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also i have a short story that just came out which you can read here

like many things i have written there is a tiny touch of beyond birthday in there. but mostly its a critique of many social systems told as an allegory or fable about a boy who is ??? an old testament angel or smth & burns shit down by accident a lot

hi ya’ll know i don’t post but i went ahead and caved and made a shitty twitter for my “writing” “career” which i will probably only use to promote things when publishers ask me to. i will not be funny on there! i will not allow myself to put energy into being funny on the internet! (maybe i will be a little funny by accident) but anyway i will post links to original writing if you are interested

https://twitter.com/jayenasir

ok bye

#he's supposed to be a seraph but like i shouldn't explain the story you should just read it #if you want to #and comment on the story on the website if you want? they told me to tell people to do that lmao #i honestly don't care but if you just write like i love jaye nasir's writing in the comments? could help me out? who knows

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hi ya’ll know i don’t post but i went ahead and caved and made a shitty twitter for my “writing” “career” which i will probably only use to promote things when publishers ask me to. i will not be funny on there! i will not allow myself to put energy into being funny on the internet! (maybe i will be a little funny by accident) but anyway i will post links to original writing if you are interested

https://twitter.com/jayenasir

ok bye

#sorry this is not death note fanfiction the only thing i & ya'll have in common #but anyway hope everyone is good life is sweet etc

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Literally had a dream last night that you got published and I was able to buy your book! Put me in a good mood for the rest of the day :)

!!!!!!! anon i hope you are psychic !!!!!

no but odds are i will one day publish a book & you will be able to buy it but that day is still far in the future judging by the progress i have been making on the novel lately

but thank you for the message! it is sweet & encouraging to know that somebody cares :'-)

#anon #asks #it is a goal to finish draft no 2 by the end of the year but we'll see. i mean it's only january so i have time #but so far with school and work i haven't been able to do much writing at all this year #i am probably socializing too much as well. i mean this week i've been exhausted. slept until almost noon today & am still so tired #& i have friends coming over tonight & school tomorrow & laundry etc. to do on tuesday #whereas i would prefer to do mushrooms by myself on tuesday bc it's one of my days off but i don't think laundry & mushrooms mix well #anyway yr welcome for the list of all the things i'm doing besides writing #i will say that the novel i'm writing is pretty fucking good. by my own standards. but we'll see..... #love u bye

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Thank you so much for creating the nights-verse 🥺 I recently joined the Death Note fandom and binged your whole series this past week 💕

omg sorry this reply is sooooo late, i haven't logged into tumblr in months. thank you so much, i'm really glad you enjoyed it & that nights-verse continues to be read no matter how many years pass <3<3<3

#asks #holy shit i'm sorry to my 3.4 fans and -1 friends on here #no but i've been very busy and also kind of depressed but 2023 has been treating me so well #hi everyone

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uh? idc really i wouldn’t say anything to you if i just saw this post randomly but since it’s a reblog of my post i’m just gonna come back with:

“because of L, light never got to develop a true livelihood and never got to be an adult”

really???? really, it was because of L? you don’t think that maybe the reason that light was emotionally/socially stunted is because he? became a mass murderer at 17???? like i’m not saying L’s investigation tactics are ethical, i’m just saying, light definitely fucked himself up before L even had the opportunity to fuck him up.

sorry but the fact that light is 18 and L is 24, that light is imprisoned and powerless and L is illegally, unethically powerful, that light is a “good boy” and L is fucking sketchy, that light is super pretty and L is in-universe gross,

all that combined with the fact that light is bonkers crazy horny about the idea of murdering L is just. really fucking hot. so sorry

#like i always point out that L is a scumbag but #the reason i don't point out that light is a scumbag is bc it's so obvious it doesn't need to be said? #it's literally the thesis of death note as a text right?? #i mean whatever ya'll do you i just thought i'd make. a point #light yagami ruins his own life and his own soul nobody helps him with it

