naminomm

[naminomm]

Shut up and cry

"Oh, Angel" Val said with half a sigh...

"Val. I just wanted to be helpful... To help you!" Angel said trying to choke back his tears as Val lifted his arm and slapped Angel across the cheek.

"Be helpful by knowing your place. Stop doing shit I don't ask you to do." Val spat bitterly at Angel, with words and actual spit.

"B-but... I brought it back for you... I fixed their dumb mistakes for you..." Angel tried to not sob too much so he won't upset the Overlord that is looming over him, more then he already is.

"And I am thankful, Angel, I really am. But you shouldn't do anything without my permission. Now get up before I will slap you again." Said Val, slapping Angel anyway after he gets up. A laugh leaves his mouth as he lifts Angel's face and kissing his aching cheek. "You are my cute little spider." He pushed Angel aside left.

Broken-hearted, he slowly pulled himself up and away from the studio as possible.

He couldn't return to the hotel now, and Cherry would just scream at him for picking up a call from Val again.

And so, he decides to simply go find a corner in the street. He has nowhere else to go to...

He sat down in some corner he found and sighed.

"Come on Angel!" He said to himself wiping the tears off his face, making himself flinch on the way.

He couldn't understand why can't he stop crying, was it the throbbing pain in his cheek from the slaps? Or is it his heart that shattered and was left on the floor back in the studio? 

He kept trying to wipe the tears away but the cheek just kept throbbing and hurting.

"Come on Angel... The face is the money maker, puffy eyes will look bad on camera..." He giggled softly to himself as it slowly turned back into tears and crying.

At some point, his tears ended and a feeling of numb took over Angel.

He just sat on the cold floor and stared blankly forward.

He hated this numb feeling. This empty numb feeling.

He touched his cheek and immediately hissed in pain.

"Pain..." He quietly said, getting up and going to search for something sharp. 

He just needs something to help me pass the numb feeling... Just for a little while...

It all went black at some point.

Angel didn't remember much but waking up on a very big and expensive bed made him very confused.

It does explain how he slept so well, the bed is so comfortable you just sink in.

He started to think of the possibility he yesterday found a hookup and this is why he woke up here...

He lifted the blanket slightly to see if he is clothed and to his surprise, he was.

Angel then noticed that all his hands are bandaged. Did he cut himself again? He really cannot remember.. 

But this makes him very confused, where could he be that is this fancy and that they took care of him without fucking him for his amazing bod?

This is hell after all.

He started to slowly get out of the bed, even if he really didn't want to. He saw some clothes hanging off a chair, they were his size but definitely not his style. 

None the less, seeing as he tore his shirt, he took the clothes, before noticing there is also a towel there. 

Do the demons of this house except him to shower and be that rude? 

Well, how can he refuse to shower in a fancy place? 

Leaving the shower, he felt a lot better. He went back to the room only to find Lilith sitting on the bed.

He froze trying to process what to do and understand what is she doing here.

"Well? Come here already." She said impatiently showing the bandages in her hand.

He slowly made her way to her and just stood awkwardly next to her. She sighed. "Sit down, Angel. I am not going to scold you... You have been through enough."  She looked at his arms then at him.

He was relieved yet not at the same time. He sat down, letting Lilith put new bandages on his cuts.

"Lily, how did I get here?" He asked in a low voice.

"Well, usually you get to hell by dying." She answered making Angel giggle. "Don't move." She slightly growled at him, making him chuckle again.

"Sorry, sorry, but for real Lil..."

"You knocked on my door yesterday. You also pointed out a broken mirror shard at me and kept screaming at your reflection." Lilith calmly said making Angel very uncomfortable.

"I am so sorry about that..." He said as the queen shrugged it off. "What... What was I saying?"

"Well, you were screaming at me that I don't know you like I think I do,  then you screamed at your reflection in the broken mirror shard about how you are a stupid piece of shit. And that's about it" She replied calmly slightly closing her hand into a first before continuing to take care of his arms. Angel grabbed that hand before she can resist and looked at a cut she tried to hide.

"I hurt you..."

"It's fine, An. you weren't in a correct mindset, you didn't mean it. Besides I got myself cut by trying to take the shard from your hand by force." She pulled her hand back as Angel sighed and looked away sadly. She looked at him and pulled him into an embracive hug. "I am worried for you An... When will you open up to me?" She asked quietly as she started to pat his head gently.

This gentle, motherly and embracing hug and words made Angel break down into a sob. He hugged Lilith back and hid his face in her neck.

Only Angel's sobs were echoed across the quiet room.

After Angel calmed down, they went down to the kitchen.

"You have two options, wine or hot choco." The queen said looking in the cupboards.

"I... Well... Whatever you want really..." Angel mumbled as he sat down next to the table.

"Hot choco for us then. You need it." She made two cups of hot chocolate making Angel smile.

Angel was about to take a sip of his cup as a sudden knock on the door was sound.

"Wait here." Lilith said as she got up and went to the door. Angel quickly hid in the kitchen to make sure no one saw him.

He didn't wanna cause more problems.

Lilith opened the door to find none other than the overlord Valentino standing in front of her. She simply crossed her arms to block his way into the house.

"I don't remember inviting you to my house." She said calmly as Val simply smiled. 

"Well well well my queen... Hello to you. You look beautiful today. I thought this was the king's house." 

"Stop your flattery, Lucifer is not here. Why are you here?"

"Well, I have some inside information that my little boyfriend is here."

