#this is what I do instead of therapy

[p4nishers]

"you don't find comfort at the tva" do u get that THIS was mobius' mindset before meeting loki?? that there was no comfort to be had in his life?? that when he wanted to spare an 8 YEAR OLD BOY it wasn't the right thing to do for the system? he carried that burden, the timelines branching and people dying because of it, all the way to that conversation with loki. i would bet anything it was eons ago for him and yet, that one little moment of KINDNESS burdened him. before loki, there was no comfort. then they came along and suddenly, the tva felt like home. it felt new, it felt lively, it felt real, it felt comfortable BECAUSE loki was there. they WERE home to mobius, after all those eons of aching loneliness. i have no doubt he was kind before loki because that's just who he fundamentally is but he LET himself be kind after loki came into his life. because he felt comfortable enough. and then. loki left him. the tva felt empty again. the food and coffee mobius loved so much turned to ash in his mouth. HE felt hollow and empty. home was never a place, it was always loki. the tva suddenly felt suffocating, he HAD to leave, he had to use the opportunity loki gave him, the chance they sacrificed themselves for.

and there – watching what could've been – he felt the sunshine on his face, and something else too. someone else. it filled him with him hope hadn't felt in a very long time.

#guys. GUYS. i love him so much #i cant get that shot of him going to drink from his coffee but dissociating instead out of my head its INSANE #owen wilson u owe me money pls pay up i need it for therapy after what u did to me w those acting choices of urs #do u understand that mobius – kind warm comfortable mobius – didn't think there was COMFORT at the tva before loki. do u understand that. #lokius #mobius m mobius #loki #loki series #loki season 2

[b4kuch1n]

yay! I drew these quite literally three years ago. dragonheart!milo and raihan! a knight on a doomed dragon hunt being lifted out of his station by a small village medicine man. together they become magic lawyers and overthrow the government

the main details in these do survive into the iterations I’ve drawn (instead of these actual designs I spent time to make el oh el): the “leaf” diamond quilt/gambeson and the plaited coattail for milo, the “atypical” weapons, long coat, and large number of scattered fake gold trims and accessories for raihan. I think I lost raihan the hat and added a cape for milo further down the line because like this their general silhouettes are too similar for my liking lol

#pokemon #swsh #applinshipping #dragonheart AU #gym leader raihan #gym leader milo #leon is the puppet king in this one (I never made a design for him lol. lmao) (its not about him!!!!) (it is just a tiny bit #sonia actually disappeared out to sea like just the year before raihan got sent off too. and the shows up where raihan and milo are later on #as usual the everything between those three are messy in a way that makes every one of them embarrassed to bring it up lmao #if u remember one of the october pieces I did last year. the applinshipping one. yeap thats from this AU too #lmao. also remembering the swordsman AU. in every AU where I bring up a king you can TELL I cant WAIT to get rid of that guy #(its usually leon) #anyways it's not about him this is about raihan and milo!!! iirc everyone in the village knows milo is Something. bc he has literally not #aged at all for four generations #he's like doing his therapy away from the dragon hierarchy out here and raihan crash lands nearby #laughs this is so hallmark movie romance I just realized. except the city girl is trying to #extract her family from the palace before stealing the declaration of independence #oh yeah the AU is named that Specifically because the 'artifact' the whole plot runs around is supposedly a 'calcified' heart of a dragon #and the magic lawyer part is so raihan will seize the right to the throne by haha. winning a living dragon's heart instead #I'm actually surprised I remember this much abt this AU lmao it's literally been three years! I don't even remember what Im #supposed to do tomorrow #it's gettign a USB stick isnt it. Im doin a canadian horror triple feature with the senpai #I gotta remember that. well I remember This so. maybe there's a chance #man there are actually a number of applinshipping things I wanna draw... theyre my Fuckin BoyS #well! there's this at least. have a good night lads! I'll have cake soon #it's time to put cinnamon in things.

