#where have i been? ive been ill

[dailysquiddo]

"the harsh sun beats down on dirt roads full of pebbles and dust.

its harsh rays peel the paint on the slowly decaying houses. all of the grass has long since died in the heat.

most of the houses are empty, and they have been so for a long time. some of the houses have sun-bleached curtains flapping in empty wind, shattered glass from once clean windows now littering the ground in thousands of dirty, yellowed shards like fallen, tarnished stars."

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or, squiddo and ashswag go ghost hunting.

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#where have i been? ive been ill #this isnt a drawing but i think its cool enough to be a daily >:) #i was going to copy-paste it into tumblr but the formatting is really important to the Experience #red-green-blue au #writing #non linear narrative #horror #(?) i guess #creative writing #short story #i guess??? #poetry #(but not really) #squiddo #the real squiddo #daily squiddo #mcyt #ashswag #lifesteal smp

[melonsharks]

i went. insane. LOOK. i know a lot of people realllyyyy wanted crowley to be the wedding dress designer LOOK I KNOW AND ITS OK u can make ur own au i promise but in MY WORLD. you need to understand me.

crowley owning a vineyard is personal to me. he is THE snake in the garden of eden, tempting is his JOB ok. he makes wines aziraphale indulges in, aziraphale designs dresses with crowley in mind. do you hear me. are you listening to me. i have everything from the second they meet mapped out OK i know what im talking about. listen to my delusions, boy.

#ive been losing my mind ive seen this movie so many times this week #how my friends arent sick of hearing me talk abt this is a miracle in and of itself #good omens #good omens 2 #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable divorce #warlock dowling #go adam young #ineffable husbands #parent trap au #good omens au #gabuart #I WAS ONLY PLANNING TO DRAW THIS ONCE AND NEVER TALK ABOUT IT AGAIN. #i have more where theyre young but ill post them tomorrow #i mean im posting them all on instagram tonight so u can see them there if u want

[choccy-milky]

🔞NSFW comic🔞

just seb being insatiable when it comes to clora 😇 refractory period?? whats that?? never heard of it

[ TWITTER ]

[ POIPIKU ] and a lil extra doodle:

(aka seb and clora if contraceptive potions didnt exist LMAO.... girl would just be preggo 24/7)

#its funny bc seb and clora are only gonna have 2 kids but oh boy.. this is an alternate reality of what would have been LMAO. pray for her #also speaking of them having babies i finally designed their 2 kids that im happy with ill post em soon #hogwarts legacy #sebastian sallow #sebastian sallow x mc #sebastian sallow x oc #sebastian sallow smut #hogwarts legacy sebastian #sebastian x mc #hogwarts legacy smut #wanted to finish this and post it before i went to my moms LMAOOO nothing makes u feel more like a degenerate than drawing smut at ur fams #also if ur still reading the tags and uve also been wondering about a new chapter SOON i promise ive written 13k so far #so i might just post what i have very soon or ill try to get to where i originally planned to end it/get to like 20k as usual LOL #clora clemons #choccyart

[turrondeluxe]

Project Duende Verde

#I HAVE MORE BUT IT DOESN'T FIT IN ONE POST AJAHJS #ive been thinking about gabriel as vigilante green goblin for DAYS now BUT APPARETLY IM THE ONLY ONE. #AND I HAVE TO MAKE MY OWN FOOD. AGAIN. MAN. #my art #gabriel o'hara #atsv lyla #spiderman 2099 #across the spiderverse #?kinda ig? its in the same dimension somehow #before miguel leaves to the dimension where he has a daughter yada yada #ill think about the point in the timeline later #vigilante duende verde au #green goblin

[wikoymi]

17 february 2024 i think i hauve Despair Disease

#nagito komaeda #sdr2 #danganronpa #danganronpa fanart #fanart #art #wikoart #finished #im an so incredibly ill #i am adult #now #looking at this a couple days later why does he look so weird. it was late when i drew this #@ the person who rbed this saying he doesnt have brain cancer. youre right i cant believe ive been misremmebering for the past 4 months LMF #mixed it up bc he has dementia. brain thing #makes me wonder where exactly he has a lymphoma tho #replaying ch4 today i realise the irony in how he has both dementia and a tumor

