#so hey let's celebrate that

[dhluna]

throwback -> snsd yoona | mr. taxi 111225

#yoona #snsd #femaleidolsedit #girls generation #im yoona #kpopggedit #gif #edit #ggnet #femaleidol #snsd edit #dailysnsd #onlysoshi #i felt deeply compelled to make this #and i sort of finnaly got batinator to work on my computer again #so hey let's celebrate that #my gifs

[frecklystars]

i know nobody is online rn to read this but ;-; i gotta get it off my chest i love ken so much he means everything to me he's making me so happy and i've needed him so so so bad. he's brought me comfort when my ptsd has been so fucking unbearable and every time i'm having a crying fit over losing my tf f/os or every time i'm having a flashback i ALWAYS immediately IMMEDIATELY think about him rushing to my side, holding me and saying "hey hey it's okay, i'm here, i'm right here" and it's such a relief because i haven't been able to genuinely wholeheartedly believe any character would be willing to do that for me the entire time i've been struggling this year.

i've never gone so long without comfort from f/os, much less being triggered by the ones who used to comfort me the most. so to have barbie and ken right now is like the biggest wave of relief every single day when i wake up and the hyperfixation is still there. sometimes i will literally close my eyes and sigh in relief when i hear a song and my first thought is sebastian or ken or six or... whomever. i love being in love again. i NEED this. i love waking up and my first thought isn't my trauma most of the time now, it's ken. or it's six. or it's barbie. or it's harley. or it's officer k. or it's... yeah you get it. i needed these characters so fucking badly. every time i see a gifset and get excited over it, i feel a rush of gratitude bc self shipping has always been the glue holding me together. it doesn't feel as intense or strong as the SB musical or TF used to make me feel but i am not picky. not at all. i will take anything and i'm praying this lasts for at LEAST another few weeks please

i may not be at a sense of peace right now and i dont know when i ever will be, it could be years, but im so. so. so. so so so thankful to have these characters right now when i've needed someone so badly for so long. i hope ken knows how much i love him ;-; i hope barbie knows how much she has helped me, has saved me from one of my major triggers and has helped me to love and feel safe around the color pink again. i wish they could see me when i'm not so broken but i'm glad they're here even when i'm at my worst, i'm glad they still love me even when they deserve to see me in a much better light

#it feels so fucking terrible not celebrating my bday with my starlight. i used to buy myself cakes and put his figurine next to them #i mean i still have... a little bit over one week... i cant... let it pass by without him being involved somehow #so i might make a quick vent doodle and queue it for the actual day of my bday #i refuse to not draw myself with him at least once for my special day #its not like we 'broke up' or anything but fuck it feels so bad #he's a literal fucking ptsd trigger. how fucking insane is that #im still in shock. im still in shock over what happened to me like i cant fucking believe it #wearing his necklace makes me cry so i just leave it on my dresser #that shouldnt be normal!!!! #but im hoping that shipping with barbie/ken is going to help me feel like i can reclaim control over my ships #bc my abuser made me feel like... i had no control over my TF ships whatsoever for a solid year #so now that i'm finally free of that toxicity i'm still shakily trying to learn how to ship again #i'll have moments where i'll worry ken will try to hurt me on purpose bc im so used to my abuser telling me how abusive any f/o would be #but then i tell myself 'hey what the fuck. this is MY story. NOBODY would abuse me i dont care WHO they are' #but it's so hard to unlearn several months of abuse 😔 #and even harder to look at a character who i invested so much time and energy and money into #my voice clips. my cameos. all of my steve blum autographs. my art for steve. all of it feels sad and numbing #not just stsc but everyone in any TF universe feels like... a threat and i get panic attacks when i see very specific characters sometimes #its awful. it hurts so bad. i love ken so much. but nothing compares to what i had with my TF comfort characters #but it's okay bc... ken is holding my hand and he might not understand ptsd at all but he can still squeeze me tight #and six HAS c-ptsd he GETS it. and he's there to hold me when my nightmares make me fall apart. he's my rock #vent #ptsd #sorry it's 5am i had a bad nightmare and now i refuse to sleep again #i fucking hate ptsd i fucking hate living like this i rly wish i knew how to cure myself #im exercising im eating and drinking often im sleeping as much as i can #theres only so much i can do #when does it get better?? when the fuck does it get better? im serious. not rhetorical. when does this finally heal #i dont even know if im healing or if im just distracted... but fuck ill take anything

[pinkadillydoo]

went to the TWRP concert!! Was very fun! Had a blast!

