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#reblog #op: butyoutoldmeiwasfunny

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also i finished outlining ch 12 so now i can start writing it. yippee!

#original post #fic: splinters of madness #since itll take ten weeks for me to update splinters again theres good odds i could have back up chapters and be able to maintain an actual #schedule…. hmmmmmmmm

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2 days of not sleeping until morning hours, my sleep schedule? IN TATTERS

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putting on an outfit to go to the grocery store while everyone in the world wears sweatpants and a hoodie everywhere is basically like being joan of arc

#reblog #op: dyatlovpassingprivilege #honestly i love getting all dressed up when i have the energy #i love doing fun make up i love color coding i love doing something a little more irregular #i like subtle nods to media that people wont recognize with my outfit #what a wonderful thing to be human and be able to have the choice of appearance

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they need to invent a writing that is easy. and fast also

#reblog #op: samuelroukin #CRYING

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the best trope in media is: “characters turn on the lights, see the monster, and immediately turn the lights back off”

#reblog #op: thebirdroads

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the more things change, the more they stay the same.

i'm glad that just like when i was six, i'm still writing now. clicking away on the keyboard, just like someone else i knew.

she'd sit there. it was an older house. built-in desk. old hp monitor. sometimes, it'd be used for cd rom games. i revisited one tonight. i literally squealed with excitement as i played it. i used to play it for hours.

she'd sit there. typing away a story. her sister, seeing that she'd stepped away and was writing, introduces a personality to one of her characters. she comes back and is rather delighted.

she'd sit there. it's late at night, and she's not supposed to be up. she watched to see if her parents' lights were out, and once she was sure, she'd take her thin, shear pink blanket with hearts on it, and cover herself and the monitor. she'd play an online game for hours with her best friend, the character she created.

she'd sit there. she didn't understand minesweeper. i do now. i miss free minesweeper automatically with the computer.

she'd sit there. when she's in the zone, she didn't want to be pulled away. it was upsetting to her. i suppose i've improved since then-- it's easier to keep anyone from being upset by being laidback about it.

she'd sit there. she cried, because she found out her favorite game was going to be closed. she didn't just cry in that seat.

i miss that old house, sometimes. i miss that chair, i miss that monitor. i miss how it would hum and whir, i miss the way things used to look-- they felt real. i miss when an hour felt like four hours.

i miss when things were more simple.

and i miss her. she was so bright. ran everywhere, full of energy. she loved to goof around. her imagination was unrestrained-- constantly listening to music, always dancing, always making up games here and there. one day, she'd want to be a spy. another day, she's a princess. yet another, she'd be a witch. still another, she'd be a doctor.

she misses how bright everyone used to be. i miss it too.

i hope we're finally finding a way to bring it back. i can see that the light is there, and i want it to fill the space like it did before.

all it takes... is just some more time.

and one day, someone will look back, and think that they miss me, too.

#original post #my writing #long post #feeling a little nostalgic at this hour #while i was planning the next chapter of splinters i started smiling #because i could feel the little kid that i used to be. #i don't feel as connected to her anymore-- we've changed. but she's still there every now and then #and i'm forever grateful that she is. #personal

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ranpo’s meltdown in origins of the detective agency is so important to me and im not a fan of how they handled it in the anime

#reblog #thinking about origins again…

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play Kingdom Hearts

#reblog #op: reignsan #kingdom hearts #damn now i want to replay it. idk if i have my copy of it here though

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Teen SKK being bad at remembering to eat regularly because they're used to skipping meals.

Dazai just doesn't register that he's hungry, his body doesn't alert him until he's grumpy and lightheaded and can't figure out he's hungry.

Chuuya, ignoring his body's signals because he got used to being hungry on the streets. He forgets he can now afford to eat what he wants, when he wants. So he'll go hours in a constant state of hunger.

The adults within the mafia noticing this and developing a habit of just supplying them with food whenever they get the opportunity.

Snacks at debriefing meetings. Mori ordering his security around like room service whenever they're in his office. Kouyou inviting them out to restaurants or for tea. Hirotsu questioning his life choices as he makes whole meals for two teenagers he supervising whilst they're on a mission outside Yokohama.

Ango constantly lecturing Dazai about the importance of a healthy diet whilst, unbeknownst to him, Oda slips Dazai a cookie because it's better than nothing in his eyes.

Chuuya wouldn't directly take food from The Flags if they offered it, so they made a game of sneaking snacks into his pockets and then denying any knowledge of it, when he found them later.

Their elders so often giving them food out of nowhere is part of why Dazai is comfortable begging for a share of his co-workers food at the agency. Who also usually give in to him because they know he wouldn't eat other otherwise.

Even Chuuya's subordinates will sometimes drop off snacks along with their mission reports because they know he hasn't left his office in a good few hours.

#reblog #op: whathorselegs #as someone who struggles to eat regularly i adore this #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai osamu #bsd nakahara chuuya

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I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD BOB ROSS IS A GIFTED GOD I DREW ALONG TO HIS VIDEO IN MS PAINT AND

HOW

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FUCK

THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW PLEASE I ADVISE YOU GUYS TO DRAW ALONG WITH BOB ROSS IN MS PAINT IT IS AN EXPERIENCE I AM SO CONFUSED BUT PLEASED FUCKING DO IT

#reblog #op: mochachild

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im laughing so hard because no matter what song you listen to 

spiderman dances to the beat

no matter what song ive been testing it and lauing my ass off for an hour

#reblog #op: theblueboxiscoming #obsessed with this actually

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Hello guys i have good news and bad news.

The good news that I'm finally in Egypt now with my youngest brother and the bad news is my mother and my other brother with his wife still in Rafah waiting to evacute to Egypt.

I feel so sad and depressed for leaving them i should stayed and get out together.

#reblog #op: 90-ghost #free palestine #free gaza

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i think my lip is bleeding

#original post #was biting at it and then suddenly tasted metal. oops

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i have a headache

obviously the solution is to continue outlining, make some tea, put on headphones, and absolutely not sleep

#original post #i need to sleep #but if i do the outlining mood will be gone………

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#reblog #op: tiktoks-for-tired-tots #lmfaoooo

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there is a bird tweeting at this hour. i am beyond confused

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