I'm like if a chivalrous knight kissed a fair maiden's hand and said "my lady, I fight for you" and then walked off and immediately tripped over his own armor and fell on the ground
anyway why would you want cheating drama when you could have buck drunkenly hanging off eddie's shoulder and rambling about how eddie is his best best friend and he's so glad it's not weird now that he likes guys because eddie is the best and his favorite person in the whole world and he's so warm and so close and eddie turns his head at the wrong moment and his nose bumps buck's cheek and he suddenly has a really horribly timed revelation that he doesn't quite remember the next morning
Being cursed with good comprehension is looking at a character and thinking: They would not listen to Taylor Swift. Something too many people in any fandom fail to comprehend.
Just gonna take a second to say how fucking good Hen looks. The entire outfit is fucking perfect. The glasses that match the earrings. The pop of red on her lips. The tie. I can't get over it. I would die for her.
me when characters who are performers & obfuscators & and careful curators of what they show to others are asked to define themselves outside the identity they've constructed
anyways i kind of think buck and eddie are at this strange place where they're both afraid of losing each other but in totally different ways. eddie loves buck and sees them as forever already. but he's stuck in this place of only asking for a level of companionship from buck that he thinks is safe and won't jeopardize that forever. buck will always be in his life and he's willing to be a little lonely for that to be the case. meanwhile, buck loves eddie but can't see how that could last. and that's not really about eddie, it's just about how for buck nothing lasts. people leave no matter how much he loves them or how devoted he is. and now he doesn't even trust his own body to keep him alive. buck can't see how eddie could be there for the rest of his life. buck isn't even sure if he believes there is a rest of his life.
basically, they're standing on a shaky floor. eddie thinks the foundation will hold so long as he doesn't move. buck is just waiting for the floor to fall out from under him. neither of them realize there's a way out if they just look for it together.