#uhhh idk this is kind of bad

[skoulsons]

“Dad!”

The pitter patter of Sarah’s little feet trudging through the upstairs hallway and coming to a squeaking halt outside his door was always a welcome replacement for whatever beeping from hell his clock was set to.

It wasn’t often, especially as she got older—though she was only ten—but Sarah loved being with him in the morning before he drove her to school and he worked an eight hour shift at the site. Their nights were always spent together as Sarah told him about her day at school as he caught up on dinner, or Joel complaining in depth about all that happened at work that day just so Sarah could throw him a sarcastic look of I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Their nights were constant. It was down time for just the two of them to sit in front of the tv or for Sarah to curl up against him or prop her feet in his lap as she did homework.

The mornings felt more special. They didn’t always get them. Joel sleeps late, they miss breakfast, or Sarah’s sick. But the mornings they get—the times when they snuggle together, most often in silence—are always exceptional.

Sarah has a sleepy smile on her face and her hairs all folded over to one side when she steps through his door, making her way to his bed. “Morning, dad,” she says, only making half an effort to crawl into his bed before plopping down next to him.

Joel rolls over onto his back, his head turned to the side to meet her eyes. He smiles at her, warm and bright. “Mornin’, baby girl. How’d you sleep?”

She nods, her eyes half shut. “Good.”

“Good. No bad dreams?”

“Mm-mm,” she mumbles, scooting closer to him.

She hooks both her arms around his one, holding on to it and resting her head on his deltoid. She blows out a sigh, the air hitting his arm and traveling over his chest. “Do you have to go to work?”

Hs turns his head to her, his chin siting atop her head. He kisses her once, lifting his head. “I do, kiddo.”

Sarah lets out a sigh and Joel can tell it’s a sad one. Her typical one when Joel gives her the same answer, her wishing every time that it’s different so she can drag him by the arm to fairs or ice cream stands with their newfound free time.

He wants it as much as she does. As tired as may get being a single father, he relishes when they get to be out of the house and he can hold Sarah’s hand in his as they’re out in public. To go out and give her experiences and memories she’ll carry into her adulthood. And, even if they’re forgotten by that point, at least he’s given her something that’s made her smile.

That’s all he could ask for, really.

“When will you be home?”

He directs his attention back to her, even though he can’t quite meet her eyes. “6 at the latest.”

She pulls away, an expectant look on her face as briefly changes the subject. “Sunday! We can do something Sunday! You’re not working!”

“That is a good idea, but…” he draws out the but slightly, the smile on his face growing. “I actually have a three day weekend this weekend. So that means-“ he turns completely on his side, hooking one arm under her side and the other going over her other side to pull her on top of his chest. Sarah giggles as he hoists her on top of him, holding her to his chest.

She speaks before he can finish his sentence. “Friday, Saturday, and Sunday?”

He laughs, “Yes ma’am,” he answers, kissing the crown of her head. “We get plenty more time.”

#uhhh idk this is kind of bad #thought about it in the shower #I was gonna make it longer and Joel throw out ideas out there #like them going to a nearby lake or the movies or a butterfly sanctuary or something #you know the typical things #but I got kind of lazy #very eepy #the last of us #the last of us hbo #joel miller #sarah miller #L fics

[syrasenturi]

scribbly amphibbies

bonus christmas garfapillar

#amphibia #marcy's journal spoilers #kinda #syrass #im too embarrassed to talk more about my post amphibia anne ideas #but a little bit of it #it's like around when she starts drifting from sasha and marce but also realizing what she wants to do in life #hence the froggies #but she becomes like a local cryptid #there's still lingering effects of her powers but she feels she's grown too distant from the only people she can talk to about it to even br #ing it up so she tries to deal with it on her own #i dont want it to be all angsty but it is a good bit and i dont have all the details but yeah #anyway unrelated but my best marcys are the fucked up ones #which i dont like perpetuating no because i think it's bad but because i think marcy would not react super uhhh sad? idk how to word it #she'd be more avoidant and play it off i think and not so much fall back on depression as just sad melancholy that she'd then turn to #some kind of positivity i think idk she's an excited kid and nd you know #ok thats the most ive talked about anything in a while time to shut up again goodbye #also thanks for everyone who bought garfapillar stickers i hope you like them <3

