#there's just so many trees

[inkskinned]

something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering. #it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now... #... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy. #(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

[transgendz]

This is going to be short bc i already have a post up explaining this situation, but I started having seizures, which led to medical costs I couldn't handle bc I have an autoimmune disorder that's been going untreated for years. I got the appts covered bc of an extremely generous friend on here, and had some additional medication costs which I thankfully had enough for. I've been applying to at least 10 jobs a day and had tons of interviews. I'm going through interviews and assessments for several jobs (got more scheduled for tomorrow) Then my card got stolen, and now I am screwed as far as rent goes, even if one of these jobs comes through like today we will still fall short because rent is due on the 1st and we don't get a grace period. I am trying to get the money that was taken when my card was stolen back, but I have been told to wait to hear back after submitting all the details, and have yet to hear back.

Dm me for proof or more details. I will do art for anyone who helps with this and you can commission me at my art blog @theartistrans I just desperately need to get rent. My roommates and I have a huge food garden planted and are working towards self-sufficiency, which we have no hope of if we can't pay rent.

PP -- $C -- V -- kofi

$45/$650

#Please help with this just sharinghelps a lot #we really dont want to lose our home we havent even been here for long but theres fruiit trees and berry bushes #we were given so many seeds that we will absolutely be able to grow most of our food that just takes time but we have so much planted alrea #im still waiting for my neuro appt i went to my GP appt and the drs reaction to the stuff ive been ignoring was sobering to say the least

[campesine-moved]

Silly Symphony - Flowers and Trees (1932)

#original #silly symphonies #flowers and trees #disney #vintage animation #vintage #cottagecore #warmcore #cozycore #flowers #flower aesthetic #flowercore #faecore #fairycore #flashing tw #just to be safe. most of this short is good but this part had so many artifacts

[mosspapi]

FUTCT is done! Ended up not doing the words at all because it would be very small and look weird, but I think it's still recognizable without em so I'm fine with it lmao (image description in alt text!)

#every time I post one of these I say I'm gonna do srar next. and every time I Don't do srar #it's scary there's so many little details in it😭 /lh #I've already started on mania tho so! #also just realized the brake lights on the bus r missing. oh well they're small enough I don't think it matters #fob #fall out boy #fall out boy fan art #cross stitch #embroidery #from under the cork tree #armchair creates

[sluckythewizard]

YOU JUST HƎARD IT FROM [HIS MOUTH] FOR SURƎ!!!

#cw gore #cw blood #jrwi fanart #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi suckening #BEEN VEHEMENTLY SCRIBBLING THIS THING ALL DAY #IM SO FUCKING IN LVOE W THE NEW EPISODE #VIV N VEX ARE LITERALLY EVERYTHING I COULDVE EVER WANTED. I LOVE BLOOD AND MEAT AND BLOOD AND MEAT #THE SCRIBBLE IS KINDA ROUGH SO DONT LOOK AT IT TOO HARD BUT EHEHEHEEEE THE FACE THAT I CREATED UNNERVES ME #AND IM VERY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. I LOVE CREATING SOMETHING AND HAVING IT EVEN SLIGHTLY PHASE ME #I LOVED ALL THE TOOTH RIPPING NOISES IN THIS EPISODE. AHVE U EVER HAD A TOOTH REMOVED? #SHE USED A BLUNT METAL TOOL TO PUNCH IT OUT. IT REMINDED ME OF THE SPLINTERING OF A TREE. THE WAY IT TORE. #SUCH A SPECIFIC SORT OF CRUNCHING AND SPLINTERING AS A MOLAR WAS RRRRIPPPEEDD FROM THE SOCKET. OHH I LOVE IT. #GOING IN FOR A ROOT CANAL NEXT WEEK AND IM VERY EXCITED. ALL THE DENTISTS LOVE ME N ARE SO NICE TO ME #WHAT A GREAT EPISODE. I HOPE THE URGE TO DRAW MORE STRIKES ME LIKE THIS AGAIN. WEEEE!! #I WANNA ANIMATE EMIZEL GETTIN HIS EYE RRIPPED OUT. BUT. IM ALREADY COOKING 3 OTHER VIV N VEX ANIMATIONS #THERES NO WAY THEY WILL ALL BE FINISHED HELP!! HELP MEE!!!! I HAVE TO MANY IDEAS AND NOT ENOUGH HANDS. DO U GUYS REMEMBER HTF? #OR HAPPY TREE FRIENDS. THE CUTE ANIMAL SHOW W ALL THE BLOOD AND GORE AND TERRIBLE TERRIBLE THINGS HAPPENING TO THE CUTE ANIMALS #in elementary school i would show the 'eyes cold lemonade' to other kids and tell em thats how they make pink lemonade. #hope that helps you undertsand. i wish i could make a lil cartoon w just viv n vex doing what they do best #LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT. IM GOING BACK TO MY LAB. DONT EXPECT TO HEAR FROM ME IN A MILLION YEARS

