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Bbrrooo I figure it out its not seasonal depression it's having to spend time at home depression

#lmaoo #sorry just occurred to me #cause i would get seasonal depression in the summer like consistently #and this year i feel ive hit a depressive episode over winter #and you know what they both have in common #yup being home with my family #like i spent 2 weeks at home and it almost killed me #quite literally cried all the time but obviously by myself #and obviously summers are long times spent at home #anyways this is funny in a horrible way #stfu

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Tell me why my fucking mother has sent me an essay about how she feels bad that our relationship isn't good but also a bit of a guilt trip into getting me to meet her stupid fucking boyfriend

Like no I am will not be telling you what I hope for the future of our relationship because one I hope I can fuck off and not have one with you but two, and most importantly, why the fuck would you send me this right before I'm supposed to go to bed and while you know I'm fucking in the busiest year of my schooling

Like way to negate everything you've send cause you're clearly still missing the plot here and this is obviously you just releasing your own guilt

#stfu #angry #like especially when you complain about how my dad pulls this type of shit how are you going to do the same thing? #im genuinely so upset like i want to throw up and cry and fucking scream #fuck off and leave me alone #i want to talk about more than just finances okay well thats why we ha e a relationship at all #also fuck off about the divorce shit like again youre missing the plot here #anyways ive turned off notifications from her for a week #is that immature? yes but i genuinely dont have the capacity to deal with more #also at least i got to tell her not to pull that dumb shit with the gift from the boyfriend like she did years ago with other mans #like you cant just buy my affection and it pisses me off that you think you can

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This week was a kill yourself type of week

#tw suicide mention #suicide #depression #like truly honestly if i was even remotely in a slightly worse mental state I would have fucking lost it #like why does everything have to happen back to back #anyways if anyone actually sees this don't worry i am not in danger of harming myself #i just feel like shit and am very tired of things going horribly wrong #stfu #mine

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Okay fuck it if this post reaches 666k notes by the end of 2023 I'll practise basic self care

Why 666k? Because it's funny and impossible so good fucking luck

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Okay fuck it if this post reaches 666k notes by the end of 2023 I'll practise basic self care

Why 666k? Because it's funny and impossible so good fucking luck

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Been less than a day of this 6 day family trip and I already want to be as far away as possible from my family so this is gonna be fun 🙃

#literally I am miserable #like if I could I would go home #but instead I am Stuck #so lets see how much I can just go off and do things on my own #tbh not like my family really thinks of me when planning anyways #like my mom wants to rent a cabana which fair enough but there is 3 of us and they are for 2 people #and I point this out and she's like oh we'll switch cause we wont all be on at the same time #but she does not swim and my sister is basic and just sunbathes so when exactly is there going to be space for me #this concern was ignored #anyways #stfu #angry

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Have been home less than a month and my mom has made me feel like I desperately want to be Not Here™️ multiple times. Like this must be a new record cause usually we save some of this shit for the end of the summer but no we're gonna go heavy from the beginning.

#honestly since my dog died there's much less here at home that brings me joy #like if I didnt have friends I only see when im home I honestly would have considered staying away for the summer #major reason to come was my dog who is no longer here so we really be feeling shitty since I can only see my friends so often #and in the mean time I'm stuck in this hellhole #anyways I used to wonder why my seasonal depression was in the summer #opposed to most people I know getting it the worst in the winter #but I think im starting to piece things together lol #stfu #depression

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I truly gotta know why do so many dudes take so long to understand why Jay Park's aquaman is called aquaman?? Like hello its pretty clearly about eating pussy

#jay park #like for whatever reason i thought it would be funny to watch reactions to aquaman #and so many dudes are like cool song anyway why is it aquaman #okay arguably ive only watched a few videos but girls seem to pick it up pretty quick and the dudes are slow if they do get it #and at least a few didnt get it at all #like damn bruh just say you dont eat pussy

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UGHAHAG Why are some people such know-it-alls?!? Like hot damn I know I can be too sometimes but I'll admit to not knowing something. Like how are you going to be such a know-it-all about a fucking TV show. You haven't seen it before and I have so how are you going to basically lie to my face that you didn't say anything indicating sympathy for a character, multiple times might I add, that I knew wasn't actually innocent AND THEN pretend you knew they were sus the whole time?!?! Like wtf just admit you didn't know !!!

#stfu #angry #annoying #and obviously theyre like this about everything else too #like cant ever give advice cause they already knew that and will shut you down #but if you say no to their advice well jeez no need to be like that im justing offering some knowledge #like oh so we arent self aware cool #anyways im just consistently more and more annoyed with this behavior tbh

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Hate depression that makes you not want to live anymore but like you're also not like actively (this may be bad word choice but idk how else to say it) suicidal.

Like damn I'm not a danger to myself like I'm not gonna do anything but holy shit do I feel so shitty

Anyway hope everyone else is doing better

#but truly like can my dumb ass brain like get it together #cause like it just sucks to be stuck like this #especially cause it feels like no one else is ever aware I feel this way #but its too exhausting to try to explain #and I don't want to worry anyone ya know?? #stfu #depression #suicide #tw suicide mention #idk if anything else needs to be tagged

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Y'all am I just the biggest fucking bitch or like does everybody get so annoyed when people keep sending you stuff over social media??

Like a few instagram posts sent my way no biggie I even appreciate that you thought I would find it funny but like 10+ like stop interacting with me!!! Or like when people send you voice messages or videos like brooooo I don't always have time to sit down and like listen to shit!!! And it just feels like they take so much more energy than just reading a text

And just sometimes I just want to want to be left alone and I try to convey that by sending back like very bland/dry responses and people Never Get It

#like genuinely I wonder how much of a bitch this makes me #cause most people like gush about their friends #and these are supposed to be my friends #but like I get so annoyed and frustrated #and i don't know how to make it stop other than flat out ignoring people #and that feels wrong #stfu #angry

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Okay so like naruto spoiler but like does anybody else think its hilarious that the basic characteristics of obito and the phantom of the opera are the same?!?!

Like

Scarred half of face : ✔

Wears a mask: ✔

Kills people: ✔

Obsessively in love with a girl who doesn't love him back: ✔

They are the SAME

#im cackling about this #like idk i just think its so fucking funny #naruto #shippuden spoilers #naruto spoilers #naruto shippuden #obito #obito uchiha #tobi #stfu #oh also sorry if this is something that like is already known/ a joke that someone made already #note: edited because i was feeling like the original wording was just a bit too nice

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Anyway y'all is it not the most frustrating thing when you're making a joke and someone like corrects you?? "Actually" "that doesn't make sense because..." like SHUT UP I was making a joke I wasn't being serious about the logistics of things it was just a funny! If you don't think its funny thats fine but like do Not act like you're a genius helping out a poor idiot by explaining things to me that I Already Know

#stfu #people really be testing me sometimes #like there is no need to be so serious about everything

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Should really use this to vent more often considering I have a lot to vent about and no one i want to hear it

#stfu

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This better pass.

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not a dream

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Start reblogging the money blessings post…

If you haven’t already done it…. Go hit that reblog button. Do what you have to, just do that too.

Like seriously. Just find one and reblog it real quick. I post a couple yesterday and put into the universe that I actually wanted it

Only been at work for a couple and I get this at as a tip! (tips ain’t normal at ALL in here)

Come on now!!

Let it work for y’all too