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slutforsfender · 10 months
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Heya I was wondering if you could maybe do an imagine of Sam getting his honoury degree like he takes you as his plus one to get it or something maybe your sat with his mum in the audience and he keeps looking for you I dunno lol I just think it would be cute obviously no pressure x
Honoury Degree (Request)
Sam Fender x Reader
Today was a special day. A day that filled your heart with such pride and warmth. Today was the day your boyfriend, Sam, got his honors degree in music. He was now going to be Dr. Fender which gave you a mixture of feelings.
You couldn't wait to see him walk up and get his degree. You had tissues on standby in your bag, knowing full well you were going to cry. You were currently standing with the future degree holder and his mum while she fussed over him.
"Mam stop please, I look fine" He begged his mum as she fixed his outfit one more time.
"I can't believe my little baby is going to have a degree. I'm so proud" She says, tearing up once again as I pass her another tissue.
"I know I can't grasp it" You join as he rolls his eyes.
"Not you as well," He says as he pulls you towards him making a smile reach your face.
"I'll go to the seats, give you two a minute. I love you" She says, pressing a kiss to his cheek.
You knew he was nervous as his hands kept twitching and his feet couldn't be still for more than a minute. This man could play Wembley but was terrified to stand in front of a few people for a degree.
"Darling stop worrying, you'll be fine. You will get your degree then come to us two and we will leave. Alright?" I speak, reassuring him.
"Promise?" He asked, sticking out his pinky.
"Promise" You confirm as your pinky around his.
"I love you, Dr. Fender," You say before pressing a sweet kiss to his lips.
"I love you too tease," He says with a small smirk.
You let out a small laugh before making your way back to Shirley. You sit down and share out the tissues, ready for the inevitable crying.
Sam was looking over at you both constantly while he waited as just the sight of you was enough to get rid of all nerves in his body.
You grip each other's hands as they get to the music portion of the ceremony.
"Sam Fender. An honorary degree in Music" The person speaks before Sam walks up to the stage.
Tears were spilling from both pairs of eyes as he picked up the degree. Cheers left your mouths as the Geordie came out of you both. You both looked at each other with sweet smiles, both filled with pride before deciding to go find the new degree holder.
You ran up to him as soon as you saw him before he picked you up and spun you around. You pressed a long kiss to his lips to show your pride and love for him right now.
"I'm so proud of you" You whispered in his ear as he put you down.
He was soon engulfed by his mum with hugs, kisses, and tears as you admired the two.
"Right I believe I was promised a lovely meal with my two girls," He said as he joined your hand with his and pulled his mum into him for a side hug.
And that was it. Your boyfriend was now an honoury degree holder. Dr Fender.
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I love this request. it's short but I hope you enjoy x
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slutforsfender · 9 months
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Italy Trip - Sam Fender
Sam Fender x Reader
You woke up the light from the curtains next to the balcony in your hotel room in Italy. You were wrapped up in Sam's arms as his hand was placed on your hip and your head was on his chest.
You arrived last night in a little town in Rome in Italy. Sam had booked you and him a week away to explore Italy as he knew it was your dream to explore the country. You had spent most of the week in Venice and now were going to explore Rome. You had of course cried and not shut up about it since which he acted like drove him mad but deep down he adored.
"Mornin', my darling" He rasped out as he woke up himself.
"Good morning" You replied, rolling over to look at him which caused him to pick you up and put you over him in a straddling position.
You lay there admiring him for a few minutes. His messy hair tussled everywhere from his slumber. His blue eyes looked as bright and beautiful as ever. His beard had a few stray hairs on his face which made him look even more handsome. His lips looked soft and red causing you to place a kiss on his lips.
You were about to get up and start getting ready for the first day of exploring when Sam pulled you back down onto him.
"Sam we need to get ready, come on," You said as you attempted once again which failed.
"Five more minutes of cuddles then we can get up and get ready. Deal?" He asked with a smirk, knowing you would give in.
"Okay fine. Just five more minutes" You said, letting yourself relax into the cuddle with him.
You did lay there for in fact five more minutes, just cuddling and going over the plans for the day. However, Sam knew he couldn't control your excitement any longer and let you get up. You took in turns showering before you both got dressed and Sam found a café nearby while you did your makeup.
"There's a café about a ten-minute walk away from the hotel," He told you as he hugged you from behind while you finished your makeup.
"That sounds good my love," You said as you pressed a kiss to his cheek which left a lipstick mark causing him to roll his eyes and tickle you, making you let out a squeal.
You both grabbed the last few little things before leaving hand in hand. Once you got outside, you couldn't help but be memorised. The sky looked gorgeous above your head, a mixture of colours around you making a beautiful picture. The streets you walked down had cobbled stones beneath your feet. The shops and houses around had vines, flowers and just looked incredible.
You couldn't help but admire your life right now. You had an amazing boyfriend who loved and adored you and was exploring your favourite city with you. You were in this city which you loved and left you with an incredible admiration for.
You soon arrived at the café with Sam and went inside, ordering. It was a little café with tables and vines outside, leaving a rustic feel inside.
"What do you want love? I'm going to have a full English" Sam questioned as you gazed over the menu together.
"I might have the same, fill us up for exploring" You joked as Sam went to order.
Your meals soon came and you shared a lovely breakfast, talking over your plans for the day.
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The first thing on your list to do was to look around the little shops around you both. You went in and out of nearby shops. You picked up a few things each for people back home like magnets, books, and cute little things.
"Want to go in there, smell the flowers for a little while?" Sam questioned as he noticed a flower shop in the corner of his eye.
"Aye of course I do. Do you even know me, Fender?" You said, rolling your eyes as you made your way toward the shop.
You spent like twenty minutes together, smelling all the different flowers. You spent even longer in the rose section of course and it almost killed you not to buy any.
"To the Colosseum" Sam spoke, grabbing your hand as you made your way to the building.