[craske]

did the friendship meme, lets ignore the fact they didnt even meet eachother in canon and didnt have that much screentime together in the q2 game. And their dynamic is even more different since teddie is also older by 4-5 years

its basically the whole serious vs the silly except the serious is also silly but is much better at hiding it

or in tldr autism vs adhd

#persona 5 #persona 4 #teddie #kuma #goro akechi #my art #fanart #digital art #meme #theyve been rattling in my brain for so long now #idk if i can really make a coherent post with their dynamics #uhhh #goro is a ride or die kind of friend but he is stupid and silly and i cant stand him so he doesnt really show it #meanwhile teddie will cry over the simplest things and jump around and shit rainbows #only to end up being very mentally ill too #sharing your bad deep feelings? no hed sooner die #goro is the same but they both frustrate eachother with that #dw theyre best friends #so healthy for eachother <- lie

[taakosleftshoe]

i wish people were more open to saying "its not for me" rather than being like "this is objectively bad and here's why"

#sierra speaks #this is about the taz subreddits but uhhh also about things in general lmao #i notice this shit so often and it is the one thing that grinds my gears #bc there are valid critiques of things but theres also recognizing that maybe it just didn't sit with you but maybe there are good things.. #like im sorry you hated devo... they were trying to tell an interesting story lmao #i get that people miss taz being a comedy but like... the mcelroys have changed w that ! they want to tell stories! #there are still goofs but there are also stories #and like... i fr think ethersea is just as interesting as balance #anyways this is just a view even outside of taz that has been very real to my mind these past few years #its like im.. extremely sick of negativity in general? i think we can critique things!! but it doesnt have to be an awful hellscape yk. lik #we CAN enjoy things or just.. not partake in them... #cause there are many things i dont think are objectively bad. but so many people out there will be like oh this is unlistenable and im like #idk dog i had a good time #i definitely think ethersea is the kind of season that is most fun when binged and less so when it's airing #whereas steeplechase feels the opposite! idk just what im feeling rn :]

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

noooo you can let me describe the doctors body trust me i totally wont be weird about it this time

#me explaining why the doctor is hot: well theyre old enough to be my messiah so jot that down #also a body thats died many times #me opening the powerpoint: so before we begin hands up how many of you have spent more time than you should thinking abt jesus' body #church was like and this is body of christ and me being 7 and autistic took that in every way they DIDNT mean #anyway sorry yaz not sure what exactly the sin is here but im pretty sure uhhh it is one #its usually the master doing this #but yaz is taking the masters place in this fic so #that tracks i guess #gonna have to figure out how to take the pronouns out of this too #also look at the third person/second person flipflopping #i do that kind of a lot but i realised in this paragraph maybe thats because..........there isnt a third person imperative uhh mode? #is that a mode we call that idk #there ISNT a third person imperative right? thats just second person? #i think so #but its interesting bc thats like the main way my narration flipflops #idk if thats like bad. bad writer habit or whatever #if it is i dont really care #it doesnt bother ME so #idk if it bothers anyone else #one time i had a fun paragraph in the doctors pov where it went from its standard 3rd to 2nd to 1st. 1st plural i think #and then Back to 3rd distance yourself from yourself dont get too close #anyway

[aj-lenoire]

apparently the reason may december is being snubbed during awards season is because a lot of actors REALLY didn’t like what it had to say about actors who take on the roles of real people, and the idea that a bunch of former theatre kids might be sensitive about criticism of the industry they work in is, to me, just so shocking