"Your boyfriend?" She lowly growled in reply.

"One of my many partners~" He said trying to look behind Lilith before she moved his face back.

"Your ass will not enter my house as long as Lucifer isn't here"

"Oh~ What do we have here~" Val gripped Lilith's hand and looked at the cut on her, not allowing her to pull it back. "This looks like a cut~ now how did this get here~"

"You are touching your queen without permission!" She raised her voice as Val pulled her closer to him.

"And who permits your body? You? Or our dear king?" He whispered to the queen's ear making her very angry. Lilith tried to use her other hand to slap Val as he simply grabs that arm as well. "Cause you see, my dear queen, I am sure that the king would not appreciate what you are doing with my little porn star." 

Lilith was about to shoot back as Val looked at her with a serious look, giving her shivers down her back.

"Do you enjoy his many arms? Does he pleasure you while our dear ruler is working?"

"I don't know what you are talking about, there is no boyfriend of yours here." Lilith growled lowly.

"I am sure you know what I am talking about, he makes you purr, doesn't he?" Val said with a mischievous smile.

 "You are crossing boundaries!"

"My appologizes~ It was a lovely talk, my queen~" He said before releasing her and leaving.

Lilith watched him leave while rubbing her wrists before she closed the door and went back to the kitchen to find Angel on the floor hugging his legs.

"Anthony..." she sat down next to him and softly rubbed his back to help him relax.

A short while past, when Angel was starting to feel better, he decided to leave back to the hotel, knowing that Val won't go there, as Alastor is there.

Lilith sat at the living room still rubbing her wrists from Val's grip as Lucifer entered, quite aggressively as well. He simply walked past Lilith and straight to searching the house.

"Hello to you too...?" She said unsure before getting up from the couch.

"WHERE IS HE" Lucifer turned to Lilith making her a little scared by his visible anger.

"Where is who? If you are talking about Valentino he left like two hours ago, you know he was very rude and--"

"WHERE IS THE SPIDER" He cut Lilith off making her sit down again on the couch.

"I... What spider?" She quietly replied.

"I KNOW THAT SLUT PORN STAR WAS HERE" He went upstairs and started to look around the room. Lilith was in complete shock, she never had her dear husband raise the voice on her, and it scared her.

He came back downstairs, holding the torn shirt Angel left behind. Lilith looked at the shirt and then at Lucifer as calmly as she could.

"It's from my pet, a little friend of mine." She tried to explain calmly, but being calm when being so scared of her husband, the mighty ruler of hell, was a hard task.

"Who also happened to be one of the best porn stars in hell and one of Val's close companion?" Lucifer growled back.

"I... It's not what you think... He is my friend..." She said quietly, holding back a sob.

"You were having too much fun and freedom. No more. Do you understand me?" 

"What?"

"No more staying alone and hanging out with her pets and friends. I will make sure of it that you are alone in this house while I am gone." 

"Luci..."

"Don't. My own wife." He said bitterly while walking away.

"Nothing happened..." She said before placing a hand over her mouth and holding back her tears.

"You see what happens when you try to leave me, dear angel of mine~?" Val whispered in Angel's ear while tracing a finger across his jawline.

"Never disobey me again or try to hide behind your fake friends." He pushed Angel's face away as he almost fell, making Val laugh.

Being caught by Val on the way to the hotel, and also Val letting him know that because of him, The queen, his friend, is now probably fighting with the king... Broke Angel.

He didn't wanna fight anymore

He doesn't want to hurt anyone anymore.

He prefers to just

Shut up and cry

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I am on a server where Angel is Lilith’s little pet friend.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin #hazbin lilith #hazbin angel dust #hazbin valentino #hazbin lucifer #hazbin angst #angst

[naminomm]

A dream is a wish your heart makes

The little princess came into the living room looking for her father. When she couldn't find him, she sat down upset next to her mother. "Mom, where is dad?" She asked with a little pout. The queen put the book aside and looked at her daughter. "My... It is already getting late.. he must be stuck in a meeting sweetheart" the little princess sighed deeply and pouted sadly. "I miss him..." "I miss him too sweetheart." Answered the Queen. She took a second to think before smiling sweetly. "How about we watch a movie to pass the time?" The little princess perked up. "Do you have any new movies, mom?" She smiled, very excited to watch a movie together. "Why yes, I do~ your dad brought us a new movie from the human world. It's called Cinderella." She got up and went to their selfs to take it out. "Cinderella?" Repeated the little princess. "Why yes. Dad said she looks like you, so that's why he brought it for you to watch." The queen said with a smile, taking the videocassette and going to put it in the player. The queen and the princess cuddled together on the couch under a large blanket and watched the movie together.

"Mom is it true?" Asked the little princess as the movie ended. "Whats is, love?" Asked back the queen looking at her daughter. "The song she sang in the beginning. A dream is a wish your heart makes. And if you have faith in your dreams then someday a rainbow will come smiling..." The little princess asked as she looked at the now black screen. The queen picked her daughter to hit on her lap and hugged her tightly. "A dream is a wish your heart makes. And for you, a rainbow will shine across the sky." She tickled her slightly, making the little princess giggle. "What is your dream, my dear?" "To make a change. I wanna help the demons." The little girl said with confidence making the queen chuckled lightly. "I am sure you are going to make a difference sweety. Just like your dad did in his youth." She kissed her forehead. "Now how about a wish I could maybe help you make true, like, tomorrow?" "Hmmm... To watch this movie with you and dad." She smiled making the queen smile as well. "Mom, can I ask for another wish?" "Of course, my love. How ever many you want." "Can you sing me like her? This song?" "Of course, dear" the queen warps the little princess in a blanket and a warm hug, before starting to sing for the little princess...

