my post bUT STILL #for context i'm not great at art i barely ever draw but i want to improve so i decided to draw one vash every day of june #i've been seeing a little bit of improvement and when I drew this one he was pretty flawed but also he made me so happy that i was like #ok i'm cleaning it up and fixing it digitally #and now 12+ hours of work later here we are #ANYWAY ANYWAY I'M RAMBLING #THANK YOU FOR THE ACE VASH ART THIS MONTH YOU GUYS INSPIRED ME PLEASE KEEP IT COMING #it clears my skin waters my crops #also pls don't follow me for this i post art once every six months at best you'll be disappointed!! i'm a writer first and foremost #anyway gotta go draw today's vash weehee! #bee draws #ace vash tag

[alessandriana]

Chapter 10!!!

#mdzs #the untamed #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #!myfic #this is another of those chapters that took like 5 months because i kept having to rewrite it* #bc i just could not seem to settle on how wwx would actually react #finally i realized the truth: wwx would go insane #so #here you go #*and when i say 'kept having to rewrite' i mean this chapter is about 3 hours later than usual bc i just... did some more rewrites...

[mellaithwen]

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#I struggled with what to talk about in therapy this week so of course my chronic illness said cHALLENGE ACCEPTED. #but here’s the kicker — I know the second I open that box that it is going to fuck me up so I’ve been drifting past it #but. idk. #I want to sit on the floor in therapy but I can’t even say it cause it sounds stupid but I really want to sit on the fucking floor #I know if I’m not ready to dive in then I’ll undo progress #but equally I’ll never be ready cause the medical trauma bullshit runs so deep and is so prevalent in all aspects because the fucking #disease is prevalent everywhere and #I don’t have the resilience for any of it #I have one dose of victoza left and that’s it - the pharmacy have giving me 5 IOU’s so far #and I was finally seeing my numbers steadying out #and it makes me so angry because it’s too much #it’s too much to advocate for yourself and research and manage and try and you ask for help and you get shit in return #and I’m so burnt out with it but you can’t even BE fully burnt out because that would mean death #so all you can do is be a bad student #and then the endocrinologist tuts #in your five minute appointment that you waited 18 months for #it’s too fucking much I WANT A FUCKING BREAK #will delete this later #just needed to rant and get it out of me so it doesn’t fester like always #I’m tired #t1dlookslikeme #type 1 diabetes

[deus-ex-mona]

“a sicks’ dream come true; coming soon to fanfic channels near you”

#presenting my cursed sleep-deprived brainworm of the day: nagisa gets sold to ft4 for uni fees #or well. more like they’re looking for a live-in assistant dude. thing. or sth. idk #and papa shiranami just sells his son off bc ‘hey it’s literal free real estate!!! plus he’s gonna get paid for the entire deal so why not?’ #nagisa initially pitches a fit at his dad a la gamushara yelling scene bc ‘dad!!!!!! how could you just sell me off to some strangers?!!!!’ #‘shhhh son; think of the free housing. in ✨t o k y o✨. stuff’s expensive there yk’ ‘but still!!!!!’ #so nagi sulkily packs his bags and heads out; trying to motivate himself with thoughts of ‘hey at least i’ll get to see hiyori more often’ #then he arrives at the train station and sees our favourite 5-man non-idol gang… and promptly passes out #when he comes to… poor guy finds himself right smack in the middle of a hugeass canopy bed #with dai sitting smugly by the side like ‘the great me carried you back mans. you’re welcome ;)’ with a tip of his cool fedora #and that’s when nagi realises that 1) it’s not a dream and that he actually has to live with his oshis now. and 2) damnnnn this bed is soft #cohabitation shenanigans happen. as they would seeing as the entire gang + rio’s niece live together in this oddly huge megu-owned penthouse #plus free bi-weekly vacations to megu’s family villa bc they can never spend a waking moment without each other #and nagi finds it strange that the group is oddly accomodating of his uni schedule when it concerns his job tasks and such… #or that they collab with lxl (hi hiyori!!!) way more than they should typically be… #but he brushes it off when rio asks him to cook with him or sth idk i mean how often do you get to cook with your oshi???? #and idk eventually the jig is up and it’s revealed that hiyori was the one who was accidentally behind the whole thing #like a ‘sorry nagisa i told uchida that you’d be moving here too but lxl were there the entire time and they went and got ft4 to buy you’ #or something kinda thing. idk. bc everything has to be lxl’s fault; even when they’re just lurking in the bg #i’m def gonna regret this later lmao. it’s almost 2.30 in the am; i have not written in months; and i’ve never read a sold to 1.d. fic ev er #this is the kind of cosmic horror that only sleep-deprived brains can cook up ig…….. oh wells #it is suiyoubi my dudes #the dude from gamushara

[frogphase]

