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I've read your skz 9th member fics and it was so damn gooooodd and I'm thirsty for more so I wanna ask if you have any recommendation for similar fics like that, could be here in Tumblr or wattpad or any other reading platform. Just please not xfem!reader cuz I find it weird. It's ok if you can't think of any, other skz fffs will do. Thank you and have a lovely day/night <33

Here's the thing, I really wanted to do a recommendations master list but I know some authors aren't really cool with that. I just, I don't know I'm really bad at remembering what I read or what I like and I forget to save them 😔 but if I do find anything 9th member I'll send it your way.

It's honestly really hard to find 9th member content that's not fem!reader and I understand why most of it is always leaning to a gender but idk man, I don't feel super comfortable with it either. So for you anon, I will try to write more 9th member because I like writing it as well :]

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Awwwww you replied to my question, I can die happy 😊

I noticed you weren't really happy with your writing, especially with r&r second part, but believe me, it was astonishing! You moved the strings of my emotions so beautifully. When you read something and can feel the raw emotions of it, you know you did a good you. AND YOU FREAKING DID IT.

I know for sure you'll remain my favorite writer, I'm here to stay.

Take care of you, beautiful soul. You deserve all of the kind and encouraging words in the ENTIRE world.

From today, I'll sign myself with 🐶 since my friends all told me I resemble a puppy 🤣

Lots of love dear. ❤️❤️

AAAA YOU'RE THE BEST 😔

I am so happy to hear these things in such a rough time. It honestly made me more confident in the ending even when I couldn't see that it worked out and now I'm really happy with it because of all the positive feedback.

Thank you darling, you really are one in a million and I hope I hear from you soon 😔❤️

Consider me your stan now 🫡

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I've been having some bad days and I still haven't healed that's why I haven't uploaded since r&r but I'll try writing something today or tomorrow if I can. I have a couple of ideas and a lot of requests that I need to get into but thank you for understanding and being patient with me always ❤️

I just wish I could do like before where I wrote every day but I'm just too in my head rn and still physically unwell.

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my duty as a citizen is done, i watched oppenheimer and barbie:)

talked about it with my friends and told them that i basically couldn't stop looking at oppenheimer with wide eyes bc i just love historical films and cinematography is like my weak point, it was just so good.

and then barbie had me laughing like an idiot but also feeling so SAD and i was like DUDE come on. you can't make me feel things like this in this movie pleaseeee !!!

but overall i'm a sucker for both movies, god bless! if you can go watch both of them, do it rn.

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Hi :)

I'm a new follower, and I think I found my favorite writer! The way you describe the emotions and the situations is so heavenly perfect? I mean, it's like I can feel them in my bones and soul, crushing my mind every single time.

Your last piece was perfect because it was beyond realistic! I "hate" (I don't hate anything in my life, but right now, I can't think of proper words to describe my thoughts) when they mess up and the reader forgives them soooo easily. You took a slice of reality and modeled into perfection. Soooo thank you so so so much. I'm ready to cheer you and your works up every single day! Lots of love. ❤️

P.s. sorry for my English, it's not my first language :/

BABE FIRST OF ALL YOUR ENGLISH IS BETTER THAN MINE, NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE.

i never thought that anyone would consider me their favorite writer at all, this is a huge honor to me especially in a time where i've been doubting my skills and everything. thank you so much for the love and your words are just so beautiful, the way you said it all brought tears to my eyes.

i really thought that the second part of r&r was bad but a lot of people have told me that the realism and the fact that i didn't sugarcoat it, made it more special. i never liked it when they're forgiven so easily either, i made that mistake too in some of my older work. but now i'm realizing that it's good just like that and that i should be happy about it. thank you for everything really, aaaa this a long rant but i needed to hear these things and i hope i continue to be your favorite writer with time<3

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Can I just say your angst gave me actual heartburn from how much it hurt. But boy was it a good fucking hurt

oh my god, thank you so much:')

i live to write angst for my followers and the fact that it actually stings, that's the biggest compliment. obviously don't like hurting people's feelings but angst just hits where it hurts (no pun intended).

idk sometimes all you need is something that makes you cry!

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hermane me tienes en el suelo con regrets & replacements, nunca te voy a terminar de agradecer tal servicio a la sociedad ❤️

KJASHFJKA me muero...

creo que r&r es uno de los fics con el que mas agradecido voy a estar. no creo que sea lo mejor que escribi o mi favorito pero el amor que recibio es todo lo que necesitaba para levantarme denuevo.

gracias bb<3

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i'm going to the cinema right now and i'm seeing the invasion from the lolla paris photos, that fucking clip of chan is haunting me i will die actually. the levels of delulu i'm reaching right now are unhealthy, goodnight everyone.