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"Hey, mom! Hmm... I know I keep calling, and hm you must be busy! Really... Busy... But hm... The interview didn't go well... And... I-I don't know if I'm going to make a difference. I-I don't know what I'm doing... I could really use some advice, mom. I... I think dad... Was right about m-me... Ugh agh, anyway, I will stop talking before this gets long. Love you! Bye.." - message ended. If you want to listen to it again press 1. If you would like to delete it press 2. To call back press 3.

"I hope you are happy, Luci. She had her ambitions... Her dreams, her wishes." "You don't understand! I was only trying to protect her! She is my little girl!" "You did a fantastic job of protecting her. It sounds like she is very grateful for you looking down at her." "I didn't mean to hurt her..."

#hazbin hotel #lucifer #lilith #charlie

[naminomm]

Coffee breath

"Ba ba dum, ba ba dumbadumba, da ba bum, ba ba dum"

Groaning, I woke up. A soft humming was heard across the house. This was definitely not my apartment, but I quickly realized it's your new apartment. Upgrade from your last one, as noticed by the twin-size bed. Along with the humming, I could smell coffee brewing. I got up, walking towards the kitchen. You looked at me with a smile. "Good morning sleepy head. I hope you slept well. Does your backache?" Honestly? I don't remember much from yesterday, which is usual for me at this point, but all I know for sure is that you are talking too much. I groaned in response and looked at the time. "It's time for me to go" I simply answered, to which in response you chuckled. "I hope you are not planning to leave my house in your underwear." You turned her back to me taking out two cups from the cupboard. "Go get dressed, drink your coffee and leave." You still talk way too much, but you were right. I left back to the bedroom. Your humming was heard across the house again.

"Ba ba dum, ba ba dumbadumba, da ba bum, ba ba-dum"

I got back after I got dressed, my head was already brewing how to let you know that I am leaving without the espresso. But you were already sitting with a coffee cup next to the counter, looking at me with those big eyes. Those eyes are that drive me crazy. Those eyes are the reason I fantasize about you, the reason I woke up here in the first place only in my underwear. I sat across from you and took my cup of coffee. You smiled. Along with the bitter smell of the coffee, there was a sweet smell. "Did you shower?" "Why? You wanted to join me?" You playfully answered. "The smell of daisies" I answered with a glare as I did not like that playfulness. "Shampoo" was all you answered with a smile. I looked around the place. She had some papers laying around. You noticed where my gaze was going as you are watching me. "I am doing research again. About Dahmer" The serial killer and sex offender that ate his victims? I smirked. I wanted to make a joke about how you can call me Dahmer as your heart is so tasty to play with, but I decided to pass.

"Ba ba dum, ba ba dumbadumba, da ba bum, ba ba dum"

You hummed again happily. You lived in some sort of an illusion it seems. "You know this is only a sex thing, right? I slept with others like you just cause its comfortable for me. It can never be anything more because of my work." The humming was interrupted by a small choke in your voice. You smiled and nodded, getting up and turning your back on me quickly. You held your breath for a moment, probably to hold back your tears. But just like glass, you shatter. Your body trembled so slightly. For the first time, I felt bad. "I'm sorry. My mistake, I make things harder." I said as you shooke your head mumbling quietly about how it's fine and decided to start washing the dishes instead of looking at me. I tried my best to shut my mouth. To not hurt you anymore. But for the first time you, it has upset me to upset someone else. Why were you different? None the less, no matter how much I tried, all my thoughts I hid dug their way out. "You are a nice girl but I can never date anyone. I don't feel care for people because of my work. Not to talk about how one day you will probably research me. To be honest, we are using each other." You didn't reply. You simply started to hum again.

"Ba ba dum, ba ba dumbadumba, da ba bum, ba ba dum"

You pov

You said that I can't trust you. I said it's fine. It's an obvious lie, you know that as well, but I cannot be happy with the truth, so I will be happy only after I will lie. You finished your coffee, thanking me for the hospitality and left to the door. I didn't wanna look at you, knowing damn well I will cry. You stopped at the door, I could feel your stare, but at last, you left. I went back to my bed, I had more time before my classes. The bedsheets smell like your cologne. I knew that after this talk, you won't come back. That stare at the door, was you taking your last look at me. And now, in our separate worlds, we sleep alone.

coffee breath - Sofia Mills

#angst #coffee breath

[naminomm]

The moment I realized I was not okay.