#hey guess what every industry has problems but the answer is not to ignore and snub people who comment on them #also #it almost seems wilful because for me the main takeaway was uhhh abusing kids is bad?? #a white woman was able to continue abusing a boy/man of colour by infantilising herself to him and the entire world #like the natalie portman as an actress thing seemed more the catalyst of other things in the film than the main point #the whole media circus and the desire of the public to know every detail is kind of secondary to watching this young man #—​who in so many ways still behaves and thinks of himself like a child—come to terms with the fact he’s been lied to and failed #just utterly failed by everyone who supposedly is there to protect him #idk i really liked it and charles melton deserves an oscar for that performance #reggie from riverdale held his own against julianne moore and natalie portman like holy shit #something something charles melton’s character never had his own voice as a child and now as a grown man still doesn’t #he is spoken over by his wife/abuser and by the media who document/frame/characterise his history and now by natalie portman’s film #may december #aj abstractions

[rusty-gloinks]

changed my display name on robloxs to darkXwolf17 because (REFERENCES) and ..AUGHH💥💥💥💥💥

#My parent saw it #GHEHHSAAA #they know nothing about murder drones and I’m too timid to talk about my interests because thryl think I’m weird or soemtjing #so all I said was like “idk. ” im so good with responses #Now I feel sick about it even though it was like a mistake I panicked💀 #i did. wanna say where it was from but I didnt #Last time I mentioned the word “murder drones” my parent said “uhhh okay?” I NEEDTO EXPLODE AND HIDE AND RUN AWAY #/ hj #i wanna show them Md so bad but I’m so horrible at sharing interests with family (parents mainly😍😍 /hj #slight vent #kind of #more embarrassed than anything though😭 #Wrenbles #OH ALSO NECAUSE THE PILOT IS LIKE. KIND OF CRINGEY AND ANGSTY AND I DONT KNOW .IF THEY LIKE THAT

[komaneko-kun]

wtf i'm already 1 year on T

#1 year and 4 months #i wasn't keeping track because uhhh idk im bad at keeping track of things!!! #didn't track my period before not doing this either! #i got my last T shot date wrong twice lol thank u kind nurse for not getting mad at me HDKAJEW #but wooo yay for me #1 year of man juice

[cephalonheadquarters]

ghghggh….they don’t know about my thoughts on orca…. and how 3 and Callie interact with it……bbhbhbhbbh and my freaking alterna oc

And I keep seeing people be like FINALLY some orca content! Do they know? Do they know? Do they know? If you look in the tag you will see

#Sorry I know my art will always have different interpretations. I think I’m hung up on it because it’s My Neo 3 #no one knows about my thoughts because it’s the first time they see my orca art and it’s 1 drawing #Observe my bajillion orca drawings #I hate posting my 3 so bad she’s personal to me or whatever and it feels like people try to change her #I know she’s an agent I know agents are meant to be changed but even so my 3 is kind of. Not an agent to me #like she is but I never think of her as one #idk. It feels like people often misinterpret uhhh something #I wish my other orca art was paid as much attention to as my stupid splatfest one. Whatever #Sorry I’m not even mad idk why I’m talking like that. I’m a little discouraged though. Such is the way of posting art online #And I don’t see orca as a parental figure its a tired computer and 3 is just really annoying #aaahhhhhhhbhbhh

[soupforstars]

I find it genuinely hilarious how many signs there were pointing to us being a system from ages ago... As the host whos been here the longest I'm surprised I didn't look into it sooner, like I SERIOUSLY wondered on MORE THAN TWO SEPERATE OCCASIONS as a teen whether I had DID, but brushed it off both times because I thought "oh I'm not traumatised enough" and "you have to experience blackouts and time jumps and I haven't so I can't" (spoiler alert, I definitely was incredibly traumatised and I definitley have had blackouts before but even then I didn't know that those weren't fully necessary for a diagnosis).

And this is without getting into "my" love of any media that involved characters with alter egos, "multiple personalities", etc. Like I LOVED the Jekyll and Hyde musical when I found it, my favourite Total Drama character was Mike (the one with DID but like. when people still knew it as MPD. also he wasnt the best rep lol), I loved the Markiplier and Jacksepticeye egos, for a short time I was into Sander Sides, I had full on "characters" that were "aspects of my personality" but also next to them was just. My actual sona? Completely seperate from them, which actually represented me?

