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Is missing Gon hours

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Like, they didn't say "I don't want to fight this friend I just met" during the Hunter Exam for people to think they would ever hurt each other like that. And their devotion to each other back then wasn't anywhere near what it is now.

“who would win in a fight: killua or gon?????”

you fool. you buffoon. gon would blink his big brown eyes in confusion & say “but why would i fight against killua, my best friend in the world???” and killua would shove his hands in his pockets & pretend to be embarrassed but secretly be glad he didn’t have to try to come up with an excuse not to fight gon that would sound even remotely heterosexual

why do you think they’re depicted playing rock paper scissors so many times throughout the series?? bc that is the closest they will ever get to throwing hands with each other. keep up, people

#hxh #hunter x hunter #gon freecss #killua

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A few days ago I discovered this poor little guy laying on the train tracks at my local station, I took it upon myself to rescue him, clean him, and reunite him with his owner.

u/YuyaBestBoy

#bawling my eyes out #in front of my salad #so cute #not hxh

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Adding my two cents (sorry, OP, for the invasion, but I genuinely love the answer you wrote): Remember how Killua was given a purpose since birth? To be an assassin, to be the heir? Well, all of that originated from his own family, the very people who is responsible for providing our earliest perspective on love dynamics.

Since Killua was a baby, love was presented to him with a strong sense of duty in order to belong. Through abuse and torture, he came to believe that this was what 'love' meant.

Then he meets Gon, and Gon is... unlike his family. And he is everything. But, growing up amidst all that trauma has left indelible marks on his behavior, as we see when Bisky calls him out for fleeing the battlefield. It was only natural for Killua to adjust to his new life while inadvertently replicating a previous mindset: he found genuine affection, but does he know how to love without this sense of duty?

Not that I think it's an intentional feeling, but in Killua's case, lacking experience in displays of love beyond what he learned from his family (which is quite common in real life! Don't we all grow up replicating what we learn at home until we figure out how we want to love and be loved?), speaks volumes about his relationship with Gon. He's still, constantly and desperately, trying to tie that love to a role in Gon's life. Earning affection through sacrifice, through "work" - because he grew up working for the family, because 'work' meant 'bonding' at the same time it wasnt and he grew tired of not knowing what love without suffering feels like - doing a lot for Gon without him even knowing, trying to clean and fix everything by himself. The moment Gon cuts him off, it shatters Killua's sense of security about love. He "doesn't have a purpose" in that specific moment, he can't do anything for Gon (or so he believes), therefore, that can only scare Killua in regards to what Gon feels about him - shouldn't he be granted a purpose to serve?

That's why I believe Killua freezes when Palm says "you're the one Gon needs the most". That was not a joyful or confident reaction - he looks scared and broken. I don't think he knows what he can do or how he is needed if self-sacrifice and a specific role aren't valid options in the moment. What can he offer? How can he earn love if he can't fight alongside Gon against Pitou?

So yeah, basically, it's complicated. As we've seen, he ends up struggling with what he means to Gon, and he's on his own personal journey to figure out what it means to be needed and loved as he travels with Alluka. But someday she will "let him go" (as she promised before), and that will help him come full circle with this struggle. I could go on for another three paragraphs about Gon's own patterns, but that's more complex to put into words. Anyway! *hides in the darkness after an unwanted text wall misleadingly called 'two cents'*

Does killua know gon loves him?

Hi anon! This is such a simple question, but not a simple one to answer. I'll do my best, though!

So, I think the answer is both yes and no, in different ways.

Yes, in the sense that Gon has directly expressed his appreciation of and admiration towards Killua multiple times, said he enjoys being with him and wants to stay with him, and even called him his best friend at the end of Greed Island (really BEST friend, 最高の友達, saikou no tomodachi--I think the translation of "best friend in the whole world" gets the emphasis of this phrase across pretty well).

He said it "Has to be Killua," (キルアじゃなきゃダメなんだ, Killua ja nakya dame nanda) in the dodgeball match, which has implications both during the match and outside of it, that Killua is the only one he fully trusts and the only one who can be by his side for something this pivotal. This phrase has romantic implications, essentially the subtextual meaning is "Killua is the only one for me," hence why Killua reacts as strongly as he does to it. Notice how much he hides his face on this page.

So, I think it's silly to say Killua has no idea Gon cares about him deeply and values him. There are so many moments where Gon says things like this. It's partly why Killua loves Gon so much, because Gon isn't afraid to express that level of love and care and appreciation towards him, as uncomfortable as he acts about it. He's just unused to that receiving kind of praise and attention simply for being himself, rather than being praised for his abilities.

With Killua's views of himself, it's hard for him to fully accept Gon's affection and take it to heart, but luckily Gon is straightforward and doesn't hold back, and keeps repeatedly telling Killua how much he means to him. As the series goes, they form a strong mutual bond and relatively good understanding of each other.