People have been saying I haven't been myself for a couple of months now. I didn't pay attention, I was just going through some tough times and changes. We all have that so of course, I am not fully me, it will pass me. Then one day I was sitting with my mom, she told me about how she found out she had depression. She said: Everyone around me knew it but me. Then one day I took a vacation day, I went with your father for a walk in the forest with our dog. It was the perfect weather, it was empty of people. Like a moment from a movie. The birds are singing, the leafs slowly falling. Our dog running around happily, I am with the man I love and everything is quietly perfect. I should be happy and calm. And yet I wasn't. That's when I realized I wasn't okay. I didn't see how I could be that. Then one day I was doing my work. It was a normal workday, even a good one. I woke up after a good sleep, wasn't in a hurry, even ate breakfast. The office was calm and quiet. I was doing my work, and everything was going smoothly... Everything was fine. And my mind started ticking. The thoughts came floating in. Every thought at once. And my mood instantly fell to rock bottom. But why? Everything is fine. Nothing is wrong. Except for my head. I tried to ignore that but it happened again and again. I was talking to people, laughing, having a good time. And in a split second, I wanted to cry and break down. And over what? I never knew. There isn't a trigger for it. It just happens. And now, as I am writing this, pouring my heart out on a note, I am sitting in the quiet kids' playground with my dog. A quiet calm evening. A little cold, but a warm fluffy scarf. A little music in my headphones. Calm music I love so dearly. A drink I like next to me on the bench. And everything is fine and perfect. But why do I still want to cry? A rumble of thunder in the distance. They never scared me, but it is time to go home. My mind is broken. And that's fine. But I need to find help. A message from dad I was gone for an hour... I should head home.

#depression #get help #it's okay

[naminomm]

Tsuna X Reader - Just a girlfriend?

“Oh come on, stop it! You are heavy!!” You whined as your brown haired boyfriend leaned down on you. He just walked into the room after another meeting and like always he goes straight to you and bothers you in some sort of way. You were in the middle of reading a book when suddenly he came out of no where and decided to lean down on you with all his weight, burying his face in your neck. You huffed, knowing very well he has more work, and as long as he procrastinating, you wont eat dinner together. “Go finish your work… And then I will make dinner for the both of us.” You said as he huffed back at you, blowing slightly on your neck and making you giggle. He kissed your cheek and went back upstairs to his office where you saw his right hand, Gonkudera Hayato, with his green tired eyes standing there waiting for him.

You knew how hard it is for them, all this work and meetings, so much paperwork and worries.  Most of the time,Tsuna is afraid you might get hurt while there is an unknown mafia coming in for a meeting, so he would ask someone who isn’t in the meeting to stay with you. Most of the times, it was the raven hair hitman, as they were very close since the beginning of Tsuna’s way to a mafia boss. “Hey.” You heard a voice calling you. You were just thinking about his and here he is. Reborn. “I’m coming Reborn.” You said to the hitman closing your book and getting up from your seat.

The both of you walked around the Vongola mansion. Outside you saw your boyfriend’s left hand, Yamamato Takeshi, standing under a tree talking on the phone. You guessed he was talking to his girlfriend, as he just returned from a mission of 2 weeks. You also saw the mist guardians, Rokudo Mukuro and Chrome Dokuro, as Chrome gave you a faint smile while Mukuro was lying on her knees, complaining about Fran and what happened in their training. You didn’t see Lambo around, but whenever he has free time he would go out with other friends, he is a teenager after all. Not seeing Hibari didn’t surprised you as well. Usually he is also in the meetings, or alone in his office and paper works, or in his school. There are rumors around the mansion that he has a girlfriend, but no one bothered him about that. Seeing everyone made you sighed. Saying you are jealous of the people who work with Tsuna is stupid, you are lucky they give you permission to even stay so close next to all the action, as it is dangerous. Dating a mafia boss wasn’t an easy thing but you loved him. You were scared most of the times that he would get killed in a mission or even a meeting. You were also scared of all the females you see in the parties and the balls. Balls has a fond memory for you, as he asked you to be his girlfriend at a ball but they made you feel self conscious and make worried he will leave you or betray you. Silly thought no? Considering who is Tsuna and how kind he is. But at the end of the day, he didn’t belong to you. You were just his girlfriend and to some people that’s a “replaceable” state. 

“Hey, you are overthinking again, aren’t you?” Said Reborn.  You shared with Reborn a lot of your thoughts and worries, all these walks you do together made you become close friends. He knows you very well, and you are glad he never told your boyfriend about your insecurities, even if Tsuna found them out anyway. “Don’t worry.” Reborn said giving you a calming smile. You smiled back at him as you also slightly sighed.   “Yeah, you are right.”

You and Reborn walked for almost two hours, talking about everything and nothing, he even told you some more stories of Tsuna’s youth to bring up your mood.

When you finally went back home, Reborn opened the door for you, letting you see how the living room was full of candles and flowers leading to the dinning room, where you see a table set for two and a wonderful dinner. Next to the table, was none other than your boyfriend, holding a wonderful bouquet of roses. His messy brown hair, his brown cheerful eyes lit up as he saw you come in, his gentle smile and the way he looks at you like you are the most beautiful girl, even when wearing jeans and a t-shirt, made all your worries go away. You didn’t even noticed Reborn closing the door behind you as you walked to Tsuna with a smile on your face. You places the flowers aside, he pulled your chair for you to sit down.  You giggled at his gentleman gestures before sitting down and noticing how on the plate in front of you there is a small box.  You looked over to Tsuna who gestured you to open it. Upon opening the box you see a ring inside, but not just any ring, diamond ring, an engagement ring. Not to big, not to small, just perfect size, not too much of attention grabber, not to unnoticeable. Just the perfect ring you always dreamed of. You looked at your boyfriend, seeing him now on one knee.   Tears filled your eyes as you could also see a slight panic in him from seeing you about to cry. He still took your hand and asked “Will you be my wife?” 

