#this bts is the first time i knew of this song lol don’t judge me

[accio-victuuri]

my personal favorite kind of bts is them singing/humming together like this one. 💕

source.

#yizhan #bjyx #untamed bts #cql bts #i love them so much #this bts is the first time i knew of this song lol don’t judge me

[ask-serendipity-sky]

I like Tae’s vibe. I actually like the New jeans approach of multiple low budget MVs instead of 1 big bang cause it increases more revenue without triggering the hyper competitive K-pop space.

What do you think?

and this suits Tae, something about him just gives off not interested in the K-pop space. In fact, the only member I think who actually respects K-pop is probably Jimin. I judge this based on the artists they look up to. Jhope & RM like Jcole & Nas, American rappers. Forgot who Suga likes. Tae looks up to older jazz artists. JK likes American pop artists and Jimin likes Big Bang & independent artist. Idk about Jin honestly.

I’ve listened to Jimin’s playlist on AM: Springtime sounds and none of these songs are big title tracks/ singles. These are low key artists singing about their lives and loves. Jimin listens to Alec Benjamin, a guy with a great voice, small but loyal following and purposefully left the music industry behind after making a breakout hit so he could sing about his stories. My flex is that Jimin and I listen to the same type of music.

Went off on a tangent but my point is: These guys obviously have different views as to what a successful artist is. And they are all following that path. I think for Jimin a successful artist is producing good music for loyal fans rather than a general audience. I could be wrong of course. If so, Like Crazy’s success would be heartwarming as everyone and their mama knows that it’s carried by fans sharing & streaming.

The funny thing with Jimin though is that even if he tried to be a low key artist he couldn’t. Yes he does his own thing, sings about his story, doesn’t get major airplay and is listened mainly by a loyal fanbase who lives him and shares his music.

However his loyal fanbase is hugeee, so by virtue of that he’s left the lowkey artist category and also the K-pop category behind. What you mean you wanna release your long awaited album as an mp3?

Thinking about that sometimes makes me laugh. Jimin just wanna be lowkey, regular K-pop male artist singing his tunes then boom #1 on hot 100, Ryan Gosling giving him a guitar, song going platinum in the states(I’m calling it), fans demanding to buy his song. He’s non existent on socials rn and still trending

To be honest i kind of find Jimin fans funny. He said in Suchwita he wants to top billboard continuously. And everyone kinda knew he meant as BTS but his fans said “oh YOU want it? Here you go baby have a #1 on hot 100”. Making it look like it’s easy. Lol I’m sure Jimin knows his fans have plans for him.

They keeping him in the top 50 global just cause and I don’t think they gonna stop. Right now they have a goal to rechart LC also just cause and I’m interested to see how things unfold.

All of these are gifts they want to give Jimin. Almost like they’re proving to him we are here, we support you and we appreciate your music, and to cause a ripple in the company doesn’t hurt either.

Hello,

Ok, this is the only ask I will answer regarding Tae's music so don't come sending more, please!

I don't want to answer Tae music stuff, other anons!

But I'll answer this one because I appreciate that you took time to share all this.

First question. Our opinions vary greatly.

I think with how competitive kpop is, you need that big trigger, especially if it's a debut album. Tae needed to risk it but didn't. For me, this all feels safe although it wasn't intended to come across that way.

I think that his visual album should have been released all at once. I know this way is done to create anticipation but I haven't been pulled into his story yet. Maybe that will change once the 3rd mv is released or his photos tie more stuff together?

It's interesting that you find the aesthetic fitting because I don't lol I do agree that Tae is not kpop at all but this album concept feels off to me. Like it's fabricated and doesn't show the real Tae. I feel like his fans would appreciate that. Perhaps the concepts worked for New Jeans since it's quirky cute. And I remember writing a few weeks ago how Tae had changed his style and if that was reflective of what he would show in his upcoming album. And we are seeing change but not in any sort of direction. I don't see the essence of Tae in this. Or his new style.

I like to see the essence of the artist even in their on-stage personas. I'm not seeing it here.

But maybe this is just me being intense as usual.

Second question. Jimin. I do agree that Jimin tries to tell stories through his songs and he does that beautifully. Even if his songs differ greatly, like Promise and Set Me Free pt.2, they both have that air of Jimin in it. But I'm not being biased, I'm not a fan of both.

I do think the pandemic caused the change in direction of Jimin's artistry. But I hope that he has seen the reception, BB charts and worldwide records, and sees that his music is meant for a wider audience even if the stories are personal to him. We can see that FACE was his struggle and rebirth so I'm looking forward to his next album, which he said was going to more upbeat.

With the right team and tools, his songs can achieve greater success. It is heartwarming that Jimin lovers are still carrying his song still. It's our token of love and appreciation but I hope that the his next project has the company support he deserves added to the fan support he has rightfully earned.

Hopefully we get to see this soon enough.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

I really like how you think. Maybe you won't like my take on Tae's music but do you want to be friends? Message me?

#skyasks #no more tae music!!!

[annetteblog]

Intro & My take on KM

Hi!

I’m new around here so it’s supposed to be (not so short) introduction, since I don’t know how to start a blog heh. I hope to sprinkle my 0.5 cents into the KM conversation and maybe to bring a new perspective from someone, who is not a part of the typical English-speaking West.

Who /the hell/ Am I?  

(please, consider it to be said with NJ’s voice from Intro: Persona :D)

I was born in Siberia (it’s in the Asian part of Russia), currently live in the European part of the country while studying at a Uni (European in terms of geography, not in terms of everything else i’m definitely not shading rn lolllll). English is not my first language, I’ve just kind of learnt it to some extent. Due to this it takes me more time to write a post; and I may (and will) make some grammatical & other mistakes. Plus I’m lazy AND busy with Uni, so I won’t even promise to be consistent in posting smth lol. But I thought I need more practice in terms of writing in English, so here I am, actually scribbling something. This feels weird, because I’ve been around stan Tumblr since 2015, but never ever interacted, just read.

How I ended up around Jikook/Kookmin (and BTS) & My (long&messy) take on this matter

Although I had heard of BTS before, I became an Army only in October 2018. I had kinda avoided them, because you know... boybands.... sing songs about romantic love and how they love girls.......... (+I had been around Twitter when 1D been at their peak and I remember a quite toxic community of fans, whom always had scared me). Shortly, hello stereotypes. Obviously, after I got engaged I felt terribly sorry that I had been sleeping on them, but what is done cannot be undone. 

Someone I knew back then reposted one of their MVs and I, during my sad hours of procrastination, decided to watch it. Then I saw their live performance with the same song. And I thought “wow these guys can sing and dance and the music is kinda cool, i need to check this out maybe??” 

Then a funny thing happened. One of the next videos I watched (the same person had it added to their page) was a 2016 BangtanBomb where JM and JK practiced their Coming of Age dance. 

Do you know this moment with Gina from the 1st episode of Brooklyn 9-9:

Well, that was precisely me after I watched it. I don’t even know how to explain this, it was kind of a gut feeling? Whatever you call it, I started to get suspicious and couldn’t even explain to myself why. /actually now a do have questions to this vid and the main one - why does everyone cringe that much? if it’s a girly choreo than they had done some “girly” moves before. why is there such strong reaction??/

I started to get deeper and went to some ru-shipper communities. Shipping culture among Russian speaking fans is... well, weird to some extent, but I maybe address this topic some time later. You need to consider that (as far as you probably know) Russia is quite homophonic country and sadly is not the greatest place for LGBTQ+ community at the moment. The non-frienly influential attitudes hanging in the society + the general shippers’ weirdness = the result is not that nice honestly. 

I struggled for some time in order to find more mature people (not just in terms of age but in general sanity), failed, ended up with some EXTREMELY toxic ru-fans of TK, which was/is the most popular pairing here, spent among them like 15 minutes and ran away horrified. After that I didn’t even try to engage with shippers or believers or whatever of any pair and just decided to enjoy the music and the content (which is a great idea, highly recommend!)

After a couple of days I discovered that JK makes videos. I love video, films and visual art so I immediately found them on YT, saw the titles with names of different cities from all over the world and was like “Oh that must be so cool, he’s visited so many outstanding places I’ve never been to, so I really need to watch it! I shall enjoy some beautyyy”. Then I clicked on GCFt.

Well, what can I say. I did enjoy some beauty, but not the type I had initially anticipated. The biggest clickbait in my entire life. JK should be proud of himself.

                                       /as I said - the beauty/

I had already known Troy back then and I known the song’s lyrics so it would not be an underestimation to say - the video just blew my mind. I was like - hold on is this real? seriously?? no really really????? he manage to get away with something THAT obvious?????? dude how

As a person who edited videos AND is not a native English speaker, I don’t buy the explanation “oh he mustve didnt get the lyrics lmao”. You just don’t do that. You don’t. DON’T. You google and translate every shit you don’t understand, every word and idiom you’ve never encountered, because otherwise the possibility of an epic failure is very likely. You wouldn’t want to give your mum a video as a birthday present and then discover that you used a song with WAP-ish lyrics, right? (well maybe that would be okay in your family, I don’t judge, but that’s not the case for people I know). So don’t you dare to degrade JK’s intellectual capacities; such assumption is really offensive. He is a smart boii, he knows exactly what he’s doing in terms of his art.

So I was shocked, but decided to look for the context - maybe I missed some previous events regarding this Tokyo thing (another great idea - always check the context). Well, apparently I didn’t, because the whole narrative with the trip for two, lovely selfies etc. made my poor brain lowkey explode. (I still don’t buy the rings theory thing though)

But I didn’t give up lol! I’m a bit stubborn and it’s very hard to convince me in anything, so I decided to search for more context, more of their interactions, moreeee. Remember, the late October 2018, there were no swan lakes, RB, and even MMA18 hadn’t happened yet. 

This time I ended up watching content in more or less consistent way, and when I saw all of these scenes with affectionate JM and a cool badass i-don’t-care-about-anyone-i’m-a-manly-man-with-no-feelings-whatsoever JK, I just hysterically laughed. 

Homophobic Russia, remember? I recognized this. Growing up here being LGBT myself, taught me the same type behaviour during my high school days. When a girl I kinda liked but didn’t what to admit it to myself was nice to me or (oh god) flirted with me, I did something similar. It’s like a huge panic mode. Being an introvert doesn’t help either. The funniest thing is that you may not entirely realise what exactly is going on in terms of your own feelings, especially at that age (16-18ish). In my personal case, I thought I liked her but as a friend, only later to realise that well not as a friend oops :DDD The second thing (already not so funny) is that you actually consciously or unconsciously try to avoid the subject as much as possible, as long as possible and pretend that nothing is going on. We’re just bros. Stop doing this stupid gayish thing and don’t look at me like that, you’re annoying. If you ever do this again I (gently) kick you. I’m straighter than a straight line in my math textbook. IDK, but probably that’s your brain is somehow trying to protect you. Again, in my case&position I knew that the consequences for any non-straight person being outed would be bad (TW not to the point of being killed bad, but to the point of being excluded from a big part of society). So for me it was a mixture of the internalized homophobia + lack of self reflection + just being a bit emotionally slow + very! straight community around. Shit happens, I was a teenager and made my share of mistakes, but that experience helps me to recognize the same pattern of behaviour up to this day.   

So coming back to KM, because the post is already waaay too long and I just ramble. It’s been 2+ years for me being a part of this fandom, and what can I say... Things become more intense and eventful with every year passing by ;) Funny how I felt that vibe from the 2016 dance practice video. Seeing the Black Swan performance a week ago almost had me choked, no joking. They are amazing.

                                                    Pure Art

However, and I would like to emphasize that, I do not incline that KM are 100% romantically involved and/or gay or whatever. I tend to treat people with respect and not to make too much assumptions about their private life. That’s not my business. However, I’m also not a fan of heteronormativity, so I’m just sitting here and observe everything that’s going on putting some distance and not forgetting being generally polite and critical thinking. But if they are just straightest besties please give them an Oscar before Grammy

Anyways, I hope this blog won’t kick the bucket from the very start and I will post something every now and then. You can always ask me questions about some BTS/Jikook related stuff or something about Russia and a Russian view on mass culture topics, since I’m pretty sure some of you have very stereotypical view of what is going on here :) However, do note that I’ve never been to America or Europe, therefore I may not be aware of something verrrry obvious to you or just have a completely different experience. 

P.S.  And yeah, I’m used to say Jikook, since it’s the name which is used much more frequently in Russian.  i like it better and what will u do haha

#jikook #kookmin #what am i even doing here #i'm gonna regret this #long post

[hold-me-sickfics]

14 Days: Taehyung

Hi guys! I’m really happy to be able to post this (somehow my internet came back, and I decided to post while I have it). I hope this is alright, I had a hard time writing it because I’m back home for the weekend and it’s hard to find somewhere quiet lol. I hope you guys like it!

TW: Food, Emeto, Nightmares, Slight anxiety attacks, Bruises are mentioned,  (If there are any more, let me know and I’ll add them in!)

Note: Also, I wanna give some major credit to @thatoneemokpop-02 for all their help with ideas and getting me started. I kid you not, I was entirely blank earlier and in a few texts with them, they had me ready to write! Please go check out their writing, because they’re so kind and amazing and not to mention, they have some of the most well-developed fics I have ever seen. Especially their “You’re my Yellow” fic. I love it!!! <3

Prompt: “What they don’t know, won’t hurt them.” That’s Taehyung’s thought process when it comes to the other members. For the past several weeks, Taehyung has been having relatively frequent nightmares. Only these nightmares aren’t just “bad dreams.” No, they have him waking up gasping for breath, tending to an anxious stomach, and really whatever else bad can happen with nightmares. At first, he had a nightmare every week, but now it’s gotten to the point of every other night. Lack of sleep is catching up with Taehyung, causing him to really need some extra love from the other members. The only thing is, he’s too embarrassed and afraid to talk about them. Luckily for Taehyung, one of the members happens to find out on their own… 

“Ladies and gentlemen, BTS!” The host gestured to the boys who were currently walking on stage.

Once the crowd quieted, the host began talking about BTS’ most recent accomplishments and asking questions to each of the members. As usual, Namjoon translated for them… mostly. BigHit had made a huge deal over them learning English and at least answering one question without Namjoon having to translate. Something about boosting their American support? The boys thought this was rather strange, considering their fans didn’t seem to care whether they spoke in Korean or not, but they did what they were told.

Taehyung watched and listened as the other boys answered their questions in perfect English, and the crowd squealed after every word they spoke. Then, it was his turn.

“Taehyung, let’s talk a little about you. A lot of fans, including myself, were absolutely stunned at your Singularity performance. How did you feel about the song? Any favorite parts in the choreography?”

Taehyung couldn’t breathe. He knew he was supposed to answer in English, but he couldn’t remember the words. Not even the first one.

He said his answer in Korean, hoping Namjoon would cover for him. Namjoon just gave him a look, seemingly saying “I’m not helping. Say what you’ve gotta say.”

Taehyung felt his blood run cold. Everyone was staring and starting to gasp… the cameraman looked worried as to whether or not to shut off the cameras and the members… they were looking at him… disappointed and somewhat angry…

Taehyung woke up unable to catch his breath. He was sweating all over, and not to mention trembling. His vision was blurry with tears.

This wasn’t the first time this had happened. He’d had a nightmare every night since Saturday (which was when their manager told them they’d be doing an English interview soon), and it was Wednesday now.  He’d thought about telling the others, but he turned the idea down. He felt too embarrassed about not knowing as much English as they did, and he also knew they were exhausted and he wanted to make sure they got sleep. Or at least, as much as they could get. The boys already weren’t getting home until 11:45 every night, so when Taehyung actually could come home and go to sleep, he’d usually wake up around 2:00 with the nightmare, and wouldn’t be able to go back to sleep after that. Part of this was because of his anxious stomach.

Speaking of which, Taehyung was now frantically pushing his covers off, and covering his mouth. He knew he had about 10 seconds before his late-night dinner would reappear. Luckily, he made it to the bathroom in time, and was able to kneel in front of the toilet. His knees had hit the tile hard, but he figured a couple bruises wouldn’t be as bad as having his dinner projected across the floor.

No sooner than his hands were gripping the sides of the bowl, was his dinner coming up and to the back of his throat. In one retch, he’d brought up a small stream. Followed by another, and another. Taehyung’s stomach was killing him, since he was so sore from having thrown up so much.

After what felt like an eternity, it was over. Taehyung rested his head on the rim of the toilet, and reached up with a sweaty hand to flush it.

Shakily, he stood up and looked himself in the mirror. He washed his face and brushed his teeth, then went back to his bed.

He walked slowly so he wouldn’t jostle his stomach.

Taehyung got into his bed, and pulled the covers up over himself. The warmth felt nice, being as his sweaty skin had felt like ice in the bathroom earlier. He decided to follow his normal routine after this kind of stuff happened…

“Siri, open LanguageGuru.” He whispered, his throat still sore from all the acid.

The app opened, and Taehyung spent the next two hours working on his English. Somehow, he’d gotten lucky, and at 4:30, he’d fallen back asleep. However, since they had to be up and out of the house by 6:00, he had to wake back up at 5:15.

When 5:15 came, he jolted awake, and went to the bathroom to puke again. It had just become part of the routine by now. He threw on a t-shirt and sweats, brushed his teeth, and combed his hair. Each action made his core hurt. Putting on deodorant was one of the worst parts, being as he had to put his arm up and then use his other one to put it on. Every motion felt like his insides had just been squeezed and beaten. By 5:30, he was able to head to the kitchen.

Jungkook just happened to come out of his room at the same time.

“Morning Taehyung!” Jungkook was awake… somehow.

“Morning Kook.” Taehyung’s voice was at a mere croak.

“Woah, hold on are you okay?” Jungkook gently took Taehyung’s wrist to get him to turn and look at him.

“I’m good. Just tired.” Taehyung hoped he’d believe it.

“Yeah, I don’t know about that. Tired is what Yoongi looks like right now… you look sick.” Despite popular belief, Jungkook was actually following in Jin’s footsteps as a lead caregiver for the group.

The maknae pressed the back of his hand to Taehyung’s cheek.

“You don’t have a fever… what else is wrong?”

“Nothing Kook, like I said, I’m just sorta out of it since I didn’t get much sleep.” Taehyung still allowed Jungkook to hold his wrist since for some reason, JK’s touch comforted him.

“I don’t think so.” Jungkook moved his hand from Taehyung’s wrist to Taehyung’s back. He rubbed up and down, and watched as Taehyung leaned into the touch.