The problem is that multiple things happen in Chimera Ant Arc to disrupt Killua's sense of where he belongs in Gon's life.

He "fails" by fleeing from Pitou with Gon and "leaving Kite to die." While Gon doesn't blame Killua for the decision he made and neither does Kite, Killua nonetheless certainly blames himself for this to a degree. (Remember the scene with Morel and Knov mocking him?) It doesn't help that Bisky tells him that because of his inability to face opponents he sees as stronger than him, he'll eventually leave Gon to die. Then he watches the awful ramifications of what Kite's death does to Gon, knowing he had a role in what happened.

Gon goes on the date with Palm, and Killua variously misinterprets this whole situation to mean that Gon has been on real dates with women previously (I do not think he had been on any dates in an actual romantic sense), Gon actually might have romantic feelings towards Palm, and that they're in some degree of a relationship even after Gon tells her they can't be together and Palm quietly dumps Gon in favor of Knov after the date. This sends Killua spiraling into his whole "Are we friends? Or are we teammates?" concerns, in conjunction with the next factor.

Gon's "I swear... I'll take on that bastard myself," about Pitou, and the later "This has nothing to do with you," line. Remember how much Gon relied on Killua in the dodgeball match, and how much that meant to Killua? Remember how Killua very nearly died and his last thoughts were apologizing that he wasn't more useful to Gon? Killua stakes his whole sense of self on being useful to Gon, so when Gon makes taking down Pitou a solo mission, Killua doesn't know what role he has at Gon's side any more.

I'm sure there are plenty more factors I'm leaving out, but these are the main issues that lead to the gulf that develops between them during the course of Chimera Ant Arc.

Ever after all of this, they're still friends, they're on reasonably good terms when they part even though it's complex and fraught, but there's just so much they're not saying to each other about how they really feel.

I think Killua still knows Gon cares about him with the way they leave off--they agree to stay in touch, say they'll meet again, Killua even teases Gon about the way he treated him a few times and sees that Gon feels awful when he brings it up. I'm sure Gon apologized to Killua when they first saw each other again after all of that, no matter how non-comprehensive that apology may have been.

But, I do think Killua sees his feelings towards Gon as deeper and of a different nature than how he assumes Gon feels towards him. He may even feel a degree of guilt about the extent and nature of his feelings, with an assumption that, as much as Gon cares about him, Gon doesn't reciprocate Killua's romantic feelings. It may be one of many puzzle pieces contributing to the separation.

I think Killua has strong beliefs about Gon not returning his feelings in a romantic sense, which is part of what leads to how much pain he goes through in Chimera Ant Arc and beyond. But these beliefs are less about what Gon does or doesn't do--because *I* believe Gon has romantic feelings for Killua, even though he likely doesn't recognize them as such yet, and obviously in CAA his relationship with Killua is not at the forefront of his mind--but more about how Killua sees himself and how he projects that self-perception on Gon.

The thing is, Killua hasn't directly expressed his feelings (even on a friendship level) towards Gon either. and even hides how much he does for Gon, so Gon also doesn't fully understand the weight and degree of Killua's feelings for him either. He sees what Killua does for him and I'm sure he knows that's a way Killua expresses friendship to him, but at the same time, the reasons or feelings or depth behind those actions remain unspoken, so how is Gon supposed to know fully where Killua is coming from?

As much as he may have some inklings of Killua's feelings from reading his body language and all the time they spent together, it's not something that has been confirmed or stated the way Gon has expressed his feelings. So, it makes sense that these two boys might assume the other doesn't love them back the same way they love each other, because their own self-esteem is so low and they don't see themselves as deserving of the kind of love they have for each other.

So, in response to your question, both yes and no, and "It's complicated," too.

#hunter x hunter #hxh #killua #hxh meta #meta #oops sorry op i went a little crazy #the size of these two cents is kinda embarassing for me isnt it

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#PLEASE BOOP WHENEVER YOU WANT #I LOVE THIS #boop #not hxh

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made a super normal 13 page comic about gon for @zine--garden. here are the first two pages. go get the zine now!

#ouch #ouchieeeee #sobbing this is so pretty #hxh #hunter x hunter #gon

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HxH

Killua x Gon x Grocery Shopping

#hxh #gon #killua #cuuuuuuuuuuute

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“who would win in a fight: killua or gon?????”

you fool. you buffoon. gon would blink his big brown eyes in confusion & say “but why would i fight against killua, my best friend in the world???” and killua would shove his hands in his pockets & pretend to be embarrassed but secretly be glad he didn’t have to try to come up with an excuse not to fight gon that would sound even remotely heterosexual

why do you think they’re depicted playing rock paper scissors so many times throughout the series?? bc that is the closest they will ever get to throwing hands with each other. keep up, people

#true #that's one of the things I like about them the most they're not typical friends with rivalry in the background #they are NEVER rivals they might compete in silly stuff only #but they didnt even want to fight each other during the exam when they barely knew each other can you imagine NOW #the superior shonen pair no rivals no enemies for a while just real friends that deeply love each other #hxh #killugon #gon #killua #hunter x hunter

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Hi,.....if you don't mind me asking, can I ask your top 5 (or top 3) favorite characters from HxH? And why you loved them? And your top 5 favorite moments from the series? Sorry if you've answered this question before....Thanks....