[bacchuschucklefuck]

okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is

#dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #not art #fhjy spoilers #its!!! gods I will Be My Ass in the tags rn. but thats so like. deliciously setting typical #like porter's desire is to transcend and his contempt for the world he's in feels. idk Real #like he plays the game bc he wants to win and be done with it. how do I word this #yknow. being a god would like. be his win state. when he gets that happening thats it his story is done he checks out #meanwhile the bad kids do actually just like playing the game lmao. like they love adventuring! #theyre so solidly Of This World. they carry the values that can only be born of it and they like having mastery over it #its a meta angle that I think is very fun specifically for d20 being in such a unique position in the zeitgeist when it first started #the rat grinders are from DnD Writ Large. porter wants to escape. but this is the bad kids' home its Their Actual Play Show #which makes it so fucking excellent to me that porter's question is somewhat of merit! its their show and it tries very hard to punish them #and they just straight up dont listen to him here lmao bc they hate him but! since the moment the academic track ended its been clear #that they save the world bc they Like Playing. With Each Others #thats what riz thinks the core of adventuring is! thats why fig stayed! and I also think thats why this hovers over elmville now and #a dead god is coming back in the school gym. porter is a shit evangelist but even if hes a good one I dont think it wouldve worked like he #wants it to. the only way he couldve escaped is if he'd not involved elmville at all. thats where the bad kids met dude #its a shitty place that fucks with them but they all come back here bc they wanna play with each others #and in that regard I think thats what the stress tokens ultimately means. Is This Game Still Fun To Play. ITS A RAGEQUIT LIMIT #Im literally running from one end to another of this conspiracy board Ive pulled out of nowhere #Ill draw after this I just wanna get this out. gods this episode has done nothing but furthering my delusion of grandeur actually #Im the hottest smartest manthing on earth Im king fucking midas over here. anyways uh! great ep!

[signedjehanne]

people on tumblr will literally post things like “you have to eat vegetables and expand your palate i dont care if you are a picky eater because of autism (if i can overcome it you can too)” and everybody will reblog it being like “yes this is true for everybody no matter what” and think its okay. like sorry but that wont work for everyone and there is no one size fits all and some people will never be able to eat these things no matter how hard they try. im only allowed by my doctors to eat recreationally and not for nutrition, because my ARFID is so severe that i get my nutrition solely from a specially made formula drink. your suggestions of “try vegetables roasted!” or “try them in soup!” and assurances of “i did it, you can too!” don’t work for those of us with more severe mental illnesses and disabilities. stop tying a person’s worth to their diet and stop assuming everybody has the ability to do what you can.

#seb speaks #autism #arfid #disability #i am TIRED. #for me #it’s not just sensory issues it’s a subconscious response #that reads unfamiliar foods as poisonous #this has been confirmed by all the doctors and scientists ive spoken to #actuallyautistic #i cannot have it blended to where i cant taste or feel it because even the thought #of those foods elicits panic attacks #because again. my brain reads them as poisonous. whether i want it to or not #you may say ‘this is sooo unhealthy tho’ #and yes! it is! because i’m mentally ill and disabled and i will never be healthy in this department #for as long as i live #i have done 3 rounds of feeding therapy and 1 support group #and countless visits to doctors and specialists and scientists #and they have all confirmed i will not get better #so the best i can do is to drink the formula and eat my safe foods. it’s the only way i’m physically able to live #and it’s why im not dying in a hospital bed from malnutrition anymore

[moeblob]

What if I straight up didn't explain myself? What if I just said trust me on this? Would you?

#fe warriors three hopes #mercedes von martritz #miklan anschutz gautier #we really only need to clarify this is STRICTLY warriors miklan and i think ive already condemned myself but i accept it #i am very sorry but the person i usually would talk to about rare pairs has been a bit busy so i couldnt go to them to get it out that way #so art is the only way i have you have to understand its not my fault (its my fault) #did you guys know i reset the azure gleam map three times before googling the chapter where he dies to try and save him #no i dont think he deserves to be pardoned for what hes done but i liked that w3h gave him a small chance to be better FOR HIMSELF #no i dont think he should simply be forgiven for everything he did but i do like that he was given humanity and how #he was still not a good guy but damn you guys i think about that npc sometimes #who says that they admired him becoming something despite being a criminal bc if miklan can do it whats stopping them from being better ? #like that npc stuck with me a while ok #just ......... there are a lot of thoughts here that i dont think many of you care to read even in tags so ill stop now #i will say the canvas is saved as speed run to cancellation lesgo

[maretriarch]

Just in time for 4/13 here's the second line of my r63 dolls, this time CREEPover themed with bonus accessories! in an ideal world they would come in adorable recuperacoon shaped packaging. and probably a sopor slime making kit because kids love slime. which one are YOU picking up from your local Goreget today?