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

yakou furio's character is so tragic to me. i wanna meme about how they used the fridged wife trope but other than that it's like. he lost his family and later all of his coworkers and just. existed alone for years.

looking at the state the submarine and especially his bedroom was in, with everything being a mess and all the cigarette butts in his bed, yakou was clearly depressed. he wouldn't even take on any interesting cases to fulfill his passion as a detective because he was so afraid of the peacekeepers. instead he just kept his head down. surviving but not actually living.

and then he finally gets some new detectives to work at his agency and the first thing he can do is fail to save most of them from dying horribly. but the five that yakou did manage to save latch onto him and he starts getting into a leader role! even if his new coworkers are all rowdy and get into trouble they still respect him as a leader and look up to him.

the detectives keep picking fights with the peacekeepers that yakou has been trying so hard to dodge. and usually the resolution is kind of messed up because the victims die but the detectives prove themselves capable of handling the peacekeepers! they're helping people! for the first time in a while, yakou comes toe to toe with peacekeepers willingly, to help his new friends. he realizes that he is able to stand up against amaterasu corp, with the help of the others.

but by the time he realizes this, the stage has already been set. the letter from yomi turned his grief into anger and a thirst for vengeance. although yomi gave him the information and opportunity, yakou was ultimately the one who chose to murder the man who murdered his wife.

yakou has already rebuilt his life after his wife's death. the detectives at his agency look up to him and he would do anything for them. it would never be the same as the life he had with his wife but yakou had the chance to turn over a new leaf with a new found family who cares about him.

but instead, yakou plans a murder. he needs to die, over and over, in order to access the man he wants to kill and he accepts it. he needs to trick two kids, who look up to him and who he cares for, into becoming his accomplices to the murder and he accepts it. in the wake of forcing his detectives to witness his murder, he needs leave them in a lab filled with peacekeepers who want to kill them and he accepts it.

and it's not that he doesn't care about his detectives. yuma and halara disobeyed his orders and assaulted several peacekeepers, and he was willing to be arrested himself before throwing his employees under the bus. yuma and fubuki were implicated in terrorism and yakou and the others solve the case for them, then prepare to fight an army of peacekeepers to protect yuma.

for his murder plan, yakou only needs desuhiko and fubuki's powers. but he brings halara and vivia along as well because they would be able to protect the two younger detectives and fight their way out of the lab after yakou dies. he enacts his plan on a day that yuma wasn't around because he won't be able to help fight peacekeepers, so it's better to just keep him out of this mess. he covers up his murder-suicide to protect his detective's feelings, but also because they would be implicated as his accomplices if his plan was revealed.

and yakou probably expected that the other detectives would be fine. if they'd left him behind to die, the other detectives probably would have been able to either fight their way out or hide out in the lab a bit longer and figured out a good plan to escape. if yakou had his way, he would have gotten his revenge and his detectives would have gone home grief-stricken, but unharmed and forever unaware of their roles in his death.

but yakou doesn't account for the fact that the other detectives would try to save his life. yuma doesn't run after the hitman and escape the peacekeepers, he stays behind to beg yomi to help yakou. fubuki uses up all her energy to rewind time to try to prevent yakou's death instead of helping the others escape the lab. halara, vivia, and desuhiko not only have to fight off peacekeepers, but they also have to carry yakou to a hiding spot to give first aid. and instead of calmly planning their next move, everyone is desperate to solve the case so there would be any chance of getting yakou to a hospital as quickly as possible.

one major theme of rain code is that despite tragedies that may have happened in the past, people can work together with those they care about to live a better life in the future. and yakou could have had that. his wife's death should have stayed in the past, and he should have continued to mentor the other detectives, solving mysteries together and enjoying each other's companies.

but yakou couldn't let the past stay in the past. he had every chance to not go through with his murder. he has new people he loves, but he manipulates them and puts them in danger in order to get back at the person who killed the last person he loved. his victory was a pyrrhic one. he got his revenge but in return, he destroyed himself and his detectives' trust in him. he enjoyed his revenge momentarily before dying and leaving his new family, who he used their love and trust for him to his advantage, to pick up the pieces.

yakou furio had lost everything in the past. but in trying to pursue it he destroyed everything he had in the present. that's the tragedy of his character to me.

