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Both pendulum readings and PWYC Tarot readings are now OPEN ! 🔮

#oops more stuff from my witchy blog

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I’ll never understand why anthropomorphic animal cartoons like Robin Hood and Zootopia will go to the trouble of creating character designs that are meant to be understood as “attractive” or even “sexy” to the human audience but explicitly avoid showing interspecies romances between anthropomorphic animals. Why is THAT weird but, like, trying to make rabbits recognizably sexy-coded to humans isn’t?

#this entire thread is beautiful. truely an experience

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Hey I'm doing emergency readings on my witchcraft sideblog if any of you are interested in divination services and want to help a broke witch pay his phone bill! Even the 1 dollar option helps a lot💜

Just woke up and im ready to start readings for the day 🔮 Check my rates in my pinned post! My readings are intuition based, and I offer an unlimited questions option in case what you need to know cant be summed up in just 3 questions All slots are Open Every little bit helps!

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JUST TOOK MY FIRST T INJECTION 🎉 🎉

#queer #transgender #ftm #transmasc #trans joy #trans hrt #ftm hrt #hrt #boyification

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GUYS I GOT MY FUCKIBG. PRESCRIPTION. SAME DAY. I ALMOST CRIED IN THE DOCTORS OFFICE. I HUGGED THE FUCKIN DOCTOR. AAAA

I'm omw to my first boyification appointment!(hrt consult) wish me luck guys !! 🏳️‍⚧️

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At planned parenthood and it's low-key so welcoming here??? They have a bunch of queer friendly and sex positive pamphlets, they have a mask mandate, tiktok pop music playing quietly in the waiting room, a whole container of condoms I even got a new button pin for my battlejacket! (It's also just an awesome message)

Really awesome vibes here tbh(they did need to electronically unlock the door I'm assuming bc this is a red state and there's sometimes protestors at pph)

I'm omw to my first boyification appointment!(hrt consult) wish me luck guys !! 🏳️‍⚧️

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I'm omw to my first boyification appointment!(hrt consult) wish me luck guys !! 🏳️‍⚧️

#queer #transgender #transmasc #ftm #trans positivity #trans hrt #ftm hrt #hrt #boy juice #testosterone

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#reblogging bexause more people need to understand what is wrong with the “lead pain” tiktok joke. there are real kind people affected #by brain damage and lead poisoining. and saying brain damagemakes you more likely to support conservatives is fucked up and #takes away mentally disabled people agency. and makes leftist spaces activly hostile to peolle with brain damage #stop equating republican stupidity to braindamage especially lead paint poisoning.it was a traumatizing epidemic for many ppl like my sister #ableism #politics

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21 of 22 anti-LGBTQ+ bills dead in the Florida Legislature!!!

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lord the peasants are so loud today

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things people have done to help me during a psychoses episode

i was on the buss and i hallucinated bugs crawling all over my hands, so my friend pulled my hoodie sleeves over them with permission and held my hands through the sleeves to "keep them off". they used the logic you would in a real bug situation.

i went nonverbal in a bad one in class, so my friend wrote me a note to give to the nurse since the teacher wouldn't let her go with me.

i often am very paranoid about the delusion that meat is actually rotten, so my dad will sometimes eat a bit of it before me

instead of telling me my delusions arent real, they help me through it using logic like it was real. they dont tell me that nothings going to hurt me in my sleep, they stay with me to keep me safe. then when it passes i can realize its not real

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Laziness is a myth

Let me make one thing clear: Laziness is a myth. People are not lazy. Most of all lazyness is a capitalist mythology that is (like "unskilled work") used as a tool of oppression. It is used to spin a narrative of why certain people deserve to be poor. Others deserve to be rich, because they work so hard. Something that is obviously a lie. Because nobody can work enough to make millions a day.

A lot of poor people are in fact working. Some even work several jobs. Some do not work for some employer, but instead work at their homes. Childcare, care of sick or elderly family members or friends... all of that still is work.

But of course, some people do not do that. But that does not make them lazy. Not everyone can get a job. Some, because their specialization happens to be too specific. Some, because their kind of skill is not valued by the capitalist society. (A lot of creative skills fall into this. Because, yeah, most people cannot live from art and barely anyone can live from writing.)

And some people (a lot of people) are in fact just sick or disabled. Even more are now, that so many are suffering from long covid. But in fact the entire late capitalist landscape makes a lot of people suffer from burn out and exhaustion. And then there are also neurodiverse folks, who might work very hard in short intervals and then are unable to work on the long haul.

No. People are not lazy. People are just human. Not robots. We have needs and we have limits. We cannot do anything. We will not do everything under any circumstances. And something we just need to look at stupid cat videos for a whole fucking day, because our brain just demands a day to reset. And that's alright.

So, if you happen to just now sit at work or uni reading this, while your conscience tells you that you suck for not working/studying right now: Give yourself a break. Your brain needs it.

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Trans life update

I just scheduled an appointment to talk about going on HRT and I'm so excited!!

It was, so much easier than I thought it'd be especially with me living in a red state [Which, if anyone wants an easy way to get HRT, especially in red states, planned parenthood does gender-affirming care which I didn't know, and in a lot of states they take state Medicaid! Thank you and shoutout to Planned Parenthood, I'm not sponsored just never felt so respected and heard by a medical clinic ]

A little mad I waited until I was 20 out of fear I couldn't afford it but hey I'm finally getting there! And I couldn't be happier, I've been waiting for this since I was a preteen

Preparing myself for Second puberty now

#reblogged from my side mh blog #GUYs look #excited

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When a chronically ill or disabled person gets their lab tests back as “normal” or all clear, we aren’t sad because we WANT to be sick.

