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The Maiden & The Gorgon // Light Beyond the Frame

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I’m just in this weird state where I cannot stop putting on makeup, shaving or waxing, wearing uncomfortable clothes or shoes while being openly critic about it. It’s like the actions required to perform femininity are engraved so deeply in my brain, even the muscles in the rest of my body just move on their own in order to fulfill these ridiculous tasks without me having to think about it – like a puppet on a string.

I’m glad I got out of the “you’re not credible, you’re a hypocrite” zone but nonetheless the dissonance is strong and provides such an unbearable feeling.

#feminisme #feminist #radical feminists please interact #radfems do interact #radfems do touch #radfems please touch #radical feminst #radfem safe #radfem #feminism is not a trend #hyper feminine #feminine aesthetic

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I have the impression that everything I write on this old abandoned blog becomes true so I guess it’s time for me to talk about my 6 year long relationship that I’ve been wishing to end but for some reason I just can’t get out of. Sometimes I get so close to finally escape from it and then the next day we’re back together because I feel bad about it.

I have loved this man, I think I truly did, but there’s nothing left for me in this relationship — it does not make me grow anymore, it does not elevate me anymore, we’re in this excruciating state of stagnation. I really want to break free and move on to the next chapter of my life but he does not allow me to do it.

What he wants from me is to be small, unseen, and to do things with my life that are far from what I’ve been yearning from (“I think you should stop pursuing the goals you have” he literally told me that lmao so I don’t have to tell you that he tried to persuade me to not apply for school). There is no support from him whatsoever about my ideas and endeavors and on top of all, I have no personal space at all like no individual intimacy which has mortified my creativity. I’m not able to conduct anything on a individual level. A lot of people think having a child will make you lose these things. Well, actually, not for me at least — having a man in my life does that. I’ve always been quite a melancholic person but being with him is making it ten times worse. I feel guilty about it but this *need* of being alone has been stuck to me for 2 whole years. I need to put an end to it once and for all.

I’m going back to school in September 2023 to study Archeology. I thought I was done with college in 2019, I moved to Paris and worked in the legal field ever since. Honestly, it made me miserable ! But I’m glad I got to experience it nonetheless – I can move on while being assured that the whole corporate office job thingy is NOT for me and have no regrets because it’s not going to be an easy road studying while raising my baby boy in one of the most expensive city in the world to live in. I’m so excited !

I just needed a safe space to express it as I haven’t told anyone in my life lol.

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babe are u okay ur crying about closeness lines over time by olivia de recat again

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Babes, wake up ! It’s my yearly selfie post. 🤠

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Yesterday I almost cried because my baby cousin ran up to my grandmother and was like. “Ha! Buhbuh ba ha.” And she said okay you want to show me something? And he led her over to the garden patch and crouched down and pointed at rocks and plants and was like. “Ah. Habah ba ah” as she listened attentively.

And I was like that happened 1,000 years ago. Probably 10,000 years ago. Maybe 100,000. The youngest human in a group went to the oldest one and said to the best of their ability “come see.” And the adult went.

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Okayyyy so now it’s ACTUALLY official : I have been admitted to a prestigious University in Paris. I was not expecting that at all, I was just aiming for an ordinary public university in the suburban area at best since I haven’t been in school for a while (which would have been great too) and then THIS happened.

I’m really entering a new chapter in my life, it’s scary... and thrilling !

I’m going back to school in September 2023 to study Archeology. I thought I was done with college in 2019, I moved to Paris and worked in the legal field ever since. Honestly, it made me miserable ! But I’m glad I got to experience it nonetheless – I can move on while being assured that the whole corporate office job thingy is NOT for me and have no regrets because it’s not going to be an easy road studying while raising my baby boy in one of the most expensive city in the world to live in. I’m so excited !

I just needed a safe space to express it as I haven’t told anyone in my life lol.

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I’m going back to school in September 2023 to study Archeology. I thought I was done with college in 2019, I moved to Paris and worked in the legal field ever since. Honestly, it made me miserable ! But I’m glad I got to experience it nonetheless – I can move on while being assured that the whole corporate office job thingy is NOT for me and have no regrets because it’s not going to be an easy road studying while raising my baby boy in one of the most expensive city in the world to live in. I’m so excited !

I just needed a safe space to express it as I haven’t told anyone in my life lol.

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racist white woman

yes queen slay

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Men invented religion and the worst part about it is they didn’t even attempt cover their tracks AT ALL.

“Oh yea God said I need to have multiple wives and should have access to the bodies of young girls, whether acquired through foreign wars or in my homeland. ;) ”

“Oh yea God said the wife should service the husband whenever he likes, the angels will curse her if she doesn’t, creatures made of light with thousands of wings definitely care about my libido. ;) ”

“Oh yea a good Muslim gets rewarded with very beautiful women waiting for him in paradise ;) Oh what do the women get? Any long porny descriptions about their men? Ugh idk why does that even matter! Let’s just talk about my reward ;) ”

“Oh yea God is a male patriarchal figure who somehow creates life, and Eve was created out of the rib of Adam. I’m definitely not jealous that women create life and haven’t invented this bullshit to cope ;) ”

Like the story of Lot in all 3 Abrahamic religions should prove how religion is just an accumulation of male perversion, greed, lust, and cruelty. We need a feminist atheist movement, it’s about time.

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also speaking of jakub różalski this painting of his is my FAVOURITE like yes girl snitch on the knight!!! get his ass!!!

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Can we archive our posts like on Instagram here ? I don’t wanna delete my old stuff from like almost 10 years ago (yeah I’m sentimental like that) but I don’t want them showing up either, lol.

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Yup. Had to ditch my male psychiatrist years ago. [trigger warning : incest and child abuse] He was the first person I confessed my incestuous sexual abuse as a child and hypersexual episodes as a result to and he started to try to seduce me right afterwards. Even went as far as “stealing” my phone number and sending me texts asking me out. Never replied and totally ghosted him. I haven’t really thought about it ever since, guess my brain tried to repress that memory, but I still can’t believe it was real.

Oh, and since we’re on the topic of male doctors — I also switched from a gynecologist to a midwife during my pregnancy 3 years ago. Best. Decision. Ever.

Men have no. Business. In. The. Psychiatric. Therapy. Of. Girls. And. Women.

Not only because men are much more likely to be biased and more likely to mindlessly accept misogynistic theory in psychiatry, but also because especially young, vulnerable girls and women cannot differentiate an adult male in authority being understanding and offering a space to be vulnerable "without consequences" from a romantic or sexual interest. There were so many more comments of girls admitting they're in love with their male therapist. This is fucking scary.

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