#shut up pandora #rain code #master detective archives: rain code #yakou furio #character analysis #yakou is one of my favorite characters btw #hes a good person at his core though he fucked up #but also you dont have to be a good person to be a really good character which i think he is #this is @ ppl in youtube comments slamming on yakou for being stupid in chapter 4 btw #like thats the point #thats whats good about his character #would you have preferred if he were JUST a fun dad who gets fridged #thats fucking boring #we do nuance in this household and by household i mean my personal blog #but also what he did was pretty fucked up especially for the kids that he actually got involved #vivia was screaming crying throwing up bc it was a vivia chapter but i wanna see what fubuki's reaction was to the whole thing #bc man is she never gonna want to use her forte again #tragic anime dilfs will scar their kids for life in an elaborate and painful murder suicide instead of going to therapy #i like to acknowledge both sides of characters in general #but yeah while yakou was a really good mentor for the others at the agency and definitely loved them all very much #he put his want for revenge over his love for his found family #and died before he could reconcile to said found family about it

[astriiformes]

Had a really good conversation with my therapist yesterday that has left me feeling better about life & the future than I have in... months, honestly (which also has me feeling really good about her ability to help me continue sorting through things).

I was talking about my distress about the future and in particular what I'm going to do when I graduate, since grad school isn't the most stable option, and she pointed out that since I was spiraling over hypotheticals, maybe it made sense to simply make up my mind about the first step, since applying to grad school is hardly the same as committing to grad school. And she was so right. I am so good at feeling like I need to make the right, perfect decision -- especially after making mistakes with school in the past -- that I have been worrying myself into depressive spirals over what the "right" decision is here. But making up my mind to at least apply and find out what my options are is a decision, that will give me a lot more information in the long run than paralysis over if it's "okay" to apply at all.

It'll still take a lot of work, obviously, and l don't know if I'll even get in anywhere, much less actually commit to doing a PhD if I do. But it has taken such an incredible weight off my shoulders just to say "Okay, I am going to apply, what next?" Because it means I can put all that nervous energy to actual use! Instead of spiraling the next time I start thinking about my options in the future, I can go do research on different PhD programs (without feeling guilty the whole time, like I have been until now)! I can ask my favorite professors for advice! I can reach out to current grad students to ask what they think of their advisors! All of which is actually productive and will help me make the most informed choice I can if and when the time comes, instead of ruminating endlessly on what the "best" one is!

TL;DR -- my therapist is very smart and understands me and the things my brain gets stuck on in a big way, and her advice has dislodged literal months of extremely disordered thinking just like that. Because now I feel like I've made a choice and have something to work towards. And also like I can breathe.

#it is probably not a coincidence that i finally feel like i've 'clicked' with a therapist again who also is knowledgeable about OCD #because i think this is a very OCD problem and very OCD solution #stuck worrying about a totally hypothetical choice? make a non-hypothetical one so it becomes real and actionable instead! #i am literally going to file this away for all major life decisions; i get so stuck on this kind of thing and it's so smart #genuinely cannot overstate how much i've been struggling with this for months and how much it's just. gone now #like i'm having a good week mentally ('maybe it's the start of the semester / maybe it's vyvanse' joke - but actually) #so i am not going to pretend this fixes everything forever #but also it was constantly hanging over me and now it's. not #anyways! i have no idea if academia is the right choice for me! but i'd kind of like it to be! so we'll see what happens! #and in the meantime i will do productive things instead of self-flagellating about being interested in an unstable field! #i love. therapy. love when it works

[pup-pee]

this is basically my kyle playlist

california girls is rlly carrying the angst so sad((she eants me(2 b loved) is not the sadest song ots just the 1st))

#most if the songs r about alex ngl i love her sm #goodmirbing!! my headaches gone yiipppee!!!! #tgus doodles from yesterday tho lol #i was gonna post it on my kyle doodle acc but like?? not anymore #i drew him kinda leaky srry man #actually no not srry CRY MORE #this guy needs therapy idc what u say #i mean most of them do byt like i will ralk about his silly lil issues hes got sm of those #i feel so bad 4 the ppl i talk 2 omfg #i just talk talk talk & never shut up & THEY DONT TELL ME 2 SHUT UP?? makes me frel bad like oh shit i just yapped @ u im so srry #not even talking about dc all the time #its worse when its dc omg #‘no i like hearing u talk’ like uhm DO U? i can make u regreat that here let me talk about kyle rayner #all the ppl irl having 2 deal w/me shuffling trough comics & me making them see smth on my phone 4 context #i swear i dont talk over ppl ot @ least i rlly try not 2 #srry im like sleepy @ am remembering going over 2 1 of my parents friends house &i just talked talked talked #i was ddoung basically a horrible stand up routine #skjfkfkvkkgg #anyaysd kyleee omgg kyle raynerr??!!! #im so srry kyle nation #my kyle tag lmao #kyle rayner #<- is scared #2 put that #dc #puppee art #i think instead of talk talk talk i should say ramble ramble ramble

