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April Fool’s Day is in a few days, and I just wanted to make this clear. This blog is safe, and I can promise you no screamers, nothing emotionally abusive, no fake posts, and nothing to intentionally trigger dissociation. You are safe here.

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My grandmother is dying. She's in hospice and DNR and *if* she makes it to Monday she gets to go home.

My grandmother is dying and I don't know how I feel but I need to get the thoughts out of my head. Death is complicated and it's awful.

Before Thanksgiving they were doing bloodwork tests and now this week she's been diagnosed with stage 4 terminal colon cancer that they only caught because they did a stomach biopsy.

She's 90 and she's been in and out of the hospital for the last year so this isn't *new* but I wish it didn't hurt so much. She's been in my life from the moment I was born and I'm not ready for her to not be there.

She taught me how to sing and gave me my best form of self expression. When I don't have words, I can always find music. But now she's leaving and I'm scared I don't have either. How the hell can either convey this?

My grandfather is in a different hospital recovering from throwing out his back last month. On Monday or Tuesday they're letting him out so he can be with my grandma. If she makes it that long.

I know colon cancer is tricky and they didn't catch it earlier because the symptoms were too similar to other health problems they were treating. I'm still upset. I don't know who I'm upset with. The hospital staff are doing the best they can. Everyone is doing the best they can but she's still going to die.

I don't want her to be in pain anymore. I don't want her to worry about how much pain we'll all be in when she dies. But it's going to hurt so much. It already hurts so much.

She's still herself but she's so weak and so tired. I was so scared it wasn't going to be her anymore when I went to visit. They have her on pain medication but she can't even hold a fork or feed herself. My dad has been there every day from the start of visiting hours to when they kick him out. This is going to destroy him. That side of the family already had to deal with my aunt dying of cancer some years ago and now we're losing my grandma to cancer too. (I am also doubly at risk for colon cancer now because my maternal grandpa died of colon cancer before I was born, but that's a problem for later.)

I'm not ready to lose her. I knew it would happen someday but it was never expected to happen so soon. She lived a long and full life but that doesn't change how much it hurts. There's just going to be a hole that no one can ever fill and I'm terrified grandpa is going to give up after she's gone.

Death hurts those left behind so badly but it means you touched so many lives in an important way.

I don't know how I feel. It's complicated and bad and I feel like I've been hit by a truck. But my grandma being in my life has been a blessing and her memory always will be.

#personal #don't reblog #death #death tw #cancer #cancer tw #long post

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Important Announcement:

April Fools Day (April 1) is one week away. To that end, I just want it known now, well before the day, that this blog will NOT be posting any jump scares, fake announcements, freak-out posts, fake hackings, fake emergencies, fake news, and “gotcha!” stuff on April Fools Day. We’re staying safe and chill around here.

I’m honestly not into April Fools Day, really, unless the jokes are obvious and silly–like Rickrolls and Dad Jokes. Rickrolls and Dad Jokes are just traditional. 

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A million times this! I didn’t make the distinction until college when I lived on a floor with most of my friends (and started antidepressants) and it was so nice all hanging out in the common room and doing our own things but *together*.

Don’t shut yourself away! Even if directly interacting with people is stressful, being around other people is necessary for brain health.

idk what introvert needs to hear this but please check yourself when ur saying stuf like “staying in your room all weekend by yourself watching netflix is much better than going out and being social” because speaking from experience it’s very easy to confuse being introverted and isolating yourself to cope with anxiety and depression please reach out to your friends and make an effort to live your life and say yes to things, there’s no harm in enjoying your own company but please try to avoid shutting yourself away because you’ve convinced yourself that you’re better alone it’s seriously a recipe for loneliness and will really fuck with your self worth

#lesson I'm still learning #but now I have other introvert friends #and we literally sit in her basement and do our own things and sometimes chat or watch videos together

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i do what he does, just slower

the only good thing about endgame steve’s ending was this.

redbubble | society6

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1. The Spiral. I already have dissociative problems that make me question if the world around me is real, and I think that Spiral would skew that to make me want to inflict it on other people.

2. All of them? I’m scared of so many things. But in particular probably the Buried because I am very claustrophobic. Or the Vast.

