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dyed-petals · 2 months

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i had a dream my parents gave me up when i was young. i came home from school one day and they told me they didnt want me anymore.

but that isnt what the dream was about. i knew that already.

it was a dream about being wanted.

my older cousin had a room for me, a whole country away, with exposed auburn wood and a big bed. big canvasses, with tubs of paint. a soft carpet. billboards for photos of memories i would make. set up for me like the aquarium for a long waited fish of an excited child.

que parecidas from the lips of relatives and strangers alike. it means ‘how seeming’. or ‘how belonging.’ they were commenting on how we look alike. we do. i could almost let myself forget i wasnt always here.

my cousins children became my little sisters. i did ballet with mis hermanitas down the hallways of our home. they dont know theres someone who called me hermanita too - i could almost let myself forget that, too.

my old friends called me sometimes, but less and less, as i started forgetting english. maybe as i forgot the words for friend and mom and sister i’d forget them too. maybe i could let myself remember only amigo y mamá y hermana. only the ones that wanted me.

but not when you called me. i could feel the dream realize - i didnt know you yet when i left - you can’t be here. large oilspilled hands replaced your face with someone else. someone who made sense in a timeline where i am wanted. you don’t make sense here. but you wiped off all the other faces. it was always you. breaking through. reaching out to me.

i couldn’t forget. not you. i wished i could. i clung to this dream where i was wanted. i didnt want to remember. you hugged me as it begun to rain. the murals i painted on my walls washed away drop my drop. until downpours claimed my dance trophies and tutus. my pictures of made-up friends. the walls dripped bare until through the haze of rain it was my real life again.

but you still hugged me.

it was a dream about being wanted. it still was.

#the words in spanish feel so cringe to me rn but i think im just being self conscious #real dream i had btw #it was An Experience it was really vivid and i woke up crying #it was after visiting said cousin and her daughters #my dad took a picture of the two of us and the whole trip was showing everyone every time someone told me i looked like her #i miss them already :( i didnt get to see my little cousins very long and i know the next time i will they wont be near as little #like ik that when my family goes there its like a 3 week long party but still its so nice there #i wasnt built for a nuclear family man i want to live with extended family #anyways i thought of this again bc i saw something like ‘would you still love me if we never met’#and i was also kind of thinking about soulmates and how i feel like my ex was my soulmate even though it cant work between us #and i feel like thats what a soulmate is to me #someone that im in love with in every universe #and i love the person im closest too now very much but its never felt like theyre someone i couldnt have not met #even though i know i can be happy with them and have already found out i couldnt be happy with my ex #but then #theyre the one that showed up in this dream #a dream about if i never met them #and they still loved me.#blargh anyways #and Thats why i made this blog bc both people in question do follow me #and i Already wrote a post abt soulmates that lowkey was subtweeting the two of them #and Both people in question liked it dhjdsh #wait let me reblog it here

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oifaaa · 3 months

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I saw some of your two jasons/clone AU and I genuinely thought you were continuing the markiplier joke and now Jason had a clone who Ra’s and Talia just like. plopped fake memories in and set loose idk. and decided to become a youtuber.

Anon please could you not spoil the ending of my clone au that's very rude of you Jeez now I've got to come up with a whole new ending

#ask #anon #im joking im joking #tho i did think about doing this as a joke #og jason shows up #and its like one of those movie tv plot lines #where theyre like #what are you gonna do now mr clone #and clone jasons like #dont worry about me im gonna go persue my real dreams #and then walks off into the distance #only to show up as the famous youtuber markiplier #with og jason realising fuck that could have been him #... why is it i can picture this plot line happening multiple times #but cant actually name the media it appears in

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luck-of-the-drawings · 2 months

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smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little.#AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair.#AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother.#GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns.#he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales.#YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!!#you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound.#elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now.#this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply

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nicepersondisorder · 2 months

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hello chat im insane. if you care. (trying to figure out how to draw the characters <3)

+ bonus husker

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acaesic · 4 months

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man. i wanna get back into multifandom stuff but at the same time i cannot feel anything for things that arent idkhow anymore :,)

