itsjustpolyester312

[itsjustpolyester312]

i wonder if you know how guilty I feel

if you knew that would still wanna leave?

I wonder if you know that i want you here

without you, there's no point to be

(please don't leave me)

#please don't leave me #poetry

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wendy (by maisie peters) is about choosing to not stick around for peter

peter (by taylor swift) is what happens when wendy sticks around and peter doesn’t

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posts that make me want to rip my heart out part 5

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you left me.

now I'm hanging on the thinnest of threads

and no one's there to catch me when I fall

see this is why I never let myself get used to the net

i knew someday you'd leave me to drop

i knew I didn't deserve all the fucking love you gave me

(if you ever gave me any at all)

#poetry #kinda #i'm so tired #im sorry #just let me die

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please just lower your voice

i can't take any more of your screaming

#im so tired

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Sometimes I say self loathing things to my therapist and he looks at me dead in the eyes before saying “You fucking moron.” and tbh same

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A poem from my 14y/o's POV

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i think I've seen this film before

but I'm not leaving out the side door

i think I've seen this film before

and I'm changing the fucking ending

#taylor swift #exile #bon iver #poetry #kinda? #I love folklore

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there were shortcuts into heaven through your eyes

#chloe moriondo #pierce the veil #12 fractures

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March 10th, 1917

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"remember, when you're floating up and up in your bubble,

that bubbles burst, the higher you climb, the farther you fall"

maybe I'm just hoping that if I'm lucky enough I'll fly too high

and when my bubble bursts i'll just fall and die

(instead of facing the consequences of believing that I can live a happy life)

#poetry #kinda #noughts and crosses #malorie blackman #im so tired

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I love your poems, they're just so deep and meaningful

The flying down the cliff

Perhaps you should let me drown. 

I’m standing there, so close to the cliff’s end. 

My whole body is shaking and my tears are covering my whole face and front side of neck.

My fingers tremble, as I hold on to the breeze of the sea. 

My black dress is ruined, my knees are bleeding. 

Regret and guilt fill up my whole being, 

they suffocate me, as they wrap their hands around my bare throat. 

I'm getting eaten alive by the agony. 

And you're there, right behind me,

like a guard on my right shoulder. 

And you won't let me do it. 

I fucking hate you. 

You took away the only choice I had the chance to make. 

You imprisoned me and I cannot help, but pity you. 

Because you cut my wings and broke my legs. 

Just so I could stay for a bit more. 

And now you watch over me as I try to escape. 

You stare at me and make me regret my wants. 

You hate me, yet you love me and you hold the same knife I used to stab your heart. 

And you keep stabbing without even knowing it,

you twist it and turn it and I cough blood and you say you want to help me. 

And you say it with such adoration, that I can feel my hot blood drip down my broken legs. 

You believe me like a God, for you can not let me go. 

And when I leave you, I'll die. 

I’ll fall down the cliff and I’ll suffocate in the darkness of death. 

And my broken wings will mean something. 

This is the price I have to pay. 

To drown in the sea cold water, as the moon light bathes our skins. 

Just so I could heal my wings and fly again.

Perhaps you should really let me drown.

~R <33333

#amazing poetry

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you know I left a part of me back in new york

you know the hero died so what's the movie for?

well, I'd like to believe that I know why I stayed and watched it

so I can still cling onto that last piece of fucking hope

#taylor swift #hoax #poetry #kinda #im so tired

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take me to the lakes where all the poets went to die

i don't belong, and my beloved neither do you

but when did anyone ever fucking belong

I'll be damned if i ever meet a single fucking person who feels like they belong

#taylor swift #the lakes #poetry #kinda #idk #i'm so tired

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suicide seems so sweet, but I yearn for my own pain:

masochistic self-infliction, permanent upon flesh,

these urges are so strong, & so fucking terrifying;

why do I hate the innocence of my former self?

why can't I move on from my own childhood?

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i think jk rowling deserves a thank you. she wrote these books that our fandom is based on and no one thanks her. so i’m going to.

Thank you for creating a world of wonder and beauty and magic that I lived in when my life was hard. Thank you for inspiring me to keep going, hearing that you wrote under a pseudonym so boys still read your books convinced me that i could carry on even under prejudice.

Thank you so fucking much for RUINING IT ALL. You were my fucking feminist icon. I TOLD MY TRANS COUSIN I ADORED YOU, before I knew. That’s how I found out. I said to his face that I admired YOU, a transphobic arsehole who spreads misinformation and causes trans CHILDREN to KILL THEMSELVES!

You built and ruined my childhood Joanne Kathleen Rowling. You are telling kids who look up to you, to ruin the lives of trans people who are just trying to live their life.

i wasn’t on social media, it made me feel bad so I never kept up with celebs. I didn’t know who you truly were. I didn’t know until my cousin told me. I didn’t know there was an Emma Watson to look up too. I thought there was you or nothing. YOU LEFT ME WITH NOTHING.

So fuck you. Fuck you for ruining my childhood but more importantly, fuck you for ruining trans peoples lives.

i’m fucking glad you hate wolfstar. i’m fucking glad you hate trans Regulus. Bite me in the fucking arse you bloody TERF.

And thank you so much for teaching me that it’s never worth it to meet your hero’s.

I’m so glad i never had the misfortune of interacting with you. YOU ARE NOT A FEMINIST AND WON’T EVER FUCKING BE UNTIL YOU INCLUDE ALL WOMEN YOU TRANSPHOBIC MONSTER!

[itsjustpolyester312]

I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to hurt myself:

not anymore, & I don't want to hurt those who love me,

I never wanted to do that, & I hate myself for doing it;

but sometimes, the voices scream so fucking loud...