“We’ve got dance practice this morning, but if you feel sick, tell me. I’ll get Namjoon hyung to let you come home. Alright?” The concern in JK’s eyes was shining.

“Thanks Kookie.” Taehyung smiled slightly, and then continued walking to the kitchen.

Jin was already rolling with cooking.

“Okay guys, we’ve got 20 minutes till we’ve gotta be in the car. I’ve made toast, and there’s bacon if you can get it away from Namjoon. Taehyung, Jungkook, what do you want to drink?” Jin was pouring “on the go” cups for each of the boys.

“Orange juice. Thanks Hyung.” Jungkook looked over at Taehyung.

“Coffee please.” Taehyung’s bags under his eyes seemed to be deeper and darker than everyone else’s.

Jungkook didn’t approve of Taehyung’s choice, being as coffee in the morning always upset his stomach, but he allowed it, hoping that it would at least make Taehyung feel less exhausted.

By the time everyone had eaten, it was time to load up and head to the studio.

The car ride was torture. Taehyung had developed a mean headache, and felt like he was gonna throw up at the first stop sign.

Jungkook had sat in the seat next to him, since he still wasn’t convinced that Taehyung was as “alright” as he said he was.

They were almost 15 minutes from BigHit when Taehyung’s stomach finally revolted. Before he even had a chance to ask for a bag, coffee and chewed up bacon and toast was spilling down his legs.  Jungkook was quick to put a bag under his chin for the next round, but it didn’t come. That first one and a mean wave of post-vomiting nausea was enough for him.

Taehyung cried, and Jungkook just held him. Jungkook knew he was sick now, and he could prove it. Before he could even tell Namjoon, the leader had already stood up and looked back at them.

“Oh no,” the concern in his eyes was evident. “It’s okay Taehyung, we’ll be at BigHit in a minute and we can get you cleaned up. Jungkook, can you help him get to the showers?”

“Yeah Hyung, I’ve got him.” Jungkook was wiping the leftover vomit from Taehyung’s chin.

“Taehyung, bud, I’m sorry you feel bad.” Jin spoke up, as he came back from the front. He’d brought a water bottle out of the cooler and a paper towel.

Jungkook helped Taehyung sip the water, and Jin dabbed the sweat from the younger’s face.

“Hey, this is Namjoon…” he went on to tell their choreographer what had happened. (It was always a big deal when one of them threw up. That could mean they were catching a virus, and since their trainer worked with other groups as well, he had to be strict about that kind of thing. It was the same way a few months ago when Namjoon came down with the flu.)

A faint noise told Taehyung that they’d been given the rest of the day off, which they were all more happy about than anything.

Then, they got a second phone call.

“Oh hey um-“ Namjoon wasn’t even able to get a word in. Judging by his expression, whoever was on the other end was yelling- a lot.

“Alright. We’ll be there soon.” Namjoon hung up, and then turned to the group.

“That was the head choreographer.”

Jungkook was still holding Taehyung close. He never was one to let a little throw up bother him.

“He’s still bringing us in. Taehyung… I’m so sorry. He’s letting you take a half-hour to clean up but then you’re supposed to join us…” Namjoon knew they weren’t his own orders, but he still felt like the bad guy having to say it.

“I-I’m okay hyung.” Taehyung shivered mid-sentence. “It was just the c-coffee. My stomach didn’t like it. I’m okay.”

How he looked said otherwise, and Jungkook piped up to mention that.

“Hyung isn’t there anything we can do? We’re all exhausted but Taehyung looks like he’s gonna collapse the second he gets off.”

“I’m sorry guys… he sounded serious… I’d talk to him but it seems the only thing he’s gonna do is make practice worse if we keep bugging him.”

The car stopped, and all of the boys stood up. Hoseok had his earbuds in before, but now that he’d taken them out, Yoongi was quick to get him out of the car and explain to Hoseok what was happening before he saw it. Hoseok’s sympathy sickness was not gonna help the situation at all.

Jin and Namjoon got off as well, followed by Jimin who was headed inside to find some clothes for Taehyung to change into when he got out of the shower.

“Taehyungie, can you stand?” Jungkook sweetly placed his hand on Taehyung’s upper back.

“Yeah I’m alright.”

Taehyung stood up, and Jungkook came right behind him. Luckily, the showers were on the first floor to the left, so Jungkook and Taehyung got there quickly.

Taehyung undressed himself, and then stepped into the shower. The hot water helped to soothe his sore muscles. He used the time in the shower to calm down, and try to refocus on his main mission for the day. Staying awake.

“Hey Taehyung, I’ve got your towel out here and Jimin brought clothes and a toothbrush. I’m out here when you’re ready.”

Taehyung knew what that meant. They’d been called back, and Taehyung’s time for showering was over.

He stepped out of the shower, and Jungkook handed him the towel. He got dressed quickly, and he and JK went to the studio.

By the time they got to the studio, the choreographer had already left, and the rest of the boys were already being led by Hoseok in the routines.

“Woah woah, pause it.” Hoseok waved the music off, and everyone stopped for a moment.

“Feeling better Taehyung?” Hoseok asked, walking toward the two.

“Yeah. The coffee just got me a little. I’m alright now.”

“Okay but if you need to stop just tell me. Joon, can you hit play again?”

Namjoon hit “play” and they started practice up again. Jungkook kept a close eye on Taehyung throughout the day, wanting to make sure that he really was alright.

Rehearsal lasted until 8:30 p.m. When it was over, the boys loaded up and headed back to the apartment.

“I’m making supper for anyone that wants it.” Jin got the chicken nuggets out of the refrigerator, and started to put them in the fryer.

“I think I’m gonna go ahead and turn in.” Taehyung both dreaded sleep and longed for it. H knew he’d end up having a nightmare anyway, so he might as well get some sleep while he could.

“Alright, night Taehyungie.” All the boys said their goodnights, except Jungkook who went with him back there.

“You going to sleep early too Kookie?” Taehyung asked, his eyes already heavy.

“Yeah… hey um if you need me tonight, wake me up okay?” Jungkook gave Taehyung a tight hug.

“I will Kookie. Don’t worry. Just get some rest.”

The boys said goodnight, and Taehyung was asleep almost instantly.

---

2:00 rolled around quickly, and as usual, Taehyung woke up unable to catch his breath. He was crying, terrified once again of forgetting how to speak in their upcoming interview. He felt sweat coating his skin, and he was almost at the part where he pukes, then someone came in.

“Tae Tae, it’s okay. It’s alright. I’m here. Breathe.” Jungkook was at his side, holding him tightly. Taehyung didn’t know how he got there, but he was glad to see him.

“J-Jungkook?”

“It’s me. Taehyung, you’re shaking…” Jungkook’s eyes widened.

Taehyung felt the bile rise in his throat, and he quickly went around Jungkook and ran to the bathroom. Once again, he crashed down, and vomit spilled out of him.

Jungkook came up behind him, holding his middle.

“Just get it up Taehyung. It’s alright. I’m here with you.”

The vomiting part didn’t last as long as usual, and Taehyung attributed that to Jungkook being there. Soon, they were back in Taehyung’s room. Jungkook decided to sleep with Taehyung in case he had another nightmare, but they couldn’t sleep until Taehyung told Jungkook what had him so upset.

“It’s that interview on the 25th. I’m- I’m afraid I won’t be able to speak correctly… or at all.”

Jungkook’s eyes filled with compassion.

“How come you didn’t say anything?” Jungkook rubbed Taehyung’s arm.

“I felt embarrassed about not knowing as much as you guys, and I didn’t want anyone to be worried about me since none of us are getting any sleep anyway…”

Jungkook took Taehyung’s hand, and gently squeezed it.

“First of all, I’m so sorry you’ve been dealing with this by yourself. I know it must have been scary. But now you’ve got me and everyone else. The truth is, all of us have been nervous about the interview. Or at least, I know I have. But that’s a good thing because it means maybe we can help each other.”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, I’ve been studying pretty hard, and I know you have too… so maybe we can study together! Then if one of us has trouble in the interview, the other once can step in and help them out.” Jungkook smiled.

Taehyung liked the idea, and agreed.

“Good. We start tomorrow.”

After that, both boys went to sleep and thankfully, slept through the night.

For the next couple weeks, they worked hard together on learning English. Namjoon got them some extra time by firing their old choreographer and hiring one that gave them more time between rehearsals so they wouldn’t burn themselves out.

By the time the interview came, Taehyung and Jungkook both aced it. Including the part where Taehyung introduced himself.

“My name is V, and I’m good boy.”

#RPF #Emeto #Nightmares #14DayFics #Taehyung!Sickfics #Caretaker!JK #TW Food #Hoping to post JK tomorrow! #Slight Anxiety Attacks #Bruises mentioned

[otomeramblings]

And then the Sun Shone so Bright

Pairing: None; Tenma-centric A/N: hhhh I’m sorry this took me so long! I was having a hard time finding motivation to write during these past 2 weeks. But! inspiration finally struck. I originally was gonna make this romantic but then parts of the song gave me natsugumi feels and well, here we are lol But also! I’m sorry I didn’t include Kumon but I haven’t read episode 6 yet;;; Thank you so much, @chewie-santatoast​​!! You’re very kind and I’m glad you like what I put out there!! I hope you like this one too and thank you for requesting~~ 

🎵 Song: Best of Me by BTS 🎵

As Igawa finished sending a message, he pocketed his phone and lifted his gaze to see Tenma still eyeing the rack of keychains in the back corner of the store. The bags with sweet treats they had picked up still hung from Tenma’s wrist as he stood there, one hand on his hip and one on his chin, clearly trying to find something.

After shooting wrapped up, they went to one of the local bakeries to buy some souvenirs for Tenma’s theatre troupe. It was something he had taken the habit of doing and while he was surprised by it at first, Igawa was fast to encourage this new development; after the first time, he always made sure that whenever the boy had a shoot out of town or overseas, they would always be able to find a moment in their schedule so that he could buy something he could bring back.

They had been doing some window shopping after successfully purchasing the treats when Tenma stopped in front of one of the stores and insisted on going inside.

If he had to venture a guess, Igawa would say that the object that had originally caught Tenma’s attention was the small bonsai keychain that now dangled from in between his fingers. He couldn’t help the small smile that bloomed in his face at that; Tenma’s love for bonsai, while strange in the eyes of his peers for a boy his age, was actually something Igawa himself had grown incredibly fond of since it was one of the topics (besides acting) that actually made Tenma ramble with excitement. Since he had already had his hands on it, though, Igawa had an inkling as to what he was now searching for.

After a few minutes, and having four more keychains in his hands, Tenma strode towards the register. As he placed the items on the counter, Igawa could see that his hunch had been spot-on. Tenma threw a quick glance his way and he must have seen the way in which his manager was fighting back a smile because he quickly spoke up:

“They would just bug me later if I only got one for myself.”

“Of course, Tenma,” he replied with a small nod. It was an excuse but Igawa knew better than to try to get Tenma to admit it, so he didn’t press for more.

As his eyes inspected each of the designs as the cashier rang them up, he understood what had taken the boy so long when he was picking them. He could tell exactly which one would go to each person just by looking at them. Igawa admittedly didn’t know the members of the Summer Troupe very well, but he had gathered quite a bit of information from his conversations with Tenma.

Next to the small bonsai tree, there was a little white kitten wearing a pink bonnet;

“Dammit,” Tenma clicked his tongue seeing the traffic-jam they were stuck in. “I know it’s frustrating but can’t you let them know that you’ll be late for rehearsals?” Igawa spared a glance his way and saw that Tenma was already typing something on his phone. “Yeah, but that’s not the problem,” he grumbled. “We are trying on the new costumes today and Yuki’s already difficult enough normally. I don’t need to give him another excuse to call me- a hack, oh for the love of-.” Judging from the exasperated tone in his voice and the quick typing that followed, Igawa could guess what response Tenma had received and he tried his best to squash down his amusement before commenting again. “Yuki? That’s….Rurikawa, right? You mentioned he’s in charge of making all of the company’s costumes? He did a really good job for your debut performance.” After seeing the state in which the theatre was, a part of him had honestly been worried about the production quality, but he had been blown away by it and the costumes were one of the things that had impressed him the most. “Yeah,” Tenma sighed before putting his phone down. “I hate to admit it, but the kid’s got some real talent in that department and he has potential in acting as well. Now if only he could do something about that snarky attitude of his,” Tenma complained but Igawa could hear the tint of fondness that hid in his tone behind his initial annoyance.

next to it, there was a pink crown with white and gold accents;

“Is that a new script?” Igawa asked when he saw the manilla envelope resting on Tenma’s lap once he entered the car. He knew Tenma wasn’t scheduled to shoot anything soon but it wouldn’t be long until the Summer Troupe started their rehearsals for their new play. “No, this is one of dad’s old scripts.” Seeing the surprise on his face, Tenma added: “I asked him if I could lend it to one of my troupe mates and he agreed.” “Oh?” “Yeah, remember when dad had to play that prince character in a drama?” He did remember; that performance had earned Mr Sumeragi a couple of awards when he was just starting his career. At Igawa’s hum of affirmation, Tenma continued: “Well, one of my troupe members wants to act in a similar role in the future, so I thought giving this a look would help him have a more concrete idea of what it’s like.” Igawa nodded with a smile. “His acting and his presence on stage still need some work, but I think reading this can not only motivate him but also give him some inspiration since it has all the annotations dad made on it when he used it.” Tenma was using that determined and straightforward tone that often laced his voice whenever he spoke about anything related to acting; it reminded him that despite his young age, he was a professional through and through. One thing that had always been true about Tenma was that he was a perfectionist and someone incredibly proud of his work; because of that, he expected that everyone met the same standards he had for himself. That hadn’t changed after he started performing with Mankai, but the way he went about it when talking to his colleagues was definitely different and he was now seeing exactly where it rooted from.

next to that one, there was probably the most unique keychain of the bunch: a small almost translucent triangle protractor,

“Is that homework?” Igawa asked as he closed the door of the trailer. Tenma paused his furious scribbling when he heard his manager’s question and the guilty darting of his eyes told the answer before he even opened his mouth. “......no…...I’ll do it after I finish this!” he scrambled to answer. Igawa sighed a bit in response; Tenma hated doing his school work and usually he would push him to work on it but since he knew that there was a professional tutor in the dorms that could help him, he decided to let him off the hook this time.

“So, what were you writing then?”

“Oh!” Tenma’s eyes lit up at the question. “I just thought up a few ideas I want to try out the next time we have to do street acts. Some of them are a bit advanced but I think Misumi and I could pull them off.” “Really?” he inquired, sitting across from the boy and taking a sip from his coffee. “Yeah.” he shook his head as he closed the notebook. “Misumi’s talent is kinda terrifying; if we could do something to help him focus more, he could probably be as good as me.” Igawa’s eyebrows shot up at that since Tenma was not one to give out praise freely to anyone. If he recalled correctly, Ikuraga’s performance had probably been the second best on their show next to Tenma’s, so while he was shocked by the admission, he could definitely see where the actor was coming from. “I didn’t know you started putting stickers on your things.” Igawa pointed out when his gaze fell on the notebook. “What? No, I don’t-” Tenma exclaimed but stopped himself when his eyes landed on the stickers that adorned the back of his notebook. An ice-cream cone, a slice of watermelon and onigiri surrounded a bigger yellow triangle that had a few words scribbled on with a marker. Twisting his neck, he was able to make out the words: “Good luck, Tenma~~!! (*^▽^*)”

and, finally, there was a paint pallet with a small brush dipped in green paint.

“Yes, yes, I’ll ask him about it. Yes, mom, I won’t forget. Okay, bye.”

“Everything okay?” Igawa asked once Tenma hung up, his eyes focused on the road. “Huh?” the boy asked absentmindedly as he opened another app on his phone. “Yeah, it’s nothing serious. She told me she wants a copy of the poster of Water Me! since it was our first performance. I told her that they already had the flyer with the picture but she says it’s too small, so I told her that I could probably ask Kazunari to make another copy since he’s the one that designed the final version.” He was trying to act nonchalant about it, but Igawa could hear the pride in his voice, happy that his parents were openly acknowledging and accepting his theatre career.

“It is an important milestone,” the manager nodded and then added. ”And it was a beautiful poster.” Tenma hummed in agreement. “Yeah, Kazunari can be obnoxious as hell but he’s got a real eye for design. All of the company’s posters and our website are a testament to that,” he admitted as he scrolled on his phone. “He’s probably gonna be over the moon once I ask him for a copy.” They had arrived at the dorms so Igawa could see Tenma rolling his eyes in what could be mistaken for exasperation were it not for the slight smile on his face. He had seen Kazunari Miyoshi once after their first (eventful) meeting and in that occasion the older boy had Tenma in a side hug while they took a selfie together and what had caught Igawa’s attention was that despite the fact that Tenma didn’t really like taking selfies with people (besides the occasional fan), the protests that came from his mouth were half-hearted at best and it didn’t take long for him to settle and smile for the picture. After it was taken, he could hear Miyoshi saying he would caption it with “Nothing better than some Ice-cream after rehearsals with TenTen!!”

Each of the keychains had gold chains and gold borders and detailing, making it obvious that they were part of the same set despite the wide variety of designs.

As the employee put them all in separate bags after Tenma told her they were gifts, Igawa couldn’t stop the smile that tugged at the corners of his mouth nor the fondness that seeped through his voice when he said: “I’m sure they’ll love them.”

The actor just shrugged in response. “Of course they will,” he replied with confidence but his manager could see the redness in the tips of his ears.

Tenma had always been a good kid. Arrogant and too blunt at times, yes, but never with the intention of hurting others. However, being in the spotlight from such a young age had isolated him from his peers and his parents' constant travelling only served to make him build even more walls around himself; be confident and keep your head up, your work is what matters, that was the motto by which Tenma lived his life and that was a big detriment in any interpersonal relationships he could have formed. But now, seeing him fuss over which souvenirs to bring to his friends, the deep mark the Mankai Company left on him was glaringly obvious. 

He remembered the genuine concern he showed when his parents wanted him to quit. It was one of the few times he saw Tenma’s eyes tainted with fear; and at first, Igawa had thought he had been afraid of the possibility that this project he had worked so hard towards would be crushed, but later on he learned that it was more than that, it was the fear of having to let go of the people who had managed to bring down his walls and had put their all in supporting him so he could turn his past regrets into victories.

Tenma had never looked happier than he did now and that translated to his acting as well; he still carried himself with confidence but now there was also a lightness to his steps that wasn’t there before. Igawa knew that Mankai and the Summer Troupe probably didn’t really understand how much they had truly helped Tenma become a better version of himself in every sense but he would forever be thankful for it.