[doobledabbadoo]

got around making some more htf ocs!! i honestly cant stop theyre too fun to make actually

#dooble moment #my art #cw happy tree friends #cw htf #happy tree friends #htf #htf oc #htf ocs #GOD i love making ocs for this show so much #like. theres so many fun character ideas you can incorporate into the show #dont question the ethics of cerise’s attire. shes far from the most moral character #ive wanted to develop scurry a bit more to not make him just an orange generic tree friend #but i think just giving him a lot of things to do shows that hes a lil disorganized & yk what? #we love a disorganized king #also love the idea that scoffy & scoldy are like. HUGE rivals when it comes to their jobs #but theyre good friends outside of work #maybe even lovers? who knows!

[awkwardbirdsdaily]

Day 13 of January extinct birds - the Delalande's coua

Couas are terrestrial, non-parasitic cuckoos that are endemic to Madagascar. This coua might have been only on the island of Sainte-Marie to the east of Madagascar, though there are claims they were on the mainland too. There have been no confirmed reports since 1834, but things are a little vague.

#bird of the day #bird art #birds #extinct animals #digital illustration #bird #daily art #digital art #ornithology #cuculiformes #those colours! #i hope there will be ways to know more about extinct birds #so many are just a mysterious shadow on a family tree

[skyppl-e]

oh yeah.... im making aus now.... florist au but al haitham is a part time employee at the plant nursery tighnari owns and kaveh keeps running into him

#im very scared about talking about aus #since im not a writer... im a reader!!! shout out to all the fanfic authors you guys really carry me #also this is very obviously a modern au #in said au i like to imagine that when kaveh isnt actively drawing he wears compression gloves that double as normal art gloves theyre just #expensive as fuck so he tries not to get them dirtied in ink and graphite #in a similar vein al haitham owns 1 billion compression shirts cause comfy compression #i have a bunch of really specific and small headcanons tbh #ANYWAY ABOUT THE NURSERY PART #kaveh is a regular that likes to support his friends by buying way too many flowers he doesnt have the time to take care of :3 #also he buys samples to show clients when he has an idea involving flowers for decoration #collei also works there part time #also kaveh and al haitham knew each other in college but the Fallout(TM) happened so they stopped talking until they met again #met again in the nursery lol!!! #imagine being surrounded by carefully tended to flowers and trees and other flora while slowly falling in love #with the same guy that tore open your chest and peered directly into your soul #haikaveh #kavehtham #kaveh #alhaitham #genshin impact

[system-architect]

i desperately wish gw2 had more food-centric lore. i think about asura food more than is probably particularly reasonable. they're sort of implied to like molecular gastronomy in the lvl500 chef quests which is fitting and makes sense, but surely not every asura is eating bespoke Pea Spheres day in and day out right? i think my favorite angle on them is a sort of 50s-80s american-esque food style where there's a huge emphasis on things being Convenient and Scientific, so you'd get a lot of absolute slop tv dinners and canned items that have labels boasting how they were nutritionally fortified and contained your day's complete vitamin intakes and so on. a lot of jellied things. i do also fully believe they would have + eat soylent.

#my stuff #gw2 asura #asura #plex getting through his day on 2 cups of coffee 1 cup of liquid IV and a Breakfast Bar #goes home and has a kid cuisine. #idk how to explain but asura and like 50s-80s design and culture notions just go hand in hand to me #i want to see them working in little wood paneled cubicles ok #just brazenly smoking at work while typing on an unnecessarily clunky interface #inquest superior calls you into her office. every wall is a mirror. its triangle shaped for no reason. she is wearing shoulder pads. #i just want that 'lower levels of portal 2' energy maybe #(i think this thought started when i was replaying a bug in the system and noticed their offices have SO many potted palm trees) #(i was looking at those plus the neon lights and going like Hmmmm...Miami while being chased by 9458309 plague beetles) #these tags are really rambling on sorry LOLLL