Your heart melted at the thought of him remembering how much you loved the ancient aspect of the city. You placed a kiss on his cheek, watching his lips turn into a smile at the action.
After a little walk to the place where you both pointed out things around you and admired the city, you arrived at the Colosseum. You stood near the thing, taking pictures and admiring the piece of history in front of you.
Before you knew it, you started spilling the little facts you had stored in your brain while walking around it. You looked up at Sam to see he was already staring down at you with love in his eyes.
"What?" You questioned as he pulled you towards him.
"Nothing, I just love you," He said, making you hide your face in his chest causing him to let out a little laugh.
You shared a kiss before continuing your mission of exploring. You made your way to the fountains and looked at anything else on the way.
You did the same play of actions at the fountains, except you stayed a little longer. You shared some ice cream next to the fountains as you admired the sunset happening around you while also doing some people-watching. You made little jokes here and there, involving you putting some ice cream on his cheek which ended in a tickling battle.
"I just want to say you two look absolutely adorable together, I hope you have a great life together" A lady spoke from the bench next to you both.
"Thank you" You both replied with a huge smile on your faces.
You made our way back to our hotel soon enough as tiredness hit you both from walking around all day.
As soon as you both got back you got into comfy clothes. Sam ordered room service while you took off your makeup.
"You okay?" Sam asked as you were quiet in the bathroom.
"I'm sorry for rambling all day, I bet it was annoying and I'm sorry" You rambled as he walked into the room.
"It was nowhere near annoying. This is the thing you have wanted to do for years and I loved walking around giving you that experience and learning things" Sam spoke as he stroked your hair while cuddling you.
"Really?" You questioned, looking up at him.
"Of course you idiot" He joked, making you smile before kissing you.
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slutforsfender · 10 months
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Dancing In The Rain - Sam Fender
Sam Fender x Reader 
You were currently cuddled up in your shared flat on the sofa with your boyfriend, Sam, having a movie marathon while the rain poured outside. Your favourite film, 10 Things I Hate About You, was currently playing in the background. Sam had lost attention as he now was typing out lyrics on his phone as you watched the film.
"I have a question" Sam suddenly spoke, placing a kiss on your crown.
"Shoot," You said, looking up at him now.
"What's your like dream romance moment?" He questioned, causing you to think.
"I don't have one really" You lied as you were embarrassed even though you and Sam had been together for a few years now.
"Lies," Sam said, looking into your eyes as you shook your head. "So you're telling me you watch and read all these romance things but you don't have a dream moment like"
"No Sam I don't and if I did you have probably already done it Mr Romance" You joke but he knew you better.
He suddenly flipped you down onto your back, straddling you, and started tickling you making you let out a squeal.
"Tell me or I will keep tickling you" He demanded with a smirk on his face.
All you could think was how you acted like such teenagers while in your late twenties but you didn't want it any other way.
"Sam. Stop" You let out between breathes and giggles.
"Nope, not until you tell me" He stood his ground.
"Fine. Fine. Stop and I will tell you" You made a deal.
"Promise?" He asked, stopping slowly.
"I promise Sam Fender" You responded.
He moved his hands away and helped you sit up on his lap while his hands went to drawing shapes on your hips.
"Dancing in the rain" You whispered with your head hiding in his neck.
He placed a kiss on your neck with a hum of acknowledgment as he thought for a second while you lifted your head from his neck, showing your red cheeks.
"Well correct me if I'm wrong like but I'm pretty sure it's raining and I have jumpers for us to wear and music so we could make it a reality," He said, knowing all he wanted to do was create these moments for you.
"You aren't wrong Fender"
"Get your arse up then. Get some shoes and a hoodie on as well" He demanded with a cheeky grin, grabbing his phone and finding some music.
"Sam, are you being serious?" You questioned, admiring your boyfriend.
"Deadly" He responded, pointing at your shoes in the corner.
You followed his instructions while he did the same before grabbing your hand and guiding you outside. He clicked on a song before putting his phone in his pocket and guiding you onto the dead-end road outside.
You couldn't let out a laugh between you both at this moment between you two. You were stood on a road with rain pouring, both in cozy clothes and Room Service by Holly Humberstone playing.
He placed your hands on his shoulders while he went to his usual place, your hips. You couldn't help but admire his features under the streetlights. The way his blue eyes were sparkling and staring at you. The way his lips were instinctively parted, muttering the words, looking so soft. The way his little curls were showing through his mullet. You just knew you truly loved this boy and everything he did like this, creating romantic moments for you because he knew your past with boys.
"What's going on in that little head of yours?" He questioned as you placed your head on his chest.
"Just how much I love you, Samuel Fender"
"I love you even more for as long as possible" He replied, placing two fingers under your chin to look at him and placing a sweet kiss on your lips which you sunk into. 
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i love this lil imagine. short i know but i thought it was a cute idea. also if you read this imagines and enjoy them i think you should check out my sam fanfic anyway love you all x 
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slutforsfender · 9 months
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𝐬𝐢𝐱𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧 - 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭, 𝐬𝐚𝐦 𝐟𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫
𝐀𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚
I woke up the next morning wrapped up in Sam's arms around my body. He was holding onto me tight as if he was scared to let go. My head and heart had a million feelings going through them. Fear, happiness, anger, safety. 
I sat for a while staring at the room around while letting my thoughts roam free for a minute trying to come to some sanity. My sixteen year old self was cursing my twenty eight year old self while also being happy at current circumstances. 
Sam started to stir next to me as he woke up, bringing me back to reality. 
"Morning Rose" He rasped out in his morning voice which almost killed all doubts in me. 
"Good morning" I smiled back as he pressed a kiss to my head. 
"I'm scared if I wake up fully this will either be a dream or the conversation we will have will end not how I want to" He spoke, making me tense under his touch.
"I think reality was lost last night for both of us" I laughed a little, my nerves playing through. 