#UUUAAAAAGGHHHHH #I HAVENT ABANDONED MY INTERESTS BUT I LIKE I HAVE. I REALLY HAVE #I REALLY REALLY LIKE. UGH I LOVE OBSESSING OVER OTHER THINGS BUT IDKHOW KIND OF JUST LIKE. CONSUMED EVERYTHING ELSE INCLUDING ME IDK #WHY IS LIKING MORE THAN ONE THING JUST IMPOSSIBLE TO ME AAAAAAAAA #I DONT EVEN LISTEN TO DIFFERENT MUSIC ANYMORE BECAUSE I CANNOT MENTALLY HANDLE HEARING ANYTHING NEW #LIKE. I CAN CONSUME OTHER CONTENT AND BE FINE BUT POSTING ABOUT THEM JUST FEELS LIKE WAY TOO MUCH FOR ME IDK #WWHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY IS MY BRAIN LIKE THIS WHY WHY BRAIN #like. okay. i love other things too but i think for my own comfort and energy im just gonna stay an idkhow blog for the next few months #seriously i was all in on being multifandom and that was like. relatively fine with me (i think i dont remember) and then the CONCERT #JJGJJGMGMGKKHHKHLGJKGMKHMHGGFJJJKGGK #I WAS MOSTLY FINE UP UNTIL THE CONCERT. FUCK #AND NOW IDKHOW IS ALL THAT I CAN EVER THINK ABOUT AND THERE ISNT ROOM FOR ANYTHING ELSE #IDK HOW I MANAGED TO JUST LIKE OTHER THINGS? HOW DID I HAVE THE ENERGY AT ALL #I LIKE. CANNOT FIT ANYTHING ELSE INSIDE MY BRAIN #IDKHOW CONSUMES MY EVERY WAKING THOUGHT THEY SHOW UP IN MY DREAMS THEYRE ALL I DRAW. I USED TO BE A PERSON #idkhow #chase said something alright #yeah. if its okay im gonna stay an idkhow blog for a little while. ill reblog things from other fandoms occasionally but. not often #yeah :) <3 writing this all out calmed me down :)

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raisinushigher · 4 months

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stupid garbage brainstorming for possibilities w gandhi + abe in future seasons . normally id type the words out onto the drawing afterwards but this is just so cringe and self indulgent thst it doesn’t matter enough to do that

#mine #the show actually having them date i should say i honestly consider Literally impossible #not only is this show like allergic to actually doing anything that involves mlm in a way that isnt joking or in the background #but i also feel like.. idk im so used to people seeing relationships like theirs as Just Friends that i Imagine the writers thinking that-#way too where like if someone pitched the idea of abe n gandhi actually having repressed feelings for eachother that were just never made-#clear in season 1 for various reasons (well apart from. You Know. and the list goes on but that’s not what im talking about at this second)#if someone were to pitch that idea theyd be like. What?? No!! Theyre only friends! ya know #and even absolutely then i cant imagine them not making it angsty like at all. of course in my world they would bc Its Gandhabe They’re-#Literally In Love Forever And Nothing Can Come Between That but like canonically? its pretty much guaranteed they’d break up obviously bc-#that’s just what this show is #honeslty my dream scenario? my personal favourite out of all these outcomes? the one where it’s implied heavily that theyre in love but-#the show does nothing with it and they just stay best frriends. that’s what im Most happy with personally #and it’s like… literally the closest to their relationship as it is already without anything else happening #okay bye #i love gandhabe did you know this

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gilliontidestriderchampionoftheu · 12 days

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grand finale ! BITB!! rand is the spiral. kian is the corruption. rolan is the stranger.

