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I love how intricate asexuality can be. No sex at all? Sure! Just want to watch? Brilliant! Only comfortable with topping? You go girl! Only rarely feel aroused and when you do it's very touch and go? Wonderful! Kinky but not in a sex way? Coolio! Queerness is full of nuance and people are complicated and things never live in a vacuum!!

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So uh that one person who keeps leaving weirdly snotty comments on malex fics on ao3. That’s a thing people have mentioned, right? Because now I desperately want to know what their deal is, but not enough to go hunting for anonymous comments on random fics to try to figure out an agenda.

(yes i’m breaking my months-long no-post streak just for this bc wtf)

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Now that we're back in Dragon Age mode, it's very important for everyone to note that even if it is not necessarily your ship and that's totally valid, never forget that the greatest ship name in all of Dragon Age is the Dorian/Iron Bull ship name, "Adoribull"

And the greatest adoribull post ever made is this one, posted 6 years ago

#why are all my fandoms right now video games i’ve never played #adoribull #dorian pavus #the iron bull #dragon age inquisition

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surely this is a good idea that doesn’t have the capacity to end real fuckin badly

#In honor of civil engineering #my mom couldn’t check email to save her life but she sure could design nuclear power plants

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The Tampa Tribune, Florida, November 7, 1927

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oh have i mentioned i love the battle fashion. obviously joe does not NEED a backwards baseball hat, he just WANTS one. similarly nicky does not NEED to look like Hot Topic Monk, and yet. these men have made choices

#the old guard #joe x nicky #hot topic monk i’m crying

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Same nail polish, two different angles

(ilnp, eclipse)

#nail polish #ilnp #ilnp eclipse

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i've always been a bit unclear what the vibe with columbo is. do you people want to fuck him?

#this is. somehow. accurate

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…is it really bad that this makes me think of kokichi 😭

(Scheepjes Whirl if you’re interested. It’s on sale!)

#i’m SORRY it just does #yarn #danganronpa v3 #kokichi oma #kokichi ouma #here buddy have an extra u. as a treat #DARK GRAPE SQUISH

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My girlfriend and I talk a lot about our different generations of queerness, because she was doing queer activism in the 1990s and I wasn’t.

And she’s supportive of my writing about queerness but also kind of bitter about how quickly her entire generation’s history has disappeared into a bland “AIDS was bad, gay marriage solved homophobia” narrative, and now we’re having to play catch-up to educate young LGBTQ+ people about queer history and queer theory. It gets pretty raw sometimes.

I mean, a large part of the reason TERFs have been good at educating the young and queer people haven’t is, in the 80s and 90s the leading lights of TERFdom got tenured university positions, and the leading lights of queerdom died of AIDS.

“Excuse us,” she said bitterly the other day, not at me but to me, “for not laying the groundwork for children we never thought we’d have in a future none of us thought we’d be alive for.”

#queer #always gotta be someone who comes in and makes it all about a WORD #like this whole thread STARTS with ‘queerness’ in the VERY FIRST SENTENCE #and takes a deep dive into the generational trauma and near genocide of aids #and all they get out of that is ‘you said the q word!’ #which. sure is a microcosm of something i guess #yeah sure queer history unimaginable death tolls but THAT WORD huh

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the dash comes through once again

You show a cat something and they're like sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff ooooh I understand now. Don't care

#CATS #and synchronicity

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part of me misses the pre-streaming tv era where you could just turn the tv on and watch something random 😔 now if you want to watch tv you have to carefully select something it’s so formal and you have to commit i miss the casualness of flipping through channels and being like ok sure

#ok but actually #miss my l&o reruns

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For sga, if you want to elaborate on how much you think the actors “knew what they were doing” I’d be interested!

So I don't think they played McShep up actively as a romance or perceived of their characters as gay. But I think they were aware of the shippers and aware of that reading of the characters and did little to dissuade it.

Mostly, I think Joe Flanigan KNEW if he played John the way the script wrote him--resident Cool Guy Ladies Man--he would not be interesting. Joe's performance MAKES John for me. And while that does not mean he consciously decided to play John as a Don't Ask Don't Tell Era gay man, I think he was well aware of the aspects written into the character that had the potential to make him creepy, typical, irritating, etc. And I think he did actively trouble and downplay those aspects, which includes entering thoughtfully into his scenes with the female characters, and, by contrast, with Rodney and other male characters as well. If your character is written as a bit of a womanizer and you very much do not want him to be read as a womanizer, one way to combat that is to play him as a bit gay--or at least, not be afraid of the potential he will come off as gay. And I think that's what Joe did, and that he knew he was doing it: it was important to him John was a good friend to the women in Atlantis and to do that with the script he was given, he pushed certain subtextual aspects of John's character using his acting, and knew those choices would make John potentially come across as gay, and either liked that or didn't care.