Hello! I haven't answered that before so thanks for this kind ask, anon <3

My top 5 characters in HxH:

Gon: I love how much he resembles a real child. He's kind and smart, but his innocence as child betrays that false sense of maturity he's got from terrible experiences he shouldn't have been exposed to in that age. Outstanding writing.

Killua: what can I say, I adore him wholeheartedly. I love his development and his personality, the way he also holds an innocence but different from Gon's. Killua is the kind of child that has too much love to give and doesn't know how or where to direct it at.

Komugi: give me a loving and caring character and I'll hold them to my heart and treasure them. I'm not an antagonist person, I fear.

Bisky: we all love a funny and wise tutor, she truly cares about them despite being harsh in her training sessions. I'm never bored with Bisky.

Knuckle: I AM him. Loves to work out and is a big crybaby? That's me right there.

About my favorite moments, definitely episode 116 (I'm a sucker for angst), Killua pulling out the needle, Meruem remembering Komugi, Reina reuniting with her mom (the highest and most-unexpected SOB I had during the show) and episode 37 (the boys having fun at whale island!! defining moment for the story if your ask me).

I love Kurapika and Leorio too but the CAA has such a terrible grip on me that I disconnected from them a bit, emotionally speaking.

Thanks for this request! I'll get to the other ones in the next few days.

#hunter x hunter #hxh #ask

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Thinking again about the moment Meruem remembers Komugi in the Chimera Ant Arc. Welfin is there to say her name because Ikalgo spared his life and inspired him with his own bravery and loyalty to his friends. Ikalgo was there to spare Welfin because Killua showed him mercy and offered him friendship. Killua was there to spare Ikalgo because Gon offered him friendship and fought to help him get away from his family. The thread of causation stretches back all the way to the start of the series, if you really look for it. And it's like. Komugi was the one to make Meruem reevaluate his worldview on strength and mercy and humanity, to learn care for another being. A nuclear bomb, the pinnacle of human evil, was what made Meruem forget her and everything she symbolised. So the fact there is a tangible line of small acts of human kindness leading to the moment Meruem remembers her again and finally gives up on everything he once stood for... hyori fuckin ittai or something, you know?

#one day I will make THAT one meta about names in hxh #and why it goes back to colt and reina #aaand also why the ants desired for a name #because name is something that humans created #to distinguish their place within a community from their place as individuals #your name carries your memories #your emotions #what you mean to people and to YOURSELF #when you dont have a name you'll only have your purpose as part of a group #but when you have your name you're a specific individual with specific interests and emotions and people to call you by that name #and thats why names hold a big meaning in CAA from colt to gon from meruem to komugi from all the other ants to the invasion squad #oops sorry op i went a little crazy #hxh #hxh meta

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hello! i know ur tumblr is mostly about killugon and their dynamic but i just LOVE the way you analyze everything and how you write about it; so i wanted to ask what is your opinion on kurapika 👉👈 and what do you think would've happened if the phantom troupe were ACTUALLY dead in the ynca?

Obviously u dont have to answer but i really want to se your opinion on kurapika and i really admired how you write about hxh and your blog in general.

Hope you have a nice day!

Hello! Thanks for this ask and sorry for the loong delay.

I absolutely love Kurapika. He was my first favorite character in the story, and I think he serves well as a parallel to Gon, especially in Yorknew and the following arcs. Both are extremeley goal-oriented, "selfish" in a way that they will control the situation so that pain and suffering must be experienced by them, and only them, even if it means to close communication with those they love, because they have low regard for their own body and contrasting concern for their friend's well being.

That said, I think Kurapika would be absolutely depressed. Just like Gon lost the target for his rage when Pitou surrended - a rage that fuels but can also distract him from his main objective if misguided - Kurapika needs the Troupe to live because rage is what gives him the strenght to be persistent. He probably would lose his resolve.

This happens with Netero as well in episode 112, when he admits losing resolve after Meruem delivers unexpected displays of empathy and love. But he's a well-experienced Hunter whose mindset works around the mission instead of emotions.

Kurapika may be seen as very mature due to his stoic expression but he's still very young, emotion-driven. Retrieving the Kurta eyes evokes extreme and personal emotions that require a target in order to keep him functional and focused - eliminate that target and he cant redirect that frustration to anyone but himself. I bet he would lose part of his resolve and freeze, before completely give in to even worse low regard for his life.

I hope you like the answer! Thanks for asking 💙

#hunter x hunter #hxh #kurapika #asks