#vent incoming

[1o1percentmilk]

i kind of just realized that literally everything i do is a job to me

#vent incoming #im gonna think abt it on the way home.. #yap #a guy called me a workaholic and i feel like thats true in even more ways than the conventional conception of it #:(

[transxfiles]

im gonna be sick

#cricket.chatterbox #vent incoming

[wompwomf]

kids these days will want anything to be a trauma story for them

"my dad groomed me" and "im a ramcoa survivor"

and then when you ask them about it they end up describing their dad being a normal loving parent and they just left a church because the pastor was mean once (he was probably pointing out bad behavior in sunday school)

and as a survivor of grooming, i can't say anything on the ramcoa bit, its fucking disgusting how many kids will call me a groomer for wanting to be friends, or for calling them a nickname, you can be friends with people of other ages and not be romantic

and im sorry if this part specifically offends you, but 2-3 year age gap IS NOT GROOMING, grooming is 5 or more years apart when one or both is under the age of 18!! and 17 year olds, stop trying to make every adult out to be a groomer for trying to help you

ive met people who are actual groomers, and people who have been groomed, if an adult inconveniences you YOU ARE NOT BEING GROOMED, being groomed is when the intent is specifically and clearly romantic and or sexual INITIATIVE FROM SOMEONE OLDER, if you are making advances on an adult, youve been groomed or your fucked up, but that is on the adult to stop or block you!!! YOU making advances and them stopping you IS NOT GROOMING and im tired of people acting like it is!!!

stop pretending to have actual trauma from something non traumatic, when you ACTUALLY get groomed i will listen and console you, if you say your groomed i will believe you UNTIL i hear your story, if your story is just a normal encounter with someone 2 years or older and YOU interpreted it as romantic or sexual, im leaving you and your trauma at the door because I couldn't care less

here are the definitions if grooming and pedophilia, YOU ARE NOT BEING GROOMED!! if your experience does in fact fit into these definitions, i recommend getting help from a friend or a professional to get out of this problem, whether you are a pedophile, or are being victimized by one, and i sincerely hope everything gets better, my prayers are being sent to you and to a safe recovery 💜

#tw vent #vent post #vent #tw grooming #tw ramcoa #small mention #fake trauma #trauma #this is mostly directed at minors in the plural community #putting endo tags because they are also responsible for doing this #my ex LoreandCo (name dropping yeah) was convinced someone was a groomer when in reality it was just a power dynamic #a power dynamic is not grooming #its just abuse #stop adding more onto something that doesn't need it #endogenic #traumagenic #plural #system #faking #its getting to the point im ashamed to be a system #minors are getting closer and closer to my DNI #rant post #personal rant #rant into the void #ranting #rant #venting #vent incoming #anti endo #stop watering down the words “pedophile” and “groomer” THEY HOLD MEANING FOR A REASON dont ruin it to validate your system

[belong2human-kind]

Hey guys, Clara here 🫂

This is a venting post, it has some TWs: cancer illnesses, mentions of trauma and mental disorders.

I've been very off from tumblr, feeling pretty detached from pretty much anything lately. I'm not even sure if I'm going through another depressive episode or just life itself has been pretty tough, maybe both.

I always talk about how bad OCD, generalized anxiety and ADHD get my routine and my life really messed up, but there are more things, some that only a few here know because I am always really scared to talk about, mostly because of OCD. I have a lot of different themed obsessions, but one of them includes mystical thinking ("If I say this, it will happen" or "I can't sing, write or mention the word de a th completely or I'll lose someone" etc.)

Some days, I am feeling way better about these things and I even manage to write about it, but on others, not so much. So, as I mentioned here before, I can't say the phrase, but my closest family person is facing a stage 4 cancer right now, and things have not been going the best. I lost my dad to covid at the same year and month this person discovered the cancer, same month, she also had covid at the same time. And now her brother is terminal stage on cancer too. I have the historical of this disease on both sides of my family, VERY strongly. My family isn't very united and they are not so young, plus the heavy cancer history; I fear almost everyday I'll lose everyone and end up alone, also not to mention the fear of developing it too 🥲

Because of OCD and my fears, I cannot mention who the person is, but some might have an idea by what I said, and I guess two people here know because I can talk privately about, OCD just won't allow me to mention it "public" (I know it makes no real sense, but OCD never have made any). Well, things are going pretty hard. I feel really lost :')