#reborn khr #khr #katekyo hitman reborn #tsuna #x reader

[naminomm]

DECEMBER 2015 You sit down. You have what you want to write in mind, you know for sure already what words to use and how.You open your notebook to write something for him, and take a pen. 5 minutes passed and the paper is still blank. 10 minutes, 30 minutes, an hour and even two hours and the paper is still blank. It has happened again. As always. When you think of him in anyway, you lose your thoughts. All you want to tell him... How you miss him How worried you are for him How much you care for him. You just want him to know... Are your acts enough for him?  Are you enough for him? Does he knows how much you love him?

Does he knows how much I love him?

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December 2017

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You said you will log in again...

You told me that you need to go and that next time I will have to tell you about everything.... So when are you coming back?

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AUGUST 2019

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Hey It's been...  Almost two years since the last time we talked.  Last time we spoke I didn't even join the army yet, and now I am 70 days away from finishing my service.   I really miss you.  You are one of the people who had a huge impact on me, and I knew one day you will leave I just wish we had a proper good-bye to each other.   I really wonder what you are doing right now.  If you are well and happy.  I been having a hard time.  In general.  And I remember back to the simpler time when...  I would share with you my day and you'd make me smile.  I hope I made you smile as well...   I just want to tell you happy birthday.  You are turning 25.  You really are an adult now,  and not a young adult as I used to tease you.   You will probably never see this message.  But I needed to get this out.   I hope you are doing well, and I hope you are happy.   Maybe one day we will reconnect.  --------------

JANUARY 2020

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How come you are still taking up so much space in my head?

[naminomm]

He sat alone on the swing. He was suppose to be somewhere else at the moment but for some reason he didn't felt like being there. There is the party with all his "friends". He isn't used to having friends, or anyone really. No one ever wanted to be with a loser like him. People would find it impossible how in two year time if not less, he got so many "friends”. But most of them, if not all of them, didn't came to him cause they wanted to be his friends. They all came to him because of the small one. And the small one came to him because of his grandpa. And his grandpa took care of him because he wanted him to be his next generation to the mafia family of his. The 10th generation to the family. He did nothing but go through hell to grow stronger to protect his "friends". And because of him... They went through hell as well. He didn't blame the small one. He didn't blame his grandpa. He didn't blame the family as well. Putting so many people in danger... His family, his female friends, his mafia family, his " alliance" mafia and his "enemy" mafia, his "big brother's" family, the small one’s friends... All those are a huge number of people who were put in danger because of him. He blamed himself. For not being strong enough. For being such a loser. For being Alive. He heard the voices of his “friends” looking for him. It all felt like lies to him. He wanted to die so they will be better. Everyone knew he is a no one without the small one. And he knew each and each one of his “friends” is stronger than him. So why should he even try? Leaving the swing, he left to the near forrest, hoping not to be found. To be forgotten. So they will find a replacement for him. A better him. A stronger him. Someone who will be a better... Mafia boss, friend, son, alliance, enemy, protector, him.

'Don't find me. Don't follow me.' He begged in his thoughts.

'You are not with me cause of me, you aren't real friends.' He kept begging in his thoughts as their voice got louder.

"Please prove me wrong..." He mumbled quietly to himself wanting to shuu away the negative thoughts that took over him.  

"I want my friends... I'm scared..." He mumbled again, falling on his knees crying.

The voice in his head stopped, and his "friends" voices disappeared.

'But nobody came'

Was the last thing he heard before the following gunshot.

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It's not that I didn't notice. His thoughts been depressed lately. We were heading back to his home early from the party. With us, were his commanders to the familia. He calls them his friends, the first act of a true Vongola boss. When we reached to his house, he simply went up to his room. I decided to follow him after a while out of worry. It was quiet in his room. As I entered he was kneeling down on the floor, holding his head between his hand, eyes full of tears. His eyes, lost their golden brown color. They were as if lifeless. As if he died inside. I tried to call out to him as he didn't react. Soon his friends came and also tried to call out to him. It triggered him, their voices. At this point, I quietly watched, my voice wasn't to reach him.

'Don't find me. Don't follow me' I heard his thoughts beg.

'You are not with me cause of me, you aren't real friends.' His thoughts went on and on like that.

I saw my student, no, my close and probably only friend, lose his mind.

His friends tried to call out to him even louder. Only I seemed to see the pain he was in.

"Please prove me wrong..." I heard him mumble.

My eyes widened as I tried to reach out to him with my hand.

"I want my friends... I'm scared..." he whispered again.

This time all his friends heard and the expression of shock was clearly showing. They seemed to finally notice the pain he was in. But something held us back from getting in, and reach out to him. A barrier he made by himself with his ring. He was too powerful for me.

'But nobody came'

I heard a strange voice as it seemed only me and him heard it.

No he has a--

"Please Tsuna put that do--"

Gunshoot.

... Why haven't I noticed earlier? Why didn’t I do anything sooner? He was depressed and scared, and I was a merely bad friend. He had a gun in his hand that he couldn't trigger. And when I had the chance to save him, I didn't noticed. That's all he ever wanted... A friend. Not many, but just one. And that was me. And here we are now. Me standing next to the body of the 10th Vongola boss. No... Me. Standing next to the body of my only friend. That I couldn't save from the hand of depression. That I couldn't save from the making a suicide.

—— This is not stolen, it is mine. I am moving all my writing to one page so they wont be scattered

#khr #katekyo hitman reborn #angst #tsuna

[naminomm]

"They are finally gone."

But they are just outside the door.

"Still, no one will notice. No one cares anyway."

What about Lal?