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ohhh myyyyy goshhhh i love ur writing smmmm~ the regrets and replacements one is sooo good and i srsly hate soohee sm (proof that ur a good writer btw!!) i know u said rqs are closed but i’ll still cross my fingers for a part two (happy ending) >.<

i published the maknae line just now! and the hyung line two days ago i think?

but thank you babe! i'm truly happy you liked it:) it's one of my favorite scenarios i've written. hope you like part two:)))

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i’m being honest, the way you wrote that part 2 was perfect. it was realistic and still beautifully written i just loved it so much, don’t be sad about it! you did an amazing job

i feel like i did my best but at the same it wasn't enough so i'm just like in limbo about it. thank you so much though, i'm truly thankful for these types of comments, they make me feel better when i'm down and i really need them sometimes<3

i'm just really emotional right now lmao:(

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☆ regrets & replacements ☆ (2)

♡ genre ¿? ♡ -> angst with a hopeful ending ♡ pair ¿? ♡ -> maknae line!skz x gn!reader ♡ plot ¿? ♡ -> it's not about making up, it's about owning up to your mistakes. ♡ warnings ¿? ♡ -> swearing ♡ request ¿? ♡ -> yes!

a/n -> like i said in the hyung line ending this ain't a happy or a sad ending, this is more of a mix of both and i would say it's more neutral. i really feel like i didn't nail it but i'm gonna publish it anyways because i don't know if i can write it any other way. thank you for following this scenario! it means a lot to me the love that this one got in particular.

first part -> maknae line

jisung ✉

as you got home you were faced with a lot of doubt in your mind. why didn't you tell him that it was your birthday? why didn't he remember? were you just that forgettable? did he just care more about soohee than you? was it always going to be like this? it hurt, it really did. i mean you knew jisung had a tendency to forget everything but it felt like that didn't happen when it came to soohee.

minho was blowing up your phone but you couldn't seem to pick it up. you weren't ready to talk about anything at the moment, you just wanted to cry and that you did. it was as if the tears wouldn't stop falling from your eyes as you thought that maybe this would be the end. you just never seemed to be the priority and when you saw the door opening you weren't surprised but still felt like wanting to be alone.

"baby, baby, baby! i'm so fucking sorry. i cancelled everything that i was gonna do and i'm here now." jisung rambled as he was going around your apartment but you didn't move. you couldn't look at him because you weren't sure of what to say and you felt like you couldn't talk without breaking down and crying in front of him. jisung noticed and felt like crying himself as he took in everything. "(y/n) i'll make it right, i know i was an idiot and forgot but i need another chance."

"it's not about forgetting sung." you said which caught him off guard. this was more serious wasn't it? he was in deep trouble, he could sense it and it was scaring the living hell out of him. "you put her first again, you always do this. i just wanna feel like your partner but i sometimes feel as if she was dating you and not me."

"don't fucking say that. i only want you and she's just a friend, well was a friend because i don't want her in my life if she doesn't like you." he explained and you never wanted this. even if it hurt that she didn't like you, you never wanted to be the type of significant other that would dictate who your boyfriend could and couldn't hang out with. "i care about you, it's only you i want at the end of the day."

"i think i need some time, baby. we're not over but i just don't know how to feel right now." you said and he nodded as he heard your words. he wanted for you to be okay and that was his priority right now, nothing else. 

"can i at least take you out for your birthday? i know minho planned something." he said as he removed the tears from your cheeks. you gave him a little smile because he was about to cry at any moment too and couldn't resist hugging him. "i'm such a cry baby when it comes to you."

"i know, i love you like this though." you mumbled and let him sob in your arms for a while as you held him. you knew in the end though that things would be okay if you worked them out together.

felix ✉

looking at the clock in the kitchen was the way you were spending your time. your birthday was almost over and there was still no felix in sight. you sighed to yourself, there were no more tears to fall, it was just you and your numbness against the world. you didn't go out and celebrate, you didn't buy a cake or a present to yourself because there was no point if you felt completely destroyed.

to others it might seem a little too much but to you it was a big deal. you wanted to talk to someone about how you felt and how it was taking a toll on you mentally but when you looked at your phone and saw that background of felix smiling and holding you close, you had to shut it off again.

"(y/n)? can you please open the door? i forgot the key." his voice said through the other side and this was beyond what you wanted. you couldn't have this conversation right now but you knew you would have to because you couldn't avoid it forever. you opened the door to be met by a very distraught looking felix, his hair was messy and he was panting like he ran a marathon all the way to your house. his eyes were glassy as he looked at you and you just let him in.

"lix i would never ask this in other circumstances but why are you here?" you asked in a low tone and it hurt felix so much to see you this way. his usually bright and sparkled eyed partner was looking down and not being able to hold their gaze to meet him. your voice sounded broken like you've been crying for hours and it was all his fault. he wouldn't blame you if you didn't forgive him this time.