"It could be reality this, but it isn't that easy is it?" He asked, stroking my hair.
"I've only been home for two weeks and here we are. It feels like a chaotic romance, I mean we are chaotic but I don't think we can just sleep together and forget everything that happened and get back together" I sigh. 
"Okay" He says, stopping to think before speaking again. "How about this? We don' forget everything but we don't go back to hating each other either and arguing all the time or being strangers. We try the friend thing?" He says, sitting up and looking me in the eye. 
A feeling settled inside me in that moment. A feeling of I don't whether this will end good or bad but I don't want to loose him again and put myself through that heartache. 
"We'll try the friend thing" I smile as we sit across from each other for a moment in silence. 
"Right I better be going, mam will be skitzing said I was only going for a few" He said causing us to laugh as he gathered his things from the night before.
That conversation was easier than I ever wished yet it left me with a feeling I couldn't even describe. I didn't even want to delve into it as I fell back on my bed and let out the loudest sigh ever.
My mind fell back to one of the first interactions we had back when we were fourteen before there was any romance between us. 
I sat in a Science lesson writing away, answering the questions on the board as my friend who was sat between me and the blonde boy was talking away in my ear. Suddenly the teacher spoke to stop writing and get ready for the bell. 
"Shut up small person" I spoke to Brandon as he made some stupid comment. 
"Oi say that when stood next to Sam" Brandon spoke as he pointed to the tall blonde boy next to him. 
For some weird reason we both stepped closer to each other, comparing heights as Brandon laughed. 
I looked into his eyes with my arms crossed and I felt some weird feeling that I did not let my brain register.
"Oh wow you are actually tall" I spoke as I walked away to my seat, grabbing my backpack as he copied the same action. Our eyes not quite leaving each other as Brandon talked away. 
"Right come on it's break. You need to find your girlfriend and our friends" I said, leading us away as Sam found his friends as well.
My brain came back to reality as I messaged Phoebe, letting her know what happened. 
Phoebe: Right well it sounds like we need to have a girls night in, I'm setting off now. love ya. 
I smiled at the message and decided to get ready, not letting my brain to think.
It was a bit later now and I was pouring glasses of wine for me and Phoebe as she chose the music to play through the speakers.
"So when are my favourite people coming home?" She asked as we sat at my dining table. 
"Tommorow afternoon" I reply. 
"Oooh got one more night for more activities then" She said wiggling her eyebrows. 
"Okay the wine has hit you straight away" I joked as I ignored the comment.
"No seriously though. Just friends?" She asked, genuine interest.
"Yeah we agreed we couldn't just dive into getting back together after twelve years since our breakup" I spoke, staring at my wine glass.
"Ah so it's an agreement to be just friends until you are bit more less on bad terms" She spoke. 
"No no, we aren't getting back together. We can't. It's me and Sam" I spoke as if it was obvious. 
"Okay if you say so but I will still be mad at him for the heartbreak he caused you" She says, standing up to turn up the music, causing me to laugh as my phone buzzed. 
Sam: Dean was adamant on coming over, thought I'd be a wreck hahaha
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I laughed as I sent a pic back of me and Phoebe, smiling at the picture. 
Me and Phoebe enjoyed the free house as we talked over everything that has happened in our friendship with a weird feeling left in the air. 
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arabella_young nights with phoebe like the 16 year olds we were once 🤍
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username1 she's gorgeous wtf!!
username2 sam's in the likes. how tf does he know her                                                      ^                                                                                username3 probably just finds her attractive like the rest of us or they have worked together, she's a writer  
phoebe_anderson my gorgeous bestfriend 
^                                                                               arabella_young just marry me at this point!
deanedwardthompson stunning bella!            ^                           
arabella_young thankyou deano x                   
^                                                       username4 anyone else confused by these interactions??                                                          ^                                                                              username5 me too!!
username7 god she's gorgeous. to be arabella right now as well with sam and the lads interacting.
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slutforsfender · 10 months
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𝐟𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧 - 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭, 𝐬𝐚𝐦 𝐟𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫
𝐀𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚
𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓
I was currently out for lunch with Phoebe, her mum, and my granny as a little girl's lunch for a catchup, We'd usually do this back in my town in London but since I'm back home we went to a little café that we adored.
"Oh it is lovely to see you pet back in Newcastle" Alice, Phoebe's mum, spoke.
"Thank you, I'm enjoying being back" I spoke before sipping on my wine.
"Well I for one have missed you a lot and I'm sure I'm not the only one aye Jacq?" Phoebe addressed my granny while she ordered.
"Of course I did, it's my little girl but I did not miss you playing electric guitar at one am that's for sure missy" She joked with a stern look.
"Oh please you love it gran" I joked back.
"Gran me again missy and I will lock away that guitar again" She warned.
We all laughed it off as they sank into a conversation about missing me. These were the moments I had missed while in London. The lunches there just aren't the same casual family feeling between us all. I will never be able to forgive him for giving me the ambition to leave my favourite people that I needed by my side.
"You okay Bella?" Pheebs questioned, noticing my absence in the question and the only one knowing what had happened the night before.
I had rang her after I had calmed myself down, ranting for hours about the words that had been spoken. Her hatred was definitely fueled towards him and I did not blame her one little bit anymore.
"Yeah I'm fine, just missed these lunches" I hummed, picking up my glass to cheer with the others.
We had a lovely lunch talking about everything from teenage memories, to boys and anything else possible. My mind was distracted for the first time in a while and I had genuine smiles. I adored these women with all I had.
My phone suddenly buzzed by the side of me and I reached over to check it to be met with a message I was not expecting.
Dean: Hiya Bella, heard from the whispers of the streets you are back home. Me and the lads are missing our lil songwriter. Was wondering whether you wanted to have a few drinks with me and the lads tonight at the Low Lights. Sam will be there but we can defend you as well as Pheebs if she wants to join. Love ya lots Bella x
"Pheebs look at this" I spoke, showing her my phone. Shock reaching her face as well.