[soypeachypt2]

I’m still alive I promise I was just going through some shit

#what else is new #me #my face #selfie #girls #girls with tattoos #girls with piercings #it me #soypeachypt2 #soypeachycutie #paramore #I took this selfie in a bar bathroom #if you couldn’t already tell #tequila has gotten me through this week #don’t be like me tho #maybe pick therapy instead #I should probably do that too #girls who wear glasses #girls who are kinda blind #do y’all even read these?

[alithetiredartist]

The dramatic irony of everything happening with Jojo Siwa is so fucking hilarious

First she exploits a disabled child -not hilarious- repeats the cycle of abuse that she was subjected to on dance moms with her own show, allegedly cheats on her girlfriend, etc, etc. then she goes through her “switch” and goes through her 14 year old emo phase at 20.

Tell me why this kid has the audacity to sing a song called Karma.

She tries so hard. She’s trying so hard to make it seem like she’s making the most dramatic change of her generation, she’s completely changed, no more rainbow glitter dance moms now we have emo sparkle darkness revenge fairy. She wants people to think she wrote Karma. She talks about her writing process, and she says how brilliant she is for thinking it up, but she also says that it was pitched to her a few times so we can’t accuse her of lying.

I think on paper this plan was probably a great idea, a chance to break out of her reputation for bows and glitter, but the execution is nothing but a disappointment. I think instead of going emo and taking inspiration from things she doesn't understand and being genuine, the switch honestly could've been welcomed with open arms but she's not genuine and she doesn't want to make a natural switch. She wants to be risky because she thinks it'll make her look cool or someone higher up decided for her and she went along with it because that's what'd make more money or maybe her mom made her.

Once it came out that Jojo didn't only not write the song herself, she wasn't even the first one to record it, that's when the irony of the situation kicks in. I know absolutely nothing about Brit Smith but she's and icon and I love her with my whole heart.

Brit Smith releasing her version of Karma and it doing better than Jojos is my favorite form of dramatic irony because of course this all happened to a song named Karma.

#I honestly do feel bad for Jojo to an extent because of what happened on Dance Moms but everything that's happening is happening #because instead of going to therapy or doing something else to heal she decided to repeat the cycle #her mom reminds me a bit of the Kardashian mom I forgot her name tbh #but I don't think that Jojo herself came up with the transformation #she might've but it seems more likely to me that she was told to do this #I also see her get a lot of completely justified hate toward her for being friends with groomers like James Charles but I think to an extent #she doesn't really get that part because she is still a kid I mean she's only like twenty and when you were raised up around groomers #chances are they do what they do best and groom you #it's not the best excuse because if she came out of her bubble for ten seconds she could see why it was bad but still #idk #karma #jojo siwa #brit smith #karmas a bitch #also i'm staying dramatic irony because I wnst it be clear i'M tla lo ng about the writing technique and not #and not sarcasm irony #god how is the world real #karmas a bitch I should've known better #if i had a wish i would’ve never effed around

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

i need to consume something or my thoughts consume me

#all my therapist telling me she wont treat me until i go sober taught me is to lie to the therapist #and it made me question therapy altogether but all my friends swear by it #but now i already told everyone im going sober so i fucked myself 😑 #well i should learn how to be sober during the week so i can get back into fitness #i have to call the drug counsellor she referred me to and see what she says #something has to change for sure… but im starting to think some people just arent meant to be fully sober #a lot of people dont see through or dont care about the bullshit but i do #and the bullshit just doesnt stop #i just need to be on top of that and have more self discipline and thats what i need to learn #how to not give into my impulses… and then i can do recreational substance use or something instead of abusing them #personal #but at the end of the day its about emotional regulation and self discipline and creating a better life for myself #because when its not substances then its the tv or food or shopping like the general issue is my lack of impulse control #so i dont really see how sobriety will solve all that it will just make me wish i had substances to ease my mind

[faramirsonofgondor]

Jamie stuttering as he gets through his explanation of what happened in Amsterdam. Jamie misunderstanding Roy’s statement of the event being traumatic. Jamie not knowing because he doesn’t remember. Roy looking over worriedly at Jamie after he says so. This whole fucking scene.