Where is the line between communicating how you feel openly but also not always being the person chasing resolution

#minor context cause its good to speak it to the void #but me and my best friend I think long story short have just been growing apart for many different reasons #cba getting into that but #a month ago maybe now he invited me out with a grouo of friends and like i cycled from the end of my shift to his house #to find they had left in a taxi 5 mins earlier #not a great feeling to say the least #anyway #then I left it a day but reached out detailing how it made me feel yada yada and we agreed we needed to have a chat irl about everything l #lo and behold a month later and no such chat has occured #and now he has left me on read for a week and like #part of me thinks I shoukd reach out again because you obviously need to communicate how you feel and i feel confused angry and shit #and also resentful about a load of unadressed things #but also #he has very much not reached out to have this chat we agreed on #so like is it on me or no???? #hthtjrjrj #ah well #good to type it out #hello if you got here and thanks for reading #its cool i will work it out i just needed to put it out there in words #i appreciate i said minor context then wrote an essay

[magentagalaxies]

happy birthday to the incredible paul bellini!!! may this be the best bellini day ever

(picture on the left is from the first mouth congress concert i went to last december and picture on the right is from my first ever zoom with paul bellini which is going to be exactly a year ago in a few weeks. so surreal how far our friendship has come since then, he's genuinely like family now)

#uncle paul <3 #i should make a ''top ten paul bellini moments'' thing some day. the chia pet story is number one #but also shoutout to literally the first thing he ever said to me on that zoom #i was like ''just so you know i'm feeling a little starstruck right now'' and he was deadpan like ''you'll get over it in 5 minutes.''' #and i did <3. but just because i'm not starstruck doesn't mean i've ever stopped being excited that he knows who i am #also i'm like 99% sure that i reminded the kith instagram to make a bellini post today lmao. i posted this exact thing on instagram #and the kith account liked it and then 5 minutes later posted happy birthday paul bellini like i'm out here reminding people it's bellinida #last thing. this is not a post about scott but can i just take a moment to appreciate how far my friendship with scott has come #just looking at the pics of us together??? #like the one on the left here. that's the first time i ever met scott so obviously he wasn't as familiar with me as paul #so he's just kind of posing doesn't look as excited (plus he was tired it was like 3 a.m. that's fine) #but look at the ''family photo'' i took with all three of my guys in june??? (the one where he's directly next to me) #he looks SO HAPPY by then it's such a difference! like over the course of those months he did get to know me better #and now any time i'm in town it's a whole Event with everyone trying to get their jess-time lmao #as i was falling asleep last night i was thinking about how different that new year's eve trip would be if i went up this year vs last year #just bc everyone knows me a lot better #and it just makes me so happy. character development all around

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag

[risingsunresistance]

#aaaaaaugh dude I MISS HIM i dont know what to say that hasnt already been said #but posting is so hard talking about him is so hard #every day i wait for his youtube to post a new video or for the technodad account to be like 'LOL YOU NERDS ACTUALLY FELL FOR IT' #he was just playing a long-con prank and It'll Be Fine and he just wanted to distract us while he worked on some new insane project #how am i still fully in denial 5 months later. it's almost been half a year #i cant watch his videos anymore. it was easy the 1st week and then it was impossible then it was easy again now it's impossible again #drawing in general is hard bc he was all i was drawing. he still is but im drawing WAY less and with pretty much no passion behind it #cant draw stuff for myself i just wanna draw him. partly bc of him but also bc that's where i made all my friends with you guys :( #i dont wanna go back to what i used to do. i wanna stay here. but it's really hard #i know i dont *have* to make my own posts and i can just reblog and ramble n stuff but. it feels weird not to #i save all my favorite things here. there's still clips i havent taken. art i havent made. fics i've never wrote (and never will lol) #i dont WANT to stop. it's hard to force myself to get back into it tho. there's no easy way to talk about him #it feels borderline unhealthy trying to keep it up #but i keep going into swings of ''i love it here so much i love you guys'' and ''i cant keep going im not strong enough'' #so like. which is it. what's REALLY wrong??? i wish i could just go back to how things were aaaaa #idk what i mean by that really. just wish i could find some normalcy in it all whatever that would mean for me #idk if my issue is Him Being Dead or trying to run a blog for a guy who died. some combination. some secret third thing. augh #chat #tw death

[garbagequeer]

i need like 15 days off work just to do fuck all in my bedroom back at home to recover from the realizations

#you know that thing julien baker said about how it's not about saying there's something wrong w me i need fixing #but instead saying i have a specific shape and i have to see where i fit #well girls i think ive been in the wrong place... 🚬 #people who have been observing me on the blog for many years might be like girl dont you have this realization every 3 to 5 years? #yes i do. and then i go i must be crazy there's literally love here (not the point) #ignore the guy chopping me to bits thats not relevant to my journey (it is) #then i have the realization again and i say oh boy this time it's going to be so different i will not ignore the guy chopping me to bits #2 months later im convinced i was insane for ever doubting the guy chopping me to bits #so. realistically it may all amount to nothing. such is life #personal