"Don't talk nonsense, she hates you. Every time you meet, you fight. You think it's out of love? No. It's out of hate. You took her role in the arcobaleno and now that you are all back to your original age, none of them needs you."

I covered my ears trying to block out the voice that was talking to me. Outside the door of my room I could Lal, laughing. With all the others. Laughing. Didn't they notice? Can't they notice that I left? Do they really don't care?

Laughs. Her voice. More laughs. Her laugh. The only voice I didn't hear laughing was Reborn’s. He was mostly insulting others and making everyone laugh. He, himself, never laughs. What am I to Reborn? He is the strongest of us all. The world's greatest hitman! What is a loser like me, who was a simple solider in the army under the commands of others could be to him?

"Nothing."

The voice came back. I realised that the stuff the voice always tells me, has gone to my head.

'Shut up...' I whispered.

"You are useless to them. You are an outcomer. They don't see you as their friend."

'No... shut up...' I quietly begged.

"You and Reborn? Best friends? Don't make me even laugh."

I punched the lamp next to me, so the physical pain will distract me from my pain in my heart. The pain from the glass shards in my hand and the sound of the glass falling on the fall, was all I felt and heard. Till the laughs reached my ears again. The laughter still continued... They are still laughing out there.

"Laughing at you."

I got up punching the wall with the same hand that is full of glass shards. The pain was starting to be unbearable, yet the pain in my heart still over came it.

Wet. Blood on the wall, dripping down. Blood on my hand, the sound of it's dripping on the floor. And the sound of my tears falling on the floor.

I punched the wall again. And again. And again. And again. And...

I was stopped. Pulled into a hug of a grown man. The door behind him was wide open. All the arcobaleno were standing there. Shocked and worried expressions on their faces. Even on Lal's. I was embraced by Reborn’s arms, stopping me from hurting myself any more.

"That's enough now." He said with his low voice.

"You are part of us. We are all one family." He continued as if reading my mind.

"You are not an outcomer. You are our friend. Our little brother. And maybe Lal's future fiance."

Lal blushed right away starting to scream at Reborn. Everyone were trying to hold her back from charging full at Reborn. I was simply in his arms. And he was simply looking down at me. But not in a bad way. In a big brother way. Where he is worried for you. Where he cares for you.

Yes. It's true. I was an outcomer. But not anymore. We are all one family now. We are all friends. ... Right?

------ This is not stolen, it is mine. I am moving all my writing to one page so they wont be scattered 

#khr #katekyo hitman reborn #angst #colonnello

[naminomm]

“Have you heard about the latest victim of Siren?”

“Latest? Siren? What do you mean?” “What? how do you not know the tale of the Siren?” “I heard about the death, but it was a suicide, what do you mean victim of the Siren?” “Man. you really are not from here... Let me tell you the tale of the ocean. the tale of the Siren.”

“The night sky was clear and the stars were of plenty. She sat alone on the beach, next to the waves that called her. She always sat there at night, the ocean called for her, asked her to listen to his melody, and she happily listened...”

“That’s some beautiful writings.” A voice of startled the young girl sitting at the beach. She was not used to someone stopping and listening to her writing. “Thank you...” She mumbled quietly. closing her notebook. She was used to couples walking along the beach as she sat there in the late hours of the day. But never has anyone stopped to talk to her. “I was a little worried for you as I thought you were lonely or suicidal even.” “Oh no... The ocean is my company. He tells beautiful stories and melodies at night.” She quickly said before realizing it makes her look crazy. A giggle was all she received as an answer, making her smile.

Some time has passed and the girl was sure she has fallen for that someone. She would tell the ocean about that them. Quickly a song grew inside of her. She wanted to share it with the special someone, at her special place next to the ocean. The ocean even agreed to help.

“I promise you, it wont be as anything you have seen before” The girl said, excited for the combination of her two most loved things. A quiet giggle was heard behind, shortly followed by a gasp upon seeing the sunset from the caves of the beach. “I wrote a song... Would you care to hear it?” The girl asked, receiving a nod. A song came from the little girl, with so many emotions, accompanied by the sound of the waves. “Oh... It’s so lovely... Why not share your talent with the world?” “Well... This is my world...” Said the girl looking back at the lady she brought with her to the beach.  “Oh, and what a lovely song... Did you write it for someone?”  “Yes...”

“Well he is a lucky guy. You should confess. I wish I had this talent so I could sing to my crush”

Two weeks went by, the girl decided she has to confess to the lady. She asked to meet her at the beach again, to which she promised to meet her there, at dawn.

The girl sat there for her. The dawn came, and left. And as the sad girl got up to leave, she could hear her own song, sang by the lady. She turned to see her singing it, on her beach, to another.  Did she forget their meeting?  Or did she not care? Did she want her to see?

Ocean took pity of the now heartbroken girl, and invited her to live with her.

“The day after. her body was found on that beach, skin peeled and urchins all over.” “And? That’s all? What happened to the lady?” “Dunno. But after that. A Siren could be heard at night from the caves, and every heartbroken woman or man that goes there gets sucked into the melody, and found later on the beach”

----- Inspiration from: “Siren song” - By Lambia 

#Siren

[naminomm]

"We Don't Talk Anymore"

We don't talk anymore We don't talk anymore We don't talk anymore Like we used to do

Who am I kidding? We are barely talking anymore...

We don't laugh anymore

And, oh, how I miss her laugh.

What was all of it for Ohh, we don't talk anymore, like we used to do...