"Oh crikey. I think we should go though. I know you miss the lads and so do I and it could be fun. You can't spend the whole trip with us lot and can't him determine what we do. Come on" She spoke wisely. I nodded in agreement.
Arabella: Of course, we will come. Missed you bairns a lot as well, see you tonight x
"What's going on darling?" My granny questioned, confused by the interaction.
"Nothing just Dean asked if we wanted to go for a few down the Low Lights tonight with the lads" I explained to her.
"That sounds grand. I always loved Dean, he used to look right after you when you were bairns" She awed.
"Aye Dean is lovely, a little troublemaker but looked after you too for sure" Alice agreed.
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It was now a little bit later and we were sat in Phoebe's flat with vinyls blasting getting ready. I sat on her floor with a glass of wine, fixing my makeup from this morning. I didn't want to go all out as it was the Low Lights but if he was there I had to show I was fine after yesterday.
"Penny for your thoughts?" Phoebe asked while doing her mascara in the bathroom.
"Just thinking about seeing everyone and him after yesterday yanno," I tell her honestly.
"Arabella if you can do half of the stuff you have done you can face a few old friends. And for him just ignore him, you're home and you can't let him ruin how you felt about Shields this morning" She advised, pointing the mascara tube at me for emphasis making me laugh.
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Soon enough we dressed in our outfits taking a few pictures before setting off to the Low Lights.
"Ready?" She asked linking arms like usual.
"As I ever will," I said nodding causing us to chuckle a little.
We made our quick walk to the little pub, talking about anything that came to our minds. It was Phoebe's trick to keep me distracted as my nerves increased the closer we got.
"Here we go," She says opening the familiar doors.
Straight away we are approached by a group of rowdy boys, cheering our names making a smile come to my face. I was pulled into hugs, the first one of course being Dean.
"Oh I have missed ya wor lass," He said in my ear as he pulled away.
"Missed you too Deano" I reply, patting his shoulder.
Soon enough Tom pulled me into him, muttering a missed you. He had always been the big brother of the group. Then soon enough I was introduced to a few new people that had joined the group.
"Hiya I'm Joe, part of Sam's band. I've heard a lot about you from Deano. Must be a special lass" He said, pulling me into a hug and I could tell I already liked him. He seemed like a good laugh.
Another lad then came over to me, tripping over slightly making the whole group erupt in laughter.
"Cheers lads," He said to the group of boys before turning back around. "Hey, I'm Drew. Drummer of Sam's band" He explained, reaching his hand out.
"I'm not gonna bite Drew, you can give us a hug like. Nothing special here" I said, gesturing to myself before hugging him.
Then I met the final new one, another Tom who explained he was the bassist of the group. They all seemed like a good laugh and I knew that's why Sam had liked them.
Speaking of the devil, I looked up to be connected with his ocean blue eyes staring back at me. Neither of us moved for a second until a voice spoke up.
"Well we better get a drink than join ya lads" Phoebe spoke up, witnessing the eye contact.
"No need. Got your drinks and seats right here next to me" Dean pointed to the two spaces next to him which were far away from him. I knew that was his plan from the wink that came my way as I sat down.
I straight away gulped half my pint down as I laid eyes on it. "Oi oi, can see why the lads love ya so much now" Joe spoke in response to my actions causing us to laugh.
Soon enough we were all in conversation about what I've been up to and teenage memories. Dean was careful enough to not go near the topic of me and Sam which the other lads followed.
However, as much as I avoided the blonde lad, I could feel his eyes laid on me watching my every move. Making me wonder if Dean had told the lads about our relationship. Or why they said only Dean talked about me? Could he still not talk about me?
I stopped my brain from spiraling by downing the drink in front of me before the next round came.
"Steady on Bella. I'm getting flashbacks to when you were sixteen knocking 'em back like they were note" Tom laughed, recalling one of my drunken moments.
"Aye well, I believe I was a bit of a mess then. Some things never change" I mutter the words, finally reaching his eyes again.
"Yeah, I remember you and Sam were like all over each other. Disgusting sight, I'll tell you that" He says, crumbling his face up at the memory.
"Well, that's in the past now," I say with a bitter smile on my face as I turn to Dean.
"You alright lass?" He asked, knowing right now wouldn't be the easiest for me.
"Yeah, I'm alright. Got my best mate back ain't I?" I smile at him as he put his arm around me.
"Never went anywhere" He whispered in my ear while Phoebe turned to us.
"Did I hear something about best friends?" She asked, whipping her head around.
"Yep, saying Deano's my best mate" I joke as she acts offended.
We joke around as a little trio for a few minutes like back in the old days. It was nice, I had missed our little moments.
"Sam you have a face like a smacked arse mate. What's up? Got no lasses tonight or something?" Drew questioned the boy in the corner as I stared at the table. Feeling like something had stabbed my heart at the thought of him with girls.
"I need air" I spoke suddenly, walking towards the door.
"Drew what the fuck" I heard Dean shout.
"What? They were years ago" Drew shouts back and I heard a chair scrape across the floor. I was certain it was Phoebe.
I got outside and slid down the brick wall next to the doors, feeling my heartache and breathing increase.
"Drew can be an idiot" Sam spoke as he joined me in my place.
"You should go back inside," I said, standing back up and creating distance.
"I don't always have girls Arabella. He just thought it was funny since I've been single since I met him" He spoke, standing up close to me
"It's not my business. Go back inside" I spoke bitterly, turning around.
He didn't say anything but instead stood behind me as I caught my breathing. I knew he was thinking of something, but I still knew him better than anyone.
My body kept tensing up at my thoughts and stress. I knew he could see it in my shoulders.
He stepped a step closer to my back before placing a kiss on my neck, trying to soothe me.
Do not give in Arabella. It's a trick.
