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𝐬𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧 - 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭, 𝐬𝐚𝐦 𝐟𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫

TW: SELF HARM, EATING DISORDER

𝐀𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚

The Sun

Secret Romance Between Two Musicians

The singer Sam Fender, 28, who rose to fame after his single Seventeen Going Under has recently been connected to songwriter, Arabella Young. Fender first got seen liking her recent posts as well as his bandmates like Dean Thompson who commented on a few.

Arabella was then seen with her best friend joining the boys in North Shields' local pub for a night out on a trip back home after several years. There were several tense moments shared between the two musicians throughout the night.

Is there a new romance growing? Is it going to end well? Tell us your thoughts.

I stared at the words in front of me reading how my past was going to come up sooner or later over and over again. My heart felt numb at this point. How could I have forgotten people now watched our every moment?

"Arabella come down here for a bit pet" Granny shouted from downstairs making me throw my phone on my bed and run down, wanting to forget the world for a bit.

"What's up?" I ask as I walk into the kitchen.

"We read the newspapers, my dear. Come on drink this and talk to me" She explained, passing me a cuppa and sitting down at the table.

"Gran it's really nothing" I lied.

"Arabella that boy may as well as ruined your life, I know full well it's nothing so talk to me," She said pointing at the chair again.

"I don't know where to start with it all," I say staring into my mug.

"Tell me what's been going on so far" Gran encouraged

"I first saw him in the co-op when I went shopping, we didn't talk to each other but kept sharing glances til I ran out to my car before he could finish up and try to talk. Then on the night out me and Pheebs went on, he was there but it didn't really phase me til I was talking to this guy and he called me pretty like Sam used to so then I ran out of the place. He then followed me and asked me what happened and we ended up on the beach having this chat. I then tried to avoid him which I did successfully until he messaged me on Mum's birthday telling me she was proud"

"So basically so far he's trying to fix what happened and you're running which is understandable. What did you do after the message?" She asked easing me into carrying on.

"I never responded, I kept rereading it but never replied. Then November 11th came around which is the date we broke up, I went for a walk to clear my head and I ended up seeing him and we talked about us and why we were home and then he kissed me and I let him. Then when I went to the pub to see Dean and the lads with Phoebe we were tense all night and someone said the wrong thing and I went outside him following me. I can't believe I'm about to tell my granny this, we slept together and then agreed to be friends but I've been avoiding him" I finished the catch-up as I stared at the table, not wanting to meet her eyes.

"Oh honey," She says, putting a hand over mine. "I think the only thing I can say and ask is how do you feel about this and him?"

"I've never stopped loving him Granny, and I never will but he hurt me too much for me to let him into my life like that again. I look at him and I feel these amazing feelings but at the same time, I feel all that hurt. I just feel like that little girl all over again. I just don't know what I'm doing, what to do, or how I feel" I explain the contradiction in my brain as a tear comes up.

"Bella outside of Sam you have experienced so much pain so young and you need to be able to live a life outside of that. There are so many people in this world, some you create lifelong connections with that never fade but that doesn't mean they need to be lifelong. I'm not telling you what to do because you are capable of that but I am telling you to start living your life. Rest your brain" She advises before we sit in silence over our cuppas.

"I love you, granny," I say, and before she can even reply my phone rings in my pocket.

Levi's name flashes up before I answer.

"Hey, what's up?" I ask.

"Bella what's these news headlines about you and Sam? Please tell me you haven't made a mistake and gone back to him" He asks with annoyance in his tone.

"No, we aren't back together," I say shortly.

The rant I knew was coming came next. As he spoke I felt my body dissociate from his words. Feeling like an idiot as he spoke. The same 16 year old girl who watched as he paced around threatening to kill him. Legs curled to my chest. The ringing in my brain. The cloudiness in my thoughts. The noise around me becoming background noise.

"I just don't want to see you ruin yourself over him again. Please be careful" He says with pain in his voice as if he was replaying it.

"Levi I'm fine. I know you are my big brother but I am capable of looking after myself. I promise I only feel a bit of heartache that's all" I assure him before we share I love yous and hang up.

