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Feeling good, struggling to stay on the fasting course. It's been about 24 hours but I have a meal waiting for me when I get home and lots of tea and honey for the rest of the time. I already gave away my free cupcake from work today. It's a good feeling knowing I'm more than just food and my stomach has been happier since switching to tea and honey for the most part. Anyway back to work.

#intermittent fasting #beginner fasting #fasting #crohnie #crohn's disease #spoonie #crohns #ibd

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Intermittent fasting has started, weighed in at 214, at the start, I'm going to weigh in again Wednesday, I'm going to keep it to one solid meal, as for fasting the rest of the day. I'm more doing a liquid only fast, tea with honey has been the go to so far but I'm open to juices. My stomach has not been great lately. So this is a big switch in hopes that giving the guts only one meal to work on will help crohn's be less of a jerk.

It would be nice to be a lower weight to, I try to focus on having tea when I'm hungry, today I didn't work so I had more time on my hands so I tried to focus on chores and being a dad. Broke the fast at 20 hours. Pretty good since the day before I did 24 hours and that was my first attempt. I'm excited to see how this goes for health more than weightloss.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #ibd #crohns #Intermittent fasting #beginner fasting #fasting #weightloss goals #Make tea #Tea

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By not having anything in my stomach I'm down about 4 pounds 😅 now the tea is on with honey, let's keep giving my stomach a break.

In case you find that worrying or unhealthy I'm well above my normal BMI and I am not in any danger, fasting is a very safe process, and if I was to feel light head or too hungry I would simply have a snack. The biggest issue I've had is I cut out coffee so that's a new thing for me.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #ibd #crohns #life update #flare day #fasting #beginner fasting

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I decided one day of fasting isn't enough when I got up this morning.at 6:30am. I going to aim for a 36 hour fast. My body is still rebelling against me.

Tea and honey is pretty good. I might add some juice and broth to the mix just for a switch up.

I estimated still getting about 1500 calories from my single meal and all the honey. I'm not doing this for weightloss though but I was curious anyway.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #ibd #crohns #flare day #life update #beginner fasting #fasting

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Been flaring bad the last few weeks, waves of fighting for my life in the bathroom or just in pain. Today I decided to take a fast day at work, I'm only drinking tea with honey, it's been a nice break for my system I haven't even used the bathroom today, this is how normal people exist 😅

Any time I'm hungry I just make tea and pour in a bunch of honey, I feel hungry but so far it's been fine. I might try to keep this up as a regular routine just a day here and there. I would love to have the mental power to do multiple days but that's a bit much.

Edit: After 24 hours I made to eggs with cheese and sandwich meat on toast and had a peanut butter and honey sandwich, and another tea. I have a day off tomorrow so I'm going to try it again, I also need to do a fecal calprotection test aka a stool sample tomorrow as my doctors appointment is on the 2nd. I hope I get it done in time.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #ibd #crohns #flare day #fasting

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Warning Crohn's Flares continue.

I won't be graphic but be aware.

I'm glad for a bidet. But I can't seem to stop having the urge to go, I feel pain from my lower back to my feet. I have to work a home show tomorrow, at least that's easy peasey work I'll probably pick up some Imodium, that seems to help turn the urge off. I also have to go on a roadtrip and a hike Sunday I do not want to but I'll go I'll enjoy views I'll probably post some pictures and smile for the family photos.

Chronic illness is rough it doesn't care that I have a 3 year old who wants to have fun with dad and a girlfriend who wants me to do things with her.

For no reason here's pictures from a short hike we did

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #ibd #mental health #crohns #flare day

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I'm having a flare, life sucks.

I wonder what it's like to just get sick and then get better. 😅

I just wish I was sick enough that there was something they could do. I just feel so hopeless.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #crohns #mental health #flare day

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Hyper focus.

So for a few days. I drank lots of water, felt good just focusing on that. Few days before that I was really sore and grumpy.

Focusing on drinking water boosted my mood for a good 2 days. Calling my girlfriend on the way home brought me back down to awful. She sounds annoyed with me everytime she answers the phone.

I asked her what cheese she wanted, because she asked for cheese, she didn't care but it was for dinner, so I asked what was for dinner. Then she used my first name which I feel is always a slap in the face.

I think I'm in need of therapy. 😅

#crohnie #spoonie #mental health #relationship #i need therapy

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Able bodied people have such a magical life.

Me today was like ok I'm going to go start my car then come back in and do things while it warms up. I get half way to the door and the bathroom urge hits. I'm just like it'll be fine I'll just go quickly start my car then use the bathroom. I get three quarters of the way there and turn around and head for the bathroom because I know I will not make it the final quarter and all the way back. Without risking it all.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #ibd #crohns #flare day

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I've been posting randomly on Tumblr for 6 years. I've not really engaged in any community. This is a place for me to shout into the void when I'm upset, or sad, and even happy.

I feel like I'm ready to create something, I struggle with life right now, I want to do more but wants never turn into action they just sit and I need to find a way to create. Push on my dreams go forward in one direction.