🎵 Part of the song-based requests [closed] 🎵

#a3! #a3! act! addict! actors! #tenma sumeragi

[steponmepinkjun]

I NEVER FINISHED MY STORY OMG. ok so i left off at being too proud to tell my friend she was right and kpop fucked hard. the difference between u and me is that i’m too good of a liar. too good. i kept up the “i hate kpop it’s cringe” facade for ALMOST TWO WHOLE YEARS, I SHIT YOU NOT. why? bc my dumb ass, extra ass, dramatic ass self thought “ok if i’m gonna have to deal with the embarrassment of admitting i’m wrong, i better do it in such an extra ass way it’ll knock ur socks off so hard that YOULL be the one embarrassed not me.” the original plan was to learn the entire choreography to bts dope, bc it’s the song that she told me to listen to and inevitably the song that got me into them, but later switched to bts fire bc i saw too many of those “choreo matches w any song” videos, and then her birthday party came up. and here’s the real kicker. her birthday is April Motherfuckin Fools. so it would be So Perfect for me to reveal my kpopism as a birthday present And a april fools prank in one. so i was Set on the Reveal being on april 1st, but the day rolls around and god that choreo is so fucking hard and i am Not a dancer. never have been. so i abandon that and go ykno what… i’ll do it Next Year. BC MY BITCHASS WAS LIKE NO THE MOMENT IS TOO PERFECT TO DO IT ON A NORMAL ASS DAY ITS GONNA BE ON APRIL FOOLS ON HER GODDAMN BIRTHDAY OR NOT AT ALL. a year rolls by, i’ve told most of our friends except her and they’re all in on it, i’d made so many subtle kpop references to her without her realising they were fully intentional and had too many scares where she almost figured me out but i lied my way out of it, and i’d given up on showing off with choreography bc i couldn’t make that shit look good. i’m not a dancer. i am, however, a rapper, and a damn good one, so i inhaled the agust d mixtape and decided i’d just rap the eminem of kpop’s anthem at her face. in korean. and change the lyrics at the end (if u haven’t listened to agust d, the bridge repeats “i’m sorry” a lot) to “i’m sorry i kept this from u for so long” and “i’m sorry i actually ult got7 not bts” (this was like the april after skz debuted ok i was holding onto got7 for dear life knowing full well skz we’re going to convert me smh) and the best part? she never saw it coming. her official present was a cd with a bunch of kpop on it but she thought it was just a personalised mixtape for her so i told her to play the first song out loud and she knew the song Instantly. it has a long intro so she was like “i guess u did listen when i recommended u this song!! i knew you’d like it since u like rap so much!!” and then i started rapping and i shit u not. she started SCREAMING. like the initial reaction was her jaw dropping and then instinctively covering her mouth but when i kept going and she realised i wasn’t fucking around she just fucking screamed like a banshee. at the end during the sorry bit i threw off my jacket to reveal a got7 shirt on the inside and she fell off her chair and started rolling around on the floor. needless to say it was every bit as satisfying as i thought it’d be LMAOOOO afterwards her ass was like “I CANT BELIEVE U HID THIS FROM ME FOR OVER A YEAR” and when i tried to explain my ego couldn’t take the “i told u so” she was like “you know i wouldn’t have made fun of you for it right? i would just be glad you’re not hating on my boys anymore” so basically i’m a big dramatic fool and she was always too good for me.

don’t mind the weird spaces here my ipad is being all fucky wucky w me rn. damn sad to hear ur sideblog experience didn’t go so well, i’d have shown u the cool side of the fandom if i knew 😤😤 leading u thru the cursed halls of kpop stan tumblr like a sketchy tour guide that’s actually 3 small raccoons stacked on top of each other like a trench coat, like “over here we have the fanfic writers that honestly need to publish a book, over here we have the gif makers that are responsible for my entire camera roll, if we take a quick swerve past the death threat anons and the twt fanwar screenshots - mind ur feet bub the 14 year olds were tryna make a grab for ur ankles - ah here’s the holy grail of shitposts, you might be here for hours, to the right we have the weird aussie side of the fandom that projects our childhoods onto chanlix but also all the members as we decide what their life in australia would’ve been like, and down there is a secret trapdoor to the blogs w endless random headcanons that will make you laugh, cry or blush depending on if the author woke up and decided to choose violence today. enjoy your Stay!” but then again i’m not so active on tumblr anymore (ngl you’ve become the highlight of my tumblr experience these days, interaction wise,) so maybe all my Local Hotspots are inactive now. i know a bunch of them are, it’s sad. “i don’t fw stan twitter for the same reason i don’t hang out in meth dens” oop. guess i’m a meth addict. no but i get u i rly do, it’s a hellhole out there, but the fact that things get shared and spread a lot easier than on tumblr and how short most things have to be (therefor keeping up w my adhd attention span without having to resort to the mental torture that is tiktok, with the added bonus of not always needing headphones.) that i just. couldn’t leave if i tried. maybe i should try being active on tumblr again but it’s a dying site in comparison.

“their music doesn’t consistently hit for me as much as skz” i’m sorry we can’t be friends anymore. what. what. you don’t dramama ramama ramama hey? you don’t feel a little jealousyyyyyy, naega anin? you don’t shoot out, shoot out, shoot out, or aremdaeun love killa love killa? you can’t be your hero du du du du du du du du du dududu? u disappoint me. literally like everyone i know who likes skz music likes mx music like it’s a rite of Passage. they’re kindred spirits, monsta x music is like skz’s music’s cool but mildly heterosexual older brother. neither of them know what a bad song is it runs in the family. and both their music runs in my VEINS. whenever i describe my music taste they’re always the first two that come to mind, skz being my number 1 bc they are my best boys but mx bc of the Flavour. pls listen to the entire the code album then get back to me 😤🙌 ok but fr ur so right they are 7 of the finest men i ever seen (yes i say 7 bc i’m including wonho cause he deserved better and i’ll die on my ot7 bullshit.) like don’t get me started on them either LOL i LITERALLY downloaded that one insta video of changkyun working out his back n arm muscles w his tattoo showing bc i needed that shit saved for Science. they could do Anything w me like frfr. yes vixx is the bdsm contract group i’m telling ya they wildin. or at least they were. it’s been years since their last comeback idk what they’re doing anymore tbh. and yeah that makes sense, savouring the hyperfixation i feel it, but also i’m so attached to skz that i never let it die. like i hyperfixate on other things and other groups but i will Always go back to skz cause they’re my homeboys. hell, they’re my home. being a predebut stay i’ve spent more time w skz than most of my actual family members at this point. but that’s just me you do u boo xx just know that if ur anything like me ur never letting go once skz it’s been my longest lasting fixation cause they hit like Nothing Else Do. ik i’ve already said that but i cannot stress it enough. they’re really special. i’m gonna stop here before i get all sappy and emotional bc i really love those boys so fucking much and i don’t drop the L bomb often. SIDE NOTE I WOULD LIKE TO SEE UR LIST OF GROUPS RANKED BY THORSt. i need to judge ur Taste. and omg cat&dog is such a guilty pleasure song bc the lyrics make me cringe so much bc while pet play can be fun they be doing it in more of an “i’m an innocent soft dogboy uwu” kinda way that just Does Not Sit Right with me. it comes back to the objectifying of asians that asians themselves don’t help in industries like these and maybe i’m looking too far into it when rly it is just wholesome n cute or maybe they are into some pet play shit idk idc i will bop to the song regardless but i will not acknowledge the lyrics nope.

YOURE RIGHT THO SKZ’S OPENNESS IS IN FACT, A BIG DEAL, i’ll grab them for u if u want but i found these twt threads of skz supporting the lgbt community and i just felt a special kind of happiness man like sure the delusional part of me likes going “haha they’re gay” bc my brain likes to imagine them as my polycule of mlm boyfriends bc sometimes thats what gives me the serotonin to get me thru the day ok don’t judge but also bc it’s nice knowing that yes i’ll never know them personally, but at least i can support them knowing they’d respect my gender identity and my pronouns, they’d respect who i choose to love, and that’s already more than the general public can say so shit, it is special! it’s special that they don’t treat being cishet like the norm - they constantly remove gender from their songs and speech entirely, they don’t assume all stays are female anymore, we don’t talk abt the babygirls incident cause we got babystays in the end outta that ok, and it’s just. so refreshing and important to me bc i can’t get that anywhere else!! like my semi ults are the boyz and while i love them very much and there’s no way all 11 of them are straight i refuse, i do get just a little bit sad whenever they she/her their fandom by default and call them their girlfriends n shit even tho i do still identify as a girl, i’m also genderfluid/nonbinary/transmasc, and i have a very love/hate relationship w my womanhood and rarely use she/her pronouns, cause it’s like, do you not see me? see us? the ones who aren’t cishet women? i mean i know kevin does bc he congratulated a fan who came out as nb but it’s just not the same as the openness we get w skz. like how do i trust cishets i could be supporting them as a queer person when in reality they’d call me a slur. what would i know, behind the screen? so it’s so good that skz go the extra mile to make it a safe space for everyone. this is already long enough i will reply to the second half of that ask in another message… tomorrow cause it’s 1am and i’m tired gn -felix bi anon

I'mma have to start putting these under a readmore so that i don't absolutely make everything who is still following me for some reason go totally fucking insane 😂

NDJDHWJJAHFNAKBSJSBFBHHDBDNAJD YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE FACES I WAS MAKING READING THIS, I WAS FUCKING CACKLING AND GASPING EVERY OTHER SENTENCE SO HARD THAT I SCARED THE CATS NDJWHSHSB the fact that you went "oh you want me to get into kpop? Give me a hot minute, and I'll give you a whole ass private concert for free" biduehsjdbd biiiiiiiiiiitch you're a fucking ICON, I stg I could NEVER 😂 (and not just because I couldn't find a tune if you gave me a printed set of Google maps directions and that I embody the steriotype that white people can't dance, like my sister kept sensing me tiktoks of the whole "dance like a white girl" trend going lmfao look it's you and eventually I was like "sis please this trend has me feeling like being white is a disability and these mothafuckers are being ableist 😭 also I could NEVER be that on beat so yall ain't even doin it right 😭😭😭😭"). Tbh if I told one of my friends (lol what friends, i got jokes) to get into Skz and they showed up at my bday and performed the entirety of I Got It I would simply shower them in money and go "aight everyone else go home, you are no longer needed, you are being laid off, your position has been eliminated, we're downsizing, the company is moving up and you're moving out, you are not qualified for this role any longer, best of luck with future endeavors" 😊

I think part of the reason I can't deal w Twitter is the exact reason I refuse to leave tumblr, in that I've been on tumblr since 2006 and twt since 2008, and tumblr literally has not changed at all, not even a little, whereas going from the early days of twt where there were no corporate sponsorships or ads and you had to manually copy and paste someone's tweet and @ them to retweet it, to how it is now, like 90% ads and showing me shit from the timelines of people I don't even fuckin follow n whatnot, it's just not enjoyable. Idk how anyone finds anything on twt, it confuses and frustrates me because I am old and have not adapted well to technology changing 😂 But arguably, the skz fanbase doesn't want me on skztwt anyways so like it works for both of us lmfaooo. I am old and cringey, and also still think of twt as stream of consciousness whereas tumblr is your teenage bedroom where you can decorate the walls with anything that interests you. I do really love the nonsensical kpoptwt shitposts tho fhshsbdjjss like it is a very specific flavor of mental instability that I enjoy immensely 😂 OH and also I initially misread part of that and thought you were saying you actually irl do meth and I was like 😳 WHAT DO I SAY TO THAT. HOW DO I HANDLE THIS. Like how do I express like "I wasn't being judgy of people who use substances cause I've been there but I was just being insensitive 😳" And then went back and reread it and was like WHEW, IM JUST AN ILLITERATE FOOL 😂😂😂😂 ejeywhdhrhjwbfbdjshdhdhd I spent like an hour bwign like "IS THE REASON WE GET ALONG BECAUSE THEY'RE ON METH???? WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS INFORMATION??????" hrhehshe I am literally a fuckin idiot it's fine

It's not that I don't fw them, it's more like... Okay so like there is no situation in which I am going to skip a skz song if it comes on shuffle. You will not ever catch me NOT in the mood to listen to Sunshine, if God's Menu comes on we are THROWIN the meager amount of booty meat I got hither and thither, I could be in the happiest mood of my life but if Ex comes on I will stop to SOB. And I'm not like that with most music, so mx just falls into the category of "there is a time and place." Idk why but it just doesn't forcibly grab hold of my heart and ass the way skz always does. I really don't WANT my skz fixation to ever end, but I know that eventually it'll stop giving me dopamine bevause my brain is my worst fucking enemy 🙃 like my arcana fixation is to date the longest running hyperfixation I've ever had, going on almost three years, and I used to not be able to spend every single second of every day thinking about Asra, but now... I just feel nothing when I look at arcana stuff. As you can probz tell by the fact that I hardly post arcana anymore 😂 So I know that eventually all my happiness will end, it always does, I can never stay just as obsessed with something as I was for long. I CANT SHARE THE LIST BECAUSE I DONT *HAVE* TASTE YET 😭 I'm basically just compiling a list of any group someone tells me I should look into, ranked by how strong the kitty purred upon googling pics of them 😂 My mom read my ass to FILTH over txt lmfao she was like "they're not that adorable. Maybe your standard for adorableness has gone down with You Know Who still on hiatus 🤔" bfjwhdhd like MOMMAAAAA THE LIBRARY IS CLOSED 😂 she attacks me any time I even hint at stanning other groups, she is a skz purist and stans skz only, unofficial Momma Stay of All Stays keeping me in check lmfao.

I feel like skz really do follow thru on their promise that they're a safe space for stays, it's nice to see that they hold space for anyone and everyone in their fanbase and do it in a really simple and elegant way, I feel. Like they never make it seem like "okay here are the fans and here are the token weirdos that were only recognizing to make a buck off of them" the way a lot of artists make it feel like 😑 like they don't go out of their way to act like it's some revolutionary act to do the bare minimum of not shitting on certain parts of the fandom, if that makes sense. They feel very "yeah, of course we love all our stays, this is a welcoming space for literally anyone, that's how it should be, that should be normal," instead of like "Hi fans we love you 😊 and special shoutout to you ell gee bee tee folk, make sure to buy my rainbow merch after the show!!!" you know? Like, they're the friends who would never make you feel weird or different for some shit, the friends that take the attention off you if something they know ur sensitive about comes up, instead of weirdly snapping at whoever brought the unfomfy thing up which ruins the mood and makes you feel tiwce as bad, yk? They just give off this vibe that they, and the space they create with their music, is just a genuine and chill place to be and hang out and relax and bond. I feel like they'd be the friend group that is so goofy and sweet and silly and accepting and lovely and always makes you feel loved and excited to be alive 🥺 They are all good noodles 🥺🥺🥺

#felix-bi-anon #asksteppie

[yeontanismypresident]

je t’aime | myg

word count: 5,089 

genre: bf2l!au, idol!au, fluff, angst

warnings: none that I can think of lol

taglist for all fics: @sugasheart

Humming Spring Day, you made your way to BTS’ dorm. It was around three in the afternoon and they didn't have to be at the airport until eight in the evening, so you had five hours to help them get prepared and to hang around. They would be gone for five months and you wanted to get in as much time with them as you could. You knew that when they got back they would be back in the studio.

When you got to their apartment complex, you strolled through the entrance, and texted the group chat, letting them know you were there. Getting an ‘okay’ back, you waited on the lobby couch for one of the boys to come down and get you. You had told them it would be easier to just buzz you in, but they said they preferred having someone come down to make sure you get in safely. While waiting, you pulled up snapchat and watched people's stories, only putting it away five minutes later when you heard someone calling your name. Looking over at the elevator, you saw it was Namjoon who came.

You smiled and walked over to him, “Joon! You excited for tour?”

“Yeah, I'm excited to see all ARMY,” there was a big smile on his face, and it made you happy for them. They had worked so hard to get to where they are now, and you were very proud. They deserve everything they had accomplished and so much more.

Namjoon led the way to the elevator, pressing the 9th floor when the both of you were inside. There was a comfortable silence in the small elevator, that was only broken when the doors opened and a screaming Hoseok came running out of their apartment.

“Y/nnnn!!!!” his voice was loud and filled with excitement. The maknae line was close behind, joyous laughter leaving their lips. You loved how he was enthusiastic to see you, but you couldn’t breathe.

Getting pulled into a tight hug, your face squished between Hoseok’s chest and hand, you mumbled, “Hobi! I can't breathe!” He quickly let you go, throwing his arm on your shoulder instead. Allowing him to pull you along, you glanced around and noticed both Jin and Yoongi were nowhere in sight. It was weird to not see Yoongi there. He was usually the one to get you or the first one to greet you when you get on their floor.

Opening their door, Jungkook yelled out to the two remaining members, “Y/n is here!” A loud crash was heard as soon as the words left his mouth, leaving you all to be confused. It was dead silent for several seconds before Jin could be heard yelling.

“Yah! Min Yoongi! I just bought those plates!”

Just by his voice, you could tell Jin was annoyed. Moving towards their kitchen, you peeked your head around the door, taking in the scene. There stood Jin with his hands on his waist, an apron covered in flour around his waist, eyes furrowed. On the other side of the room was where Yoongi stood with shards of glass surrounding him. Judging by how his hands were shaking and a sweat broke out on his forehead, you could tell he was either scared or nervous. He didn’t really look that scared at being yelled at, so you assumed he was nervous. But for what reason? He was almost never nervous.

“Is everything alright in here?” you announced your presence, slowly walking into the room. Hearing your voice caused Yoongi’s eyes to widen and he took a step away from you. He must have not realized there was glass, for he stepped on it. Hissing, he tried to move away from the sharp pieces, but ended up stepping on more.

You gasped, rushing over to him, grabbing his arm to stop him from stepping on any more, “Gosh Yoongi, you have to be careful! Come on, I’ll get the pieces out of your foot and wrap it up.” Letting him lean on you, you brought him into the bathroom.

“You don’t have to,” his words were mumbled, and if you looked closer you could see a blush forming. Huffing, you ignored him and helped him sit down on the closed toilet seat.

Going through their cabinets, you pulled out tweezers, antibiotic cream, and gauze, “I do, what kind of friend would I be if I didn’t?” He felt his heart drop when he heard you say the word friend. Before he could think any more of it, you kept talking, “Besides, we can’t have you injured before the tour even starts.” Right, today was the day they were leaving. It was also the day he was telling you the feelings he had for you.