#my post #THIS IS MY FAVORITE ONE I THINK. THE ONLY ONE IM 100% CONFIDENT ON #rand is spiral because. dude #hes already losing it before the campaign starts bcus hes spent this whole time mourning his sister blaming himself and trying to figure ou #what the fuck even happened to her. hes deep in research into the occult and cults and conspiracies.#he thinks the mindflayer from dnd is real and in his hometown.#and then of course. the fucking ending. 0 sanity he doesnt know if hes real if his sister is real if hes dead or if any of that happened.#hes the spiral.#kian was very nearly also the spiral but in the opposite direction. where instead of not knowing what was real he was the one doing all the #lying. HOWEVER hes the corruption.#from the tma wiki- the corruption is the 'fear of the feelings of disgust revulsion and the things that might evoke such feelings'#he doesnt tell anyone he never made it as a rockstar that he has a boring desk job. he couldnt. how could he possibly tell them. what would #they THINK of him. kian stone who gave up on his dream and is playing pretend? he couldnt.#ANDDDDDD rolan (/the hive) stranger!!!#i very much almost made these guys the corruption because theyre bugs. and while that does fit i think theyre more stranger.#the fear of the uncanny the unknown the unfamilliar.#the wearing the faces and taking the places of people theyve killed is also such a stranger thing.#'come back to us as our rolan' but he couldnt because he never was.#its worse that he got away and tried to differentiate himself. at the end of the day he was still just a part of the stranger and couldnt #escape being pulled in to the show.#also?? something something. the stranger is associated with performance and bees communicate through dance #also thinking about how originally corruption was Hive and Filth. i think if itd stayed like that they couldve been Hive.

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pankomako · 10 months

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i bet you could make like a chart of which content creators know each other and what sorta friend groups/circles they're part of and it would just be a HUGE web with a LOT of overlap between groups and it'd be SO messy with just the sheer amount of friendships between creators

#like it's honestly so baffling to me #like i know and am acquainted with fyrus and hackerling through failboat and now theyre appearing in vinesauce highlights??#and apparently boat is friends with vinny who's friends with jerma who sorta has his own friend circle #and also through rubberross boat's interacted with very famous animators on youtube like jaiden and the odd1sout #and who knows what famous creators THEYVE probably interacted with (idk i dont watch them)#oh and also boat's friends with slimecicle who also has connections to the sorta like dream smp group i think(?) who again. pretty famous #and to think that being a mod for one streamer makes me sort of a part of this whole gigantic web of creators #who i could very well become acquainted with someday one way or another. WILD to me #like especially if i decide to start streaming later on which ive been considering #it's just. mind boggling putting it into perspective #(would be really fun if when i run a show one day i could get famous content creators to do voice cameos. imagine)#(or even to just straight up voice a recurring character. i do already have smth in mind there hehe)#<- all of this has been a peek into my deranged mind. i know i sound crazy i agree

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darth-empath · 2 years

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i started reading the new, Certified Canon(tm) Thrawn books because 1. I wanted to read them before watching Rebels or reading the Legends Heir of the Empire novels where he originated from 2. I'd seen a lot of good things about it in the Thrawn tags Also in the Thrawn tags, there was so much content between Thrawn and some twink named Eli Vanto and, skeptic, I said to myself "there's no way it's that gay. there's surely a lot of fandom headcanoning going on here." 100 pages in and no actually, it really is that gay. Like good lord Timothy Zahn, did you know you were writing gay men?

#i was BAFFLED #i was like wow this reads like fanfic #theyre going to Empire High over here like boy i hope they get assigned seating in chemistry class #but then i remembered #Star Wars EU/Legends books have literally always been fanfiction #Timothy Zahn has been writing fanfic for 30 years #a lesson in the value of fanfiction and how you too can write an OC that becomes one of the most beloved EU Star Wars characters #so much so that disney calls you up and asks you to write canon compliant versions to put into shows #follow your dreams y'all #star wars #sw #thrawn

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animutate · 7 months

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man i dontthink i can be in a real relationship ever again im just starting to process how everyone has treated me HORRIBLY

#and by everyone i mean. like 2 people. both of them were bad to me #godd i stayed with this one guy for like 4 years and he never even kissed me. but he was my first boyfriend so i just thought it was normal #he was so distant and i didnt even realize it. and then the second person came along right after he broke up with me and they #were super touchy super affectionate which i loved after being neglected for so long. but then they left me after a month.#and i never talk about it ever because i HATE talking about relationships it makes me feel like a loser.#''ohhh im so touch starved ive never felt truly loved'' what are you some kind of incel #and i need to sotp getting so attached to people who show me any kind of affection i cannot handle a relationship no matter how much i #think i want it. a friend kissed me a couple weeks and now its to the point shes been appearing in my dreams.#theyre really vivid too. i dont even know if i see her that way im not trying to process what my subconscious wants right now.#but its happened like 3 times now and i think it was because i ended up kissing her neck too. thats the main thing that happens in them.#it was so quick it didnt mean ANYTHING but my head wont let me forget about it. what the fuck ever man.#anyway. at least i can laugh about the fact the first guy broke up with me over amino

