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reading through all my past posts fills my heart with deep nostalgia and gratitude for being able to capture their moments.

it’s proof that the feelings they brought were real, and that the bitter they brought runs sweet.

#my dreams #writing #i love you

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hello, stranger

i’m still rooting for you.

#my dreams #writing #i love you

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i feel so helplessly friendless. i’m not a victim of anything and i get along with so many people.

i just wish i had friends who considered me as their friend. who didn’t have to go through a list of school-friends to reach my name. i wish i had friends who wanted to talk to me first. who message me because they missed me.

this is so messy and not pretty and i don’t like how unpretty it is but i can’t help it. i want a group of friends so badly.

#my dreams #writing #i love you

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if i always wait for the promise of a future where i’m happy, will i not have any fond memories to look back on?

#my dreams #writing #i love you

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i hate being ashamed of both

how much i have

and how little i have

#privilege

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how are you going

i’m going alright.

how are you going?

#<3

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sometimes i forget this all started because of my infatuation with universe city <3

#universe city #radio silence

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dear march,

i still love you.

#i love you

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i find myself returning more often once again, stranger. i’m not sure why i feel these things, but i do know that i always feel better after writing to you.

it’s bittersweet, the feeling of coming on here, because i know it’s melancholy that invites me. it’s always nice talking to you, though. i miss it whenever i’m offline.

i’ve been floating on and off as of late because i’ve felt that i’ve gotten better. my emotions weren’t as violent and i felt much more stable than i did at the start of all this. it hurts to see myself fall back into that spiral of a mess that i was, but healing takes time that i’m afraid of running out of.

i hope i didn’t disappoint you.

#my dreams #writing #i love you #letters #messages #i miss you

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merry christmas everyone.

i love you.

#my dreams #writing #i love you

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i wish i were dead

#my dreams #writing

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please don’t forget about me, stranger…

#my dreams #writing #i love you

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i didn’t get many wishes last year

but they made me smile a lot today.

#my dreams #writing #to a friend #i love you

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Just wanted to say that I'm really glad you're back and I hope you're okay :)

i’ll always be here, i promise. the times where i don’t post are just when my head’s feeling quieter than usual, but little anonymous asks like these will always bring me back to talk with you - i truly love it.

it makes me very happy that you think of me when i’m gone and happy to see me when i’m here :)

i hope you’re doing alright as well <3

#thank you

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it’s almost my birthday

and the influx of videos and stories

of people sharing their little celebrations

makes me mourn the fact that i’m not close enough,

or good enough,

to share the day with people my own age.

that all the effort i’ve bled into creating new friendships isn’t enough to catch me up with everyone else and their friend groups.

#my dreams #writing #letters

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i am one inconvenience from ending it all.

#i’m okay #don’t worry #!!!

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i had a lot of fun tonight

so why do i feel so lonely now?

#my dreams #writing #to a friend