Starting to pull out the glass, the silent room was filled with nothing but his small sounds of pain. Once they were out, you put the antibiotic cream on and wrapped his foot in the gauze. Putting away the medical stuff, you then pulled him up and supported him. Walking back to the kitchen, you saw the broken plates had been cleaned up. All the boys were sitting at the table, eating what looked to be brownies and ice-cream. There were two seats left for you and Yoongi, and you helped him sit down in the one closest to Hoseok. The room was filled with talk of tour, what you would be doing while they were away, and what they would do when they got back. All throughout, Yoongi was quieter than usual, and it made you worried.

While everyone was talking, Yoongi was busy thinking over everything he was going to say. Should he be formal with you? Or should he just blurt them out? Or maybe he should write you a song! No, that would take too long, and if he didn’t tell you today then he never would. He had been hyping himself up for months now and he couldn’t wait any longer. After eating, each member went to double check that they had everything they would need.

“Namjoon-ah, don’t forget your passport this time!” you teased the man, waving it in your hand when you noticed him looking around for it.

His tense shoulders relaxed, overcome with relief to know he hadn’t lost it, “Oh thank god. I thought I had lost it already.” Shaking your head, you smiled at him.

“Y’know, if you put it in your carry on you wouldn’t lose it so much. Or, you know, give it to one of the other members to watch over,” you gave him the advice while handing it over. Namjoon nodded, liking the idea, going into Jin’s room to give it to him. Chuckling to yourself, you went to your best friend’s room to see if he needed any help.

Pausing in his doorway, you leaned against the frame and watched the way he packed. His tight shirt showed off his muscles, and you lick your lips at the sight. Yoongi was startled when he saw you out of the corner of his eye. Turning towards you, he stared at you, cocking his head to the side. Not even realizing he was facing you, you continued to daydream about how he looked underneath the shirt.

Yoongi cleared his throat after some time, “Can I help you Y/n?” It was like you hadn’t heard him, for you were still staring at him, now biting your lip. This only lasted for two more minutes, before you became aware he had said something.

Snapping out of your thoughts, you gazed at him with wide eyes, “What?” A gummy smile broke out on Yoongi’s face, and he shook his head. He turned back to his luggage and continued to pack. “No, what did you say Yoongi?” you questioned him.

“Nothing, don’t worry about it miss daydreamer,” there was a teasing tone behind his words.

You knelt down next to him and pouted, “Tell me Yoongs.” He snorted at the whine that left your mouth, looking at you. Glancing down at your lips, he couldn’t stop the thought of what they would feel like from running through his mind.

“I asked if I could help you with anything,” he gulped, quickly tearing his eyes away from your mouth. Who knows if he would be able to stop himself from kissing you.

You nudged him playfully, “Shouldn’t I be the one asking you that?’ Yoongi rolled his eyes, nudging you right back and muttering out a ‘whatever.’

Once his suitcases were all packed, you each wheeled one out to the living room. The rest of the BTS members were already there waiting by the door. Taking a look at your phone, you saw it was already six in the evening.

“We’re gonna go out to eat dinner and then head to the airport,” Jin informed everyone, starting to head out of their apartment. One by one, you all followed him out. Being the last one through the door, Jimin closed and made sure their door was locked.

All eight of you got into the elevator. It was a tight fit, and you find yourself pushed up against the wall with Yoongi in front of you. His chest was pressed against yours and you could feel his heart beating fast. He tried to avoid looking into your eyes, not wanting you to see the emotions swirling around. Having Jungkook move backwards to let someone into the cramped elevator caused Yoongi to press even closer to you. Looking up at him, you caught his attention. You realized that if you moved onto the ends of your toes, you would be able to connect your lips with his. Before you could allow yourself to go through with it, you heard the elevator beep, signaling you had reached the lobby. Clearing his throat, Yoongi backed away and you followed behind him. Walking beside him, you went out front and saw a car waiting for you guys. Yoongi rushed to get a seat in the way back of the vehicle. Getting in, you sat in between Hoseok and Taehyung, pulling out your camera to vlog for your YouTube channel.

“Hey guys! It’s Y/n and today I’m just going to be vlogging our shenanigans at the restaurant. It’s gonna be a short video, but I promise the next one will be longer!” you did your intro, panning it around the car, showing all the boys.

Jimin was napping with his head on Taehyung’s shoulder, while Taehyung was on his phone. Hoseok was smiling at the camera and waving, causing you to laugh. Jin was facing the back towards Namjoon and was quietly discussing their plans for when they got to their hotel in France. Turning the camera to face Jungkook, you filmed him quietly singing to the song playing on the radio. Lastly, you caught Yoongi anxiously chewing on his lip, wringing his hands in his lap. He gave you a timid smile when he noticed you were filming him. Giving him a reassuring smile, you turned back around and ended the clip.

--0--0--0--

Pulling in front of the restaurant, the eight of you got out and headed inside. Namjoon told the waiter the name the reservation was under. The waiter led all of you to your table, in a secluded corner where no one would be able to disturb you. The seating arrangements were as followed: On the right side, sat Hoseok, Taehyung, you, and Yoongi. On the left side, sat Jin, Namjoon, Jimin, and Jungkook.

“My name is Min-Jun and I’ll be your waiter for the evening. Can I get you anything to drink?” the young man asked, keeping his eyes on you. Which Yoongi noticed, and he didn’t like it. Not one bit.

Hoseok ordered first, “I’ll have a sprite!” You couldn’t help but to let out a small snort at his drink order. That man was obsessed with sprite and it always amused you when he got so excited over it.

“I’ll have a diet coke,” Namjoon said politely.

Jin was next, “I’ll take an iced tea, please.”

“I’ll have milk!” Jungkook exclaimed.

“Can I have a coke?” Jimin asked the waiter.

Taehyung waited until the waiter had finished writing before saying, “I’ll take a sprite.”

The waiter wrote down his order, before looking up at you with a flirtatious look on his face, “And what can I get for you beautiful?” His words caused your eyes to widen, and you fidgeted. Yoongi could tell you were feeling uncomfortable so he put his arm around your shoulder and pulled your chair closer to his.

“I’ll take a black coffee, and thanks for the compliment. She’ll have a coke with no ice.” The boys were shocked to see Yoongi act this way. He’s never done that before, and they were curious as to why he did it now. Clearing his throat, the waiter nodded and quickly left to get the drinks.

You leaned your head on Yoongi’s shoulder, mumbling your gratitude, “Thanks Yoons.” The other six boys watched, fascinated by how their calm member looked at you with heart eyes. They weren’t going to say anything, not wanting to ruin the moment you two were having. Well, all except Jungkook that is. He opened his mouth to tease his hyung.

“Hyung! Why are you looking at Y/n with he-” Jungkook cut his sentence short when he felt Taehyung kick his shin from across the table. Jin started telling jokes, trying to take your attention from the maknae. Laughing at Jin’s jokes and puns, you didn’t witness Yoongi glaring at the younger boy with heated eyes.

A different waiter came back with the drinks, introducing himself and informing you that he would be your waiter for the rest of your stay. Yoongi smirked, knowing he was the cause they got a new waiter. He didn’t care if he was rude, he wasn’t going to lose you before you were even his. After ordering your meals, the conversations continued on. When the food arrived, everyone ate quickly when they caught sight of the time. They only had an hour to get to the airport and through security.

--0--0--0--

The ride to the airport was filled with everyone laughing and joking around. All except one min Yoongi that is. He was usually calm, reserved, and poker faced, so he wasn't completely out of character. Though it seemed today would be different. Every once in awhile, you would glance over to see him fidgeting with his hands, nervously. He was either rubbing the back of his neck or chewing on his bottom lip. Whatever the motion, seeing his nervous tics caused you unease. Yoongi's peculiar behavior continued on for fifteen minutes before you'd had enough.

You leaned over to his ear, whispering so you wouldn't draw too much attention to your conversation, "Yoongs? Are you okay?" His breath faltered a little when you put your hand on his thigh. He knew your intention was simply to comfort him, but that didn't stop his heart from racing a little faster.

"Y-yeah, I'm fine," his voice cracked causing him to stutter. He cleared his throat before continuing, "I'm just nervous about getting ambushed at the airport I guess." You could tell by the way he avoided meeting your gaze that he was lying. Not wanting to make him feel uncomfortable, you nodded. He could tell that you had seen through his lie, causing him to feel guilty. You have been best friends for a while, and have always told the other everything. This big secret he was hiding had just been another weight on his shoulders. But he was planning on telling you everything today. Hopefully.

Tuning back into the other boys' conversation, you joined in with their antics. Jungkook was messing with Jimin and Taehyung, while Hoseok was jokingly complaining about all of

Jin's puns and Namjoon was just watching it all take place.

Jimin leaned over Taehyung and gave a squinted smile, "Yah Y/n don't miss us too much." You laughed at his teasing, but you knew you would miss him. He was the one you were closest to after Yoongi.

"Are you sure it won't be the other way around Jimin-ah?" you had a teasing smile, shaking your head slightly when he threw his head back and laughed. He knew it was true just like the rest of you did.

Seeing Yoongi let a small smile out warmed your heart, knowing whatever was bothering him wasn't too serious. Yoongi could feel his heart stop for a second when he realized you all had arrived at the airport. He was hoping for more time to calm his nerves. He thought of just not telling you, but he knew he had kept it in for too long. Hell, he's kept this a secret for the last two years. If he didn't confess now, then Yoongi knew he never would. What a perfect way to tell you, then when he was about to board a plane to go across the county? If you didn't take it well, then he had five months for you to forget he had even said anything. Then the two of you could live life as best friends, just like you are now. Nothing had to change if you didn't want it to. No matter how much he wanted you to be something more, he would never make you.

"Yoongi? You coming?" your voice was soft, bringing him out of his thoughts. Yoongi looked around noticing everyone else was already out of the car. Not wanting them to wait any longer for him, he nodded and got out.

The boys put on their face masks and hoods, heads down, ready to walk through the airport halls with screaming fans. Even though there were bodyguards surrounding the lot of you, Yoongi still didn't like how you were behind them. He wished you were walking right next to him, his hand connected with yours, grip tight to make sure you didn't fall behind. But you weren't dating so he could only dream, plus he didn't think the fans would appreciate. He couldn't help but take glances over his shoulder, making sure you were still safe.

Looking back one again, he noticed you were falling behind, and he couldn't have that. Forgetting all about their fans, he slowed down to let you catch up. Without looking at you, he grabbed your hand in his. Taking a look at you from the corner of his eye, he could see you were confused by his actions. “I didn't like how you were falling behind,” his words were mumbled. If it weren't for the way he leaned down to your ear, you wouldn't have heard him.

You squeezed his hand, showing him your thanks through your actions. By now, fans were screaming even louder, flashes going off fast to capture the moment. Yoongi knew there would be a lot of backlash from what he did, but as long as you weren't hurt he couldn't care less. He would go through a lot more  trouble if it meant you're not harmed. Arriving at their private security check, they stopped to say their goodbyes to you.

“Now, be safe Y/n. Don’t talk to strangers and don’t forget to eat and sleep properly! Oh, and also don’t forget to upload!” Jin lectured you, lightly slapping your arm when you rolled your eyes at him.

You laughed, trying to block his attack, “Yeah yeah, I promise dad.” He let out a ‘yah!’ before laughing along with you. Suddenly, you were attacked with a back hug from someone.

“I’m gonna miss you Y/n-ie~” Hoseok’s voice was next to your ear, and his arms tightened when you tried to get away from him. You were finally able to turn around and return his hug, uttering out your ‘miss you’ as well.

Jungkook, Jimin, and Taehyung ripped you away from their hyung. They all wrapped their arms around you, creating a giant hug. As one, they all yelled, “Don’t forget to text us!” “We’re gonna miss you Y/n-ah!” and “Don’t miss us too much!” You shook with laughter, getting squished even more when you answered them.

Getting out of their embrace, you made your way to Namjoon, “Don’t forget your passport mister.” He chuckled and tugged you into a short hug, thanking you for reminding him. Taking a glance at his watch, his eyes became huge when he noticed the time.

“C’mon guys, we only have 20 minutes before our plane leaves,” Namjoon said, getting into his role as leader right away. They all yelled goodbye to you, before walking over to the security checkpoint. Someone cleared their throat behind you, and you spun around to see Yoongi standing there. He looked even more anxious than earlier, and he slowly walked closer to you.

You brought him into a tight hug, placing your head on his chest, “I’m gonna miss you Yoongs.” Yoongi wrapped his arms around you, resting his chin on the top of your head. Before he could speak, Jimin yelled for him to hurry up. Yoongi let you go, grabbing onto his suitcases with both hands.

Swallowing his nerves, he stared at you with a soft expression, “Look, I don't have much time, but I need to tell you something.”

“You know you can tell me anything, right? You don’t have to be nervous,” you made sure your voice was gentle.

He nodded, letting out a shaky sigh, before he spilled everything, “I needed to tell you that I’m in love with you.” You stood there, completely shocked, not knowing what to say. Seeing you just stand there, caused his eyes to water and his face to heat up. You didn’t have any time to reply back, for he quickly stated, “Look, I know you don’t feel the same, but I’ve been holding it in for two years now. I had to tell you and I figured this would be the best time. I’ll be gone for five months, so by the time I get back we can continue on as best friends.” Once again, before you could open your mouth, he was rushing off towards the rest of his group. You stood there for ten minutes watching as their plane took off,  and then rushed out of the airport to get back to your apartment as quick as you could.

--0--0--0--

It had been a day since Yoongi had told you he was in love with you. When you had gotten home the other day, you had hurried and packed a suitcase. Once that was done, you went to bed, deciding to text their manager when they landed. You had to tell Yoongi you were in love with him as well, but needed to make sure you were allowed to visit first.

Waking up, you waited a few more hours before texting Sejin, explaining everything to him. Getting the okay from him, you grabbed your luggage and made your way to the airport, buying a ticket when you arrived. Deciding to vlog, you pulled out your camera and hit record.

“Hey guys! It’s Y/n here and for today’s vlog, we are going to France! Well, more specifically, we’re heading to the boys’ hotel because mister Yoongles forgot his headphones and we all know he can’t live without them,” you explained to the camera, showing the headphones that Yoongi coincidentally left behind. The PA system came on, announcing your flight was now boarding. You looked back to the camera, “Well, looks like that’s me! I’ll update you guys when I get on the plane!” Turning off the camera, you put it in your carry on and made your way to the boarding area. Handing the lady your ticket, she scanned it, and then you got onto the plane. Once you were all situated in your seat, you turned your airplane mode on and then turned on your camera.

Fixing your hair, you told the camera your plans, “So, I just got on. The flight is gonna be about twelve hours. Most of that time I’m going to be sleeping because ya girl loves her sleep.” After clarifying everything, you turned the camera back off. Like you said, you fell asleep as soon as you closed your eyes.

The plane ride flew by fast, due to your unconscious state, and before you knew it, you were landing. Getting off the plane, you took your phone off airplane mode. It buzzed multiple times before becoming silent. Letting the messages load, you could see all of the boys had messaged you or called you.

Your cell phone started vibrating, indicating you had a call coming through. Looking at the caller ID, you saw it was Jin that was calling you. Picking up the phone, you were automatically ambushed with his loud voice. "Yah, Y/n! Why weren't you answering Yoongi? He's freaking out thinking you hate him!" "Sorry sorry! I was on a plane and couldn't use my phone,” you tried to calm him down. He was confused, and questioned you,  "Wait...Why were you on a plane?" You’re silent for a minute, then declared, "...Oh my god you're such an idiot Jin I swear. I'm not going to tell Yoongi I love him over text." "Wait, so you got on a plane to come all the way to France, just to tell him you love him?" Jin asked you, his tone filled with amusement. You nodded, before you realized he couldn’t see you, "Uhh yeah? I mean he's the one who dropped the bomb on me right before he got on a plane." "Wah that is so cute. So is it a surprise?" Jin said, making you smile. You knew it would be best to tell him in person and not over the phone. "Yup! I’m actually at the airport right now." You enthusiastically said. Jin told you, "Alright I'll keep quiet about it then. I'll send you the hotels location." "Thanks Jin, I'll be there as soon as I can!" You stated, before ending the call. A minute later your phone vibrated with a message from him. Opening it, you saw the hotel’s location. You hailed a taxi and told the driver the address, and you were on your way.  

--0--0--0--

When you made it to the hotel, you paid the taxi driver, grabbing your suitcase from the car. Closing the car door, you turned to face the hotel in amazement. It was absolutely beautiful, and you were happy Jin had offered to buy you a hotel room. Walking inside, you went to the front desk and got your room key. Getting in the elevator, you hit the fifth floor. Luckily, he was able to get a room right next to Yoongi’s. Strolling down the hallway, you stopped in front of your room, and slide the card to open the door. Once it beeped, you pushed open the door and stalked inside. You were captivated by it as you looked around. There was a king sized bed, and a huge window that showed a perfect view of the Eiffel Tower. Plugging your phone into the charger, you became aware of the time. The boys would be in sound check right about now, and you had an hour before you had to leave.

The hour passed by quickly, and before you knew it, you were on your way to the venue. Your nerves were acting up, and you could feel your hands start to sweat. You had no reason to be scared. You knew he felt the same way as you. Hell, he was the one to admit it first! When you get to the venue, you could hear the screaming fans from outside. Going to the back, you saw a bodyguard waiting there for you. Showing him your ID, he allowed you in, and showed you the way to the boys’ dressing room. Throughout the whole concert, you watched them perform their hearts out. The concert ended, and you were starting to feel anxious once again. Loud, cheerful voices could be heard coming down the hallway towards the room you were in. Taking a deep breath in, you stood up and faced the door, just as it opened. The boys all trudged inside, and you watched as Yoongi was the last one in. He was looking down at his, frowning with his shoulders slumped. He only looked up when you said his name.

“Yoongi…” your voice was quiet, and you watched as his mouth dropped open. He was astonished to see you standing in person in front of him. Last he checked, you were ignoring him.

He slowly stalked towards you, his voice low and puzzled, “What are you doing here?” He stopped in front of you, and you walked closer so you were almost touching.

“You didn’t think I would tell you I’m in love with you over the phone, did you?” you quietly asked him, giggling when he just continued to stare at you. Yoongi put his hands on your waist and tugged you into him.

