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Being a father thinking about not breathing anymore is one of the hardest things I've ever dealt with and who do I tell... Crying on the inside bottling up your emotions they always find a way to poke through and it hurts

#emotional #sensitive #sad vibes #need someone #im so tired

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*18 and now I'm about to be 27 guess I was built tough but every warrior has their last battle

i thought i was gonna be dead before i turn 18 and now im 24 and have no idea what im doing with my life

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being suicidal is such a weird feeling, i don’t really wanna die, I just don’t want to exist anymore!

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Where's that happy me, the one that laughs and really laughed but not too hide the suffering inside, where's the me that wants to live, and breathe and think happy, ugh I thought I escaped the darkness but it clings to me like a stubborn cold and I don't know what medicine can cure this illness

I wish I had a brother or sister to talk to, ask for a hug, help anything, I wish I had a father that was there and loved me, I have a loving mother but with distance grows separation and she's had a hard life... How do I tell her your only child doesn't want to breathe or move anymore I need help... Maybe I just don't know how to express myself or lean on the ppl around me idk...

#cure #need someone #ayehesemotional #emotional #sensitive #someone help me #giving up

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Maybe I should've gave up in the moments I had a chance to, or if I had a stronger rope, or took a few more pills, or a couple more shots, or squeezed the trigger 😩 maybe even ran myself off the road or into a wall, it be the worse to leave but maybe I could forget for just one moment

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Could I mentally end it?... Literally just tell my body to stop breathing

I broke down last night and had no one to call or talk to in a world of billions of ppl I feel so alone...I hold onto the little strength I have left... Sorry to the ppl I've made suffer because I've been so weak mentally

#weak #i'm sad #ayehesemotional #emotional #sensitive #sad stuff #low moments #trying to be strong #mentally struggling #trying my best

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Could I die today and be forgotten tomorrow please, let the pain of me be gone by tomorrow sunrise, let me suffering rest with the night

#ayehesemotional #emotional #sensitive #sad vibes #im so tired #not strong enough #strength #finding my peace

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“When I was 7, I wanted to be 8. When I was 8, I wanted to be 12. When I turned 12, I just wanted to be 18. Then after that I stopped wanting to be older…I feel like I’ve spent my whole life so far wishing it all away. Always wishing I was older, wishing I was somewhere else, wishing I could remember and I wishing I could forget too. Wishing I hadn’t ruined so many good things because I was scared or bored.”

— Adele (via perrfectly)

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Kiss me like tomorrow doesn't exist 😶‍🌫️

by Giovanni Esposito

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If happiness isn't found here in this moment, on this day it is something I can't reach...

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Today's the day it either gets better or I realize what I don't want to

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It hits me like a sickness 😩

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I love you like this now because I might not be able to tomorrow ... "By me"

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This one hit it right in the middle, the loss of those specific details that brought you comfort, happiness, laughter many happy moments are just a memory now 🥱

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You found me at a moment when I want myself... The little amount of attention, love, affection what ever don't be fooled... I carried the pain enough to fill all the oceans and seas 😩 I'm sorry I wasn't my best but I promise I tried my best... Because no one then was there for me I'm finding it hard to believe someone's here now

And even crazier bringing someone into this world that's apart of me and now I'm scared cause I've never felt loved how can I truly show someone that appreciation 😔

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I can only take so much.... Feeling farther from the ground and closer to the clouds... Today's hard but maybe tomorrow will be easier I'm trying 😕...

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I just transferred some data from my icloud... And pictures I thought were gone weren't 😒😕I'll be okay though just sucks I am realizing the pain and all the heartache in the pictures and screen shots but it's too late too deal with all the issues floating around in the pictures 😩 I'll just let it be and try and move forward I guess seems like everyone else is in life but me.... I want too scream at the top of my lungs but nothing comes out, just makes me want too cry but I can't I freaking can't go there....