Lately my chronic issues have been out of control: constant asthma attacks and my asthma was so much more controlled, more rhinitis and sinusitis pain than ever that won't ever stop, not even after 4 or 6 meds, more nauseous, more insomniac (almost 3 months very badly sleep deprived because of nightmares of all these trauna :'c ), forgetting to eat, skipping classes, 0 notion of time and space progression... And after all of that, I'm still dealing with an old childhood trauma too :'c it's been too tough. I hope I can make out of this, honestly. Life has been a nightmare. Trying to find strength to face all of this :')

I haven't forgotten any of you, and I hope I'll find back motivation to be active and interact. I love this community and I feel so welcomed by everyone 🫂

Miss you all and hope you're all doing well 🫂🌻

#vent incoming #venting post #depressive episode #depressive mood #tw: cancer #pure ocd #adhd #anxiety disorders #complex ptsd

[axolozzy]

hey is there a difference from stealing something mass manufactured from a multibillion dollar corporation or stealing food from homeless people. trying to see somethjng. trying to prove my family wrong

#vent #vent incoming #i hate my family #OBVIOUSLY. THERES A HUGE FUCKINF DIFFERENCE??????? ARE YOU STUPID??????? ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID???? #WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!!!!!! #APPARENTLY STEALING IS JUST AS MORALLY WRONG AS R/PING SOMEONE?????? #said my parents just now #i can’t take it i gotta get out of here i can’t stand listening to my parents say the most stupidest shit i’ve ever heard #they’re gonna kick me out after i graduate anyway i guess so i should probably get a job #thinking about working for 8 hours straight everyday makes me wanna fucking kms though (/j) i dont know what im gonna do #i don’t have any friends irl that are older than me and have their shit figured out #i need to get my shit together #i’ll be okay all this will blow over in a few hours and we’ll all be forgiving eachother anyway #like always

[githling]

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#vent incoming #but oh my god im so sad lately! im so sad about everything #my internet is out and it's going to cost me $200 to reactivate it #can barely stand to look at myself lately without feeling disgusted #i have no pride or confidence in my art anymore #i sleep until 2-3pm each day and then get up and go straight to work and then come home and go right to bed #i have so many phone calls and appointments to make and i have to see my fucking family this month i feel sick #i am wallowing in a deep swampy pit of misery #and i just want to cry and cry and cry

[llitchilitchi]

:/

#vent incoming #id really appreciate it if my ex uhhh respected my boundaries #like its nothing groundbreaking #but she likes to go out with people drinking and whenever she does shes very unfocused when responding to my messages #(we have lengthy conversations about stuff and she keeps them going despite hanging out with people which no comment there) #and I always get overwhelmed and anxious when it goes on for a long while because I cant make sense of the conversation n stuff #so i tried to push the conversations into a lull whenever she was out #and last weekend i kinda lost my patience with it and told her directly that i dont fuck with this anymore and i refuse to do this #we can have a few 'hi how are you where you at how you doing whats up' kinda stuff going but never the in depth stuff we talk about #she was whiny but eventually just let me have my way because i wouldnt entertain the rest #and today she was responding kinda funny and i wondered if its just me being bad at talking again or if shes busy with stuff #no :) she went out and didnt tell me :) and she just slipped up because she was frustrated about her friend getting drunk :) #i shouldnt even be posting this but ugh I am just. so tired #i get it she missed me cause i was away for most of the day and wouldnt even respond cause i dont use data when im out #but pulling this is just not it

[laddersofsweetmisery]

Everytime I read the news I feel like death is waiting right outside of my door. Who wouldn't be agoraphobic at this point? Ignorance really is bliss. I miss the feeling of being 11 years old with little internet accessibility--stupid and loving it.

I've grown to dislike my humanness. I hate having a body that needs constant tending to and external responsibilities placed on me by systems my species has created without my input. I always have to eat, sleep, drink, use the bathroom, take care of myself physically and mentally... aliveness is exhausting. I know I have a tendency towards laziness and others frown upon idleness, but why is 'doing nothing' considered a sin when the years of others 'doing something' have lead to great examples of human suffering? Would history be kinder if we just did a little less a little more happily? Most of the good deeds in the world are just people responding to other's bad deeds or systematic failings. We're constantly picking up the slack and fixing the messes of others who wanted to 'do something.' The beauties seem so temporary compared to the exhaustion. I hate having the ability to reflect and this harrowing awareness of my own existence. To be human seems to be an overwhelming recognition of pain. I don't know if I'll ever truly be happy being alive if it means staying human and I don't know what therapist could ever fix that. Maybe a little witch who wants to turn me into a frog could, but that's about it.

#trauma vent #venting #vent incoming #diary #spilled thoughts

[notwhirlpool]

at my lowest atm but sorta happy bc I've got a couple albums worth of songs

#photography #vent post #music #whatever #landscape #photoart #vent incoming #stupid

[g4ostt0wn]

If you don’t fit in a small community a high school leave. If something isn’t worth staying there is no point to. I held on to so many friendships because I was scared not because I was happy. If you let go you will find people who actually love and care about you.