[icewindandboringhorror]

WHY are there still days where it’s in the 80s in tHE MIDDLE OF OCTOBERR

#............climent charnge............... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr #it is supposed to FINALLY get like.. a little cooler later this week BUT that's happened before #like a few days of 60-70F weather then right back to 80s #the cooler weather now is projected to start friday. wwhich is october 21st!!!!!!! #thats like over half of the entire month that was spent in the high 70s mid/low 80s still like......HEWWo #It does get cooler at night now at least. like at 1am it's more like 50F instead of only getting down to 68 or something #but... like even in the PEAK afternoon sun hours I just feel like it should never be 85F in mid october #It also hasn't rained in probably 4+ months lol #there was a time like 2 weeks ago that it rained for maybe a few hours lightly. and then I think 3 weeks before that it rained for maybe an #hour. but still weirdly rare #I was promised a cool moderate rainy climate when I first moved here by people I was talking to who had lived here a while #i wonder if they even sell those '~~ oo it's so rainy in oregon~~' type tourist merch anymore or if they've removed it from #all the stores. I used to see a lot of like shirts or mugs that said stuff like that maybe 10 years ago but now all #the merch is probably just like 'dont fucking come here please i beg you dont fucking come here we dont even have a dunkin #donuts and it gets to like 105F+ in the summer now fuck off take this mug and fucking run' #''it doesnt rain here anymore than it does in plenty of other places we are not an outlier also fires are getting worse and we're #uncomfortably close to like fault lines or some shit if you dont get out in 2 years were all going to die in an earth quake #white hipsters with dreads handing you weird pamphlets on public transportation are the least of your worries turn back NOW' #'if youre not a hiking loving SUV having middle class liberal with 5 dogs who loves driving like 2 hours to the plain looking #beach like 10 times a month for no fucking reason and socializes exclusively through late dinner meetings at gentrified hipster foodie bars #with weird gimmics and subpar food then fuck off. take your tourist shirt and get out. youre better off whetever you are now.' #*whereever #ANYWAY.. #We better randomly have a fluke winter where it snows like 5 feet + or something or else I'm going to go crazey hhh #something must compensate for the endless summer.. the people need retribution. if the winter sucks at least give every household #like $5000 and free installation of actual central heating and air system as a thanks for staying here lol.

[vegancas]

i'm not usually one for like trying to tell people what they should and shouldn't say on my posts/in the tags of my posts. but if you're going to talk AT ME in the tags of my post, well, the least you can do is not be rude

#this isn't about any of my posts on this blog but this is my personal/main so i will write about it here lol #someone on one of my bridge/rton gifsets decided to yell at me about my font choice for a gifset i made months ago #when tbh i still hadn't figured out how to make that stuff look if not easy to read at least easy to see #but it's just like if you're that bothered by it just... don't reblog it? #i can't tell you the number of gifsets i haven't reblogged just because i couldn't read them #at the very least you could just be like ''oh this was hard to read but it looks good anyway'' #i hope my spn gifsets are getting the benefit of my time making k/athony gifsets so that they're easier to read lol #coz that is something i care about when making my gifs so to get yelled at about it 5 months later is.... not nice :/

[crimsonblackrose]

Please join me in a moment of pure shock that my mini boss jumped in and started helping me with a task and decide oh hell nah this is boring AF I’m getting you actual help next week you shouldn’t be doing this by yourself. On top of on Tuesday her coming in seeing the people who were here on Monday didn’t do anything and essentially bringing the hammer down so I wouldn’t have to do it all by myself. Which I think included pushing back to our main boss to make our boss do their job and flat out tell everyone how many hours they’re supposed to be helping me with said task.

#mumblings about work #me out here with shocked pikachu face #Like I'm still looking elsewhere but the fact she's making sure I'm not absolutely crushed is kind of stunning #add to it that I asked our boss if I could write and how to go about it and our boss was like business professional not happening #which crushed the last spark of hope I had #and my coworkers on the otherside of the fence are like yo we don't have enough to edit see if you can write for us at least #and I'm like staring at the fence like how can I sneak over a couple hours a week? #Honestly let me leave this job with a nice even 500 articles please? #I'm so close like literally five away #and I technically am being paid by the month so I think I can work it out since I took 2 days off #but IDK I'm trying to figure out how to pull that off without shooting myself in the foot since my main boss has me writing blacklisted #which makes no sense because I wrote one of our most popular articles #people buy our stuff because of me! and yet I'm like soft banned from writing #🤷‍♀️ none of my coworkers get it I don't get it and when I leave I'm going to talk to HR about it #but until then just let me jump the fence and get those last 5 with my 16 hours please #without my main boss being mad that I went behind their back #I just gotta figure out how #because I've written for them before #Anyway I'll puzzle over that later