#guy named jazz emu did the opening and he was super good too! #i was also dressed super cute so hey lets celebrate that hello

[universal-wills]

"Happy birthday to me!"

"Oh-, and merry Christmas too I guess."

#[i couldn't miss her birthday] #[not after her big makeover] #[also hello how are you all] #[i should be freeing up for more things after the holidays are over] #[i miss these crazy kids] #{Let's Begin; (Open)} #{The Sweet Daydream Bullet Train; (Elphelt Valentine)} #[also hey look el's got a new tag how about that?] #[also it is officially crimas where i am so merry crisis if you celebrate]

[shopcat]

i totally get what you mean in that last reply! Him being "dumb" seems to be one of his own personal insecurities and both the fans and the writers of the show tend to be guilty of leaning a bit too heavily on that perception of himself but not really questioning it? so he says he's dumb and everyone goes oh yeah he is :) even when he gets chances to prove that he is smart and capable in his own way that perception still stands for some people (also both in fandom and sometimes in the show there's a weird tendency to make characters be condescending when he says something Silly or play some of his more serious moments (like the Russian scene in season 3) kind of for a laugh? or just not really take it seriously

OHHH exactly <3 sadly the tried and true steve harrington manifesto continues to be "doesn't get taken seriously including even in the midst of literal torture" in every possible way 💔

#asks #which is sad and potentially frustrating for anyone who may relate to him in these ways which i'm sure isn't their intention in-show #BUT GOD!!! it's so wild how a show based on not judging people and everyone having worth no matter who they are let alone if they've been #judged or ostracised for it will both hit the nail on the head of This in particular with steve and then entirely dismiss it in the same #breath. but if i think about this i'll mummify myself #sts #like it makes sense ig. show made for and by needs to celebrate it but then steve is used as the duffer's way to like. get back at their #own highschool bullies or SOEMTHING. i don't know. i think they have to have a complex atp #*nerds #he is their peaked in highschool fallen from grace ex-popular jock character they get catharsis through and they don't stop for a second to #maybe consider hm... hey... Maybe constantly calling a particular character dumb as rocks is coming off bad actually

[chipjrwibignaturals]

hey guys is this a normal answer for a job hunt. asking for a friend.

#to be fair i wasnt absolutely aware he *funded* it til i re-looked it up just now #i thought it was Just named after him BUT STILL. #HE DIDNT DO THAT!!!!!! HE WAS DEAD!!! HE MADE BOOM STICK #and then he was like. 'guys what the fuck. i made this to help Stop ppl fucking dying blowing shit up. this is supposed to be the Safer one #but everyone was like 'hey look its mr made modern bombs! thanks asshole' #so he was like FUCK this and boom. lets celebrate scientific advancement and peace and shit #so i guess in ways the fact this misconception DOES exist means he got his wish-- hes now associated w good and not bad but. ptooh. #< i did a project on him in like. 4th or 5th grade and its just. Been there since. #most ppl dont even KNOW him they hear 'nobel' and go 'oh like the prize?' and i go Ballistic

[buckttommy]