#my art #homestuck #tavros nitram #sollux captor #gamzee makara #karkat vantas #equius zahhak #eridan ampora #sorry this took literally over a year to draw i was extremely ill with a brain parasite #i would do a lot differently now but dhdhdhdhshs whatever #a deluxe set would have like sollux with a bunk bed type recuperacoon or maybe an eridan lagoona hydration station type thing #or tiny lusus pets i almost did that for eq a tiny knee height sized aurthour carrying like milk and cookies on a platter on his back #other playsets would include a giant bee hive mainframe/90s clunky home computer desk for sollux a very fancy bathtub playset gamzee would #have a little kitchen set that made sopor pie like those diy chapstick playsets #also the packaging i was picturing it would be like flap style like those halloween rainbow high ones but with a little green tinted window #where the recuperacoon holes are so you can see the doll through it #a teeny polished marble style weight lifting set for equius would also be really good....maybe half marble half like the decrepit robotic #aesthetic he has going on #peep the little details but also not too much. mostly please laugh at karkats pajamas ive been laughing at them for a year also the pizza #was supposed to be an angry karkat face

[ganonfan1995]

Burnt out

#initially this was meant to be something else entirely #but i wasn't really liking how it was going so I scrapped the idea and opted out for something a bit more personal #ive been really suffering from burn out for the last few years and just barely keeping my head above water #there are times where i seriously feel like ive failed in every aspect of my career #like if i were good enough i wouldn't have burnt out #i love my job and i love my trade i love every skill ive gain up until this point #but its been hard not to take it personally when all the effort you've put into honing those skills #are abused or exploited #life is difficult enough already and and time is fleeting #taking time for yourself is above all the most important thing you can do to help your work flourish #taking a break isn't failure #its health #we aren't machines despite our industries treating us as such #just waiting and hoping that itll pay off #ive certainly learned my lesson #and im looking forward to brighter horizons #and healthier more respectful ones #ill be okay ive learned how to love my art in my personal time again #but i certainly need to let my mind rest and my body to recover #these tags are lengthy anyways #unionize and dont work for nothing from large companies #be gay do drugs love your friends make art for yourself too #my art #scuttles out of here #i hope these long ass images actually show up in full resolution #i did draw them fucking TOLL as hell

[witchspeka]

It's always "Shou and Ritsu need to blow stuff up with their minds for mental health reasons" or Ritsu and Teru or even Shou and Teru!

But what about Mob? When does he get to blow stuff up with his mind for funsies? For shits and giggles? He didn't go through all of those meltdowns and character development for nothing, let him go ham on a junkyard car or something smh

I believe in Mob's narrative given right to fuck shit up sometimes

#im hungry i should do homework i should also finish all of my other drafted posts BUT I AM LAZY #ive been starting to write fic tho at least thats productive. fic thats kind of relevant to this actually hm #listen i just want more Mob content where he does smth reckless or stupid with his powers he deserves it #or just in general tbh i need more content of mob being kinda mean or having arguments with ppl like to a healthy degree ok #but i still want him to. yanno. lash out and stuff. experience emotion. have him get angry over petty stuff #the first mp100 fic ive ever started writing/drafting had mob and ritsu having a proper fight post canon #i just need it for my OWN mental health. let them have dumb sibling fights and have mob express his annoyances #itd be funny and cathartic. for me at least. ill finish that shit one day its been assembled and disassembled but ill figure it out #eventually #let mob feel and express all of the ugly emotions he didnt allow himself to acknowledge for years pls #its my favourite thing #anyway. #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #shigeo kageyama #cine te a intrebat

[barawrah]

paintover a scribble from last year but every time i open the file it gets worse

whydid he look so so awkward.....

