booksbonesborderline

[booksbonesborderline]

“and ill tell you that he runs because he loves me”

- ‘My Boy Only Breaks His Favourite Toys’, Taylor Swift

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #taylor swift #poets on tumblr #poetry #the tortured poets department #ttpd #my boy only breaks his favourite toys

[booksbonesborderline]

obsessed with these edits from the good luck, babe! genius page

[booksbonesborderline]

and what do i do now that im in a position where every choice hurts either me or someone i care for?

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp

[booksbonesborderline]

“You are a lover; borrow Cupid’s wings, And soar with them above a common bound.”

— Mercutio, Romeo and Juliet (1.4.15-16)

[booksbonesborderline]

“you held me the whole way through, when i couldn’t say the words like you

i was scared indigo but i wanted to

i was scared indigo but i wanted to”

- ‘anything’, Adrienne Lenker

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #adrienne lenker #anything adrienne lenker #anything

[booksbonesborderline]

“why cant we be friends, when we are lovers?

cause it always ends with us hating eachother”

-‘Sincerity is Scary’, The 1975

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #the 1975 #sincerity is scary

[booksbonesborderline]

emotions have been so difficult and confusing as of late.

ive moved from feeling a deep sense of guilt to just being in a deep state of dissociation and procrastination.

i hate change, i miss the familiar, i miss what things used to be

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp

[booksbonesborderline]

“two boys, one to kiss your neck, and one to bring you breakfast

get you out of bed when youre sore from the night before, from knocking on my door, head against the floorboards

two boys, one to love you sweetly, one does so discreetly, never will he meet me”

- ‘Bike Dream’, Bells Larsen Cover (Original by Rostam)

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #bike dream #rostam #bells larsen

[booksbonesborderline]

feelings are so complicated and confusing with bpd.

on the one hand theres a relationship with someone who i obsess over constantly, who i cannot be anything but romantic with, who i cant help but have insecurity over when we often arent together yet who fuels such beautiful ideals of the future together

and then theres a relationship with someone whos always passively on my mind, who i have blurred platonic lines with, who i can never truly recall how i feel for them till im with them yet who i feel so seen and safe with in the present moment

yet theres similar levels of intensity and possessiveness in both somehow despite seemingly holding contrasting positions in my life

and i think, despite balancing eachother out, because i get the things i do from 2 separate people it seems to be more confusing and lightly exhausting than anything and im not super sure how to move forward :,)

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp

[booksbonesborderline]

you know its starting to get close to a time you have trauma surrounding when you wake up in cold sweats and have panic attacks first thing in the morning, unprompted

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp

[booksbonesborderline]

“i hear my heart breaking tonight… i hear my heart breaking tonight.

do you hear it too?”

- ‘Pink In The Night’, Mitski

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #pink in the night #mitski

[booksbonesborderline]

btw love will make you do crazy things. like glowing pink in the night in your room for example

[booksbonesborderline]

“i want you to tell me that you miss me,

want you to hold and hurt and kiss me”

- ‘Triple Dog Dare’, Lucy Dacus

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #lucy dacus #triple dog dare

[booksbonesborderline]

“its bittersweet to see you again”

- ‘Hot & Heavy’, Lucy Dacus

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #hot & heavy #lucy dacus

[booksbonesborderline]

i love my friends back in that part of london but im so glad that i dont live there anymore and im even more glad my family moved so far away from there too. knowing i dont really have any true ties there anymore is such a blessing. sure there are the memories but they will always haunt me in the background anyway. and i can always see my friends in other parts of london, or have them visit me here. im so glad i dont have to go back to that house ever again.

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp

[booksbonesborderline]

“fuck my life, you cared when i was sick, no one ever gave a shit

you said you gave the world, i took it all, you fought this war one-sided, asked me

‘what am i doing this for?’

it should’ve been you”

-‘Trying Not To Think About It’, Wilbur Soot

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #trying not to think about it #wilbur soot

[booksbonesborderline]

i hate my bpd little brain so bad sometimes, especially when im hormonal. why am i hurting and overthinking when i have literally no reason to and everything has been absolutely amazing these past couple days? why wont my brain shut up and just let myself be happy ????

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd things #bpd favorite person #bpd fp