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oh! i'm sorry.. i wasn't trying to imply that i didn't like your light/L stuff. you just write some of the best b/L i've ever read and i'm hungry for more always. i am willing to pay you haha

oh christ no, i'm sorry - i just assumed you were like "no write this not that" when in actuality you were like "no write this And that." sorry!!! i am unfortunately defensive & a well-known assumer of the worst. thanks for your support. i'm really glad you like my work! <3

lowkey if the two sequels i have planned for "tabula rasa" ever get written then it will end in lxlightxb (what is the ship name for this? can it be bllight? anyway whatever it is, it's everything to me)

anyway i am torn between being like "hell yeah pay me!!!" and like "please keep your money, fuck capitalism, this is a gift from me to the universe." but you're kinda making me feel like i should? do commissions or something like that? though i'm going to costa rica in two weeks for a month for study abroad so actually it's not necessarily a good time for me to be picking up projects lmao

however, if you (or anyone reading this, hello world) would be interested in commissioning fic from me, now or in the future, feel free to shoot me a message & we can talk about it.

#truly entertaining this bc i'm unemployed at the moment as i'm leaving town for the month #planning to come back and get another shitty service industry job so anything helps honestly #i've been living on scholarship money recently and also i won an essay prize at my college but yeah #asks #anons #but obvs no pressure anon. odds are good that if you simply wait long enough i will be writing lxb

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what do i have to sacrifice to you to get you to write more aiber/L or B/L...

nothing much, just your firstborn

no but tbh, anon, i love & respect you, and i can see we have shared interests, but it feels kinda good to be, for the moment, obsessing over a ship that is somewhat popular and which people actually read fic of. i have written soooo much b/l in my life for an audience of, usually, like 2.4 people every year. i do love it (and aiber/l) but man alive, those are rare, rare pairs. not saying i write things based on their popularity (clearly, if i'm writing dn fanfic 15-20 years too late) just saying that it's nice to have like. any audience at all

all that said, if you give me $$$ then i will write you whatever the fuck you want

#mostly joke about the $$$ #well i'm actually dead serious but i don't actually expect anybody to pay me money for fanfic lmao #i can barely manage to be paid for original writing. i think my total earnings for my like 10 or so publications has been like. 180 bucks #but tbh spare yourself the expense and just simply wait. i cannot promise aiberxl but bxl has gotta be in the cards at some point #if you don't like lxlight then don't bother but all saints if you have not read it has lots of bxl and a bit of aiberxl #but i can't tell you how to live your life #anon #asks

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DATE ME PLS

lmao <3 sry anon i did the whole tumblr gf thing when i was a teen & it did not work out

#actual it's a fun story? #i moved to california for her when i was 19 but we broke up within a few months of moving in together #were roommates for like a year and yes 9 years later we're still friends #she actually came to portland last month & we hung out. she's married now #michelle if you're out there.... #also i've been dating the same old dude for 5 yrs and i'm really in love. so sorry. just out here enjoying my old man kink #(don't judge me. also i don't really have an old man kink i just. love this man. embarrassing i know) #anon #asks

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YOU'RE SO CUTE WOW

WTF I'M IN AWE

WTF THANK YOU

#asks #anon #i'm definitely cute yes. i'm not gonna front lmao #a big part of my personality is 'hi i'm jaye i'm fucking cute'

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i can’t stop reading tabula rasa, you just…..im sorry u own deathnote (and my mind). this is why I can’t read lawlight from anyone else 😭😭 and i need u to please make it ur life mission to get the duffer brothers to hire u to write it!!!! there are no other capable hands

hi!!!! just keep reading it & hold on, i already plotted a sequel in my head >:) (also thank you anon, i'm so happy you like it)

& please tweet @ the duffers and tell them this. start a petition. get me their email?? i'll straight up pitch myself to them, i swear to kira

#*light yagami voice* i'm the only one who can do it #not really actually i would trust brian fuller with it #and laura who wrote 'those who stand' #they could def also do it #also big compliment if you only read my fic. i also only read my fic lmao but i just have such a specific thing i like #it's my thing. i like it #asks #anon #also sry bryan spelled ur name wrong but no way i'm rewriting all these tags

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feel free to ignore this but i’ve ben wondering for like an eternity now, is your profile picture you?

lmao no my profile pic is sana bakoush from skam. which idk why i still have that pic since it's been years since i obsessed with skam. i just abandoned this account for like 4 years and this pic was on it the whole time so i feel attached to it. but now that you say that i'll prob change it!!!

anyway i look like this

#me #asks #anon #yes i am of middle eastern descent just like sana but i don't wear a hijab or anything #tho many of my relatives do on my dad's side

