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the whole thing was unrealistic. the fact that CC made Alec this fighter who doesn’t even kill demons???? I’m sorry but are we supposed to think that THEE ALEXANDER LIGHTWOOD can’t kill a demon? A LIGHTWOOD. whole thing was ridiculous and reminds me why I hate the writing in TMI so much lmaooo

and don’t get me started on how Alec can’t do anything without having internal thoughts about jace. I hate how much Alec is written in the books so much.

alec and clary's friendship has truly come a long way considering that it started by alec insisting a demon committed suicide just to deny the fact that clary killed it

#alec lightwood #alexander lightwood #anti clary fray #anti cassandra clare #this is a vexing post #anti jace wayland

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#chronic pain #chronic illness #disabled #disability #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #disabilties

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there’s this part midway through chain of irons where they’re all fighting those demons that came after grace. and I don’t know if it’s just me being protective over my fav characters. but I really don’t like how when Alastair says “lightwood, look out” and James inner thoughts is like Alastair would be the only fool to do this. QUIT IT. I always saw Alastair stating this in a manner of being worried for Thomas. maybe that’s just me, I don’t know????? because we don’t really have access to Alastair’s thoughts but we know he feels something for Thomas. it’s pretty obvious that Alastair enjoys being around Thomas.

1. they’re seen at the first party together, speaking. James even says that he doesn’t think Thomas liked Alastair (which is also weird given other context but whatever.)

2. in flashback of 1902: Alastair keeps inviting Thomas out to places even though he’s there with Charles. he runs his fingers on Thomas where his tattoo is going to be.

3. and then he calls out Lightwood during the battle.

it’s very clear that Alastair has some sort of feelings for Thomas even if they aren’t stated. and this is just up to that point.

and it makes me mad because there have been many instances in her books (that I remember) where people say similar things or each other names in battles. but whatever

just a small thing that’s always kind of bothered me lmao because both Matthew and James are quick to think or say shit about Alastair. I get that Alastair was a dick at school but Alastair is trying to change. we don’t really see him being rude except by saying remarks about Matthew and James- but he’s worried for his sister. but whatever, I’ll see y’all in the next episode of whatever irritates me lmao

#not really anti post #just kind of something that’s always bothered me #alastair carstairs #thomas lightwood

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I just read the part where Cordelia watched Alastair and Charles’s interaction in chain of iron. y’all know the one. and I just got to say, why is CC so obsessed with other people watching characters either fight and have intimate moments? was it so hard to start the chapter with Alastair pov???? yes I’m salty as fuck that we don’t get Alastair’s thoughts. I know I say this all the time but I want his thoughts, his minds, his feelings.

and it’s so fucking weird that she can see and hear Alastair’s intimate feelings. that is such a private moment!!!!! imagine being with someone and your sibling, friend, or some stranger is just watching you without your knowledge. it’s fucking gross. but I don’t expect better from CC honestly. she’s done this shit in literally all of her books.

I honestly would have loved to near Alastair’s thoughts when he found out that Barbara died. it could have made the story more fascinating.

I’m about to just find some fanfic that would do the story better. omg Cordelia was so creepy during this. I get she was worried about her brother not telling about the demon thing but what has Alastair really done that shows he’s untrustworthy? I know she doesn’t know the whole story but if anyone has your back girl, it’s your brother lmao

and ending this with a fuck you charles. I hate you and despise everything you put Alastair through. seriously fuck you 🙃

#anti cassandra clare #anti cc #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #I’m just saying that I would be so uncomfortable #if I found out my sister was watching an intimate moment I had with someone #also fuck you charles

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days past Paris: 1902 is the best part of chain of iron. y’all can try to prove me wrong or argue but it would be a wasted effort. we should’ve had more flashbacks of Thomas and Alastair starting to become acquaintances or whatever you want to call that lovely sensation between the two of them 💓

just imagine reading Thomas’s pov about this. or actually being let into Alastair’s thoughts. I don’t care about James and grace or that whole bracelet debacle. the story was some boring and overdone.

I care about sweet and reserved Thomas falling in love with quietly grief torn and passionate Alastair. I’m just saying that more flashbacks of them would’ve made this book better. we barely have any pages of them really being near one another. it’s not until almost the end of the book that we actually get one of their pov.

I’ll admit for fucks sake that I want more thomastair but who wouldn’t???? 💞

#alastair carstairs #thomas lightwood #thomastair #chain of iron #I’m just saying that there were missed opportunities #imagine pov of Thomas falling in love with Alastair #and Alastair falling in love with Thomas #but I’ll take what I can get

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this isn’t necessarily a hate post and I certainly don’t hate the character but can y’all believe Cordelia in the beginning of chain of gold when there are literally people dying and she goes: but what about my father Jem? and I’m certainly not hating on her because I can understand where she’s coming from. she’s worried about her father. Cordelia doesn’t know the whole truth about his “illness”. but sweetheart, read the room. people are being poisoned, they’re dying, there’s some mysterious demon activity going on. everytime I read these lines and Alastair goes “do you really think this is the best time?” and Cordelia’s basically like yeah our father needs help, GIRL WHAT.

it’s just so crazy to me lmao and I’m truly not hating on Cordelia. she’s not my favorite character and her character growth surely goes out the window after that whole thing with Matthew. like people are literally dying but ok girl lmaooo

I really would’ve loved to hear Alastair’s pov and thoughts on this. cause just imagine 💀

#cordelia carstairs #not a hate post #I swear to y’all I’m not hating #but it’s just so wild to me #there are literally people dying Cordelia #ok but I understand she’s sad for her father but STILL #and her curiousty wasn’t even worth it in the end lmao #this is why the whole series would be in Alastair’s pov

