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Weight update!:

SW: 45 kg

CW: 43.1 kg

GW: 35 kg

8 kgs to go!

#ana0rex1a #cute #coquette #mental health #lana del rey #skinandbones #butterfly #ed not ed sheeran

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Now that I think about it, I guess I am slowly recovering. Or at least I think so.

Sure, go on Michelle, keep lying to everybody around you that you're better, and you totally don't feel that gut-wrenching guilt after you have the smallest bite of your favourite burger you used to eat anytime you were at McDonald's anymore.

I wonder if it actually ever gets better, or is everyone lying on tiktok, youtube or instagram. I wonder if those "recovery" accounts just lie about their WIADs, and maybe purge in the bathroom after taking photos of their delicious meals.

You can take the girl out of her ED, not the ED out of the girl.

#ed not ed sheeran #lolit4 #buffalo 66 #girl interrupted #calories

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Cześć, tu twoja przyjaciółka Ana. Mam do ciebie szybkie pytanie. Czemu swoje limity kaloryczne traktujesz jak cel?

13.02.2024

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maybe if i wasn't such a controlling slut she'd still be mine

#lana del rey #coqeutte #coquette #relatable #controlling

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Anne Carson, Plainwater: Essays and Poetry

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What if Lily never stole Thomas from Nina? Would she still be alive?

#black swan #ballet #nina sayers #natalie portman #the swan lake

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thinking of esther and the fig tree poem from the bell jar

#the bell jar #dried figs #sylvia plath

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real

i always feel like the fattest in the room, doesn’t matter what size i am

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Fleas

Everyone keeps ranting on how exhausted and hurt they are. And yes, for some reason, I do too. Even though I don't think that I deserve any sort of pity from anyone.

I'm not a good person. I'm insensitive, arrogant, and as my mother says, without an ounce of empathy, which I absolutely agree with. I'm a flea ridden mutt. I seek for comfort everywhere and in everyone, I seek for a warm place to stay in. And when I do get it, I don't want it anymore. I reject it with a strong, painful bite of my yellow and sharp teeth. Even though maybe a piece of my fang, or wisdom tooth, crushes, stays in my prey's skin. It's as painful as the bite itself, which infuriates me even more.

Anything I've touched with my thin, dirty paw, with my long, uncut claws - has marks on it. Long, repulsing, deep marks. I do not bring any good into this world.

#lana del rey #fleas #poetry #coquette #cute #mecore #mads mikkelsen #silly #ultraviolet #hell is a teenage girl

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can’t stop thinking of big and greedy