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not to be a light yagami apologist but being so unable to deal to with your gay feelings that you simply murder your crush is like. a mood

#death note #jaye text posts to herself #lawlight #ok now i'm going to go swim in the river

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can’t ever emphasize how much I love your recent fic, it killed me and brought me back to life

light being horny for murder (and also for L) never fails

would love to see you writing more for yotsuba lawlight again!

thanks, anon!!!!!! not to be self-congratulatory, but i'm right there with you? i'm obsessed with that fic. i feel like i'm in 2012 again bc that's when i discovered lawlight (wow, 10 years, i'm legally in a domestic partnership with this ship) and i'm feeling all those feelings a lot. like. tfw you are so attracted to a dude that you just simply kill him??? amazing

and your wish might be coming true bc i feel i could write a sequel to tabula rasa without breaking a sweat tbh

#thanks for the message it made me v happy!!! #i'm here to write horny 4 murder light for the good of the nation #asks #anon

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i guess i really haven’t been on top of linking these, but i’ve had three publications in the last few months (all poetry) if any of ya’ll are interested:

Black Earth

March; Fable; Something Green

Botched Fertility Rite

#i also have an interview coming out maybe tomorrow in one of these journals which i'll prob link #just like a written interview about poetry/writing that maybe some of ya'll will be interested in #i know weird that i'm a much more successful poet than fiction writer given that my fiction is pretty damn good (sry to toot my lil horn) #but i think it's bc my fiction is so fucky and speculative and queer and problematic lmao #whatever whatever my time will come #jaye text posts to herself

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death note fic: tabula rasa

light/l, very nsfw, ~4k complete.

L knows that, deep down, Light wants to kill him. So, his plan is simple: to make himself much more appealing alive than he would be dead.

notes: nbd, just some consensual murder kink fic. (nobody gets murdered, i promise). more notes on ao3 but basically like, if this is is a vibe you like, then here you go, much love to you. if not, so sorry, let’s move on.

warnings: consensual choking, face slapping, bad bdsm etiquette? the most bananas power dynamics you can imagine. power bottom!L, horny for murder top!light. dirty talk. sexual manipulation. intentional psychological destruction. lots of murder kink!

ok, now that i’ve scared you, let me just say that this fic is also actually very fun

read it here

#death note #lawlight #lxlight #lightxl #jaye writes fic #nsfw #i'm over-warning bc i don't want anybody walking in blind #hard for me to imagine shipping lawlight and not loving the murder kink but hey! different strokes #i wrote this literally obsessively for the last three days with every spare moment i had so i'm glad to be done with it #don't know why i'm relapsing so hard into canon yotsuba era lawlight but it's idk objectively the best ship #anyway this could easily be a deleted scene in nights or a prequel to shame is pride's cloak or w/e #it fits very well into jaye's death note literary canon it's extremely on brand #lmk if you want me to cw tags to this post btw

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sorry but the fact that light is 18 and L is 24, that light is imprisoned and powerless and L is illegally, unethically powerful, that light is a “good boy” and L is fucking sketchy, that light is super pretty and L is in-universe gross,

all that combined with the fact that light is bonkers crazy horny about the idea of murdering L is just. really fucking hot. so sorry

#not even ACKNOWLEDGING that he canonically does kill him (which is not my kink but go ham) #death note #lawlight #this is inspired by that post that's like 'ppl mad about the lawlight age difference when light canonically murders L ???" #bc yes ia with that post 100% but i want to raise ya'll one and say that the age difference (and all the power differentials) #are a large part of the appeal at least to me - but only bc they are counterbalanced #by light being literally the horniest for murder of anyone ever in the world. light is power mongering and full of bad wrong feelings #anyway i'm gonna post a fic soon that is full of unjustifiable consensual murder kink wish me luck #jaye text posts to herself

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ok so how do you warn/tag for something that is definitely not necrophilia bc nobody is dead but one character for example wants to kill another character and they both know it and they’re talking about it and that is the basic kink everybody is enjoying??? consensual murder kink???? what the fuck do you call this kink??? asking for a friend

#nsfw #cw for necro vibes??? #not as bad as it sounds i swear #it's lawlight so put 2 & 2 together