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if judit has 1 fan, that 1 fan is me

(harry's telling her some kind of stupid joke and judit's trying really hard not to laugh)

#my art #disco elysium #harry du bois #judit minot #harry x judit #was inspired to draw this image coz there was NOTHING in their ship tag #its really fun and cute to think about. so i figured why not manifest it #this is just a doodle so it's kinda sloppy #still dont have a good grasp on what they wear in elysium #but i do think they wear hats #jean dressed harry here btw. harry was gonna go out on his date looking like a fucking clown. russet blazer purple shirt green pants etc #harry asked kim hey do i look ok and kim was like yeah! you look like yourself #but then jean caught harry b4 he went to meet judit and jean was like harry no. none of this works #bc a fun little fact is that um. in my fics jean is good with fashion #also judit gothISH. i like to think shes counterculture and juuuust a little bit alt #kinda basing her 20s on my moms! going to rock concerts and shit. being part of the counterculture #judits 37 now i think #some kinda 1910s 1930s dress. idk #still need to figure out the fashions #bg is a picture i took #ALSO JUDIT TALL. SHES FUCKING SIX ONE. SHES JEANS HEIGHT #do you know how obsessed with that i am???? #also dw about harrys ropeburn scar. #tags copied from my fandom blog p0rchc0ll4ps3!

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it's my fucking apartment, i'm NOT changing in the bathroom, and if you say ANYTHING about my panties, i'll report you for harassment

version without lighting under the cut

#my art #jean vicquemare #i dont have any lore for this one its just him in his apartment in women's underwear. ok? #marked for drug abuse coz of the track marks #disco elysium #suggestive #dunno if i should tag it for anything else #tags copied from my fandom blog #putting it here for archival / storage

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lângă mine stă un trecut cu o sută de gheare îl lovesc în plin cu priviri din raze de soare

a past with a thousand claws sits next to me i hit it hard with a stare made of sunbeams

you were the sunrise in all of that big dark black pale nothing and because of you, i learned finally to love the world again

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i'm literally insane idk how i managed this anyways im obsessed with them. kim but if he was drawn in harry's portrait, and harry drawn if he was in kim's portrait. okay?

of course they put their own spins on the portraits too bc they're different guys. but basically it's if kim was the one who didn't get over his grief of his partner's death 6 years ago and harry if he did get over the grief of losing dora. kim loses his memories from alcohol blackout, and harry is still harry with all his skills and thoughts, just medicated and in therapy. instead of kim being there for harry and instead of harry being given the second chance to start again, it's harry who's there for kim and it's kim who's given the second chance to start again

the romanian lyrics up there r from "Undeva" by the Mono Jacks which is an incredibly harry song to me

anyways portrait meta under the cut coz it's a textwall.

anyways. for kim, instead of harry's white outline (there's a white shadow that smells like apricots) which i think resembles becoming someone out of nothing, i gave kim heavy a black shadow bc while he also loses his memories in this au, he becomes a wreck bc of grief from the loss of his partner eyes. in my headcanons, eyes had pale associations and that's part of why he was so good with perception. thus instead of the straight white and colorful lines on harry's, kim has curved lines like pale. the blue is the same blue color of eyes's eyes, and the grey is pale representative. there's also orange in there bc kim's self-expression is Very much orange imo. so he's covering it up (not my idea btw, i took it from @/u3pxx who did a really cool version of kim's portrait for their version of swap au also). he's wearing his pilot jacket, but it's the black one bc after eyes died he decided there was no other way to deal with his death than become eyes, so he decided to start wearing the jacket bc it made him feel a little cooler (eyes was so cool). imo he's also in mourning. so it's black. it's also why he got his hair and his facial hair like that coz it's literally how eyes had it. hes also got the red ears red nose of being alcoholic. bc he's alcoholic and maybe on drugs (like harry was) bc he (kim) completely just can't deal with the pressures of the job without it (they move him to processing and then homicide as a result of eyes's death). but besides the turmoil of the bg and all that past that's haunting him, kim himself is relatively monotone and put-together. the thin white line around him is the thin shred of professionalism he's BARELY holding onto to keep all that misery at bay and hidden from everyone else but like. it won't hold. there's already cracks in it. also the logo on his jacket is my hc for the aerostatics logo

harry meanwhile has the kim halo but it's like a sunrise bc to kim harry's always going to feel like sunrise (both in my hcs for canon and for swap). obviously harry's not as put together and strict and rigid as kim, so his portrait is a lot more colorful (his skills' colors!!). completely vibrant and alive and awake. in this au, harry's still harry but he got over the breakup bc he got therapy and he's on meds for his troubles. i have a line in one of my fanfics about kim taking care of harry post-tribunal where kim realizes harry needs him by his side and that revachol needs him, too. and when kim looks at harry he thinks it's like the entirety of revachol is there in his eyes. so i really wanted harry's eyes to really look striking. also the nametag is just another one of my hcs for their uniforms. they have last name, then 3 stripes for lieutenant (1 for patrol officer, 2 for sergeant, 4 for captain), then two stripes on the top to indicate double-yefreitor, ie other ranks (jean has a single hollow circle for satellite officer).