He leaned in and smashed his lips onto yours passionately. He let his emotions flow through the kiss, smiling when he felt you kiss back. The two of you stood there, just kissing each other innocently. You knew you should stop for there were people all around you, but his lips were too addicting. You figured it was safe to say he thought the same, seeing as he only pulled you closer and deepened the kiss. Needing oxygen to breathe, you pulled away, slowly opening your eyes. Gazing at you with love, Yoongi softly kissed your lips one last time before releasing you from his embrace. Instead, he intertwined his fingers with yours, not wanting to let go of you completely.

You were reminded of the others when Jin cleared his throat. He gave you guys a teasing smile, “Now that you two are done, how about we head back to the hotel?” Everyone nodded, congratulating you and Yoongi on their way out of the room. Jin stopped to say, “Oh, by the way, Yoongi we had someone move your stuff into Y/n’s room. You can thank you me anytime.”

“Thanks hyung,” Yoongi muttered, rolling eyes. He gave you a gummy smile when you nudged him. He pulled you into a soft, slow kiss, and mumbled against your lips, “Let’s go back to the hotel jagiya, I’m tired and I wanna hold you in my arms.”  

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bts reaction - hearing their s/o sing for the first time

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genre: only fluff

author’s note: this reaction is when bts hears their s/o sing for the first time and think they sound amazing, after they claim that they’re a bad singer. (also, ignore all my mistakes lol). also, i’m using an old laptop (because my mom took possession of the family computer) and so if my posts look weird (like on mobile things sometimes don’t show up as bolded or italicized), it’s not my fault. i’m annoyed by it...

please do not copy my work. but please like and reblog it. thank you!!!!

kim seokjin

seokjin had just gotten home from practice. he was practically drowning in his sweat, and his limbs were heavy and pounding to the rhythm of his racing heart. he just wanted a hot bath to relieve the stress of his muscles. as he approached the bathroom, however, he heard something. your singing, music to his ears. you were actually really good. seokjin couldn’t help to press his ear to the door to hear you better as you sang epiphany with everything you had. you didn’t know he was home, so you were singing quite loudly, enjoying the echo of the bathroom. you were self-conscious of your singing, but sometimes you couldn’t help yourself. seokjin couldn’t fight the grin on his face, the light blush in his cheeks. you sounded amazing, and he could recall all the times he had tried to get you to sing a duet with him just for fun. he went into the bedroom, sitting on the foot of the bed right next to the door and waited for you, listening to your angelic voice.

minutes later, the water stopped. soon after you stepped out of the bathroom. you were just wrapped in a towel, as you hadn’t expected anyone to be home. you screamed when you saw seokjin sitting on the bed, a smug expression on his face. “seokjin! when did you get home?”

he hummed. “not long. but i was here long enough to enjoy the little concert you had in there though.”

your cheeks flushed. “you heard all that?”

he nodded. “and it was beautiful.”

min yoongi

yoongi had been in his home studio majority of the day. despite being on his two month break, he couldn’t get himself to sit still and do nothing. besides, they were already beginning to work on the new album. while he was there, you didn’t want to bother him. he seemed busy. although you wanted to spend time with him, you were the lovely significant other who respected the space of your lover. so instead you opted to clean the entire house. it had been many months since you had actually cleaned, like deep clean. you got into old clothes and got out all the supplies. you were going to dust, to clean, to mop, to vacuum as much as you could. while doing so, you had your headphones in, banging your head along to the songs.

an hour later, yoongi was hungry, and went to find you to ask if you wanted to go out for lunch. instead, he found you dancing while you mopped the kitchen floor. your back was to him, so you didn’t notice him. you were singing so far away, and yoongi’s ears had been blessed. he never believed you when you told him your voice was terrible, and now he was listening to your heavenly voice. he smiled widely.

when you finally turned around, you saw yoongi and immediately stopped, taking off the headphones. “yoongi!” your cheeks turned a dark red in embarrassment.

“don’t feel embarrassed. you sounded amazing.”

you couldn’t help but smile. “r-really?”

yoongi nodded. “but i’m hungry. let’s get something to eat and then you can continue. you should sing more often.”

jung hoseok

hoseok pried open his eyes, allowing the bright morning sun to help him wake up. he inhaled deeply. that was the best sleep he had ever had. he looked around, enjoying the silence. he was at your shared home. there were no members, no managers. he didn’t need an alarm to wake up to because he was on a two month break. he planned on seeing his family, but he also wanted to spend time with you. speaking of which, you weren’t next to him. 

he got out of bed. he wanted to find you, see what you were up to. he walked out of the bedroom, hearing the familiar sound of a pan sizzling. you were making breakfast. he was about to call out to you, but your angelic voice caused him to stop in his tracks. you were singing your own rendition of daydream, one of your favorite songs of his. and it was beautiful.

hoseok began to gush, not being able to hold back. he burst into the kitchen. he scared you, causing you to drop the spatula in your hand. “jung hoseok!”

he laughed, wrapping his arms around you. “i’m sorry but your voice, it’s beautiful. i don’t understand why you claimed you were a bad singer.”

you blushed, “i’m just self-conscious.”

“well, i think you sound amazing. you should sing more often, just for me at least.” he replied, smiling. you smiled at him, feeling a bit proud of yourself.

kim namjoon

namjoon was sitting in the bedroom, reading a new book that he had bought at a bookstore. he was well halfway into the book. he was already planning on naming this one his favorite when he talked about it with you and the members. 

namjoon soon grew hungry, however, and was forced to put his bookmark into the book and set it down on the bed next to him. he went to find you, perhaps you were already making something judging by the smell that was slowly making its way into the bedroom. he walked out of the bedroom, head towards the kitchen. but that’s when he heard something unusual. you were singing his song, trivia : love. no music was playing, it was just your voice. namjoon was surprised. he had never heard you sing before. you always claimed you were a bad singer. you were wrong.

when you finished, namjoon awkwardly walked into the kitchen. pretending nothing had happened, you smiled and said, “hungry?”

he nodded. “i heard you sing.”

your cheeks reddened. you didn’t say anything.

“you should sing more often. your voice, it’s really beautiful.”

you blushed, a smile forming on your face. “thank you.”

park jimin

you were in the shower when jimin got home. he had been out with the members. they had stopped at an arcade, got some dinner, walked around the city for a while, and jimin was the first to break apart from the group because he wanted to go home to spend the rest of the night with you. he was walking into the bathroom when he heard it...heard you.

you were in the bathroom, but you didn’t close the door all the way. jimin could hear you loud and clear as you sang serendipity, your favorite song because jimin sang it. the meaning behind it was also beautiful. you were singing it really well, the acoustics sounded amazing. jimin couldn’t help but listen. he had a thought, your voice would match his perfectly. imagine: the ultimate power couple releasing a duet together. the fans loved you.

when you finished, you were surprised to find jimin. you played it off. “didn’t expect you to be home yet.”

he shrugged. “i think we should sing together.”

“jimin, you knew i don’t have a good voice.”

he laughed. “that’s a total lie. i just witnessed an angel singing in the shower.”

you blushed. “you heard me?”

“yep, and i think we should release a duet.”

you were conflicted. you were self-conscious of your voice. and while jimin was your boyfriend, he also was an amazing vocalist, an amazing vocalist who was asking you to sing with him. “fine.”

kim taehyung

you were sitting at your desk, doing some (home)work stuff because of your school/job. you had music playing from your laptop. while you were working, spring day came on and you couldn’t help but sing along...loudly. taehyung was sitting in the living room watching a movie. but he was getting tired and wanted to go to bed. you were in the bedroom, as that was where the desk was. he shut off the tv and turned off all the lights, heading towards the bedroom afterward. but through the small crack in the door, he could hear music. only, it was your voice. you were singing along, and it sounded as if you had recorded the song with them. just as you sang, “you know it all, you’re my best friend,” harmonizing with taehyung, he swore he fell in love with you again. he couldn’t help but burst inside, nearly scaring you to death. you immediately stopped singing, feeling embarrassed. “oh my god! y/n, you sounded absolutely amazing. spring day is my favorite song, but you were singing along and it sounded beautiful. i don’t even compare.”

you rolled your eyes. “that’s a lie.”

taehyung looked at you, looked very serious. “i mean it. i want you to sing a song with me.”

you looked at him. “i mean, i was just doing it for fun. i don’t think i’m that good.”

“love, i think you sounded beautifully. give it a try. we can get suga and namjoon’s help, and then you can see if you want to release it or not. we can sing together, and if you don’t like it, it’ll stay unknown. but i think you’ll like it, and want to release it.”

you sighed. “fine.” 

taehyung grinned widely. “tomorrow i’ll call namjoon.”

jeon jungkook

you were cleaning the kitchen after making dinner. you and jungkook had eaten, but jungkook insisted that he had to shower, so you were left cleaning the kitchen by himself. you were salty, but you didn’t say anything. it wasn’t a big deal. besides, he had just come back from a long-ass world tour. he needed lots of rest. while you were washing some dishes, jungkook’s song euphoria randomly popped into your head. it’s what you get for constantly thinking about him. so there you were, hand wrapped in a towel as you dried the inside of a glass, singing euphoria. you didn’t realize that soon you weren’t mumbling, or singing quietly. but you were singing as if you were on a stage. no you didn’t use a spatula or a spoon for a microphone, you still continued to clean.

jungkook was running a hand through his wet hair as he walked into the kitchen, just as you hit the high note. his eyes went wide when your voice didn’t falter at all. it was strong, and beautiful, bringing goosebumps to his arms. when you finished, you needed a glass of water, and that’s when you spotted jungkook, who was in awe. with red cheeks, you stuttered, “o-oh, jungkook.”

you drank your water, embarrassed. but jungkook was grinning. “your voice...it’s...it’s…”

“horrible.”

“amazing. i don’t understand why you call yourself a bad singer.”

you shrugged. jungkook continued, “i’m blown away. i think that sounded beautiful!”

you blushed. “thank you.”

#bts #bangtan #bangtan sonyeondan #bts reaction #bts imagine #bts scenario #bts fluff #kpop #kim seokjin #jin #min yoongi #suga #jung hoseok #jhope #kim namjoon #rm #park jimin #jimin #kim taehyung #v #jeon jungkook #jungkook

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Seven Is Our Lucky Number - OT7 Story Chapter 4

(Gif Source - me) ((Doesn’t this gif really just capture the essence of JinKook’s relationship tho? hehe))

Chapter 4: When Seokjin met Jungkook

A/N: Ooh, a new pairing I haven’t focused on before! Sorry it took a few days more than I expected but I struggled to get my thoughts into words I liked. Hopefully, it was worth the wait.

Relationship: BTS X BTS (Seokjin X Jungkook focused)

Rating: G

Words: 3372

Fluff

DISCLAIMER (I always seem to have one lol): I don’t know much about the audition process for entertainment companies in South Korea, so I went with what I did know and kind of fudged the rest.

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July 12, 2011

When Seokjin was approached by the talent scout for BigHit Entertainment a few months earlier after being seen getting off a bus, he didn’t think he’d end up auditioning to possibly become an idol.

He’d then attended the audition for actors at the company and the CEO had asked him if he’d ever been interested in singing or dancing as well as his acting.

At first, Seokjin was taken aback and a little heartbroken, thinking that it was the man’s way of telling him he wasn’t talented enough when it came to acting. He’d spent a couple of years as an acting major at university already and he feared it was all going to waste.

The CEO quickly clarified that he was asking because he was looking for potential members of an idol group and something about Seokjin called to him (whatever that meant - Seokjin tried not to look into it that much). He explained briefly that he planned for this group to have a large acting element to it, much to Seokjin’s surprise.

In all honesty, the thought of becoming an idol had crossed his mind before. He knew that companies sometimes looked for good-looking young men and women first before they did talent (a hard truth for some to swallow). The idea hadn’t panned out simply because Seokjin could not dance for his life and his singing voice was average at best.

After listening to an impromptu performance of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star (yes, Seokjin really sang that - it was one of the only songs he could trust himself to remember all the words to in his nervous state) the CEO gave him a genuine smile and told him he thought he had great potential. He asked him to come back a couple of weeks later for the idol trainee auditions with a prepared audition song.

Seokjin was excited. He hadn’t necessarily looked at music as a possibility for his future before, but now that a potential opportunity had presented itself, he found himself falling in love with it. He worked tirelessly on his audition song for weeks, even asking his vocal coach friend to give him some tips to make his voice sound better.

The hardest part - surprisingly - was sitting in a large practice room at the company with about twenty others hoping to make it as trainees. Everyone was nervous, but some more obviously than others, and the aura of the room was sparking with anxiety. Most of the young men were in their late teens or early twenties, so the one boy sitting in the corner, obviously the youngest by a few years, definitely caught Seokjin’s eye.

The boy had a nose slightly too big for his face, baby fat still settled on his cheeks. He was staring down at his fidgeting hands in his lap, radiating nervousness. He was curling into his black sweater like he was trying to make himself as small as possible.

Seokjin felt a wave of protectiveness go over him, startling him. He’d always been the youngest in his family and mid-age in his friend group, so to suddenly have the urge to look after a stranger was certainly odd for him.

He found himself standing up instinctively and walking across the room to where the boy was seated separately from everyone else.

“Hey,” he began softly.

The boy’s head shot up and the dark bangs that had been previously covering the top half of his face revealed a set of large doe eyes. They sparkled and glistened brightly even under the unflattering fluorescent lights. He looked up at Seokjin like he was a predator about to eat him - a scared little bunny rabbit.

“It sucks that they’re making us wait in anticipation, right?” Seokjin took a seat next to the boy as nonchalantly as he could while still remaining a respectful distance away from him. “I’m super scared, and you looked scared too, so I thought maybe we could be scared together?” It wasn’t a lie - Seokjin was nervous too, he just managed to hide it better than most.

The boy’s eyes tracked his every movement tensely and Seokjin could swear he hadn’t even blinked once since he approached.

“Um...I...” the boy stuttered, eyes finally averting to his lap once more. “S-Sure.”

Seokjin smiled kindly, “I’m Seokjin. You can call me hyung, though.”

The boy’s baby cheeks turned pink, “I’m Jungkook.”

Jungkook appeared to be so timid that Seokjin briefly wondered if auditioning to be an idol was the right decision for him. Being an idol required some level of confidence and this boy hadn’t shown him one sign of that yet.

“How old are you?”

“I’m thirteen,” Jungkook replied, “How old are you, Seokjin-ssi - ah, I mean - Seokjin-hyung?”

The older had to bite back a fond smile, “Nineteen. What’s your favorite color?”

Jungkook looked a bit taken aback by the sudden random question but replied, “Ah...it changes a lot but right now it’s red. Yours?”

“Mine changes a lot, too. Probably...a light fuchsia or the color of coffee with seven creams and two sugars and a caramel shot.”

Jungkook briefly looked up at him with a mixture of emotions, “That’s...specific.”

“Mhmm,” Seokjin hummed, “What’s your favorite movie?”

“Iron Man,” the boy replied easily. “Yours?”

“I’m a sucker for any American classics - Gone With the Wind and Casablanca. What’s your favorite animal?”

“I don’t know...panda bears maybe. You?”

Seokjin pursed his lips in thought, “I’ve always liked alpacas.” Now that the ice was broken between them and Jungkook had relaxed a bit, Seokjin asked another question - this one a little more personal. “So, Jungkook-ah, what talent of yours brought you here?”

“Oh,” Jungkook blinked, “Um, my dancing. I’m not like great or anything but it’s really fun.”

“Well, I’m not much of a dancer myself. Or a singer,” Seokjin replied. “My handsome face got me here.”

Jungkook couldn’t help the chuckle he let out, “Hyung! Isn’t it a little narcissistic of you to say that?”

“Only if it weren’t true - which, clearly I’m extremely good-looking, so...”

Jungkook chuckled more openly this time, “You’re silly, hyung.”

Seokjin opened his mouth to say more but was cut off when a woman entered the room. She was the one who had escorted Seokjin to this room earlier.

“Hello, everyone!” she started, gathering everyone’s attention. “I hope you have worked hard to prepare your performances, whether that’s just for singing or singing and dancing. Now, I’m here to tell you about the next part of the audition.”

The next part? Seokjin furrowed his eyebrows. There was more?

“There are twenty-two of you here today, and the CEO would like to see short duets from you to see how well you can work with others. You can choose your own partners, and let’s try to be kind to each other, yes? You will be judged separately in the end. You’ll have two hours to prepare an acapella song before we call you in. Three of our vocal coaches are on their way here to assist you with anything. Go ahead and partner up and let me write your teams down.”

Everyone turned to look at each other with slight insecurity in their eyes at this sudden addition to the audition. Some of them - who were obviously friends - immediately grabbed onto each other in claim and headed over to the woman to get it written down..

Seokjin didn’t think twice before turning to a worried-looking Jungkook, “Do you want to be partners, Jungkook-ah?”

The younger eyed him with something akin to terribly hidden relief, “Yes, yes, please.”

The two of them stood up and waited in line to tell the woman they were partners. When they got there, she looked at them with a gentle smile. “Alright, Jeon Jungkook and Kim Seokjin. You guys are group number seven, okay? Remember your number for when we call you later.”

The next three hours kind of went by in blur thanks to the anxiety-fueled adrenaline running through Seokjin’s veins. He might appear on the outside as not all that bothered, but inside he did worry, especially because he did not like surprises.

What Seokjin does remember of those three hours was hearing Jungkook’s angelic voice. He was shocked when the younger had first sung, his voice shy but undeniably captivating. The boy had said earlier that he was at the audition because he was a good dancer, but he was obviously naturally talented in the singing department as well.

They worked well together as they fell into a more productive mood. They decided to sing a rendition of IU’s Good Day after Jungkook admitted to really liking the song. Seokjin knew of the song and couldn’t say no to the younger boy after seeing the obvious blush dusting his cheeks.

One of the vocal coaches was only able to help them for twenty minutes before he had to move on, but truthfully, Jungkook and Seokjin were doing really well on their own. Their voices harmonized nicely and fairly easily.

Before they knew it, the woman returned, giving the room of potential trainees a hopeful smile. “I hope you are prepared. I will be selecting a group at random and once you are in the audition room, you will perform both your solos and duets.” She looked down at her clipboard and bit her lip in thought for a moment. “Let’s go with group 4 first, please.”

Jungkook and Seokjin kept practicing with their extra minutes, holding their breath in anticipation when the woman came to grab the next group four more times only to let it out when they weren’t called.

“Group seven, please,” she announced finally.

Jungkook was shaking with nerves as he and Seokjin followed the woman out of the large room and down the hallway.

Seokjin nudged him with his own arm to get his attention. Large eyes rounded on him. “You’re amazing, Jungkook-ah, and you’ve worked hard for this. You’ll do well, I know it.”