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I just heard you found the one, you been looking You been looking for I wish I would have known that wasn't me

And seeing you in the bar with him, is hard for me. Cause...

Cause even after all this time I still wonder Why I can't move on Just the way you did so easily

And how come you moved on so easily while I am still here, stuck on you.

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Don't wanna know Kinda dress you're wearing tonight

Probably that tight black one you so love.

If he's holdin onto you so tight The way I did before

The way we both danced together till our legs were tired and I carried you home on my back.

I overdosed Shoulda known your love was a game

By the way you didn’t care.

Now I can't get you out of my brain

Cause I still love you.

Ohh, it's such a shame

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I just hope you're lying next to somebody Who knows how to love you like me

Cause even though, you are there and far, I still what the best for you.

There must be a good reason that you're gone

But I can’t find it at all.

Every now and then I think you might want me to Come show up at your door But I'm just too afraid that I'll be wrong

And you will be there with her.

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Don't wanna know If you're looking into her eyes

Dancing through the night.

If she's holdin onto you so tight the way I did before

When we were alone

I overdosed Should've known your love was a game

When you started to look at your phone, more then you look at me.

Now I can't get you out of my brain

Cause everything links back to you.

Oh, it's such a shame

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That we don't talk anymore We don't talk anymore We don't talk anymore Like we used to do

All those talks till late night hours.

We don't laugh anymore

At all the stupid small mistakes we made, and our own silliness through the day.

What was all of it for?

Why was it worth it if it’s all thrown to the bin now?

Oh, we don't talk anymore Like we used to do

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So I am back on Tumblr, after a long time and for some reason I have 80 followers???? And I been getting a lot of likes on the stuff that are uploaded here??? So... I will keep writing them, cause I have nothing better to do anyway, and I am happy that someone reads them and likes them... So yeah... Hey ^^”

Song

#we don't talk anymore

[naminomm]

I Never Said You Had To Be Perfect... - part 4

Marshall POV

“Sorry. I just wanted to stop you Before you called your stupid bird.”

I said shruging with a smile as if it was no big deal.

“Well,”

Gumball started saying with a very grumpy face.

“You succeeded”

I handed out a hand to Gumball and to help him get up. He took it and got up.

“Thank you.”

He said shyly as I smile in response. He is so adorable.

“You have some mud on your face, Bubbs.” 

I said as I pointed at the spot of mud on his cheek. He grumply looked away looking a bit shy about the nickname I gave him.

“Please do not call me that.”

He said trying to wipe away the mud with his muddy hand.

“Yeah you got it.”

I said joking as he looked at his hand. As he saw that his hand is covered in mud, he looked himself to find all of him covered in mud.

“Did you want to come in?

To, uh... Clean up?”

I pointed at my house as I ask him.

“Yes... Please...”

He kinda mumbled out, touching his scarf making it dirty as well.

“Well come on then, Bubbs.”

I say as I use that nickname again. As I want to go back..

“Oh! Wait!”

Bubbles say as I stop too look at him.

“You... 

You forgot this...”

He said lifting up the box that he brought with him. After handing it to me he also took his crown from the ground and placed it back on his head.

“What’s Thi-”

As I opened the ribbon on the pink box that he handed me, I saw my black jacket that I left over at his room.

“I thought I should return it to you.

I’ uh...

Hope you don’t mind that I washed it.”

The thought that he came all this way to honestly give me my jacket back made me blush. Yet he's embarrassed act made me smile a little.

“Some chemicals were spilled on it.”

He finished his sentence as I was just looking at the box with my jacket in it with a smile.

“It smells like strawberries..”

“Hmph... 

Thanks Bubbs... <3 “

As I said that he got angry again, what I didn’t really mind.

“Will you stop calling me that?!”

Hootsweet (the original creator): Tumblr Deviantart Comic

#adventure time #marshall lee #gumball #gumlee

[naminomm]

I Never Said You Had To Be Perfect... - part 3

Visitor - Marshall POV I was at my hut just trying to play my guitar to calm down my thoughts about him. That’s all I was thinking, him. Him and that kiss.  The look in his eyes at that moment… The way he turned to look at me… And… Our kiss.

I putted down my guitar aside and just gave up. I decided I will head to sleep and maybe when I will wake up I will be better. And so I turned off the light and fell on my bed, shortly after falling asleep as well.

Three knocks on my door wake me up. 

“Mngh…” 

I yawned while stretching to my clock. Checking the time, I saw it was seven. Another two knocks made me turn my head and decide to get up. Who came to visit me anyway? And why? I quietly walked to the window next to the door and pull aside the curtins slightly. Gumball was standing outside?!?! 

‘Gumball!’

I thought as I panic.

‘What is he doing here?? Is he here to yell at me for breaking into his room last night?? Is he going to tell him to leave him alone??’

My thoughts were going wild. I was really worried for whatever reason Gumball came all the way to me. I peeked through the window again and saw that he is turning to leave.

I sighed, looking away I pulled my hair back. Maybe I should go open him… Maybe it wont be that bad… His lips went to my mind again… His eyes… 

I opened my door and heck he was already far. 

‘He’s leaving…’

He took a breath in and I knew what he wants to do.

‘He’s gonna call that stupid bird!’

I sprinted/flew to him as fast as I could. It probably made a sound as he turned his head my way to find me right next to him already, floating in the air. It’s seem like I scared him.

“Wha - ?!”