[korattata]

i wish tumblr would let me put 2 videos in one post so i could post a comparison of how Chicory was acting normal and then 48 hours later was acting. not okay.

mostly so i could just point at it and go 'why are rats like this'

#thankfully she is doing better after i have given her a few doses of some of kyle's medicine #because. the way she was acting weird. makes me think it's probably also a pituitary tumor like he had :/ #i know i'm being that annoying person that vets hate by diagnosing my pets myself #but when you have had 27 rats and your vet isn't able to see your rat until like 5 days later anyway #i think you should be allowed to do this. it took her 48 hours to go from completely fine to wobbly and lethargic #i can't just wait 120 more hours to hear what's actually wrong. she'd probably just be dead by then. #i haven't given her any of the cabergoline yet because i wanted to be sure she would actually improve with the pred #therefore making it more likely that i am correct on that being what's wrong. but i'm gonna try to give the last pill of kyle's to her #tomorrow morning. i don't have the good stuff that he would take it with tho so i hope she is much less pickly lol. #either way based on how long it took Kyle to show symptoms > when he got to the vet #Chicory. should hopefully. be okay. not sure what i'll do if she's not tbh!!!!!!!!!! #like ffs sakes couldn't you guys have at least waited a whole month. it's not even been a month since Kyle. #new rat ramblings #*new creative post tag here*

[edwardshundredyearoldspunk]

just waited all day for my mother to come home from work because I needed to take my cat to the vet for a checkup (her eye is still not healing but I still don't have anyone to take me to the eye specialist that is three hours away) just to make sure her eye is not getting worse or she's losing more sight in it. I specifically asked her last night to please come home straight from work so I could borrow the car because the vet closes at 6 and I can't drive at night. she usually gets out at 2:30, sometimes 3 if she has to do overtime. but it was 4:40 when she JUST got home. the sun is already starting to set and by the time I get to the vet it'll be too dark for me to drive back. I'm confident she just fucking forgot and went off to my aunt's to eat and have coffee or whatever while I've been here getting everything ready so my cat is comfortable in her carrier and trying to not pass on my own stress onto her (🐈) because I know that probably doesn't help her feel better. I know this was an accident on her part, I know this, but I'm just so done. she never takes me into account, I'm always having to move around her schedule and accommodate her! the one time I asked her to get home early (and not even because I was doing something fun or frivolous or whatever) and she makes extra sure to come back just as it gets too dark for me to drive. surprisingly, she noticed I was upset and asked me what was wrong but at this point I don't even bother to bring it up because she always just invalidates me and calls me hysterical or dramatic or like I'm playing the victim. (this is without even taking into account that the reason I'm so "hysterical" is because of my ocd/anxiety and because the vet literally told me my cat losing an eye is a possibility! like, I feel like I'm not pulling shit out of my ass when I say I have reason to be concerned about this! especially since I haven't been able to take her to the specialist even tho the vet told me to take her almost two weeks ago!) I'm just done. I'm lured into a false sense of security by her again and again and I fall for it every time! I'm done. once I'm out of here by march, I'm going low contact

#venting #sorry if this post brings anyone down #I normally try not to vent on here because if i did it would be all i talked about #but I'm just so done #the fact that everyone thinks I'm a bad daughter and abusive to HER #and that she's just too good and nice to stand up for herself #the fact that she herself hsr told me she ''used to blame the family problems on you'' to my FACE! #and even when i would tell her i was just a kid she wouldn't listen until her OWN SUPPORT GROUP told her she was wrong #it's just so hard to live in a totally different world from the rest of the universe #because i feel like I'm going crazy when i say she's abusive because she's the nicests person to everyone else #she keeps doing little things like this #that impede me from moving forward #and she keeps saying it's not on purpose but then why does she keep doing them?? #(like a few months ago when i told her I would drop her off at work so i could take the car to do some important errands #and asked her to please not leave without me #and when i asked her what time she would leave in the morning she said 5:45 so i thought perfect! #I'll wake up at 5:30! I get ready real quick anyway! #and it's 5:25 when i hear the car in the driveway leaving! when she is usually running at least five minutes late! #and a few weeks later when i woke up super early again to drop her off and take the car #they were all outside before i was ready #car turned on and so i rush out panicked because obviously I'm thinking she'll leave me again if I don't hurry! #and I get in the car and tell her she was probably hoping to leave without me #which is when she called me dramatic and playing the victim #and idk maybe I'm making it all up because she's not like this with anyone else!)