#ventcore #vent incoming #vent post #personal #small town core #small town problems #small town america #high school #school #advice #diffrent #autism #the real deal

[teddysterk]

To the lovely people out there im sorry you have to listen to me screaming 😁❤️ you deserve the world

OK LISTEN UP NSFW ACCOUNTS IF YOU KEEP FOLLOWING MY FRIEND @/the-gingerbread-lee I WILL END YOU!!!! SHE IS A MINOR AND SOMEONE WHO I SEE AS A SISTER SO F OFF!! THIS ALSO GOES FOR ANY SFW/MINOR ACCOUNTS IF THEY SAY NSFW DNI THEN DO! NOT! INTERACT! HAVE I MADE MYSELF CLEAR!?!?

#cw vent #venting #vent incoming #vent #personal vent #vent tag #what the fuck #fuck off #fucking bots #fucktumblr #go away #go awaaaay #leave them alone #i’m going to scream

[lobotomygender]

if i had a nickel for every time a best friend of mine i knew irl ignored me / talked over me over text id have two nickels. which isnt a lot but it's weird that it happened twice

#cw vent #vent #vent tw #tw vent #venting #vent incoming

[anadorablekiwi]

I… think i should go to bed maybe

#kiwi rambles #✨depression✨ #vent incoming #i dont know if tumblr is broke or if no one likes it #so im just gonna pretend i never posted it to begin with #its better that way

[fumrell]

Mental health in such a bad spot that not even fursona art can help

#vent incoming #i was supposed to get referred to a psychiatrist today but my doctor was 45 minutes late and i have a gig today so i had to leave early #and go to school #and also while i was at the doctor my dad decided now was a *perfect* time to get on my nerves #he kept giving me bullshit mental health advice he saw on facebook #and then offered to pay me 250 dollars if i got a vaccine shot today despite #a) me not being mentaly pepared or forewarned for that whatsoever #b) me not FUCKING BEING THERE FOR THAT #c) the fact that even if my doctor wasn't late we were still on time constraints.

[ghostfoolish]

xxx

#vent incoming #I hate being in videos and pictures without my permission #I hate it so SO much #like it makes me so bad when it’s not me taking my own pictures #my mom just tried to do a video with me in it when she didn’t ask first and I ended up knocking her phone out of her hand without thinking #and now I feel bad 😞 #I apologized to her and everything but fuck I hate it #I hate when people feel like they can just put a camera in front of me without asking first #it makes my skin crawl

[belong2human-kind]

Hi guys 🌻

Sorry for disappearing again 😞💔 I'm not so fine, but I'll try be a little more active in the next days. I feel really tired and overwhelmed those last days, a lot has happened and honestly I'd just like to sleep to skip this tumultuous times and the pain that it causes. I don't really even know what's making me down lately, I guess it's a big mix of feelings. Lately, I've been having this depressive episodes frequently where I just can't play what I like to, where I can't draw, write or even see joy of entering here to role play with my friends. This is quite sad and unexpected because I'm taking antidepressants (to treat my severe OCD and GAD, I don't have any depression diagnosis) so I don't think I should be feeling this sad out of nowhere. I don't have motivation to do anything, but usually even though I lack energy to do stuff I like, I still want to do them, I usually don't feel so so sad without a strong motive (like when I have to face traumatic events and situations, involving people and alcohol as an example)

Don't really know what's happening 😞 I was getting better, but I guess it happens right? I've heard that healing is a curve of ups and downs, not a straight line, but sometimes this downs do get me really unmotivated

Letting go of something that still hurts you deeply is really hard... but it's worthy.

Some people here know that I'm the Mun of the account of @lothal-cat-jedi . I roleplay Ez, my dearest jedi boy and for sure his character is always teaching me so many stuff. Since I get to disappear a lot due to my health, I'd like to say that I will still continue to roleplay with Ezra, but if my group that roleplays with me wants to roleplay with another mun and account, I hope you guys know that you're all free to do it 🌻 after all, the much Ezras the better 💙😂

@oldmanwithashield my dear friend, I'm sorry for not talking too much with you and disappearing from here and from our rp💔 I ADORE role-playing with you, youre the best Sabine ever! Rebellious at heart❤

Adore you all guys, hope you all are safe cause world have been really crazy lately🤍

#ezra bridger #update #vent incoming #sorry for disappearing #sorry for being inactive #im feeling so sick right now #i am sorry #sigh 😞