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i hope that one day i will finally be ok….i’ll make a cherry pie when it is all over

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I'm taking a break from tumblr. I will come back maybe if I still remember my password when I want to come back. I just had the thought that just as I have never stopped this weight loss obsession I might not try to do it later. And the more I stay on this app, the harder it gets to let it go. That's why now I am letting it go.

I'm letting this obsession go.

I don't want to be unable to eat without thinking about calories or be around food without anxiety all my life just because i spent my teenage years looking at the calories of sugar free gum and telling my friends I genuinely dislike anything delicious because it has over 200 calories for 100 g.

Choose Recovery.

Live your life.

#thin #ana journal #anamia #thinsperation #thinspii #anorixic #meanspo #thinspo #ana #mia #not pro just using tags #pro recovery #just tagging so people can find this #ed #ed meme #ana meme #skinny legs #legspo #handspo #bonespo #thinspo imagine #skinny #not eating #pro ana #i do not support eating disorders #ed recovery

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Tik tok .. I-

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I had breakfast this morning and it was weird but most importantly it tasted like failure.

Guess what?

Gonna fast again.

#thinspo #ana #not pro just using tags #ana journal #thin #anamia #thinsperation #thinspii #anorixic

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#thin #ana journal #thinsperation #thinspo #ed #not pro just using tags #i do not support eating disorders

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Longest fast yet for me - 16 hours

Feeling sort of okay, the headache fades after a while. I feel pretty good. My hands and feet a bit numb tho :/

I was up all night with my boyfriend talking about how miserable I am. I rarely open up, but I found it surprisingly comforting. He wrapped me up in blankets with my favourite cuddly toys and stroked my hair until I fell asleep. I’m so lucky to have him. He reminds me that I am worthy of life.

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TW: MEANSPO

i saw a meanspo post a little while ago that talked about how all that delicious, tempting food will inevitably become disgusting, greasy, yellow fat.

now i can’t look at the food i crave without seeing lumpy piles of oily fat.

i wanted to make a similar post to motivate myself.

pizza! a classic. warm, cheesy, comforting, and greasy. so greasy. that isn’t just pizza.

it’s fat. grease and cheese and bread makes yellow bubbles under your skin that swell until you’re back where you started.

ice cream tacos? i’ve never had one, but they look delicious. just look at all that sugar and chocolate and all those carbs. carbs.

carbs that soak into you and puff up your tummy, your thighs, your double chin, everything you’ve worked so hard to get rid of.

donuts! my weakness. a million flavors of crispy, soft, sweet.

just one of these babies has more calories than i typically eat in a day.

do you want pizza?

do you want an ice cream taco?

do you want a donut?

is this what you want?

that isn’t food. it’s fat.

nasty, gelatinous fat.

is this what you want?

because that’s what you’re eating every time you gorge on a high-calorie treat.

it’s never worth it.

it’s never worth sacrificing weeks of hard work for a moment or two of pleasure.

nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

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Someone send me meanspo

I need to lose weight 😫

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I caught my boyfriend staring at me today. He asked how much I weighed now. I told him, and asked why he was was asking. He said because I look skinnier now, and that my face is a lot slimmer. Then he stared at me for a second more and quietly said “yeah… wow.” I think I felt my heart swell.

When we were in the car I noticed he put his hand on my thigh and started rubbing his hand up and down it. “There’s no way you weigh that much. You must weigh like 10 lbs lighter.”

That was the highlight of my day.

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yeah forsure, crop tops and leggings are great... but the oversized hoodies... mmm... the oversized hoodies...