Then his hand came to my arm. There it was. The familiar touch.
Ignore the feeling. It's not safe.
"Rose. Turn around please" He whispered in my ear and I was back under his spell like that.
I did as he said but did not dare to look at his face. Instead, my eyes were firmly set on the floor beneath us. Until his fingers came to my chin and he pulled my face to look at his.
I took the silence and moment between us to admire him for the first time tonight. It was an instinct of mine that I had always done in these moments between us but this one felt different. The connection felt different between us.
His face was illuminated by the street lights around and the moonlight showing the blonde in his hair. His hair was messy but that kind of messy that gave me butterflies. There was a patch of stubble on his chin, showing our age difference since the last time we stood like this. My eyes flickered over every single detail I could find. I knew what he was waiting for and what a subconscious part of me was waiting for. I knew to resist.
"I'm surprised Phoebe hasn't come out" I whispered to him.
"I told her not to. And since she never listens to me, I'm guessing Tom is doing us a favour thinking we need to talk. Then Dean will be getting protective and having a small go at everyone while also filling everyone in slightly on us if I know our lot" He whispered back, moving small bits of hair out of my face while drawing shapes on my hip bone.
"They are more your lot than mine these days" I whisper back.
"Never, you will always have a place in our group. A place everywhere. A place in my soul" He whispered, looking into my eyes again.
Right then and there, I didn't want to move. I knew I should but the feeling I had was enough for the rest of my life being stood there. I didn't give myself time to think before I did my next actions.
I moved my hand up to his neck before pulling his face down toward mine. We looked at each other before our lips connected. His soft lips moved against mine and my hand moved to his little hairs.
There it was, the feeling I had the last time. The explosion of butterflies, safety, adrenaline, and home. A different kind of feeling from what I had when we kissed back when we were sixteen. I knew what I wanted then even if I was to regret it. I just wanted one night between us to explore this new feeling. To be with him.
"Come on" He whispers as if he could read my mind.
"I have a free house" I whisper as we stop to kiss again.
We make the quick walk to my house which ends up being longer as we keep stopping to kiss. Both of us not wanting to ruin the moment.
As soon as we step into my hallway, he picks me up and kisses me making me let out a squeal and causing the man in front of me to smirk. We instantly go back into a kiss like we shared outside the Low Lights. Slow and soft but with all the tension and need.
His lips moved to my neck and jaw while I let out moans and played with his hair. Soon enough he found my sweet spot causing me to move against his hard-on that was growing making him let out a groan. Before I could even register, he was carrying me upstairs to my bedroom.
The door shut behind us as we entered he put me down and pressed me up against the wall, continuing his attack. While I moved my hand down towards his trapped cock, palming him causing him to groan against my neck.
"Jump" He groaned in my ear as he picked me up again and dropped me onto my bed.
He made his way on top of me after we had both shaken off our shoes. I straight away yanked at his top, signally for him to take it off. He pulled it over his head and my hands instantly roamed his chest while he cupped my breasts through my crop top.
I couldn't take this teasing any longer and I started grinding against him. His hands soon came to my top, ripping it off and repeating his actions with my skirt. Leaving me in my pants and bra in front of his eyes.
He stepped off the bed to take off the rest of his clothes and get a condom out of his jeans ready. That's when the reality hit me. That here I was with him once again in the most vulnerable way possible as I stripped myself of the last bits. Yet there was no fear in my body because his touch made me feel safe. Not safe in the way it will last for a day or so but that safe you know never disappears.
He looked me in the eyes and we shared a smile before I tried to cover up causing him to reach out and stop my hands.
"You're beautiful Rose" He whispered as he got back on top of me, placing kisses down my body.
He spent time on my breasts, placing kisses on my nipple while the other one was being rubbed back and forth between his thumb and finger.
My moans were echoing through the room as my head went further back into the pillow beneath my head.
"Sam" I moaned out beneath him.
"What baby?" He said, looking up at me with his ocean eyes and I could of came right then and there at the sight.
"I need you" I whispered into his eyes.
He nodded and continued his trail of kisses before placing little ones on my clit making my moans even louder. He worked his tongue over my clit before deciding to fuck me with it. His thumb worked my clit while his tongue worked my hole.
"Sam I'm getting close" I whispered as my hips jerked towards him.
"Not yet baby. Going to cum on my dick okay?" He said as I nodded in response.
He came up to my lips and kissed me once again. I could taste myself in his mouth which made this whole moment a whole lot more hotter if I'm being honest. He aligned himself with me after rolling the condom on, entering me causing us both to let out a moan.
His pace was slow at the beginning while you shared kisses before he sped up causing your nails to mark his back while he groaned into your neck repeatedly. That was a sound you wanted on repeat as it caused butterflies to erupt in your stomach.
"Nobody could make me feel like you do" He whispered in my ear as we both got closer to our highs.
"Cum when I say so," He says but I couldn't respond as you felt too weak.
He attacked my lips as his pace slowed due to nearing his high.
"Now" He whispered against my lips as you both released.
We stared at each other for a minute, contemplating what had just happened before falling next to each other. Sam put his arm out behind me for me to put your head on his chest.
"That was something else" I whispered into the room.
"It's not like that with others" He whispered.
"There's a different feeling than there was back then" I whispered, scared to bring then up.
"I know how you feel. It's like it's new but it's not" He explained in a few words but I knew what he meant.
We didn't have to say anything else, we lay in a comfortable silence before falling asleep entangled in each other's arms sharing kisses. 
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so...yeah. that happened, how are we all feeling after reading the first smut of the book. a dramatic one for sure. i actually loved writing this, like i could picture every bit of it. sorry it starts off slow. love ya x
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Hey I got a request 
So basically Sam is a single dad to a girl who is 2 years old and he was doing an interview and you was backstage with some one and all you was doing was crying and somehow you got out of there arms and run to Sam and hug him crying and everyone was like aww that so cute
Hope that make sense
Interview Tears (Request)
Sam's POV
I left my little girl, Rue with the guys backstage as I got ready for an interview with NME on recent events in my career. She hadn't stopped crying for a hour or so now but I knew the girls and guys backstage could calm her down like I did. 