#i had so many versions of these oh my god i uploaded and reuploaded them #my theory about the de portraits being drawn on procreate continues coz i somehow manage to get the vibe so well every time #anyways. #my art #disco elysium #disco elysium spoilers #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #disco elysium swap au #jumpscared by how my art looks like my art style every time no matter what #i've literally never rendered anything to this level b4 #very pleased with these also shoves harry entirely in my mouth. okay? #i have more doodles on p0rchc0ll4ps3 (my reblogs blog) if you go to the tag 'disco elysium swap au'

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Chapters: 14/14 Fandom: Disco Elysium (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Harry Du Bois & Kim Kitsuragi, Harry Du Bois/Kim Kitsuragi, Eyes & Kim Kitsuragi, Kim Kitsuragi & Garte Characters: Kim Kitsuragi, Harry Du Bois, Garte (Disco Elysium), Eyes (Disco Elysium) Additional Tags: Angst, Sickfic, Canonical Character Death, Post-Mercenary Tribunal (Disco Elysium), Missing Scene, Spoilers, During Canon, POV Second Person, Implied Relationships, Blood, Mild Gore, Medical Procedures, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Panic Attacks, Vomiting, Flashbacks, Dreams, First Aid, Suicidal Thoughts, Canon-Typical Racism, Slurs, Caretaking, had to write what happened after harry got shot, and i REALLY wanted to write kim getting his ptsd hella triggered, also cuno is here. for a scene, and my garte kim friendship agenda..., Grief/Mourning, Pale Fuckery, also yeah there's tension here and kim's slowly realizing how much he likes harry, but they don't get together., POV Kim Kitsuragi Summary:

Somewhere in Martinaise, the snow is falling. The violence is over. The conflict is done. Blood freezes, goes cold on broken tiles. Inside, it is warm. A man sits a bedside vigil besides the body of another man, asleep, shimmering red with fever, his shot up leg crawling with pain. The man sitting vigil shuts his eyes and he ignores the pounding of his head and he ignores the déjà vu of having seen this all before, somewhere in Jamrock in July, six years of a world away.

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Kim takes care of Harry after the tribunal and is forced to face his own demons: the death of his previous partner, and the very likely death of this new acquaintance (and with it, death to the first hope he's felt in years).

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Here’s this hugelarge fic I’ve been working on for the past month!!! Super proud of this one. It’s basically a missing scenes fic of the two days Kim had to take care of Harry after the tribunal. From Kim’s POV! Had a lot of fun with this one.

Kim is so fun to write. and i like it when he has issues. bc on the outside he doesn’t. BUT INTERNALLY...

#gosh #shoves him in my mouth #really good stuff here #disco elysium #disco elysium spoilers #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #my writing #i tag garte too bc he's there #garte disco elysium #idk how else to tag this hahah i really love it #good stuff afufhgufgghfugughg #this fic makes me feel a LOT of things #oh umm #eyes disco elysium #viorel segal

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Drifting into view, way in the west, white cloud (down). If everybody knew, I never knew (down).

Down the chimney, out the window, that is all.

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DE style portrait for Eyes, small in the frame, leaving, blurry at the edges, dead, gone now, lost to the pale, lost to an ocean of non-existence.

Six years ago, July the 2nd, '45, your time ran out. The clock ran down to zero. And I never talked to you again, in life.

But they say that while death comes after life, so there will be life again, after death. And that while the pale comes after the world, so there will be the world again, after the pale.

This I know.

This will be true.