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seafoamplant · 6 months

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If I could impart one thing on the tumblr media discourse, it would be the idea of framing. Sometimes characters are bad on purpose. Sometimes they're bad on accident. Both instances say something about the story

#tbh? this is coming up in my brain because ive been thinking about gossip girl #the mikes mic video just came out #and i was like 'hang on. blake lively plays the exact same character in both gossip girl and sisterhood of the traveling pants'#but sisterhood is more meaningful and gossip girl is more. frustrating #probably because one frames livelys character as a vulnerable grieving teen who is not responsible for how adults take advantage of her #(more or less)#and one frames livelys character as an irresistable seductress. the dream girl. if you're with her youve one. shes the golden trophy #but let me be clear. serena has been taken advantage of by the adults in her life since she was a child #she cant grow because she knows no other way #but gossip girl isnt interested in that idea #also? theyre two different pieces of media with two different goals. im entertained by mikes recaps of gg. its pretty wack #its not bad. and i would even say its fun to like it. lily is mother and all that #it just like. it should give you SOME pause. if a 18/19 year old is dating a 26 year old married man because he finds her so irresistible #and the show frames that as 'yeah. thats serenas charm. shes the it girl'#then. thats bad lmao. that doesnt make me a purist #if youre with her youve won* lmao

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stressedimaginativecat · 7 months

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Villain rando: Are you three like friends or something?

*Lord Dominator and Bill Cipher shrug*

Slade:*deadpan* I'm being held hostage.

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Dominator: *about Slade* Old man Joe is just the coolest ya know?

Villain rando: Who's Joe?

Dominator: *inhale* JOE M-

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The Beast:*about Belos* 🎶Something wicked this way comes~🎶

Dominator: Congrats you literally described everyone here

Cozy Glow: Excuse you i'm a delight!

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*in a library like place Slade sits comfortably in an armchair and reads a book*

Dominator: Heeey Joseph!

Slade:..*sigh* What is it?

Dominator: Beast says that there is new folk about to appear soon in these ports of Void and i with Bill plan on bullying the villain newbie a bit.. A lot actually.. So! Ya wanna come and make em cry?

Slade: Who will be gracing us with their presence?

Dominator: That Belos.. Philip guy.. The one who killed and cloned his brother a lot or something like that *shrugs* A worstie like us

Slade: Joy.

Dominator: Are you coming then?

Slade: I pass.. *resumes reading* Have fun.

Dominator: *looks at the book cover*.. Why are you reading Warrior cats?

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Emperor Belos: Why is a child there?

Cozy Glow: Mind your own business.

#I imagine every character that had their shows ended (or cancelled) in a void place #the Void is infinitely big and can be..changed? Like they can imagine a room or their old places they used to be in #Everyone that ends here gets punched with that theyre just a written in script fictional character like “That thing makes more sense now"#Their shows ended so all they can do is chill together and talk about stuff #possibly sulk (villains for example) or even do activities together they can come up with to keep sane #watch their own or others show or read or just observe #Villains and heroes do have their own areas.. Maybe ones with redemption arc are either in between or like..#imagine Anakin just chilling and then looking in a direction and just seeing Vader standing there menacingly (Marcy with Darcy too maybe?)#Differently animated characters probably get headaches by looking at each other so they don't interact that often #they can't sleep but “dream” like its maybe fever dreams of fans fanfics or artwork..Roleplays #used to watch House of mouse #But mostly i got inspired by character ai i imagined talking to a character in a void like place and bam #Also anyone remember those old cartoon network ads with characters interacting?#Alright im done for now #emperor belos #Lord dominator #Bill Cipher #Slade #Teen titans slade

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asthevermincrawls · 1 year

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who else remembers when during the midst of a global pandemic with no way to safely tour or travel to record music, mcr, a band with a large queer and gender nonconforming fanbase who's lead singer had such an iconic eyeshadow look that fans spent large amounts of time and effort to emulate, who have a long personal history of gender nonconformity and wearing makeup themselves, decided to partner with a smaller, cruelty free makeup brand to create a custom eyeshadow palette. and ppl got mad at them and called them sellouts. does anyone else remember that or am I going insane?