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I said this before and I’ll say it again: TLH SHOULD HAVE BEEN IN ALASTAIRS POV

y’all just imagine how much better it would have been if most of the series was from Alastair’s pov and we could have had thomastairs love story from the very beginning and see it fleshed out. imagine the pov of Alastair about his no good deadbeat daddy. just imagine y’all how much better it could have been.

but whatever I’ll endure this miscommunication trope CC has come to love and accept what I have of thomastair. it’s better than nothing at least 🥹

#anti cassandra clare #anti cc #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #ok y’all just imagine how much better it could have been #all the things we missed #all of Alastair’s emotions and how he felt about everything #plus all the Thomas pov too #I’m feeling sad so y’all can ignore me now #I just miss them so much and know it could’ve been so much more

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“Thomas is handsome.” “Thomas isn’t as beautiful as James.” bitch stfu and don’t do my favorite character that way. Thomas is fucking beautiful, handsome, gorgeous, ALL OF THE ABOVE. literally CC’s inability to not have everyone’s thoughts about a herondale is beyond me. she can’t have one book without making her entire focus a herondale.

I don’t hate James but I do despise herondales and don’t need to hear about how golden and wonderful you think they are, and how their actions should be excused because you think they’re pretty.

also don’t do Thomas like that.

not getting into Alastair right now either but poor soul deserved so much better in the beginning 💞

#anti cassandra clare #anti cc #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #Thomas is absolutely gorgeous and I will not have the slander

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I gave into y’all’s pleas and started TLH. please keep me in your thoughts during this time 💓

#anti cc #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #anti cassandra clare #I will endure it for Thomas and Alastair

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someone please tell me not to read TLH again PLEASE I do not need that kind of state of vexation in my life right now

I miss Thomas and Alastair so much 🥹

ok I kind of miss Matthew too 😭

#anti cc #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #I miss them so fucking much #I hope they’re thriving as they best deserve to be #like is it really worth reading all over again lmao

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#disability #disabled #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #this is the fucking post #I’m allowed to be upset that I’m in pain #chronic pain #it’s not normal to be in pain every second of everyday #i’m just tired

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it’s honestly funny but also sad and disturbing how devoted and loyal shadowhunter book fans will support and stand up for CC’s obsession with incest, lazy writing, and shitty representation. it’s also the same fans who will hate on the show for doing shit differently but are okay with the fucked up incest writing lmao y’all be doing too much. stop excusing problematic behavior. doesn’t matter if you read these books when you were 13 and though “oh how romantic”, or if you feel all the shit in CC’s book is romantic or written well. incest is not a love story no matter how much some of these book fans want to spin and twist it. it doesn’t have any special meaning to show how fucked parents are. there is a pattern and CC has shown multiple patterns of this behavior.

I’m not saying the show is perfect but at least they did put in some effort to change some unnecessary shit. I got to remind myself how much better this series could be in the hands of an author who would do the representation rightfully and just, plus write fantastic world building 🥲

#anti cassandra clare #anti cc #anti jace herondale #anti clary fray #anti clace

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I just want to say I’m so fucking tired of abled people not helping when they have a disabled person staying with them. I’m waiting for my apartment and the person I’m staying with is so fucking inconsiderate. I’ve felt so sick since the time I started staying here. no, I’m not being ungrateful but I don’t deserve to be put through hundreds of flare ups when I already have new chronic conditions coming through. I get they don’t understand shit of what I deal with but show some fucking compassion and empathy.

I'm begging you, pleeeaaase if you live with a physically disabled person and they tell you what would make the living space more accessible, DO NOT SAY "just ask me for help." I don't want to have to ask for your help dumping out yesterday's coffee grounds in the french press.. I want to be able to make coffee without having to ask for help every. single. fucking. day.. Like, why don't able bodied people not understand that asking for help to do every little thing fucking SUCKS?? Also, when I'm upset because my own home isn't accessible, don't get mad at me as if it's something personal towards you.. It has absolutely nothing to do with you. I'm allowed to be mad at the lack of accessibility my disability creates... Don't make it about you.

#disability #chronic illness #spoonie #disabled #chronic pain

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I was just reminded of the sentence I probably despise the most

“You’re too young to be in pain”

I will end you.

#chronic illness #chronic fatigue #chronic pain #chronically ill #spoonie

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shadowhunter book fans make me laugh so much because they get personally offended and insulted if you don’t like the books 🥰 I’m not sorry that I don’t care for problematic writing from a problematic author lmao

#anti cassandra clare #anti cc

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I just saw someone post about how Malec was fan service in the eldest curses. the fuck y’all think TMI was??? it’s literally the same six books about the same toxic couple who literally do not care about the people around them who only have a duty to save their precious love. it’s the same shit over and over.

may not have been fan service but y’all cannot read those books and not think I wonder who her favorite is? can’t be golden abused boy who can’t communicate or be a good person properly or his little selfish soulmate who hates women because they’re pretty and has to put her boyfriends feelings first before her own.

and I don’t even care if they’re the main characters. we didn’t need every thought to be about them. she had the opportunity to choose between many characters and she chose to focus on that lmao

#anti cassandra clare #anti cc #anti jace herondale #anti clary fray #anti clace

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I’m just here to say that we did not fucking need six books of TMI. did Cassandra Clare wake up one day and said to herself: HMMMM you know what the world needs that I can give it? six books of the same toxic, problematic, incest couple who does not care about anyone but themselves. yeah and then I can write more books with their traits to make it even more unbearable! let’s not give representation either! HOW FUN!!!!! haven’t we suffered enough from the first one? we did not need 69387292 more 😭

#anti cassandra clare #anti cc #anti clace #anti jace herondale #anti clary fray