I kiss Gran and tell her it was just Levi before heading back upstairs. I walk into the bathroom, making sure to lock the door before sinking next to the toilet.

I sat toying with my sleeves, staring at the walls for a moment or two as my tears fell. Suddenly my brain went back to that little girl.

I pulled my head away from the toilet, wiping my hand on my mouth before falling back against the wall. The guilt of my actions soon came over me as usual. The bitterness in my throat causing a pain to reside there.

Before I could even come back to reality, my hand reached into my pocket for the lighter. I fiddled with it back and forth for a minute before pulling up my left sleeve to see my previous damage. I flicked the flame on holding it for a minute, letting the metal get the heat.

The metal hit my skin not too long later causing a jolt through my body. I repeated this movement a few more times before throwing the lighter down.

I let my head hit the wall, the tears falling as I pulled my sleeve back down naturally going back to fidgeting with them as my legs rested against my chest. I cursed myself several times as my brain disconnected from my body.

The lighter rested in my hands as I looked at my younger actions. My eyes flicked back and forth between the toilet and lighter as I decided which would be my relapse.

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hi! so i'm back, i took a while off due to personal reasons and life being a bit chaotic along with starting college. I am gonna try to be a bit more consistent on here with this as I don't wanna come to an end however updates may take a bit longer. anyway tell me your thoughts on this chapter, I wanted to focus bit more on Arabella's damage from past actions. love you all and enjoy - ash x

#sam fender #sam fender imagines #sam fender x reader #music #fanfic #i love you #imagine #imagines #one shot #request #sam fender one shot #you shouldn't have said that #sam fender smut #samfender

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new chapter? you want?

enjoy its up!

#sam fender #sam fender imagines #sam fender x reader #music #fanfic #i love you #imagine #imagines #one shot #request #samfenderfanfic #you shouldn't have said that #sam fender smut

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NEW CHAPTER IS BEING WRITTEN GUYS

#sam fender #sam fender imagines #sam fender x reader #music #fanfic #i love you #imagine #imagines #one shot #request

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right girlies I know a few of u live in Newcastle. I've started looking into the music course at the uni there and does anyone know a bit about the uni bc I am genuinely intrigued now I've started looking at unis and it's the one that seems most appealing

#sam fender

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i will be active one day again 🙏

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update: wrote a whole chapter, hated it and now can't get a word out of me

im off college this week so my goal is to bulk up on some writing so wish me good luck and hopefully some new stuff for you soon 🫶🏻

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im off college this week so my goal is to bulk up on some writing so wish me good luck and hopefully some new stuff for you soon 🫶🏻

#sam fender #sam fender imagines #sam fender x reader #music #fanfic #i love you #imagine #imagines #one shot #request

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so as we know my bf likes sams music. today I made him watch the interviews and he was laughing the whole time.

#sam fender smut #sam fender #sam fender imagines #sam fender x reader #music #fanfic

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so as we know my bf likes sams music. today I made him watch the interviews and he was laughing the whole time.

#sam fender smut #sam fender #sam fender imagines #sam fender x reader #music #fanfic

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literally, one sam I know jumped when called Samuel

do u think his mam ever pulled out the samuel thomas when he was naughty😭😂

Oh yeah totally got the full name!

Samuel Thomas Fender sounds like such a bollocking 😂

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even the Samuel would shit him up

do u think his mam ever pulled out the samuel thomas when he was naughty😭😂

Oh yeah totally got the full name!

Samuel Thomas Fender sounds like such a bollocking 😂

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me every day lately

Don’t you love it when you get 900 words into a chapter before you realise it’s shite and you’ve just wasted half an hour and it’s the first thing you’ve written in over a month and now the inspirations gone and so have your readers

Isn’t that fun.

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# is so real

04.10.23

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another ill sam lover here. we all need some sam love for sure, calming and soothing us x

I'm ill as fuck and I just want Sam to look after me 😔

Me too🤧 I need him to spoon me and play with my hair so I can just fall asleep😔