“O-Oh,” Jungkook stuttered before breaking into a smile. “Thank you, Seokjin-hyung. You’re going to do great, too!”

The audition room had four company members, including the CEO, sitting at a simple table. The boys didn’t waste any time in starting, beginning with introducing themselves and then singing their duet. Jungkook and Seokjin kept glancing at each other for support during the song and it went off without a hitch. The judges liked it as well, complimenting them on their good work together.

Next came Seokjin’s solo audition. Jungkook sat in a chair at the side of the room and watched on with awe as his hyung sang his heart out. Seokjin didn’t feel like he’d done too badly, and the CEO complimented him on his astonishing improvement from the last time.

Jungkook had prepared a short song to sing as well as a short dance. Seokjin was immediately captivated by the younger’s sheer talent once again when the boy began dancing.

He moved to the beat and hit the moves so smoothly, his passion was easy to see. The confidence Seokjin had thought the boy lacked earlier was shown clearly now.

Jungkook gave a hopeful smile to the room once he finished, accepting a water bottle from Seokjin gratefully. The judges praised him for his natural talent and ability to remember the fairly complex choreography he’d performed.

Then, after a few minutes of the four judges talking amongst themselves, the CEO called Seokjin to stand next to Jungkook.

“On your own, the two of you are thoroughly charming,” Bang PD said, “Together, you sounded even better. You two have no doubt passed the test to become trainees, but I would like to offer you both another option as well.”

Jungkook and Seokjin glanced at each other in happiness and confusion at the CEO’s words.

“I’m in the midst of putting together a group, and I feel that the two of you would be a great addition to it. You’re both obviously extremely hard-working and talented and have a natural charm to you. That’s exactly what I’ve been looking for.”

Seokjin obviously knew about the possibility of joining the group from his last conversation with the CEO, but it appeared Jungkook didn’t. He was completely frozen next to Seokjin, as still as a statue with his eyes blown wide.

Bang PD smiled gently, “You don’t have to make a decision right now, of course. I’ll give you two pamphlets to take home today - one for more information about the group and what it would entail, and the other information about being a trainee.”

He handed both of them two large packages of paper clearly labeled exactly as he’d said.

“Jungkook, you will, of course, need to get permission from your parents. I’ll let you guys have a week to let me know your answer. We’ll talk about contracts then and such then. In the meantime, you can email any questions you may have. Congratulations on making it into the company.”

Seokjin and Jungkook both thanked the judges and Bang PD repeatedly, bowing respectfully a few too many times. Then they were escorted from the room and to the lobby of the building with their bags on their backs and their opportunities clutched tightly in their hands.

“See, Jungkook-ah! I told you that you’d do well!” Seokjin exclaimed happily. He gave the younger boy a proud slap on the shoulder.

Jungkook couldn’t seem to stop smiling. Seokjin got to see his full, genuine smile for the first time ever and it shined with contagious excitement and joy. He was only adding to Seokjin’s theory of Jungkook being a bunny as well with his two front teeth on show.

“We did it, hyung!” the boy shouted, the loudest the older had ever heard him. “And they want us to be in a group together! That’s so cool!”

Seokjin chuckled at the younger’s cuteness, “It is.”

“Thank you, Seokjin-hyung,” Jungkook then said, a little more serious. “I was really nervous here alone and you made me laugh and feel more comfortable.”

Seokjin waved him off, “Oh, that was nothing. I’ll always here if you need to laugh, I’ve got some great jokes up my sleeve.”

Jungkook giggled and scrunched up his nose - again, just like a bunny. “You’re a lot, hyung.”

“A lot of handsome, yeah.”

“Hyyuung!”

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Even though he’d known them for years now, Seokjin was always surprised by the amount of energy the maknae line had. He thought that maybe they’d calm down by their twenties, but he couldn’t have been more wrong.

He was currently leaning against the mirror in their practice room, watching Jimin, Taehyung, and Jungkook goofing around like idiots. They were wrestling each other to the ground rather roughly, but Seokjin only heard laughter from them so he guessed they were enjoying whatever it was they were doing.

As he took a long, refreshing gulp from a bottle of water, he thought about how different Jungkook was from the boy he’d met all those years ago.

This Jungkook was no longer short and lanky, but tall and muscled and toned. This Jungkook had grown into his nose and had lost that baby fat from his cheeks. This Jungkook was a far cry from the shy, rather insecure boy he’d once been - mostly thanks to Taehyung. The true difference was perhaps not Jungkook himself but Seokjin’s feelings towards the maknae. Where it had begun as a brotherly affection, it was now full-on, indisputable romantic love.

Even though a lot about Jungkook had changed, there were things that this one and thirteen-year-old Jungkook had in common. Such as the bright doe eyes that glittered like stars in the night sky, or the little stutter and lisp to his words - though, the stutter and lisp were now more due to excitement than nervousness.

Seokjin was startled out of his thoughts when Yoongi slumped down beside him. “Do they even know what the word ‘relax’ means?” he grumbled, obviously referring to the ever-energetic maknaes.

“Nope,” Seokjin replied. “It’s best to just let them keep going until they drop from exhaustion.”

“So,” Yoongi said, “What were you thinking so hard about over here?”

Jin glanced back over at Jungkook who was currently holding Jimin in a headlock with one arm and tickling Taehyung’s stomach relentlessly with the other. “Just the differences and similarities of the Jungkook I first met and the Jungkook I know now.”

“He’s grown a lot taller but he’s still a brat,” Yoongi replied, though there was an undeniable fond tone to his voice.

“He sure is, but he’s matured so much emotionally.”

Yoongi nodded in agreement, looking over at their youngest boyfriends as well. “I can’t imagine what things would be like between us all if Taehyung hadn’t broken him out of his shell.”

“He might still be changing in the bathroom with the door locked.”

The two of them thought about the shy boy from what felt like so long ago, yet also not so long ago. When Seokjin and Jungkook had first joined the team, Jungkook was beyond closed off. He could goof around sometimes with them, but mostly kept to himself and regarded them more as work acquaintances.

It wasn’t until Taehyung came into their lives and essentially forced himself past the boundaries of Jungkook’s closed-off shell that that changed. Taehyung didn’t waste any time connecting with the maknae and before they knew it, Taehyung had his arms wrapped tightly around him - both metaphorically and physically. Taehyung slowly helped Jungkook open up to the others as well and was a large part of the reason they were all together today.

“Hey, hyung!” Seokjin and Yoongi both instinctively looked up at Jungkook, who was standing victoriously over a panting Taehyung and Jimin. “Do you want to see a girl group dance I’ve been working on?”

The two oldest Bangtan members chuckled and nodded. “Sure, Kookie,” Yoongi answered softly.

Jungkook immediately connected his phone to the speakers and began blasting Twice’s newest song More and More. He started in on the choreography effortlessly, imitating the movements without any hesitance.

Jimin popped up from where he’d previously been laying nearly dead on the floor as the chorus approached so he could join the maknae. Taehyung was still too tired from Jungkook’s wrestling and tickling to do anything other than cheer them on and giggle every once in a while.

“His confidence has certainly sky-rocketed since trainee days,” Yoongi remarked.

Seokjin hummed in affirmation before biting his lip. “Do you remember that Jungkook and I did a duet at the auditions?”

“Yeah, you mentioned it before I think.”

“Well, we were given group numbers when we did.” Seokjin looked over at Yoongi pointedly. “Do you want to take a guess which number we were?”

Yoongi narrowed his eyes suspiciously, “No way you were number seven.”

“We were. Group seven,” Seokjin confirmed.

Yoongi sighed thoughtfully, “Our lucky number seven shows up once again.”

“Do you believe it’s true, then?”

“I mean, the universe keeps showing me evidence and I can’t ignore it forever,” Yoongi replied with a shrug.

“I guess so...”

“Seokjin-hyung!” came the familiar whine from Jimin. The younger was walking over to them. “Stop being a party pooper and join us! I know you can’t resist performing Girl’s Day’s Something!”

Jin reluctantly allowed himself to be pulled to his feet, but not without whining, “What about Yoongi?! He’s being a party pooper too!”

Jimin snorted, “Hyung, we both know Yoongi-hyung doesn’t move unless absolutely necessary.”

Well, Seokjin certainly couldn’t argue with that.

He gave a smirking Yoongi a wave goodbye before he joined Jimin, Jungkook, and Taehyung as well now, in their impromptu dance cover.

They killed it, of course. Like always.

Yoongi also definitely filmed a video of it on his phone and sent it to Namjoon and Hoseok who weren’t there that day to see it.

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A/N: It’s really hard to incorporate the number seven in ways that wouldn’t be easily remembered but I hope I’m doing an alright job.

Comments and likes reassure me that this fic isn’t too terrible lol. Constructive criticism is always welcomed as well as I want to become a better writer.

Stay safe and happy <3

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Baepsae [BTS Reactions]

Requests opened // m.list 

Genre: Comedy (?)

Summary:  hiii can i get a bts reaction where they teach their best friend how to do the hip thrust in baepase and the other members reaction to her lol thanks

A/N: Ah yes, the infamous baepase. You know what’s funny? It’s one of my favorite songs. Not just for the routine... 

Kim Namjoon 

“Ah..you do realize that I’m not really good at teaching others how to dance right?” Namjoon questions bringing his hand back to rub his neck. You popped a hip out, leaning forwards only to bop his nose. You were tired of Namjoon putting himself down for something that he had grown excellent over the years. Yes, you could understand why he was nervous or why he wouldn’t want to teach something. 

“It doesn’t matter Joonie,” you mention pulling yourself upwards and placing your hands on your hips. You wanted him to teach you. No one else. He then proceeds to shrug his shoulders, then gets right beside you. With one swift motion, Namjoon wiggles his body then hip thrusts. Explaining to you that you have to use your back if you wanted more power. You off handily made a few jokes on how he would only do so just to make the fans squeal and scream. 

Namjoon shrugged his shoulders at your comment, turning to face you now. Giving you as much attention as he possibly could. Just so that he could correct you if you had made a mistake or not. Mimicking his movements, you did the same as before. His eyes watched you movements, his chin moving forwards since he was focusing. To say that he was impressed was an understatement. Watching your body easily move after showing you simple steps made his dimples come out. Namjoon was more than pleased with you, and you could see it in his face. Now that made you happy. 

Kim Seokjin 

“I don’t particularly think I’m a great dancer.” Seokjin starts moving himself over towards your sitting body. You tilted your head just a little to the side, curious as to what he meant by such. You knew that he was a great dancer because he practiced so hard. Whenever you were around him, you saw him. Noting that he was getting better over the years. So it surprised Seokjin when you asked him to help you learn baepsae. 

He went over the moves a couple of times, slowly showing you then eventually turning the music on to watch you. The one thing that you were a little iffy on was the hip thrusting, but he reassured you that it would come over time. Sighing, you eventually moved your resting body up and stood next to him. Going through the routine then eventually finding yourself alone. 

Seokjin watched you with awe. Finding how you easily picked up on moves and noting that you were progressing well. He paused the music, moving himself over in your direction and placing a hand on your shoulder. You gave him a thumbs up, grinning from ear to ear since you were extremely proud of yourself. Especially for making Seokjin smile as big as he did. 

Min Yoongi 

It took you forever just to convince Yoongi to teach you. It was a mixture of giving him food, buying him food, and even bringing him some new electronics to mess with. Yoongi was extremely stubborn when it came to showing people how to dance. Mostly because he wasn’t particularly confident in his moves, and he often said that he didn’t have much to offer. You sighed knowing that he put himself down like such because you didn’t want him to. Honestly, you wanted him to show you something simple. 

Even with something simple, Yoongi was still stubborn. With all that said in done, it landed you right outside his studio. Yoongi moved swiftly, showing you his hip thrusts. He mentioned off handly that “I’m not even in the center until the last part” which you rolled your eyes at. He was simply trying to undermine his potential. 

After such, you moved just as you saw Yoongi. His hands clapping at the end and tweaking a few things. Other than that, he simply unlocked his studio and moved in. Before of course offering you to walk in with him. “But there is still more to teach me!” You whined, Yoongi turning his head and simply shrugging his shoulders. 

“Maybe after you buy me lamb skewers.” 

Jung Hoseok

You were surprised by how quickly Hoseok said yes. You thought that you were going to have to pick up a fight, but he easily caved in. Knowing such, you knew that you had to be careful in what you did. Aka how you presented yourself and making sure you didn’t mess up. Learning how to dance from Hoseok was a little intimidating. Mostly because you saw him give death glares at the others if they didn’t get a certain move right. 

Going into this, you thought he was going to be relentless. However, you soon realized that he was the exact opposite of what you thought. Hoseok wanted to make sure that you were doing alright, and even then he paused throughout the entire routine. He moves behind you, placing his hand on your waist once you got to that part. 

“You need to use your lower back strength in order to produce further power into your thrusts.” He mentions pressing his palm into your back. You nod your head, noting that Hoseok pulled back. You do as he suggests, your eyes moving back towards his. He looked extremely impressed and had a smile on his face. You knew that it was going to be rather exciting. Or amusing the rest of the time with him. 

Park Jimin 

Since Jimin was one of the lead dancers, he was thrilled when you asked him. A little bit of his ego swelled knowing that he was the first person you went to. With that being said, helped you stretch before beginning. As he quotes, he wanted to make sure that you didn’t pull anything. Even then, he wanted to sneak a few glances to see how flexible you were. Proceeding forwards, Jimin twists and turns his body. Making sure that you could see everything. 

Not only did he want to make sure that you were understanding, but he wanted to make sure that you had a clear picture. When he stops, Jimin turns around, facing you now and waiting for you to proceed. You were hesitant, taking a step forwards. Out of all of your friends, Jimin was someone you didn’t particularly want to dance in front of. Not because he had gone to school for it, but because you were just a nervous person in general. 

Even after showing you the infamous hip thrusts, you were still nervous. Twisting your body, then using your lower back to move. Jimin watches you, clapping his hands afterward. Telling you that you looked really good doing the routine, even suggesting that you didn’t need much practice from him. Even mentioning that -” You’re pretty awesome for a beginner.” 

Kim Taehyung 

In order to teach you baepsae, Taehyung wanted you to learn others. The reasoning behind his madness was because he figured that if you had more than one under your belt, that it would make things easier. Meaning that he was definitely going to not let you off the hook, no matter how hard you tried to run away from it. Exhaling, you moved towards the mirror. Pushing back some loose strands because it was finally the song you wanted to learn. 

You both were in the studio for over five hours now. Taking breaks every thirty to four minutes. Mostly because your body couldn’t handle how hard the dances were. However, you were extremely thankful when Taehyung was teaching you baepsae. Why? Because just as he had stated beforehand, it was one of the easier songs. Meaning that all the hard work you put in, made this seem like nothing. With that being said, you weren’t excited about the hip thrust. Certainly, because you knew that it had to be “sexy” and you weren’t good at “sexy dances.” 

But, Taehyung reassured you that you were really good. Stating over and over again that there was nothing to be afraid of. Even reassuring you that you were an excellent dancer and could easily overcome this. Once again, you exhaled, going straight into the routine. Taehyung standing back and watching, grinning when you certainly crushed the hip thrust. His boxy smile making your cheeks flush because you knew that he was more than proud. 

Jeon Jungkook 

Since Hoseok was with his family, he called Jungkook to help you. Now, he wasn’t your first choice because you were intimidated by his presences. Yes, Jungkook was your best friend, but when it came to dancing, you were afraid he was going to judge you. Mostly because you weren’t a good dancer, or you certainly believed you weren’t a good dancer. Jungkook came strolling in, moving closer to you. 

He had gone through the routine, pausing every so often so that you could ask questions. Of course, you asked about the hip thrust, certainly intimidated but it. Why? Because it was one of the more notable parts of the dance, and you didn’t want to mess it up. However, Jungkook reassured you that everything was going to be alright. Even if you didn’t believe it yourself. With that being said, you moved your body the way that Jungkook showed you. 

He was clapping when you mastered the first hip thrust. Eventually jumping when you mastered the rest. He stated that you got better as the song progressed, and you had tons of potential. Meaning that your heartfelt nice and full after your practice with your friend. You wanted to ask him if he could teach you more, because his energy was enough to make you smile. 

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[moonchild-namgi]

love yourself, speak yourself

As some of you may already know, I first heard BTS around early April of this year. Up until that point I had heard of them and seen quite a bit of them due to the fact that they were showing up a lot on my dash from my other music blog that I run, however, I knew they were Korean so I kinda brushed them off at the time because I was worried that due to the language barrier, that I would struggle to be able to get into them and really enjoy their music. Obviously I was wrong lol.

To even begin to understand how important BTS is to me, you need to know that I’ve always struggle with loving and accepting myself, even as a kid. I was always the shy girl who was riddled with anxiety and depression and preferred to be alone because then I didn’t have to worry about being judged. Spending so much time alone eventually gets lonely and that’s when I really began to get heavily into music. Music is everything to me. I know that there will always be people that don’t understand that, but I truly mean it when I say that if it weren’t for music then I probably wouldn’t be here today. Without music there is no me.

My depression took a bad dive back in 2013 and by 2014 I decided that something had to be done or I was just gonna lose it so my solution to that was moving to a completely different state and kinda just starting over...and it worked for awhile but then it didn’t. It was around this second really bad dip in my depression that I found BTS. I’ll be totally honest and say that Halsey is the only reason I even decided to give them a chance. I’ve been a huge fan of her for years and when I saw she did a collab with them I got curious. I didn’t think Boy with Luv was overly special, like it didn’t stand out to me or anything, but it was catchy and cute so I figured why not give them a shot and within literally like 2-3 days I was hooked.

The first handful of their songs I listened to were songs from the Love Yourself albums and those are what made me fall so hard. It might sound cheesy, but after listening to only a few songs, it feel almost like an instant connection even though I didn’t understand everything they were saying. Some of their lyrics are deep and easy to connect to and they just resonate so much. Their songs are what helped pull me out of a dark place. On top of their music though, they’re also seem to just be really great, relatable people. Yoongi has been my main bias from pretty much the start due to the fact that I connected with him pretty quickly after finding out that he and I had pretty similar background history, however, I’ve connected with every member to some degree at this point.

Seeing all these videos of the concert final has made me really emotional because it’s an end to an ear that has meant so, so much to me. The love yourself era has been a turning point in my life and I owe so much to BTS for helping me in ways that they probably will never know. I know the era may be over, but I will always continue to work on trying to fully love and accept myself and it’s thanks to BTS that I even began to do that in the first place.