"i-i had to see you. i know how much i fucked up this time and i know how you feel about her, how you've always felt and i took it for granted." he said and the more you heard the more it hurt. "but i care way more about having you than maintaining a toxic friendship with someone who didn't respect my partner and i know it might be too late, i'm sorry (y/n). not only did i miss your birthday, i missed getting to see you smile, i missed getting you the presents, i missed going out with you and the people who actually care about me and i'm so deeply sorry."

it was as if he was losing himself as he spoke, you couldn't stand seeing that. it was going to be hard getting through this and being able to be okay with felix again. this was not about getting a present or remembering a date on a calendar, it was about trust and you knew that even after all, you trusted felix with your whole life.

"lix i love you, i really do. i feel like it's all too much right now and i just wanna go to sleep but i would love to try again tomorrow. maybe take me out and we can talk?" you offered as you got close to him, grabbing his cold hands and seeing him nod. "slow steps for now baby but i know we'll get through it."

"slow steps." he repeated and looked at you, finally eye to eye. he gave you a warm smile that you adored so much and then leaned in to kiss your cheek. it never failed to make you smile as well and that's all you needed as the clock struck midnight.

seungmin ✉

waking up all alone today felt dreadful. the excitement from yesterday was all gone when you remembered how you decided to spend your birthday and as you checked your phone and there was still no sign from seungmin, you gave up. you were going to try to continue with your day and not think about your boyfriend, soohee or anything negative that could ruin your mood immediately. but when you looked at your phone again, you had almost a spam level of messages from jeongin telling you to come over.

you knew what this was about (or you hoped). a certain part of you wanted to stay away from the dorms and not think about seeing seungmin but the other part that was louder knew you had to go and give him a chance to speak. you put on your shoes and grabbed your things to head to the dorms as you thought of the conversation you were about to have with your boyfriend.

he was waiting impatiently for you to arrive and when you did, jeongin opened the door and greeted you with a hug. it broke his heart when you didn't greet him the same way or with a kiss but he knew he deserved it after all that happened yesterday. you were both standing there, waiting for the other to speak and it was really heavy on his chest the fact that it didn't feel natural like it always has.

"okay why did you make me come here? even though you didn't text, it was jeongin who did." you said breaking the silence and he felt like a coward, everything was building itself up to be the last time you two ever meet didn't it? it was killing him. he couldn't lose you, no he wouldn't lose you.

"i knew that if i texted you, you would've ignored me. that's what i felt was going to happen." he explained and he was kind of right but you still wanted him to tell you something, hearing nothing from him made you doubt everything even more. "i feel like the biggest idiot on the planet right now. not only i didn't spend your birthday with you, i just simply disappeared and i couldn't even send a message."

"well i'm glad you're realizing this now but i just wanna know seungmin if you care about this relationship. i know it might sound like i'm exaggerating but i feel so hurt by what happened that it makes me just doubt everything. i want to be with you but do you want to be with me?" you asked and seungmin wasn't one to cry at all but this ticked all the boxes to making him feel like the worst boyfriend ever. 

"i want to be with you forever (y/n). there's no one else for me and i know you're asking because of soohee. she doesn't mean anything to me like that and if you want me to cut off ties with her, i will." he said confidently even if he felt the tears building up which he wiped them away immediately. you had never seen him cry and he didn't want to look weak or like he didn't mean the things he was saying in front of you. this image of seungmin showing his emotions was new to you but it felt real and honest.

"i don't want you to do anything because i told you to or you feel like it would make me feel better, you know? i just want you to be happy minnie. i was devastated with what happened yesterday and i can't say that forgiving you is gonna be easy." you explained and he felt a sob coming through because you were just so fucking caring and he couldn't even process why you were giving him a second chance. he caught the distance by hugging you because he couldn't take the coldness anymore, he wanted to feel you close and as you held him, you knew you couldn't be far away from him either.

"i know today is not your birthday but i'll make you remember everything about this day like it was if you let me baby." he muttered in your arms and you didn't have to say anything because you trusted his word. you weren't even thinking about your birthday, just how you and him fit like puzzle pieces when you held each other like that.

jeongin ✉

as you got home, you dropped all your things on your couch and noticed immediately that jeongin's things were already there. so you weren't gonna be able to avoid him after all you thought because right now all you wanted was to go to sleep and absolutely forget about everything that you went through tonight. just thinking about the fact that your boyfriend was with someone else when he planned the reservation and also the fact that she picked up his phone for him was unforgivable.

you could hear the key at the door and then faced that way to see your boyfriend standing there with so many things that your first instinct was to help him out. you hated yourself for being so nice sometimes but it was impossible not to be kind to jeongin even if he was on thin ice right now. he looked at you and could see the mad expression you were giving him, of course he deserved it.