#sorry to drag up this old shit but i was just thinking about it randomly and it felt like a fever dream #'''theyre sellouts!!!!''' did u know. bands make money #wait until you find out that they get paid to do shows *gasp*#''''they owe us content''''' GO OUTSIDE #'''its $60!!!''' no one's making you buy that shit!!! touch grass!!#a.txt

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bunnyb34r · 1 year

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I need to get another crab or two for Gurkle since it doesnt look like Scupa made it through his molt (it's been over a month... im scared to sift through the substrate for his remains/shell) but I dont wanna feed the crab trade and my adhd/depression are like no ❤️ and my anxiety is like GURKLE NEEDS FRIENDS

Even though he never really was a sociable crab like from the start sggdgdgd i mean he broke out of his tank twice the first week I had him and when he was in the tank with Scupa and Speedy he was like AHHHHHHHHHHHH DONT LOOK AT MEE! 😬

So idk man I can't get anyone new til I find scupa('s shell) bc if he is alive/his remains are down there I don't want the new ones eating him... and then I gotta add new substrate and augh it's just so much shit

#and i cant bring myself to check the tank no matter how hard i try im like fuck i dont wanna do this #i dont want to confirm it i dont want to see his remains if theyre there and if theyre not then Gurkle was The Killer #bc uh speedy was cannibalized 😬 bc i was afraid to look and thought he was taking a long molt...#im gonna miss him a lot he was my favorite 😭 when im sure sure he's gone im gonna make a post of my fav #pics of him bc i have a lot and i did that with the speedster when i was sure sure 😔 i dont wanna #im so tired of grieving man like that makes 10 loved ones gone in 4 years like fuck man #i know that seven is a great age for hermit crabs since most in captivity are in such shit conditions they #only live months and that this shows my love and care for them but i miss them so much i have dreams ab speedy a lot :'')#anyway Speedy was 6 when he passed and Scupa is/was 7 and 1/2 #i remember telling my dr ab how old they were a few months ago and she was like what the fuck??#theyve been recorded to make it to 30 in captivity... i was hoping maybe the party boys could be some of em #marquilla #the party boys #i feel like so much anxiety that i need to get gurkle friends so he's not lonely but also anxiety ab buying crabs #bc theyre essentially stolen from beaches and thats fucked up but like do i let gurkle be solo?? do i give in? idk man #and we keep talking ab getting another kitty so ours isnt lonely since her sister passed a few months back but #every time we ask her she starts twitching sggdgdgdgd which she does when shes upset so we take that as a no #shes like no new kitty. only friend.#they werent close in the slightest wgdggdgdgd but still they spent the past 14 years together so thats hard

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ladyofthelake · 9 months

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People really reblogging posts saying how the rings of power costumes are bad...bruh. Tell me you never watched the show without telling you never watched the show.

#so tired of seeing fucking hate on my dash #fuck sake to people get off on being hateful since it seems everyone prefers to shit on stuff now #instead of just enjoying things they do like #anyway I had a scrummy dream about Arondir last night so screw all ya haters #you're missing a gorgeous show because you're blinded by a hate cult #sad #theyre probably fans of house of the dragon with excessive swearing nudity misogyny #and the worst fucking wigs in the universe lol #oh and 90% of the show you cant see fucking anything #they cover up their terrible costumes and cgi with a dark filter #but suuuuuuuuuuuuure rings of power is the one that sucks #try again xD #anti hotd

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moonlight-mellohi · 2 years

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Did we ever learn where Phil's secret base on the DSMP was? Did I completely make up in my mind when Phil joined he made a hidden base thousands of blocks away from spawn that he never showed on camera?? Was that real????

#philza #dream smp #the moon has spoken #please tell me i didnt make this up snd he just forgot about it or showed it one day and i forgot #also no im not talking about Techno's cabin #pretty sure #any 2020/very early 2021 Philza DreamSMP fans wanna help me out so i dont have to venture through old vods-#i have many old facts in my brain i question to this day if theyre true or just from all the fanfics ive read. heres one of them

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