#bts #time for me to cry lol

[krreader]

BTS reacting to accidentally insulting you during an argument.

pairing: bts x reader fandom: bts warnings: language genre: angst

a/n: I think it goes without saying that this is purely fictional and written for the sake of the request. I’m sure you’ve seen these disclaimers a shit ton of times and know the deal and you’re old enough to know that this is only fictional lol. so enjoy the angst, my darlings ♥

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kim seokjin

Usually you two always managed to talk about an issue, rather than scream into each others faces. But sometimes, when it got out of control, it REALLY got out of control and then you were both saying things that you didn't mean and would regret later. Sometimes it was you, other times it was Jin. And this time, it was unfortunately him.

“Funny how you're always saying I'm the childish one, yet I'm pretty sure I've never had a more immature girlfriend in my life.”

You bit down hard on your tongue, especially when he didn't regret his words right away and didn't apologize like he usually did.

“Well then.. Why don't you go back to them, if I'm too immature for you, Seokjin?”

You never used his full name, only when you were either furious or disappointed. And since you weren't screaming at him, he was assuming it was the latter. And disappointment was always worse than anger.

He let out a frustrated sigh as you walked past him and into your shared bedroom, brushing his hand over his face. He'd give it an hour or so, before he'd apologize, but for now, he had to calm down himself, so that he wouldn't say anything else he'd regret afterwards.

min yoongi

He hated it when you became too close with other men and always assumed the worst, even though he really had no reason to suspect anything other than friendship going on. You loved him and nobody but him. But he didn’t always want to see that.

“You know what? I'm actually not surprised anymore..”

You let out a sigh and raised your eyebrows, while looking at him pacing around in front of you, you sitting cross-legged on the bed for the past hour that you were having this conversation.

“Oh really? And why's that?”

“Because you really did start dressing like a slut. No wonder they all want to fuck you.”

“Hmm,” you got up from the bed, walking up so close to him, that your boobs were touching his chest, “Maybe I should let them, then. Maybe they'd appreciate me more than my own boyfriend does.”

And with that, you were out of the apartment. You obviously didn't go to the boys that the argument had been about, you just wanted to clap back. And it worked, when he called and texted you only five minutes later, telling you how sorry he was and begging you not to go to them.

jung hoseok

“Why can't you just talk to me?!” Hoseok often liked to put on a mask, but you had hoped he would be comfortable enough to let down his walls when he was with you. To reveal his true self. Most of the time he did, but then on the really bad days, he thought he should deal with his issues on his own. But he didn't have to. You were his girlfriend and you wanted to help him get through the hard days.. it wasn't something he had to do alone.

“Because you're the fucking issue, (Y/N)!”

“What?” your voice got a bit weaker, not because you were hurt – at least not yet – but because you were confused. What could you have done that would make him like this?

“You're stuck to me like a fucking bur, you're always around, even when I don't need you here! I just need space, for god's sake!” he realized he had been a bit too loud when he saw your expression and took a deep breath, before repeating it a bit gentler: “I just need space..”

If space is what he needed, you were giving it to him right there and then, because without another word, you turned around on your heel and walked out.

And it wasn't until a day later that he realized just how much he was already missing you and how bad he had fucked up. He didn't need space, he had just needed to let out his frustration.. and unfortunately, you had been the victim this time.

kim namjoon

He had been working all night on this new song that he was writing. Usually you left him be, not wanting to distract him or whatever. And maybe that's why he was so surprised when you suddenly showed up the next morning.

“What are you doing here?”

“You missed our date.”

“What date?”

“Exactly,” you crossed your arms in front of your chest, “Listen to me, Namjoon. I respect that you need to work a lot and that you don't have a lot of time for us, but you could at least cancel, instead of letting me wait in a restaurant full of people who judge me for two hours, because I've been stood up.”

“Well, at least one of us has to work, right my dear?”

Oh, wow. Low blow, especially because you left your job for HIM. So that the little amount of time he had, you could spend together.

Since he didn't even turn around to look at you when he insulted you, you walked over to his nightstand, grabbed the glass of water and poured it over him. He jumped up immediately, spitting out one curse word after the other.

“Fuck you, Namjoon,” you smiled sweetly at him, “Seriously. Fuck you.”

“(Y/N), wait..-” he began with a sigh when you walked out of the room, but stopped himself from following you right away. He wanted to be dry to apologize, because he obviously hadn't meant what he said. He was just so on edge with the approaching comeback.. he hadn't meant to let it out on you.

park jimin

He had been up all night, the fight from last night still ringing in his ears like a gunshot.

“You don't get my point, Jimin, I was..-”

“Have you always been this annoying?!”

For a second you were taken aback, blinking a couple of times before saying: “Excuse me?”

“None of my other friends have girlfriends like you, annoying them with the same stupid stuff every damn time they argument with each other.”

Last night, he hadn't felt the effects of his words, not even when you had left without another word. But then, when he went to bed and the other side of the it was cold and empty, he realized what a big fucking mistake he had made. Calling you annoying? Comparing you to his friends' girlfriends? Basically telling you that you were weird and these other girls were better?

At first he had just cried, because he thought he might have lost you, then, with red and swollen eyes, he tried calling you in the morning and when only your mailbox answered, he told you how sorry he was and that he didn't mean any of what he had said and that he hoped you could forgive him. 

It took you another week to finally reach out to him again. And without a doubt, it was one of the worst weeks of his life, because he had really thought you wouldn't come back to him anymore.

kim taehyung

Jealousy was everyone's worst enemy in a relationship. You trust your partner and deep down you know that if he really loves you, he'd never do anything to hurt you or break that trust that you’ve established.

But you couldn't help it that Taehyung was one of the most handsome men of South Korea, surrounded by pretty girls in the same industry as him who would die for a chance to be with him.

You couldn't help that, from time to time, that ugly green monster surfaced. Like it did tonight, when he came home from yet another award show that he had MC'd with another idol. And sure, you knew that most of it was show, but the looks he threw her.. god, it drove you absolutely mad.

“You know.. maybe you should just tell me if you don't want this relationship anymore,” you didn't mean it, of course you didn't. But you were jealous, angry and wanted him to confirm that he still loved you.

But see, the problem was that Taehyung and you have had this conversation so many times, that he finally snapped and instead of his usual 'You know I only love you', he said: “Maybe we should break up.. at least my new girlfriend wouldn't be up my ass every five minutes because I accidentally looked at another woman. Maybe the next one won't be as jealous as you are.”

The second the words were out in the open, he realized his mistake. Especially when he saw how your eyes were beginning to fill with tears with each passing second. He took a step towards you and wanted to touch you, but you immediately slapped his hand away.

“Don't you dare fucking touch me,” you sniffled and took a step back.

“I didn't mean it, love, you know I didn't..”

But the damage was already done. And it would take a lot of time and effort for Taehyung to repair it.

jeon jeongguk

He was usually not the type of guy to ever fight with you, simply because he didn't know how. He loved you too much to ever get into a super heated argument, but then again, it was bound to happen one day.

“I'm seriously not asking for a lot, Kookie, but why is it so hard for you to just act like your age for once? Why can't you just be serious, just for once?”

“Why can't you be more fun and not as boring as you are?” and the second he said it out loud, he froze and quickly shook his head after a moment, “No. No, wait, I didn't mean that..”

“I'm boring?” you repeated, “You think I'm boring?”

“No! I..-” he shifted his weight from one foot to the other, beginning to become nervous, because he didn't know how to deal with this situation and especially not how to get out of it.

“If meeting my parents is so boring to you, then maybe you shouldn't.”

“(Y/N), please, I didn't..-”

But you were already walking out of his room.

Jeongguk, however, wouldn't let you leave without resolving the issue, so he immediately ran after you and tried to right things with you before it might be too late.

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[jjpmoans]

50 Questions Tag

Tagged by @prettywordsyouleft and @itsallabigmess bcs these two unnies really love me

1. What takes too much of your time?

Social media (yes that includes tumblr)

2. What makes your day better?

These days, Jinyoung. Lol okay so I am a very talkative one. So yeah, talking to someone will immediately makes me feel less stressful.

3. What’s the best thing that happened to you today?

Just now @itsallabigmess made an exception for me to write a GOT7 fic asdfghjkl I FEEL A LITTLE TOO OVER HAPPY

4. What fictional place would you like to go to?

I think almost all my friend would have guess this. Hogwarts. Because the food there seems to be endless and really, I’d love to try eating both drumsticks in my hand and I want to put an incantation to whoever tries to hold me from eating.

5. Are you good at giving advice?

Well, I think I am. Judging from how my whole family turned to me when they wanted to share their problems. Also when I gave advises, I always stresses this one thing “Listen to understand, don’t listen to reply” and that implies to me too. And honestly, I listen too much and sometimes when people just don’t want to change, I feel really annoyed BECAUSE WHAT IS THE POINT YOU WANTED MY ADVISE???? Okay I think I’m good. hahahhahhaha

6. Do you have any mental illness?

Horny 24/7 is that a mental illness? lmao no I’m not that bad but I think I need to get married. NOW.

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

Not yet. In my country, people describe sleep paralysis as you got crushed by some spirit (ghost to be exact) and yes it is scary and I hope I would never experience it.

8. What musician inspired you the most?

I’ve been thinking a lot and though I really want to say GOT7, I’d say EXO. Partly because I was there since early times, but also, the amount of success and loyalties they have received are really unbelievable. The secret of EXO’s and BTS’s popularity which leads them to win daesang in every award is their fans. And I really hope ahgase can be like them. I’d be lying if I say our fandom is really hardworking when it comes to award season. I’ve seen my friend bullshitting EXO and BTS bcs whenever any of them is nominated in the same award of GOT7, automatically, GOT7 will lose. And no joke, army and exol are really monsters during award season. And I hope us ahgase can be like that too. I know got7 said they didn’t mind but Jinyoung once said that he want to know how those groups can win daesang easily and he thought got7 need to work harder. smh I’m emo. sorry this got longer than it should. 

9. Have you ever fallen in love?

I do. Hahahahhahaha yes I do. 

10. What’s your dream date?

Well for me, just talking with each other is a date. I love to know small details because when I love someone, I just want to know everything about him. But okay a dream date? Amusement park. Yes you need to know which ride makes me scream like a girl and which makes me scream like a mad woman.

11. What do others notice about you?

I’m very talkative (that really shows lol). And I don’t know how to refuse when someone ask for a help or anything. I always tell myself to treat people the way I want to be treated. 

And they said I’m too nice. Yeah I figured that too hahahahhaa

12. What is an annoying habit you have?

Refuse to listen when I’m angry. I feel annoyed because I know I’m wrong but I’m angry but I don’t want to hurt people. So I’ll say “Sorry, I’m very angry now but I know I’m wrong. Just, I’ll be okay later so we’ll talk later”

13. Do you still talk to your first love?

Yes and no. Our last conversation was he wanted to meet me. But ever since then, no other conversation.

14. How many ex’s do you have?

Can’t relate lol

15. How many songs are in your playlist?

Here’s the thing. I have a lot of playlists. Phone playlist, laptop playlist, joox playlist and youtube playlist. So I don’t know how many of them.

16. What instruments can you play?

Non existent.

17. Who do you have the most pictures of?

My phone? Now? Jinyoung smh this is all Tumblr’s fault lol. 

18. Where would you like to go before you die?

Mecca. I’d like to die there if I can.

19. What is your zodiac?

Virgo. And please, someone, please help me calculate whatever thing it was (sun sign, moon sign and all) I never knew those things and it irks me when I don’t know it hahahahhaaa

20. Do you relate to it?

Well I did some research here, Virgo firstly is a virgin and yes I am. It says that virgo is very supportive of people in their lives and even strangers, that is me. I’m a critical thinker bcs I personally hate when something goes wrong. but lol hardworking, artists and remembers everything? Not even close. I’m a lazy ass, I draw a cow but it turned into a pig and I am hopeless with my memory.

But one Virgo thing about me, yes I am an overthinker hahahahhaa

21. What is happiness to you?

When my family reunited.

22. Are you going through anything right now?

Family problem. Mom just got heart attack, dad married another woman, brother on crisis with mom, sister just stabbed my back, aunt made everything worse. It’s been three months into 2019, every week, another family problem popped up. But we are trying, I tried to fix everything, another role which the smallest child has to take upon responsibility but I’m fine. Just, tiring.

23. What’s the worst decision you’ve ever made?

applied for the wrong scholarship and wasted an opportunity to fly to New Zealand for study.

24. What’s your favourite store?

Food stores. Any of them. ARE MY FAVOURITE ahhahahhaha

25. What’s your opinion on abortion?

Because I’m a muslim, I am against abortion. Here, in my country, abortion is done because it was done out of wedlock and they feel embarrassed. So, it irks me bcs if you can think to have sex, you can’t think that there is possibilities that you can get pregnant? And to kill your child bcs you wanted to cover it, is unacceptable. But again, it is personal choice. 

26. Do you keep a bucket list?

I have a few but not enough to be a bucket. 

27. Do you have a favourite album?

Honestly, if favourite means I have listened to all songs in that album, it’s EXO The War album. 

28. What do you want for your birthday?

A freaking big plushie. I love to hug big plushies. But no one ever wanted to give me that for my birthday. And now, I’ve been searching for a big squirtle plushie or snorlax plushie (yes jackson and jaebum)

29. What are most people’s first impression of you?

okay this one lol they said I look scary and they thought I’d be the grumpy one. Well, if you meet me when I’m hungry, I have the tendency to be one.

30. What age do you seem according to most people?

I don’t know anymore. An aunt asked me “Are you the one who got married?” when it was my sister smh 

31. Where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping?

next to my pillow bcs I need to charge it.

32. what word do you say the most?

me? I say “shit” a lot lol

33. What’s the oldest age you would date?

well I would say I definitely date anyone as long as they are not the same age with my dad.

34. What’s the youngest age you would date?

idk I never thought on dating a younger one. But if I do, maybe 4 years younger bcs damn, if I make it 10 years, my date would be 12 when me here is 22.

35. What job/career do most people say would suit you?

something which requires me to talk a lot. 

36. What’s your favourite music genre?

K-Pop.

37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be?

South Korea. New Zealand. Anywhere but Malaysia lol.

38. What is your current favourite song?

Say you won’t let go - James Arthur

39. How long have you had this blog for?

I had this blog for a few years. But just becoming active just recently hmm I don’t know the exact date. But I know it started after I interacted with @prettywordsyouleft

40. What are you excited for?

Food. and sponsored vacation

41. Are you a better talker or listener?

A better talker. but also a pretty good listener

42. What is the last productive thing you did?

Last sunday, i climbed a 200m hill to get to the view point. It got me panting like a dying cow.

43. What do you want for Christmas?

While I don’t celebrate Christmas, I welcome gifts. Any gifts would be fine lol (make sure its food)

44. What class do you get the best grades in?

High school? Chemistry. College? Mathematic. Now? Nothing hahahahaha

45. On a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now?

5 and exhausted but tomorrow? 10 BECAUSE A JINYOUNG IS COMING

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years?  

10 years I just hope that I am already working and saving money to go on vacations and can sponsor my family on vacations too.

47. When did you first get your heartbreak?

2009 when I discovered that dad has another wife. I was 12 and just got my exam result but dad wasn’t there. He was never present for any of my achievements in school. Turns out he has another child the same age as me and he puts her before me. Since I was born, I was always put second.

2011 when I liked a guy but he hated me awh teenagers. He said I’m too fat and how dare a fat girl like me tries to like him? He was my first love.

48. At what age do you want to get married?

When I am ready. I have a dream wedding, so I would work hard for it to happen.

49. What career did you want to have as a child?

Idk I always change it lol today i’ll say teacher and next day I’ll say ballerina. Yes I spent my whole school life giving different careers when teachers asked me.

50. What do you crave right now?

Food bcs I’m on diet and hell those food porns are getting on my nerves.

Phew it was a good time answering all these questions and it drains my energy lol. So for this, hmm I don’t know who to tag. But i’ll go with this one @sevenpeaches @riceeater22 @tuanyiems @kpopchangedme @kpopstories @starhibiki @ongsung @sehunsmybae (yes I always saw you) and everyone who want to do this! of course, you are not forced to do this

#jinyoungmoans join tagging game

[tannie-bell]

100 Questions!

thanks to the lovely @chioo92 for sending this my way~! 💕💕💕

edit: putting this under read more bc it’s looooong 😂😂

1. What is you middle name?

Elizabeth

2. How old are you?

18

3. What is your birthday?

october 16

4. What is your zodiac sign?

libra

5. What is your favorite color?

in general black, but i do really like teal and deep greens

6. What’s your lucky number?

i don't really have one, but i like 13 and 16 and 3116

7. Do you have any pets?

yep! two dogs~

8. Where are you from?

a little italian town in the lower half of illinois

9. How tall are you?

technically 5' 1&¾". please feel free to round up to 5'2"

10. What shoe size are you?

depends on the brand, mostly between 8 and 9 u.s. sizes—they have to be wide though, or i have to get bigger sizes and just deal with the looseness 😅

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

i think 8?? but i only actually wear like 4

12. What was your last dream about?

in the last dream i *actually* remember, i was a character from my wip and she was with her husband in like this cozy, dim-lit room filled with furs and ancient pieces and neat stuff and she was moderately pregnant so i just remember feeling so warm and loved inside. looking back it's kind of weird bc i've never been pregnant or in love romantically, but it's still heartwarming

13. What talents do you have?

um, I bake well i think 😂 so far i haven't had any bad feedback...😅

14. Are you psychic in any way?

nope.

15. Favorite song?

gaaaaaaah why is this always so hard mikrokosmos ~ bts or lucid dream ~ monogram

16. Favorite movie?

singin' in the rain, howl's moving castle, moana, all mcu movies i've seen so far

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

someone who shares my beliefs/morals and who supports my passions/interests (and i would do the same for him). has a few quirks he needs a few to survive me lol and is musical, respectful, and romantic. also has a sense of humor i appreciate and vice versa. there are other qualities, but that's the gist 😂

18. Do you want children?

yes! not necessarily biological though, i am very open to adoption

19. Do you want a church wedding?

most likely yes

20. Are you religious?

it depends on your definition of religious. in the sense of believing in a particular faith/religion, then yes

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

yes 😫

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

nope!

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

if you count the drummer from a now-disbanded band, then yes 

24. Baths or showers?

showers most times

25. What color socks are you wearing?

plain white—they're extra thick ones though! 😁

26. Have you ever been famous?

in what sense? 😂 locally or within a specific community of people, then i think so??