I just really thought I liked media with alternate egos/personalities but methinks the call was coming from inside the house sdjshsnsjsbdjdb

#talking tag #🌒 tag #any other systems have that kind of experience?? #mostly adressing traumagenic systems soz endos i just have no idea how you all work /lh #i only realised it this year thanks to anti's help and even then we were bamboozled lmfao #uhhh idk how to tag this and im scared to tag too much svdbsbsb #did system #osdd system #dissociative identity disorder #otherwise specified dissociative disorder #i hesitate to use the tags 'actually did' cus even tho we're medically reconised we're still technically not diagnosed and- #-i really do feel that sweet sweet (/s) imposter syndrome + host denial kicking in #brain is silly ;w; #wishing i could be like anti and just not have anxiety #its crazy. i can feel how much less anxious he is when hes fronting and how easy it is for him to brush off anxious thoughts like #if he wasnt constantly in a state of mild sensory overload all the time i think he'd be too powerful /hj #i feel bad for him tho :c he loves fronting but its sensory hell for him #not to mention he has really bad heat tolerance which is ok for now while its winter in aus but we dont have an aircon so- #-when it becomes summer hes praying we get out of emergency housing by then so he doesnt have to suffer all day in the heat #sjdbsjbdbd adhd train of thought go off i guess

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

...

#someone help me figure out why it hurt me so bad that my beloved sister in law #said yesterday that my kid sister has a bohemian style but that she (SIL) and I are just plain janes #bc she said it as a solidarity joke kind of thing #but for some reason it really really hurt me #maybe because i think of my style as loosely a little bit punk in a very understated simple way??? #i wear a lot of black and cargo pants and graphic t-shirts and doc martens etc. #like I've been leaning into the all-black aesthetic lately lol bc one of my friends and i were joking about #me having my emo phase as an adult and i was like lol gotta commit to the bit now huh? #like... idk maybe it's just bc my emotional regulation is shot this weekend (sleepytired and busy) but being referred to #as a plain jane wrt the way i dress hurt my feelings sjdkfjskfnskfj #i sound like a griping little kid sorry i just wanted to uhhh vent a little bit???? soz

[hella1975]

I would hate this but actually this is so important I hope it gets worse

gloomy. bestie. every single time you say something like this i have to clench my fist very tight and breathe through my nose

#i feel like you would really love andrew if you stuck around long enough to know him #but i can also tell that you do NOT like this book lmfao #so it's a toss up really #like gloomy im being so serious in the SEVEN YEARS since i first read aftg you are the first person ive seen #that's looked at this objectively bad book and gone 'this kind of blows' and proceeded to make only logical observations #THE FIRST PERSON #DO YOU KNOW HOW CRAZY THAT IS LIKE AFTG IS SO BAD YET EVERYONE I KNOW GOT SUCKED IN #YOU ARE THE FIRST TO BREAK THE PHENOMENON AND NOW IM JUST HERE LIKE UHHH YEAH IDK WHAT TO TELL YOU #ask #aftg

[eyes1nthewoods]

watched nimona. it was ok.

#(i'm very mean in the tags sorry :() #i havent seen the comic so my criticism is purely of the movie. #idk just kind of a mid kids movie. balister is very cute i liked him. #nimona......i want to like her but idk. i think her backstory should've had more attention put towards it. more hints about it #instead of the really abrupt scene near the end that explains everything. that was stupid. #(honestly better yet don't show anything have a big heartfelt outburst where she half explains what happens #(gross crying optional but preferred) #and leaves the rest to the audiences imagination. maybe a scene with voiceover that doesn't quite reveal everything) #the setting is pretty cool. story didn't make much sense to me. #''the wall is there to protect us against monsters!!'' but there's literally only one monster and it's nimona. #which could have been ok if the movie had been...better written i guess?? #like do the guards just sit around doing nothing. is it a police state?? i mean obviously they're cops but. they don't do anything. #they aren't even shown to be especially bad or anything just incredibly incompetent #uhhh the romance is cute. it's nice. i wish it was more fraught and bitter. #the passage of time isn't clear it seems like it happens over the course of like a day??? #balister learning to accept nimona was clumsy and rushed #the message of the film is nice. would be better if the movie was good. #i think the movie could've been longer and it would've fixed most of these things #i REALLY liked the animation though. the eyes being permanantly dilated was ehhh but forgivable on account of balister being very cute.