"Are you sure can handle this one?" I asked for a hundred time.
"Sam we adore her, of course we can" Joe spoke as the rest of them rolled their eyes. 
"Plus we have all these girls here to help if we don't" Tom spoke as he pointed at their girlfriends and women crew members. 
"Okay okay fine" I say, pressing a little kiss to Rue's head as she slightly started to settle in Drew's arms. 
I walked into the room next door, ready to start the interview. I straight away come to face with the interviewer. 
"Hi. Nice to meet you, I'm Jamie Young" The women in front of me spoke as we shook hands. 
"Hiya, I'm Sam but you know that" I say, causing a laugh in the room. 
"Right, so how it is going to go is I will ask you questions on your music and recent events and you just have to answer. That sound okay with you?" She asked as we sat down on the seats in the room. 
"Aye of course, sounds alright" I nod as they make sure everything is ready.
My mind wandered to Rue as I wondered whether she had settled and if she was okay. I knew she was in safe hands but she had been very unsettled all day today with all the travelling. Definitely learnt the rock and roll life is not for a two year old, apparently. 
"Right here we go" She nodded as they pressed go on the recorder. 
"I'm joined here today with Sam Fender, a name that has became very apparent over the past few years. How are you Sam?" She introduced. 
"I'm doing great, thank you. Aye buzzing lately" I answered. 
Jamie went to ask me all about St James Park and supporting Bruce Springsteen before we talked about TRNSMT and upcoming festivals. 
"Aye TRNSMT was amazing like. It's one of my favourite festivals to perform at so for it to be my first headliner was even more special to me. Definitely one hell of a gig" I respond to the question about how I felt about my first headliner.
"I bet it was, looked incredible. Now I bet another incredible thing in your life is your daughter, who you are admiringly raising by yourself. We've seen her walking around behind gigs with you, what's that been like?" She asked. 
"It's been a roller-coaster for sure. It's incredible to show her all these gigs and stuff but the rock and roll life is not made for a two year old for sure. She's up and down-" I was cut off as the door opened behind us as my little girl waddled in towards me. 
"Daddy, cuddles?" Rue cried in front of me as she climbed onto my lap. 
"Of course darling, you okay?" I ask as I wipe her tears. 
"Want daddy" She mummered, snuggling into me as Joe explained she managed to wriggle out. 
"She was in Tom's arms, must have wriggled out wanting you. She kept asking for daddy cuddles" Joe explained as walked out. 
I laughed as I let her snuggle into me and settle down. 
"As I was saying, today is definitely a day where she is feeling unsettled from the travelling like. Little madam hasn't stopped crying all day. Definitely not got the rock n roll in her bones just yet. Sorry about this but looks like she is here for the interview" I joked as we finished off the interview with her on my lap, snuggling into my arm. 
"Last question. What would you say your favourite thing about having Rue on tour with you is?" She says, pointing at the girl on my lap. 
"Having daddy cuddles whenever I want. Usually before I go on and after. I just love having her around me and being able to give her things I didn't see until my twenties is just incredible so if I have to deal with days like these, I'll take it" I explain as the interview comes to a close. 
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slutforsfender · 11 months
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𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 - 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭, 𝐬𝐚𝐦 𝐟𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫
𝐀𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚
November 11th. I had completely blocked out the date until Phoebe, bless her soul, sent me a message checking on me. I never knew quite what to do on this date. Is it okay to be mad? Is it okay to cry? Is it okay to miss him? Is it okay that twelve years later the only thing that would heal today is him?
I laid in my double bed, scanning my bedroom as if it had answers. It didn't. Instead my brain decided that drifting down memory lane was the answer. I replayed memories of him and everything over until eventually I sunk into a flashback. No surprise there.
I sat down in my new favourite lesson as he asked if I was okay, also taking his seat. We couldn't stop talking like usual but something felt different. It felt off. The look in his eye that I had memorised wasn't there. It left a pit in my stomach. 
We were mid conversation as one of our mutual friends turned around, smirk on his face. 
"Are you two breaking up?" He asked. 
"No." Sam answered so quickly. 
"Well your friends have been saying things about us breaking up so are you sure?" I questioned Sam.
"Yes. I am not breaking up with you"
I gave him a questioning look. 
"I'm not I promise"
"Are you sure?" I asked, slightly joking but also trying to soothe the freaking out in my stomach. 
"I'll talk to you after lesson" Sam said, making direct eye contact with me. 
That look still wasn't there. 
"Sam if you are breaking up with me, tell me now" I say, feeling my heart slowly break. 
"Yes" He said, his face red. 
Suddenly my body crashed. The final crack in my heart made it's mark. 
"It's not you. I think you are great. I just don't know whether we work together. I don't see us having a future." Sam explains himself as I just nod. 
He lied all along.
My world was gone. I kept the tears in, focused on the table. In one moment, my whole world, heart and life was crashed. 
 As I replayed the moment, I felt the familiar tingling in my body. My heart started pounding. My breathing soon followed. My body felt alive but it was horrible. Tears pricked my eyes. Then before I knew it, I was in a full blown heart attack. 
My hands started shaking, my phone now impossible to be able to get to calm down. My vision went blurry causing them to full shut as I put my head on my knees. I was stuck with my own devices to calm me down. 
In for 4. 
Hold for 7. 
Out for 8. 
I repeated over and over, letting out shaky breaths after shaking breaths. It wasn't working. I was getting worse, now a pain in my chest.
Count from 1 to 5. 
Breathe. 
