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Let It Go (Joel Miller x Fem!Reader)

Summary: Joel Miller thinks everything he has died on September 26, 2003. But when Marlene asks him to smuggle Ellie to the State House, it brings someone from his past. Pieces of his past that he thinks are already gone, the reason he has nightmares every night. When he looked at her for the first time in 20 years, she was different from someone he knew back then. She was not someone he used to know or, always memorized in his mind to keep him sane in this world.

Author Note: English is not my first Language, sorry for the grammar mistake. I hope you guys like it. If you want to be tagged, just let me know in the comments. I can't reply to any of your comments because it's a side blog. But I am really thankful for your comments and responses.

Prologue

No one told Joel Miller in his life as a smuggler, he had to smuggle some kid that is associated with something he despise so much.

FIREFLY

He hates them. They turned his own brother, making his brother live in danger, always getting on the line to get killed by FEDRA because of their way to get the "Freedom" they always shout every day just to get into gun war with FEDRA.

Their fantasy about making the world a better place managed to get inside his brother's head. As far as he knows, Tommy Miller, his brother will jump into action when it comes to humanity. Just like when he listed himself to the Army, but in the end, he has to fix the damage of the war that affects his brother. For Joel Miller, there's no worth in saving this world anymore. It's already broken, and it can't be saved. The human, the infected, the government, they are all the same. "Firefly is a bunch of delusional freaks" that is what he likes to call them.

But, as he thought, luck was never in his favor. The truck battery he's gonna use to find Tommy got stolen. When he and his partner try to find the battery, he gets a clue where the battery will gonna sold. Firefly of Boston. And, here he is, face to face. with Firefly leader, Marleen, he has to make a deal with her, because it is just her that has stock for cars and batteries.

Here he is now, having a deal with Marleen to smuggle some girl.

Since Tommy joined Firefly, they always have had arguments. Before that, they argued, but never often. When he joined Firefly, Joel and Tommy always argued. Tommy accuses Joel of being selfish and doesn't have a heart when Joel tries to stop Tommy join them. After that, he and his brother never got along.

For Tommy, this world can be saved, there's a way to save this world and the people in it. It is worth saving this World. But for Joel, saving this world is not worthy, is already broken, and it always gonna be. What's the point of saving it, if his world is already burned and broken because of this outbreak.

But Tommy is the only family he has left in this world.

If it was not for Tommy, he wouldn't take this job. But, he knows, Firefly stuff means repurposed of FEDRA stuff. So it's better than some shitty batteries they'll get outside. And he doesn't have any battery right now because of Robert, the scum that stole his battery.

He relieved that scum is dead.

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Joel let out a sigh and plopped himself to lie down on the couch while this kid, Ellie, if he heard right what Marlene called her, rambling about radio and 80s songs. He has to babysit while Tess talks to Marlene about the deal.

"What're you doing?" Ellie asks him, seeing him close his eyes with one hand resting on his forehead and the other on his chest.

"Killin time," Joel mumbled with closed eyes.

"Well, what am I supposed to do?" She asked and looked at him, annoyed.

"I'm sure you'll figure that out." He gruffs out. Ellie rolled her eyes and shifted her eyes at the table beside her. Try to find something to 'killin' her time'. She took the Billboard hits songbook that Joel had taken from her before.

"Your watch is broken." Ellie walked past him to the couch in the corner beside the window. Joel ignores her because he knows his watch will never get fixed, the same as himself.

Joel starts drifting to sleep. To the nightmares, he knows he'll always gonna get. And when he woke up, he's gonna have this hollow feeling in his heart. Everyday.

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"You mumble in your sleep." Ellie's voice is the first thing Joel heard after the screaming sound in his head is gone when the fire started. He opened his eyes and saw Ellie staring out of the window. Her elbow rested on the window sill with her fist on her jaw supporting her head.

Joel gets up from his position. His back is aching sleeping on the couch. Being half of a century, meaning everything he does will affect his body immediately. Including sleeping on a hard couch.

"I've never been on the other side of the Wall. Look how dark it is. You guys go out there a lot?" Ellie shifted her gaze to him.

"I guess." He grumbles, trying to find the right position to sit comfortably.

"When was the last time?" She asked curiously.

"Maybe a year. What's it matter?" Joel is already feeling impatient. This kid asks a lot of questions., he mumbles in his mind. He doesn't like to talk about the past.

"But you know where to go. So we're gonna be okay." Joel is a bit taken aback by this. Because there's no okay outside of that wall. Hell, he doesn't even know if he's gonna okay every time they go out smuggling. Because something and someone is gonna be waiting for them, ready to change their fate immediately if they ever cross paths.

"Yeah." But Joel answered it with what she wanted to hear.