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#There is so much political intrigue in the bible lol #I was reading through 1 kings today as part of a separate thing and I got to the part where david dies #or is about to die #which is. technically. the first chapter *waves hand* but still #so anyways #he's about to die and then nathan (prophet) goes to Solomon's mom and he's like 'hey uh don't freak out but david's son adonijah is trying #to claim the throne that was promised to your son. no yeah he's literally like. he's literally doing it right now 🤪' #and she's like ??? omg ? #and he's like 'no it's fine it's ok here's what we're going to do you're gonna go to king david and you're gonna be like 'i thought you #promised the crown to my son solomon :(' and then i'm gonna come behind you and be like 'hey did you change your mind about solomon #becoming king or what?' and then david will fulfill the oath he made before god' #and so bathsheba and nathan enact their little plan and david is like 'uh no i did not change my mind IN FACT. while adonijah is throwing #himself a banquet to celebrate his victory you guys are going to go to gihon and anoint solomon as king right Now' #so nathan et al go to gihon and anoint solomon king and the nation at large is ecstatic about it and they blow a trumpet announcing his #like. his. idk. not election but you know what i mean #so anyways MEANWHILE. adonijah is chilling at his banquet finishing up his feast with his party guests and he hears the trumpet and he's #like huh wonder wot's all this then and then some guy named jonathan comes in at the moment and adonijah is like 'hey buddy :) let's hear #some good news on this Day that i have become king :)' #and jonathan is like 'yeah.....sorry to crash the party but uh. solomon is king now. yikes' #and everyone at adonijah's party is freaked out so they SCATTER and adonijah is like 'oh sh*t solomon is going to kill me' #so he goes to the king like 'hey sorry about the whole *waves hand* usurping thing. haha. anyways can u please swear not to kill me' #and solomon is like '😐 bffr. but yk? alright. if you act right i won't have to but if there's any evil in you? you're outta here bruv'' #and so adonijah is like 'ykw? say less' and submits to solomon's kingship and that's the end of chapter one but anyways. ALL this to say #i'm pretty sure i have read this plot in a YA novel except there was significantly more murder at the end #jack.txt #religion //

[totebagbisexual]

making birthday plans is so stressful why do people do this

#last year i had covid on my birthday and ended up eating takeout on my friend’s bedroom floor #(we both had covid so we were quarantining together) #so this year i was like hey guys let’s all do dinner!! that’ll be fun!!!! #i just didn’t want a repeat of last year bc it was so depressing 😭 #and planning dinner is rlly not that difficult but for some reason #picking a restaurant and texting the groupchat and getting everyone to coordinate is way too much for me #also i just feel so awkward being like. come on everybody let’s celebrate ME #u know #i know i’m overthinking this but it’s actually stressing me out sm djdjdjjdjs #t

[goldenhypen]

i somehow squeezed 2 whole riki drabbles out last night sooo yay to overcoming my lil writing slump !!

#celebrate even the small things :’> #also #a little peak into my writing process ✨ #let’s hope i don’t bite you T-T #*BORE I MEANT BORE HELP ME DJDNDJ #oh but hey spoiler perhaps of one of the riki drabbles????? 🫣🫣😏 #🤫🤫🤫🤫 #when i’m on a roll i could keep going and going and going #but when i’m not in that mood (which is incredibly difficult to get into btw) i can’t come up w anything T-T #i go to my empty doc and leave 10 minutes later with a total of still zero (0) words in that doc :D #repeat this for another maybe five times #and then on the sixth i get a sudden spark of inspiration and then i’m in the zone and on a roll #so i could’ve kept going last night.. #but by the time i was in that mode it was already almost 2 am T-T #and i finished writing my second drabble by 3 am T-T #it’s always reaching the ungodly hours of the night when i have the most inspiration ✨ #wHY #LITERALLY WHY #so yeah my process isn’t as glorious or as easy as it may seem but when i’m in the zone it’s actually a lot of fun 😭 #it’s just hard to get there a lot of the time is all 😭😭 #pls tell me some of you guys can relate and i’m not the only one 😭 #anyway #look forward to the new riki drabbles coming soon :D #it was gonna be a jake and then jungwon drabble but i got stuck and only then had inspo for riki so here you guys go djsjdj #i’ll upload the first one tomorrow !! #em speaks

[blorbiter]

catboy oc makes his second appearance @catboybilly [p;eep the tags for a rant cuz im so mad rn and please tell me im not the only one]

#i fucking HATE PEOPLE WHO SET FIREWORKS OFF ON ANY DAY OTHER THAN THE FOURTH OF JULY #FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK #WE WERE OUT WALKING OUR DOG AND THESE ABSOLUTE PIECES OF SHIT ON OUR STREET #DECIDED HEY LETS SET OFF FIREWORKS RIGHT AS THESE PEOPLE ARE WALKING THEIR FUCKING DOG? #GOOD IDEA RIGHT GUYS #they CLEARLY saw us #more than once #we literally WAVED AND SAID HELLO #AND THEY STILL DECIDED YES LETS SET OFF FIREWORKS RIGHT IN FRONT OF THIS FUCKING DOG #U KNOW DOGS #WHO ARE INFAMOUSLY KNOWN FOR BEING ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED OF FIREWORKS #YEAH LETS DO IT RIGHT IN FUCKING FRONT OF THE DOG #MORENO LOST HIS SHIT OBVIOUSLY AND WAS BOLTING #MANAGED TO WIGGLE OUT OF HIS FUCKING HARNESS AND RAN OFF #luckily we were pretty much already home so he just ran to the door #and he is ok and unharmed #BUT LIKE? IF THEY HAD SET OFF THOSE FIREWORKS EVEN 2 MINUTES EARLIER #WE WOULD HAVE BEEN NEXT TO THE SOMEWHAT BUSY FUCKING ROAD #fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU #also rich of this fucking country to celebrate the fourth of fucking july literally like a week after #overturning roe v wade #fuck you #fuck this country #fuck your holiday #phew rant over