After a few sobs and shaking breaths, I felt the come down wave over me. I was back to reality. My mind and body felt drained as I threw a t-shirt over my body. Treading downstairs for sugar, knowing it's best after a panic attack like that.
I sat on our kitchen counter, eating one of those little chocolate cadbury bars. 
"Russell, we've got a gremlin in here" My granny joked as she walked into the kitchen. 
"Never let that joke go, do you Gran?" I roll my eyes. 
"Call me Gran again missus and I will hit ya" She threatened, raising the back of her hand for affect. 
I just smiled in reply, too weak at the minute. My granny took the hint that I wasn't okay and decided that playing our playlist through the Alexa would cheer me up. 
"You need to start to wear your glasses child" She commented as I scrunched my eyes. 
"Aye, I know. Don't worry" I start to say before my breath is cut short as the familiar intro played.
Dancing In The Dark.
"Alexa skip" I shouted in the room, not even having to think twice. 
Gran brushed it off, going to make a tea as I played the video in my head that I watched last night of Sam singing it. 
That one lyric cutting a line in my heart.
'You can't start a fire, sitting around crying over a broken heart'
I ran upstairs, grabbing my phone off my bedside. I clicked on the his account again, rereading that message. 
I typed and I typed just like I had done since I first saw it. A part of me hoped, the words would just appear in front of me. A part of me hoped I could call him right and pretend nothing ever happened. That he would soothe me, just like he used to.
Instead I decided spending my day by my guitar with a record playing and cigarettes in my hand was the better option. Except I had no inspiration so wasting the day away watching crap TV and pretending that right now did not exist was the option I was going with. 
I decided a late night walk would be nice since I have hardly left the house since being back home. Of course, I asked Phoebe if she wanted to join. 
Arabella: hey! feeling like exploring the places we wasted our teens, wanna join? love ya dickhead x
Phoebe: I can't tonight belle, another night? love ya too x 
I brushed it off before that panic sinked into my stomach and sent a quick reply before chucking on some clothes and shoes. I grabbed my headphones and cigarettes before going on my way.
As soon as I started walking, memories played over and I felt like that girl again. There was that feeling again that I'm not the same girl, no matter how much my accent or appearance hasn't changed.
Memories with my mum. Memories with Levi. Memories with my grandparents. Memories with Phoebe. Memories with him.
This place is like a chapter of a book. That chapter you read but don't think about even though a part of your subconscious does because it hits a little different.
The shops and pubs that essence that I missed. That Newcastle essence that will never be achieved in London. The people are so different. Here everyone knows everyone. There you are a stranger to everyone. 
I wandered down my favourite street of the whole place, even if it is his album cover now. I stopped and took it all in. The drunk and sometimes high memories. The laughter. The love. 
I want to let him go and all that pain I carry from my teens but then I look down places like this and I don't. I want to do the opposite, I want to love him all over again. 
I walked further down and noticed a figure in the darkness but ignored it, probably just someone having a late night smoke. I was correct, but not so much on the stranger aspect. 
It was him and we made that eye contact. The one I cherished and now avoid. 
"Want one?" He asked so casually, pointing the cigarette pack at my direction.
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hey guys! bit of a random update but things are coming. one more week of gcses then i promise updates after updates. so excited to start off this plot x
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slutforsfender · 10 months
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𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐯𝐞 - 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭, 𝐬𝐚𝐦 𝐟𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫
𝐒𝐚𝐦
She didn't say anything, she just took her place next to me as I passed her a cigarette.
"I expected you to run for miles when you saw me" I spoke, staring at the moon.
"I wanted to but there's a draw to you that I can't run from" She explained, with a sigh in her voice.
We didn't say anything else for a few moments, silence. Comfortable silence. Yet it was full of so much tension. Questions and words running through my mind that I would never say out loud. Words that people would scream at me for not saying.
"Life used to be so much easier when we did this as teenagers, smoking on a wall" She speaks up, tapping the ash off on the edge.
"Life always felt easy when I was with you," I say involuntarily as she laughs under her breath.
"Funny that cause you ran and ruined my life, remember?" She speaks the truth.
"Yeah I remember and now here we are at twenty-eight. Unspoken past between us that you ran from, remember?" I speak back.
"Life felt easy with you too" She suddenly says back.
We both stared at the sky, our minds going insane. Weirdly, this doesn't feel weird. That we find our ways to each other on days like these. The anniversary of our breakup. I know when she's lost and she knows when I feel alone.
"Why did you actually come home?" I ask a question that played over and over as I didn't believe her last answer.
"I told ya, I missed everyone and Pheebs wanted me back for a while. You weren't meant to be here"
"That's a reason to come home not why" I speak nonchalantly.
"Okay fine. I got a month off from writing because my depression took over which takes me to after Christmas because I get then of as well. I lost myself again, isolated myself and I wasn't doing my best writing and home is comfort. Well London is now, here was to see everyone but it is still comfort" She speaks her truth.
"I'm so sorry Arabella" I speak, guilt taking over.
"What about you? You were meant to hardly be around" She fired back.
"I avoid your grandparents so they will probably think that and I was away for a while in London so Phoebe wouldn't have seen me but I work better at home" I answer honestly.
She nods, registering my words in her brain as she leans back a little. She was yet to make eye contact with me.
I flicked my eyes over her appearance. Glasses on and messy hair. Green eyes that were a light in the dark. An oversized hoodie and leggings that suited her so well. Her brown hair which turned ginger in sunlight was shimmering. She was as gorgeous as ever. Her beauty always made me lose my breath.
Her eyes turned in my eye direction, joining mine for the first time at this moment. She look tired and like she had cried at some point but they still could light up any room. My heart fluttered like I was that teenager all over again.
Her eyes for me were always the thing that meant the most to me. The image of them losing all the light ruined me with guilt.
"I could always read your eyes till that day" She whispered, admiring my eyes.
"Your eyes were always my reassurance till that day" I replied honestly.