#jamie tartt #roy kent #ted lasso #tw sa mention #child abuse #i wish they elaborated on this so badly #the way jamie catches himself as he says ‘with’ and changes it to ‘to’ #therapy must’ve paid off because it seems like he realizes this was something done to him #not something he participated in #i wonder if jamie thought roy was talking about the girl because he spends so much time reflecting on how his choices have hurt others #instead of focusing on how much other people have hurt him #i wish the media didn’t brush off male sa they way they tend to do #it happens in so many shows and movies #no seriously what was with them dropping this and never talking about it again

[buttercupbuck]

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[image description: 5 gifs of evan buckley and eddie diaz from various episodes of 9-1-1.

gif 1: from season 4 episode 14. in the kitchen of the firehouse, bobby (offscreen) says, "buck, what happened to eddie was not your fault." Upset, Buck responds, "No. No, I was just the guy standing there when it happened who couldn't do anything to protect him."

gif 2: from season 5 episode 14. in the loft of the firehouse, buck reassures lucy, "that lady...she didn't die, cause you caught her."

gif 3: from season 4 episode 13. from under the fire truck, buck screams as he pulls eddie towards himself. his face is bloody. the gif is colored black and white.

gif 4: from season 5 episode 14. offscreen, lucy says, "so accept it was a lucky break and move on?" buck responds, "look, your luck could change tomorrow, so we take the wins when we can get 'em."

gif 5: from season 5 episode 14. buck looks up and smiles at eddie as eddie walks into the dining room and pulls out a chair for himself.

/end ID]

#evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 on fox #911 fox #9-1-1 #911edit #alicia edits #if this makes no sense it's just out of my hands at this point #like idk. it's really interesting to think about buck's journey in the context of eddie's and lucy's in this episode #bc like the both of them he also has to accept that he did everything he could do #and that fixating on how he could have done things differently won't change anything #but while they are feeling somewhat hopeless and struggling to see what the point of it all is #buck is oddly - for the first time in a while actually - incredibly optimistic and at this place where he is able to take the wins #and Honestly i think so much of it has to do with the fact that he feels he can finally help eddie #instead of feeling unsure and helpless as he watched eddie struggle alone like he had for all these months before #because yeah. maybe at some point he felt that it should've been him to get shot #but eddie is still *here* #and that's more important than any guilt or fixation on what else he could've done #eddie is still here. how can that not be a win #so buck will be too. he'll be there smiling at eddie as he comes home from his therapy appointment #and taking eddie and chris to equine therapy and helping eddie see that it's not all for naught #he'll be there for everything and all of it - the good and the ugly - is still a win in his eyes

[da-proti-toku-grem]

why can't anyone understand that everyone is different and not everyone likes the same things and that it's completely okay AND normal for someone not to like going out and preferring to stay at home :/

#honestly i understand that my parents care about me and they don't want me to be feeling bad #and that they ask me bc they just want to make sure i'm okay #but i've explained to them what i feel like and they just don't get and i get mad but i akso know it's not their fault and just... oughhhhh #like yeah i have a weird kind of social anxiety according to my therapist and even she doesn't know exactly how to help me yet #but there are just so many reasons behind why i don't like going out and it's not just bc it gives me anxiety #or why those situations give me anxiety in the forst place #1. i'm just a very introverted person that doesn't like going out #2. crowded places/closed spaces/places where there's not enough ventilation/loud places (be it people talking or just music) overwhelme me #3. all said in 2 + flashing lights give me huge migraines that can linger for over 3 days #4. i am very much a night owl and i'm forced to live in a society where that isn't fucking acceptable apparently and i'm called lazy for - #- not being productive in the morning when the only reason behind it is that i am a lot more productive at night #but no one ket's me do that bc 'why are you doing stuff when you're supposed to be asleep?' #i have been the same since i was little. literally nothing has changed #and people where always like 'oh she's just shy' #but idk wtf changed #maybe it was that i became and 'adult' or maybe the fact that i started therapy and they told my parents that i have social anxiety. idk #but suddenly every single person in my family is worried about it and they're genuinely making me feel like there's smth wrong about me #i mean. i have my problems i'm not gonna go telling you that i'm perfect bc i'm pretty much not #but is there really smth that wrong with me that i need to fix #or is society just a bitch that doesn't understand that there's different kinds of people and everyone is different & IT'S COMPLETELY OKAY #have they ever thought about the fact that maybe these situations cause me anxiety bc i've been forced all my life to do them #even if i don't like them #instead of thinking that i don't like them BC they cause me anxiety?? #i mean. i know i have to go out more and that there's tons of things i can do ofc #but you can't just force me to do things i don't want to and put on a good face while doing it *every.fucking.day* #aaaaand i could add a lot more things but i'm once again reaching the tag limit so i shoukd just shut up #it's just driving me crazy bc i know they're trying to help but it really is not helping at all............. #ranting