3. Oh jeez there’s a lot. Jane Prentiss sticks out the most for me. I do not like bugs or body horror.

4. Definitely Spiral. I get really weird dreams that I could definitely see being influenced by the Spiral.

5. On the one hand, job stability. On the other, I don’t like not being able to leave. Probably somewhere in the middle leaning a little closer to Basira.

6. Door teleporting powers! I would love to have Michael’s powers.

The Magnus Archives questionnaire (spoilers for those who aren’t caught up

Hey here’s a fun thing I made instead of working on my book this morning. Answer whichever questions you want, tag people or don’t, whatever.

1. Which power would most likely claim you? Why?

2. Which power would most likely kill you?

3. Which monster/avatar freaks you out the most?

4. Which power could you see as having featured in actual dreams you’ve had?

5. You’re somehow unfortunate enough to find yourself employed at the Magnus Institute. On a scale of Melanie to Basira, how do you take the whole ‘you can’t quit’ situation?

6. What’s one ability that an avatar has displayed that you would be super psyched to have?

#tma #podcast #Eris speaks #the magnus archives

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For everyone’s information:

The plan for the 17th, when the adult content ban comes in, is to protest.

To do that, we are making as much noise either side of the 17th as possible, and using the site as normal.

On the 17th, dead silence.

People are saying log off but what they really mean is don’t open the site or the app.

But, on the 17th make as much noise as possible on every other platform. Tweet about it and post on facebook and instagram and everywhere else.

What this does is causes a massive dip in ad revenue for one single day. That does not make staff think ‘oh everyone’s gone let’s shut down.’ What it actually makes them think is ‘oh shit people aren’t happy and if people don’t keep using our site we’re out of money and out of jobs.’

A boycott reminds a company that the users (consumers) have the power to make their site (business) worthless with one single coordinated decision.

If you want to join in, here’s what to do:

Do:

Close all open instances of the app and site on all your devices before the 17th

Make posts before and after the 17th on tumblr and other platforms, talking about why this ban is bad

Make posts on other sites during the 17th. Flood the official tumblr staff twitter and facebook with your anger and your opinion

Come back on the 18th and check in

Don’t:

Delete the app from your phone (this doesn’t affect their revenue and since it’s off the store at the moment it’ll be hard to get back)

Delete your account. I mean you can if you want to, but if you keep your account and don’t use it you’re saying to staff that there’s still time to save it. If you delete it’s hard work to come back.

Open the app or website (including specific blogs)

Make any posts (turn down/off your queue and make sure nothing is scheduled)

Go quiet elsewhere. Make it clear that this is just about tumblr, not a mass move away from all social media.

Remember: the execs don’t care about anything but money. Shutting down the site means there’s $0 further income from it. That’s their last possible course of action. If we make it clear we’re not happy, they’ll have to do something or we can do more and more until it becomes too expensive.

Protests take commitment. They’re a defiant action against a business that is doing something wrong. They will try to scare you into not participating, because they’re scared. We hold all the power here, sometimes the execs just need to be reminded of that.

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An Open Letter to Tumblr about the Adult Content Ban and How it is Hurting Your Users:

Recently, Tumblr was removed from the Apple app store due to an incident involving child pornography. This incident is incredibly unfortunate, but it doesn’t stand alone. Tumblr was also removed from the app store due to the large influx of porn bots and pornographic spam, users claiming to be proud to be pedophiles, blatant Nazism, racists who are not deleted for sending hate and harassing users, and more. I myself reported someone for harassing me, but because I had blocked the person and couldn’t access the messages where they harassed me, they were still able to send me anonymous asks. Your support staff, with back doors to the website (presumably), claimed they could not access the messages, and I was left SOL. Many features on this website do nothing to actually protect your users from harassment, racism, homophobia, transphobia, Nazis, pedophiles, predators, porn bots, and more. 

You claim in your statement to us that you “have been working on these problems for a long time”. This is blatantly untrue. Please do not lie to us and patronize us. We’ve been here. We’ve seen you do nothing over, and over, and over again. 

We complained to you for months and months about the rampant porn bots, and you did nothing except add a report button on mobile which only reported sensitive content or spam at best. You could have addressed this problem with an effective algorithm, but you did not. We complained to you about being harassed and sent hate speech for being LGBT+, and you did nothing. We complained to you about blogs being randomly deleted, and sometimes you’ve restored them, other times you have not. We complained to you that there were people proudly claiming to be “Minor Attracted Persons”, or pedophiles, and you did nothing. We complained to you about people proudly claiming to be white supremacists, and you did nothing. All of these things are “against the community guidelines”, and yet over and over, you have not found effective ways to handle these problems or suppress the feeling of welcome that these users claim to get here. You have had a long time to work on these problems, but you haven’t addressed them. To say you have is untrue. 