[tallymali]

boyf left the house to go to the pub and ended up accidentally leading the search for a missing child?? predicaments follow this man everywhere

#long story short the kids carers dont know the area well #were standing out on the trail panicking in the dark with just their phone lights on #boyf walks past and they ask him if hes seen a kid or if he knows where she could have gone #this area is all little trails through trees and marsh and streams #and he grew up here so he was like ah fuck theres so many places #he says give me a minute #runs back to grab his fluorescents and big torch #then went back and was giving ppl directions on where to check #cops turn up and they dont fuckin know the area either #so they’re asking him about all the different trails and shit #quite the situation

[tombstoneswerewaiting]

there’s worse things to have in his veins i guess

bonus

#pete’s got all sorts running through his veins huh #back on the lyric parallels #bc there’s just so many to post #y’all should see my drafts good lord #fall out boy #fob #pete wentz #patrick stump #andy hurley #joe trohman #sophomore slump or comeback of the year #27 #lake effect kid #the kids aren’t alright #from under the cork tree #folie a deux #american beauty/american psycho

[doodlebloo]

When you're just chilling and then like a wave of ice cold seawater dwarfing you entirely you think "Oh fuck, L'Manberg."

#as in As we gaze at these swaths of redwood trees Tommy I want you to do what your heart tells you to Consider it good luck for the #election As my first decree as president of this great nation Tubbo no!/Yes Schlatt My L'Manberg my great unfinished symphony #Tubbo are you happier Wilbur? Stay strong. Tubbo I'm sorry I'll make this as painless and colorful as possible #Technoblade just murdered me Wilbur said to stay strong and he was on our side! he WAS on our side! #god god god. goddd. god. they wanted their own place to live and be happy. Wilbur wanted to build a little cabin to livve in. #Tubbo and Quackity would have made a restauraunt. Tommy would have listened to his discs whenever he wanted. #there were so many chances to save it if things had gone just slightly differently it could have been saved oh god. #sorry for being mentally ill but jesus christ how am i ever meant to recover. #doodle.txt

[bonefall]

Soo there's a possibility my brain just made this up,(been a while since I read dotc anyways) but, I feel like I remember a whole thing with Clearsky where one of his cats, I don't remember the name, ends up with an awful festering wound and Clearsky pointedly does nothing about it and even like exiles that guy? Just in case you needed more fuel for the very deserved Clearsky hate pile. If I did completely mind fabricate it sorry-- I remember it really standing out as just cruel and awful as a younger person reading the book

Yeah that's Frost, this is in Book 2: Thunder Rising. Clear Sky also shoves his son's face in that reeking, festering wound and tells him to lick it if he cares so much.

But it's actually worse than just that lmao.

Frost is notably loyal in Thunder Rising, even shouting out how amazing Clear Sky is when he weeps his crocodile tears in front of a crowd early on. Everything that follows is his reward for that support.

Clear Sky beats Bumble to death and one part of his incredibly obvious lie is that he left her a second time, after she had been mauled by a fox AFTER he lightly tapped her and she passed out, to go get "help." But Frost has gone completely untreated for weeks because proto-SkyClan doesn't have a medic. So there's no way he could have gone to get help.

The Infected Wound Face Shoving Scene is actually part of Clear Sky playing an abuse game with his son because he's pissed off that Thunder questioned him.

He's in an especially bad mood because he'd just beaten Bumble to death and only Gray Wing believed his bafflingly stupid lie, and this is 3 days after he slaughtered Misty for her land and tried to kill her children too. Thunder set him off by saying "dad can we kill less natives maybe?"

Frost is also publicly humiliated before the exile, Clear Sky commands him to flash his weeping wound at a crowd as he bellows out a speech about filth, weakness, and spreading disease.

He DIRECTLY commands Thunder to be the one to "LEAVE HIM WHERE THE MAGGOTS WILL FIND HIM" (verbatim quote) because. Again. It's an abusive game. He wants to feel like he's in control of his son.

Frost's life was just a piece in a game for Clear Sky. A pawn, discarded when no longer useful.

And then Frost dies in that big battle Clear Sky causes and started, and is buried in a mass grave along with all the other victims. Probably because if more of Clear Sky's victims survived, they would have to lobotomize MORE characters for his exoneration arc. Absolutely fucking miserable story.