[m1ckeyb3rry]

GUESS WHO FINALLY CAUGHT UP W THE BLLK MANGA 🤩

#thoughts atm…kurona is so cute idek where he came from but he’s literally adorable #i NEED karasu omg he’s so fine i want to [redacted] [redacted] until we [redacted] #jkjk ofc #also i still love nagi he is my beautiful special princess #i rlly like reo a lot too!! but i don’t really like nagi and reo together. #they as a duo are just kinda boring to me which ik is an unpopular opinion but i must live my truth #and my truth is that they are more compelling interacting w other characters than w each other #wait also when isagi pulled up w the guns i lowkey lost it LMAOAO what even was that #barou continues to be cunty 🤩 i do feel like he looks better as the manga goes on though fs #i wish anri didn’t have so many fan service scenes 😢 but what can you do ig #me and sae are enemies because he has a dumbass haircut but i also can’t stop watching edits of him so like #mayhaps an enemies to lovers arc is incoming idk #rin needs therapy DESPERATELY somebody stop that boy from touching a soccer ball until he’s had at least 8 sessions #because the way that whole mental breakdown in the u20 arc was just not addressed is insane #and kaiser needs to use his million dollar salary to go to a hairstylist instead of letting ness do it #because whatever tf he has going on is certainly…a choice… #okay i think that’s all!! for now at least #m’s thoughts

[starboundsingularities]

tbh it's really always bothered me a bit that they never actually get into the consequences of misusing the magatama. sure, sure, they say your soul shatters, and like, yeah that's ominous and all, but what does it mean? obviously we never get to see that in-game but i've been thinking about it a lot and i would like to present these thoughts because oh boy there are a lot of them. long post under cut but it's a fun little au as well

alright so before getting into it all, obviously there are some things we're aiming to explain, in some sense, with this.

for one: what is a soul, even? most depictions of souls portray them as the very essence of one's self, as the "culmination of your being" or as some similar nebulous expression of an entire person. but... well, if a soul was the entirety of a person, what would that soul shattering entail? it would just kill them. which is a valid reading i guess but not very fun to mess around with and is also a reading that comes with some... troubling implications.

most notably, the meter on how close you are to that breaking point while using the magatama is the same meter as your penalties in court. not just in the asset used, which wouldn't be worth bringing up, but in the sense that once the magatama is introduced, that same value that meter is held at is shared between court trials and the magatama. before the introduction of the magatama, that meter refilled automatically between trials, each trial starting with it completely full, but after the introduction of the magatama, it was only ever refilled by successfully breaking psyche-locks. this is concerning, because it implies a direct connection between phoenix's soul and his performance in court, which probably wasn't intended but is very fun to mess around with and i love the idea of your soul being tied to your passions. however i don't love the idea of him Straight Up Dying if he does too poorly in court so. uh, no insta-death for soul shattering. anyways this whole side tangent never comes up again. thumbs up emoji.

anyways, if a soul shattering doesn't entail simply death, and if a soul isn't just someone's essence or personality or whatever, well, what is it? well, one compelling answer is that it's merely a container. it holds someone's essence or being or personality, but it itself is not that.

thus i present:

Soul Shatter AU

a soul is just a container. one that holds everything in. someone's passions, ambitions, personality.

someone's secrets.

if it were to shatter... without a container, everything would come spilling out. whoever was involved would be unable to keep anything contained within themself. sure, their physical self might be enough to hold in some of the more ambiguous, nebulous aspects of their "self", but it would prove rather difficult to hide something with nothing there to keep it hidden inside.

a fitting punishment, really, for abusing the power to reveal what others have kept hidden.

the fun part, of course, is what comes next. who's used the magatama? who's had the chance to fall to such a fate?

off the top of my head i can think of two people. phoenix wright and miles edgeworth. (i think mia used one too? my friend says she did but i haven't gotten to that part yet i'm only on the third game)

and both of them, despite their focus on finding the truth, are very ironically prone to hiding things themselves. their feelings, their troubles, their emotions.

what if we opened them up a little?