And sunrise will rise again on my pale, lightless world.

meta and theories and headcanons under the cut!!

words are from kim's pov! the song is cleaning out the rooms by sea power bc while the lyrics don't fit, i think this image very much sounds like that song

the portrait's meant to be an opposite of harry's! looking left instead of right, tilted downward, outlined in black instead of white, swirls and monochrome instead of angles and colors. also there's definitely a parallel bw jean's black square and the black rectangle here, representing the past, but also a doorway here. also it's not a shoulders up bust portrait intentionally; eyes is meant to be small in the frame because he's leaving, fading away. the pale taking him, i guess. i wouldve liked him to be smaller tbh but eh this is good

the watch is the one i hc kim still wears. it's at 00:00 here bc eyes's time has run out, and the numbers above it are the date of his death (July 2, '45.). there's also the gunshot wound eyes dies from. it parallels harry's gunshot wound on his outer left thigh, except that eyes dies from the infection where harry survives it.

obviously the swirls are the pale bc eyes in my hcs is very connected to the pale, as harry is. i want there to be strong parallels bw harry and eyes. the way harry is sunrise to kim, brightness after a long period of dark, the way he represents hope and the future. whereas eyes is the past and despair. eyes being the pale, harry being the sun, and kim being elysium, the world in between. and kim being the protector of that world by way of protecting its future savior, harry. bc harry is revachol, and kim loves revachol, and he takes good care of those things he protects, see.

something also about the way eyes is a necessary sacrifice. that kim would never have been there for harry if eyes hadn't died first. that the only way harry could hope to push back the pale, the despair, the hopelessness of non-existence is by having kim there, and kim can't be there for harry unless eyes dies first. after the world, the pale. after the pale, the world again. after eyes, harry.

#yeh #my art #disco elysium #disco elysium spoilers #bc the description below has it #eyes disco elysium #viorel segal #genuinely love this art its one of my faves ive ever done idk why

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împreună eram de neoprit, frate

together, we were golden, brother

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eyes and kim, GRIH, '43

the 57th's Coolest (According to Eyes)

Eyes: Can't believe they're sending us all the way out to the devil's mother to find this guy.

Kim: Something's not adding up, Sarge.

#yeah. #my art #how do you tag for him what #disco elyisum #kim kitsuragi #but he's like. 36. #viorel segal #eyes disco elysium #“eyes” #my 'eyes was half graadian and dealt with some amount of racism and helped kim get his shit together' agenda #IM ALWAYS DRAWING GUYS STANDING NEXT TO EACH OTHER BC THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE AJKSHFDSD

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calling him out

text reads

harry, pointing at himself: This bad boy can fit so much emotional deregulation in him. harry, pointing at kim: That one has anxiety. kim: I'm very well regulated, officer. kim any time Harry does anything risky: *is anxious

(inspired by how when harry went to talk to joyce about the pale, kim didn't want to hear about it, but he didn't fully leave, just kinda' walked a little bit away, and when he came back, harry said "you needn't have worried" to which kim replied "but i did" and espirit du corps said to harry "shouldn't have gotten protective, he thinks")

ALSO all brushes from here <https://ko-fi.com/artofwendyxu/shop> (procreate only) bc they're so quality

also coalition aerostatics logo under the cut bc it's def a logo he has on his pilot jacket n not just some white something

supposed to represent a propeller i think! so i followed canon and then added onto it since they're warships, or used to be, it has crosshairs but also the plus in the bg also represents the propeller (like the bmw logo)

grey for the pale, blue for liberalism / unity / capitalism, counter-clockwise like a helicopter propeller. ig also kinda' ocean core since they're islands? maybe there would be dots in the bottom left corner that represent the islands / countries in the coalition (like how the subaru logo is the Pleiades star constellation)

can't be black and white bc that's communism!

it's all very vague so i'm just having fun coalescing my own little thoughts here

#disco elysium #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #also his diamond shaped glasses.................... #every time i draw kim his vneck gets lower #disco elysium spoilers #kinda. i mention in game shit #in the comments. #my art #releasing this into the wild. i love drawing them fr

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i give you... jean.

in which precinct 41's hallways r too damn narrow and it's a constant game of chicken when anyone has to pass anyone else in the hall

jean thinks kim's really cool btw. he's honored to work with him even. but kim.... literally fuck that 6 foot 1 bastard. He didn't like Harry's karaoke. And Harry put his heart into that shit.

text transcribed bc i write in an approximation of their handwriting

jean: Sorry Lieutenant, hallway's fucking tight. kim: Excuse me, Mr. Vicquemare.

#JEAN! I MADE HIM TOO OLD HERE BC I DIDNT KNOW HE WAS YOUNGER THAN HARRY BUT ITS FINE! #disco elysium #jean vicquemare #kim kitsuragi #my art #i think he's really cool btw. jean. i think jean's so neat. there's some angst potential as hell there #also got a new brush set and god its so fucking cool its like. traditional art. felt tip pen for this one #also god kims so shORT #ouGghh

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Disco Elysium (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Harry Du Bois & Kim Kitsuragi, Harry Du Bois/Kim Kitsuragi, Harry Du Bois/Dora Ingerlund Characters: Harry Du Bois, Kim Kitsuragi Additional Tags: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Spoilers, During Canon, POV Second Person, Implied Relationships, ya'll kim is just cold. that's how he is but he's working on it ok this is the best he can do, not so much cold tbh as he is just. scared to open up, scared to show he cares Summary:

You shouldn't have taken that nap. You should've kept going, like you're good at, until you collapsed. Because whatever you just fucking uncovered is not worth it.