With my rewatch, I've been noticing similar intent in David Hewlett. John's character is not as explicitly misogynistic, so acting choices can ultimately override those moments of sexism. But Rodney is, explicitly in text, a misogynist. So, David was tasked with the challenge of playing a main character we, the audience, are supposed to love, who is objectively and openly misogynistic. Actually, there are many textually grating things about Rodney, it must have been a challenge to play him in such a way he still comes across as flawed and complex but ultimately lovable. And again--I don't think David chose to depict Rodney as a gay man suffering from internalized homophobia--but he DID make deliberate choices in his interactions with female characters and male charactesr (and especially John) in order to trouble and complicate the textual misogyny. Rodney's growth from SG-1 and even season 1 of Atlantis to where he is at the end of the series is WRITTEN inconsistently (since the writers were dead set on making Rodney a self insert). But it is ACTED in a beautiful arc. David poured so much love and effort into making Rodney complicated, and like Joe, clearly didn't care if the side effect of that effort also made Rodney seem gay.

In short: the actors did a hell of a job making their characters into far more than what they were written as. I don't think they meant, concretely, to make these characters seem gay and in love, but they WERE troubling and pressing on their misogyny in the script in such a way it was clear they weren't concerned with the possibility these characters could, easily, seem gay and in love.

#sga #stargate atlantis #i am forever in love with the weirdness that is #john sheppard #he would NOT have been so complex and compelling if played by ANYONE else #and fandom wouldn’t be nearly the same without the Hair #also #rodney mckay #joe flanigan #david hewlett

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OH WAIT I FOUND IT it didn’t disappear! it just doesn’t have a summary!

No Kidding by pir8fancier

HELP i am looking for a fic

sga, i THINK mcshep but possibly gen? Where john finds out he has a high school age? daughter he never knew about who has his hair and also his gene, and the first time they meet she punches him in the face and john proceeds to freak the fuck out in his emotionally stunted way, and rodney sort of takes over as dubious father figure while he gets his shit together. It was either a longfic or a series, and i think at some point she started playing piano and rodney was excited about her maybe going to music school but she wanted to join the air force and it was a Thing. Though everything from the piano onward may have been a different fic and i’m conflating the two, not too sure about that part.

It used to be on ao3, and i can only assume the author deleted it because i used to have it bookmarked and i don’t anymore. If there aren’t any links anymore, i’d still like to know the title and/or author if anyone knows, or at the VERY least confirmation that someone else remembers this fic.

Also is there like. Somewhere/someone on here that can help with finding sga fic in particular? Like someone who’s good for reblogging or posting ask box questions looking for stuff? Not exactly high visibility over here, so.

anyway yeah HELP i’ve been wanting to reread and I finally sat down tonight to look for it and now it’s gone and it’s gonna itch at my brain forever unless I figure this out

#sga #stargate atlantis #fic rec #found it #john sheppard #rodney mckay

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HELP i am looking for a fic

sga, i THINK mcshep but possibly gen? Where john finds out he has a high school age? daughter he never knew about who has his hair and also his gene, and the first time they meet she punches him in the face and john proceeds to freak the fuck out in his emotionally stunted way, and rodney sort of takes over as dubious father figure while he gets his shit together. It was either a longfic or a series, and i think at some point she started playing piano and rodney was excited about her maybe going to music school but she wanted to join the air force and it was a Thing. Though everything from the piano onward may have been a different fic and i’m conflating the two, not too sure about that part.

It used to be on ao3, and i can only assume the author deleted it because i used to have it bookmarked and i don’t anymore. If there aren’t any links anymore, i’d still like to know the title and/or author if anyone knows, or at the VERY least confirmation that someone else remembers this fic.

Also is there like. Somewhere/someone on here that can help with finding sga fic in particular? Like someone who’s good for reblogging or posting ask box questions looking for stuff? Not exactly high visibility over here, so.

anyway yeah HELP i’ve been wanting to reread and I finally sat down tonight to look for it and now it’s gone and it’s gonna itch at my brain forever unless I figure this out

#searching for fic #fic finder #sga #stargate atlantis #mcshep #i think??? #john sheppard #rodney mckay

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I see the original post going around every so often and it saddens me a little that it's never accompanied by this thread explaining why it's completely understandable how a child would arrive at these spellings in accordance with english phonetics

#word nerd