#sorry for like . gestures at the entire img #its so stiff because the scribble .is definitely something #whole body shudder etc #i wasnt happy with it last year but i didnt bother fixing it the rest of my art doesnt look like that which makes it funnier #actyally it was cute eming and sparkles and it was sillyand nice #idk where the blood and horrors came from i should never touch my ipad again #this is the depressive episode showing through the art (←just likes painting blood) #umm ok yay i promise ill draw cute hualian soon all ive actually been drawing is sqx and jc ^_^ #i have to do owed art but my brain is like . not working #sorry ab that i will get to those soon i promise #ok thats all #art tag #tgcf #hua cheng

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

nervously holding out & rattling a Little Tip Jar

#entirely voluntary no pressure i appreciate anything including just your presence here #i am gentle nudging the jar out of the door to be ignored or noticed At Your Leisure #that weird guilt is upon me! so! Insert Unnecessary Apology Here #i dont have any 'exclusive' stuff as of right now #in the future... probably! maybe tutorials! or behind the scenes things! #im thinking and ill continue to consider and Muse #suggestions are welcome! #absolutely unprompted #none of it will feature welcome home tho #i dont want to put it in a space where its like... for money #one-off comms are one thing and Allowed! kofi and such is a different beast entirely #ive been hesitant on making a ko-fi #but then i saw a post where someone described it as just a tip jar. #its like street artists leaving out hats or open instrument cases for people to choose to throw a buck into or ignore #and that. took a lot of stress off! more people should have tip jars. we all deserve it i think

[sparklecarehospital]

Sometimes I wonder how I'm ever gonna be able to work on the other Spinch stories I have, I have so many ideas for things but only so much fixation power

#text #every once in a while ill doodle a character from one of my other stories but thats like It. so many of them are so underdeveloped #sparklecare and the cometverse (cometcare and DM) are like the only things ive managed to actualize to a solid continuous form #nightstars was Almost there but Things Happened and its not around anymore #i actually have a few series that havent even been publicly shared yet because i have so little for them #KG and SE and HNU are all sort of in a Void right now. i dont know how to revisit them #and stay connected #i guess the cometverse is easier because it has a foundation with the main comic which is where the most development exists #i just wish i had more time. the AUs are easier to actualize because theyre just For Fun #KG and SE and HNU are all Serious Stories that i would want to treat with the same level of chronological storytelling as main SC #those aren't just For Fun. the AUs are for fun so i can just do fuck all and do whatever i want and it doesnt matter how i do it #its so frustrating! so many things in the kittycorn mind so little time #sorry for long tags

[s0fter-sin]

last thing i’ll say; people aren’t owed free content but creatives aren’t owed financial compensation either

#i say all this as a cretive btw lets head that off #their bottom line was ‘we want more money to make bigger things and we cant afford to so we want more money in order to do them’ #and that is a valid desire #but you cant just expect everyone to go along with that just bc you want it #watcher got where they are due to a loyal viewer base #to reject money from corporations in favour of money from that viewer base? thats skeevy #to default to a complete and absolute paywall removing all your content then pretend that you weren't going to? thats skeevy #to make a countdown to an announcement then make the announcement a somber trip down memory lane #and an ‘if only we can make more stuff like this wink wink’? thats skeevy #and its skeevy bc theyre a company and no matter how personable they are companies are not your friend #are they the rich we should be eating? no #but when your ceo drives a tesla and eats expensive food that is written off as a buisness expense #AND you have a patreon that you dont capitalise on but still brings you on average 100k a month #you cant act like youre a hard done by creative #endevouring to make more elaborate creations is a good idea #monetisation is a good idea #absolute monetisation with no thought to an alternative isnt #name one indie artist that relies entirely on paid content ill wait #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #watcher #shane madej #ryan bergara #steven lim #hey there demons it’s me ya boy #ghost files

[sweatermuppet]

asking on those who have been on T/E/HRT for over a year & experienced moodswings during that time (especially while adjusting doses)... how did you cope with them? any tips or methods or practices to help regulate? been feeling anxious, paranoid, & angry

#also have fantastic moments of joy & euphoria & overall im the happiest ive been! but the moodswings hit me out of no where #they're pretty fast too. ill get in a funk for like a half hour & then i feel okay again #but that okay gives into other feelings & then it's another half hour funk #it just makes me feel so irrational!! i don't want to be moping or short with friends