#It's hard to remember Clear Sky too harshly because he is actually just that bad #There are too many horrible details in every single moment to fit into one memory #Like for example I just realized the other day that he jumped down from a tree during Bumb's death #AFTER I'd written that whole big post... #Like. There's so many vile things happening I didn't even factor in that apparently he had time to leave and come back 3 times #AND ALSO jump up into a tree so he could stare down at the patrol #Frost wc #Dotc hate #Infection #Cw gore #Gore #Tw gore #Cw Infection

[scn-thedog]

*ascends* hi tree nation. asset redraws under da cut

#screenie draws #tree tpot #tpot tree #bfdi tree #tree bfdi #//;so many tags for just one character…sigh #bfdi #bfdi fanart #tpot #tpot fanart #osc #osc fanart #my art 2024

[thestar-markedfool]

Thinking about forest entities. Lonely and smart creatures, tall as trees and with large lifespans… And this one desperately needs company. They live in harmony with other animals but it’s not enough for this entity. They need to socialize; they need a pair. Oh, but another one of their kind it’s not an option. They’re territorial beings, they hate each other. No, they need some other entity that doesn’t invade their space but can still hold a conversation, someone that can stay by their side.

So, they decide to acquire a human. They haven’t met one up close, but how hard can it be? They begin following around every single one that enters their forest; this causes a lot of panic between the townspeople. Is there a monster in the woods? The creature is usually good at camouflage and being unperceived, but their late curiosity has caused many people to become aware of their watchful presence, even if they can't directly see it. And the humans are freaking out.

It's not so bad, the blurry, totally-not-fake images of “the monster caught on camera” end up catching your attention, and there you are now. Wandering around the forest, trying to catch a glance of this creature.

The entity decides that this is a good one. They like you. It follows you around quietly, attentively, and slowly begin morphing their body in a way they think will captivate you. They forge a smiling mouth in their face, and the multiple limbs that branch out of their body grow hands like yours.

It is waiting, carefully now, for the right time to wrap its new arms around you and explore what else makes you tick. How can it become a human’s perfect mate.

Update: I'm writing it now.

#tree monster bf with 4 (or more) arms just to hug you ! #just imagine how it's teeth are shaped - it had never seen a human up close before #just a silly guy #with a silly sharp smile #i don't know how to explain this but tree-like beings are so wonderful to me #i wanted to find a ent or a dryad so bad when i was younger #so many trees where I live but where are the cryptids ugh #teratophillia #monsterfucker #monster boyfriend #jester's privilege to yap

[wikiangela]

wip wednesday

tagged by @steadfastsaturnsrings @malewifediaz @buckaroosheart 💖💖

how did the "fluffy decorating christmas tree fic" turn into eddie being nostalgic about shannon? no idea lmao but I love it haha (also, lowkey a tease for alive shannon bc this hypothetical is what ends up happening there haha) this fic would've been done already if I didn't get sick bc now i'm barely awake at all times and just so fucking tired lol i should finish it next week at the latest tho! (if Eddie doesn't take over and make it super long again haha)

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And Buck knows all that, because he knows Eddie so well, and Eddie- Eddie just loves him so much sometimes it gets overwhelming, just the sheer amount of love he has for this man, who’s currently looking at him with those gorgeous, understanding eyes. And he can’t do anything else but lean in and kiss his pretty pink lips.

“I know.” he whispers, smiling, blinking away tears. “I love you.”

“I love you, too.” Buck chuckles quietly. Then Eddie looks at Christopher again.

“It’s just hard sometimes, especially during the holidays. She should be here. With Chris.”

“She really should.” Buck wraps one hand around Eddie’s shoulders.

“I think she’d like you.” Eddie muses, leaning his head against Buck’s. “You guys would get along.” He really thinks so, and he also thinks that even if the accident didn’t happen and she didn’t die, he’d eventually give her the divorce she asked for, and inevitably date Buck anyway – he doesn’t think there’s any universe, any scenario, any path he’d take, where he and Buck don’t end up falling in love. If he believed in it, he’d say it’s fate or destiny or some shit like that. (Maybe he does believe, just in this one instance, but no one has to know).

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#christmas tree fic #wip wednesday #fic snippet #buddie #buddie fic #buddie wip #wikiangela writes #my writing #i promise it's buddie and they're so soft and cute lol - and there will be tree decorating too! #i just think xmas especially would be a time eddie thinks about shannon a lot #and buck would be all understanding bc he knows how much eddie loved her #i really need to get back to alive shannon - haven't looked at the doc in like a month and i miss her haha #ive been sick way too many times this winter but this time it might be the worst i just feel so awful #not gonna make a cold stop my writing tho - just might take a minute longer haha