[bragganhyl]

ngl i do feel a bit of an itch to write something with the newest edition of Bertalan but i know it's the devil talking especially now

#hablaty #eeeh i'm half-way in that weird mental space that i talked about the other day #but i know that if i were to write something and it got either bad or no reception i'd probs fall back into it fully #yeah i'm craving vaildation like crazy rn i'm not a fan of the feeling #and like yeah i could scratch the writing itch and just not show it off but uhhh #but uhhh idk how to explain this #i don't have the kind of relationship with this game or the characters or the dynamics that it would automatically make writing about them #its own reward if that makes sense so yeah it's... not a praticularly nice feeling to have i do feel kinda guilty about it but... yeah #thanks for exposing yourself to this weird rant idk what the point was

[fefairys]

Black Cats Bring Good Luck

hey! i'm writing a serialized novel called Black Cats Bring Good Luck! For the most part, it's a fun stupid tropey semi-satirical romp about a dude who works at 7-11 who finds an injured cat, and when they take him in, it turns out he's actually a real life catboy!

it starts out as a lot of silly fun catboy shenanigans but it's also about, like, queerness and polyamory and mental health and a whole bunch of other stuff! its kind of all over the place, tbh. sort of just a "realistic" (lol) look at what this dude's life is like, without a whole lot of structured plot. i think its fun! :)

it's already quite long, (over 100k words) and updates whenever i feel like! (usually about once a month, give or take)

[bcbgl contains adult themes including several (as tasteful as i could make them) sex scenes, and frequent use of cannabis. reader discretion advised]

update log|chapter 1|meet the characters (contains mild spoilers)

Salem, the titular catboy, also has his own canon tumblr that you can follow, interact with, send asks etc right here: @catboizx3 (also contains adult content)

#please please please interact with salems blog #if u ask the right questions u might even get exclusive info 😳 #bcbgl #my writing #catboy #catboys #salem #dirt #idk what else to say about it like uhhh #contains themes of anti-capitalism so thats fun! lol #everyone is queer of course #it stars the most pathetic sopping wet man youve ever seen #theyre a compulsive liar and fuck up so bad all the time. its fun #idk im kind of bad at describing things but especially this because it is all over the place #i think.. it will surprise you and not be what you expect exactly #idk! #it takes place Right Now during covid and everything #its good i think. my friends tell me its good.

[cerealmonster15]

MORE!!! [1] [2] [4]

twst stardew au tag -> twst farming sim au, bc we respect harvest moon in this house

ft protag caycay adventures + chenya jumpscares in the mines

also some stuff i found in discord w/my friend as i was comin up with hypothetical ~cutscenes and mechanics~ lol

#twisted wonderland #twst farming sim au #cater diamond #uhhh ill just tag him since hes in like all of these lol #cereal tries to draw #my blog theme is still cursed if ur on desktop plz click for the full pic if ur on my blog #i need 2 change it so bad #anyway ya i forgot i had all those ones from discord kjflsj #i have given farming sim aus Lots of Thought #i forgot just how much had #you can see those discord messages are from JANUARY lol #uhhh if u cant read the discord handwritten parts they say #jade: oh hello~ i was just admiring your collection <3 #POV: this dude bangs on ur door @ 6am to give u a slice of cake [[trey: i made extra...] #cater: i bring u egg! | trey: wow! #deuce: i think you'll like this one! | cater: she looks kinda like you lol... #<- the implication being the chicken looks lost and confused. like juice. lol #anyway i literally always have twst on the brain and i love farming sims/farming sim aus #idk if people are into this kind of thing but I AM and it's MY BLOG so HERES MORE