#ace attorney #gyakuten saiban #ace attorney au #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #mia fey #(i barely mentioned her but shhshsh she can be relevant i just don't know enough about her yet) #soul shatter au #i think about this instead of sleeping #like imagine you're in court and your lawyer objects to something and the prosecutor is like ''ok well what's your evidence'' #and your lawyer is like ''um. hold on i have something here i can use for this probably'' #and you of course then ask ''man do you even know what you're doing?'' #and he just says ''i really don't have a plan here but this usually works just trust me'' #the idea of holding them to 100% complete honesty is really funny to me #benefits of this au: whoever you choose to soul shatter gets therapy #it's really funny in a narumitsu context as well because it's only a matter of time before one of them just Has to admit their feelings #like the idea of one of them just talking and the other going ''i want to kiss you so badly'' ''what'' ''NOTHING.'' #etc etc. more things you can do with this but i can't make my tag rambles too long

[lucyvaleheart]

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#another day another vent post #i really shouldn't keep doing this honestly. it doesn't solve anything i think #but i feel I've been too trauma-dumpy in the places i usually go and my dm restrictions mean my options are limited #so.... tumblr it goes i guess #helps that the problem tonight is feeling completely numb and apathetic. #isolating myself because i don't give a shit whether i live or die #and honestly can't really make myself feel..... like any of it matters #is it my meds doing this? who knows..... #any number of things could have caused this #i just. don't give a fuck enough to think about what #i have therapy on Thursday. I'm hopeful it'll help #well. normally I'm hopeful. I'll pretend i am now too. #start actually doing something about whatever is wrong with me. #sigh... #...i don't know if this is a cry for help or not...? i guess I'll slap in the same 'one-time free pass' to dm me on discord again #i can't really picture myself replying and i have no idea what would help. nothing feels like it would. and i may honesty to god just #fall asleep instead. #sorry to keep doing this shit #one day it'll be better #maybe. #Hopefully.

[thee-radio-host-is-a-kookaburra]

one of the things I'm working on to improve my mental health is allowing myself to feel negative emotions. it's helping and I'm noticing improvements in myself but aughhhhh it sucks when I have to do it

#max squawks #it's helping me a lot in the long run #but also aughh wdym I have to allow myself to feel sad instead of forcing and shaming myself to be happy 24/7 #so unfair #can I get a yippee in the notes for mental health improvement #what do I tag this #mental health #therapy #mental illness #actually mentally ill #< just clicked on all the related tags to mental health

[tskumoyuuma]

it is very telling seeing whether people come out after watching "quiet on set" w the mindset of "yes drake bell was sexually abused as a minor BUT he also plead guilty to inappropriate interactions w a minor a few years ago" or "yes drake bell plead guilty to inappropriate interactions with a minor a few years ago BUT he was also sexually abused as a minor".

#quiet on set #drake bell #my 'take' is that there are no 'but's in all this #drake bell was severely sexually assaulted as a minor. #drake bell as an adult shared inappropriate messages w a minor. #drake bell has pleaded guilty to those charges and has acknowledged his wrong doings. #that minor has accused him of worse and says she is traumatized by what hes done. #drake bell is in therapy and has gone to rehab to discuss the effects of what happened to him as a teenager. #these all coexist. there are no 'but's here #its very interesting to see how people here talk about the cycle of abuse #they acknowledge that it happens. but to some people. if u do continue that cycle u no longer are a victim anymore #thats not how this works #everything that has happened to drake bell and everything that drake bell has done #none of it makes one thing less true than the other #and i think what we should be focused on instead of 'oh so is drake bell canceled or not?' #is what the documentary is really about. child safety in the entertainment industry