We’re sad because we *know* there’s something wrong with us, yet the scans still stay clear.

Before you kill the monster you gotta know its name.

#been trying to find the words for this after my rheumatoid factor test came back negative #and a pysichal disorder i was diagnosed with years ago somehow got. undiagnosed?? like i dont fit the criteria anymore but i still have the #fucing symptoms #weird and confusing

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i also feel like people don't really understand the meaning of the word "developmental" in "developmental disability"

it means you did not develop as abled people typically do, physically or mentally

there are adults who do not have the skills you expect adults to have, who do not react or feel the way you expect adults to react or feel, who cannot live alone or be alone, who need supervision to not walk into the road, who cannot do things you can

and they are still adults

but they are also developmentally disabled

dd adults may have screaming, crying, self harming meltdowns over things you think are "little" or "immature". dd adults may have interests like stuffed animals and coloring books and toys. we may read children's books and watch children's shows, and i mean for like, young children, not like the owl house (because idk modern young kids shows besides paw patrol and is bubble guppies still on), and this is not like, caregivers infantilizing us or encouraging us to be kids forever, it's because that's what we like or are able to understand. and this does not have anything to do with "mental age". there are dd people who are like this and i will defend them claw and tooth.

we may have caregivers and may need constant supervision. we may be short, we may have baby faces, our voice may not have changed since we were a child, or we may use a more childish tone of voice and it is not because of osddid

we may have issues with motor skills and proprioception and incontinence, we may not be able to understand process comprehend absorb, we may not be able to learn certain things or may struggle to learn in general, we may have issues understanding boundaries consequences good and bad and theory of mind. we may do things impulsively (which crosses over with not understanding boundaries consequences good and bad and theory of mind i think). our brains may decide things around us- people, walls, pets, roads, curbs, cliffs, puddles, a spilled drink- don't exist, or may not be able to define what those things are and apply that knowledge, by which i mean, not understanding that a road is dangerous, or that if you spill a drink on your phone it's bad for it and you need to clean it up

our brains may start two processes at once and then cancel them both at the same time only after they have both been run, which is the only way i can explain the way my brain just u turns and it makes me look weird and i don't remember exactly what that means because i'm significantly fucking disoriented when it happens so i have no examples. we may "manipulate" people without understanding that's what we're doing and idk how to explain that either. we may lie, also, without knowing what we're doing. we may respond just to respond because our brains understand "when someone says something to you you need to respond to them" and then it doesn't prioritize making sense or having our response be actually related

we may not have empathy, or limited empathy, and may not be able to understand how to interact with people who are currently expressing a specific emotion. we may not be able to figure out what emotions other people are expressing, or intuit what people may want or expect from us. we also may not be able to or may not know how to express emotion ourselves, or not be able to figure out what we're feeling, or may feel one emotion and express another. we also just flat out may not fucking feel, or may feel things, like affection for a friend, shallowly- it's there, but we don't feel it strongly. we may also get bored of or annoyed with loved ones. and we may be easily angered and annoyed and frustrated and have no patience

we may be nonverbal or semiverbal. we may have trouble communicating and may repeat ourselves and may get impatient about it and may point or act frustrated when the other person doesn't understand. we may need things to be a certain way and then not be able to communicate this and have a meltdown about it. we may not be able to articulate the way we need to and therefore may be easier to misinterpret when you don't have the patience to not immediately assume malicious intent and try to work with us to figure out how to help us or what we're saying. we may only speak a few sentences at a time or only a few words or may only speak in quotes from a special interest. we may make noises like grunting or long drawn out moaning or groaning or droning noises. we may suddenly scream or yell or shout when talking and it's not because we're trying to. we may stim violently. we may suddenly be unable to talk. most people know that one, but. we also may issues with like... forgiving people

we're still adults, but we are also disabled and it does influence our behavior and body language and tone of voice and communication and how we socialize and interact with other people and think and feel and express those feelings and if we can and how we do it and if we feel or care at all and how we handle that too, what we're able to do and how we do it and how much help we need and what we need help with, what we like and don't like and how we handle liking and not liking, what we say and do, and how we move and how well we're able to move and how aware of our bodies and surroundings and other people we are, because all of these are things you pick up in development

and if you comment on this that any of these are symptoms of something else i'm going to really blow my top. yes i know i've listed symptoms of other things in here. lack of empathy is not solely a symptom of aspd and suddenly getting annoyed at people you love isn't solely a symptom of bpd. a lot of these are also symptoms of brain damage and schizophrenia and dissociation and neurological disabilities. and i want to argue that's because most of those things are also things that affect development, but not inherently. i'm tired i would like to do something else now

[sammy--moh]

Change is hard and painful sometimes, a long very tiring process. But it is possible, change hurts sometimes. Healing hurts sometimes, but its worth it and it will be alright. One really bad setback doesn't erase any progress, it doesn't put you back at square one. Healing isn't linear, and sometimes setbacks happen. You still got this, you've still made progress that can't be erased, and I'm proud of you <3