Joel shifted in his seat and leaned to rest his back on the back of the couch. One arm spread open.

"So, what's the deal with you anyway? You some kinda bigwig's daughter or somethin'?" Joel asked Ellie, trying to know her better. Ellie, back to watch outside from the window. She saw how the sky became darker, and the moon and stars started to be blanketed by grey clouds.

"Something like that." Ellie shrugs. There's a long silence between them. Ellie then breaks the silence with something she has in her mind when Joel is asleep.

"Oh, the radio came on when you were sleeping." She said, still looking outside the window

"What? What was the song?" Joel leaned forward to hear better what she's gonna say. He was ready to jump into action.

"He kept saying', like, like, 'Wake me up before you go-go'? " Ellie tried to suppress the smirk on her face seeing Joel's concerned look.

"Shit." Joel let out a breath he was holding. Something happening with them. He and Tess have to get to them and check on them. Last time, they sent the code, when they almost got raided by the raiders, and Bill got shot and had to stay in bed for a week because he lost so much blood.

"Gotcha. The '80s mean trouble. Code broken." Ellie let out the smirk she was holding. Okay, he has enough, Joel rises to his feet

"Listen..." Before he can finish his sentence, Tess walks in. Ellie gave Joel a smug looked. Tess stepped into the house and took off her bag.

"The spot under Lancaster looks good." She nodded at Joel and then shifted her attention to Ellie.

"You got a jacket in your pack?" She nodded towards Ellie.

"Yeah." Ellie nodded her head

"Okay, get it. It's time to go." Ellie then rose to her feet and opened her bag to pull out her jacket.

"Oh, and Marlene wants her to come with us." Tess looked behind her, but no one was there. It makes all of them stop in their tracks.

Joel places his hands on his hips. "Who she wants us to smuggler again?" Joel asked Tess, annoyed, but she was already opening the door to talk to someone behind it.

"What're you doing?" Tess voice echoed in the hallway and transferred through the open door to their ears.

"I'm tying my boots." The voice. Joel and Ellie froze at their feet because of this voice. But they have different reactions, Joel's reaction is more like disbelief, shock, and astounded. The hands on his hips lower slightly to his sides.

Ellie is the opposite of Joel's reactions, she's happy hearing this voice. Because she knows damn well who that was. A smile slowly creeps on her face.

"Well, hurry up, don't waste the time. Is gonna rain soon" Tess walked inside the apartment and started gathering the supply they'll need.

The echo of heavy boots hitting the wooden floor filled their hearing. Every step it produces makes oxygen in Joel's lungs begin to dilute. His heart rate is jumping so fast, He thinks he's gonna have a heart attack. And when the owner of the Footsteps stood in the door with a shotgun strapped to her shoulder, he let out a squeak. His breath in his throat got stuck there. Suddenly, He's back again on that dreadful night, twenty years ago, on September 26, 2003. The reason he started to drown himself in pills and cheap whiskey. Hoping that two things just take him to them.

She stood there, Lock eyes with him. But their expression is not match. She looked at him with no expression printed on her face. Like she prepares for this. Then she shifted her gaze to Ellie, who was grinning so wide seeing her in there.

"(Y/N)!!" Ellie ran to her and bump into Joel in the process, almost knocking Joel to the ground. His knees are suddenly so weak if it's not Tess wraps her hands around his bicep to steady him. Joel doesn't even realize when was Tess beside him, shaking his arm to make him snap from his staring. But he can't move, he is still frozen, and he can't shift his gaze.

All Joel does is stare at this woman in front of her. Where Ellie, their cargo, gave her tight hugs. Her face was buried in her chest.

There, they stood in Joel and Tess's Apartment, with a few feet between them. (Y/N) hand in Ellie's shoulder while Ellie wrapped her arms in (Y/N) midsection in a tight embrace. Joel stood on the other side, with Tess by his side, placing her hands on Joel's biceps. No words got exchanged, just looked.

One was disbelief, hope, and relief seeing her standing and breathing in front of him. He want to run and engulfed her in his arms. To feel that she was real but the looked in her eyes. Stopped Joel.

The other looked at him with different eyes. They're not the same eyes as he remembers. When there's love in them every time he looks, They're not the same warm eyes that like watching him sleep. Whenever he woke up, the first thing he saw was those eyes, that warm, kind, and loving eyes, and the warm smile she always gave him to start his day. But, in front of him, It's like he looked at someone else. No expression, just cold eyes that looked at him like they were just some distant folks.

#joel miller x reader #joel miller #joel miller x female reader #joel miller x fem!reader #the last of us #the last of us tv series #the last of us spoilers #ellie williams #x reader

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suck4angststory · 1 year

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Hey, it's been a while.