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

nope. i used to dream about what it would be like, but i seriously value my privacy and i would feel like i had none if i was famous

28. What type of music do you like?

pretty much anything and everything—except country 😅😂

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

nope...

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

three

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

this weird twisted position on my side. it usually ends with my shoulders hurting 😅😅

32. How big is your house?

it's decently large, but we just updated our tiny two bedroom, one bathroom house (for five people for 15+ years 😳) to a five bed, two bath with an open living area/dining room/kitchen. we made it big enough to accommodate both sides of my family around the holidays (bc we have a decently large family that's only growing 😂)

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

cereal or a fruit smoothie with either coffee or black tea (preferably earl grey) assuming i even eat breakfast

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

not yet, but i would eventually like to! thinking about a concealed carry permit as well depending on circumstances

35. Have you ever tried archery?

yess, and i love it!! it always makes me feel like some woodland elf heroine or something 😂

36. Favorite clean word?

like just regular words? pretty much any soft-sounding, flowy word with l’s, like melody or lucent

37. Favorite swear word?

i don't swear so none

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

like 36-ish hours

39. Do you have any scars?

yep

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

...not that I'm aware of??

41. Are you a good liar?

.....i do my best to be honest, but.....i can be....😅 just don't tell my mom

42. Are you a good judge of character?

i think so? i'm not going to be right 100% obviously, but most of the time i think i am

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

yeah, but they're not very good 😂

44. Do you have a strong accent?

depends on where you're from tbh

45. What is your favorite accent?

i reeeaaally like australian accents...

46. What is your personality type?

INFP-T

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

a top and skirt set someone i know bought for a wedding and never wore again. i think she paid $100+ for it?? so i got it for nothing which was amazing

48. Can you curl your tongue?

yep!

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

innie~

50. Left or right handed?

right~

51. Are you scared of spiders?

most of the time no

52. Favorite food?

i'm just gonna go with italian beef with mozzarella bc it always sounds good

53. Favorite foreign food?

ramen, bingsu, turkish delight, gulab jamun, and this one chicken rice dish that i have no idea what it's called but it's a.maz.ing.

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

in general? clean. my room? the best way to describe it is definitely-not-so-organized chaos

55. Most used phrase?

oh my goodness or oh my word

56. Most used word?

like or eyyy

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

......depends. literally anywhere from 5 to 45+ mins...

58. Do you have much of an ego?

i don't think so

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

both

60. Do you talk to yourself?

if i didn't i'd go insane

61. Do you sing to yourself?

^ see above

62. Are you a good singer?

i'm decent if my vocal chords are warmed up enough 😂

63. Biggest Fear?

failing/disappointing others. that and falling from heights

64. Are you a gossip?

no. i do my best not to be, anyway

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

i literally don't know what's considered dramatic anymore

66. Do you like long or short hair?

for my hair? long

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

give me a piece of paper and a pen and yeah 😂

68. Favorite school subject?

english and music

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

introvert~

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

nope

71. What makes you nervous?

being put on the spot

72. Are you scared of the dark?

not really, but it also depends on where i'm at and who's around

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

if it's one of my really close friends I'll jokingly correct their grammar, but that's it

74. Are you ticklish?

.......sometimes.

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

no

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

a couple times, yeah

77. Have you ever drank underage?

no

78. Have you ever done drugs?

no

79. Who was your first real crush?

this one kid when i was like four or five. his name is tyler. he actually just got married! random i know

80. How many piercings do you have?

none

81. Can you roll your Rs?”

no 😥

82. How fast can you type?

not terribly

83. How fast can you run?

slower than my 70 lb. dog

84. What color is your hair?

dark brown with some blonde and red hints

85. What color is your eyes?

dark chocolate so brown

86. What are you allergic to?

pollen 😥 i think i also have oral allergy syndrome (but that's purely self-diagnosed 😂), so there's that too

87. Do you keep a journal?

i have the past couple weeks for a class, but otherwise no

88. What do your parents do?

my mom is a nurse and my dad is a letter carrier

89. Do you like your age?

ehh, ish

90. What makes you angry?

things taken out of context of conversations, situations, etc. and twisted to portray something else entirely

91. Do you like your own name?

yes~

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

yes! these are just some of my favorites

for girls: lacie everest, elizabeth marie, roselyn chae (or chaela rose)

for boys: vincent alexandre, killian gray, quinton james

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

both~!

94. What are you strengths?

um....i'm very musical 😂

95. What are your weaknesses?

i procrastinate too much and i don't really know how to work on a project with a group

96. How did you get your name?

my mom knew someone with the name (but they shortened it). she later found out that my dad's great- or great-great-grandmother had the same name

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

like seeeeeeeeveral hundred years back, but yes

98. Do you have any scars?

some

99. Color of your bedspread?

off-white/cream and a purple-y maroon

100. Color of your room?

off-white/cream

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not tagging anyone bc this is like super long 😂😂 if you see this and want to fill it out, go ahead! you brave soul  😂

#thank you~!! #gtkm #if you read the whole thing #i admire your tenacity

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alright, it’s getting late and I want to make it to church in the morning so I should get writing. today was pretty good. I set my alarm for 10 am to see how things were playing out, it was supposed to thunderstorm today but it was unclear when it would actually start, but when I got up the weather forecast said it wouldn’t start till 3 pm so we had some time. So I messaged Jess and arranged our plans to get brunch and go from there. So we met up in a few and wen to the vegetarian place. it was funny, apparently our normal waitress who has our orders memorized was in the bathroom when we came in so we had a new one and she like put the menus on the table and we were just like “oh we know what we want” lol and then our normal waitress came out and was like “I heard you had to actually tell them your orders, I’ll do my best to not be in the bathroom when you get here in the future” and it was funny and cute. Brunch was good as always, afterwards we walked back to my apartment and looked up the episodes of the korean reality tv show they have going on now that different versions of pop up a lot focused around a competition to form a boy band, and one of the band members we like was serving as a judge, which was funny because he used to be a contestant on one of them. so we had to watch him judge and it was pretty damn funny. once that was done we debated what we wanted to watch next, the BTS concert in London was about to start and there was a livestream for it, but it was like $13 just to see the concert and we ain’t about that so we ended up finding somebody livestreaming the livestream and watching from there lol. The feed was pretty good, it went out a few times but it was only for like 30 seconds or so and not on any important songs so it wasn’t a big deal. It’s the same concert we saw here of course, but it was cool to see it from a different perspective because our perspective was somewhat limited due to our (awesome but slightly inconvenient) seats, whereas this was right from the camera they’re always singing towards so it was very up close. I’m sure they appreciated not having to do the concert in the rain, lol. the stadium was also fucking huge, and was totally sold out- we looked it up and it had a seating capacity of fucking 90,000, where the giant ass football stadium we have in Chicago is only 60,000, so that’s kinda nuts, and they have a whole other concert tomorrow to do as well. Crazy. But yeah, it was enjoyable to watch, we got to see the one boy “fly” on a harness thing during his solo song which he didn’t do at the show we were at because it was fucking raining and that seemed like a very BAD idea, so that was cool to see. I was also feeling kinda soft about one of the boys I previously wasn’t very into but some really shitty stuff happened recently with him (it’s a long story, but basically during a performance he collided with like the groups best dancer and then when they were doing a Q&A the interviewer asked who the best dancer was and asked the audience, and then right after asked who the worst one was and they all said this guy, and he was like, visibly upset on camera and it was really bad, the best dancer went live later and was like “I was the one who messed that up, it was totally on me he didn’t do anything wrong” and then apparently was telling the other guy they were getting lots of “hearts” on the livestream and he was like “they’re not for me” so when they had their concert in Brazil last weekend some fans decided to be super awesome and cut out literally thousands of paper hearts for everyone in the audience to hold up during his solo song and like, it was so emotional and seeing his reaction was beautiful, and he looked so much happier this week) and it just made me feel very soft about all of it. The best dancer I just referred to actually had been kinda sick and his voice cracked during a song last week and he like, full on cried on stage about it and it was bad, and then again today he cracked and got really upset and it was difficult because he’s the only one with the range to hit the high notes so they can’t really give it to anybody else, so they ended up having to get another guy to do it down the octave and you could tell he was really upset and I was just like NOOO STOP DON’T CRY but he’s like generally considered the most popular and lovable member so I’m sure he knows how loved he is. So that was fun. Once it was over we went to get ice cream since we didn’t end up getting any yesterday, then headed back home and started the “Always Be My Maybe” movie on netflix while we ordered dinner from the ramen place and ate that. It was yet to rain yet and they kept pushing it back in the forecast, but it looked like it might start around 7 and Jess wanted to walk back before that for obvious reasons, so she ended up heading home when we had like half an hour left in the movie, so we’ll have to finish that at some point. Once she left I put on an episode of Friends from netflix as background noise while I took care of myself, then started watching the other big thing that had been livestreamed today, which was the funeral of Rachel Held Evans, who you might remember me mentioning last month was the Christian author who died suddenly at a very young age and it was a huge blow to the progressive Christian community because she helped so many people. I knew I was going to end up crying for a lot of it but I still wanted to watch it and honor her memory. From the beginning I was a mess, as soon as they were leading the coffin down the aisle and behind it was her husband with their two babies, holding the hand of their 3 year old boy and holding his daughter, who just turned 1 and can’t even walk yet, and seeing that of course made me really emotional. The entire service was done so well, it’s somewhat of a faith tradition I’m not super familiar with because after leaving the evangelical church she ended up finding home in an Episcopalian church, which I’ve had very limited exposure to, so that was interesting to see, and so much of it was just so very beautiful, from the eulogies to the hymns and the sermon, all a gathering of the people she made sure were invited to the table, with thousands watching along, many of whom credit her with saving their faith. Honestly it’s hard to overestimate the impact she had on my shifting from evangelical circles to more progressive ones, she was pretty much the first major Christian figure that boldly and fully embraced a LGBTQ-affirming doctrine and it made a massive impact on the community. The argument I now use with evangelical Christians when the subject comes up is one that was inspired by her writing (basically, the bible says “you will know them by their fruit” and the way the church has treated LGBTQ people has borne nothing but suffering, suicide, and people walking away from the church, and that is BAD fruit no matter which was you slice it- whereas an affirming doctrine brings together joy and life and community and a major decrease in suicides, especially among young LGBTQ folks. It’s an argument nobody has been able to refute thus far) which I’ve used so many times and it very truly uses scripture to back up an affirming doctrine. I know I’m basically ranting at this point but like, she was just so important to so many people and it’s such a tragedy that she’s gone at only 37 when we could’ve had so many more years of her beautiful writing and thoughts that we will never get now, and two little babes who are going to grow up without a mother. God I’m emotional. And like, the people putting on the service were all close friends who were incredibly diverse (the main sermon was given by Rev. Nadia Bolz-Weber, an ordained woman of color who is absolutely dynamic and game changing in her theology) and it was all just so beautiful to see. And of course there were the old hymns that I really have such a soft spot for, so I really enjoyed those and definitely sang along for most of them. So yeah, it was beautiful and lovely and so deserving for the amazing woman she was. Once I was done with that I randomly turned on “Anthony Bourdain: Parts Unknown” which was really good and I actually ended up crying at that too because I’m a super weepy baby today apparently. I watched like an episode and a half of that before starting to get ready for bed, and now I am here. I NEED to make it to church in the morning because it’s been way too long since I’ve gone, which requires waking up in t-minus 7 hours, so now would be a good time to go to sleep, so that is what I will be doing. Goodnight babes. Hope you had an awesome Saturday.

#daily journal #June 2019 #Jess tag #Rachel Held Evans

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tag games.

alright, let’s do this-- i just realized i had like five tag games in my likes, but they’re pretty similar so i’ll do two of them :D

game number one.

tagged by this sunshine @rosaetae​ ♡

appearance:

hmm alright so i’m 5 foot 7 or 170 cm, and i weigh 125 lbs, which is 57 kg i think? my hair almost reaches my butt, but i definitely need to get it trimmed. i had red dip dye earlier, but the color faded, so it’s like an ombre now. i’m vietnamese, and i’m on the paler side in my family. i think my lips are pretty full, and my eyes are large? or at least that’s what my relatives all tell me. and i have a dimple on my left cheek! and i sometimes have those tiny hobi dimples. um i’ll be posting a selfie tag right after this, so you’ll actually see my face then lmao

personality:

i’m an introverted extrovert! meaning, i am very social, i enjoy meeting new people and making friends in all my classes, but at the same time, i don’t divulge a lot of information about myself LOL i go to parties and stuff usually once a week, and i socialize a lot there, but in my mind, i’m just thinking about going back to my bed and binging criminal minds or the great british baking show. one of my friends actually told me that before she even got to judge me the first time she saw me, i already introduced myself and started talking to her akdhfsa so i’m very outgoing, loud, and sarcastic, and i’d like to think of myself as hilarious too. i try to be nice to everyone and am usually very chill, but if someone is super rude, then oh boy, i will go off on them

ability:

art!!! i love art with all my heart, and i’d like to say that i’m decent at it since i’m pursuing a minor in studio arts. i’d like to think i have athletic ability as well since i played three different sports and did cheerleading and four types of dances when i was younger. oh, and i’ve played the piano for sixteen years and the drums! also the recorder because that was mandatory in middle/junior high school lmao and i’m also very good at mental math. as for linguistics, i can communicate in english, spanish, and vietnamese.

hobbies:

studio arts is a big one, so drawing, painting, stamp carving, stenciling, etc. i also really love cooking and baking, but i don’t like eating the sweets. i just give whatever i bake to my friends and family lol and i gym five times a week, so does that count as a hobby? i also love sleeping, reading books, and binging crime shows

relationships:

not interested. my friends and i downloaded tinder for fun, and we just like to comment on the profiles. the total of people i have swiped right for in the whole year i’ve had my tinder is a whopping total of 11 (and 3 of those were dogs), and i always unmatch after the third message. i just ask my matches what food places they’d rec and that’s it. unmatch straight afterwards asdkfjasdh

random stuff:

kim taeyeon is the center of my universe, kim jisoo is the ultimate goddess, kim taehyung owns my heart, and nct dream can run me over with those bikes in go and i’d thank them and give them all my money in my bank account.

game number two.

tagged by this cutie patootie @minigguk​ ♡

1. Which BTS song means the most to you?

no more dream because it’s the first mv i ever saw of them when i got into kpop four years ago, and i really contemplated using suga’s “i wanna big house, big car, and big rings, but i don’t have any big dreams” as my senior yearbook quote.

2. How do you feel about astrology?

well, personally, i think it’s a bunch of hooey because all the descriptions and whatnot that are for each sign is written to be broad enough that it feels personal if that makes sense? like i can read the stuff for another sign that isn’t mine and can still feel that it applies to me. but do i still read my horoscopes and look for my sign in astrology posts? heck yeah i do

3. Do you think ghosts exist?

maybe? i need real life experience as proof to actually believe, not those grainy videos with what looks like dust particles floating around

4. What’s your favorite instrument?

the piano! i have a love-hate relationship with it though because i love listening to piano music, but i hate playing it myself

5. Who was the last person to make you really smile?

my mom :’) i was showing her snapchat filters and she got so excited, and she wanted me to take lots of her pics with them and text them all to her

6. What do you do when you feel vulnerable?

idk probably sleep? can’t be vulnerable when you’re unconscious. actually wait, you are physically vulnerable if some serial killer is after you and you’re sleeping, but feelings wise, sleep makes that vulnerability go away

7. What is the last dream you had?

LOL omg okay so i told this dream to an and mel, but like i was doing some survival competition and i had to climb trees and check under rocks and all this stuff in the jungle to find these clues, which were hand written on binder paper and sealed in plastic bags. i already had one clue, and i knew the other people competing had zero, so heck yeah, i’m on top!!! but anyway, i stumble onto the remains of a plane crash site and i’m sifting through everything and i find some good stuff, like a compass, but then, i get to this locked cabinet thing and i can’t get it to open and taeyong comes out of nowhere??? and first in my mind, i’m kinda like is he here to steal my clues /: but he actually helps me open the cabinet and looks through stuff, and then i find the clue in one of the bags, and i’m like oh do you want to see it too? and taeyong is just like it’s up to you if you want to share! it’s your clue! :D and he just leaves??? like wow WHAT A NICE MAN but also i better gather some weapons in case he tries to ambush me later 

also the weapons are definitely needed because after seeing taeyong, i’m thinking i’m probably competing against everyone in nct and i trust none of them, except maybe taeyong, mark, and jeno. also taeyong’s face was like six inches away from mine at one point, and wow how does someone look that good even in the middle of a dirty jungle? i’m jealous

8. Are you a nature person?

maybe? i absolutely adore flowers, and i like hiking in the mornings with my parents during the summer

9. What’s your favorite thing to do to relieve stress?

sleep LOL. eat ice cream and binge my favorite tv shows

10. Do you have any other blogs you’d like people to check out?

yes check out everyone i tag in this thing!!

11. Marvel, DC, or neither?

marvel!

12. What do you want out of 2018?

a good gpa, my driver’s license, good health

13. Do you hold grudges?

i don’t have the time nor energy to care that long about someone who upset me

14. Who is your favorite Disney hero/heroine?

mulan!!! i also really like peter pan and tiana. as a child, i adored cinderella

15. Do you consider yourself a positive person?

hmm, i’d say i’m positive to a certain extent? i don’t want to give false hope though, so i usually tell things as it is as nicely as possible. so i’m a balance of realistic and positive.

16. What is something you love that’s underrated?

um idk what’s considered underrated, does nct count

17. What is your dream job?

gordon ramsey’s job :D

18. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

right now, i really wanna be the protagonist in that stereotypical rom com movie and live to nyc but i don’t want the dude / love interest that comes with it

19. When was the last time you faced a fear and how did it go?

two weeks ago, i faced my final for my financial accounting class which was taught by a masters professor, who explicitly told us that he taught this undergrad class the exact same way as his masters class for financial accounting because he only teaches one undergrad class a year. the final was 30 pages long of one continuous problem. it was full of calculations and writing up journal entries, and i managed to get an A- in that class.

20. Which would you prefer to read: poetry, fiction, or non-fiction?

currently? poetry!

21. Where do you feel most at ease?

when i’m at home

i tag these lovely people for one or both of these tag games: @kidguk ; @jimlingss ; @kthartics ; @minigguk ; @rosaetae ; @kingdomtae ; @milknotes ; @vantae ; @cheelchan ; @1rapmon ♡

#tag game #thank you for tagging me!!