 Multiple other social networking websites, such as Wordpress, Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest, and others have effectively dealt with rampant pornography, racism, pedophilia, and other problems without causing massive issues for their users who are not misusing the platform. They are continuing to find new, effective ways to deal with these issues without causing problems for their userbase as a whole.  There is no reason that you are unable to do this effectively other than that you wanted to do it quickly. You have once again chosen your stock holders over your users. And we have had enough. 

You have already started to ban “Adult” content with a new algorithm. Here are screenshots of just a fraction of the posts you have flagged as containing adult content:

Your new system of simply tackling everything at once is not working. At all. And each of these screenshots is proof of your utter incompetence. None of these posts contain pornographic acts, “female nipples”, or any community violation of any kind. 

We, the users, have been asking you for months to deal with these problems - particularly, the porn bots and bots that spam. In order to block a bot from a side blog, I have to do it manually, even though they are in my side blog’s feed. This is a huge issue for mobile - only users. They keep cropping up in droves, taking over our posts and tricking google into making it look like a legitimate blog linked to a pornographic website. We have complained to you for months and months now, and your solution to simply “ban all adult content” is ineffective. I agree that children should not be able to access pornography - but this is not how you tackle a porn bot problem. Your system is utterly useless, allows for racists, pedophiles, porn bots, and Nazis to remain untouched. It also harms sex workers and real people who may use this website for some forms of adult content responsibly. Moreover, as seen above, it harms plenty of users who have in no way violated your terms of service.

 If you keep this up, you threaten your website and company as a whole. Many of us are backing up our blogs and planning places to go to. 

You already have a content filter for “sensitive” content (content inappropriate for younger viewers). You could have improved this, instead of attacking your entire user base. It seems to be a very lazy “solution”, if you could call it one at all, and one that harms your entire userbase.

If you are going to keep this filter in place and make Tumblr, a website that has never been known for being family friendly and has never claimed to be, you are going to lose millions of your users. We are already planning our exodus. It isn’t hard to follow. Censor us, and we will go somewhere else. That is not a threat. It is a promise. 

Sincerely, 

The users of your website. 

@staff @support

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tell me about DID senpai

Sure thing! But if you don't mind I'd rather do it over messenger? There's a lot of info and I don't like making big posts on my phone.

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I've done a lot of research on the subject if you want to send questions my way!

Do you answer questions regarding DID, or know anyone who would?

Unfortunately I do not. 

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Hiya, Contestants! 

The two of us have been talking about doing a giveaway for over a year after hitting a milestone, and now we’re finally able to! Luckily, the switch isn’t region locked so this giveaway is international!

First Place Winners: 

A Nintendo Switch 

Breath of the Wild 

Second Place Winners:

A full coloured + full body commission from Doodleladle!

More examples of Doodle’s work!

Rules to read before reblogging!!

No Giveaway blogs, please!

Do not spam your followers, one reblog should suffice

This contest is for our followers, you must be following Navy and Doodle

Likes don’t count (but you can like it to refer back to it later)

Contest activates once this passes 2000 notes

Contest ends September 30th, 2018

Winner will be sent an ask and an IM with 3 days to respond!!

If they fail to respond I’ll choose again

And while we’re at it, why not take your time to check out the game we’re developing? You don’t have to follow this to join the giveaway.

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A shirt has one Collar and two Sleeves

That's how I remember how to spell necessary

#yes i know thats not the point #but its a good mnemonic

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Almost every gay person I’ve met likes pokemon

#espeon #eevee #umbreon #i just really like cats

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B I R T H

Thank friend!!

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From Kasia Babis.

#you will get more than a dollar of enjoyment from it so it's worth more to you and i get to see you smile #okay but the bottom left panel is perfect for my adhd butt #my boyfriend gave me a silver dollar because it was shiny #literally #and i cried for like 10 minutes because it was sweet and so shiny

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BREAKING: The FCC just voted to repeal net neutrality, meaning we’re all screwed. TV news shows were essentially silent about this for the three weeks leading up to the vote.