[vvanessaives]

the gang meets the friend that dumped us 6 months ago bc he got a gf and said gf. 2 deads found in the southern italian countryside

#rena.txt #sooooooooo excited for tonight ohhhhhhh i can't wait like. oh so now your gf allows u to go out with us? how cute (: #me & the bad bitches of our friend group sitting at the dinner table preteding that we are happy to meet his gf: oh so you're the one that #is SOOO jealous that doesn't allow her bf to go out with other ppl? let us hear more of ur toxic bullshit please <3 #i also have personal beef with this friend bc when i graduated i invited everyone to come & listen to the graduation session & then we went #having drinks/aperitivo to celebrate and like ok u are not forced to come witness the most important event of my life of the last few years #i guess but instead of playing me a fool saying that you will be there and then not showing up and not telling me anything about it #just tell me straight that you don't want to come. that you will not be there. AND AT LEAST send me a text?? a lil hey congratulations! #he even went through my ig stories of that day and didn't even bother swiping up and only texting a shitty 'auguri' BRO. AND WE'RE FRIENDS? #AND THEN HE DISAPPEARED FOR MONTHS. GODDDDDD THERE'S SO MUCH HATE AND DRAMA I CAN'T WAIT FOR TONIGHT TO COME AKFJSKFDJ

[yourbuerokrat2]

#Giancarlo espito #Gus fring #I could never do that #just going up to an actor and belike 'Hey you are *insert character* #'Hey can you be *insert character* for me' #in fact if I ever want somewhere and saw someone even remotely looking like a celebrity or someonen from a show I know #I would turn around and walk in a different direction #I do not want anyone even affiliated with the fandoms I am to be aware of my existence #let alone this blog or any of my posts #which is great because this is kind of an obscure blog on Tumblr so who really cares

[3gremlins]

me: sends my family a carefully thought out ideas gift list for my partner with sizes, options, etc *2 months* before december since he can be difficult to gift and they all get stressed about it b/c they procrastinate. Also stated in the email that gifting is optional and not to stress about it

october, november, first half of december: crickets my mom, literally a week and a half before gift-giving event: i wish to get a thoughtful gift for your partner and have waited till now. pls halp, i am very stressed. me, internally: *eldritch screech into the endless void*

#argh #text post #rant #vent #we actually decided to finally pull the plug on christmas and celebrate solstice instead b/c neither of us are into it or christian #but we still wanted to do a hey winter sucks lets eat nice food and give gifts celebration and try not to be depressed #my family is celebrating elsewhere because they seem to think the plaguetimes are over despite covid et al numbers being high af #my family always procrastinates and it drives me batty #im pretty sure we all have adhd but im like hyper aware of mine so im deeply anxious about doing everything early and on time #i set like a billion alarms and alerts #my family just rolls in late everywhere #i just dont think you can be thoughtful if you are stressed and panicked like thats just a bad time for everyone

[finexbright]

What if he has chosen to be a parent to the kid at least until he is old enough to understand more?

highly doubt it given just how little time he's spent with the kid for all we know his actual family has told him that louis is just a family friend who sings and stuff. like not even a relative, just a friend who lives abroad

#honestly like i have loads of cousins who i've probably met like once and i'll video call them for their birthday or whatever with #my parents and they simply won't recognise me #but also. i really don't think there's any way they could even explain it to the kid #because like imagine you grow up and it's like ''hey so remember that family friend of ours yeah so he was supposed to be your dead and #like publicly he was but it was all fake because he's gay and they couldn't let him come out so they made you #his kid and you basically roleplayed as his kid #but now it's all ended and drama happened so you're no longer a celebrity kid. congratulations'' #like i actually beg that however this ends they provide this kid with actual therapy because god. i can't even imagine how #traumatising it all is #babygate #non non

