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TIL that there are places I can't travel to because of association with certain humans.

There goes my wishing of traveling the world. Fml

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Random thoughts

I want to be with somebody who had experiences but not somebody who knows so much more than me.

I want somebody who is knowledgeable but still willing to learn.

I want somebody who will learn with me.

I don't know what I want.

I know there is a chance I end up in a shadow again. I don't want that and I will try my damnest to make sure that doesn't happen.

I want to be me. Not a puppet.

I thought I wanted it to work. But the more I think about it the more I realize that it may be able to but it would take a lot of work on both sides. I'm young. I know there is somebody else for me.

Right now. I'm fine being single and free. I am not playing the single card a lot though. It's nice not to me tied down.

Maybe I'll ask a person to hang out, I mean we have been kinda talking since September. Maybe it's time we meet up.

#life #lyfe #tired #working on it #learning #thoughts on my drive #thoughts

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Learning.

I'm still learning.

I'm still growing. I'm thankful he was part of my life. But I'm learning he wasn't meant for the seat next to me. Which is fine. He held it for awhile because he truly believed that he was.

I held him there for awhile because I believed he was. But honestly. Now. No way. I value my family too much for him to be able to hold that seat. I still have a lot of learning to do before I find that person.

And honestly. I'm fine with that. I like learning with him. But also I'm glad that I can learn on my own.

Thank you for helping me. I know last year was rough. But I also know that for 2020 and this decade life is going to get better.

#learning #tired #im really tired #i'm just so tired #mentally tired #mentally exhausted #what do i want to do?

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“See the worst of me, and try to love me despite all the dark you find.”

— Tyler Knott Gregson

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Happy 2020

Here's to a new year!

I have big plans for this year. Well kinda.

I'm hoping to find somebody.

I'm hoping to find my passion.

Maybe I will go to culinary school.

Maybe boy who says this isn't fair to me will reach out *I doubt it*

I'm going to lose weight.

I am going to eat better. *Try, I currently have caramels and rolos and pretzels.... It's fine. Lol*

I'm going to not over indulge in sweets. Definitely going to limit that intake.

I'm going to not let little things upset me. Like I have in the past. I'm going to be better.

I'm going to try more? I started saying fuck it a lot the end of last year. Like I have nothing to lost so might as well try. But in saying that. I'm not messaging a certain ex because that's not worth it. Because he is still "working through some stuff"

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Titanic (1997) dir. James Cameron

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I dont typically post on this one, because its from forever ago, but i like keeping y’all updated. Its been a ride. I am glad that i have friends and family that are helping me get through this summer. 

I am trying to figure out what to do after next year. I have a year until graduation. its crazy to think that. But i am sure everything will work out in due time. 

I want to say thank you to the friends that are pushing me to be a better me.. lately its only one human, maybe two because one could technically be hidden but still, this guy is a great person. He is like the older brother i kinda never had. Able to talk about anything and everything but still talk about serious stuff. 

I dont know how often i will posting to this page, but if you want to see more go over to  https://tumbling-down-to-hell.tumblr.com/   because i post there often....ish

#tired #continue on #daydreaming #ish #lives #in her mind #help? #its going to get better #regardless of what you think

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A year ago

a year ago today, i remember hanging up a skype call and immediately balling. i was crying so hard that i could not breathe. It was probably the hardest thing i had done in life thus far. Ending a relationship that i was not happy in. It was rough, but in the days that followed i still talked to him. But then around thanksgiving i ended up not talking any more... I didnt want to fight. I didnt want to be around him anymore.. A year ago i finally was able to breathe and learn who i was and who i am. I am a better person today because of what happened. While im still not happy with how everything ended, it ended and i am better now.. I may still be depressed but i am getting better. I have started to live my life day to day and less class to class. If i can live through this i can do anything.  one of Fall out boys new song hits home with me. and it has kinda become my mantra for the past weeks since i started listening to it. 

#life #college #imgettingbetter #falloutboy #champion

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You guysssss this is one of the cutest things on the internet. Happy Friday! | Repost @theberry |🐘This is important. #adorable #cute #elephant #elephants #babyelephant #animals #nature #wildlife #wildlifephotography #wildlifebiologist #fieldwork #wildlifeconservation #conservation #endangered #endextinction #chasing #funny #KeyConservation

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THIS IS THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER SEEN

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i though y'all might enjoy this. from the indy show!

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He knows it

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I can’t find the courage to tell her how much I love when she says we yet, but there’s an entire future written in that word, and we’ll make time.

Satvika Neti, from “To War We Go” in Dates! (via the-final-sentence)

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well that took a turn jfc

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She could be a storm. But she could be a soft candle lightning up a dark room.

The Inexplicable Logic of My Life by Benjamin Alire Sáenz (via bookworm221)