So how do I turn that into a plan? 😅

#self reflection #Create #Live #Leave a mark #spoonie #crohnie #crohn's disease #Find an outlet

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I feel stuck in depression mode today, the slightest thing goes wrong and I'm enraged.

I tried to play video games, watch tv, watch YouTube. Just anything to distract myself. Now I'm sitting in the bath writing hope it helpse recenter and get on with my day.

I have things to do, some of them would take minutes. All of them seem too daunting.

It's easy to blame my partner, but honestly we're not partners we're roommates. Any nice words get thrown in my face, and attempt at communication ends up with silence at best or a glare, we have a daughter together so ideally I'd like to work things out for my daughters sake for my sake I'd love to just run away and pretend they don't exist. That's not something I'd do but times are bad man. I feel like there's a weight on my chest and I just want to dig it out with a knife. I'm so unhappy with work and home, I don't find joy anywhere, I just want an end.

I'm going to breathe in and out slowly for awhile, pretend I'm somewhere else until I'm done with the bath, then I'll make coffee and get on one of my many tasks.

#depression #depressing thoughts #depressed #sad panda #overstimulated #overwhelmed #spoonie #mental health

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So it's been about a month and 10 days since my helix piercing and a week since my forward helix, and lobes.

I think for the first week I get paranoid, my forward helix had more discharge and blood than I was expecting but after a week it has calmed down. I just remind myself to trust the process clean twice a day do the occasional soak.

I already want more piercings but it seems to cost 100 bux a piercing so it's probably my jewellery being fancy, but I got to say it's worth it for the mental boost it's given me.

I plan on healing my right ear then getting a couple on my left ear. And I want to stretch my lobes but I'm not sure when. And I might just keep the earrings and relax.

I like the positive attention I've received and I just like seeing myself in the mirror.

#lobe piercing #ear piercings #forward helix #helix piercing #mental health #life update #body piercing #healing piercing #spoonie #crohnie #crohns #piercings #piercing plans

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Had 3 new piercings done today, forward helix and both lobes 😎 feeling pretty badass.

I'm happy with the placement of everything, the right ear is done for now, I'm going to heal it up good before moving to the left ear. In the future I'll probably stretch my ears for now I'm just happy and feeling good about everything.

Hopefully my toddler doesn't get grabby. 🤣

#ear piercings #piercings #Spider #mental health #helix #forward helix #Lobe piercing

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Does anyone else remember looking forward to things?

I just had a flash of memory about a webcomic I used to look forward to every week. And that just flashed me back to a version of myself that had dreams and hopes.

I'm feeling pretty defeated lately, home life sucks, work life sucks, social life... Don't really have time for that. Everything just seems hard and time for me does happen it's usually just looked at like I'm addicted to or living on my computer. I spent a few hours on my computer on the weekend, I still did chores and also spent time with the family, who didn't do chores, one of them is 3 and I don't expect them to though.

I don't even use my computer during the week most of the time. When I do it's because the shows my gf is watching are stressing me out and I don't want to see them, and I don't want to watch other shows because she won't watch them with me so why bother.

Came home at 4:30 to both of them sleeping, which means no sleep for me tonight or if I get sleep it's going to be at stupid time and she's going to go to work even though she spent all day sleeping and feeling awful so it's on me to still be a functional human and not kill everyone.

I hate how stuck I am right now.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #mental health #life update #relationship #shitty life #relationshit

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Thought I was done all my errands, remembered I need an oil change almost at the place and need hits. Made it but it was a nailbitting walk to the bathroom from the parking lot. Glad there was a free stall when I got there.

I hate crohn's but at least I made it.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #ibd #crohns #flare day #clenched teeth

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I'm having a rough go. Yesterday was just awful then I got home and my bumper was destroyed by someone who didn't leave their insurance. So that's going to be a minimum of $1000 I didn't have. I was doing really good lately with avoiding eating out and trying to only spend what I can. No video games no big lunches out, I did have lunch out yesterday though because I was just so stressed McDonald's was comforting.

Today I had labs to do, they sent me a cal protection kit but it was all in German. And it's got an app to do and I just tried for 20 minutes then threw it out. Frustrated.

I had a free coffee coupon so I went and got a free coffee as I was waiting for it I just started crying because I felt like I've made all the wrong choices in life. I'm with a partner that can't stand me and I somehow keep trying. I have a daughter that's amazing but so sheltered we never get out. I know parents never feel like they're doing enough. I just feel like I'm drowning.

#lab tests #crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #ibd #mental health #crohns #life update #relationship #emotional day #internal sad #sad panda

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Helix piercing healing good.

No pain except a little if I tap it or sometimes after cleaning but hardly a noticeable amount.

It makes me happy, I got teased a bit about it at work today, only from some older guys, most people think it's cool. Piercings like anything that's not the norm for me will get comments. I can take it, I can't wait to get some more.

I want to get two more piercings when I go in for resizing next month. Forward helix or rook and a anti-targus or conch, maybe got for lobes after those. Maybe go for nipples, or continue on ears.

#crohnie #spoonie #crohn's disease #mental health #healing piercing #ear piercings #piercing plans