this is like, a milestone i never saw myself reaching really, it's the largest following i've ever gotten on any of my art accounts since i started posting in 2017🥺
but it feels WEIRD. i don't feel like ive earned it in a way bc i haven't been drawing or enjoying making art as much lately. I got into an art university a year ago and now it's just made me question like WHY am i doing all this... i draw silly fanart and that isnt really something that ive felt like doing anymore bc it feels embarrassing now!!!!!! and it sucks!!!! and i can tell that like i don't know what im doing or ive just like lost confidence in my skills bc ive been drawing less and less
tumblr has been great though, bc even shit i drew during lockdown still gets shared around and ppl like it. i go through the tags and it makes me happy when people really fw what i made (im lookin at u animal crossing new leaf drawing mwah🫶🫶)
but then sometimes it feels like i have to spend like more and more time on my illustrations for me to feel accomplished with them, and it gets just like tiring in that way..
i would draw all the time. in highschool especially and then during lockdown. now im old (22) and so many things get in the way. at school ppl throw around like the term "my artistic practice" and idk school has made me feel like im not artist enough.
but anyways shoutout to u followers old or new, and u mfers in the tags i love u smoochsmooch💖💖💖💖💖