He letted out as he went back, stumbling on a rock with a gasp eascaping his mouth. I couldn’t help but hold my laugh at his graceful fall.

“Marshall? I didn’t think you were home.”

He said rubbing his head. He looked over me as he saw I was holding my laugh.

“YOU DINGUS! Are you laughing!?”

I indeed started to laugh here, unable to hold myself anymore at the graceful sweet prince.

“You’re just so… So GRACEFUL!”

I said between my laughs as he wasn’t amuzed I can promise you that. He was covered in mud, glaring at me.

“Are you kidding me?? IT’S YOUR FLIPPING FAULT I FELL!”

“You’re right. You’re right!”

I said slowly calming down to not making him anymore angry. I chuckled slightly.

“Sorry. I just wanted to stop you  Before you called your stupid bird.”

I said shruging with a smile as if it was no big deal.

“Well,”

Gumball started saying with a very grumpy face.

“You succeeded”

Hootsweet (the original creator): Tumblr Deviantart Comic

#adventure time #marshall lee #gumlee #gumball

[naminomm]

I have it right here ;w; I wrote 12 pages out of 13 for this part. Than there will be another 10 pages till the end of the second chapter visitor. 

But there is a problem I am facing. I am not sure what to so as the third chapter isn’t fully released yet. At the moment the first chapter had 2 part that are already up. The second chapter (visitor) I will be making another 2 parts and I hope the first part will be up by Monday. And in the third chapter (shoutime) that is not fully relesed I could make 3 parts. But I don’t know if I should. Soo.... Whoever want to help please answer me this. Should I stop at the third chapter and wait for it to be fully out? Or should I just make the three part I can than we’ll see how it will go?

[naminomm]

Hey where are u from?:)

Ahh a very famous question I been asked on facebook. I’m from israel.A question I am asked a lot after that:I am not jewish. I am a religionless person for those who wonder and please don’t scream on me over that. (I believe there is some force and power that keeps everything going, but I don’t know if it’s science, destiny, universe or god. Believe whatever you want :3)And yet another question:I live in israel cause when my parents were younge, israel was a better option than Russia. In the future we are planning to move to America, I want to fly to Italy and UK first.

I hope this covered up a lot of future questions as I head to school owo)/

[naminomm]

Hey! I was wondering if you are going to continue writing the "never said you have to be perfect" part 3 because i was hoping you did.... thats all. Lots of love :)

Will do as soon as I will have time. I am in highschool, and it's been hard lately but no worries, I will keep writing.I hope to have time maybe next week to write, thanks for asking annon*is so touched that someon really cares and likes it*

[naminomm]

Hello. You need a beta reader or improve your grammar. English is not my first language either but it was sometimes a bit painful to read (I mean parts with 'he did ...-ed' especially). Keep it up, just try to improve your writing. Good luck, have a nice day :3

Well I know about my grammer problems. English isn't my first language and I wish I had time to fix my problems.Honestly, if you are talking about part 2 of I never said you have to be perfect, I kinda wrote that without too much thinking. I usually try my best to make out the best english. I wasn't in a state of writing when I wrote that but I did and that what came out. So yeah, sorry.

[naminomm]

Reborn X Reader

ANGST. IT’S PART 1 OUT OF 4. IT’S ALSO A PROJECT I HAVE DONE WITH THIS AWESOME BLOGGER. -> @reborn-imagines SUGGEST YOU GO CHECK HER OUT.

“You’ll never find someone like me,” your words were full of anger and bitterness, your eyes filled with pain and hurt though.  And for the first time in his life, Reborn was doing something completely selfless.  He had to do this though.

The relationship had started out for him as a way to pass time.  And he would eventually move on.  No feelings or anything like sentiment.  But then there was.  You were nothing like he expected and he had fallen for you.  And now, he knew he had to let you go.  Because he knew if his enemies found out about you, there was a possibility that even he, the world’s greatest hitman couldn’t save you - and he refused to take that chance.  

“You’ll never find someone like me,” you had said, before you stormed out of the house.  Your steps still fueled by your anger as you were gone.  And if you had paused before your departure, maybe you would have heard his own words.  They were filled with a pain of his own, his smile bitter as he did something completely selfless for the first time.    “I know.  That’s the point.”

Time completely passed by. Before Reborn knew it, it's already been a few months since the last time you saw each other. He missed you. He missed the time he spended with you, he missed the feel of your lips on his, he missed your present, he missed the way your hair smelled after a shower, he missed the way you liked playing with his curles gently. He missed you. He couldn't take another girl just to pass time as you were on his mind always. Your anger, was what kept him awake at nights.

As he went to the city, there was a loud scream. He could swear to god it was your voice, and so he quickly ran that way. As he reached the place his eyes widen to the view that was presented to him. Seeing how his enemy, relese your body from his grip, as you just simply fall to the ground.

The anger in him raged like it never did before. 'It was suppose to be okay, she was suppose to be safe now.' were the only words that ran in his mind as he pulled the gun out. The bullet went simply threw the guy's brain but the satisfaction did not come. He did not feel that he got his revenge for your death.

Letting the guy's corapse fall down like a marrionet that all it's strings got cut down at once, he lifted your body slowly. You were cold, and your skin looked pale as a ghost. Honestly that was all you could be at the moment. A ghost. The tears in his eyes willed to fall as he fixed his fedora to hide his eyes.

"I'm sorry. I wish I could have protected you better my dear... I hope you will forgive me..."

#katekyo hitman reborn #adult reborn