"I'm proud of you by the way. From the boy playing guitar in your room to me to being this singer that is living his dreams," She suddenly whispered.
Her saying those words meant more to me than anyone else saying those three words. I'm proud of you.
"Aye Says you, Miss bigshot songwriter in London. From hiding them from anyone but me to showing the whole world" I whisper back.
We were both whispering as if we were scared to break the moment and trance we were in. Like it wasn't real.
"We shouldn't be this tense with each other but so easy with each other. It doesn't make sense" She suddenly speaks, looking away as she begins to overthink the situation we were in.
"We never did make sense until we dated then after there was no sense" I spoke informatively.
She just sighed in reply as her head started spinning cogs round and round over us. My body took over my brain as I made my next move.
I reached my hand out to touch her chin and move her face in the light to face me, looking into my eyes. I traced my fingertips over her skin before making my way into her hair, playing with strands.
I slowly leaned in towards her as she shut her eyes at my touch.
"You are too tangled into my soul for we shouldn't words. If I could go back to a time before it was too late I would but we are together now. It's not too late, it never will be" I whispered.
Before placing my lips against hers. She froze for a minute as I started moving my lips before she reached her hand up to my cheek, pulling me in closer. Her lips were always so soft and melted into mine perfectly.
I wanted this for eternity. This feeling. A feeling of safety and comfort even in the chaos that we are in. A feeling of adrenaline pumping. I want us for eternity.
I would wait several more ten years just for her.
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okay so this chapter isn't quite how I thought but I still love it. oh yeah they kissed. how are we all? we freaking out cause me too. hope you love it x
@eviethetheatrefreak <3
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slutforsfender · 1 year
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𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞 - 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭, 𝐬𝐚𝐦 𝐟𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫
𝐀𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚
Me and Phoebe were currently in the middle of our lunch. It was so lovely to see her again after a year, we both hadn't stopped smiling.
"So you haven't actually told me why you are taking a month-long break you know?" Pheebs speaks up over her food.
"Surely I have," I say, knowing full well I hadn't.
"Last I know you were writing and selling your songs and then you're telling me you are going on a break but no why" She shrugs.
"Just got that I was working myself a bit too hard like you said so I took a break from it all" I explain.
"It all? Even writing?" She questions.
"Yeah, that is the main part of it" I slightly joke.
"Bella since I met you you haven't stopped writing. You're always making notes in your mind, phone, notebooks, or on anything you can find at the time" She says with a deadpan look.
"Pheebs drop it. It's just a month" I say and before she can even reply we hear someone saying my name.
I look up to be met with the eyes of his mother's eyes.
"Arabella," she says, coming over to the table.
"Shirley," I say, giving a small smile hiding my shock.
"Oh come here give me a hug, I haven't seen you in years darlin," She says as I step up from the table to greet her open arms.
"Yeah. It's lovely to see you. Sit down for a moment" I say, playing it off.
"Oh Phoebe I hadn't even noticed you pet," She says, placing a hand on Phoebe's hand.
"It's quite alright Shirl" Phoebe replies, laughing it off.
"Now Arabella how come your back in town? We all thought you left your Newcastle ways behind you" Shirley asks.
"I got a break from work and I thought I'd pay my grandparents a visit back here and come back to my Newcastle ways" I laugh.
"Oh, it's so lovely to see you. It's been too long. Now I've got to get going got two hungry boys back home. We'll have to catch up over a cuppa soon pet" She says, tapping my leg before getting up to leave.
Me and Phoebe say a quick goodbye before I realise her words. Two boys. He's here as well. We are both in the same place at the same time after ten years.
"How ya feeling Bella," Phoebe asks as she stacks our plates together.
I down the glass of wine next to me in reply.
"I'm guessing you noticed the 'two boys'" She says.
"Yep. Ten years really isn't enough. Anyway flower shopping time" I say, grabbing my things and going over to the counter to pay for my things.
I zone out as I swipe my card.
I look up as I put my last bag in the boot of my car, seeing him approaching the car. His messy blonde hair. His outfit was his typical white top, black jeans, messy adidas, and of course that damned flannel shirt.
"What are you doing here?" I say, slamming the boot door.
"So you're leaving Shields I hear" His voice speaks over my shoulder as I approach my car door.
"Aye got a writing offer in London. Gotta take the chances you get right? That's what you said to me" I say, replaying his words in my head.
"Running away doesn't fix things you know" He whispers, in the dark night.
I turn around to face him, the moon somehow illuminating his face perfectly.
"No but not having the possibility of seeing you every day does. Not being the same sixteen-year-old who cried her eyes out over you breaking my heart. Not having to hear about all your new flings, relationships or crushes fixes it all" I say, always being honest with him before going to grab the handle of the car door.
"Rose I never stopped loving you," He says from behind me as I open the door.
I wince at his nickname for me and his words. I choose to ignore them and get in the car. I put the keys in the car and start to reverse.
I look up and see his memorising blue eyes watching me driving away.
I silently hope that I never see him or this town again for a long time.
I'm brought back to reality as I see us approaching the flower shop.
"And she's back again. You okay Bella?" She asks, linking arms with me.
"Yeah just reminiscing on the years we did this every day," I say, looking at the flowers and smelling them.
𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭
I decided to post a picture on instagram of my day with Phoebe after being quiet for so long. 
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Wait liked by who? My eyes must be playing tricks on me. I click on the likes to see a matter of fact it was him that had liked the post. But I knew better than to look through his account, instead I threw my phone to the bottom of the bed.
Suddenly I was that fifteen-year-old girl again who had that rush because he'd liked her post.
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happy new year my loves! here's a little (late) christmas and new year gift from me. I'm so excited to share more of this book with you this year. love you all - ash x
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slutforsfender · 4 months
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new chapter? you want?
enjoy its up!
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slutforsfender · 10 months
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you guys are not ready for chapter fifteen guys. prepare yourselves.
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