I miss you guys :")

You're all probably wondering where I am. I mean, life happens, and I have something to do. And I got work in another that'll make me have to find apartment and moving my stuff from my parents house. But now I'm back with a new obsession, hehe.

For my older fics and series? I'll try to finish them. It's all on my phone, but my phone got broken in December, making my whole Wip i write is gone :").

That makes me lose my motivation to write. All of them are gone, I always write every day but never got a chance to edit them. But now I try to regain may motivation to write again. So, I hope you are still interested in this blog

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Top Gun: Maverick Masterlist

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Put Little Love on Me

Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw X Fem!Floyd!Reader| Robert "Bob" Floyd X Sister!Reader

Ambrosia

Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw X Fem!Reader| Nicholas "Goose" Bradshaw X Fem!Reader (past)

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Pairing: Pete "Maverick" Mitchell X Fem!Reader (eventually) | Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw X Fem!Reader

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Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw X Fem!Seresin!Reader | Jacob "Hangman" Seresin X Sister!Reader

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Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw X Fem!Reader

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Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw

Visiting Hours

{Bradley 'Rooster' Bradshaw visit his wife to celebrates their five anniversary}

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Just a week

{(Y/N) just want to spend a week with Bradley before his departure to Top Gun.}

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This Town

{Bradley Bradshaw reminiscing his past relationships on his way to the Hard Deck. When he step into the Hard Deck, he met with someone he'd been thinking about.}

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Once Again

{Maverick once again have to face his biggest fears.}

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Where Is My Daddy

{Bradley have to shave his moustache, this is how he's children reacted.}

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Nightly Routine

{Bradley try a nightly skincare routine you always doing And it leads to some nightly chat about your work.}

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Flight 435

{Bradley got surprised on his forty years old birthday}

Pete "Maverick" Mitchell

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Once Again:

Maverick x Daughter!Reader {Maverick once again have to face his biggest fears.}

Reverse Place

{Goose can't be Maverick RIO for the day, so (YN) have to replace him. Who knows what happened next?}

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You Never Like Every Man I'm Dating

{you're dating Maverick, as an Admiral Daughter, your dad doesn't like you dating any Navy Men, especially Maverick. He tries to separate you in many ways, but is he gonna give up this time?}

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I Still Don't Like Him

{This is the next part of your journey with Maverick after you got deployed to the middle of the Ocean and he became a Top Gun Instructor for a special detachment.}

Jacob "Hangman" Seresin

Coming Soon....

Robert "Bob" Floyd

Just a week

{(Y/N) just want to spend a week with Bradley before his departure to Top Gun.}

#top gun maverick #bradley rooster bradshaw #masterlist #pete maverick mitchell x reader #jack hangman seresin #jack seresin #bob floyd

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Hey y'all I comeback with another story again. Sorry for gone so long😫

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Something in The Rain

Bradley 'Rooster' Bradshaw x Fem!Seresin!Reader!

Author Note: English is not my first language. this story inspired by series with the same name. Is on Netflix by the way, you guys should watch them!! One of the many series i always watched more than two times!

(Y/N) Seresin is in her late 30's that has never got lucky in dating someone. Every time she's dating, she'll ends up getting dumped. She's been dumped by many times because of her clumsy, reckless, and foolish behaviour. She never gets a chance to get to know how it feels to date a real man. This time, she got dumped by a man she would think that's gonna marry her. The reason she got dumped is that he thinks she was bland and not attractive like most women are. (Y/N) devastated after getting dumped by a man she's thinks was her end game.

But then, Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw, her younger brother's best friend, Jake Seresin, appears next to her with a broad smile on his face.

She met Bradley first time when she visit Jake in Maryland after Jake started his Naval academy, he was Jake roommate. Bradley will always got invited to their home on any occasion, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Birthday Party, or even a Wedding. In their parent's eyes, Bradley is like their second son.

Back then, Bradley and Jake always teased her or pulled some pranks or childish behaviour towards her, she always thought Bradley was just a childish teenager that her brother brought just to annoy her.

But when Bradley and Jake come back to Texas because they got deployed to Fort Worth, (Y/N) didn't see the teenager she always saw whenever he come around. He's comeback as a 35 years old mature and masculine man. Bradley Bradshaw that always have something to annoy her whenever they met, has been gone.

Bradley Bradshaw saw her something that she always crave in a relationship. Something that she never got whenever she was in a relationship. This time, she got feelings that she would truly fall in love this time. With the real man.

Prologue

#top gun maverick #bradley rooster bradshaw #bradley bradshaw fic #bradley bradshaw #bradley bradshaw x female reader #bradley bradshaw x y/n #rooster x f!reader #bradley rooster bradshaw x female reader #rooster x female reader #rooster x y/n #rooster x seresin!sister #jake hangman seresin #jake seresin sister

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