"(y/n)? you probably hate to see me here but we need to talk." he said and you didn't respond because you felt like crying all over again just seeing him there. you put the cake that he bought in the kitchen and the presents on the coffee table, not even glancing at them because you couldn't care less about rushed last minute gifts that went no thought into them. "please, i know you hate me right now but i can't stand us being distant to each other and not hearing your voice."

"jeongin." you said and it went through him like a knife because he wasn't used to his full name. he looked at you and saw the tears that he feared so much, he promised you so many times he wouldn't be the cause of them and here you were. "i don't even know what to say. you forgot yeah, i can't get past that and i wouldn't be so mad if you weren't hanging out with someone who hates me in every way and you let her pick up your phone! it just feels like she's more your partner than i am sometimes."

"no, not at all. i won't ever be with her and i don't want to be with her." he said looking at you and getting closer, you didn't take a step back because even if you were fuming you just wanted to be held by him. "you're the only one for me and that won't ever change even if tonight i let you down, even if you make me leave right now, i won't want anyone that's not you." 

"you just made me feel so humiliated there all alone." you said and he nodded trying to not make the mental image of you waiting for him in the restaurant but he failed to because that's all he could think about when he was coming to your apartment. "i don't know if we'll able to fix this."

"i want you. scratch that, i need you (y/n)." he begged and you knew that you needed him too. his tears were falling softly but you wiped them off because seeing him upset was a sight that drove you insane. it was a mix of emotions for you and for him right now, a roller coaster that didn't stop. he couldn't stop looking at you, he needed a sign that this could be fixed and that you would be alright but he couldn't find any.

"give me some time to think yeah? i promise nothing bad is gonna happen and i just need it to process everything." you said and it was finally settled. he was desperate to make this right again and he would but he needed to respect your decision and that's what he would do.

"can i kiss you?" he asked and you were hesitant but still nodded. his hand on your cheek as he leaned in closer to seal the end of the day with a little kiss, nothing too passionate but it was just right for that moment as he pulled away. you looked at him and hoped everything would turn out right in the end but with jeongin holding you, there were no more doubts in your mind.

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necesito saber tu canción favorita de wos pero YA 😮‍💨💖

JAJSJSJ QUE DIFICIL AAAAA

tengo varias honestamente pero creo que serían fresco, luz delito, mira mama, andromeda y purpura. ese es mi top 5 si o si

honorable mentions va para que se mejoren, cambiando la piel, no va a bajar, okupa y obviamente canguro

Y BUENO ARRANCARMELO TAMBIÉN PERO ME HACE MIERDA ESE TEMA

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Let me tell you something. I hate with a burning passion whenever somebody describes writing as delicious, but I just want you to know that your writing is so beautiful that I just want to take a bite out of it and shake it around aggressively as if I’m trying to murder it. Like that one meme, where the persons on all fours aggressively, shaking a mini person and their teeth.

I KNOW THAT MEME, GOOD LORD I USED IT FOR EVERYTHING.

i'm kinda losing my mind at this, i can't stop laughing at this ask anon and i was having a really shitty day and this made it better. also describing writing as delicious is awful, i see it a lot for smut and i'm like "nope".

BUT THANK YOU, I'M GLAD IT MAKES YOU FEEL THINGS<3

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sir im a fan! just finished your part 2 and it’s amazing!! im lovin it🫡🫡🫡 is there any part 2 for maknae line?? anyway get well soon

THANK GOD BECAUSE I WAS SO UPSET WITH THAT ENDING LMAO, not because i wanted it to be happier or sadder but because i just didn't like how i wrote it.

thank you so much darling and yes there will be a second part for the maknae line<3

ALSO THANK YOU, i hope i get better soon because it's been so long since i had this sore throat and i'm losing my mind.

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omg i looove regrets & replacements 😭😭 tbh im 50/50 with the ending because no. 1 they got a second chance yay! and no. 2 my anger issues could never istg if i ever meet soohee i will destroy this btch-

sincerely, brainrot anon

i love you brainrot anon, you're my dearest and i must protect you and your anger issues.

no but fr a lot of people have told me that they wouldn't forgive them so easily so i kinda made a 50/50 thing. i'm glad we all agree that soohee needs to disappear though, good riddance!

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Can we get a part two maybe to the regrets and replacement where we don’t forgive them

i mean i def didn't make them forgive them right away on the second part but idk if i can write one that's full on angsty.

i'm happy with this ending as it is!

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Sir do you mayhaps have a tag list or are you planning of having one?

I love your work, I love a good angst which is not easy to find and you know just how to break my heart 💔 I still need to go through all of your masterlist, the fluffy ones too but I'm already sure they are as equally amazing ❤️

thank you very much for the lovely comments<3 i really enjoy writing angst and i'm happy people find joy in me breaking their heart LMAO

i'm not sure about having a taglist yet but i'll see what i can do!

some of my imagines aren't that amazing so skip em SAKJHFJKA

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