[lilgynt]

shit my partner has done in the last 48 hours: one. make fun of my dad who just got out of the hospital bc he beat me as kid allegedly two. slapped my ass in front my old coworkers bc she genuinely hates their guts

#personal #i would list things audrey has done but honestly she’s just #i was gonna say bat shit but she is. goes for a walk comes back with a tattoo she’s not even rlly feeling #no but dad situation #he’s okay he’s just going blind but he had to go to emergency care yesterday and was gone all day with my mom #who was texting me updates which i would update my brothers with #and then they came home and i would randomly watch him sleep after he went to bed #on one hand i didn’t feel much about the situation than the other hand i kept sneaking by his room like a criminal till he closed the door #and i couldn’t get out of bed again #anyway so it was a bit intense yesterday while we were waiting for mom to pick him up and the cat scan stuff #gg voice: good i hope it fucking hurts #and like on one hand hey now. cmon. #on the other ive gotten extremely used to non familial loved ones hating my family genuinely and i don’t know? the way she never lets up #with any of them and hates them so intensely bc she loves me always gets me weak kneed #like i understand when my family dies audrey and her will be comforting and nice but like #they are still gonna celebrate and i know this mob #anyway so that and then i was getting soemthing laminated #but it broke my paper win tho my old coworker felt so bad and did enjoy my little joke about not signing the waiver #that he just gave me the amount for the poster and also bc of his new supervisor manager whatever the fuck postion let him #and that’s why i’m still in love with him he’s the BEST. but anyway he gave me that #gave me shit about my friends who are still holding me captive #gave me further shit when i showed off the ring gg made and said it was matching theirs #something something anyway as we’re leaving gg SMACKS my ass #pretty common place behavior but here’s the thing #fun fact: so not fun but also fun but there no nice way to put it i have a moaning problem #like it’s just been an ongoing problem since at least middle school. but like pain? moans. barely there touch? yup. hard smack? xxx #just everything so i yelp and it’s loud and moany and my ex coworker makes eye contact and shakes his head and laughs and im like OKAYYYY #BYE EVERYONE OUT

[famousprophets22]

i love being transgender i love doing my silly little t shot every week i am so proud of who i am and what ive done to get to where i am now I LOVE BEING TRANS!!!1!!!1!😸😸😸

#sometimes i feel like im a weird percived combination of ‘experienced’ and ‘not experienced’ in being transgender #heavy on percived i know who i am LAMFO #ive been out chronologically and age wise the longest out of everyone i know im pretty sure #i started socially transitioning when i was 12 yk #was fully ‘out’ (specifically in school) by before high school at 14 #and changed my name legally last year and started t this year at 17 #but some people just see that last year as me being properly trans #not even properly trans just like. as if i was only starting my transition now #and i dont think thats very accurate #and sometimes i feel a lil inferior to guys in my life who have been on t and have been ‘undeniably’ trans for longer #(boy if ur reading this ur not included like on god but also unblock me lets be mooties i miss you) #but sometimes i have to just sit back and remember i got this and it doesnt actually matter what they think OR even if i was a ‘baby trans’ #or whatever #ive been trans for like a third of my life. #like half of my cognitive conscious life. #i got this!!! #and even if i didnt thatd be okay too cus we all get there eventually #that is a lot of yapping for me saying i feel embarassed celebrating doing my t shot every week cus im so early and jts not doing anything #but maybe i can have some fun anf joy in life #and maybe being transgender isnt inherently miserable #on a happier end note #me and my friend had our hrt appointments on the same day and started a few days apart #so we r now transition buddies and yap at eachother abt injections vs gel and what ‘changes’ were getting and its really beautiful #its nice to have community #and people who do not see u as a little transgender infant just cus u werent fortunate enough to go on t at an even younger age #than the incredibly fortunate 17 #but hey what doesnt kill you makes you stronger i suppose and i think hrt is gonna feel reslly fucking good after 5 years of waiting #and im so fortunate im in this position and am grateful every day to not only be awesome and transgender but also on hrt!! #yaaayayayayayay!!!!