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Harry wakes up from that one dream at the end of the game where he remembers his ex.

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takes place b4 my other fic Know That You Are Safe Because I Will Always Be with You after Harry wakes up from being shot.

i enjoy putting harry thru the grinder and making kim uncomfortable bc he has to deal with it n how tf do you deal with it if you have to be emotionally caring but dont want to reveal any of that (answer. you probably dont)

#anyways im metagaming and spoilering in my notes #fr. #disco elysium #disco elysium spoilers #disco elysium fanfiction #kimharry #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #everytime i pick their names out of the list im like give him to me. thats the one. there he is #out of the suggested tags list i mean

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Disco Elysium (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Harry Du Bois & Kim Kitsuragi, Harry Du Bois/Kim Kitsuragi Characters: Harry Du Bois, Kim Kitsuragi Additional Tags: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Suicidal Thoughts, Post-Canon, POV Second Person, Implied Relationships, like they're just bonded for life. not romantic but not platonic either. something above that, bad memories, probably ooc descriptions of jamrock, the title is revachols words to harry btw Summary:

The case is over, and Harry goes home. Jamrock drowns him in memories.

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idk. was proud of this one. post-canon shit, just some thoughts.

#disco elysium #disco elysium spoilers #my writing #idk. #disco elysium fanfiction #kimharry #kinda #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #idk i feel silly posting stuff haha

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kim...................

EDIT: kimless and snowless bg under the cut bc i REALLY like the lines i did. theyre all by hand. first time doing perspective of this caliber

#my art #kim kitsuragi #disco elysium #THAS. thats the stuff my guy. #GOD i had so much fun with this #i have no good caption for this #fr. #normally im like ough story etc but nah this speaks for itself so here he is.

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minors dni // no listed age = blocked

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kim pov

harry's still shaking all over when he finishes the song. it's like he doesn't even try to control it anymore, the shakes. he looks bad but it doesnt really matter. somehow he pulled it off. but thats what he does isn't it? he just does things. he does things and he pulls them off

there's a look in his eyes like he's lost at sea. his eyes anchor on you for a second, a minute, an hour

he looks away again and mumbles, his words stumbling over themselves, "i'd like to dedicate this song to my partner..." his eyes lock onto you again. "kim kitsuragi" and he smiles, his hands tightening around the stand

when he says your name its like the world slides out from under you

~~~ 18+ NO MINORS PLZ

also im on day 3 btw so no spoilers in the tags or ill come for you and your entire family

anyways hsoves harry entirely into my mouth and runs away with him like he's that sopping wet milk webkinz kitten

#disco elysium #disco elysium spoilers #my art #my writing #yeah #i ahve been writing ooc fictions and im like. so . #yeah this is what their bond feels like to me #harry du bois #de #hdb #god. #ok releases this into the wild #i know this tag gets notes so its always so scary to send my posts out there coz theyre like little shoddily made paper boats #going out into a very hugelarge and vast ocean

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Idk why I'm making art anymore that one guy I was doing ocs with isn't on tumblr anymore n the other one... well I should try but I haven't had time

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My brain can't comprehend the whole. Shit sucks for me irl so I can't do dark content rn bc it's not a good place to be

Then?? Why were you in the murderer horror rape fandom to begin with?

I genuinely. Don't know why you'd join a fandom like that if you really are bothered by those subjects

#for me dark content is an escape from reality #by extérnalizing my pain and my feelings I can separate myself from them and thus am able to deflect them from myself and I save myself #from further harm #so I'm drawn to dark content bc it's just a real escape #also I want to be able to relate to my characters #and if they're not in some level of physical or mental pain or anguish at any point in their lives #then I just can't connect with them and don't want to think about them #I want to be able to project myself onto them to deflect myself from reality #so yeah. #genuine question here is why tf join the murder rape fandom if you... don't like that #rape mention #rape #k1ll3rth0tz

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Horror movie directors love their torture girls movies where it's like oh look how meaningful this is well no it's not it's just torturing girls

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reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

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Also hot take of the day furries r cringe as fuck and really gross and yeah sure cringe isn't dead whatever idgaf what you do with your life but man why do they all have to be like That. Every single one of them is like That

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